7/31/2018

Remembering  my brother and i watching on TV the movie North By Northwest by scary  film  maker  Hitchcock now i know there are 66 counties in South Dakota 

7/26/2018

when i was looking for an example of the lamp i had in TX that brother threw away and I got upset  i saw the word Globe = Earth which has been on my mind for a long while but first i need to finish the lamp story. Globe also has to do with big brother and  a woman  around my age born  September 14 if I am not mistaken and  Pilo Rivera  were in a program and  who used to come hoe beets with us here in the  North.   

7/26/2018

7/26/2018   Today at the Fargo's  Folk Fair I talked with a woman who  paints  Ostrich eggs and sells them. I told her long time ago someone somewhere gave  my mother a big Ostrich  egg my mother cooked it and we ate it. The woman came from  somewhere in Spain but now lives here in Fargo. 

 Fargo- Moorhead is going backwards in the beginning it was downtown Crazy Days  then came   Walmart, West Acres  Target something like that now its back to Downtown. 

7/26/2018

7/26/2018 "about swimming  it's culture. " No its not! It least not for  poor Mexican American its about being poor no swimming no camping no fishing. 

7/26/2018

7/26/2018 Trump should think twice about what he says to Iran i am sure he doesn't want more refugees coming this way for him or  fr the next president because you know how it is USA Hits then wants to go make it better and what about us ?   

7/26/2018

7/26/2018 My Opinion  What ?  "If it was good enough for Jesus?" Nobody is saying breast feeding is wrong! Human race started living by  breast feeding and about Virgin  Mary breast feeding I am sure she and other women  in the Middle  East  were not showing off their nipples in  public or where almost  very closed to nudity in   swimming   pools. What i am saying is cover yourself put a cloth or something so children will continue as much as they can  with their little innocence   and nasty men won't get sexually erect.   Today you can put your breast  milk in a bottle  but i guess if you want people to see your breast than you are going to keep taking out  your breast in public for anyone to see because you want to feel sexy, 

7/25/2018

7/25/2018 I didn't know and still don't know about  the River City Church only what i am hearing  right now on the news but when it  opened in  downtown this church  for some reason caught my attention now i know why. Now did husband pastor Moser  knew he was being taped  while having Sex with his child  molester wife sure he did  it doesn't  take long when you live together even when just dating  to know how your other half  Thinks. Now see  one  of many ways  the Devil  gets to us if we allowed it and its  scary. Now back to Potbelly antique Yellow or Amber   handing light   lamp. After looking for the lamp  and couldn't find it i asked my brother if he knew what had happened to it he said he threw it away because he cut himself when he was holing it. i k   

7/24/2018

7/24/2018 Yesterday someone close to me asked me why i always speak  of  the  past i could have answered because everything in the present relates to my past. i don't know what year it was it might have been 2005 that outside my parents home i had a yellow glass hanging lamp looked a lot like the one i see at Potbelly sandwich shop at 4445 17th avenue south. one day i couldn't  find it it was because my big brother had thrown it away     later more on this and the Mango in

7/21/2018

7/21/2018 Now when i used back when Command sent me to work with the other Holiday with Mary doing laundry Mary would give us a paid lunch if our two breaks were not taken . 

7/19/2018

Now daughter was telling me about the song " have you seen her " she thought it was sad i told her Alone Again Nationally" was even more sadder. for months i was thinking the time Sylvia Teran had lose her father. My father and her father were friends Mr Teran went first so  father went to visited his family when  Mr. Teran  died. One day at school the song was playing  Sylvia said she liked the song  by then i still had my father but i liked it too. now months ago i was thinking the day two big brothers were talking about the what happen to the Saddle that uncles had at Chambers street later we went out to Texas Roadhouse.   

