Greetings

July 2012

Greetings people,  

What you are about to read is not only about me, it’s about you the reader and the rest of the world. You will read how the world is mocking me repeating what I do, how the world is living a lie there is no honesty just repetitions of what I do.

Hello, my name is Marta Fernandez Munoz; I am second generation on my father’s side to be born in the U S A. Originally I am from Crystal City, TX but for now my home is Fargo, ND. But I am familiar with ND. Fargo, Casselton, Mapleton and Moorhead, MN are part of my past and recently also Grand Forks, ND, East Grand Forks. 

When I started writing these letters I was computer illiterate reason was I had no need to use a computer. This is why some of my letters are not in chronological

al order.   I would write a letter then prints out, but now I save. The first letters I wrote I rewrote on my drives. I will be going back and forth with information but all letters and documents are dated. Today October 13,2012 my son calls me was going to ask questions but didn't. He sounded upset i know the law sends people to make it hard for him but i can't stop because if i do you the law will win, drive me crazy and keep him in prison for as long as you want.  I know you the law sent inmates and out side people to confuse my son made him think what i am doing is keeping him in prison when in the first place it is you the LAW who are doing this to us! And who do i mean? I am talking about Lawyers in general! And other law enforcement! 

Update November 10, 2012 .Attention people this information applies to the whole world but North Dakotas and Minnesota have front seats. The whole world is repeating. Even these words ( front seats). Lawyers, FBI, government church leaders and you the people, It is written. What good is it that you have gain the world more to come  

November 2, 2012 if I were to believe to (know) that the FBI, the government, you the people were in control of all my being. I would have given up by now but I know you are not! God has giving me hints of things to come. These are a few songs I can relate to and this one was played in TX radio to give me hints I was being watched.  Every Breath you Take  this song Eye Of The Tiger was in the last movie i saw here in Fargo back in 1982. Before this song came out Losing my Religion. by REM  1991. One Sunday a priest named Leo Martinez in front of the congregation in a corner inside the church took the Eucharist from my hand. Both my children not long before had made their first communion. Updated January 8, 2013 That day i didn't feel like going up to the alter. So I told my children to go without me. But one (i think was my son) told me he wouldn't go without me. so i got up and i think I  put my left hand on top of the other to receive it. And as i am waking by the corner in front of the church choir. the priest Fr. Martinez who was known in Town  for doing such things. Screamed at me asked me what was i going to do with the Eucharist i had on my hand. I told him i was going to eat it. In my mind  i was going to get closer to my seat or wait to set down before i did. i was so embarrassed. (Like all stories there is more). The priest told the people there were people using the Eucharist in witchcraft. He said other things i didn't hear well because people were laughing. When Mass was over I told my children to go to the car to wait there for me. My son asked me what was I going to do. I told him not to worry and to just do as i  had asked him to do. But my son stayed with me. I waited for the priest and when I noticed there were less people around. I asked him if i could have a few words with him and where could we meet. He said there where we were standing was fine. This was outside the church as he departed the people waking out the door then I spoke my mind. I asked Fr. Martinez why had he taken the Eucharist from my hand. he started saying something like this "people were or are doing" then i stopped him and told him, witchcraft! i wasn't going to do such thing! i told him that he had taken my right to receive what was mine. And that if i was to die that day it would be on him because he had taken my last rights. i went home and told my oldest brother what had happened in church. and i cried a lot that i stopped going to church. my brother noticed that and if we started a conversation i would speak bad about Fr Martinez. i would bring up all the wrongs i knew about him all the bad rumors going around in town. And when i would bring it up with people i found out they knew more then i did. Because what he had done to me i didn't know he had done to others. And i  surely didn't know about rumors of him and my first cousin head church leader  Elvera  going around about Fr. Martinez and her. I don't know if it's true but this is what two  sisters and other people in Crystal City told me. That one day  Elvira Lara husband Willie Galven had gone raging inside the church or parish with a rifle on his hand accusing both of improper behavior. Now Elvira has always thought of herself better then us always with her nose up. But my father and her mother did get along very well. And i do need to say she did respected my father but my mother it's a different story. Now I  have never cared to know how these people are related but Ray Perez wife Rebecca is Willie sister.            I had heard long ago from a next door neighbor the family Galven were called Skunks because they developed gray hair in an early age. January 15, 2013 now when my son was shot he almost lost an eye and still has bullets that weren't able to be removed. One of the man involved was related to Dora? But she liked to be called Dorothy. This couple used to run a restaurant back then in Crystal City. Now Dora nephew was involved. Another man involved was related to this other woman Sevirita Lara the one Jose Angel Gutierrez says he wrote about but actually it was about the events that i was going through in 2005 2006. Stories I told Troy Lawrence. (the pervert informer that you the lawyers sent to me) back in 2005. February 3, 2013 not attending Mass was the worst thing ever since my father's death or even worst because this was the only thing i looked forward to doing on Sunday mornings. Getting up at 6:am be at church before 7:00 am just as i used to do when i was growing up with my father. now I had my own children and i would dressed  up tried  to look my best for my God and set a good example for my children just as my father had done with his family. So after many times my brother kept asking me why couldn't i forgive Fr. Martinez  i went back to church and then came my daughter's 15th birthday (Quienceanera) everything went well. But in January 2005 when my daughter was getting things ready for her wedding some things were not right but i still didn't know you the lawyers from ND had called TX and badmouth me  .Then after January 2006when i went back to TX I started looking back and now i can say the mind game began since 2004. more to come                              

Update November 28, 2012 Lawyers, Judges, FBI, Government. Stop giving my son a hard time in prison! Face me you cowards! Yesterday November 28, 2012 from a  Minnesota prison where my son is doing time for crimes he didn't commit.  n inmate called me! i asked him who he wanted to speak with. the inmate told me in a sarcastic    way, "Oh, ma'am I apologize  I have the wrong number" Who of you cowards gave my number to another inmate to call me!? I  know you are tormenting my son in prison!   Government and you the people if you don't like what I write about you, you can always come to me! This is between us stop bullying my family! My son is in prison and can't defend himself! Stop torturing my son! And all you Church Leaders are involved in this wickedness! March 21, 2013 I know that you the people are being told  what to repeat about me but now I know not all. I know that because this is so wicked somethings you just repeat without you even knowing it has to do with me. more to come    


Update October 11, 2012  these are the things i must wrote for now because these are things I have in common  with people from the past and present. This are  things I can relate to things that parallel with my life and things that for some reason i need to see and hear.  
(Updated October 2, 2012) last week my daughter and I were watching the news on TV and we saw the  report about the wildfires in Idaho and other states. I haven't had time to write because I've been busy with personal things I needed to do.But I  wanted to write about a dream  I wanted about a dark cloud of smoke or storm  that  was  in my dream, i dreamed i was looking at a road and there were people running from the  cloud that I didn't know what it was a cloud of rain or fire. The day my daughter and I were watching the news on  fires in Idaho and other states. I told my daughter that i had dreamed of what we were watching. She just made a gesture with her hands as if she didn't  believe me. But i kept wondering if maybe there was more to this dream and as  i saw  the news today the cloud of smoke and the road were also going to happen closer to home. Today October 8, 2012  i have so many things to write but haven't had the time  i started working as a nanny with a couple with five children. i will continue tomorrow.

Update February 24, 2013 On June 23, 2011 a man named Casey     invited me to a Casino before walking to his home where we were going to meet for the trip. I took a nap because out off nowhere i was feeling sleepy and tired. when i woke up i took with me this movie which i had bought at the Dakota Ranch to see on his TV because my VHR  Recorder wasn't working. The Movie was The Seventh Sign with Demi Moore. by then i had notice that some of my dreams i was living so when i woke up from that nap i wrote down what i had dreamed. in a book i bought at the downtown Fargo Library or Dakota Ranch I wrote down what i had dreamed. the book i pickedsound of silence   played on my funeral way before 911 i had also told i had received Christ as my savior after he had told me he had been saved. Then he asked me something like the words in this movie and in the same tone and i think he asked me twice. "Would i lay my life for someone else.i answered, yes. i don't know if part of his question was also because he had served in the Military. Before 911 I  was committing adultery with a man who's parents were owners of a Motel on Highway 83 in Crystal City, but he was running the Motel. A woman named Sandra Garza had introduced him to me. After 911 his parents sold the land to Zavala County Bank which at the time was located in downtown Crystal City. One day this man gave me several Bibles from the Motel to give away. I took some to one of my niece named Gracie for her to keep. Although there were Bibles in the house I kept some and in 2004 when i went to Grand Forks i took one for my son and for his live in girlfriend. and i kept one for me which is the one i still have with me. Somewhere before 2004 this man moved to San Antonio so i haven't seen him since then. Now on the movie from where did the young Jewish man and Moore got a bible  ? March 19, 2013 from a Motel. Bibles placed by The Gideons. Now why I am saying  I was committing adultery if the man I had married was living with another woman in Colorado. But because he was still alive I was still married to him. Even if we would had been divorced by men law, we were still married by God's law.                                 more to come Casey then told me





    



Updated October 25, 2012 this is something else  I need to mention not only my son and I are suffering. Not only we are the government's target not only the wicked government is destroying our life's his also destroying my grandson's life's as they remain without a father since 2005. My daughter is also giving a hard time in all the jobs she gets. She doesn't know what the government is capable of doing  wouldn't believe a word I say against the government. There are many ways to kill a personThe Makingautobiography of himself or so he says, but are lies because there all have to do with conversations I had with Troy Lawrence and other people in 2005- 06  while I was in Grand Forks, ND and because they are simply lies and this other book he wrote with many more lies We won't back down! base on Severita Lara rise from Student Leader to Mayor. Now, what was one of the  song played in the Obama Democratic Convention ? We won't back down? Same words the Catholics are using now on their demonstrations against abortion and same sex marriage     who are they to judge if they are also mocking me they are killing my mind and approving what the government is doing to me and my family.   ? more to come 
Updated June 27, 2013 California has given in to the same sex marriage, who's next? this is how bad this madness is. mothers want government and people approval  to kill their babies.  Man want government and people approval to marry man. more to come  

Today November 6, 2012 i voted Democratic except for the governor. and this would be my first time voting in the State of ND. on this election in ND memories 
came back to me when one time long ago in my childhood i saw something that made i think. I saw a man hitting his dog forcing the dog to get back in his back truck. The poor dog didn't want to get on this man's truck because the man was abusing the dog hitting him with what looked like a metal object.  i felt so sorry but what could i do? i was a child and who would i call for help? who would listen to me? nobody! I couldn't do a thing! i just saw this man repeatedly hitting the dog that in one way i knew the dog wanted to go with this man but he just wanted the beating to stop. The poor black skinny dog got in the back of the truck and drove away with the angry mad man. This i saw once in Casselton and writing about it wasn't easy for me. 
Guns I remember once my sister Barbara and I were staying late watching TV with the farmer's kids (parents were out) a car came to the lot farm driving fast. The farmer's daughter jumped up opened a closet door and grab a rifle. The  man got off his car walking towards the house insisting I think i heard him say to the farmer's daughter needed gasoline. I don't remember if he got what he had stopped for but i knew he wasn't going to mess with the farmer's daughter and her rifle, so he left. In 2000 a friend took me somewhere near a bridge that had been built back then to be used to crossover a river to get from the south towns to north going to Uvalde. But had been torn down and now the bridge, river and land are claimed by Rangers who bought land near by. This was my first time there and on the  broken down bridge I read  many names of Mexicans from Crystal City that used to go swimming, fishing back then. February 4, 2013  About half an hour later at the river I got a feeling someone was watching me and as i looked up a hill i saw a man with a rifle on his hand pointing at us. I told the man i was with to stop fishing and move quick because i wanted
Updated November7, 2012 i will look up what day on this past weekend     I went to  Blockbuster  and checked out this movie named Bush Family Fortunes the best Democracy money can buy and just barely this morning i was able to see this movie and what a coincidence. YOU REELECTED PRESIDENT OBAMA USED THE song on  YOUR WALK IN SPEECH! I learned a lot more by watching  this movie about how the government works how the Bush  family has no shame is as evil as can be but they're not the only ones.Bush danced his way out of the White House while USA soldiers and innocent people from other countries were being killed. (later  read why he danced his way). 
And what did you said Obama? "We  killed Bin Laden!" Speak for yourself I killed no one. Say that to yourself and the Bush family and their supporters. And no, you have never been poor, Obama, you don't know the meaning of being poor! And you and others know very well these are not coincidence. Singed Sealed and Delivered by Stevie Wonders. In 1975 or 76 the year I moved to the Valley. In McAllen, TX there was a sign that read Bob Hope coming to McAllen.               Obama you have two daughters. Romney you have Five son's. November 9,2012 last night Jay Leno


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Updated February 10, 2014  I  don't remember the year but  i think this happened before 2001 on this weekend i was celebrating my birthday when i heard  through my sister Maria who at the time worked at Del Monte Factory that cousin  Juan F

 

Updated May 11, 2013 i don't remember the year but it was after my sister Barbara had elope with her boyfriend and stayed behind in Idaho to marry Rey Salinas from Alamo, TX. we were working in the fields
Now i hear on TV that ND and MN have a problem with smokers. I can't remember back then  ever seeing so much cigarettes butts and trash on the streets of Fargo, ND.  Smoking is back glamorized in movies like Zero Dark Thirty as actors repeat after me.         more to come    at the age of 13 or 14 i asked my father to teach  me how to drive  car . we had bought an extra car to take to the fields. The car was a Red standard Rambler. one day coming from a south field i was driving my father was with me i turned in a corner too fast and went down to a ditch. the next day i told my father i wanted to drive the car again. he smile and laugh and told me after what had happen a day before he never thought i was going to ask him for more driving lessons. i learned how to drive the red car that summer going and coming from the sugar beets fields and many years  after when i took my driving test in Crystal City i drove with my two feet in an automatic car up to now that's the only way i know how to drive. i don't know how right my father was  or if i understood right but he had told me that at first there were only standard cars. that after the second war the government started making automatic cars for the men who were coming back home from the war with an amputated leg.updated May 24, 2013 in the Summer of 1975 i went independent i boycotted my oldest brother Luis Jr and worked alone with the money i earned I bought a  Ford 1965 galaxy or galaxies  500 and got someone to help me drive it  back to TX .    more to come   Updated July 6, 2013 the Farmer protected his field workers. in the middle of the night if there was a dangerous  storm warning or a tornado the farmer would go knock on doors asked us to take shelter in his basement with his family.  more to come  actives Cesar Chavez and his people one time were protesting against buying grapes   from a grocery store in Wautoma, Wisconsin. i remember seeing a group of Mexican  people with signs. After working in the sugar beet states like ND  MN South Dakota Nebraska Montana most all  of the people would then gather in this small town this was the final  destination but like many farm  workers our headquarters was ND. Updated July 12, 2013 just yesterday i know who was and is Dolores Fernandez Huerta. her named i might have heard but i might have thought she was a he not a she because the name Dolores in Spanish is also used on males. but i do remember hearing the name Tigerina and back then I understood he was trying to give back the land of New Mexico  Arizona Colorado back to Mexico. i remember I being frighten thinking what if  succeed and TX would be next. Today i read into who was Reies Lopez Tigerina and what happened in June 5, 1967 and how the government tried to make him Loco a crazy man. Now Cecar Chavez did a lot for the people in California and lower (BAJA California) and maybe other states on housing and wages. But it did not really had a great impact on the migrants in North.Now why was Chavez heard? Nobody cared about the migrants wages or housing conditions. nobody cared he was on hunger strikes. he was finally heard when  he said the grapes and other fruits  and vegetables had poison and it was going to the tables of the prestige privileged white people!people like the Kennedy who would also benefits from the field labor workers in other ways.     I remember seeing him on a talk show  by then the white people were aware what was going on. Updated July 16, 2013 back to housing in ND one summer day in the seventies as we rested at the farm a journalist from the Fargo'sdydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydy


Updated February 1, 2013 on  February 2006 i was watching the Superbowl game tryingmoves like Jagger came from? And even Obama had him dancing for him. February

Obama do you love your daughters? do you love your wife? do you think your daughters like having a father who's a Peeping Tom? You are the 44 elected president and it is your 20th wedding  anniversary.  November 18, 2012 this year it's the 20th anniversary of the Fargo's Dome. updated March 10, 2013    Obama, I will get back to  you Updated March 30, 2013  my mother had me when she was 44 years old. 

November 19, 2012  the Twinkies are going Bankrupt


Updated November 4, 2012  what is abortion

Who commits Fornication ? Rich people poor people short

who commits adultery? Even the presidents! more to come
Updated June 19, 2013 today i saw History on the making around 2:04 pm as i was heading north on 4th street to Hornbacher's Grocery Story on Broadway. I made a left turn on 6 Ave to get to Broadway St north but the street was blockade and the red light came on. But I got a full eye picture of the Fargo, ND  New bishop

Updated January 19 2013 I don't know what to call these things that are happening to me but  for now i  will call them Premonitions.  something like what you will read here has happened before.On the weekend Saturday 19 and Sunday the 20 of February 2012.  As so many times before the people at Pizza Corner in Valley City, were playing

October 10, 2012 I was raised Roman Catholic and I used to vote Democrat. When invited by friends I would visited other denominations. I learned a lot by reading a few  books from  Jehovah witness. But I learned much more by listening

Updated January 28, 2013 now on the new testament ti says on chapter -more to come-   (Now  I had be wrong) but these persons are not the the ones because Martin Luther  who was a monk and went against the Roman


February 25, 2013 on several occasions  when i was a child i went   with my mother to visited cousins in Austin, TX.  This was one of them an uncle had died and my mother wanted to be close to her nieces and nephews.  My aunt Virginia was a young widow with many small children. this was the month of October and i remember the radio started playing early in the Morning this song by the Monkees Day Dream Believer. everyone who was in school got up i myself was supposed


Updated February 23, 2013 Yesterday Friday February 22, 2013 for days i had in my  mind the Twilight  Zone show from the sixties. Back In January 2006 i was without a car by then you the law had sent officer Olson badged 566 to set me up in East Grand Forks. And i still talked on and off with Troy Lawrence the man you the law sent to spy on me. On that  same weekend  i asked Troy to take me out to a bar because i wanted to forget all that had happened. So we went to a bar i had been there before with a white woman named Linda who had been my grandson's grandfather ex girlfriend. On that night out with Linda at the Bar on Demers Ave she had introduce me to two men

April 24, 2013 updated on the 8th of this month i started working with Dow Services cleaning offices. one night on my second week working there i felt God's presence.  His power as i was looking at all wires, machines with so much electricity. for a while i felt a bit of fear.   Updated April 26, 2013 this fear wasn't bad fear it was good fear. days after my daughter tells me about a church leader who's son had bought a gun in line and had killed himself and had mentioned on his writings that the bible mentions 365 ways not to fear. then my daughter tells how this makes sense because there are 365 days in a year. i had not noticed what  was the first day of 2013now i know it was a Tuesday.          more to come  last night i couldn't  sleep and i got up around 330 am i went through the pages of this book Great Events of the Bible Times and i stopped at 110 where it reads the Persians capture Babylon the middle paragraph last sentence i see the 555 numbers more to come Updated April 25, 2013 did any


Updated March 12, 2013  it's all a lie about what Obama is worried about that  his wife  Michael private records are being hacked ! no one is looking or trying to get into their  computer  lives! TheyLiar. then he said a story about people buying  lottery tickets. he said that no one can get rich by buying  them and he went on to say more that gave me hints he knows or is told that i am being watched all the time. this man was talking about me! Well, Doctor Robert Agnew i know you don't know me but you do hate

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Update October 30, 2012 yesterday my daughter calls me tells me Bill Clinton will be in town. At the time I am still at work so she goes without me. Around 6:45 I walked  fast to the Civic Center but had to stop and fix my shoelaces on the sidewalk. I bend down then continued walking and stand in line waiting outside the Civic like others to get in. A not too largeme are told to go to a room and wait for Clinton and Heidi . AtHeidi and listening to Clinton and Heidi. I called my daughter told her where I was and for her to come join me because Clinton and Heidi were coming my way. Later on my daughter comes joins me then we waited. Later the two came into the room and I followed them to get pictures. I hear a woman asking Clinton for his autograph i asked him too. Then Clinton says he needs to tie his shoe laces and bends down in front of me and another man who says "I took a picture of Clinton tying his shoelaces, I said so did I. Clinton
street heading to the Civic Center to see him and Heidi. January 8, 2013 Here are two pictures I took of where i asked Clinton  for his signature.  this book has the names
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Updated June 15, 2013 came walking  from Fargo to Moorhead.  Before writing had to listen to music. i tuned in to song Red River Valley because it was in my mind as  walked across the river. this SaturdayBut Not For Me in 1956 released in 1957.  I listened to other songs she sang.  listened to Smothers Brothers sang it too. But this was not the information i had in mind to write. Somewhere i had wrote or written  about  an episode on the show Hawaii five- 0. on this episode i learnedA Time ToI had bought some time ago and hadn't seen it .i know i went to the movies to see it but i don't remember with who i went with. it could have been my daughter because she had told me about the writer John Grisham and i know shes a fan of Sandra Bullock. today before i started writing i checked out who was this writer  most of you might know but i didn't. He was born on February 8, 1955. updated June 19, 2013 it was on a February 8, 2006 when i went to court in   more to come   On Sunday June 16, 2013 as i was watching this movie for the second time i notice these  words  that were used. The word Capital then i realized i should have gone with my instinct


Updated June 22, 2013 this past Thursday i couldn't  sleep because i started  my psychical exercise after 11:30 pm around 2:30 am i got up and read a few lines from this book. Dictionary Biblical Literacy Compiled  by Cecil B. Murphey and on page 73 i learned about  a Samaritan  priest displays a scroll of the Five books of Moses, the only old testament books which they accept as authoritative.  more to come on page 359 the numbers 666 are motioned the zip code to San Marcos, TX  ends with 666. on page 469 right bottom says the four - letter word Hebrew word "Yhwh" was the name by which God revealed

June 22, 2013   today i went to write at the Fargo's library and now i am at the Moorhead library writing more. i arrived here around 3:35 pm and while i get off the car i am thinking about an nephew named Ricky De La Cruz as looked to the right i see this book with the words My Two Moms by Zach Wahls and  there is a man between two women kissing him on his two cheeks.   i thought to myself this book is about a biological

on Friday
Today July 1, 2013 i need to  stress this out i do not hear voices see visions these are things you the people and see and hear because some of them

Updated July 5, 2013 a little bit after  June 28, 2013 i was lured to listen to a conversation on my phone. this conversation was with my son in prison and a young woman he is writing to and sometimes calls. The conversation starts with with a hello then she says she is late for work then my son sounds as if his jealous, demanding and controlling. and wants to know whats shes



Updated ?  29, 2013 I just found out late last night that it had been 50 years ago August 28, 1963 Martin Luther King Jr "I have a Dream." And last night I learned that back then governor Rockefeller loaned money to the black committee for black  Adults

Update February 10, 2014 In 1984 my children and I were living in Greeley, Colorado. From 1984 to 2004 are twenty years. On April 4, 2004 I don't remembered the time but I know it was in the afternoon that i went by my sister's Maria Taco Stand on Highway 83 and one of my niece told me they were closing up because a dangerous storm was about to hit  





Update May 28, 2013 on May the 25 i wrote the name Raul on SaturdayThe Call with Halle Berry. And  just as in any other movie i have watched in this movie  there was repetition. On the morning of  9-11- 2001 i know there was a lot of repetitions emergency calls of  911. i had wrote  the name Raul and the name Raul was on the cell phone

