7/11/2017

July 11, 2019 I been thinking about  in the early 70s or 80s not quite sure Petra Rodriguez told me she had gone to visited relatives or just someone she knew at the Mexico Chico and this is more or less  what I remembered she telling me. She saw a baby who was very sick that she told them several times.  "If you don't take this baby to a doctor the child will die."  Later or that same day  she told me the baby had died.    Many babies  children  and adults not from Mexico not from any part of  South America but born here in the USA that  some  say is a rich country  have died   and are still dying  because they have No Money  I say No Money  to go see a doctor!  I remembered my parents and heard of others using  home remedies to try to cure  health problem. One day when I was working at the Elementary a teacher gave me copies of home remedies I even  remembered a Latino priest   mentioned remedies at  a Sunday sermon and made  older  ladies  laughed.

I really feel for the mother of the 21 month  toddler but where is the father? Watching the pictures it looks to me she had it good in Guatemala why risk it with a child?  Now I remembered back when men would come looking  for work not the women and their children and why is the USA responsible for health care food  and shelter  for  people from other countries when in the first place has not  and is not taking care of its own poor people? I don't have to close my eyes and imagine how hard it is to work  walk for miles and still be hungry  and don't pay my bills I  lived it and so have others.  Just days ago someone told me it won't be long when people at the border will want to sue the USA people to pay them money because they don't have good housing good food good health care  while they wait in line. Now there will be more and more lawsuits  because many do come sick and who is going to pay these American lawyers that are taking this lawsuits because its all about money. 

July 17, 2019 Questions for the migrants at the border who want to apply for Asylum . How did this children who say they came alone  got to the border by themselves? How did they get this far? Why are so many women  with  small children  some even pregnant and  no man!? Surely these women were  having sex and getting pregnant?  Here in the USA a mother who wants Welfare is asked who is the father so they can go after the father to pay up the child support . These women come with dreams and  children but no men why!?  Do they want the good old USA people to raised their children and be responsible for their lives while the men in their lives just get the fun!?  The well kept mother who lose her child never mentioned the father   

July 12, 2019 My mother told me of a time at a field she had to drink dirty water so dirty she used a cloth to filter the  water that  was used to irrigated through a ditch or canal. Now Rush Limbaugh is a bad person and ignorant by saying drinking water from a toilet is better water than where the people at the border been drinking. If  he pays attention not all people come poor. The  woman who lose her child is not poor I can tell by her  very nice manicure long finger nails  her beautiful long hair her proper court  clothing.   I know there are very poor women around Dilley, TX   that have rough hands short nails because they used them to feed the  farm animals and work the land . people from other countries can always visited their homes and  even start a business come and go as they please.

Why would anyone even if they have it good in their country  would still  come to the USA? There are many reasons. Here if you get sick or don't want to work  you can always  get food stamps  go under Section 8  go to a school have a chance to get ahead.
Dilley, TX where my father and brothers used to go  buy  watermelons to resell.

Now computer is giving me red lines but I am not selling you a book so I can't pay attention to mistakes I have too much to write.  Now I heard that Texans  people especially Chicano's have a lot of  pride. An older woman  in Colorado told me that we do have too much pride. Now Most men will work very hard to have what they  can have and don't like to think they are poor or asked for government assistants .


