September 6, 2019 Mexico Hundureds and other counties leaders need to start caring for their poor people!
September 7, 2019 I can go back to any part of my writing where i left off and start again only if i had the time . Now Omarosa when she said all who hate Trump will bow down to him that I didn't like not that I hate Trump because I hate nobody even when they do me wrong but I only bow down to God and this is where she learned how to say those words in His book. Now she mentions The Spook Who Sat By The Door. now i asked why banned? Along the way I might have seen this movie on TV but never payed attention until now
September 10, 2019 I heard this true story many times before from many other places, let the rich people come in by air planes and we will give them more and let the poor needy people stay behind in the Bahamas.
Now who is running for president that cares about this poor Chicana? Nobody. I hear a lot of caring for the poor and rich illegal immigrants and other things but none talk about people who struggle here.
September 11, 2019 Why Trump why invite the Taliban for a peace talk on the week of 911? When all they think of is killing they have no peace but I guess there is still hope.
September 12. 2019 I can write all day how things around me repeat but i get bored so to clear my mind i go to the news which some repeat but why Jorge Ramos as Democrat moderator? Silly question there are no other choice.
September 17, 2019 Trump should not even go there let the Middle East people deal with Iran. Iran is just looking for ways to start a fight with the USA than they blame us they love to fight because they know the USA will feel sorry and pick up the tab. Now what repeats everyday i have some of those like the Odessa TX Bush Malissa who i met at people ready .
September 19, 2019 I didn't know who was Cokie Roberts to me she was just a familiar face on TV news but I always wondered is that her real name? Cokie had a wonderful life both parents were in the house of representatives. She was a journalist good marriage good family so much different than my life and still i knew that if I looked her up I would find more things that would repeat besides Roberts and her death in September and i did. Her real name was Mary Martha. Days before the number 17 kept coming up. Rebecca I just met another one this past Tuesday.. She had a sister named Barbara so do I. She will be miss.
September 21, 2019 weeks before i heard on N PR or MP R about how now more males are joining ballet several times i had watched the movie Billy Elliot about am 11 year old boy son of a coal mine worker who start dancing . I do have a short story about me dancing inside a grocery store then my niece Grace walking on her toes one summer she came with us to North Dakota.
September 21, 2019 The homeless in America I can also write about that. One day in the late 80s or early 90s outside on the yard neighbor Gilberto Garcia told my brother he went to visit his brother in California and he saw a lot of homeless people living under a bridge. Both men joked and laughed about them not living in California because it was harder for poor people.
September 27, 2019 Years ago when I first saw the picture of migrant Florence Leona Thompson it stayed in my mind. Now with the internet I know a bit more about her . She was a white widow woman 32 years old with children when her face became the look of poverty during the great depression. She had 11 children liked music born September 1, 1903 died September 16, 1983
September 27, 2019 Now about Joel Osteen being blessed forget about the parking spot at the mall he was blessed since the day he was born because he was born white. Osteen will never have a problem with the law or finding a good paying job even if he wasn't educated or a preacher anything he would say or do would become gold he didn't even had to try hard. Houston city needs to remember if there is another disaster you need to go knock at his big solid doors to see if he opens because Osteen needs to be told poor people need his help or else he won't bothered.
Now about the female white officer who thought she was in her apartment and killed a black man one day that happened to me while I threw the trash out in San Marcos but let me tell you fast my brain worked I knew I was in the wrong apartment because of the furniture and because of the one or two white young men who were inside the apartment. This was in the first years of people and other things i noticed were repeating with everything that had to do with me. During those years I wasn't getting enough sleep my mind was a mess and still i knew what was going on so I don't believe the woman made a mistake there is no way she would have gotten confused.
I think it was in school when all of the sudden a man walked in. We were asked what he was wearing what would we remembered about him. This kind of test I know officers are given to remember their surroundings.