7/19/2018

Now today was a hard day like most of my days Heartland Labor sent me to work at the Holiday Inn at 3803 13 avenue south Fargo, North i go because I have to work like everyone else but there's men  men and women employers who are really to be on my back for any little thing i say or do and they used the other people who are employed  there through the company. i am giving no brakes at 12:00 am food is brought in for employees but not for me. if i take 30 off for lunch a white Anglo man is ready to take it off but first an African woman who i don't understand because her English is worst than mine is telling me i have to keep working until 1:00 pm i say to her no way there will be no fresh  food felt  over. Now when i work i work i don't graded my feet I am not on my phone ot have phone on attached to my ear and i don't chew gum and i don't wash my feet on the motel sinks and i don't take time off to pray i pray in my mind since God is so powerful He can hear my thoughts. well today because of what i told this woman 30 minutes were taken off. The white Anglo short  man who like many hates me came over  to a room i was working asked me how things were going i told him they were going. i knew since morning when he and the other female employer were talking about me but not to me they were going to give me trouble but what can i do just complained to God. I think i wrestle with God even though i never win more than Jacob ever did because i have more to complained than he had.  Like I  said before refugees have it much better than i will ever have it here in this poor USA. now Heartland gave me a card for tomorrow but if tomorrow comes i am just not  going down to eat this Anglo man and the rest can have it call where it can fit in i don't want to get sick because now i am thinking he or someone else might put something on the food and make my stomach sick. this is just one short story i have many as for how unfair i am treated everywhere i go.                              

7/16/2018

Today 7/16/2018

This is what i think about Charles Manson he make nobody do Jake what these women did they did it because they wanted to do it. They liked the wild life sex drugs even if they had good fathers they wanted to have fun  and if they came from neglected parents for more reasons they wanted to belong  in some of cult but nobody makes   someone else unless 

7/13/2018

 Today 7/13/2018  Now more on this wanna be German PaPa Johns but for me looks more like a Mexican border patrol would get confused too.  He is 56 years old. He doesn't like the color God gave to African Americans! ?  

7/13/2018

Today 7/13/2018 now who is Papa Johns? I had he was a Mexican like me he looks so dark skin short square body  with a cactus on his forehead!!  to me he can pass as a real Mexican from Mexico i really thought he was Mexican like many Mexicans trying hared to look good with the white Angles! i read a bit about him he says his German now funny thing i been thinking about when the second time I was asked  to go to the  VA Hospital in San Antonio  with Carl Mc and his  second new wife who was German but she really looked German not like Pa Pa Johns! Now Carl 's father also named John are  half Mexican but  John and Carl to me are way more light skin than John H. Schnatter born 11- 22- 1961 which 2 is a number i saw just yesterday that repeats here in Moorhead  street on  222 16 South. and i think it was yesterday on my remolding  McDonald ticket number was 222. i still have ticket will look it up to make sure what day it was.            

7/13/2018

Today  7/13/2018 i watched the sad ending of a little girl named Sandra Cantu and yes the late name Cantu repeats but for now i will write as much as i can about why  i know  Trailer  Park white woman name Melissa kidnapped  raped  killed this little  sinless beautiful  girl named Sandra Cantu on March 29, 2009  . Melissa Huckaby occurring to people around her was a good  christian church teacher a good Gentle mother even a good neighbor who Mexicans Americans i could say loved her and trusted her with their children.  this woman was jealous hated this little girl because she was Mexican and beautiful had a family who loved her. This woman went inside God's house to be loved by the people looked up by people  but had the Devil inside her deep inside her anyone can see it in her eyes if you just look close enough. in this world we have a lot of people who go inside their  church but have the Devil inside their souls minds and hearts. Now i read information on a blog that used the word Chew. I came into the library chewing a gum. the Devil Melissa thought she could get away and was going to repeat her devil act because she is white. God make her what I called  Anglo White the little girl was  Mexican white God made her that way . This white Devil used a Rolling Pin she found at church to rape the little girl how much hateful can you get!?  Rolling Pin what do Mexicans use to make  homemade tortillas?  Melissa  worry now shroud be will she be meeting her friend the Devil or will she repent?      