Updated May 25, 2013 when i had settle down one day a man  named Raul Ramon who was my mother's cousin  was walking by the street told me my grandfather on sad hot  days started fiddling his violin and neighbors around would come to his yard wet the ground and start dancing. The night  i was set up  January 25, 2006 the two men who were told to lured me into crossing the bridge were told to tell me about a brother or son of  Raul Ramon who lived in East Grand, Forks. these two men told me they were going visited him before they wanted to be dropped at Davila's apartment. I did wanted to go meet him so that night Davila and Balboa and I went to visit this man. From that apartment Balboa

since very young  before and after i moved the trailer for years i had worked with the local politicians with a woman named   Update May 21, 2013 when i moved in  my    living at this lot a family named Hernandez   more to come         more to come update May 8, 2013 On the same building i  live is the Music Emporium and used to be The Culture Diversity Resources and the The Native American Center   more to come         updated May 10, 2013 Cold play song Viva La Vida more to come 



Update May 13, 2013 this is what i think or believe that God knowing everything  the beginning and the end made it possible through songs to be one of His ways He would let me know that it was His plan and for me not to panic that it was meant to be for all   human madness would rise against me. but not only songs through Movies and through thing i had to go through life. One day this past April 2013 i drop
l them out going house by house. later Salvation Army is giving out doughnuts. during
                             

Update October 10, 2012 this day i will write about what Abraham Lincoln who was  assassinated at the Ford's Theater on a Friday Evening on April 14, 1865 at the age of 56 and died at 7:22 am on April 15, 1865generation. Instead i looked up information on who had killed John

 I told her stories about me growing up and coming to North Dakota and other states. She told me I should write about my stories. I guess maybe she liked listening to them I really don't  know. I told Mrs Pollman I had a Menorah and pointed to her's because at that time I didn't know what it was called. She asked me to take my Menorah to show it to her. But I think that was the last time I went back to work for her or I just simply forgot to after that. President Benito Juarez was an orphaned at an early age,he did not begin his education until he was 12 years old .
Despite the late start,he studied law.And he was president for five terms in the turbulent years of 1858 to 1872. Most of this information about Lincoln and Juarez I barely got today October 13, 2012 But for some reason this and other things i will write have to do with me and has to do with fives



This is the some of the information i have read about AbrahamLimestone vault at Oak Ridge cemetery in Springfield, Illinois,a a large keyAbrahan Lincoln an extraordinary life by the Smithsonian National Museum of American History's Exhibition Abraham Lincoln: this exhibition was made possible by the generous support of :Ford Motor Company Fund. on page 22 -23 is a picture of   men marching for Lincoln a sign with an eye is carried. (i also have an eye on my signs but this is to resemble the F B I (Eye). The words are WIDE AWAKE at first i used to used these words WAKE UP! on page 52 he wrote "If slaveryTIME, The 10 Most Important People Of The Century  and just last week i had time to watch it this is what i learned from it. Henry Ford's, Ford's Five Dollar Day program was set up in late 1914. and at age more to come 

Updated June 7, 2013 i took my driver's license test on a Lincoln's car borrowed from a  cousin. One day this person named Sandra Garza who i used to call  my friend but now hates me and repeats asked me why didn't i get a drivers license i told her i didn't have a car. she told me she was going to ask her cousin  who lived close to her house by W Lake St  to lend me his car. i can't remember well but i think it was during  some kind of  elections. during that time her father was the Crystal City sheriff. i am having a hard time remembering what year this was.  Updated June 12, 2013 her cousin had a black long Lincoln car. i don't remember if it was a two door or four door but I'll say it was a four door.  inside was all push button and the front lights were covered i had never driven this kind of car before.  that same day  she asked me to    more to com  


Update June 12, 2013 last night the San Antonio Spurs second to the last scored was 111the final was 113. In 2007 as i tried to ignored all the mental confusion you the people were and are giving me  as i was watching the Spurs


February 5, 2013 the lights went out at the Super Bowl

Updated January 20, 2013 The Beatles Movie i think it was A Hard Days Night i saw in Ohio. Updated February 1, 2013 i can't remember if it was the same camp where a young man would visit

Updated January 22, 2013 In 1975 I moved way south to live with my sister Barbara her husband and children in Alamo,TX. I graduated in 1976 from Pharr San Juan Alamo High School. This area

updated February 26, 2013 these are some of the movies I saw  here in Fargo Guess Who's Coming to Dinner. i saw more then one  007 Bond movies. The Odd Couple      The Graduate   more on  theaters here in Fargo      
and what the state of Ohio and me on I am not to sure but i think we lived in Delphos Ohio and all of us children ready to made the First Communion were taken to another town (this might have been Lima but i am not sure) for the church ceremony.  I think it was in a late summer or early fall day and  I might have been 7 years old. I remember a young white man would go on evenings in his car to a camp where he would meet with a small group of Mexican children and would teach us to pray inside his car. When I finally learned all the prayers for reward. The young man gave me a box full of bubble gum ( pink gum wrapped in pick paper ). He told me the gum was all mine and that if i wanted i could give one to each of my older siblings. But when I went inside my home my older siblings took the box and all the gum was gone. February 26, 2013 On February 12, 2013 i worked at the Holiday Express and for days i had been thinking about one time in Ohio that i was riding home from school in a school bus and there were a few black  and a few Mexican children in the bus. The bus stopped and as some black children were to getting  off the bus  the driver asked the black children if they needed blankets because it was going to get very cold. i don't remember what the children told the bus driver but i do remember the bus driver told the children he was going bring them blankets. at that point i also asked him for blankets but he said something we didn't really needed blankets because we were not there to stay. i know the bus driver was right we were also done with our work and would be going back to TX.  that day February 12, 2013 my grandson's birthday Mary the Holidays supervisor asked me if i wanted some blankets she didn't had use for. i told her i did and i took these blankets  to a women with small children and as i gave them to her she told me they were in need of blankets. February 28, 2013   yesterday  someone told a man to put on a black blanket and walk  along First ave street. the white bus driver

In 2006 when Fr Bob took me to buy car insurance to get really for court day in MN. I  wanted someone to be real not just repeating what had to do with me. I tried to be as friendly as I could with Fr. Bob. And  I asked  him where he was from. He told me he was from Ohio. But I could feel and see someone had already poisoned his mind. In any case I told him  that as a child my family used to migrate to Ohio and there is where i had made my Communion.     



Now when i went back to TX and i was writing a certain letter about what was going on with me and about La Raza Unida I needed to know what year the Crystal City, TX walk out took place. So I asked the librarian for the two new books I heard Jose Angel Gutierrez had written. I checked
Now when I went back to TX everyone was repeating. One day one of my neighbor's and I were talking about making TamalesDeer Meat. I knew this neighbor like others was repeating what i saw on TV or what I said to others but I had to ignored  what she was doing because I needed to talk with someone.And I knew i was under surveillance

Up Dated November 17, 2012  these are things that have been reveal to me weeks ago. What president's face is on a penny? Lincoln! Now on most of my first letters i wrote are addressed to Dear Mary, which I wrote to you Mary Seaworth but as you know not one letter i have sent to you.  these are two other words I had mentioned before are some of the words people are told to repeat. Dear and Mary.  What was Lincoln's wife's name? Mary. Now i might mention more of these kinds of coincidence but this other kind that i will mention is different. i only have a converter to watched  TV so i only get about 10 or 11 channels. One day maybe around the first months



Update today November 3, 2012 again  I was reminded I am not to go inside a church. I went to confession the priest told me to repeat something i don't really remember now but it had to do with numbers 2 and 5. Then someone else told me I shouldn't had confessed with the priest.At first I got unset but this person was right because in confession  i only heard words that later would cut me like a knife and
made me cry. Updated March 20, 2013 when i was still in Colorado after i had received Christ as my savior I kept going to the catholic church but my beliefs had changed. I stopped going to confession but i was still  was receiving Holy Communion. One day after church or a weekday I went to pray at the alter. I saw bibles and rosaries on a table i bought one rosary and a Bible I had never opened a Bible to read. Updated March 21, 2013 So I  took them home and a few days after i would opened it and glanced through it but I was afraid


Updated March 28, 2013 yesterday my daughter and I had this conversation we were talking about when  Christ is praying in the Garden and a white or silver snake representing the devil. Then i told my daughter that in 2010 one night as i was waiting for the city bus on N Broadway St outside the shelter in front of a nursing home i had seen a small silver snake slithering by me going into a sidewalk there was some snow in the ground and it was a cold night i don't remember if it was March or November .    Updated March 30, 2013 this is  what i learned and what it has to do with what i am writing. Pontius Pilate asked the people. "Why is it that 5 days ago you welcomed this man and now you want Him killed"? This was Palm Sunday when He was seated in a donkey and  followed by many.  Pontius was the 5th governor province and the second longest in those days, when our Lord Christ was crucified under Pontius Pilate. Pilate served from AD 26-36 this would be 11 years.  Pilate appears in Latin on a 2 by 3 limestone block found in 1961. updated April 5, 2013 on this book Pontius Pilate by Ann Wroe on page 48 it says from the third son of Adam to the coming of christ, 5,500 years. Therefore the coming of Jesus Christ in the ark of his body was to be after 5,5oo years.    more to come      Cesar had warned polite twice his bloodshed  would be next. more to come   

Update April 2, 2013 on Good Friday this officer Kirk W. Wilmore, MA area Commander came to me as i was picketing the Federal and asked me when was my son going to be release from prison so i would stop being outside with signs. i told him it was up to God when my son would be release. then he told me John Hoeven wasn't here and i told him that i knew he wasn't in Fargo but that he was and i asked him to take my log in address to read what i was going to write about him he told me he was too busy with so many things he had no time. On Saturday i mentioned to my daughter i wanted to buy water because now the water here in Fargo is coming out too salty. On Sunday  night  a  cop rides fast in front of me with a bottle of water. this one of the many ways the law gives me the car i drive is bugged. more to come Update April 4, 2013 today i came walking to Moorhead, MN i felt like listening to music before writing  i tuned to U Tube and i wanted to hear this song since yesterday Rocking Robin then i heard Surfing Bird and heard the vocalist interview with Dick Clark back in 1963. the vocalist tells Dick that one of the group number is from ND then i learned the other three are from Minneapolis MN. Then i listened to this  song Roll over Beethoven. and listened to Malaguena then this song  A Bone = Ford car 64 then i listened to the yard birds then to I started a joke and the first of May. and i read Robin Rest In Peace. Earlier today i went to Hornbacher's on Broadway I've been there many times before but never payed attention to the outside top glass apple picture today for some reason i looked up. Update April 5, 2013 on Easter Sunday i felt like being alone walking downtown Fargo i stopped at business windows to see what they were selling. i saw Lincoln sating in a chair this i had seen before but not the t shirts that said something about the first two ND  governors appointed by Lincoln. i kept walking and somewhere near Subway

July 13, 2013 i haven't  payed attention to the Zimmerman trial but this happened in  Sanford, Florida. A teenager man named Martin was killed. these words Zimmerman      Sanford and Martin. Martin is my Tocayo namesake.  the day after i was set up a woman last named Zimmerman went to pick me up in East Grand Forks. Sanford is the name of  a Hospital  here Fargo. Sanford last four words are Ford. Before i was set up i told Troy that some people from Crystal City used to migrant to Florida but not us. after the set up when i knew all people were playing with my mind by repeating all i said and did. One day  as I waited for the City Bus near Dianita's apartment in Grand Forks, ND  a man wearing sunglasses walking towards me and stood beside me started a conversation while he blew my mind repeating told me he was from Florida. and who won this year basketball game ? Florida. July 20, 2013 last night my daughter rented out this movie The Jackie Roberson Story. one of the actors is Harrison Ford. in the movie Jackie played in Sanford, Florida. there were 399  more to come  Zimmerman interview with Hannity was something else  and still he was found not guilty!?  This big man that knows how to fight   and had a gun says he was the victim!? he says  it was God's plan!?  No, Zimmerman! you were listening  to the Devil not to God!Updated 22, 2013  Zimmerman you do have a lot of  Supporters anyone that loves his or her gun loves you too! And yes there are many like you! The women on the panel




February 17, 2013 the door i open when i am hired to work for the Holiday Inn as a housekeeper and where i go for lunch on 13 Ave S the door i go through has these numbers 11. There i get to see many people from other countries who speak different languages. I know God has me there for His reasons. February 26, 2013 Often iI remember the sixties when my sister Barbara  and I would come downtown to a record shop on the corner of  first Ave N and N Roberts street to buy 45 size records. One day as me and my sister were browsing


Update June 14, 2013 i don't remember if it was more then one summer that all children from surrounding areas were brought to St Joseph Church in Moorhead, MN. we had to stay there for the whole week then on weekends we were taken back to the  farms with our parents. Updated July 20, 2013 the first day the nuns took us children swimming and we were outside all of us girls were covering our bodies with our towels and huddle because we were not used to wearing bathing suits and exposing so much skin. At first the white Nuns didn't understand what was going on with us so they would laughThe Singing  Nuns and heard them sing the song Dominique. this might have been

Updated August 17, 2013 On July 31, 2013 i was running low on fuel so i went to the Food Pantry and i saw free books so i took some home with me. This was one of them We Never Called Him Henry by Harry Bennett. i still haven't had time to read all the book but on page    these numbers 1919      This morning Commend Center called me helpers were needed at Kelly Inn Motel. as i drove West on Main Ave I see these numbers that i have seen so many times before and somehow i knew i would see again or would have something to do with me and my writing. by reading this book i learned more about Mr Ford and the writer of this book.  updated August 19, on this day August 17, 2013 the supervisor at kelly Inn Motel gave me a  hint on what streets is the  Old Broadway. She made a phone call and mentioned the words NP Ave.then asked me if I had heard her having a hard time with the other person on the line about where she was calling from. (I kind of knew i was wrong  with the address but i haven't had the time to change. Today at Moorhead I was looking for Porfirio cousin from Oregon   and Emiliano Zapata showed up so i looked in to the information then i read he was born on August 8, 1879 and died on April 10, 1919. On  Sunday  August 18, 2013 around 9:55am as i took a walk in downtown then sit on a bench on Broadway and 6Ave st I was looking at the you the people going inside the Catholic church (something i can no longer






Updated December 15,2012 my son was born August 10, 1980 on that early morning there was a Tropical storm named Allen.the nurses  would come to my hospital room in Dimmit, County  kept asking me to name my son Allen after the Hurricane.i am not sure but i think my son was the only male born on that morning . I knew I would name him after my father and give him a second name. The another name would be from the first pages of a baby
During the time i worked  in Valley City, there was a couple his name is Bob her name is Sandy. Sandy was always asking me where was I from. This question she would asked because she wanted me to know that she thought of me being from Mexico but she knew i was born here. I kept telling Sandy I was born in TX. but she kept asking because i know she was told to do this to annoyedSandy Hook Elementary 1956. what is the  1956 for?  What does it mean, is it just another lawyers mind game?Updated July 31, 2013 One day on the first days of July 2013 i saw Bob Sandy's husband and i remembered he and Sandy had told both of them were twins. So i asked him again to make sure. He told me they were and that Sandy's twin brother had married a twin. more to come.  
 



next I will write about the women on this show To The Contrary with Bonnie Erbe. And explain why these women and others maybe you the reading are using the word bottom line.  These women talk, talk and repeat but don't fix a thing! To start off the black and the brown women want to look like the white woman. They bleached their hair light.Do they think light is beautiful and brown and black is not? more to come

In March 2006 when I went back to TX  I stopped watching  TV because just as today everyone  was repeating everything that had to do with me that i got sick. I bought old movies but even what was in these movies people repeated. These were some of them the movie Gotti. And these other ones much older movies of Sherlock Homes, The Three Stooges. And a few silent movies. These movies and other ones I watched most of the time because I didn't have money to keep buying more. But what I saw and heard in these movies people have been repeating. The word Bottom line is mentioned on the Gotti Movie this is a word people are using more then ever before. I  liked watching this movie because I was learning how the FBI works how they can bug inside homes. Sherlock, was remade  the Three Stooges was remade. A black and white silent movie was also remade. I heard a new Gotti movie will come out too. During this time in 2006 i was very sick that  most of the time I couldn't sleep or eat. You the people have been giving me live flashbacks that my mind got so weak. I would get up from bed at     around 2:am or 4: am  and  just drive around but this didn't help because like never before you the people from Crystal City like everyone else would park your cars backwards. leave outside houselights on at night. had empty birdcages or birdhouses hanging outside your porches. one of my next door neighbor hanged a birdcage. i would drink lots of water because of thoughts i was always thirsty and by watching these movies and not watching TV watching a  new movie or listening to the radio  it would clear my mind for a while. more to come             



             

But for me now it's a necessity to learn how to operate a computer because I need to reach out to all the people. And even though I was born here my first language was Spanish. I still struggle with writing, speaking in English and expressing myself. But I speak a lot and read a little in Spanish. In Crystal City where I grew up I had no need to really practice English. In Crystal City there were  no people to whom I could speak English with other then the teachers and especially after 1969-1970 Crystal City, Schools workout. when La Raza Unida took over most of the school books were removed. We were to work on something called contract. This meant we had  assignments on boxes placed near the windows and we were told to work accordingly to our own speed. i didn't like this way of teaching because i wanted and i felt i needed to have a teacher lecturing to me. I really needed that because i knew i was way behind  and by listening i felt  i could do much better .        unlike my older siblings i didn't have a good head not only  because of all the years of early school year withdraws and late registrations because we unlike many other Mexicans had to migrant up north. Two or three of my older siblings were more fortunate then me because during that time my parents           would send  to Mexican schools with Mexicans teachers and there they would get prepare. My oldest brother used to tell me that when he      regular school  at the Grammar. The white teachers couldn't understand why or how he was so advanced in  math, reading and writing. i know he and my oldest sister could had gotten educated but then in a way i know it wasn't  meant to be.  more to come            

  
Repetitions

The FBI and other law enforcement knows what I am up to so constantly my son is given a hard time in MN prisons to discourage me from writing. The law sent people around me to give me hints  that I am being watched. People harass me wherever  I go even at work places this is why it’s so hard for me to stay in one job or attend a church.

I can't hear a  new song, see a new move, see a  new TV commercial see a talk show or talk with people because everyone is repeating what has to do with me. updated March 21, 2013 the THIS channel now is the ME channel and do all has to do with how and what i write.  

And if I do read between the lines just as this coward,  liar and more attorney and professor from ArlingtonNo Insurance Ticket before I appeared  before a judge who also played with my mind. I still don't know his name but I will find out and write it down. I hired this lawyer to help me out instead he blows my mind even more by letting me know that his not sent to listen to what happened the night I was stopped but to let me know that I  was going to plead guilty and not innocent like my son had done in Grand Forks, ND. Here are some of the questions and things Eric says to me to frighten me and let me know my son and  I were set up and how he let me know there was no lawyer that would help me or my son . He told me if I plead innocent we were going to court and all the jury the people would be staring at me. Eric told me all these bullshit because he knew how scared and embarrassed I had been in court when my son had taken his case to trial. (And I was very much embarrassed that I went to a bathroom  twice to kill time ).  And I was against my son going to court because at that time I trusted what Monty was telling me. But I didn't know what was going on.      
November 1, 2012 today I will write differently. Attorney Eric Lee Gudmundson, remember the morning of  February 8, 2006? I do! I remember i was wearing a pretty  green  pullover sweater from the Mission's downstairs donations and i wore my own blue jeans.  I remember that day being so scared because by then I knew my son and I had been set up. And all people around me even the priests were acting weird. Fr Bob on the way to Crookston, MN asked me if I had had sex with any of the lawyers. And I knew I had no money no friends no church leader to talk with and at the same time I had to deal with the world repeating what I was doing. Gudmundson! You walked in the court house looking around as if looking  you were looking for me but you were acting like a fool because you knew where I was waitingThe Making of a Militant  on February 8, 2006 after court in Crookston, MN from a borrowed phone I called Fr Bob asked him to please pick me up then I  called you Monty

When Fr. Bob arrived and i got in his car he started a conversation on the phone with a woman. The woman on the phone was practically screaming saying something about  big dogs that  had gone outside someones fence and were lose. By then my mind was    sick of all the coincidence going around me, but what could i do! Up to now nothing is real all people do is repeat what as to do with me. I had to get use to it ignore it or lose my mind. One day this was after the set up  in East Grand Forks as I would then walk everywhere because officer Olson had confiscated the only transportation I had, my son's car. That day as I walked to downtown like all other days. people coming outside to repeat what i had seen or heard.  In a white car  two adultsIdaho that night i had given a ride to  Davila and Balboa. my family and DavilaCalifornia and you made gestures with your hand as if you were holding a paper airplane and said "I will fly to California. I had told Troy your informant that  I had never been to California and once all this was over i was going to fly to California. I  had told Dianita I was going back to TX and you and other people with words and gestures gave me hints I was to stay in ND. Then I told you I was going home to TX and you told me I was to stay in ND. Then I Started crying  i told you i was going home just to say goodby to my oldest brother Luis who i was taking care of. And I told you I would come back to ND. Since that night I was framed  I knew I had no control of my life and i just didn't know what to do. Then you got a call from a woman and you put one finger on your mouth as you looked at me and went shush making it seem as if it was your wife on the phone and what was taking place between you and me was unappropriated. That day when I was known by you what was to be expected of me as I was walking out your office you said in a loud voice OK! I went waking to Dianita's apartment with my mind all messed up. Now i will go back to why you said the word OK. Before January 25, 2006 Henry and Dianita  were going to face a judge to see if (not sure but i think was going to accept the Motion). I had gone to talk with you at the courthouse asked you news about my son's case. As I was walking down the stairs you Monty told me about Dianita and Henry going to court . I turned around and told you in a calm way OK. By then you knew and Henry knew through Troy I wanted nothing to do with Henry.     After this i stopped going to your office and to Henry's office but through people you the lawyers kept playing with my mind. Updated  March 19, 2013 a few days before Christmas 2005 I went to Crookston, MN to pass Christmas with Delicia Cazares and her family and to asked her for a recommendation letter on behalf of my son. At that time I did notice strange things but I didn't really get it until after January 2006. Delicia  who is my children's second cousin wrote a letter then later on I called my daughter and told her about it. My daughter asked me to read the letter on the phone and I read it to her. Monty, one day when I went to your office you gave me a hint that you had heard that conversation. You Monty got a law book and begin reading but you were pretending you didn't know how to read. (Monty! I still don't know how to read or to spell but I am still going against you and the rest of this wicked world!)        


 January 29, 2013 Monty, Troy had been using the word sucker and said that his mother didn't like to use it because of the way it sounded. he brought up other conversations about this word. Monty, then one day as you opened your office door you had a lollipop (sucker) in your mouth and as you quickly opened the door you quickly took it out from your mouth. You did this to give me hints a about the         more to come        things that had to do with this word   one time i don't remember well if it was before or after i was set up in East Grand Forks. but   Then I wrote a letter to you and to Henry  at another time you Monty gave me hints you were more to come                                  
 updated December 28, 2012 Before January 25, 2012 (I also wrote about back in 2008.) You Monty told me it would be helpful to have a letter from a person my son knew stating that at the time of their arrest he was not staying with Danita     



January 25, 2006. That night if i am right was a Thursday and I was hand writing a letter on my son's behalf to Judge Lawrence E. Jahnke who at the time I thought would be the only one to trust because by then I knew I couldn't  trust my son's lawyer Monty J. Stensland and Henry H. Howe because Troy Lawrence who now lives here in Fargo had told me the lawyers were meeting at the       but not only discussing my son's case but  also about me. 

On the   of  January 25, 2006 I  had been with these two men both i knew since childhood 

Updated Monday
 on Saturday i bought cherries at Sun Mart on Sunday we went to see the movie MAMA.  did you notice what the girls ate to survive? The children i used to drive from school to their home, the girls wore eye glasses.and their hair looked the same as of the little girl with glasses on.     