 July 13, 2019 Other things I am relate to

Why I am for marijuana even if I don't smoke it. One summer day in the 70s  we were on the road  going north or  going south  I can't remembered but we were tired and sweaty we stopped July 20, 2019 at what might have been a Sonic restaurant in Oklahoma City or  Kansas City, Kansas a  group of  white young  people   were parked on our left side and it started smelling like Dope so they started looking at us and we started looking at them. Now my brother wasn't   educated but he was  street wise  and started thinking and told Dad.  "We better  leave because if  a police officer comes he will arrested all of us he will think  its us and blame us for them getting high. Now I don't remembered if we ordered and got our food or if we  just drove away. Now I believe that people who have been in prison for a long time and been put in solitary confinement for long times some have P T S D  and should be given in  as in option to use medical marijuana because many are also dealing with child abused even extreme poverty living conditions can mess up your mind.  If by using a certain amount to ease the pain and released the bad memories. I hear its also good for arthritis. Now it wouldn't have worked for me before i knew it was from God because  repetition were  actual events going on it wasn't on my mind they were not memories. Many people brown and black  have been  sent to prison for using or selling marijuana and their lives have been  shaken.  If the government wants to benefit by  them selling and  taxing it  to the people than let it be.  

A toothpaste tube and a toothbrush inside a small fabric bag.  July 16, 2019 
Children traumatized.

July 15, 2019 This is something that happens to me all the time.  Yesterday I had a lot in mind what I wanted to write and  I was going to use one of the words I  learned in spelling class with Taylor but it was Sunday libraries were closed.  The word was nevertheless then today I heard Trump beat me to the punch.
Now the word Asylum is also new to me before I came here I never  paid attention  to what it meant now I know it and many others know it too.


July 16. 2019  When I was outside the Fargo's Federal building with my signs a white woman came up to me asked me if i was an Alien with my innocent thoughts I didn't know what to say because I am from this earth.  Later on I thought who is she to asked me such question I am much more American than her. Now this question wasn't bad  others would tell me. Bitch go back where you came from. I thought to myself. "  No I am staying here  where I come from  in south  TX its too hot and its too poor at least here I get to see how the rich people live.  Who was left behind in TX many are still behind and this are born USA people and don't tell me I had my chance  because my family never got anything free no chances  were given to many of us !  Why I get upset that nobody in Washington cares about the poor people living  here in southwest TX where I grew up.  Now I remembered when big brother said, "it was good that we didn't built a bigger house  with many rooms we would have  not been able to keep up with the Taxes."  Now our house was very small with the 6 of us thank goodness the older sisters married young but some of us had to sleep in the floor but we were much better than others many people had to rent old houses  that looked more like chicken shack with dirt floor.  Now I never thought about how others lived until  one day we were in Austin  i think it was cousin Carolina or Irene that started a conversation about a white man who had to do with the city council or something like that went to their home and he was in shock that it was a large family and asked, "where do you all sleep?" She told him we all are siblings so we all sleep close to each other and in the floor.

Why do you think in the 70s a lot of people were selling drugs because they like it ? Hell No !


July 18, 2019 What was I doing on July 20,1969 ? Hiding away from the TV news landing on the moon. What  are some of the things that repeats? Apollo 11  and Module.

July 20, 2019  Now I know it might burn to the skin but Yes definitely we need a priest to go sprinkle Holy Water on Trump  and Omar they both need cleansing. The Evangelicals did the touching praying to Trump but it didn't work because they all think the same way. Now Trump might be thinking he is talking to a woman when he talks to Omar but he is not. Muslin women  here in the USA are the mirror of their  Muslim men this is why she was quick to answered him  back using his own words. Now I heard young Muslims women using the F word very freely as off nothing and acting with strong behavior  that would not be allowed in their birth countries  and even here inside their men home  but is practiced with others.    

July 20, 2019 Now what does Iran wants?Why  play with us and others why is it provoking  us to tension? Simple they want war but they want us or the British  to start the war so they can say we are at fault. This is their strategy


July 22, 2019 Ricardo Rossello I am not asking you I am telling you get out!! You are no longer governor of  Puerto Rico!!   July 24, 2019  Yeah right! You think saying "Drain the Swamp" will help you   like it does  for  Trump but it doesn't. You Ricardo  got a lot to learn Trump is doing mostly for his white rich people you were supposed to have been helping your poor people but you weren't doing that you were only doing for yourself. Now what evidence  are you destroying before you leave the office!?