October 1, 2019 Street I drive by quite often and house numbers that repeat are 12 Ave south and 10th Street south in Fargo are 1111. October 1, 2019 On radio i was listening to Gloria Steibnem born in Ohio and i thought good for her and the rest of white women I wish i could be paid and be treat at least like one of them but i am not because i am not white no matter if i am i don't want to burn my bra or kill my babies
October 3, 2019 I am very much afraid of people with guns. We never had guns inside our home or on cars. I am also afraid of people with certain kind of dogs that when i see them I just walk the other way i know many people used both to intimidated others .Some people with guns can used them say it was self defense say they fear for their life. Ten years passable out in 5 or 2 is not enough. I know about forgiveness this is how i have survived this long. I know there is God but I know browns and blacks have been sent to prison for many more years and are libel for lesser crimes than taking a life. What repeats Amber and Dallas and if I haven't mentioned Amber later on I will.
October 5, 2019 this black man family who was killed by Amber in Dallas did they just got here from another country and still don't get it!? After the I want a hug can I please have a hug with the bleach blonde killer . You know what was missing bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolate candies. where she's going for a short time there are many Bibles many good books to read anything on opening the legs and you touch me I tough you only touching the good book if she really wants to .
Before this was on TV I had been reading the book In Contempt Christopher Darden and this is what i can say about what he wrote about how the black people acted and why they acted that way Christopher said he didn't like or didn't agreed
October 5, 2019 did I missed something on the Raw Video in Johnson county white trooper screaming at a black man in a car then shooting him three times on April 4, ? Maybe the black man was showing the officer he had a gun only that because if the black man wanted to shoot the officer wouldn't the black man gotten off the car on his left side and done just that ? I can't really hear or see what the black man is saying only that the officer is saying don't do it! Don't do it! Do what? This is why i am so afraid being stopped by a police officer because they might panic and don't like me and might shot me this can also happened within my own Race officers that is.
October 9, 2019 growing up 70% money was our problem i could say raising my children almost alone was the same. For me money can also move mountains all you need to do is buy a bulldozer and learn how to use it . I know there is the other kind of moving a Mountain through faith on Mathew 17:20.
Here in Fargo on south University Drive K Mart is closing . I worked at the West Acres Kmart when it was closing and I bought a black and white Lee denim jean sign later people were talking about Robert Edward Lee. Just months ago i met by phone a person with middle name Lee I knew it would repeat . Cavalier, ND yes we had a black Cavalier car during the 90s.One day me and Diana daughters friend were going to Uvalde and I burned the engine half way there . Now in Grand Forks, ND I also worked at Kmart only days and by then things were repeating the manager i remembered a woman showed us around the store she said she loved to collect dolls because when she was small she was poor and didn't have any will i can say i was very poor and only had one doll but their is another reason why there were no dolls in the house. remember I said mother was raised
About music records eight -track cassettes CD's i got from other people
Gary Lewis and the playboys his music been playing on radio. now i see Jerry lee Lewis born September 29, 1935
Today October 9, 2019 again I am reminded I need to write about who was running for governor under La Raza Unida Party Ramsey Muniz as i looked him up I see ex governor Dolph Briscoe and remembered January2008 news on radio about the death of his granddaughter. Political prisoner Ramsey Muniz did have charisma and was and is smart but you also need a strong mind be able to know when you need to get away from certain people who will bring you down. Big brother used to say what saved him from prison was coming to work on the fields because in TX gangs wanted him so did the law. In Crystal City when children were small and growing it was the new law and still they were recruiting boys to boot camp preparing them for prisons nothing had changed only now it was more on single poor mothers and from the same Raza= Race.