 Lawyers, FBI and judges if you updated 

March 3, 2013  one day in 2011 on the rode on our way  from Fargo to  Finley there is an exit to Mayville on interstate 29 and the exit is 111. Today March 3, 2013 i wanted to know what was the day i was born and as i searched to September 11, 1956 i read it was a Tuesday and there are 111 days remaining and it's the 255 day of that year. back then when i saw at this sign  i knew i needed to remember this exit

Update December 5, 2012 on Monday 3, 2012 like most of the nights a black man who pretends to be crazy and talks with himself was waiting for me to leave the library then he walks behind me . This man you the people have seen here in Fargo and Moorhead. He wears black clothing


Update January 7, 2013 Attention people! These are some of the books i checked out from Fargo library back in 2011. Armageddon by Larry Massa, Secrets of Revelation by Jacques B. Doukhan and Revelation Unveiled by Tim Lahaye. what i understand the USA is the daughter of Babylon! Read Armageddon on page more to come 


Update April 7, 2013 today i had so much to write so i walked to MN but started listening to these song         instead of writing. Can"t help  it music is in my blood. last night through Commend Center  i worked at the Fargo Dome and this i had read before there and on Broadway but not this way the word Sanford - Ford. this morning by watching  Public TV i learned that in 1938 Germans destroyed buildings this night is called the Crystal Night. more to come        





Update May 16, 2013 today i came to write but i had to listened first to music these are the songs i heard. Red Rubber Ball didn't know it went up to 2 in 1966. Now I know it was written by Paul Simon and Bruse. Never heard the song Words now I  know The Cyrkle also sang it.   listened to Coming to America  Along Comes Mary   more to come  


December 26, 2012 i will tell you the people of Fargo why you were saying on radio stations back in March 2010 that Simon and Garfunkel were coming to Fargo, ND. In TX I had bought the Simon and Garfunkel CD The Concert In Central  Park back in the nineties. Since a child I have always liked to listen to their songs. I used to listened to it back in the sixties when riding with my family in the mornings to hoe sugar beets on the long way to the north fields in Casselton. The Lawyers, FBI had gone through all my past and my belongings if not direct indirect. In 2005 2006 before the law set me up. Several times I went to El Roco night club. I notice that as soon as I walked in the disc jockey would start playing this song Cecilia. At the time I thought anything of it  but my mother's name was Cecilia. update January 3, 2012 On March 2010 while i was staying at the YWCA Radio Stations were announcing Simon and Garfunkel's were come to the Fargo dome. As much as you the people have been playing with my mind I really wanted to go to one of their concerts. So I called one of woman i knew named Bonita to listen to the Radio Station who were giving out tickets.  By then I had moved to 303 downtown Fargo. Update December 31, 2012, during 2005 and 2006 the time I was in Grand Forks, I told Troy one of the ways I had learned English  was by listening to music. Years before September 2001 I had told an educator from Crystal City that when I died I wanted this song be played at my funeral The Sound Of Silence. The man I told this to passed away, I believe he had cancer. this man has brothersSimon And Garfunkel's Greatest Hits. January 4, 2013 On this CD  are songs I like but didn't have one of them was I Am A Rock. now by then we knew Simon and Garfunkel's were not coming to Town. so someone told these two women to visit me gave me the CD and gave me a hint i  was still going to see one of them. ( the native women said something like this " you will get to see one of them or get to see them" but this was a hint i was to see one of them in person. One day in the fall or winter of 2010 as i was walking on Main Ave a man carrying a guitar coming towards me. this man looked at me and  smiled he did resemble Simon. i didn't looked back to see where he was going to I know this man wasn't  Simon he was sent to just blow my mind but he did looked like him in his younger days . You  Government,  The People have been playing with my mind but still you don't know it all. this song I Am A Rock if you listen to it, it fits the way i live now.  As a child i just like to listening to it but  I wasn't alone I had my parents and older siblings. And now  I am grown up with my own family but in a way I am alone. Since March  2010 I live in an efficiency room  and from my  two windows I can see below three streets on winter covered with snow and  i see you the people on the sidewalks and parking lots . And i have seen deep dark Decembers just as this song says. 



Update April 22, 2013 about two months my daughter had told me twice that a classmate of her's had told her he thought i looked Russian


Update May 22, 2013 i have so much to write but for now i must write this information. long ago i had seen the on tape the movie Devil's Advocate and in the letters i wrote i used it as in example how you the people are acting around me as if the Devil is in you  your bodies and mindsPainted Black  and i know this song has been played on purposed many times because it was to remind me of what i said about the Ford case. and i remember right now it was played on the radio one day in San Marcus when my mind was all massed up and drove in a parking lot at a HEB store the wrong way. and a woman told me i was going the wrong way. it wasn't a big deal but this she did to let me know i was being watched all the time. Back to today may 22, 2013 i came to Moorhead to write and i looked up the lyrics to the song Painted Black because it's played at the end of the movie and read what it says. I see a red door and i want it painted black.           

Before this day May 22, 2013 i really didn't know what all the words were in this song.
this past Friday i bought a pair of sunglasses at the Mall. my daughter asked me, "where did you get those sunglasses from" i told her at the mall then asked her why. she told me because they were D G and she knew would have not found them at a thrifty shop. I think it was Sunday we went shopping when i saw this little boy with his mother with a pair of sunglasses hanged on his front T shirt the way i hung mine when  I take them off  inside a store. i thought to myself even children are told to repeat what i do and i thought this way because i know some children are told to repeat. Then  i hear that a Twister hit Oklahoma then i read on newspaper today that destroying an elementary school with direct blow as children and teachers huddled against winds up to 200 mph. i read it was the second one to hit the first was in 1999. today i read that on may 22, 2011 a tornado hit was the deadliest in the usa since modern tornado  records.and today the word Crazy is one of  the most popular words ever used even with children. more to come    

back to the document  February 12, 2013 On  page 3 it says that the T F O Nickel asks Bustamante how she knows that marijuana is in the package. Bustamante says that her boyfriend (Luis Munoz) was expecting a package on that day. Let me tell you the reader what else i told Henry H. Howe in 2004 not only  had I  told Howe about Rey Perez being unfair with my son and  had sent him to boot camp and had later lose a granddaughter.  I  also told him that if Dianita the mother of my grandson's didn't shape up i was going to try to take the boys  away from her. I told Howe i had asked Dianita why were so many men going inside her apartment. she told me she had been selling Marijuana. Back in August 2004 first time in Grand Forks i dropped everything  i was doing in Crystal City, TX and hurried myself to Grand Forks because my son was put in jail and Dianita's grandmother had phoned me that my son had beat up her grand daughter  but his was a lie my son had not put a hand on her this is what happened.  One night Dianita

You will read letters my son sent to me supporting what I say. You will read documents explaining how the law framed my son twice in ND and now in MN. You’ll  see pictures how my son was mistreated in Jamestown prison. These pictures were shown to me to discourage me from fighting back. You will see the ticket the law gave to me when I too was set up in East Grand Forks in 2006 and how the law played with my mind.

You will read letters from lawyers who started this conspiracy who are eager to drive me insane so my word is not valid against them.

You will read letters from Bishops here in Fargo how they are covering up for two priests I need to question about this conspiracy but were relocated. You will learn how priests, ministers repeat what has to do with me. You will read how National News, San Antonio Express News. And the Fargo’s Forum TV reporters and many other kinds of Media also support the government and are participants in this wicked mind game. Where even the ones who want to be known as Christians play along! 

July 21, 2012 I heard this morning on the radio, "Casselton, ND will be having a twist dance contest." Read my letters see what I wrote about  dancing the Twist how this has to do with my past years in ND. See where you the people are getting your ideas to play wicked mind games. May 25, 2013        more to come February 2013 

This is so wicked that inside churches like First Presbyterian made a commercial where the priest and entire congregation are dancing around going thumbs up saying "…. Downtown baby!" What used to be God's Temple is now being use to destroy my mind! July 2012 days after I added this information a man walked inside this church stared at me as he closed the two front doors across the street as I hold my signs outside the Fargo's Federal building.
Update December 14, 2012 who is this woman in this wicked commercial who was told to stand in front of the church congregation and posed so brave as front leader? Listen I have been writing all along that there is a conspiracy going on masterminded conducted by lawyers like Monty J. Stensland, Henry H. Howe and many others from Grand Forks, ND! Lawyers like Rey Perez, Roberto Alonzo, Jesus Gamez and many others  from Crystal City, TX! By now this is not just these lawyers by now it is a worldwide conspiracy! Every lawyer is behind this madness! Does president Obama knows? Yes Obama knows! Does Mitt Romney knows? Yes Mitt knows! Have they played the mind game? Yes, they have played the game! Now this woman or anyone else can come to me tell me why such words and why do this kind of church advertisement? People, this is why I say this relates to me. In 2005 when Monty took over my son's case there were several times that he called me concerning where my grandson's were with because both parents at the time were in jail. And I had just arrived in ND and was worried about their whereabouts. On all these first phone conversations I had with Monty I would addressed my grandsons in this manner."My Babies." They were not babies they were toddlers. But to me they were babies. I could hear or not hear the silence of Monty on the other side of the phone as if he sounded so fed up with my words and my accent. Where does the word downtown  comes from? On letters I been writing I write that I live in downtown, Fargo.  
Would this be just another coincidence? If you the people were told to use such words  more lightly these are not coincidence. Someone told you to repeat and you did it willingly.  
This brave woman can come to me at anytime and anywhere because just as other women who I know have played with my mind I will ask tough questions. If you the people don't help me solve this problem then you are my problem! And please First Presbyterian church if you have me in your church results please put down my whole blogger this way other people and read the rest. Thank you. more to come 

Updated  August  5, 2013 On this day July 27, 2013 as me my daughter and one of my grandson's were  on the car going  north on Broadway Street. I noticed on the left side  on 22 Ave  St North was a garage sale. I stopped and my grandson and i got out of the car to see what goodies we could find. My grandson saw a picture of Christ asked me to buy it. I saw two V S H and bought them too. I gave one to my grandson and kept I kept this one title National Geographic Video The Incredible Human Machine. Days after i saw the film noticed these numbers 5 and seventies are mentioned. Last night August 4, 2013  i went to buy the newspaper and felt like taking a walk. So i walked and then sat on a bench on the corner of Broadway and 1st Ave north. as i was enjoying the nice cool brisk air. I looked at the door of Old Broadway Bar  i noticed the numbers 22. i sat there with my thoughts on how many times this happens to me here in Fargo. i after a while i waked home to 303 and turned on the TV and start watching the story of the diary of Hannah Senech. And her age at that certain time of her life is mentioned age 22. i also learned something else that the star the Jews were told to used during Hitler days was Yellow. before knowing this back in 2005 i had told Troy Yellow was my least  favorite  color.  this past week my daughter and i were talking about the song Yellow and i was thinking this song too was written on purpose to remind me of what i had told Troy. My daughter had something else in her mind  that i didn't know. she   said it reminded her when God tells Abraham this "Look at the stars how they shine for you" more to come This morning August 5, 2013 as i parked the car in front of spicy Pie on Broadway  i see these numbers 322 and on the left i see these numbers i had seen before  since 1911. Updated August 6, 2013  Yesterday as i clicked out without paying attention to the computer time I had 22 minutes left to use.   more to come on this day       
   



Read more as to why people are told to say and do such things. Most of you the people are playing wicked games and it’s so frighten more horrible then the movie “Rose Mary’s Baby” (where people were demons) or any horror book Steven king has ever written, because this is for real and you the people think nothing’s wrong for it!

Read books of the Holocaust notice that many didn’t care what Hitler and Himmler ordered doctors and others to do these were wicked things done to innocent people. While the government, doctor’s even churches leaders from here and other countries were saying it was okay or looking the other way. 
 

My son and I mean nothing to the world this is why you the people are doing wicked things to us. The  law has given me hints not only  my medical records have been exposed to the public but also gave me hints my brother's medical record were exposed while he was alive and in San Antonio, TX hospitals. The FBI reads my letters, hear my phone calls, see me nude.And sees more personal things I do inside my home then tells you the people to repeat it!            

You will read letters I wrote to church leaders using these words, “and you approve it” or “you approved it.” These and many other words, lines, ideals the politicians stole from me.  Stole my way of writing to used in their political commercials!  The Forgo Forum  like everyone else gets ideas from my letters. This is one of them I used these words "He says," I wrote about  Jose Angel Gutierrez  what he wrote but I write "He says' now the Forum writes "She says." I wrote on my letters. " This is why I will do it my way." Now politicians and others say. "The North Dakota Way." 

Politicians like John Hoeven, Heidi Heitkamp, Rick Berg, and all other politicians know about this mind game but still are willing to play. And if president Obama used the words “approved it”

And if any politician or other persons says I am lying let him or her come before me; explain to me before the world why so many coincidences are going on, why they politicians, celebrities and ordinary people repeat what I do. more to come 

July 30, 2012, Yes! President Barack Obama you know about this conspiracy and you approved it ! Thanks for letting me know by showing me on one of your TV political commercials that you approved it. I won't forget and in return I won't let you and other demons forget how you are destroying our lives! 


I am going to plant a seed in your minds ask you question how would you feel if what me and my son are going through would happen to any of you or your love ones! This will be just questions but they will stay in your minds forever!    

People,I didn’t start writing these letters because I wanted to learn how to write well and become a great writer, I started writing out of necessity to prove how the law framed my son and has kept him in prisons for crimes he didn’t commit. To prove how the law framed me and has me under 24/7 surveillance. To prove how the law tells you the people to repeat what I wear, see, read, write, hear and  sometimes even what I smell.

You the people have made this possible by repeating what I do on Movies, Songs, Books, TV shows, National News, Daily news and Conversations. Church Congregations but none of you see this wrong! Some of you might not know what is going on but most of you do know and will deny it and play along you go to church thinking God approves of  what you are doing!

John Hoeven name is on my signs because he was the ND Governor back in 2005 and because he knows about this conspiracy he approved  it! I know there was no way this madness would have started and gone this far without his approved! just think back when he was running for Senator and when he made his commercials laughing like a demon, saying, "and I approved it!      who is called when 

I can prove that because of lawyers, judges, the FBI, I have no privacy. Politicians, writers and others invade my privacy. The FBI reads my letters steal my ideals steal my lines, my way of talking my way of writing read my medical records whatever I do, you the public knows and repeats. 

But God is revealing to me this is His plan that I was given a reason to come before the government on His behalf.But through connections with FBI,  lawyers and others you the people are told to repeat anything that has to do with me. 
But not all I have noticed dreams of events I had way before knowing I was coming back to ND are occurring! The streets construction that took place in 2010 in Moorhead. The streets construction

I dreamed I walked streets with large holes, pits the large pipes the deep open broken ground! The first thing I grab when I am inside a library is a dictionary. 
And as I looked for the word pit I noticed this. "If two opposing things or people are pitted against one another,they are in conflict. These were two strong men who pitted their skills against each other." In 2010 when I saw Moorhead streets on construction I thought I had seen it all because there were the streets I walked in my dreams. But there
was more for me to see now I see the rest of my dream here in the streets of Fargo.    Now I know that what is written on Mathew 10:16-22 does refer to me!  Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents,and harmless as doves.but beware of men: for they will deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their Synagogues;and ye shall be brought before governors and kings for my sake,for a testimony against them and the Gentiles. but when they deliver you up,take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak. for it is not ye that speak but the Spirit of your father which speaketh in you. and the brother shall deliver up the brother to death,and the father the child:and the children shall rise against their parents and cause them to be put to death.and ye shall be hated of all men for my sake:but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. Now read Lake Mark 13: 1-13       

But nevertheless this madness did start with lawyers Monty J.Stensland and Henry H. Howe from Grand Forks, ND. And Mexican American lawyers from Crystal City, TX like Rey Perez Jr. Rey Perez Sr. Jose Angel Gutierrez, Roberto Alonzo, and many others but now it’s a worldwide conspiracy. Law enforcements, government agents, government employees, churches leaders know about this mind game too but none are willing to talk and will say they don’t know what I am talking about! This is why I will make them talk!

And if  any persons I mentioned don’t like the tough

These are some of the things you the people are told to repeat. Chew gum with mouth wide open. Call me Maria when you know my name is Marta or Martha .Whistle, extend your hand out from car windows. whisper on someones ear. Wear red and men are told to wear pink shirts. Make U- turns on streets. Give thumbs up and used the word baby. Use the word This, Have a good day, lick their lips use the words, Once Upon A Time. wrap sweaters around waist. October 31, 2012 i used to say this this words to the people of Fargo when i first started pic   "i will declare my son's innocence" today i heard  Joel Ols has made a book starting with the words i will declare this man  like many others has been mocking me and i can prove this to his face! more to write     

Turn car lights on in daylight. Park

But I have notice and I know

I know this has to do with  some of the signs Christ told His disciples were going to happened before things would get worst. I know this things are happening and these things can be proven. Then this means there is no other God only the God of Jacob Isaac and Abraham and that  means Christ was the son of God and that He was and is the true Messiah who came and died and was risen from the dead  for the forgiveness of our sins! And that his keeping His promise and His words are being fulfilled! 

But up to now I have nobody to talk with  about this amazing

You will read how my personal stories and my way of living what I do inside my home is repeated by many church leaders like pastor Tony Scheving. And many well known book writers are repeating. And even unknown writers like Jose Angel Gutierrez who wrote two books about him me and another woman from Crystal City TX repeats things I told the lawyers informant  Troy Lawrence in 2005 2006 when I was staying at the Mission in Grand Forks, ND. Gutierrez  repeated many things also all chapters are about stories I told Troy and other people.  

This started in 2004 or maybe way before but I don’t know when or how it’s going to end. I pray to God it will end soon. Sometimes I am afraid to write something I am not sure of because I’ve been wrong before but I know this wickedness is going on!

By reading my letters you will learn more about me understand how this game is being updated January 28,2013 Military men and education in my family. My father told me once in a conversation that when he was called or tried to join the military he was not accepted because he didn't understand English well enough. this was because he had only gone to the third grade but to a Spanish school in crystal city. So my father knew how to write and read in Spanish. He was also very bright in math too and kept up with currant events. and even though he didn't  join the army he worked hauling in food for the Japanese people who were kept in the Crystal City Concentration Camp.  He once told me that the government had gotten smarter after the second war. and this is why he said this when  my oldest brother who was born in 1942 was in junior high  school if any Mexican boy missed school the sheriff would go to the boy's home and pick him up take him to school. this was not because the law cared so much about the Mexican boy getting a good education. but because the law the government wanted for him to understand the English Language, get them ready in case of a war. March 2, 2013  more to come 



Updated September 22, 2013 People i have so much to write but for now i can only write this information. yesterday at windy on 13 Ave a man i didn't know gave me a Bison ticket. my daughter told me to go watch the game  and take pictures so i did. I didn't know  the marching band used a gold star i couldn't believed it because when i have so many thoughts in my mind i draw stars and boxes. my daughter writes her name i used to do that but i stopped long time ago and I started drawing Stars and boxes. Now Texas is known for the long Star. more to come. last time i dreamed this is good because it means i got a good night sleep. I was very tried and i needed rest. maybe this dream means nothing  but maybe it does. i dreamed i was in a plane with other people. the plane had windows on the ceiling and as i was looking up i saw a big round thing something like a jelly fish. this could have been because my daughter and i had been at the mall and i had seen from far away the glass Aquarium. i don't know what this means but i saw this big jelly fish or that looked like a jelly fish up in the sky and in the dream. i kept looking up. the sky and this thing that looked like a jelly fish looked blue more to come                  

 Updated January 8, 2013 all these OKs and more came from the mouth of a female attorney who spoke at the YWCA on March 2010 during the time i was homeless. Her name is Kelsee Macintosh  Legal Services PO Box 1327 Fargo, ND. phone:701-232-4495 Ext 310. This demonized woman and others tried hard to blow my mind. I complained to the ND  Bar about her and others but nothing was done. Now i am going against her and  all the others! But I am doing it my way! On the mouth of March 2010 she and others from legal Services were at the women's Y as she started talking she kept repeating the word OK on every sentence she said. And kept shaking  her head just as i had done in court when my son was on trial. You, Macintosh were repeating this word so many times that i started writing down all the OKs that were coming out from your mouth! i don't know at what point i started recording them on this green notebook but i got all of these ones. Are you sick? or were you repeating what this pervert  Monty J. Stensland had screamed to me giving me a big hint i was right about me and my son being set up. And about me being watched all the time. ( Now Kelsee I will come back and get personal with you and other brave women)! The song   firework  by Katy Perry is about sex about having an orgasm. Orgasm= the peak of sexual excitement,characterized by ejaculation of semen by the male.  In March 2006 when i went back to TX. These were some of the words and sounds brother Angel was told to repeat to play with my mind. The word  Rocky Balboa and he would walked by me making  a sound like this ah ah, ah ! Not as loud as Perry but he did this again and again. One time i asked him why such sound he said his leg was hurting. but i knew he was just repeating what he was told to repeat. Updated January 18, 2013 In 2005 I wanted freedom! My daughter had just gotten married my son was in Grand Forks, ND living and having baby boys with his now ex girlfriend.  I wanted to start  taking more  care of myself. Go out, meet a nice man who would take care of me, get married and why not maybe even have another baby, start again! And what I used to see as wrong was not concerning me that much. On September 2005 I took a ride to ND with a man I knew since childhood because back in the sixties for several years his uncle would take him and his sisters to help us with the sugar beet fields here in ND. i knew his first wife De La Cruz. But now he was married to his second wife Moncada.  i had always liked this man only as a friend and anything else. My mean concerned was to get to ND talk with the appointed lawyer and get my son out of jail.now that i look back i know all was a plan that lawyers from ND and TX had in mind. on our way to ND i told Juan Jose that if it was a set up i was going to take it to the Media. then he told me the name of the newspaper in Grand Forks. When i arrived Dianita was just barely released from jail and not in a good mood so after about two weeks she told me i hadn't stay with her any longer. i knew i had to stay because i wanted to know what was going to happened to my son and talk with his lawyer so i moved in to the Mission. the first day a man named Troy introduced himself to me. This man was the lawyers informant but at first i didn't know until i started noticing how he was behaving. more to come         
     

played and hopefully help me stop this ordeal that would drive any person in insane 


Updated March 16, 2013 of the few CD's I brought here from TX is a CD of Bob Seger  who will be performing  tonight at the Fargo Dome. These are some of the songs i sometimes listened to before walking  down stairs to the Federal building and do my picketing with my signs that read John Hoeven Conspirator U Approved It, And I Can Prove It! GFNTF You Set Up My Son With A Box Of Drugs!FBI & Attorneys U Read My Mail, See Me Nude, Read my Medical Records  FBI & Attorneys U R  Cowards, Perverts & Mind Rapists    more to come          Against The Wind, Main Street, Roll Me Away, Like A Rock           Updated march 18, 2013  On the night of  March 16, 2013  i worked doing housekeeping and a woman named Marlin called me Sharon she knows my name is not Sharon but i know she was told to do this because i knew a woman named Sharon here in ND. And day of the times i worked at the Holiday Express another woman called me Susan will i also used to know a Susan in Colorado. this is one of the many other ways you the people play with my mind.  more to come  





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Updated June 1, 2013 This Document dated May 14, 2009 i had used or said these words c/o was a repeated back to me  more to come    

Updated July 10, 2013  Really Monty J. Stensland, Laughable!? Laughable just as in 2006  when i called you  hoping you would stop playing mind games and stop sending people to harasses me i said these words  to you and you started laughing out loud in the phone. "You Are The Winner" what were you thinking? you Monty were thinking about your D! Your penis this is why you started laughing! months ago or a year ago this very big pregnant woman named Jessica Simpson said in a talk show she had eaten a wiener and  was having a boy. This big woman was told to say such thing and she did and people started laughing. this is what she wanted to say something that would bring attention to her. Monty that afternoon  i was disparate to find some kind of relief  i wanted you and others to stop sending people to mess with my mind i didn't know what else to do! updated July 11, 2013 this morning around 9:28 am i walked to my car that was parked on a Avenue and got in to drive it to a street on Broadway because very 90 minutes  it needs to be moved. i you the lawyers want to shut me up I know you the wicked lawyers sent someone to break my driver's side door mirror. this is not the first time you the law vandalize my property just as it was done in TX. And i know it won't be the lest

more to come  i will continue with this letter and explain to you Monty why and how i can sue you! more to come about this letter! now what a coincidence there is  a lawyer who wants to be New York

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Updated June 3, 2013 Attention   there were and has been many ways you the judges and lawyers have twisted everything around for your convenience to indict my son and start a physiological  mind game on both of us. so far you have kept my son in prisons for crimes he didn't commit. And so far have had the support of other lawyers, judges and even church leaders on your side.now i know that all my children are suffering because of what i write in  jobs in prisons and in their schools.  i know my family  has it hard  because of what i write and do. But back in 2008 in a letter addressed to Muriel way before i knew how to use a computer and way before i knew i was going to hold the hard core evidence i now have in my hands.     I warned you that if no one would come forward i was going to program all information on the internet for the whole world to see and i still have a copy of that letter that now I will use!. now as you know i don't know much or not a thing about law. but i know there is something very wrong here! Motion to SuppressSince Day One." But  lets play this way for now! more to come             

updated June 1, 2013 Monty J. Stensland since the beginning you and Henry H. Howe and many others have tried very hard to drive me and my son crazy but i don't forget a thing.  Remember back in 2005    when you lawyers had my son in jail. you  told him or sent a grand to get my son into admitting he had a mental problem and for him to take some kind of drugs and that he would be cleared from all the chargers he was accused of. you Monty and others are still playing with my son's mind. his now in Moose lake and was told to to a physical check up which he did then he was told he needed to be more to come and can't wait    you Monty      taking  sent him a       right now my son is in moose lake and   i don't have a mental

Updated July 25, 2013 Henry H. Howe on this letter you wrote for me and gave to your supporters Kalash and Pettit Attorney at Law to pass on to me by mail.  I will prove how you lied and played with my mind by repeating words that had to do with me. In 2005 i went to north  Dakota with a man last named Fuentes. this man i knew since childhood because his uncle Antonio Ramirez and wife would bring him and his oldest sister to work here in Mapleton, ND  through the years i knew this man i never did like him for anything else other then a  friend. 2005 I somehow got disparate on how things in my life were going. On one of the dates i had with this man i asked him for a more personal date.At that time Troy was around me wherever  I went. And by then he had admitted to me not my son but I was the mean topic in conversations you Henry,  Monty and the guard

But I know that if I don’t put some of you in my situation you will never care enough to read my letters and help me stop this madness!