Next why I say there are more lazy people now then ever before and  gays and lesbians in the military why Trump should keep his mouth shut  about this.     Later a man in Crystal City  nickname  Peanut and Monica Lewinsky




July 24, 2019 Other things I can relate to Hammocks at Fargo's  Island Park. Other words that repeat Doll = Muneca. and yes sometimes what i write makes me laugh but they are true stories

July 27, 2019 If you the people have Free Will that is very good for you because you can determine your present and your  future even if you couldn't determine your pass. Now  for me  every day and night is about repeat. I straggle alone  to understand many things like why is it that I get much more hammered  by God and left alone. Last night was one of those nights i was thinking why is it that me being single mother poor and  brown Mexican never get a break. I read a bit of Job to make sure what i was thinking was right. now Job was faithful to God but had a very good reason he was super rich!! His son's got turns on  starting a party  and even their sisters were invited to the parties and all other people came and eat drink and be  merry. So when Satan told God Job is faithful  because you give him but just take away. Job kept his faith and didn't sin when he blamed God for his  suffering and after that God gave him more of everything back to him but what about when there is only  poverty after poverty and suffering after suffering and problems keep coming and coming. Now  nobody is gong to tell me its because of  my sins my great parents and parents put together sins that's why  now I am surrounded  by problems keep knocking on my door telling  me everything I say will be used against me  in any Way Shape or Form but i guess i am not Job i wasn't chosen by God and  anointed with  oil.  Now nobody can tell me my ancestors sinned more than white  Trump and  his ancestors  and many other white people who have it very good  generations to generations even when they sinned  more by killing taking away land cheating and lying and having slaves to work on their stolen fields and controlling to get more. Why does the Bible says its easier for a camel to get through a needle than a rich man? Have you seen Trump in an old  video where many women are chanting  Donald Donald and his going crazy thinking and saying how many of these pussy's am I having  for SEX.  Now we know sex = pregnancies how many unwanted children were killed?  It is harder for rich men to get to heaven because they can get hold of their temptations pleasures used people send people to kill others. Lie doing all sorts of sins and get away with it.  Now what repeats? This morning someone knocks   I asked who is it they said neighbor so i opened thinking it was an apartment neighbor but no it was Jehovah witness the ones i wrote I learned a lot yes i did stories of the old testimony. Now last night I got very little sleep doing things I had to do and worrying too which is the only thing I can do for free but if i don't worry i can't figure out if there is something i can do to fix things up. Two women one black one white at the door wanted to talk a bit asked me how I was I said not too good. The Good News was about  who do you think here on earth is in control and guess what scripture they used? Job which then we got into a  discussion because I hear its the evil but if you read into it God has the final word and  the evil only does what God permits this and other things we did not agreed on. Now I asked them why is it that brown and black people  get hammered  the most. They didn't answered the question but said i would die for her than the white woman said the same i wasn't quick to answered but this is not true at all if they want to go that way. In that religion you can not accept  blood transfusion body organs and join the military  so both women were lying but they left me the news of the day was   1 John 3:8,   Revelation 12:12 and 1John 2:17.  Now in writing this I am not Atheist  I know there is a God and i do fear Him but I have a heard time understanding why dark people suffer  the most and why everything around me repeats and I have to do it alone and what is the purpose if I am  just  making more enemies.   I know the last shall be first and the first shall be last and  yet he didn't mean that all who are poor here will  have it  first rich  in heaven.  Now weeks ago I been watching the movie Analyze This and  just right now I know about Robert Mueller nickname by watching Stephen Colbert reruns on you tube. Now the movie is funny  but if I didn't live here  i wouldn't get  some of the jokes said like who is Barnes and Noble.  