October 11, 2019 It was 2008 I was with niece Gracie in her car so was her mother Connie and sister Barbara. I don't remember if Maria was with us but we were on our way to San Antonio to visit first brother Luis then Ricky who were in different hospitals when for the second time i think I heard it on radio or just Connie and Gracie started the conversation about what i understood Briscoe granddaughter parents were acquaintance or knew well the cousins Lara. I just heard them talked didn't get into the conversation. I was feeling bad brother was dying and Ricky was very sick too and now not only my older siblings other children were heard on me but now the whole world was also doing weird things like repeating . Now I know its all from God. Now for a short time my two brothers worked remolding or adding to the first state bank of Uvalde i remember Luis used to mentioned they were working at the governor Briscoe bank. there is more that went on this ride
October 10, 2019 Besides drugs what is the other weakness of a Chicano Man in power or out of power ? A Bleach blonde white woman what happened to Cisneros she wanted money money for a broken promise. October 13, 2019 One day I was somewhere in San Antonio an older lady setting closed by me started a the conversation about how disappointed the people there were about Cisneros. I guess there were thinking like many of us. He will be our first Chicano governor even maybe the first Chicano president. Now there is nothing wrong with a single man having any kind of women he wants but when man is married there is a problem. Many times Chicanos to get somewhere they really need to be close to perfect we get no forgiveness no second chance.
October 11, 2019 Trump, I think who were kissing your ass might be going to jail. Omar is just one of the reasons you might get reelected if something else doesn't happened.
We really need a third Party. I talked to white people and Chicanos who are living here they say the Democratic Party is lost and so is Trump.
October 13,2019 now i don't know how hard its living in Mexico or in South America or in the Middle East but i can tell you how hard it was for my grandparents parents for myself and my family. Even with an education and experience a good job with fair pay and fair treatment its hard to find .
This past Wednesday i went to the post office because it looked like if i was going to need a passport to get to Canada. Now i am at the post in Fargo looking to the left side where i seen others taking their pictures for a passport a tall white man asks me if i needed a passport i said yes would i need one to get to Canada he says yes you need one to get to Mexico. now i am not mentioning Mexico because i don't need to go to Mexico his going by how i looked not by what i am asking him for. man gave me a form told me to read it wrote on it how much i had to pay again mentioning me going to Mexico again i said Canada. later back to the days in south TX when we needed no passports to get to Mexico and about the mango
we went to see the joker movie. October 18, 2019 what came in mind was this is a Republican movie but also had to do with bullying in grown ups mental or not mental and about Republicans favorite Toy the gun.
October 18, 2019 Facebook is scary I had to used it because like everything else in my life i was doing someone else a favor by sending a message today i got in a whole lots of pictures of people I don't know. Who are they!? Then i couldn't get out Facebook wanted a picture of me i have no pictures i want others to see this blogger is enough for me. Facebook is for people with a lot of time on their hands.
October 18, 2019 pregnant women trying to get into the USA because they want their babies born here i also know of USA couples having babies and not pay their rent because they had to pay some money to the hospital . for many poor people here take away food stamps and Section 8 and see what we have. what the government should do is find a way to make other country leaders start taking care of their own people and stop fighting.
October 21, 2019 Trump sends troops to Saudi Arabia? Why? who is getting the 100% of money from oils in exchanged for USA blood? Now who! If we are to get out
October22, 2019 there was a time we hadn't cross Alvacado's and Mango's from Mexico to the USA. Today I heard about Mango's Restaurant here in Fargo where we dine in once in awhile and i remembered i haven't written about the day in the 70s when Petra and one or two of her sisters were there but i know her mother was we were walking back to the USA or were told to get off the car because Mexican border patrol had smelled our mango's they wanted to check our purses.
Now I don't want to hear the we are all Immigrants! No we are Not!! Not me!! But ! October 23, 2019 I know! I know! Finish what I started but give me a break! British younger ones have problems!? they should take one of my days see what problems are!! they only talk about themselves what about the nurse who took her life for just saying a few good words mother and child was doing good ? shes never remembered right!? these people should be very thank everyday be at church giving thanks to God they have it so easy.