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Today  November 29, 2012 as I was picketing outside the Fargo's  Federal Building a young man came to me started  a conversation then told me to look into the Native Mayan  history. I told him I would and what  i have learned on this book title The 2012 Story by John Major Jenkins is somewhere on top or bottom where you can read  need to keep reading but here is this information.  I hope i haven't already wrote it somewhere else. Updated April 12, 2013 on page 365 last paragraph this millennial or b'aktunian movement responds to the close of a great prophetic cycle of 400 years in the Maya calender. for the Maya

This is why I will use lawyers, Judges, government employees and ordinary people as examples

Keep reading to understand how the law manipulated, twisted everything around to fix the system for their convenience. I will begin with a series of letters I wrote and rewrote on my drives.Thank you for reading and keep logging in everything  I post will be explain.

Update November 26, 2012 these past weeks i been watching a documentary on Natives that helped built the towers in New York. i wanted to know if they had also helped built the twin towers and the answer is yes. Some of the Iron Workers were Mohawks. i wanted to know this because i too have Native blood. and they live in Central New York state.     
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July 25, 2012 my mind and heart are aching because I had planed to put all my letters on display for you the people to read. But  yesterday at the Moorhead, MN Library I was only able to scanned one more letter because all the others I had saved on my drive were lost. These letters  gave details how since 2004 most of you are supporting lawyers, judges and other government employees to keep my son in prison and drive me in  insane. And yesterday some of you started giving me hints you knew about it. But I can only believe that for some good reason God is allowing

In 2005 I arrived in Grand Forks, ND I knew something was not right but I didn't  know my son had been framed. On January 2006 my son was found guilty by an organize jury that was set up by the law. This was a copy cat from the trial in Crystal City, TX lawyers going against the Ford motor company when lawyers like Rey Perez were suing the Ford company no one could say a word against them because they would bring your world down. An empire can not go against each other they have to stick together or they will fall. This is why all lawyers are working together all lawyers are telling you the people to help them out by repeating anything that has to do with me!

And the only way this psychological warfare could be affected was if I knew about it. If I knew my son had been set up to be kept in prisons for crimes he didn't commit and for me to know there was a conspiracy going on to drive me crazy. The law wanted me to know that this madness was orchestrated by lawyers, judges, FBI and government employees. So in January 25, 2006  around 9:30pm in Grand Forks,MN the law sent out officer Olson badge #566 to stop me tell me my back lights were not working but they were because  my son had asked me while he was in jail to get his Explorer checked out  but nothing was wrong with it. Officer Olson knew I had no car insurance  he was already informed by the lawyers but he needed to give me a reason why I had been stopped. Officer

In 2006 when I went back to Crystal City I applied for another copy of my license. Now I want to face this officer in person! On February 8, 2006 I went to court in Crookston, MN. My appointed lawyer was Eric Lee. Gudmundson which I had been spelling wrong. Weeks before court day in MN Fr. Bob took me to buy insurance at 25003 2nd Avenue South P.O. Box 14899 Grand Forks, ND Phone 701- 795-1459 with Jodi Adair.  I asked Jodi if she would write down Eric Gudmundson, name she did but wrote it this way Goodmerson. This is why I have been spelling his name wrong. I don't know if she did it on purpose or if she just didn't know how to spell. But I knew she was told to play with my mind and I knew I was going to need her name and Eric's name because once I got home I  was  going to start something and I was going to need as many names I could get from people to get back at the lawyers who I knew had started this madness! more to come

It hasn't been easy for me and I know it hasn't been easy for my son being in prison for this long and many of you who wanna be known as Christians know whats going on!     Jodi Adair like others did many things to blow my mind but this is the one I remember the most. She asked me for my Social Security  number I  had never been asked for that when buying car insurance. But this she was told to ask me because when i was driving my son's white Explorer the night I was set up and stopped and set up in East Grand Forks I left my purse behind  in the Explorer. I know the lawyers gave it to     people from Mexico to get work here in the USA. Then in 2007 I had to prove to the  government what they already knew that my number had been used. Not only that I had to call all places it had been used and pay money to the government to clear my name! Here are the documents and this is why more to come     




Update  this words up date I used on my letters because I needed to mention  new information and these words were used on the national news on that same day I used them. I had opened this blogger back in 2009 but still was writing letters on my drives and now 2012 the blogger uses update too I don't know if blogger was using it before me.

Update! Several months ago I bought this book Divided We Stand by Eric Darton and I haven't read it only gone through the pages. Yesterday August 1, 2012 my daughter and we were driving from Fargo's Wal

 Updated September 21, 2012 before 911 I didn't know there was a  Federal Trade world Center and that it was in New York. The colors I try to wear whenever  I am picketing out side the Federal Building are Red white and black. Later on  I will tell you why I wear these three colors.

 November 26, 2012 i wanted to know what day was September 11, 2001 it was  on a Tuesday Morning this was the second day of the week. For weeks i had been looking parts of a documentary on who were the Natives that helped built the New York towers and i learned that they were Mohawks from New York state. I wanted to know this because I too am a Native.  Iron workers they too helped built the twin  towers.  

August 7, 2012 today I am so glad my son called me while I am here at the Moorhead library and today my North Dakota nurse Aide  certificate expires and as I write this information people come in the library saying their library card has expired. I never got to use it because I was afraid I might have been falsely accused  of doing something wrong. last night I went through book Divided we Stand because I remembered other things I had read on this book that relate to me. and here are some. in 2010 I started  picking ting outside the United State Court House but one day as i was looking for the social Security office I stumble by the FBI office which is in the same building. then i called and asked for the name of the leader or head man to write on my signs and a woman answered he phone. I asked her what was the name of the lead FBI then she asked me, "who are you?" look at page 184, one morning in march 1992 you stared up at the world trade center towers

Today is a beautiful Saturday morning August 11, 2012  time 9:30 am. All this month I've  been looking for a job. Wondering  why God hasn't led me to one that I won't be harassed and  be close to my apartment.  I been worried about how I am going to put minutes on my phone and pay my rent. 

Asking

"July 23, 1915 was designated "Ford Day" by the City of Fargo.To celebrate the completion of the building." "The 55 -piece "Big Ford Band"with H.C. Phillips visited Fargo that day and gave a concert in Island Park." Then I walked inside Fargo's library and the first book my eyes caught  was  Chicago  by ThomasMine Eyes Have Seen  by  Richard Goldstein On page 257 it reads They were one too many - Anna betrayed him for 5,000 reward and a posse of FBI agents and police erased Dillinger as public enemy no 1."  

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Updated November 2, 2013 August 24, 2013 was the 50 years  March Anniversary in Washington. Nonmember 22, 2013 will be the 50 years Anniversary of assassination of president John F. Kennedy. more to come         

Update August 5, 2012. What brings me to J. Dillinger? well I don't  really know much about this man but I will write what now it has to do with me. On this day August 5, 2012 at the Moorhead Library I  go through the pages of these two books Dillinger's Wild Ride by Elliott J. Gorn and John Dillinger by Dary Matera before looking at these books the only thing I remember about Dillinger's
now?  On September 13 as I listened to the radio I hear, "today are 54 days until Election day." Then this came into my mind on my Birthday September  11, it was 56 days until Election day! 56 numbers double again on the 11.   

On August 6 for some reason I needed to know more about the song "Red River  Valley" and this came up  ( Jo Stafford sings "Red River valley" in 1955.) Last night August 8, 2012 I heard on the radio this song I used to like to listened to back in the seventies.
 Nights In White Satin" and this I didn't  know it wasn't played on the radio because it was too long so it took five years to be played and it was 2# on the 100 hit list. Something came into my mind, something I knew but I had to be reminded to  mentioned  to you the people . Would this be Christ coming back for the second time? I say it is! Though I like the song and would listen to it  on these radio stations, Fargo K Q W B and on K T S A San Antonio. I really didn't know about this song. Now I know the Album was "Days of the future passed" What I am saying is that the law is spying on me telling you the people to repeat but not all please keep reading to understand why I am saying wi 

February 8, 2013 on September 11, 2001 early on the morning my daughter From Threshold Of A Dream and i listened  to Tuesday Afternoon. before yesterday i had never seen their cover album before or knew their cover names. more to come      
   



In 1985 one day while I was a student in a beauty school in Greeley, Colorado a white pregnant woman got near me asked me if I wanted to receive Christ as my savior. I accepted the invitation and ever since my fears were all gone but in  January 25, 2006 I were to encounter horrible, wicked satanic realities of this world.     The word Colorado is red in English, red = Colorado.In the license picture officer Olson kept in 2006 I was pictured with a red blouse. And at that time I was severely anemic but I didn't know. I think it was later that i went to the doctor and i was given red iron pills and premarital vitamins. In August 2004 the first summer I went to Grand Forks, ND I was only concern about the Carpal Tunnel Syndrome on my hands. I thought my weakness came from that  because I had been very busy with other things I wasn't taking the iron and premarital vitamins and wasn't thinking it was my blood that was weak. That year when i met Howe and his wife Mary Seaworth i told them about my hands. Mary Seaworth told me she had the same problem and that she had surgery on her hands. I told her I was going to look into that once I went back to TX. Now all these was in 2004. I also told Howe about Rey Perez being unfair and  had send my son to prison then later had lost a granddaughter in a Ford vehicle. In 2005 when I went back to ND when I arrived  I stayed  about two weeks with the mother of my three grandsons then the she told me I  needed to move out because Social Services didn't allowed


Update December 20, 2012 these are other things I notice. The ticket Olson gave me the numbers on his badge are 566, then there is the I pad phone 5.  more to come

December 27, 2012 back in 2006 when I knew I couldn't end my life i asked God to please take me with Him. (At the time I wasn't thinking about the pain my son and the rest of my family were going through. Because I was hurting too much and couldn't do a thing about it). When i noticed God wouldn't answered. I told Him I couldn't live this way to please help me go back to North Dakota and help me face the lawyers.I asked Him to prepare me a table in the presents of my enemies. I kept praying asking for strength, tolerance, patients and forgiveness. It would be many reproaches, hateful remarks, word repatriations, mind blowing games from you the people.And i still had to bury my oldest brother who also played with my mind, before I would see North Dakota again. But on July 2009 I heard my son had been arrested again here at the half way house. He had already plead guilty to another false accusation from MN. By then the law knew I was coming back because I had wrote to Governments even church leaders. My son had begged  me to stop writing but I refuse. I knew he was going to be set up again I knew you the lawyers with government support were going to do it again. I told my son when he was in the half way house to be careful not to be around Dianita'sCommand is used many times. Command = to direct with authority; give orders to. 2. to have control or authority over; rule.  At one point back in February, 2011 i was feeling bad wanted to give up but then i notice the two sings that were put up after the governors elections on interstate 94 west passing  Casselton  going to Valley City, ND and that gave me hope again!By then i knew i was to come before governors, councils. more to come                                                                   
  



Between  August 10 and September 14, of this year 2012 both of my only two grown children will be 32 years old. Add 3+2=5  3+2=5  5+5=10. This year was the tenth anniversary of 911.Month of September 2012 these are other things reveal to me that i didn't  know or didn't remember because I paid no or little attention to. On  September 5, 1972 11 Israelis were killed in West Germany during the Olympias. The murders were eight Palestinians belonging to the organization called Black September. Police killed five and hold three but later were release. On July 2012 London had for the first time Israeli team killed in 1972 honored in the London Olympic Village. The numbers 11 and 5 and the month September are present here. Now on Thursday 20, 2012 as I  watched TV and like always having to hear repetition of what i say and do. I also see this on NBC News Rock Center Show New York, City, 55 Engine 55 firehouse ( Double Nickel) it was built by Napolean Le Brun and son's. Updated February 25, 2013  The night Olson stopped me in East Grand Forks he told me he had stopped me because my back lights were not on were not working this was a lie! Because many times    previous to that set up in MN. During several  visitations with my son in jail. he had told me to take his car for check ups one of the places he told me to take it was Gateway Auto Tech. he kept telling me to get it checked so later on Troy told me about a mechanic station who he had worked for and i also took it there to be checked.  i know there was nothing wrong with the back lights when Olson and you the lawyers confiscated  my sons car. You! Told those people to give away my social security card to these  illegal  people who used it on these five states!  Then i had to prove it wasn't me who had worked in these states ! When you, Fr. Bob took me to buy insurance with this wicked woman named Jodi she asked me for my socialNever before  I had been asked for it! all this suit you the lawyers told this wicked  to say and to do just as you have been telling everyone else!Now this you told her to asked me because you so bad for me to  know you the government had everything on your hands! That you were controlling my life! more to come    






 






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What I am saying is that everything that has to do with me and the world is doubling as in twins the same kind.Two together in pairs. What were the two towers in New York? They were two of a kind, twins. This September I will be 56  years old. I was born in 1956 then this will double. What are lesbians and gays, and what do they want in ND? They want to marry, marry the same sex this would made them  two of the same kind! What are two things that now Fargo, ND and New York  have in common? It's something I never saw before in the years when we used to come work on the sugar beet fields is diversity. And there is a miniature statue of the lady of  liberty like the one in New York, N Y on Main Ave bridge that separates ND and MN. I was born in Crystal City, TX. Who is being picketed by a Union? The American Crystal Sugar company! On letters I wrote and I am writing  I am saying lawyers who were suing the Ford Company in Crystal City, TX started this conspiracy with lawyers from Grand Forks, ND. 


Now why would I say this? In 2004 my son and his ex-girlfriend mother of my three grandsons got into an argument and my son went to jail. my son had bought a car from a lawyer named Henry H. Howe from Grand Forks, ND because my son had been in trouble years before when he was a child. The police officers were also finding ways to arrest him that is why we don't really trust the public defenders or certain judges. I went looking for Henry H. Howe he and his wife Mary Seaworth have their law offices close by the Grand Forks  jail. We got to talk and he said he would help my son and he did my son was release and I went back to TX but during one of the conversations I had with Henry I told him that back then Judge and lawyer Rey Perez and been unfair with my son when my son was only 13 years old and had sent him to boot camp that later on Rey had lose a granddaughter in a car accident.This was the month of August 2004 and while I was still in Grand Forks I notice too many coincidence going on after that and on the bus on my way home back to TX ! But how would I have known a wicked conspiracyBelieve  is one of the many words people repeat. Then he told me he didn't know what Simonson thought about the Motion and that i shouldn't trust appointed lawyers  well he was just repeating to me what i had told him in 2004. And he told me other things that got me worried. That night I couldn't sleep so the next morning i went to talk with him again  I told him these words "i didn't have money but  maybe someone will feel sorry for me." he right then told me about Monty J. Stensland and where his office was which was across his street. Monty and i started talking i got the inspiration he didn't really like Simonson. Monty told me the fee and i agreed to pay him one thousand dollars to take the case. But i didn't even had that money so i called my daughter and she was the one who helped me pay off.  And  i didn't know  how i was going to pay him the rest but at the time i had other things to worry about and i was kind of enjoying being in Grand Forks. The man i got a ride with had told me if i wanted to go out i only had to call him and he would pick me up.Maybe go out to see the town and maybe go to a night club dancing. i might say the truth i knew this man since childhood and i liked him but not to be seen in public or in any other way. i just wanted a ride up here and see the town. I never did call him but he called me and we went out. one night he came looking for me with other man we both knew from Crystal City and told me to call him when ever i wanted to go out. This man also knew about the mind game people were and are playing with me but at the time i didn't know what was going on. i went to see a movie with him then      we went out with him. Back to Monty, Henry had told me Monty didn't have a secretary and  i wanted to speed up the case so i told  Monty i could go pick up my son's documents. when i got the Simonson office i waited for a while then i was asked to go in and talk with Simonson he told me about all  these other cases where men acted so bad but then he told me my son was different that he kind of like my son. When I got my son's documents i made this remark. "I am not afraid because i come from the dirties political town where they're suing the Ford company." I know these words also got to the lawyers in TX. When Monty took over, the first time we went to court he told me or asked me about a tape he had on his hand he showed me the tape and asked me if i knew what was in it. He told me the  prosecutor was going to be used it against  my son. After court Monty looked angered as if he had decided not to go with what Henry and him had agreed on. I got worried and right after that I went to see Henry but Henry told me not to worry. Mary Seaworth  you were there and told me the prosecutor just wanted to intimidate me.  Monty! then you told me after a while that no judge was going to accept the Motion, right? How did you know? Well now i know you and others knew a lot! then you told me it was better if my son would make a deal. you told me and told my son and i have the copy as you can see of that bargain. my son was to do 10 years but with 6 suspended. came down to 4 years then  from 4 years came down to 18 months on good behavior. but then my son told me that YOU PROSECUTOR THOMAS H. FALCK, JR ND BAR ID #03216 WOULDN'T GUARANTEE THE PLEA BARGAIN! THEN LATER MY SON TOLD ME THAT ONE OF THE OTHER REASONS HE DIDN'T WANTED TO TAKE   THE PLEA WAS THAT IN COURT YOU MONTY J. STENSLAND WERE ACTING LIKE A FOOL GOING THUMBS UP TO EVERYONE IN THE COURT! (NOW THIS IS ONE  MANY  WICKED THINGS YOU THE PEOPLE ARE TOLD TO REPEAT  (GO THUMBS UP). NOW THEN REMEMBER HENRY H. HOWE I WENT TO ASK YOU IF MAYBE I COULD GO TALK WITH FALCK  TO SEE WHAT WAS HIS PROBLEM AND YOU TOLD ME THAT MAYBE HE WOULDN'T SEE ME. BUT ANYWAY I DID WENT TO SEE THOMAS AND THIS IS WHAT YOU THOMAS TOLD ME.  "HOW CAN I MAKE ANY GUARANTEES  IF NOT EVEN THE SUN IS GUARANTEE TO RISE TOMORROW!" FALCK JR!  I DIDN'T GO TO  YOUR OFFICE TO ASK YOU IF YOU KNEW IF THE WORLD WOULD END TOMORROW! I KNEW YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT ONE BUT I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHY THE HELL YOU WOULDN'T GUARANTEE MY SON'S PLEA! NOW I AM GOING TO WRITE WHAT I WROTE MANY MONTH'S AGO OR A YEAR AGO ON ONE OF MY LETTERS. AND YOU THOMAS  AND THE REST KNOW WHAT I WROTE. ON THIS BOOK THE AMERICAN POLITICAL DICTIONARY BY JACK C. PLANO AND MILTON GREENBERG ON  PAGE 297 PLEA BARGAINING= NEGOTIATIONS BETWEEN A PROSECUTOR AND AN ACCUSED PERSON OR HIS OR HER COUNSEL TO SECURE A GUILTY PLEA FROM THE ACCUSED IN EXCHANGE FOR A LESSER CHARGE OR PROMISE OF LENIENCY. 

SIGNIFICANCE= PLEA BARGAINING TAKES PLACE IN THE MAJORITY OF CRIMINAL CASES IN THE UNITED STATES. THE ACCUSED IS OFTEN WILLING TO BARGAIN TO AVOID A HARSHER CHARGE AND SENTENCEEAGER TO SECURE A CONVICTION AND ALSO TO AVOID THE TIME AND RIGORS OF A TRIAL. 
Updated January 19, 2014 I am far from done with you North Dakota and Texas, i will return!




Update November 11, 2012 Thomas! that day  in your office you told me my son's apartment was filthy.  (People were told to repeat this word filthy to me in Grand Forks).  Thomas,i am sure this  was after you had sent the box with drugs then send the GFNTF to framed my son and raided his apartment and scared my grandson's. Remember the same day I went to see you, you ran outside cross the street told me I should go back to TX because it was going to start snowing? You were eating crackers

Updated October 9, 2013 Dear People i haven't had the time to write but here is new information on the day of September 30, 2013 as i was packing my belongings at 303 residents i opened Barbara Bush children autobiography and learned she had a sister named Martha and she had a brother that frightened her and she too was closed to her father. more to come 

Updated September 9, 2013 for months i had these two names on my mind Elizabeth and Olivia. Last week i think it was Friday night as i was watching the NBC News interviewed Elizabeth Smart tell her horrible sad story of her being kidnap more to come updated October 11, 2013  i am not sure but i think it was on  my mother's funeral that one of my cousins Lara (it wasn't Elvira) told me that when Olivia Lara my cousin  said her speech on her day as Valedictorian  back in the late 50's she had mentioned something about going to the moon. more to come  Elizabeth   Faz was a friend she likes to be called Elizabeth but her name is in Spanish and right now i don't know how to spell it I need to look it up. On September 11, 2001 i went to her house to see the twin towers


Updated November 8, 2013 I think it was the second week of October 2013 i was on my car driving to the Federal Bank and the disc jockey said he was told to play this song by Jackson Browne Doctor My Eyes.   more to come. 