July 27, 2019 a 12 oz bottle of coke and 1 oz of peanuts  what was school lunch for many Mexicans i saw eating at the old Crystal City  high school. many reasons why I didn't like school.  Lunch time was very bad for me. Now when we started having free lunch many of us didn't eat at school we were used to walking home opening a  can of corn  or  eat whatever was there to eat. Third cousin Dora  Rodriguez Morillo   would asked me to walk with  her to her home her grandfather and my father were first cousins.  Third cousin was very pretty but did weird things like one day while we were walking up the stairs  at the junior high she bite my ear and thought it was funny and there were other things she liked to do I will not mentioned .  July 29, 2019 Dora and I had a lot of laughs growing up many things in life she was way more  advanced than I. Every family was different some had more some had less depending how they did they're  living and how many children  and how many  adults worked. At  Cousin   Dora's house there was always food her  grandmother was an excellent cook. and they had a phone.  At that time not everybody had a phone  I remembered Diana Palacios going over to used their phone. When my father got sick we didn't have a phone we asked a neighbor after his hospital  released we called Bell

July 30, 2019 when we moved to Colorado I met Sylvia Davila cousins but I had met other cousins in the West. I don't remembered her cousins  names but one of them gave me 2 or 3 Oral Roberts books that I loved to read. Oral said that God uses us as His instruments.

Now back to Acosta if am right cousin Olivia married an Acosta  and had one daughter I only seen their twice at her grandmother's  home  my aunt  and at a  family funeral home.  Last night someone reminded me niece Rachel Noemi Salinas also married in Acosta.
 Growing up when we used to migrant at schools we used to sing "Its a small world after all" Now I never been to Germany but Sandra has. One day she told me  she was  at the airport can't remembered which one  in San Antonio or in Germany when  she saw Juanita  Rodriguez sister to El Mirror =Espejo who worked with us at the farm.  What I understood  they were looking at each other from one end to the other when they started getting closer both didn't know husbands were in the service or coincidence both were there but one of them was leaving  the other had just gotten off the airplane.

August 1, 2019 Now with this story I can go many ways but  for now this is how it repeats. Sandra 2 husband name is Alberto. Alberto first wife name is Kimberly. Raul only half brother name is Ruben Sendejo. During the time we were in Colorado   Ruben impregnated a very nice good girl named Kimberly. Way later in time  one day in town  I saw them walking together  both greeted me. They might have gotten married this is what Kimberly wanted when she went over to Erlinda home to speak to her about her son's word that he would married her but I don't know what happened next.  Now Juanita is not no longer married to her husband but once she was Juanita Rodriguez Rodriguez. Mario Rodriguez now is married to a white woman with red hair. They were   both in the military don't know if they are still serving. This I know because Oralia Rodriquez Mario's mother showed me a picture of Mario's 2 wife and I think she was holding a baby not sure.

Now this is  kind of funny one day I was with Sandra going inside her mobile  home when I saw her husband military picture and i had to tell  her he looks like Hitler. Now  when the white supremacist stayed at Albert's motel they left a lot of pictures of themselves behind. One picture of one man looked a lot of someone very close to me. Hitler wanted only white German  people how little did he know  there are many other Races that can pass for Germans. Now i heard there is a Nuremberg judge who is 99 years the only one  alive  to tell              

August 1, 2019 If I remember right back home today is one of my neighbors  birthday if she is still with us.    

July 31, 2019 Eminent Domain what I called Urban Renewal because as  child its  the word i heard when we were forced out from our home at West Chambers st .we lived the way we could and that was fine with us . Quality costs money something we didn't have and was very hard to get     because most people had to really work hard for their money. reasons  i believed we were moved out    many moved to housing  authority where you had to pay rent  more light to pay  and get extremely poor.

August 2, 2019  I  Hate Ranting!!!You never know who you are going to live with . You  can get lucked out of your own apartment. You  hear all kinds of  noises because walls are too thin. The home you are paying for will never be yours to keep and you can't have visitors staying more than two weeks.      

