4/27/2018

today like all my others days too much in mind not enough time to write. I had in mind about the time  when Juan Lara and his wife came to visited us while we were working on a field . my father was so excited to see from far away his beloved nephew driving fast on road to get to us.  I think  road is 16457 36 St SE. Now i remember we were all talking when Juan took out a roll of Certs . Yesterday i looked it up because i haven't seen  certs on stores. i read it was  first introduce in 1956 and the saying  "its  two two, two mints in one."  i am also  writing  about these because  this week i was watching Seinfeld about a man with bad breath the Tic Tac came up. now i can go back to beauty school when we were told not to chew gum but to use Tic Tac s.  i will tell you why my father and mother loved Juan so much not only Juan was their nephew but he was like a son for about 4 years my parents  couldn't conceived  so they took Juan with them almost everywhere.                 

4/25/2018

Who is at fault with DACA  called Dreamers ? Who benefited who benefits from illegals ? = USA government? Farmers? U S A Employment offices? USA school employers ? USA motels hotels USA mothers who needed or needs a cheap babysitters?  I can go on and on.  Here are illegal  children now grown and educated of illegal parents saying, "we belong here."       

4/23/2018

 Today 4/23/2018 what repeats? About a week ago I  was somewhere close by a business here in Fargo  outside was  a  red sign  with name Davila. Years ago i saw a business in San Antonio also named Davila. Today I was searching  for it on internet didn't find it but i found this Band from Puerto Rico named Davila 666 listened  to some songs  like "Esa Nena Nunca Regreso"   Today i was at 1616 43 rd NW Forgo i think i also saw  1212 on same street.

4/22/2018

Earth Day Flag Green with E O= Environment Organism 

4/22/2018

Today April 22, 2018 Now i know why the twos kept coming up again and again . Today is Earth Day i had heard about but didn't know much about it until  now through news and  internet i now  know  more. What repeats? Earth Day founded by  Gaylord Nelson on April 22, 1970.

4/19/2018

Tomorrow 4/19/2018 i hope i get to write whats been in my mind for a long time about how this and much more is connected  to me in one way or another. James Garner, Rockford Files Angel  Maverick , Garner State Park . LBJ Franklin D. Roosevelt and more     

4/18/2018

Today 4/18/18 how many USA presidents  are still alive? 1 Jimmy Carter 2George Bush Jr 3George H. W. Bush Sr 4Bill Clinton 5 Barack Obama = 5 + Donald Trump= 6    

4/17/2018

Today April 17, 2018 Good By to Mrs Barbara Bush and condolences to her family. 

I have no idea why with so much in mind to write but no time i had David Koresh on mind?     

4/16/2018

Coffee anybody? Yes i do have stories about coffee all the way to when i was a child here in the Farm  its   been on my mind but haven't had time to write.  Discriminated here in F=M? Yes to that too in a Mexican restaurant by a Angle white waitress who put a socked lemon  on my tea . Other places its been more of  mind games liked when i ordered turkey but  i was given tuna.          

Brotherly loved State had a coffee incident? Because i really don't want problems with the law or anybody else because i know i am going to loss and  i know i am Mex Am with brown  skin color i always  try to think how i am going to be seen if i just walked in sit and not order or explained why i am just sitting inside a restaurant without ordering.   

4/15/2018

rich man who you really wan to be poor i will give you my life you give me your !!

4/15/2018

if i do that lie because of the way i look my color of skin the way i talk 

4?15/2018

Today like always a lot to write but  short on  time. Now back to when sister asked father for a drink this might have been in Junior High not high school because i think we were still living at  the old neighborhood. Now about Barbara always craving daughter is a bit like her. one day  i believed  the nineties both were talking about that Barbara says to daughter well we craved because we never have  daughter  says exactly! Both found  they understood why they craved.

Now about the Billionaire who went to asked for food stamps. i am sure he already had the connection             

4/12/2018

Now back to serious issues like do you Now Trump trying to divert attention to Syria for us to forget about  now older woman Sex Stormy and FBI looking into your dirty big secrets ? Boy, you do have  reasons to cross your hands. This is my opinion about Syria why doesn't the closer surrounding countries don't go help Syria people? Why does it have to be us first why doesn't to name a few Saudi Arabia, Turkey, Iran go in first? Syria doesn't need our help we are too far. If we go in all these small countries will point the finger at us and say this is your fault. You! USA now take us now we are your children. Now  i noticed people from  Middle East and elsewhere can speak well English  and can write. My parents never could and  I am still learning (later i will explain why)  Is this their  strategy to educate people to than make war make them run for the borders?  Maria says to USA         

4/12/2018

Today back to the first day working at the McAllen Mall when someone told Barbara about me just   standing with my hands crossed. Well yeah  it was my first week  I didn't have any experience working with people I was  too shy. God had to break   me a lot before I would get to where i am right now. This is what i noticed about Trump he doesn't know what to say or do his just with his hands crossed. Later why i was so shy and why i had a good reason for being so shy. 

Now something to laugh about: My wonderful goodhearted  father  used to baby us (Barbara and I)  as much as he could. One night  while already in bed sister  told me, "just watched me I am going to ask Dad for a glass of water and he will get up and bring it to me." So sister asked father and father  got up got  her a glass of water.  Freshman year first high school year for sister Barbara.  Sister first  year learned what most white Anglo's had for lunch  was a Ham and cheese .  Now Barbara was always craving somethings to eat so one day she asked father, 'do you know what i feel like eating"?   Sister told father a  Ham and Cheese sandwich.  Now there are days  when daughter and I remembered sister and the Ham and Cheese.  Daughter and I had seen Malcolm X movie but now daughter  bought it.  Every time we watched the part where X is a waiter  in the train and  white man asked X for a Ham and Cheese sandwich  we can't stop laughing.     

4/12/2018

Trump if you are really for Action in Syria Get ready to be blamed for everything else before and  aftermath. Get ready to adopted more refuses soothing you don't like.         

4/10/2018

If government Assad  from Syria is killing his own people with the help of others Trump should study the situation very carefully  before  sending military to Syria. When will there be peace with people who just don't want  to take care of their children.       

4/6/2018

In my long suffering and watching no matter what  i do uneducated or educated  things don't change for the best in desperation sometimes  i  asked God Bless me like you Blessed generations through generations  the white Anglo people who took land from the Natives as Homestead 1862 and others  who brought slaves  free labor  and are well true blessed and they rejoiced and think positive and for them it works. Please forgive me God for my thoughts negativity . 

4/3/2018

Now  i think it was  a Saturday while watching the Les Miserables like most of my time i was in and out of my apartment. i think it was on my way out the first time  coming  back as i am opening the first  front street door the Crows started crowing making their loud noise so i turned  half way around as i am opening the door i said in low voice, now what do you want Birds? The birds were sitting on the front naked tree. i turned back the TV and continued where i had left off. the movie went to where one man says something about Sparrows and butterfly's while they were surrounded by corpses all around them. I  was trying to related the black birds on the tree with what i  seen on movie but only the butterfly's until i watched The Stevens C late night show and Hunger Games actress is talking about the movie The Red Sparrow. 

Now  back to the mental  house we went to in San Antonio . We were given a small piece of paper with some words starting  with the letter F. All of a sudden the speaker asked  us for the paper he never told us what it was for  but while i had it on my hand i started counting all the words that started with the letter F.  I guess because they caught my attention  my last name Fernandez.