Updated November 9, 2013 i need to mention this before i forget and start writing other things. one day back in 2010 one Native woman and a white woman i met here in Fargo were disgusting  where the Clothing and Connection was located. the Native woman said she thought it was near two buildings that looked the same she said the Twin Towers. weeks later i saw this building and then i knew she wasn't lying but at first I thought to myself she's just playing with my mind there can't be a Twin Tower building here in Fargo. In the summer of 2012 i took a  night walk and i wrote down the name streets so i wouldn't forget to write this information down but i forgot. In the month of September i took another walk in a soft rainySundown and i pointed out the the billboard . this morning of November 9, 2013          Casey talks about  twins  sisters  pointing out some  more to come 

Updated November 21, 2013 this is what i remembered from November 22, 1963 it might have been a sunny day In Dallas but in my neck of the woods it was a misty, cloudy . All students were back in class from lunch and i knew something was wrong because the teacher was not there to greet us. so we were all very quiet until she walked in the class looking sad and shocked then she said something like this "Our president is dead." or "our president has died." You all can go home." that day the white teacher was wearing a pThe Four Days In November back then i might have seen parts of this movie but i have never seen it all i am hoping this weekend i have to to see it on the internet. but what little i saw  last night has also to do with what i have been writing on my blogger. the numbers 4  and 5 are repeated. and there are many other things about those days i didn't know. more to come if i am right president Kennedy was the second president to be killed. more to come 
about what Kennedy might to the my parents and other Mexican Americans more to come.  
Updated 22, 2013 Next I will write about the trip why i didn't go see the play J Super
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Updated January 24, 2014 on this letter my son sent to me back in January 28, 2009 he writes that he knows nothing about what he law is accusing him of. By this time i knew something like this was going to happen to him because i was w


                





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Updated September 14, 2013 one of my good neighbors subscribes the Martha Stewart Living Magazine for me but i try to read only things that i find very interested because it also repeats like on this page of the September 2013 edition.


Updated September 14, 2013  i hear the rain from Colorado is here.
Updated October 22, 2013 today as i am on line renewing my TX Cosmology i am reminded to write this down the address to T D L R in Austin TX is 920 Colorado Street. And where did I go to beauty school? in Greeley, Colorado! more to come Updated October 23, 2013 Fargo Chiropractic 1515 University Drive this numbers are repeated more to come  Updated October  23, 2013 i know i have mentioned before that one of my dreams was that i kept going by Main Ave and  Broadway St. this is why this was one of my dreams Commend Center does business with Wells Fargo Bank. In my dream i am looking at a building on a hill which now is the Bank of the West where i have to drive by to cashed my checks at Wells Bank from Commend. At the Wells bank is a picture of a model wearing a coat. on one of the letters i wrote i mentioned  a nice coat also new coat i had found at the Mission in Grand Forks and  at that time i had told Troy about this coat that fit


Updated September 14, 2013 I bought this book The Diary Of  A Young Girl Anne Frank.  I also wrote about her in my letters. I wrote about her because since a long time ago i thought i could relate to her in about two ways. i wasn't into writing like her because i don't know how to write but i always hold my hair up with a writing pin. And like her I had a better relationship with my father then with my mother. Today September 2013as i have read a few pages of her diary i learned that i might have more things in common more to come         Matthew 14: 15-17 and they said unto him, we have here but five loaves, and two fishes.  more to come updated 


October 26, 2013  these are the new things on my mind for this day. one very hot day in the summer of 1986 my children and I were back in TX after living for a few years in Colorado. Once in TX  I went several times to Austin to take the TX Cosmetology exam and i couldn't pass the practical part until i took a refreshment class in Uvalde TX and like the instructor at the Uvalde College   had told me i would pass it with flying colors and  i did. on one of those trips to Austin I stayed with  my aunt Eva Pena and cousin Marcela. One early school morning the music came on the song was Panco and Lefty by Willie Nelson and Merle Hagged. i  had heard this song many times before and somewhere in the future with this sad song i would remember a nephew named Eddie. Today as i read the lyrics  i see words like an iron, a gun. The gray federales Ohio and as i looked to the right of the screen i see the  Red album of the Big Iron song by Marty Robbins. on that visit with  relatives my cousin Marcela and i went to a football field to pick up her twin son's both football players.M My cousins was involved with the local politicians so we stopped at the Sheraton Austin Hotel and the news reporters were there too. Sheraton is on 701 E 11St phone (512) 478-1111and the map shows a Red River St. that night i remember i saw a white young bald women     more to come Updated i will write about these days   from 10- 12- 2013 to ? more to come            

Update September 25, 2013 Attention readers more hints to read! Yesterday September 24, 2013 i was at the Moorhead public library and i was going through pages of this book i had opened before named  9/11 and American Empire Intellectuals Speak out edited by David Ray Griffin and Peter Dale Scott. Then i read on page 106 2020 Vision at A& M and the Space Command.   "A few years ago, Texas A& M initiated vision 2020, the University's "roadmap for attaining it's quest to be recognized as a consensus 'top 10' public university by the year 2020." with leaders like Gates in charge, i fail to see how A & M can achieve this". I put the book away got on my car looking for this place named RKAK  Residental and Commercial Property Management. And guess what the address is ? 2020 1st Ave South Moorhead, MN 56560. it's been days that i wanted to write this other information the mobile home i had had two rectangle windows on one side of the wall and it had a larger one picture window similar to the ones on the Fargo Federal building where I stand with my picket signs .  yesterday as i was walking South streets and 218 10 south in  Moorhead  still looking for an apartment and as i looked up the building i notice the windows i used to looked out at night back in the sixties at  St Joseph catholic church are also rectangle. and the apple tree i used to eat from is still there. more to come   

NOVEMBER 11, 2011 later i will write about why you Fargo people are going crazy  over a  purple purse and what it has to do with me.my daughter had bought me a purple purse here at the J C Penney's
 
Updated February 26, 2013 i know i wrote about a young white man who stopped and talked with me one day last year while i stood outside the Federal building. he told me i should looked into the Mayas. On  February 24, 2013 i checked out this book The 2012 Story The myths, Fallaciesfifth Millennium according to the ancient Maya calender initiated in the mythical year that corresponds to 3114 B.C. (Updated March 6, 2013 before 2012 i don't remember hearing, knowing anything about the Mayas calender. i only  knew the calender they had created is the one we still use but that was it! And between January 2006 and somewhere 2009 i was trying to stay sane and not lose it because you the people haven't stop repeating. so all this time I've been trying to figure out how to solve this wickedness around me and why this is happening. what is the meaning to what  now i know God is telling me or us!) Back to this book now on page 323 it reads after the trade towers went down on 911, a false connection between Saddan Hussein and the Osama bin Laden / Al-Qaeda front in Afghanistan was asserted and repeated by the Bush administration and in the mainstream media. now on the letters i wrote about Jose Angel Gutierrez he writing on one of his books that have more lies then truth because most is about me. He says that words can be used as weapons now i know all writers  know about this conspiracy and are repeating but where all this is going not even i know! Now keep reading what are the words that are repeated? and what is the author of this book says can be used as weapon? Fear! And yes, this is what you lawyers were trying on me, Fear! now the author says that Macaw strikes fear into the hearts og his subjects and thereby keeps them trembling and under his spill. the propagandists, such as Karl Rove, knew that one need only to repeat, repeat, and repeat the method. the words "terror" and "terrorists" were thus endlessly repeated by Bush, Cheney and secretary Donald Rumsfeld, laterally hundreds of time in a given speech. and it reads if you can keep the public in shock trauma, you not only control them better, but you can pass all kinds of crazy self-serving legislative that wouldn't have a change otherwise. in the aftermath of word war 11, Hermann Goring, Hitler's Reich Marshall, gave his Nuremberg prosecutors a simple lessen in mind control, saying the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. this is easy all you have to do is tell them that are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for a lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. it works the same in every country. these are tactics that were employed by the Bush administration. now again going back to me this is how you lawyers like Henry H. Howe Monty J. Stensland, Rey Perez, Roberto Alonzo Jesus Gamez  more to come 

Update January 5, 2014 It's January 5, 2014 a new year and i have a lot to write but haven't' had the time. My new address has these numbers 2-4-8 and my new zip code is 56560. Sammy's Pizza and Restaurant on 301 Broadway Street North on the window is a neon sign that reads since 1956. more to come    


Updated Today March 9, 2013 this is other information i have learned through the internet  about the Mayas. chick into: quick understanding of the seven Macuw and the twin Heros        the bird in the tree is Seven Macuw  representing figures of a narrative included within the colonial kich document called popol vuh and constituting the oldest Maya myth to have been preserved the p.lough Big Dipper. read on this book the 2012 story by john major Jenkins on page 180 where it says He [Carlos] said Mayan Day keepers viewfifth Sun. read page 181 whether we call it Mayan or millennial,wee living today in the shadows



March 3, 2013 why hasn't anybody mention this past week was 20 years past Waco, TX  was target by the Government.                                     





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November 23,2012 on this book BUSH'S WARS by Terry H. Anderson on page the number 44 is mention. read on page 71 how bush in a way didn't want to put the blame on  Al Qaeda but on Saddam.  Today November 29, 2012 around 3:25 pm i was listening to this song which i had heard before on a CD player which the family that i work for have in the car I drive the children around and right now as i look for the page i need to find which is page 79 to look for where i saw the number 44 but as i opened the book Bush Wars i get to this chapter 2 Rush to War. One of the song in that CD is Only Fools Rush In.  Then I get to page 79 where it reads his forth wife, umm ali was from mecca family, and she eventually had three children .years later, in summer 2001, when Osama and his family were living Afghanistan, he decided to take another wife. he sent a bodyguard to Yemen, who paid $5,000 for a 15-year-old girl for 44 year-old international terrorist.then on page 64 it reads in fact, between the inaugural in january and September 11, bush received 44 morning intelligence reports from the CIA mentioning the al Qaeda threat, and not once did he say... "let's begin a process to stop the attack."' Somewhere on page 66 it reads  the 19 had entered the united states a total of 33 times, through more than ten different airports, without ever being stopped or detained. on page 57 reads by 5 to 4 votes, the majority republicans appointees stopped the recount, giving the state - and presidency- to the republican candidate. given the unusual circumstances of his election,bush began in a relatively weak political position, with most opinion polls demonstrating an approval rating only in the 55 percent range, which slowly began to decline to 50 by June.the house was narrowly republican, and the senate was split 50-50;there was little mood for compromise, and there was no "honeymoon" for the new administration.five days later vice president Cheneyirline Flight 11 took off at 7:59 and climbed to 29,000feet.  then reads, on Earlier , at 8:2020 ,American 77 had taken off from Dulles international airport, and by 8:46 had reached its cruising altitude of 35,000 feet. Five minutes later the Boeing 757 made its last report to air traffic controllers.On chapter 1 it reads  Bush, Bin Laden, and the P declared that he would like to accept bin Laden's "head on a platter," and the next day the president visited the party destroyed Pentagon. page 67 in Boston, American Ainnacle of the world Sympathy. Terrorism was not an issue during the 2000 presidential campaign, and neither were Saddam Hussein or Osama bin laden. the republican candidate and governor of Texas, George w. bush, made values one of his main themes. A born -again christian, Bush roused the Republican faithful at the convention: "And so, when I put my hand on the Bible, I will swear to not only uphold the law of our land, I will swear to uphold the honor and dignity of the office to which i have been elected, so help me God." now on starting on what is page 131starts with pictures and what would be page 135 is figure 9 is a picture of Bush and the USS Abraham and reads. Aboard the USS Abraham Lincoln, president bush flashes the thumbs - up after declaring the end of the major combat operation in Iraq, May 1, 2003. AP photo/ J. Scott Apple white.  What does this have to do with me? In the movie I saw named       where the US pilot tells the men.   before my son shot. I had dreams of many lights that I was coming down between these light, landing down as when you  are landing in an airplane. but i had never been in an airplane. The night my son was shot I rode with him and the paramedics to San Antonio, TX Hospital. once as a child in a field trip the teachers took us to the airport in Fargo. I wanted so bad to take a ride in  an airplane but the teachers only showed us the inside of it because most of the children were scared . when my son was shot i thought to myself well i guess this was it to my dreams. But i was wrong. December 11, 2012 and boy was i wrong. this is something more God revealed to me last night. the family who i had been working for moved further north and for the last time i had to drive the children from their home to their school activities. and as i drove by the military airport again i saw the lights that were in my dreams years before my son's almost fatal shooting. more to come                                                 


August 21, 2012   Last  night   around 9:30 pm  as so often  I walked from Moorhead to Fargo but this time I walked home through Main Ave and I got to see the Stature of Liberty. Then I walked by the corner of  Main and Broadway then I saw another sign on the corner of the railroad tracks and I read  something like this, " the Main Ave became the Front street in 1955.  Another repetition of 55. On letters I wrote way before reading these historical monument you will read what I wrote about the Main Ave, streets. And buildings like the The Bank of the West and many other hints and the numbers 4, 7, and 10. more to come

Updated February 19, 2013 this is one of the dream i had way before i knew i was coming back to Fargo. i dreamed i was moving in a fast motion

Updated August 24, 2013 a few nights ago an apartment neighbor passes away. on Friday 24, 2013 at work man number 1110 puts his underwear on his seat he writes " you crack me up" I say to him thank you for reading my blogger! updated September 3, 2013 managers secretary at commend center told me one neighbor had passed away but his alive                                                                                           

Before I go on I need to say I was born on September 11, 1956.As a child one day while walking the streets of Fargo. I told my father I was afraid of  the things to come and that time was going by too fast like world events. Something in me wanted  things to slow down. Other kids enjoyed watching TV as men fly to the moon  i didn't. One time I  also told him about frequent flood dreams. In 1975 ND had a major flood. And the world has had many floods ever since  just like the ones in my dreams. Two weeks before 911 I dreamed I was in the middle of two buildings looking up. Then I saw fire coming down left and right from side ways not from the sky. I called my daughter told her about the dream I told her something bad was going to happen. On September 11, 2001 she called me saying, "Happy Birthday, have you seen the news?" when I saw the news the dream I had came back to me. I had turned 45. 4+5=9. This year I am 55. 5+5=10. This September I will be 56 add 5+6=11. In 1958 my parents, older siblings and I started coming to Casselton and Mapleton, ND to work on the sugar beet fields, our last year here was the summer of 1982.
On September 14 my daughter will turn 33 and my son will  be 32 add up 33+32= 65 and 6+ 5=11.

Up Date September 3, 2012 Julian and Joaquin Castrofive, a favorite formation in the death camps.     The Death camps.and look on page 74 what it says about twins. The medical Experiment Mengeles greatest interest was twins. He thought if he could discover what caused birth he could use the knowledge to increase the birth rate in Germans. When transports arrived, he would walk quickly along the ranks of people waiting for selection  shouting "Zwillingeaus!" 'Twins out!" Updated September 23, 2013 i had forgotten the Bushes daughters are twins. My sister Barbara was named after my father's mother. my sister Concha (Connie) was named after my mother's mother. but no they are not twins. more to come  

Yesterday August 9, 2012 my family and I went to spend time at the Island park and we were looking at the Angel of Hope stone. Today August 10, as I go through  the pages of another book of the Holocaust Library by Earle Rice Jr. I see  this on page 75 Josef Mengele "Angel of Death" read this page what Anne Frank called him "the Angel of extermination." 
On page 76 it says German  physician Josef Mengele use his position during the Holocaust to perform gruesome human experiments, especially on identical children, there is a picture of him on this page with a big smile just as I see many people now smiling as they do horrible wicked things to us and pretend like this man they are doing nothing wrong! but in between their lines they just repeat! now the government doesn't have to kill our bodies they only need to kill our minds and that will work as well! and this is being done by the help of you the people! mind games have always been played on wars, this is anything new! but the only big thing different here is that God is telling me through other things this is His purpose not the world's! 



Update September 11, 2012 last night I was feeling hopeless and I grab this book i had bought for 25cents at the library. I opened up and I had forgotten about  this book  Collier's  Encyclopedia and the year it was from 1956. Now I  know why I bought it. You see people, these things in life I never did before in school. Back then in my school years I rarely used the  library as much as I do now. And as I opened the book this was the first page my eyes sees page 403 National Education Association. The 94th annual convention of the National Education  Association was held in Portland, Ore, July 1-6 1956 general officers elected were president Martha A. Shull,teacher,Jefferson high school, Portland,Ore. Page 85 pictured is princess Margaret inspecting a guard of honor formed by the 5th (Tanganyike)Battalion of the King's African Rifles at Port Louis, a port of call on her five-week East African tour.On page 285 reads "The Second Five- Year Plan." The second plan, in the discussion stage for two years, went into effect in 1956.    
  
 September 16 2012  Dwight David"Ike" Eisenhower was the 34 president of the united states from 1953 until 1961. he had previously been a five star general in the United States Army. he married and had two sons.    

In 1956 there was a drought in ND SD  


September 15, 2012 these are some of the things I read related to me now on the 1956 Encyclopedia the president was Republican   Eisenhower who was re-elective with vice president Nixon.. On page 632 reads. "On June,8 the president was again stricken with illness,the second time in nine months,and this opened for the nation and the world another period of anxious uncertainty." 

Democratic      Contenders. throughout the spring and early summer the only two Democratic  candidates that were being seriously consider for presidential nomination 
were Adlai Stevenson,former governor of Illinois, who had been defeated in the 1952 presidential election, and Sen. Estes Kefauver of Tennessee.they vied with each other in the state primaries for support of the delegates to the national convention, but Stevenson was able to commend the stronger support.  On page 635 it reads with pictures. a five- way handshake of democratic leadership on the rostrum in Convention Hall,Chicago,during the rally that marked the windup session of the Democratic Convention. Former President Truman is flanked by presidential candidate Adlai E. Stevenson and Estes kefauver, candidate for the vice-presidency. Behind them (left) are Averell Harriman of New York and (right) Lyndon Johnson Of Texas. Page 201pictured Egyptian President Gamal Abdel Nasser (left)receiving Dmitrishepilov,Soviet foreign Minister (right), at the Government head -quarter in Cairo. the two boys are president Nasser's sons. On page 309 Giovanni Gronchi, President of Italy,casing his ballot  in Rome during the two-day local administrative government election. 


15 January 1918-28 September1970)was the Second President of Egypt from 1956 until his death.        




September 6, 2012 surely, all politicians are repeating trying heard to blow my mind! Here are some of the in directs, some of the in between  lines the two political parties want for me to hear. The word (Believe) the word Menudo the color of lipstick on Micheal Obama lips is the same color I wear. You the people will read on my letters what this word lipstick has to do with me! 

"Let me make myself clear," are other words i used on my letters. Arithmetic, what have I been doing people? Mr. Clinton,      women    knows what i been writing! I have been adding, subtracting, multiplying,and dividing dealing with numbers! Right! So, it's clear, you Mr. Clinton and the rest have been reading my letters! And this are heavy duty, hard core, Evidence! That if my son is in prison is because of lawyers and people like you! And I will also mention  that if my son hasn't called me is, I know because of people like you and the rest who think you are too smart



      







In March 2011 while driving to Pizza corner in Valley City, ND  there was a billboard sign   The Governors Inn (built in 2004). Then I saw "Casselton, proudly providing  ND fifth governor.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    
On August 12, 2012 my son called me told me to stop whatever I was doing because he wanted to apply for Boot camp to have a better chance to be release earlier. I know my son was told to tell me that be sounded frighten. I know he was told to tell me to stop writing or they were going to keep him longer!    

on March 2006 I went back to TX and all along the way the game kept on going it has been this way all along since 2004 but it was made clear to me the night on January 25, 2006 when I was set up in East Grand Forks.                                                                                                   

Once I arrived in TX I wrote to as many as I could for the Bar Association address. I knew D.A., Thomas H. Falck Jr. was involved so I asked him too. Falck sent me this document dated August 11, 2006. During this time I was severely mentally and emotionally exhausted  because  the law had and was giving me hints my son  and  I had been set up but there was nothing I had do. My home my car  phones calls are  bugged! My medical records had been exposed! The law was watching me 24/7! would tell people what to repeat about me! To repeat anything that had to do with me to destroy my mind! I couldn't  go to church because priests and people were repeating and nobody liked me. The only reason people came around me was to repeat to show me how much they hated me,to show support for the law. Nothing has change since then. Update this pass Friday September 14 was a bomb threat in the NDSU and almost the same time same day another at  Austin,  TX. Then today September 17, 2012  as I  ate at the Salvation Army a group of people were talking about the Radisson also had a bomb threat. I say this is coming from the government it self! My daughter lives across the Radisson Hotel  in downtown Fargo and we been talking about the threats. I know the law is listening to us.  This also happened today September 17, 2012 after i finished

When I was in TX and I started writing about what had happened in ND.When I wrote the letter about how (Troy Lawrence who was the Lawyers informant) had told me  that all lawyers were the same that they all got together at Golf fields and talked about the out come of a trial how they knew how it would all end. Troy was giving me hints how they The Judges The Lawyers  had planted my son's trial that it was just a joke   well organized

On January 2006 after I was set up in East Grand Forks I started saving business cards, document anything with names on. I even brought the local phone directory. Because I knew once I got to TX I was going to do something but I didn't know how to use the computer. Then I saw this woman named Darlene Margo at 6502 Bandera Road,Suite 203 San Antonio, TX  zip 78238 phone 210 737-8637 on  a San Antonio phone directory. I called her to see if she would write on paper my story by listening to cassettes I had recorded. She said she would but like all others played games with my mind and charged me a lot for a mess not even I could understand. On my letters I used the word mess up mu mind now this word and other words  I used are used in  songs and many Movies like Campaign. I never enjoy a movie or a song because it has to do with what i do.   

At first  learning how to use a computer wasn't easy the librarians in Crystal City were not helpful maybe because some were like me didn't  know much and if  they did they weren't that eager to help me because I was writing against the law. It wasn't until 2009 when I came to MN that librarians from Moorhead taught me how to use a computer help me how to open an e -mail taught me how to create this blogger. 

When I was in Grand Forks I had saved business cards, letters and I tried to remember all I could from that time. I knew all lawyers were involved but I still needed their names
 on paper to spell them correctly so I wrote to the ND Bar Association and others.         I posted a picture of the only Crystal City, TX Sacred Catholic Church to show you what I am saying . 

Update! August 29, 2012 yesterday God reveal this to me as I was working at Kelly Inn on Main Ave 3800 I was looking out the window  I saw the highway sign " 10 Main Ave East. Later on in my letters you will read what I wrote about Main Ave here in Fargo and what it has to do with me.  update  this morning about 3: 00am September 17, 2012 i couldn't sleep so i got my Bible and this is what  i read on page

    

Here are some reasons I had to stop going to church  in 2005 2006 while I was in Grand Forks, ND after I was set up in MN I notice people were repeating then  one day I called my daughter who was in TX told her, "now with baby Julian being born and his two other brothers not being potty train will be harder for us." I would try to go to church almost everyday but the repeats never stopped. One day after this conversation with my daughter Fr. Braun started saying a story about a couple with three boys not potty train he said something like this, "it was a sacrifice to change so many diapers because they were three boys." 

update November 21, 2012 The movie Rocky part 3  me and other people who were living with us at the Ranch came to see this Movie here in Fargo back in the summer of  1982. this was one of the last movies i saw because we stopped coming that year. the song the eye of the tiger


Then my daughter was getting ready to come to Grand Forks, ND to baptists my three grandsons. We had this other conversations on the phone. I told  her St Michel's  church was beautiful had tall pillars inside.  I know you the lawyers, judges and other people with money are giving a lot of money to people and church leaders to repeat to get me sick enough to get flashbacks.
Look at this church picture at the bottom I don't remember what month it was but  i noticed this porch with pillars were added to the church after March 2006 months   after I arrived from ND. 