August  2, 2019 Today i heard a man talking on the phone to a so called  Christian radio talk show trying to sound like a Christian but his mouth was repeating  what I write and giving me in directs about  what he knows about me but not man enough to say who his talking about. He was talking about sin than he uses words like hammering speeding ticket. I have a speeding ticket got it trying  to get to an interview but got lost. Hammering is  the word i used to described how i feel when He pours it on me. Now this man for sure has it good  lives a very good life knows nothing about other people suffering and cares less to know. When Christ was asked why is this man blind  it it because the sins of the fathers He didn't even bothered to answered He just said lets heal this man. Many  many of us don't suffer because of sin.  some with bigger  sins don't know the meaning of suffering for they lived a rich content life no worries of any  hungers 


August 2, 2019 One of the movies i bought last year was Casablanca and just this past week i started watching it then I heard Saoirse Kennedey Hills dies at age 22 but i knew this number would repeat i just knew. Now growing  up  only or most of the time I was  remembered when I was needed. Barbara would asked me to go with her to her friends houses which  before she knew how to drive that  meant walking. We used to walked to the Avila's home not too far  from our house.  This was when we were  already living at  W Crockett St.  We used to walked to town asked another friend along the way who lived near by but sometimes we would be in and out of the Avila's home and the older Avila's would be watching  Casablanca or the Chinese Detective movies with the father and the son telling everybody not to leave the room then all lights were off than on  and a person was died or missing. so i never really knew what the movie  was about      

August 3, 2019 Today I learned Psalm 22 with book  Roman Missal.  


 August 3, 2019 The world we lived  poor men should not reproduced  later why I say this. Life is too expansive  even when you die it is a burden and yet  I am  so glad I am here I am so  glad I had a father I am so  glad I have my children and I am so glad to see my future  in the eyes of my joyful  precious grandchildren.    

August 3, 2019 The Syndrome by Doctors  "I Forgot My Baby In The Back Seat," is Nothing But Bull Shit !!


August 3, 2019 Here in the USA we have a lot of children living inside home prisons for some if  they survive their childhood  is to escape and  run away. This is day and night child abused.


 August 3, 2019 Now I  have said many of you blow my mind by repeating doing what others tell you to repeats but there are a few of you who are just you and for me these people are fresh air and mind cleansing.


August 5, 2019 NO! Trump!! This Is Not  A Mental Sickness!! This is Pure Hate Evil  made them Very Happy Laughing Smiling  because they hate  brown people!!  TX was  Mexico!! You will see  many many brown people we been here all the time!! Where do we first learned how to walk? Home Sweet Home.  This had  nothing to do because they were rich poor  or ugly.

August 5, 2019 I am here to please God by trying to be like His son  Jesus Christ who died for my sins. Muslims and Jews need to get in the ball >

August 12, 2019 Not so fast who think  Epstein took the easy way out. Suicide is not the end but the beginning.  Who are these now  grown women?where were the mothers  fathers stepparents grandparents  of these 14 teen girls how did these girls got to know older  billionaire man named  Epstein?

August 12, 2019 now the movie Casa Blanca is a Romantic Comedy Drama movie but never before had I payed attention to and it repeats    symbol at Sanford hospital  = ring.  The word drunkard I got more but no time .


The movie US also repeats. this past  week we saw the movie but before August 15, 2019 OK so you might be thing Jeremiah 11.11  repeats and that's that but on this like many others I wrote you just have to believe me or not believe before now i had only seen the previews to the movie  until  my daughter check out the movie but before i had been thinking about at one time in his life  Crystal City paramedic  Mr  Fred Mendoza. one time I don't remembered the year my children were still small TV was on we were watching Unsolved Mysteries  and I cut my ring  finger with my shears.