October 24, 2019 too much not enough time when i was a child and me and other children were staying at the St Joseph's church i didn't know the numbers to the store across the street which is 101 Hornbacher's grocery store. now there was a young woman who kissed us children goodnight and a Deacon who would take me and other children to our home. on our way he would buy us ice cream i always would asked him to stop at the Hornbachers store but he would say no lets wait we will stop in Mapleton which we did I always asked for a lime Popsicle. Now this is what I remember about the young woman who came to visited us. She dressed fashionable like in a pencil dress and her hair was up like a beehive hair style everybody liked her. i can always write more but no time need to start on something else on mind.
Now when i was growing up I only knew my world saw a lot a child abused and even went through some of my own but i never knew how it was to live under a one parent roof now i know it must have been much harder especially because everyone around was poor no help or very little help from the government. True story about a single mother in the late 60s early 70s now mother and daughter are both died but daughter had once told me that her mother had gotten mad with her because of a man she had brought in their home mother got jealous with daughter. Nowadays i see a lot of single mothers and some single fathers I know what is like i am one but i question when something so bad goes on like a child being so much neglected physically abused and even sexually abused by someone who doesn't live at the child home and present parent don't know what is going on !? Where was the present parent when this was going on by in outsider !? Was this an all welcome in house!? when i asked my father for his blessing to move to the south TX valley along went mother with me for a few months. Parents wanted to know why i wanted to go elsewhere but didn't asked me just one parent went with me but mother knew i wasn't pregnant for sure thee were a lot of evidence around me to prove it
October27,2019 Now my mother had it bad growing up she did only what she knew could but there was neglect like but i did ate a marble i burned my little hand the
Leora's house yes there were our across neighbors at Chamber when they came from from Mexico. I used to play with Rosa who as a child had Polio.
October 28, 2019 Once my mother told me that in the old neighborhood there was a time homes had no inside electricity. Poor people had to use lamps that had a wick to light up with Kerosene. One thing i know there were no street lights the moon was our light on nights we visited Maria and her adapted niece Belia Juarez.
music we listened to Elvis but also Wolly Bully 96 Tears and hang on Sloopy which many of us thought it was Lupe then we were corrected.
I ate a red hot pepper my uncles had hanging outside their
October28, 2019 Before coming to Moorhead in 2009 when I was in Crystal City I had stopped reading the newspaper and other current magazines because all in some way were repeating so i would checked out books written before 2004 from the library. one of them was the story of Thomas Edison.
October 28, 2019 Because we took the Jefferson bus to South Dakota for a concert before I had this on mind about the day when teacher at Pharr -San Juan -Alamo took us students to the library and the fast book i saw was Go ask Alice
Now I want to know why we TX migrants children never got free lunch when we went back to TX?
October 31, 2019 Oh now I understand the royal problem a bit better. Advise for Meghan and husband Harry stay away from father Thomas and 1/2 sister Samantha run away from them! They will always bring you and your family problems. Meghan you will always have problems with the public because you are not full white not your fault God just made you that way. Father and sister are very jealous of you. Now you don't have to give a dine to your father at all if you don't want to. Let sister Samantha. Meghan you do know you are breaking ground? Maybe Someday people will see a child as dark as your mother playing outside the Royal Palace. later why i kind of didn't like the name Victory and why I didn't liked my name but now I do thanks to one of the cousins at a family funeral.
November 7, 2019 One day children still in school maybe in Junior high don't remember we went shopping at the Eagle Pass mall but first we stopped at the Pizza Hut on Main and Johnny Canales was at a table with a blonde woman but not Anglo at the other corner. I told my children i am going over to say hi to Johnny children said nothing but i didn't go because i knew they would be embarrassed of mother doing such thing . we used to watched Johnny Canales show but before that show there used to be a show in the 70s i believe was aired from Laredo, TX that show my parents also liked to watched. today i just learned his wife name is Nora which it repeats.