The columns  pillars resemble in color and structure the ones inside St Micheal's church in Grand Forks, ND. These pillars don't even match the color of the rest of the church. When I  knew my son was framed again I sold my home to neighbors who were eager to buy it because I was practically giving it away they too were playing with my mind talking out loud like never before to be heard by me repeating words I had said or heard during the time I was in Grand Forks, ND.  I had one limestone on my mobile home lot. This stone pictured neared a pine tree and three black trash bags. When the FBI and local police saw me take my limestone to my parents home they called people to get as many limestone's to placed on and around the Fatima gazebo for me to see every time I would walked by going to the HEB grocery store. These stones were so many that as you can see there was no way you could walk without being trip over them if you were not careful to see where you were walking to. These are some of the cars parked backwards outside homes, Catholic church and the Police Department but this was going on at all churches in Crystal City and on all other towns it's going on here in Fargo too. People park  their cars this way while they attend Mass. This goes on wherever I go! 
I don't remember quite well but I think I mentioned once inside my home to my brother about a broken cross then people from the church place a cross outside the church and broke it into four parts and left it there for many days for me to see as i walked or drive by. When my daughter was going to Grand Forks i asked her to take me a rosary and i also asked a church helper id she had one she could give me. I really wanted to pray it because I wanted God to hear me so i was doing all i had do to get His attention his grocery Store El Nino

Before 2005 Updated May 8, 2013 soon i will write about Gutierrez what he wrote on his books that has to do me. Updated  July 27, 2013 on March 13, 2009 I wrote this letter and rewrote it on September 22, 2010 on a drive. Updated August !, 2013 I had added more information on this letter and on many other letters that were lost on this drive. Now i will wrote what i can remember. This is what i wrote on that letter about this self proclaim Chicano Leader, liar and hypocrite and much more Jose Angel Gutierrez. Letter #35  Dear Mary, I told Troy I had participated in the Crystal City School Walkout. and that I had read a few  pages of the book written by Chicano Leader Jose Angel Gutierrez title The Making of a Chicano Militant  and that once I got home I was going to buy the book and finish reading it. Troy knew  I was not a good speller so he kept asking me, "how do you spell the word Militant?"  While we were having this conversation we were sitting in my son's Explorer. Now I realize updated July 29, 2013 If Troy wasn't recording me my son's Explorer was bugged because the two new books I read by Gutierrez parallel with what I told Troy and what happened to me in 2005 -2006 during the time I was in Grand Forks, ND. And what is happening  to me here in TX. It's 2009 and since March 2006 I am back home in TX. I am at the Public Library writing all these letters that now I need to write so hopefully I can stop this madness around me and i need to know what year was the workout so I can write letter #23 about "The Educator from out of Town."  So i asked the Librarian for Gutierrez two new books I heard he had written. First i checked out this book title We Won't Back Down!    (Base on Severita Lara rise from student leader to Mayor). I noticed too many things that had to do with me. Then i checked out The Making of a Civil Right Leader written by Gutierrez about himself. According to Gutierrez his Autobiography. And again i read so many things I can relate to. I will go back  to Severita's book and what he wrote about himself. He wrote that his got poise, and his articulate, enunciated and that his a lawyer. and a professor of Political ScienceHe Says remind you of the Fargo Forum!?) They moved from Shelly, Minnesota to Crookston, South Dakota. On March 2006 on my way back to TX the bus driver drove East. In 2004 when I met Henry and his wife  Mary and went back to TX  the bus driver drove South and we made a stop in Fargo, ND. (After January 2006  looking back I can remember many strange things going on) On  March 2006 the bus driver stopped at the Mc Donald's fast food in Crookston, MN. Gutierrez wrote on Severita's book that the girls had gone to a Mc Donald's  back in 1968 in Crookston, South Dakota. But back in 1968 there was no, Mc Donald's in Crookston, And there is no Crookston, South Dakota! Its Crookston, Minnesota! He says the Lara sisters went to a Mall in Crookston but there wasn't and isn't any Mall in Crookston. MN!  On letter # 21 way before I read any of his new two books I mentioned two a young men riding the Grand Forks City Bus one was staring at me as if he was angry at me but wanted to start a conversation told me he was from Alamo. Then  I asked him," From  San Antonio?" And he said, "No from Alamo, TX.  Updated July 30, 2013 (This man told me this because he wanted me to know he knew who I was and to let me know he was playing with my mind). Then  asked me this, " which  Mall is the best one to shop, is it the one on Columbia Rd or Grand Cities Mall?" (As both men looked at me in a strange angry  way I knew they were sent by you the lawyers to mess up my mind). Then when I read Gutierrez books I knew I was right.On  march 2006 a black bus driver insisted for me to ride with him and not wait for another bus. He said his route was shorter and safer but he and almost all the people on the bus were repeating words I had said or heard in Grand Forks or on conversations i had had with my daughter on phone calls from TX. i asked a passenger why are we going east when we can go south. he just made an  evil smiled and when we stopped in Crookston i knew i was in for more wicked mind games. Gutierrez wrote that when Severita and her sister went up north with the Serna family it rained a lot that it was their first year migrating and that they broke down in the middle of the field and cried. He says they moved from Shelly, Minnesota to Crookston, South Dakota and were paid  1,000.00 dollars for that summer. Quite a lot of money for 1968. He mentioned lipsticks. Troy often would asked me this, " what color of lipstick do you have on?"  He says the girls saw  something they had never seen before, youngsters skating on Ice. And this was in summer!? On one of my letters I wrote before reading his books I  mentioned Monty J. Stensland once had his Ice Hockey pictures out for show off at his office. Gutierrez wrote that he went to a Spanish school in Crystal City  and was taught by a teacher named Susie Salazer and that he learned a lot. I have this to say. Unlike Gutierrez I was too late for Miss Susie Salazer classes and too early for Mrs. Lady Bird Johnson's Head Start. But i know for sure there is no Crookston, South Dakota and there's no way those two girls got paid 1,000 dollars during those years not even in the state of Minnesota. But i did paid $ 1,000 dollars to Monty J. Stensland back in 2005. Why Gutierrez would write all these mistakes would they be done on purpose to mess up my mind or is this his only capacity? Gutierrez wrote Severita likes to dance alone. Well I  like to dance by myself. I  am not a good dancer but as a child i used to dance for the Lupe Serna daughters. The young women would asked me and my sister Barbara to dance the Twist at the  farm  in Casselton  back in the sixties when American Bandstand was shown on ABC. And i did danced with myself when Troy asked me if he could stay with me during the Christmas Holiday at Dianita's apartment when she was put in jail for the second time. The law had accused her of using cocaine and neglecting the boys. (But i don't remember seeing Saverita dancing alone or with someone else not even in a ballroom with her husband because he belongs to a religion that forbids dancing). During this time i had noticed that Howe was anxious about me moving back into Dianita's apartment and kept asking me if i had found the keys to the apartment. (When Dianita was release and after i was set up i realized during that time I was in her apartment I was being watched). and i remember something Troy had told me about now he  being able to see something that he was not allowed see before. i know now these were video's of me in the apartment.Gutierrez wrote that  during the time Severita was a student studying medicine In Mexico. a law officer stopped her told her that if he saw her again he was going to confiscate her and her car. One day at the Mission a man who almost all the time wore Army camouflage asked another man named Dale Hale Linda's brother. " Are you giving her to me?" ( Linda lives in Grand Forks,  ND and is one of Dianita's  father ex girlfriend.)  I knew this was about me because this was while we were dining at the Mission and it was just the three of us at that table. And it was after I was set up in Minnesota.  After I was set up in East Grand Forks and I had gone to court in Crookston, MN. Again I went to see Monty and again he was implying with his face and hand gestures that what i was going to do with Howe in his office sofa  i was going to do with him at his office meaning the hand job and other sex tricks that Troy had told me Howe wanted me to do with him.( And yes by then I was very scared because i knew i had no one to talk this about not even the priests that i knew were brain washed . So  I wrote two letters that i was going to give to Hanry and to Monty hoping they would stop sending people to harass me but instead  i decided to show them to Fr. Bob so I  called  Fr. Bob told him I would be going over to visit him.  But when i got there i waited about thirty minutes and Fr. Bob never came. Instead Fr.Braun came out to see me. Fr. Braun looked as if he did'nt want to pass a word with me looked angered.  I told him i wanted to speak with Fr. Bob he told me he knew but that Fr. Bob had gone to attend other matters. I showed Fr. Braun the two letters  and he read them out loud. Told me something like this, The letters are no good that my writing was not good. I didn't know how to explain what the lawyers were doing to mess up my mind because it was in so many different ways and so many people were involved. I knew even they the priests were told what to repeat.  I didn't know what to do next  because I didn't  write the letters to be corrected or told i was a bad writer, I knew that. I wrote them to get the priest to listen to me And I know someone told Stensland about the letters I  had wrote for him and Howe but instead  I took to the priests to read. Because     that same day  i went to talk with Monty and he wouldn't  opened  the door. he was on his phone but every time i would knocked he stopped talking and there was no sound. About a week after I went again and he knew i was at his door because it sounded as if he was typing with one finger but once i would knocked he would stop typing. that same day after going by the church I went to lunch at the Mission and everyone around me were repeating words I had wrote on the two letters i had taken to the priests to read by then my son was sentience and i never went back to see Monty and Henry again but the mind game went on nonstop. i know the priests  were told way before about me and i know the priests told the lawyers about the two letters i took for them to read. Updated August 13, 2013 On one of the several times  i went to speak to Henry about my son  he told me my son's trail was like playing a game. In 2006 one morning  as i was doing my exercise walking at Garcia's Park i was approached by Linda Lara Severita sister after more then a decade that her son had been involved in the almost fatal shooting of my son  in Carrizo Springs, TX  she was apologizing to me for her son's involvement. But she was lying she was just repeating words twisting her hair with evil eyes just as Deborah Zimmerman had twisted her hair when she went to pick me up in East Grand Forks the morning after i was set up. Gutierrez wrote that back then Crystal City Sheriff Sweeten had placed a recorder on a table to record what he Gutierrez was told to say to be recorded to be used  more to come    him.  

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Updated September 3, 2013 this is letter #23 most of all my early letters are address to Dear Mary but not one has been send to her. more to come    

 






















Yesterday August 6,2012 my son called me sounded worried he told me a women who  writes to him had told him I had put his picture on the internet on my blogger. And that I was saying he was in person because the law had set him up. He told me not to use anything that had to do with him or else he was going to be punished and not be able to be in the boot camp and be release sooner. This is not the first time his been put in this kind of predicament. When the law knew I wasn't gonna go crazy like they wanted me to and that I was planing on coming back ND to fight them back. My son was framed twice ND made him say he has sold drugs to an informant by then MN made him plead guilty by saying he was involved in other charge that MN said had him on camera outside a grocery store. You will read on my letters how this made up story built up case by the law has to do with me and the informer sent by attorneys Henry H. Howe and Monty J. Stensland back in 2005 2006 the time I was in Grand Forks, ND !            I am  posting all cards documents pictures and as many letters as I can to prove what I am saying is the truth!                       

The Olympic people like all others know and have being playing  the psychological warfare game they too repeat things about me. They and others use things I did said or write on Commercials like Toyota camry car where a women sees a man in front of a building she knew in college tells him the government is following her and other things  that have to do with me. They like everyone else definitively know about me and my signs outside the Fargo's Federal building. The Olympics organization and others don't want anyone else using their materials but they are not original they're from  my letters my past and my present! Here are some of them blowing kisses, thumbs up, using the word crazy and many others things about me because this is an on going thing that all has to do with me!  

But just like an Olympics athletic who is trained for many years to compete so have I. My training is of mental and physical  strength the ability to be self determined to do what I have been set out to do without the assistance of any professional trainer. My trainer is God who as been molding me through the years.          updated September 10, 2012 these are things i didn't know before the year i was born was a lip year and the Olympics were going on. when i started comparing the Olympics with me I i didn't  know this. what i am saying is that just as an athletes practice for an event so in a way have I, i just didn't  know it. the things in life that i have been through help me be who I am and help me understand why i am in this situation. I have been able to handle this ordeal because of the life i had like my  father mother older siblings and dreams. The people I knew growing up the places i been. But I would have not understand it all if i would have never read the Holy Bible. now i have never read it all but what i have read i know as to do with me and my son and not only us two but my whole family. so this means only one thing what Christ told His dis

Updated January 11, 2013 I think it was this past Wednesday at the Salvation Army as many times before i was looking at the people who now sometimes i dined with and had many thoughts. When i got home this thought got me. "Martha, these too are my children." This thought almost made me cry but i hold on hard not to because i need to be strong. Then yesterday I was thinking why the number 5? That day or the following day I saw this documentary on Prairie Public Skid row. As I listen I hear a man being interviewed say something like this " "this is my hand and it has five fingers." i didn't listen well but i think he was saying it's like a hand with five fingers we are all brothers and sisters we are all God's children. Then heard this was about homeless on fifth and  sixth streets in downtown  Los Angeles , California. last night i asked my daughter about it and she said something like this  "which one, Skid row the rock group or Skid row the streets?"she said she knew from school. but i didn't know or don't remember maybe only the rock group. Today as I  was walking down the stairs I thought again why a five? Then came to my mind a week day has five days then i thought about time a hand watch or any other kind of time watch. Then around 12:30 pm today I turned on the TV and I watched this other documentary on Prairie Public  Closer to the truth                                                                  



November 20, 2012 my son and i were born in a leap year. there are 366 days in a years. Updated December 9, 2012 Jesus  was crucified at age 33. The five dollar bill                                                                                                                                                    

Back in  January 2006  while we were waiting for my son's verdict  Monty told me he had told the jury some story book about  Mark Twain these and many other hints Monty gave me he knew about the articles I had saved from the Ford case and because he knew my thoughts were going to remind me my son's trial was anything but a joke.   These articles from the Crystal City Ford case are in display for you to read. Updated February 28, 2013 jury selection day. my son had told me that he wanted me there when the court was going to select the jury. he told me You Monty would select some and that  Thomas would select others. my son felt there was a change for him because he thought ones the jury saw what had happened how he was being charged for a box he never touched, saw or smelled. the jury would understand and the other thing that was going on you his lawyers and the prosecutor had played his his mind by just going around. making it very hard for him to even plea guilty. you had him all confuse. and had me thinking it was all his fault.          You Monty asked the panel if any of them had been or knew of any person being in trouble with the law. all panel shook their heads said no. one woman was crocheting i used to crocheted.    my son  more to come                                                        




Updated June 4, 2013 this afternoon June 4, i was thinking about my name how i can be called  Marta or Martha. i was thinking many other things that had to do with my name. i went for lunch at the Salvation Army. the second to the last woman who was serving  with short brown hair and sunglasses on her head, asked me, " what is your name?" i told her it's Martha. this like many other times might have been because about a week ago or some my daughter and i were having a conversation on the car about Martha and Mary in the Bible. how Martha brings it to Jesus about her doing all the work and Mary just listening. and just some days ago i had in my mind what Jesus repeats tells Martha,"Martha Martha." The thing is this woman might have been told to use these words to blow my mind but she didn't know what was in my mind just minutes before she spoke to me. and like i said before this was not the first time i have noticed these kinds of things going on when people repeat what is in my mind and not only what they are told to repeat. updated June 4, 2013 this past Saturday i was   then i went for a few beers at the VFW where everybody knows your name. but before that i was serenaded by more to come                 

Updated June 6, 2013 last night my daughter reminded me of the assassination of Robert Kennedy. i told her i was here in ND at the farm watching it alone on TV when he was shot on the 5 and  dead on the 6 of June. More to come.  Updated  more on dreams as a child i had many dreams of me flying on the air going by many  electric poles. these dreams were color gray or black and white i did't like giving them. and as a child some summer my mother used to buy me a toy that i had to blow on it to make it spen. more to come  

Updated May 29, 2013 i bought this book around this time 11- 13- 11 for about a dollar the name is The Bible Code by Michael Drosnin. i have read a few lines still need to read more to understand. This writer might have been wrong in some of his understanding of Bible codes or maybe i am the one who is wrong but for this reason i will read more and tell you The People why i think it was meant for me to find it read it and tell you what i got out of it.  updated May 30,2013 Right now i am on page 86 and what i see is the numbers 5756 i am 56 with God's will i will be 57 this September.    i also learned that there are 5 books   more to come 

Updated August 10,2013 today is my son's 33 birthday. and i known for a while that i have to move to Minnesota and on Thursday as i was  at work vacuuming and as my  routine i turned the TV on and was set on public TV as I  was watching the Ed Sullian  show the rolling stones played two songs one of them was Ruby Tuesday. in the last days of July i got a letter from my son asking me to find a place in Moorhead, MN because soon he will be release from prison and needs to stay in the same state. i know the channel  at work was set on purpose but i can still say and i know other things that i see or hear you the people don't have a clue of ! as i  drove home i cried because i love Fargo and will miss living here and i don't know what is next but i know i am getting closer to what i came to do. But I know I will come back some day soon. on this day July 30, 2013  i went to Mister Money on Broadway and was looking for the movie Immortal beloved  but mister didn't have it so i bought this movie named Identity. as i watched the movie.this movie is about a motel and a serial killer see how the number 9 turns to the number 6. then i thought i seen this number somewhere here in Fargo and it's at the Green Farmer  as i drove to Minnesota i saw this number  more to come                  


I  mentioned before that I was going to use you the people as examples and now I will do just that! the Bible says. "Do on to others as you would like them do into  you"      I will start with Mary H. Seaworth, Mary how would you like it it was you who had to see people were giving you hints a pervert man named Henry H. Howe who saw hands out

Updated July15, 2013 this instructor named Karen Mayer also was repeating words that i had said or that Troy told me in 2005 2006 in Grand Forks, ND. The first night that i stayed at the Mission in Grand Forks troy had introduced himself to me and was being very helpful. this is one of the things i didn't like him saying and found strange. he would asked a big black man who used to  guard outside the Mission and others, "isn't she beautiful?" like all other places and people so did this woman repeated when i took a continuing class with her. all through the class she was repeating and as the class came to an end she walked out the class screaming . "Isn't she beautiful, isn't she beautiful? Yeah right!" This women blew my mind all through her class and taught me not a thing . she said she didn't like cutting men hair more to come      

  

 October 24, 2012   jack van impe ministries box 7004 troy, michgan 48007     What is this about DRS. Jack and Rexella VAN IMPE on TV saying about Obama having connections with the enenny when all of the time they are repeating what i write and do? i will write on how these  two hypocrisies are blowing up my mind and still want to be seen on TV as goody two shoes. when all of the time they are repeating what has to do with me! in the Global ID 666 Jack and Rexella van Impe March 5, 2013 this is very good that you Jack and wife give me hints by saying  these words  "look into your dictionary," and  i will get back to you and others who support the wicked pervert government that is watching over  me to repeat what I do,  and you obey for  money! You, Jack and wife who say you know a lot what the Bible says should practice what you preach! Because Christ is love not hate and what is that you are doing when you repeat and give me hints and you make angry faces?  You and wife like many others have had it very easy. you don't have the FBI watching  what you do inside your homes. you don't have them watching you when you take  of  your clothes  when you clean

On December 20, 2012 my daughter and I went to Moorhead looking for a  dresser to put cloth in. Earlier during the day. I had gone alone to several stores and had seen some that looked like the one on the picture below.  On that same night the  Insider celebrity show  a guest shows pictures of  Barack Obama. On one laughing the other like this one in the internet it reads "It  appears that president Obama got caught  in a spider -man's web at the end of October." This is what caught my eye the dresser drawers with a mirror are like the ones i saw and why show this picture now in December? Why weren't this pictures shown  in  late October or early November?  Alright Obama,  get ready for tough question, that will make your face turn red! and yes Obama you and the rest of the world repeat whatever i do. this is what lawyer  Eric L. Gudmundson meant when he read to me only this part of the Miranda warning. but what about if it was your more to come     July 27, 2013 today I will write how the Fargo's library committee people plays with my mind. you the people should know  that when you are for years  under extrema pressure  your stomach  jacks up. One day about 1 and 1/2 years ago i walked into the first floor  women's library bathroom and  there was a group of five or six men inside carrying on a conversation. as i opened the door one man told me i could use the bathroom as they all walked out. this month i drop my library card and as i was done writing i forget to pick it up someone used it to check out 10 movies  that now i will need to pay if they are not returned. i asked the manager if she could check the camera's to see if there was a way to see who was the person or person's who might have checked them out but she says the camera's can not help. right now there is no one i can trust so who's knows if  this is like all other places a inside job. In 2011 i went to  Wal-Mart Store on 13 Ave S to get a flu shot. The nurse who gave me the shot hit me on a nerve on purpose. Since then if i laugh cough or sneeze too hard my right arm hurts for a long time. One winter morning in 2011  around 3:45 am coming from Valley City on interstate 94 a white truck came from an a wrong way from an  exited way driving in a very fast speed toward the car i was in. The driver i was with was a black young man and there were one white and one native women and and me in the back. A white man in front  with the driver.  I knew right away it  was a set up to frighted me. The driver acted as if he wasn't buying attention to the road and the white truck coming it us. He kept talking on his cell phone driving on the left side of the road. The two women acted as if they were afraid and were saying it was a drunk driver on the road. I told them all that was not true that this person was a professional  driver he knew what he was doing  in such conditions with snow in the road. The truck came at us then went to the right side. The driver we were with stayed in the left side then the truck turned around  came back behind us in a fast speed then he passed us. Then he made a right hand exited. one night as a man maned Maldonado whom i had asked to take me to Uvalde where i was going to catch a bus to San Antonio then to San Marcos, TX    more to come       

Updated August 3, 2013 In 2010 in Moorhead, MN library Bob Dylan's music was the first music i learned how to record on my more to come

January 18, 2013 now before i go on i need to say. Yes, my son and his ex girlfriend were on the wrong path. They needed to be stopped. my son needed to stopped smoking the weed he had leaned(Readers remember the word (suspicions). Now Thomsen told   S/A Graham    that they opened the box and found what they believed to be      

         

Updated February 28, 2013 this picture was taken a few days before Christmas 2012 in Fargo, ND.  This is one of the few times i am half happy.  When i am with my grandsons and my daughter who took this picture 

   at her

apartment. For  my eyes have not seen my son since January 2006.

with these documents  I will prove how my son was set up and how his trial was a joke set up by you the government 

          

Updated July 15, 2013 On January 2005 my daughter  and I went to  Uvalde, TX Walmart to take photos together this is one of them. i had notice that on this day my daughter was acting as if she didn't really wanted to be pictured with me. i knew that if we didn't  pictured together we were not going to have another opportunity because our lives were going to chance.At this age i still felt i really didn't need a lot of help with face make up. I slept well I exercise and i used and still use Clinique Compact Foundation.  I had two  little brown spots from being out in the sun in the right upper side of my eye. now as i look back to that day something was wrong but at the time i didn't know what it was. The two young women that were told to photograph  us were told to play games with my mind by pointing out to me more then once about those two brown spots

                             Updated September 8, 2013 the 6  and 7 of this month of September  I went to work at the Fargo Dome on  Friday  September 6  Taylor Swift was p he Red album tour. more to come

  Most all songs have to do with words i write, say or do. words like  "Trouble  "call me maybe"    

 September 8, 2013 Updated right now  words repeated   "back in the bus" " Musicians can do the math  too" "doesn't add up."  The very famous  words are "Who drew the Red Line" I say who what does it matter just do the right thing. more to come

Today September 8, 2013 i read Elton John  in November 22,2013 is coming to Minneapolis more to come        

Updated September 13, 2013 these days I've been so busy with so many things that I need to do before the   month of Septembers fly's by. At this time i am looking for an apartment in Moorhead, MN but under these conditions that once my son is release from prison he can come live with me. But finding a Landlord that will accept my son is so heard because once I say his coming from a prison that he is a felon they shake their head. Felony =  A crime, typically one involving violence, regarded as more serious than a misdemeanor, and usually punishable by imprisonment for more then one year or by death: Now at this time i am also waiting to  hear from HUD to my questions as to why can child molesters who rape minds and bodies of innocent children have a place to live once they are release and even those that were convicted of  manslaughter are also accepted. Now i know and can prove how my son was framed  in ND  and  can I prove that because the law in ND knew i was coming back framed him again at the half way house here in Fargo. And i can prove he was forced to incriminate himself. I can prove  how the law in MN also framed my son and also forced him to plead guilty. I can prove and will prove how all these were set ups! You the law that was suppose to protect us are the ones that are harming us from all sides! because of how you trapped and kept   trapping my son he has no rights!because of you he has no place out here. the only house you  have for him is in  your prisons to make him a criminal! and yes you feel you can do all these and more because you have the wicked world on your side! you have the church leaders that most are very happy with just receiving  money for their repetitions. and of course you  have politicians you have the world you have the people!         more to come    have you notice that here in Fargo addresses street numbers are repeated? later i will show you some. Updated November 6, 2013 today i had a harder time then ever before getting into my blogger Mr. Google 10 !00 Google. 10 2 = 100 has joined the party and is repeating but i known this since i opened my account.  Last night as my daughter and i were on North  Broadway going south i told her that back in the seventies i had only heard people in the South Valley used this word said  in Spanish Sanguineos  = bloody and that before that i had just heard the bloody word used in English actors Movies.Google wouldn't  let me in my blogger and kept me on things that had to do with Blood hood. more to come        

Today  November 6, 2013  I read this on this book Darkness Everywhere The Assassination of Mohandas Gandhi by Matt Doeden. on page 63   it reads in India Gandhi's birthday, October 2, is celebrated as a national holiday.  On page 59 it reads the trial was held at the historic Red Fort, a Fort and palace built by Mughal emperor shah Jahan in the 1600s in old Delhi (a historic part of Delhi, India's capital district).                   