7/12/2018

Today 7/12/2018 A lot to write but for now i will  write my opinion on  these two stories.  Now there are a lot of  women who do get raped some report their rapers some don't but also there are women like Victoria Richman who want to get a  man no matter what and  they also want the attention and sympathy of others so they try heard to get themselves in a situation to look as if they are the victims instated of running  away they go looking for action poor men who believes they are just going to get sex. In Spanish there is a saying "what man if given  or is offered free  bread doesn't go for it" if a woman just by  talking pretending  to be a child taking like a little girl when shes a full grown woman  whose been around  and is hot in the  pussy shes going to sent out  pictures of her breast?  Now after going by his apartment asking why are you naked  now  William C telling her go away she wants to get in his apartment  when shes not welcome.  William Carter should have done what the first William did just stay away from  her but he didn't. Now about the other full grown bleach blond woman  from TX Darlie Routier who  also wants to talk like a child to me   she did killed her two boys i don't know but was there in  insurance?           

7/8/2018

Today 7/9/2018 Saturday morning i went by the Unica Mexican store a woman walks  in and says " Huele Rico" ="Smells Rich." Later  i read for the first time   Wikipedia on Folgers  rich is one of the many words I see here are   others . Crystals Olson Howard 101  James Abigail and i do remember who ran inside the house  with the Folgers can. Now trash would be burned or buried don't renumber but for a while it was set somewhere in the small forest closed to the outside  wood bathrooms and there is where I remember seeing a Folgers can.      

7/7/2018

7/7/2018 Other things i had in mind for a long time that repeat  about the time sister Barbara was learning how to make jell-o  then i hear a politician saying the word  Jell-o. Barbara never make that jell -o she just couldn't understand how hot water and cold water would make the delicious  cold Jell-o  dessert. I guess she forgot  it still had to set inside the  refrigerator. Jiffy popcorn was another Barbara told father she wanted to try father brought her Jiffy popcorn Barbara burner was on high  jiffy popcorn got burned then Barbara tired to save it by taking off the foil which make the popcorn pop all other the kitchen now i couldn't help her she is older than me. These stories make me laughed.   

7/7/2018

7/7/2018 Growing up fresh  homemade tortillas beacon and eggs and the aroma of Folgers coffee would wake me up. now as i looked into the Folgers story that takes me to the Charles Manson murders I see a lot of repeats. I still need  to write about my childhood days and how a  Folgers can full of dirt somehow got inside the farmers tidy  home and on her shaggy carpet.  I believed was an off white color maybe ivory or beige don't remember was too young to know.      

7/7/2018

7/7/2018   Now because I don't write doesn't mean  i have no material to write i have lots if material i just don't have the time now the Fargo library is not  open on Sundays  . Now about coffee growing up Folgers coffee was always in my house but for me only old people drank  coffee never did i thought coffee was and would be a bigger deal because even people i knew around my age  didn't drink coffee  


 Did i hear the word Stutter? Stuttering is a word for the longest i had in mind Hector Juarez and others i know stutter. later more on these people who stutter.   

7/7/2018

 7/7/2018 This morning as I watched and walked around   Farmers Market  at West Acres Mall on  13 Avenue south  and 42 Street bitter sweet thoughts came to me about my fathers Garden's the time he tried to sell what he had carefully  with love  had planted and what an ignored  Mexican man back home   told  him  why he wouldn't  buy my fathers harvest. The man told my father that he would only buy from the store because the foods there were chemically sprayed and his wasn't. My  Father was so sad  when he told me and at that  time I didn't  know how to consulted him  I was just   in  junior high didn't know what i know now about organics foods.  This morning like other Saturdays at farmers market colorful vegetates and even homemade jams and barbecue sauces  looked very good to me and I hear food stamps  are welcome on most foods.        

7/3/2018

July 3, 2018 it could have been May 2018 or June 2018 but i was bored and I know almost everywhere i go most of  what I see somehow  in some way repeats . I went through movies that don't belong to me I  picked " The Other Man." This movie maybe I had seen  before but don't remembered not sure anyway here in Moorhead, MN  library since January 2018 some people come in to play  Chess on Tuesdays other things also repeat.    

7/2/2018

Today July 2, 2018 I heard a woman who meant well but i did not believed  the words Free Will that we have Free Will but I really don't think I have Free Will because I prayed for a better life and less suffering less loneliness. What I mean my life is not this way because I make it happened  it was just given to me like or not this is the way it is.