November 7, 2019 I don't know who i will be voting for in the 2020 Election there is no candidate who to vote for hopefully someone will jump in who cares about the forgotten people like me.
November 9, 2019 One day when lady Diana was all in the news I think it was about her separation. Rosa Luna was cleaning brushes or doing something else in the shampoo bowl looked up to me asked me something like "what is all the fuss about in the news what is that about?' I really didn't have time to explain to her what I knew but now i can write what I knew since i was a child and what my father told me and what now i know somethings repeat i really can't take a break its all round me. I checked out the Victoria series movies this what repeat. names Cecilia Albert Crystal and Tumour liver cancer. when my mother got pregnant of me because she was going on 44 she thought she had a tumor in her stomach. lady Flora died from a liver tumor at age 33. prince Albert husband of Victoria named his idea Crystal Palace. I was in junior high when father told me about the Kings and Queens what he knew about them . My father said that once there were no more kings it was getting closer for the coming of the real king who was Jesus Christ. He said the royal family in London had just stayed in royalty meaning that was it. why I don't like the name Victoria is that i only seen poor little Mexican Victoria's but it has been a royal name and i guess it comes from the word victory. Now Queen Victoria that was her second name prince Albert that was his second name. I call my son by his second name Albert. now nursery rhymes as children we used play. London bridge is falling down, Tweedledee Tweedledum the mouse now that i moved had my encounters with them. November 21, 2019 now father told me royal families and rich ones married within their own but at one point stopped the tradition because the babies were being born mentally or physically deformed not quite healthy
November 9, 2019 now what i have noticed is that Middle East people many of them come to this country speaking better and educated than us who were born here. I know i had bad teacher growing up in Crystal this was done so poverty among Chicanos would continue but why were the Middle East leaders educating English to their people? Update
November 17, 2019 Today a lot to write that repeats but like always i can only stay for a while because i have ether things to do. This past week i felt my heart beating a bit faster so Friday I went to get my blood pressure checked at family health it was 111 over 72 which for me its good i had taken the stairs up to get to third floor most of the time that's what i do and for me its no sweat. Now daughter and one of grandsons wanted to go out to the movies last night its what we did. i am always busy to know whats showing at the movies at West Acres. i had no clue what we were going to see. we went to see Doctor Sleep. now last week i had checked out the movies Bull season 2
November 20, 2019 this morning i saw a boy looked between Hispanic and black he was wearing a green hoodie sweater he walked from somewhere 32 street south to 17 street Lewis and Clark Elementary school. Boy must have missed the school bus I really hope he won't missed it tomorrow morning i heard its going to be very cold rain or snow. I sure felt bad for him i wanted to afford him a ride but i didn't because little boy don't know me. Little boy reminded me when i walked from home to school and from school to home twice because there were no free lunch for migrant children at the Grammar . Though our parents worked for farmers who received government money and land we got nothing not even free lunch .
November 21, 2019 New words Quid Pro Quo . Now all eyes are on USA and so are mine because if God gives me 30 something more years daughter and I want to know if History books will write the truth nothing but the truth so help us God.
November 23, 2019 Mr Fred Rogers it repeats. what doesn't repeat? Nothing because in a way or other everything i can relate to and i can write about it.
November 24, 2019 About Thanksgiving. Now remember the movie La Bamba where Ritchie and Donna are in the car and driving by land full of orange trees? That's that way Alamo road used to look like when brother in law Rey and sister Barbara bought land and put a Mobile home. Later in time they started building the house which is the one that stands right now. Now about who came here first was it Spanish Cortes Columbus or the Vikings people living breathing people were already here. Now many times I have asked like Bob asked his mother in the movie La Bamba, What about me!!