 Updated September 9, 2013 this is a copy of an original  picture of  my father taken in October 1938 about a month and a half before he married my mother Cecilia who he used to called Cici. My father like me was the youngest child and his birthday was also in September.  My father told me the most he weighted in his life was 170 pounds. His height was about 5  feet 11 1/ 2 inches tall. He was  light  complexion with blue eyes. more to come  

Updated May 29, 2013 i will come back and write more about my  father but for now i will write about my mother Cecilia Pena Fernandez.. My mother was more Native she had light brown eyes and cheek bones. she was 5 f more to come 


Update September 10, 2013 I was born in 1956 and I am 56 years old . About  losing my religion  i drive a 1999 Buick Century. one day at the Grand Forks, ND Mission Troy tried to whisper something about someone else in my ear but i said no because that is children play or gossip and besides i don't like it. In 2006 in Grand Forks, ND  i was desperate and needed to talk with Fr. Bob so i called for a confession but the church sent me an older priest i didn't know. In my confession i said i had lied about the lawyers that is how despair i was. i was choosing my confessions. more to come

Updated September 11, 2013 next i will write about my past life at Main Ave St in Fargo and the dreams i had before i knew i was coming back and what I wrote  and lost on my drive about this song Written In The Stars.  today i am 57 years old. Thank You, God! Not very sure about this but i think there was a  
National Bank On Main Ave where now is the Bank of the West and we used to come cashed checks. we would park facing the front door on Main Ave i don't think i ever went inside this bank but i do remember waiting in the car looking at the sky through the reflections of the window mirrors. looking at the sky was very pleasant for me. Before my son was set up for the third time i was having these kind of dreams.  I dreamed i am on something going up and down the streets, railroads and going over and under bridges and even  parks. And i am looking at what i think in my dream are buildings. One of the building always gets my attention because it looks tall in a hill  and looks to me like the National Bank in Fargo. more to come      


Updated September 17, 2013 i used to listened to KQWB - FM = Fargo Moorhead. The Surrender was signed on September 3, 1945 i turned 45 on September 11, 2001.My son is 33 years old my address is 303.

Updated September 19, 2013 People in Fargo are very excited about this coming Saturday 21, 2013 as it  might be a nationwide or maybe even a worldwide event. Broadway street is just behind the building where I live. And the platform is getting really for the ESPN College Game Day takes off!

September 19, 2013 Child Beauty French Senate votes aims to protect  girls more to come.


September 19, 2013 Here is something i read today on this book Here is my kingdom by Charles Sullivan        "We Serve Whites Only No Spanish Or Mexicans" The whites didn't know what to label us because in my birth certificate where it reads Race i am white.  more to come

Update December 4, 2013  its been quite a while i haven't had the time to write more information  but because of the winter storm we are having i won't be going to work this afternoon so i have some time to write this down. it's been months that i had noticed this book named Autobiography of Mark Twain Volume 2 at the Moorhead public library and today i got a chance to look at some of its  inside pages. and because i had  mentioned Twain on my letters and on my blogger i will  mention him again. These are some of  the pages that caught my attention. page 376  Tuesday 22, 1907 and on page 301 this picture The Clemenses' house on Farmington Avenue, Hartford, winter 1880. and page 33. there is much  more but for today this is all.more to come

Updated January 19, 2014 Here i come Minnesotans, hold on to your seats!  Minnesota says my son had an early released from prison ?! And this was for drugs charges  against him   that in the first place were never ever proven by any lawyer, Judge or court!?  and these words are said to him again and again like a mind game for him to more to come                        



January 22, 2014 updated Katy Perry parents, pastors? there is a saying "The fruit doesn't  fall far from the tree." There is good money in preaching and many people do it for just that money they use the word of God. Gods Word to gain power and fame and of course money. she says (Katy Perry) her parents are Republicans and that they  didn't voted for Obama and asked her if they could go with her to Obama's Inauguration. Why!?  more to come

January 26, 2014 red carpet Updatd January 29, 2014 I can't remenmer what year it was but it was after 911that my uncle from California told  me i had to move my moble home so i bought a lot on the same street. And again i had to cleaned the yard. I can't remember if it was on the first lot or the second lot that some one gave me a  red carpet and a gray carpet. these carpets were were new never had been used. the gary carpet was too small for any of my two bedrroms so i gave it away. i don't like red carpets  but i didnt have money to buy tile to cover the floor.  this past weekend the Boat show was at the Fargodone and i went to help clean it up some of the floor had red carpet . Since long time ago I wanted to write about my badroom red carpet but did't have the time.  more to come


Updated January 29, 2014 Attention people more dreams! This morning i got up at 5:15 am to warm the car and get ready to drop my son on  700  30th  Ave S Moorhead. Then i went home cleaned the apartment and had breakfast set the  alarm clock to 7:30 am then I went back to bed.  I dreamed i was on the right side of a street looking to the opposite side. then i saw a man walking on the street talking to other men also walking with him. This first man i saw was doing most of the talking and in my dream i thought it was about the  downtown streets. this man was holding  on his left hand (hanging on his arm  a brown folder and a  black briefcase as he walked by). To me this man looked as if he was a lawyer or a CEO

Updated January 31, 2014 last night one of my children asked me if i knew what was going on with Henry H. Howe i said, no.  What?! this is for real or is it a Joke well planed by whole court system!? Because nothing i read looks real to me! and I will use the same words Howe used on his reply to Robert Ackre Attorney at Law then were sent to me back in December 31, 2008  "divert focus to the messenger rather than to me" would the United States Courts be  using Howe as a Scapegoat!? to divert me!? Now the word divert= turn and change.now a murder his not!much more to to come  


Updated February 3, 2014 many time i have woken up looked at the clock time is 5:55 am 3:33 am 1:11 am  2:22am 12;12 am 6:06 am  4:44 am more to come Today February 3, 2014 my daughter and i were out dining and she mentioned that this day was 55 years ago Ritchie, Holly Buddy and the big Popper were killed on a plane coming to Fargo, ND then she said we were eating a food  said to be good for prevention of Alzheimer's  disease    more to come




February 5, 2014  i will write about the number 9 Update February 9, 2014  on Tuesday January 14, 2014 as we were coming from Willow River, MN back  Moorhead  i was in the back seat and i turned my head to the right and there it was a road sign with the number 9. Several days after my daughter is remembering a kids show she used to watched then she mentioned  all you can do with  the  number 9. February 10, 2014  Where i live now the street  numbers are 2 and 9= 11 my mother had 9 pregnancies        . more to come   

Updated February 5, 2014 On January 28, 1986 i remember like most other people i was watching the Challenger took off and looking at the space ship exploded  what looked to me into two parts. more to come  
Uprated February 10., 2014 i can remember watching  on TV the civil rights movements especially  summer days when we were resting and having lunch. one day my oldest brother said, "I  don't know why they  just don't get a job and work." i didn't understand it ether i thought the people on the streets had too much time on their hands and were looking for trouble. this was because in a way we had never seen that there was a better and easier way to make a living. working on the fields was in a way all we knew. the black people because many lived in big cities were housekeepers, nannies  and by then were educated and knew  there was a better way of  living. more to come as i look at this book marching to the Mountaintop by Ann Bausum   more to come 
February 11, 2014 i don't  go inside any kind of church or listen on radio or TV   more to come

Updated February 13, 2014 i remember when i saw on the national news about a man named Morrie who was dying. i thought to myself why is it or him so important to put this dying man on the news, everyone dies, we are all going to die! And life went on for me  later i heard or saw on TV about a book  another man had written  named Tuesdays with Morrie still i would never care to know about this book because in the first place i had no time to read. And because i could not relate to it in any way my life has been  totally different, or so i thought. The Fargo and Moorhead libraries twice or once a year have book sells and lately i been collecting books that most of the time I still don't have time to read but more to come      and now that i am trying to understand what is going on what God is telling me and pass it on to You The People,  To You the World. more to come

Updated February 16, 2014  On January 24, 2014 i was about to give this book away that i had gone through the pages several times before and saw anything that i could relate to. I had bought it at Fargo's library long before the word Ford meant anything to me. The book is Medicine's Great Journey One Hundred Years of Healing introduction by Dr. Robert Coles.  Now that my son is with me he has asked me more then once, "why do  you have so many books?"  At first i really didn't know i just kept buying them but now i think it's because i need to go through most of them and read some lines to make sense of what is going on what i need to write about because on January 24, as i was going to give this book  away i went through it again and this is what is on page 72 a picture of a skeleton named Ford.  then i go into the internet to see who is Dr. Robert Cloes  and i read about him and musician Bruce Springsteen more to come

Last year was one century my parents were born.  This month  was my first grandson's birthday 2-12- 2014  his age 12.  This day also would have been the male educator  birthday that asked me once if i would lay down my life for someone else,  now i mentioned earlier that in 1975 i had moved to Valley with my sister Barbara and her family.  My address in Crystal City is 310 West Crockett my sister's address is Alamo Rd in Alamo TX. more to come

Updated February `16, 2014 today i went to the Fargo dome to to buy tickets for the Toby Mac concert. T shirts were on displayed for sell with one eye and this words "I got my eye on it." One of the sign's i hold outside the Federal building had one eye too, now who was first with this idea?  I was, or I am ?! Are Christians singers also repeating? Yes they are, i would say since 2004. more to come     
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February 21, 2014 the first time i saw this liquor store named 99 bottles on  Main ave in Moorhead i thought to myself,  "why the name, 99 bottles?" Months later i remembered the song 99 Bottles of Beer . then way  later  i remembered i had seen on the dictionary  einsteinium/ the chemical element of atomic number 99, a radioactive metal of the actinide series. Here's another one Concordia College on 901 8th St South,  in Moorhead. Concordia ship the one that sank. growing up my parents used to take me and my sister Barbara to the Luna Mexican Theater. Sometimes my mother didn't joined us, this was before i met Rosa Luna. When we got home  from the movies my father would asked us to rate the movie we had seen so we got to sit around the table and talk about what we had seen and what we liked about the movie February 22, 2014 and i told my father i had liked the part when the movie started where three is a girl in the middle with two boys on the sides in a convertible car driving in a downtown city singing and dancing to a song that went something like this, "como un reloj,  ticky tock." like a clock tick tock. i liked it so so that i  still remember on that night i would stand on a chair sing and dance to only those words that up now are the only ones i can remember about that movie. today as i am looking on the internet i come across the song by Kesha- tick tock  2009 and like most singers she repeats,    moves like Jagger. Now if you been reading what i been writing back in 2006 in Grand Forks, ND i was laughing at Jagger moves and  just like now the law was snooping.  FB<0>  was watching everything i said and did to tell you the people what to repeat back to me. now today as i drive north and south east and west  north on Main Ave i see and so can you a sign with a  countdown clock showing when the Dairy Queen will open.  more to come  
February 22, 2014 by the time i moved to 303 Fargo i knew i was on a mission. i knew i was about to do something to get the attention of you the people. and for me the hardest thing to do was to picketed  outside Saint Mary's Catholic church this is why i would do this at night. more to come

Updated March 8, 2014  on my father's side that i knew of I had  four uncles and two aunts. one uncle i never met because i think he died before i was born or i was too small to remember him. And one uncle moved to California with his wife and children. one aunt i never met because she died i heard giving birth to her first child.  many years later in the nineties  i met her husband named Jimenez. more to come

Updated March 26, 2014 two of my uncles one  named Tomas the other named Julio stayed in Crystal City also my aunt named Maria De Jesus Fernandez Lara then later Tellez.  .
I don't remember which  uncle died first but on this first family funeral i attended


Updated March 10, 2014 does the Fargo Federal people and government want me back on strike?! this day Monday March 10, 2014 i went to the social security office and this is what happened.  more to come if you want me back i am really with new signs and new words! March 13, 2014 and i will come back  to you the women on the second to the last window who played with my mind and didn't gave me my right to public service  you gave it to two other short men when it was my turn and i had been waiting on a long line.  i will call you brave woman because you have no idea what you got yourself into when you decided to play with my mind. Now i will go down to your most personal private and  ask you "how would you feel if it was you, me!"  more to come

Updated March 11, 2014 attention  people more hints  these words: Oklahoma, Bastard  Beatrice  more to come

Updated March 16, 2014 yesterday i was going to start writing about a person named Gracie in Greeley, Colorado then i remembered all the people i knew with the name Kelly. so i looked up Grace Kelly and leaned she was Grace Patricia Kelly. who was born November12, 1929 had a car accident on September 13, 1982 and died September 14, 1982. was married in 1956 to a Monaco Prince. which made her a princess.                    

why  on  March 10, 2014  i went to the Federal building was to get information on how to get my rightfully widow funeral benefits i never received  from the Government. Raul Canela Munoz had passed away back in 2011 and at that time i was living here in Fargo, ND. now on this day march 10, the women now i call Brave gave me a form it says that i had two years to report his death to get my widow benefits. i remember very well that when my father died not one person in my family knew about  government sending money to  widows. the government just simply did their job because i figured  the funeral home  reported to the government that my father had died and  my mother just simply got a check on the mail that she was not expecting. back in 2011 about six months after my husband death  i found out he had died. i remember that on that day i mentioned it to crew i was riding with on our way to Pizza Corner. i had and have been too busy working to look into why i never got the money that rightfully is mine! now as i looked into the internet to see what funeral in Greeley had buried my husband live in  girlfriend. i read on her obituary where it says she had been with her husband since 1982. well in the fall of 1983 i moved to Greeley and Raul was seeing both of us but she was smoking pot with him  and having the babies. but he never field for a divorced. he was too busy making enough money to get High.  (This this was the time of Attorney General Dan Morales who at the time was too busy  in bars looking for a strip tease to marry.) he had no time for single parents like me. i would call Del Rio to report Raul absents but Dan was too busy hitting the Go Go Bars looking for a bride. so men like Raul were with out any  obligations to pay child support. Raul went on having  out of wedlock children. now i haven't been able to find Raul obituary but my daughter told me that she and her bother were not mentioned on his. when i found out his girlfriend named Gracie Beatrice Guzman had passed away before Raul i looked for her obituary and couldn't  find it until these past weeks that i read mentioned her husband. i called the funeral and told him  i had been his wife. he told me something like this that if they were living together for a curtain time they were consider married.  i told him he never divorcied me and we had been married by cival and church they both were just having children. Then i asked him, "what husband  is going to be witten on my obituary?" and i went on to tell him, "my children are not the Basdturs!" i told him he had to start making changes on her obituary because what he had were not facts but lies. Back in 1975-76 school year   in the valley there was an argument going on with the Diama class students about some studeants or teachers not allowing the word basturd to be used on the Oklohola play. i have never really payed attention to the movie or play to hear if this word is mention but i was told it is mentoned. some students back then  were  asking why not use the word when it is even wrtten on the Bibile. now that i read it i know this is  true.    her name was Gracie    more to come






Update April 10, 2014 this past Tuesday my daughter and i went to see     more to come about the dozen of  jumbo eggs  i bought at   and all eggs have  two yolks. on Tuesday  Laura Story said she was having twins. i will write about this same week i told my daughter about my sisters  back in the seventies buying home decor with spears. when I saw For King and Country drums  this was the design i was  trying to tell my daughter but the spears were on an x not a cross.more to come soon i will write about the morning i saw the  trains passing on  the day of the explosion. i will go back to the seventies when a man from Australia stopped to talk with us as i were working on the f

Update April 17, 2014 everything everything around me is repeated even this road car assistance booklet repeats. This month of April 2014 i noticed this. more to come


Updated April 19, 2014  later i will write how the Protection Social Services protects the abuser but not the abused child. i will write how the abused child has no rights and has no voice. more to come


I will write about about Tuesday's  April 15, 2014 Blood Red Moon i will write about Mr. Snowdon. and the day


Update May 7, 2014 i don't remember how old my daughter  was or was going to be but on one of her teenage birthdays her father Raul send her a box with some things on it. one of those things was a cassette with music and i remember these three songs were on it Amarillo By Morning, American Pie and Mr. Bojangles    more to come

Update May 7, 2014 one day when i was a child i went with my father to my what i believe was the grocery store of my Godparents. on the wall was a picture of a white woman and a refrigerator with a long line of all kinds of food coming out from it. i couldn't stop looking at it because i liked it colors and liked looking at all the food coming out. My Godfather told me   more to come why i kn      

Updated May 21, 2014 since i moved to 56560 i remembered and  been wanting to write about Crosses but i haven't had the time.  Today May 21, 2014  I saw things in the internet i don't know about 911 Zero Ground and the cross, a lot more to come!  growing up during the summers here in the North we went through many scary  storms


Updated May 24, 2014  i am not sure but i think  the Red Rambler that my father taught me to drive was mounted somewhere on West Main Ave  more to come

Update June 2, 2014 if you pay attention you will notice that names are also repeated. The Summer  my sister Barbara   stayed behind with her husband to be Rey Salinas a boy older  then me named Mike serenade me the song Windy. more to come  later more on Mike

Updated June 3, 2014   i see this man who at first i haven't  noticed then one day he gets my attention but in a strange way reminds me of another man's brother i used to talk with .Days go by  might have been the 21, 22,or23  that someone says the name Eric.   Update June 12, 2014  what i am about to write here is not easy for me and i don't even know how to start I don't want to hurt anyone or bring up sad memories  and you need to understand that i am  also hurting  very much too.  But in order for you to understand me i need to write down and explain  to the best of my ability that what is going on around us is very very serious. this is not just about me wanting to come before the government but something much deeper. since i made up my mind to come north and confront  the lawyers I've been very strong and i try very hard not to let my guard down. the man that came to mind is Mr. Eddie Cuellar Elsa Perez husband. now they had two children a daughter named Erika and a son named Erik. Erik  is  resting in peace and  was born in the month of September. Erika has twin boys. now Eddies brother Julio was born on February 12. Julio is also resting in peace. i can't reveal         more to come

Updated June 5,2014 Now that Paul is coming to town i must write about one Summer day it could have been 1969 or 1970. We  were  finishing a  sugar beet field and the radio car  was on then the song Long And Winding Road  started  playing .  July 9, 2014 during these years of late sixties and early seventies my big brother invited two families from Crystal City to help us with the beets. one was the family Ramirez and the  other were the Luna. (Luna = Moon not related to Rosa Luna) Mr. and Mrs Luna only had one son named Manual .Barbara my sister when she heard they were coming  along  went wild she really liked Manuel. Manual was a  football   player and wore eye glasses was medium height and light weight. Barbara liked Manual and they did dated for a while. I personally didn't like Manual and he knew it. to me Manual thought of himself as too much of a good looking. Too  much of a good football player too much of a high society but then again i was just a kid. but when the Radio started playing Long and Winding Road and  i saw my big brother heading towards the car i knew he was going to change the Radio Station and he did. then i saw Manual looked up and stopped working so did I and we both looked at each other in disbelieved for a while Manual and i became friends and we were probably  thinking the same thing  how dare would my brother change the Radio Station and put it on a  News program.  I know my brother liked the  Beatles  music but every time a Beatles song was played he remembered Ohio.  i don't know for how  long we migrated  to Ohio but i remember we had to stop because my brother was getting real bad allergies  attacks were he couldn't breath. the  fog  from the lakes or trees  he was allergic to and a doctor told him if he wanted to live he had to leave the State. for this to affected  him so much  might have been   because  he had met someone he liked a lot and wanted to keep seeing her. i really don't know but i bet it was Love. in Texas as a child he had been diagnosed with Asthma.


Update July 10, 2014 Now Rosa Luna has a brother in law who was or still is working with NASA. One day Rosa was cleaning her closet and found an Elvis Presley button picture and said something like this " only memories are left behind of Elvis concert i went to with my sister in Houston  more to come   long before I  knew i was losing Rosa as a friend  to her boyfriend Guzman and so did her mother. more to come 

 July 9,2014  growing up in a  farm is not easy for a child most of the time  it's very lonely i had no one to play with on rainy days or Sundays only when we went downtown Casselton for Mass and the priest had something going on we would meet with other families. my sister Barbara always liked to teased me to the point of making me cry. my mother and us girls slept on a one bedroom house which had a kitchen where we cooked.  my father and brothers slept on another house closed by. one day Barbara came to the bedroom  whisper on my ear that there were a group of boys in the Kitchen  from other Farms that were visiting me and wanted to play with me. i was shocked and very much embarrassed  i didn't know what to do. I wasn't a tomboy and as much as i didn't mean them being boys i wanted to play with girls. so i stayed in the room and i climbed  up to the bed to see through a hole on the wall  and there they were i don't know if they were three or four of them but they were sitting on a twin bed watching TV waiting for me to come out. up to this day i have no idea  who those boys were.             

Updated June 9, 2014 from here on i will not erase what i write ! I will rephrase it differently   but I will  not erase  it ! So you married men be very careful with your actions and in directs!