August 15, 2019 does Omar want more attention? Why does she has to go to Israel ?  I am asking because she doesn't like them only has spoken bad about them why want to go there is it something that's going to help Minnesota?   In spending this money on this trip is it going to better things here in Minnesota? What is the purpose  of she making this expanse trip? this is just a way to get back in the news for more attention on herself ? we all know Muslims and Jews don't get along with each other they are always fighting for a land that it don't matter because its not going to save  them from hell

August 17, 2019 In the first place who pays for congress people  personal trips ? Don't congress people have enough problems  to solved here in the USA? Why is Michigan Muslims congress  woman crying over not going to see her grandmother when she can go only  if she doesn't make it political? The crying has to go doesn't she know it doesn't  work for older even young  color women only for white young and old women?  If I were her and I really wanted to go see my grandmother and trip  and expanses were  payed by the people of Michigan I would eat my pride and go for it. Now this woman is going where women have very little rights if any so  what is the gain ? That Palestinians and Jews don't get along there is a big chance  they might  never will because they both refused to believe in  the Prince of Peace Jesus Christ. Both believe in the Eye for in Eye  and a tooth for a tooth  but when these people come to the USA  both Muslims and Jews seen to  get  along  with each other. Can we blame it on the Christians?

This Idiot of Steve  King also has to  go! King!! Being raped is not fun it all!!  You say your mother might have been  raped this is why you are here. If  she never compliant is because  she wasn't raped it was  because she liked it.





 August 20, 2019 Yesterday two years  ago  in Fargo, ND beautiful Savanna Greywind was murdered and her baby ripped out of her stomach  both were  kidnapped. Mother was put  in  the Red River to die  baby girl  was kept for two weeks by two evil  hateful jealous persons  named Brooke Crews and her helpful sex partner who is the reason she did it for William Hoehn who should have gotten the same sentence  as Brooke life without parole.  Both were raciest and each hated her for different reasons. killer older man William had his eyes on Savanna  since he was dating her kin and Brooke knew it and most likely during  sex told Brooke about his sex  fantasies. Brooke not young and not attractive went madly racist insane.  Now before I go on  run out of time both knew they could get away with it because they were both white. No police were going to go pointing guns  at their faces at  their apartment. No way Jose. Now back to them many men really think they are younger and  handsome than they really are and William thinks that way but deep inside he knew she saw him as an older man with his older girlfriend she was too   innocent to see who they  really were.  William was there at their  apartment all the time  but Brooke  lied for him.

August 21, 2019    what repeats 400 hundred years of slavery are still with us. Movies like  The Book Of Negroes   400,000 attendant Woodstock in August 15, 1969.   1913 Jefferson bus line 100 years  if parents were alive that would be their age.


August 26, 2019 A lot is   repeating.   today like other days been asking for a miracle .  today and some time ago  i went by Sanford hospital on Broadway read a bit on its history  i read but didn't  have time to  wrote about  it until today. In 1987 11 year old Alvaro Garza  

For  months i had in mind Motociclos = Motorcycles movie easy rider  then i hear peter Fonda dies.  Mall Of America the number 11 the number 77  This past weekend 4 others and I went to the Mall of America  .sorry no time.


August 28, 2019   Now lets talk about being  happy worried fearful and about comparing about what some have and some don't have or had but lost. My father used to say anything is good in good moderating.  Now some people have it much better than others since the day they are born. Some even when are in the womb still in the oven are not wanted so to say to others be happy don't worry is to hate the ones who are suffering. nobody should say to someone who is hungry  who don't have a place to sleep who don't know how they will pay the monthly  rent and many others hardships  ( no not in another country here in the USA) not to worry  unless they are going to play God and help them out in some way because the God loves you doesn't  work  the don't worry doesn't work and the don't compare yes  many times you do need to compare. why I know the black movement started because they started  comparing this is why. Fear kept me from trying drugs. Fear kept me from having more children without a commitment.



September 5, 2019  other things i will write about.  In the 90s someone else Roosters crowing in my back yard. People who think they been  cursed put a  a spell on them and how they get   revenge.       

7/1/2019

Today July 1, 2019  and every other day is all about repeat today I went by Advanced  Auto Body & Glass at 2220 Main Avenue E West Fargo ND.  Last night i saw the movie Loving Vincent remembered