November 25, 2019 How I remember familia Fernandez first Thanksgiving. When I was little before I started school we were so poor I never knew what Thanksgiving was all about maybe along the way i heard parents going to church to give thanks to God for what little we had because they were church going people. When i started school teacher would give me a paper for me to drew a turkey by spreading my little hand and drawing through my small fingers then i would drew eyes and feathers to make it look like a bird. One day i don't remember what age I was but by then we lived on Crockett st and Connie went by to pick me up and by then i heard some people would cook turkeys to celebrate thanksgiving. We had a small stove but i don't remember any grown up using it to cook maybe it didn't work or grown ups didn't know how to use it i don't know. We went by the Maria Rodriguez sister to El Mirror. i need to stop now there is much more on how it is to live poor in the USA. Now I think Maria said she had bought a chicken so they were going to have chicken and other foods for Thanksgiving.
November 25, 2019 now God keeps me poor and keeps me lonely but if He wants me to be somewhere He will take me there. Yesterday Sunday I went to the Dakota ranch looking for cookie cooking sheet when i saw the movie Fahrenheit 9/11 i had never seen this film before very educational i learned a lot
Yes, God has sure blessed Gallagher but not the boy he killed . Bad teachers I can't even put a sentence together.
November 29, 2019 One day i think it was 2grade for a while there was a music teacher who colored her classroom with fun pictures on the wall and we
November 27, 2019 I hope and pray tomorrow the whole world gets to eat something.
November 27, 2019 Trump you are making a mistake do you really want more people at the border?
November 29, 2019
November 30, 2019 Movie i checked out from library before buying Fahrenheit 9/11 was Forevermore about Karla Faye Tacker the second woman death row #777 to be executed in Texas under governor George W. Bush refused the final 11 hour to appeal to block her who for his own reasons did not pardon this woman from death row. Karla said she did it because of drugs i say she did it was of the evilness inside her and bad hard life she had but when she received Christ this is when she found peace. She truly had converted and she was saved.Later George W Bush became president and did he really sent soldiers to Iraq to kill many people? now why was the first woman to be killed in a prison ? A Mexican woman!
November 30, 2019 Now i am tried of hearing this country was built on migration!!! and why is it that Americans are not producing because babies are expansive life is expansive even to die is expansive!! If life was better for us people here in the USA families would be growing. when we were still in school i remember Maryann sister to Petra saying she only wanted one child i don't know how many children she's got but life has been hard for poor people.
there is a lot of ignorant people who say this country was built on emigration but this is not true if you really look into history you will see it was because of land that was stolen from people who were already here and because of people brought from Africa to work for free. Mexicans had worked very hard to make the US what is today.
December 1, 2019 Now if you think i write because i like writing on this blogger than you are crazier then you think i am because most of the time i don't . I never asked for this i never went looking for it but when wired evil people and wired things first started like now i had nowhere to go no one who would listen so i was force to learned about computers to see how they would help me put what was going on around me. Now there is a lot of bad people around me giving me hints like this past weekend a man who looked well dressed that i know don't need to come sit at the Moorhead library looked at me as if he knew something I would later know about. this are mind games let me tell you one of them and its because of what I write and many of you don't like.
November 25, 2019 I went to Holy Cross pantry . Sometimes when i am out and its a Monday and i am closed to the pantry i go get a box of food not because i use it all myself but i know of mothers with small children who need food so i give them some keep a bit for myself. The spoil i threw away no need to get people sick but i noticed the dark side of these people and this past Monday they played with my mind and yes they can refused me they have it written on their outside wall. I went in two women who asked for my ID one asked me if i live in Moorhead by now she knows i do. now when all people were outside waiting for doors to open two women coming from different ways one white the other looked middle east and hair covered both wearing flip flops. this day was cold very cold. now i get box when i get home a roll of dirty toilet paper was December 2, 2019 now you dark people stay with your food i really don't need it and remember where to use it.
December 2, 2019 In 1986 when we went back to TX nothing had changed everything was the same. sisters would come around only when i was needed. Now Three Rivers i never knew that town until Barbara asked me to go with her more to come
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