  


 June 9, 2014 i will write about last week at the Moorhead  Public Library when i saw this children's book title Anne Frank's Chestnut Tree and why it made me cry.  before 2010 i colored  my hair light brown or  medium brown but one day i saw this color here in Fargo Medium Golden Chestnut brown box 46 by Revlon and i more to come   next   will write about last  name Nelson Updated

 Updated June 25, 2014  Mr. Nelson was my Crystal City High School  History teacher he said he was from South Dakota. more to come   July 8, 2014 Mr. Nelson was very good at teaching most of the time he would know if  (I  will speak for myself )was listening by looking at my eyes to see if i was paying attention to him. but one day i closed my eyes. and how i wished i had never done that! Mr. Nelson was liked = WW2 he would have us watching endless 2 world War films. I already had a war of fears going on in my mind. attention towards me i wanted none i knew i wasn't pretty and that didn't bothered  me as much as not  being smart but back then i didn't know how to be smart now i know that maybe if i would have visited Mr. Websters more often i would have had a better chance of being smarter.        on that day i felt so bad after Mr. Nelson told me no one was going to fall asleep    on his class room and many other things that for a while i only saw his now that i know ( Norwegian light hair mustache  moving)   i wanted to find a big rock and hide underneath it. i was so embarrassed  i don't remembered his ex words but my mind was going please stop it i promise next time i will not even blink    please no more attention towards me  more to come        

Updated June 12, 2014 Mr. H.Howe now that you didn't go to prison start looking for the recording you said you have of me yelling and chasing away an Task Force Officer because you are going to need them! And  i never said i had been your Client!Update


June 17, 2014 one day long time ago I might have been in the eighth grade i had been cruising in town with Jesse Moncada and we park at Garcia's park Jesse kept looking at me then told me this " You look so much like my sister Beatrice"  also other people had told me i looked like her and i can still remember one time we both were in the  school girls bathroom  and we looked at each other. I was thinking do i really look like her could be she was thinking the same i really don't know because we never talked to each other  now before i go on Jesse was a decent young man so all we did was talked  and i knew him enough to trust him because times more to come  now years went by when Belia Juarez  was living in San Antonio and had asked me to go stay with her for the weekend. Belia told me Ricardo Salas sister had an apartment closed by and that she wanted to meet me and for me to pay her a visit.  i knocked  on her door she opened and called me Beatrice. now where am i going with all these ? I knew  Raul's girlfriend name was Grace but i didn't know her second name was Beatrice.   more to come


Updated  June 25, 2014  i wish i had more time to correct my spelling  but i don't and i still have so much more  to write about  words like  Amber, Marbles   and the   The Westertoren seen from the attic window of the secret annex and he cross i see from my apartment. more to come   and about the Movie i watched on my day off from work The Big Chill more to come

Update June 30, 2014 right now i will write about the Heart when i knew my marriage was going nowhere i prayed to God to give me courage  to go back to Texas without looking back and He did. i was young with two small children i  often  prayed to God  for a new start with another man i know i even bargain with Him  but He never answered.  more to come     

Update July 12, 2014 my mother's favorite actor was Pedro Armendariz i was very little but i remember mother never missed his movies. she used to say that Armendariz reminded her of one of her brother's. i don't know about that but i know she loved his acting. and i know that if Armendariz ever went to Crystal City she would have been one of the first ones in line to see him. and yes back then Mexicans actors and actress did go to Crystal City Theaters. more to come

Updated July 14,2014 today before i could write i had to listen to these songs to charge my mind  By UB40 Can't Help Falling In Love  Red Red  Wine   last night my daughter told me sad news about my beloved nephew Ricardo's death. I knew he was very sick but i wanted him to die close to me but this was out off my hands.  And i know his in a better place but i will sure miss him. Ricky like so many children suffered a lot.more to come

Update July 16, 2014 whoever else went to the Paul Mc Carthney concert did you hear him say the word cookies? In 2005 when i met you lawyer H. Howe( and it was only me and you in your office) i used that word and you thought I  pronounced it funny. Who told Paul to say and do certain things i say and do? i know it had to be you  and the rest of the people who the law tells what goes on inside my home, car and what i say on the phone. Howe, are you having a hard time finding the recording of me yelling to an narcotic  officer?Remember I have a copy of the letter you sent to the third party.

Raul Munoz that is my children's father told me once that when he was in the military some white people  would called him Paul because some could not pronounced the word Raul or because they got confused and thought his name started with a P.

Update July 21, 2014  today I got a phone call from people who told me i was under an investigation. I got this to say, "what's new about that!?"  i have a lot to write about  just normal questions I asked a coworker  on how he would felt      if it was him  under 24/7 surveillance. now i didn't   





Update July 30, 2014 on my way back to Texas i was constantly given hints i was being watched but it first i tried hard to ignore it  and it worked for a while. but then i got so sick i couldn't more to come 

Updated 24, 2014 Yesterday as it sink in i was so mad so angry but  like everyday of my life i had to stay cool and pretended  i was OK this is this is what happened. I was fired from my job  because i was accused of sexual harassing two grown women just for asking them questions on how would they feel if they were the ones being seen having sex with their husbands live in boyfriends and this got these women upset when they have been repeating things  only i would  know. (When in fact it is me the ONE who is daily mentally raped

July 24,2914 for many many years i have been forgiving you pretending nothings wrong accepting  all your hate without doing much to fight back now lets see how much of a forgiven Christians you really are. many of you say you love God and are good people but what if you were me? Would you still forgive the world and believed in God? Like the saying goes " talking is cheap" Back in 2006 when you the law set me up and  let me know you had set up my son and you were in power and there was nothing i could do because you hold all the cards i wanted to go crazy. (and that's what you wanted) i felt so down that one night i just wanted to take my clothes off go out in the snow and just die. when i got enough strength went back to Texas i had to go through the never ending  mourning  lost of  privacy. this is a feeling that never ends i just had to get used to it because there is nothing i can do or anyone else can do things are just going to get worst and if your priest is saying there are not he is lying. privacy is a thing of the past right now is me and who knows who else on camera but tomorrow it might be many of you and you just wouldn't know it unless the law wants you to know. now i knew it was time for me to move on because i will be 58 and Fargo zip is 58102 and the other thing is that about two weeks ago the dryer on my apartment reaped two of my white new blouses. more to come      


  July 24, 2014 before i write more on this let me tell you women, i am not like you! I don't have a mama or papa or husband or live in boyfriend not even a lover! no man pays my bills! i am truly alone! July 31, 2014  (well not really Christ is with me)  but i tell you i will defend myself! !next i will write what were the questions. Update July 30, 2014 i never stay angry for more then an hour. I know angry  i will never accomplished a thing.           



before January 2006  i used to closed the door got on my knees and pray. i used to undressed and do many other things that should be private like checked my breast without thinking i was being watched.  but not any more      more to come  but first you the people need to know who I was  and what i was forced to become to over come this horrible ordeal that i am  still going through.  

Update July 21, 2014 this is one of the ways God tells me He is in control.     what i am about to write has been banging my head for a long time about two weeks ago a man named Kamill did something that reminded me i needed to write it down. this man originally from the Middle East saluted me. Salute= gesture of respect, homage or polite recognition or acknowledgment.      when i was in second grade a boy i knew named Hector Juarez  used to salute me as he was going  in line with  his classroom mates   from the south side and i was going in from the north side with my class mates  to my classroom. He would moved to the side of the line and stand straight up and salute. he did this for about two weeks until i got tried of him only playing this way with me then one i  saluted him back. but look looking Hector didn't seem to like it then i stopped and he did it again. through the years i knew he liked me but i knew all his family and I saw him like a cousin or very closed friend. then one day as i was waiting for his sister Yolanda he was at the door and he tells me look at that girl her name is also Marta. the other Marta was from Mexico and was nanny for the children of a Band Director and his wife. Hector was calling to her and  whistling at her as she was walking by. she did say something back to him but i don't remember what. later i heard they were getting married. then years later i hear they are living in San Antonio but not together years after i hear he died. Marta was or still is a very good looking women. Now nobody can argue with me that most all Mr. Juan and Antonia children are very good looking. especially  was Rebecca that i only knew by picture. Rebecca's father in law was very well known because he was a Radio d                        more to come 

Update July 28, 2014 i heard  it's been 30 years since Purple Rain, purple was Rebecca Juarez Montemayor   favorite color more to come  

One day back  in 2011 as  i   was riding  with others to Valley City i asked   why was the Airport named Hector International Airport, who was Hector but nobody knew. more to come  


 update July  21, 2014 next will write about movies Apollo13 and
 Update July 26, 2014   The movie Confidence. Wasn't  it William Shakespeare who said "All The World's  A Stage?"   All the world a stage,and all the men and women merely players: they have their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts,and his acts being seven ages. i buy back then movies to relaxed my mind because most movies from nowadays are repeating. but movies like this one makes me think twice.  I bought this movie at the Dakota Ranch  and all movies are checked before put up for sell. I put the movie in and it repeats. July 30, 2014 it starts where King is touching jacks hands                   more to come   

Update July 25, 2014 maybe now with a bit more time i will write more and learn about one of my daughter's  favorite  author who was C.S. Lewis

Updated July 28, 2014 last night i dreamed I was somewhere in Texas i saw flowers everywhere on the ground and we were at War. maybe this dream has to do with two movies i saw during the day. but around 7:00am the clock alarm wakes me up and i hear the news  more to come.

Update July 30, 2014 Today I am very happy because yesterday I saw my future.

Update 30,2014 reason why in 1975 i moved to Alamo with my sister Barbara. more to come

Updated August 1, 2014 On July Thirtieth my daughter calls me tells me one of her Crystal City school classmate  has two tickets for the show Heaven is for Real. I really didn't wanted to go i thought to myself what possibly could I learn from it? I know there is a Heaven like i know there is a Hell. That night  around 11:45 pm i went out for a long walk  started complaining to God why He had taken Ricky when i wanted to see him and make up for not being there for him when he needed me the most.  i had many other complains on my list.  when i got tired of walking i sat outside the apartment on a white chair facing  north. one of the tenant left a radio on and i was listening to a talk show and my mind was full with thoughts. the station could have been Coast to Coast but i am not sure it might have also been  a religious show. the topic was about strange sounds or strange things that sometimes cannot be explained but by praying can be stopped . I started thinking why when I  was still  a child i wanted to stop going to school and had asked my parents to stop sending me to summer school and instead take me to the fields with them. i don't remember if i told them why but for many years i was the only child at the Farm.     more to come  Updated August 2, 2014 on this night as i was talking to God  in my head  as I looked up to the sky I saw some kind of White Bird flying  from the North to the South moving fast i kept looking up until it passed over above one tree blocking my view. more to come   

Update August 18, 2014  This year was the 56th  Annual Pioneer Bonanzaville days in West Fargo. August 2, 2014 Did you know that Hitler was 56 when he died? Adolf Hitler German leader born in Austria; chancellor of Germany 1933-45. he confounded the National Socialist German workers (Nazi) party in 1919 and came to prominence through his powers of oratory.   


Updated  August 21, 2014 many more hints God has given me i just don't have the time to write them down. Several weeks ago i started driving these streets 33rd Ave south and 33rd St south from these streets you can see a Ford Company. The first time I drove by these streets there was an empty  lot now the Ford company parked vehicles . Update August 22, 2014 if you keep driving on 33rd street and hit 35rd Ave  you will come to a died end with a line of twin-houses. now if you go inside the hospital on the corner of these two streets which is at 3000  32nd Ave south  Essentia Health Hospital and use the inside telephones more to come     Now on  these streets 32 rd Ave south and 32 rd St south there is a Five Star storage more to come  

Update August 22, 2014 now people if you think you can play games with my mind and get away with it you are very very wrong  because just as you give me hints you are mocking me by playing  on the radio certain songs like this one Every Breath You Take and if I belong to you then you belong to me and i will mention you on my blogger.  i used to be very shy but you the people are full of evil that i had to change my ways.    Now is sucking really a bad word to use? more to come

Update August 25, 2014 i just had to listen to the Fabulous Supremes. In the school year of 1978-1979 Rosa Sanchez and  i used  to work for the Crystal City School District and on my way to work I would pick her up at her  parents home on East Holland Street. One day she told me she had something to tell me but didn't know how to start. She told me she had dreamed i had died. I am more then sure this was after i had a dreamed I was Bald. Now the woman who took my place is dead and my son is Bald.  more to come 

Update 26, 2014  Here i will write about Sam's Club  but first i must write about my daughter's Senior  Wal mart       $1,000     Scholarship More to come

Update August 28, 2014 Remember everything around me is repeated. One day Mrs Pallman Jewish lady from San Antonio had a painting on her wall on the left side as you walked out to the front door on the  hallway. one day as i helped her waked to the kitchen she asked me what was the painting about. i told her it was somewhere in Holland.   she asked me how did I know it was Holland.    more to come


September 6, 2014 On the month of May 2014 these two songs were often played on F-M radio stations. Maggie May and You're No Good.  Linda Ronstadt has Parkinson's disease my oldest brother Luis had Parkinson's. disease.  September 9, 2014 In Crystal City i know a woman named Esmeralda Rodriquez but she is also known by the name May. In 2006 in Grand Forks when I knew something was terribly wrong and i knew it were the lawyers sending people to mess me up. To clear my mind i would watched movies  with my grandsons one of them was the How The Grinch Stole Christmas


One night on the month of June 2014 i walked from Fargo to Moorhead and read the stone which reads S S G Andrew P. Nelson Memorial Track more to come


September 7, 2014 My daughter once told  me she had read somewhere that if you wanted to make God laugh just tell Him your plans. Boy wasn't He been laughing at me! Today Sunday  morning I  had planned on going with other women to Bismarck work at Walmart Store but my ride never come instead I went to La Unica in Moorhead to see two young women that i never noticed before they are twins     more to come


September 9, 2014

September 10,2014 like i wrote before i had a lot to write but i just don't have the time. On September 11, 2001 my daughter had called me to tell me the news about the planes she knew about it because one of her friend of an airline attendant and he was suppose to be on one of those planes but something happened and he was not. at the time my daughter was living in San Marcos, TX her zip code was 78666  more to come

Back to my dreams  way before i knew i was coming back to ND i had several times  i had this other dream i was in a car and i am always sitting on the left side on the back  i am thinking it's  somewhere in North Dakota and i am with the rest of my family it's a ride to the fields but then i hear unfamiliar voices and i realized i am with strangers  then i looked at them  and i see there is snow on the road and i know it's somewhere here but i am thinking who are those people i am with and where are we going and why is there snow in the ground. now i know what this was all the people i would ride to Valley City were strangers to me more to come Updated September 20, 2014 other dreams i used to have were that i was running through the back Farm  fields of  wheat or more to come back then at night i would stand and looked to the East and wonder what it would be like to live in  downtown Fargo more to come      

Updated  September 16, 2014 What! The  Big NFL monster parent is out and the four year old child is in  a jail house!   Later i found out the NFL didn't even lives with the son.   more to come

  Update  September 16, 2014  I think I  know who is the father of Miss  Idaho Preteen  one day back in the  late sixties  or early seventies when my sister Barbara was dating Salinas she heard that a white woman was going to have  or that had a baby and the father was Salinas. that day Barbara took me with her at first i didn't know where we were going but we drove to her home and Barbara asked the young lady  if it was true. I don't  remember  if during the time i  was in the Valley I got to see the little boy but way later in life Cecilia Barbara's daughter did show me a picture of her and her brother from Idaho where he had escorted her to her 15th  birthday party.  since 2006 when i noticed my older siblings were also playing mind games  i stopped all contacts so i don't know too much only what i hear from my children          more to come

Update September 18, 2014 for  several  weeks I been working at the Wal mart store on 13 Ave in Fargo      through Commend Center and one of our Wal mart crew leader told me and others about what she had heard on TV about the Polyethylene on Crest toothpaste.  I instantly  thought about  the rumor back in eighties in Colorado what people were saying about Crest Trademark. someone back then pointed to me the more to come then i looked up the word crest


Update September 19, 2014 Early yesterday i was thinking about a poem i used to love to read in school Annable Lee by Edger Allen Poe.   I think it was with Mr. Escamilla when I first learned about this poem. I used to think what great love this man had for his Annable Lee. Then later last night I am watching the Scandal when  previews  of  the horror movie Annablle  The Haunted  Doll I see.   (I have never known of anyone ever loving me that way maybe it's because I don't know  how to show I love. I really don't know i just know I am still waiting on God for His answer)      this is not the first time something like this happens to me. One day before Rabin William took his life my daughter and i were having a conversation about the  weather here up north. we were talking about how long the summer days are then i mentioned the movie insomnia  more to come

Update September 20,2014 Just as when i saw  the word Oklahoma  on  posters at the Discovery Benefits i knew i was going write  about it so  was it when i saw Jo Stafford on Capital Records. One day when my children were in Junior high my brother and daughter were watching a TV program about Capital Punishment and i was in another room but i  could hear  i walked by and  announced to them that if someone would ever take my life not to seek the death penalty. The Death Penalty is something i strongly don't believe in it

  Update September 23, 2014 last night i was listening to a Moorhead radio program about Spanish music and i heard one of my favorite song Las Nubes by Little Joe Y La Famila then I remembered back then there was a Spanish  F-M Station that would play Spanish music  early in the morning for about one hour or  thirty minutes. Today I saw &amp; heard  my fathers favorite song Solamente Una Vez      sang by Little Joe &amp; Willie Nelson         more to come Update September 23, 2014 remembering   two Epidemics we had back then one was were flies  the other were Grasshoppers. when i was in beauty school  in Greeley Colorado there was a young white woman  always happy and out going always going  to  music concerts. She  liked to be called Cricket so i never knew her real name.And  if i am not mistaken she had red  curly hair. Flies seen to be reminding me not to forget about them too  more to come  one day Cricket was in a hurry to leave i knew where she was going but anyway i asked her where are you going  she said i am going to see Phil Collins to hear him sing Sussudio

September 23, 2014 about late shows like Jimmy Kimmel more to come
 Update September 24, 2014 am i right the women i saw today standing at the Women's Way clinic  were Mama killers? There were also a few Papa killers. more on how the Devil almost made me have in abortion by showing me all the whys

Updated September 24, 2014 Yesterday Tuesday morning i knew i had to wake up by 6:00 am but my eyes were wide opened way before has I looked at the clock it was 5:55am. Around 6:30 am I am driving on 32 Avenue South as  I  looked at a sign and it read 55   more to come   


Update September 24, 2014 before i start writing i need to mention that i never said I was smart or that i knew everything what i been saying is how everything around me keeps repeating. The name Eric has been on my mind  and just tonight i learned that author Gorge Orwell real name is Eric Arthur Blair 1903-1950.  Update  September 29, 2014 Several  months ago i got calls from an doctor's office where i had been seen     for a car accident  and calls from an insurance agency  asking me if i could call  payroll    Erick Balanger about late insurance  payment     more to come



Update October 7, 2014 Jodi Adair remember when i asked you to write down name and phone number of  Eric L. Gudmundson ? And you wrote it  Eric Goodmarson more to come

 October 1, 2014 Update now let's check who is Jay Metzger and see how smart  and educated he really is. more to come

Update October 2, 2014 Jay Metzger do you remember writing the word Scabies on this medical form? This is your handwriting i know because i asked you to write what you had diagnosed me with on this day that i went in to see you    red itching skin April 6, 2012 i will get back to this but for now i will tell you what you told others i had and again i will prove to you, you were wrong! Do you know Gopi MD, Sreejith? Update October 4,2014 Metzger what was wrong with me was BED BUGS! How  they got to my apartment i don't know  they could have come from my grandsons apartment because before i had heard  from their mother they were having this problem but once I  figure it out i called a Pest Control Professional and the problem was gone!  And i was going to forget about this  Big mistake you made until this week when i went for  a Sugar Blood Test and Gopi MD told me what you had said and wrote down about me having a MENTAL DISORDER. You like many others think you can say and write anything you want  about me  to look good with each other and have a good laugh. You think I won't  fight you back! You are very wrong  i wish i had the time to write more but i also have to work and still tolerate you the wicked people!  Metzger you wrote down I had  Paranoid Personality Disorder =  influenced by anxiety or fear, often to he point of irrationality and delusion.       making false accusations and the general distrust of others also frequently accompany paranoia. (Everyone is out to get me) I have  a lot to tell you and others and i will!       Much

September 29, 2014 more to come






Update September 25, 2014 this  dream might mean nothing but i will write it down several weeks ago i dreamed my sister Conch (Connie)    was in a wheelchair on that same dream i sew soldiers getting off a ship running to ground. Concha = Shell. when I hear the word shell i think seashell



 Update October 7, 2014 this card was sent to my mail box.  Is this really how these people think of God? Crazy a very popular word since the madness began back in 2004 to drive me crazy now even some who call themselves Christians use it like nothing now they even say God is also crazy. What  is this world    coming to? I know we should be more careful with words when we put God our Savior = Jesus Christ in front.    more to come

    

Update October 11, 2014 I didn't know  Ebola first United States Victim full name was Thomas Eric Duncan. more to come

  October 11, 2014 So  much is on my head but not enough time to write.  My mother had half siblings from my grandfathers second marriage. Two of her half brothers married two sisters.  (I didn't and i don't  know much about Sadden Hussein  but then my daughter and I watched the movie  Sadden Hussein. He marries two of his daughters with two brothers who he later sends to be killed). My mother first half brother's name was Porfirio and another half brother was named Antonio. Profirio  had children I only have met two of them Profirio Jr and Gracie. Now from a long time ago i knew Profirio Jr was studying medicine then i heard his brother Antonio was also a Doctor. 

Update  October 13, 2014  Now in Fargo i used to live near the VFW on 2th Ave North i used to and sometimes I  still go in to listen to  live music and a few beers. Now my mother had several military gifts that her brother Profirio had sent to her when he was in if i am not mistaken U.S. Air Force. i am sure i saw something like a sofa pillow case that read these words To my sister and the words Air  Force.       more to come

 Update  October 13, 2014 My third  grandson Julian birthday is January 13, 2006  his mother birthday is today October 13, 2014 

                                                                                                                                                                                Updated October 13, 2014    Back then i don't really remember it could have been in the early seventies Profirio and his girlfriend were on their way to Mexico to continue or begin his medical career and they stopped by our home Profirio i can't remember well but he said something about trying to get a  Crystal City VFW scholarship. Back to Austin, Texas  on the night I went tricking or treating  with my cousins  I put on an old Military Boots that were in my a Virginia house.      more to come          

Update  October 14,2014  In the Idaho Camp there was a family i don't' really know where they were from but there was a boy who had been in a car accident and he had lose one arm. His sister told me that when the time of the accident  her brother had his arm  more to come     hand and the mute lady more to come

Updated October 14, 2014 how we now love Halloween and  Fornication that it's part of life and we have even taken it to our churches.    more to come  the movie Annabelle and Dolls more to come 

Update October 15, 2014 There is a one Menard store in Fargo, ND and there is one Menard store in Moorhead, MN I've  been to both stores. Can you guess where my Father was born? In Menard County, Texas! What was his favorite  rose? The Yellow Rose of Texas.  

Why are some people mentioning the name Carlos? I'll tell you why. more to come. 

Update October 20,2014 now one of my son's Godfather is Dr. Antonio Guzman MD from Corpus Christi, Texas.  The last time I saw his mother  in Crystal City   who used to call me Comadre because Tony wasn't married had invited me to go visit my Compadre in Corpus Christi. Compadre = more to come 

Update October 21, 2014 when i met Raul not long before he had been released from the Army and was driving a red and white top Fire bird.  I don't remember the year of the car, but it looked new.  And I don't remember the year but it was before we married Raul and his passengers had an accident in Grafton, North Dakota      i am not sure but i think it was in 1983 when i bought a two door all green Thunderbird . more to come  

Update October 23, 2014 back then in Crystal City, TX  there was a young man who was brutally killed. and if i am not mistaken his name was Luis Alberto Segovia. now back in 2004 I knew a woman named Linda this woman sometime before had gone to Crystal City because at that time was girlfriend to my son's grandfather. i saw her in Grand Forks, ND in 2004 and again in 2005.In 2005 we went out to eat and drink  while my son was in jail. Linda introduced me to another Mexican woman from Grand Forks, ND her name is Lucy Segovia. on February 8, 2006 when attorney Eric in court gave me hints that all i did or said was going to be used against me these two women like all of you were also repeating. now in 2011 i am here in Fargo and start working in Valley City there i met this woman named Maria Segovia from Mexico who is also doing the same repeating what i do inside my apartment what conversations i have with my daughter on the phone and on the car. Update October 26, 2014 now how does Maria works her way around me? I used to talk with this woman then i stopped because i know since a long time was told to repeat and who is telling this woman to repeat? This information about me has to come from the Law the law gives it to you the People then you repeat.  

It would be impossible to mention  all who repeat because you are the World you are the People. So i will mention only a few from Crystal City. Polly Lopez and her employees. HEB store in Crystal City. Here employers and employees at Commend Center. Employers and employees at Kmart store in 2006 in Grand Forks, ND. Kohl's Department store at 4444 13th ave south here in Fargo. Employers, employees and customers at  Walmart store in 13Ave south here in Fargo. people at  Sam's club    more to come 

 Next what is a friend? Mr.  Webster's says Friend =  a person whom you know well and like;  Update October 25, 2014 Not giving friends is not easy for me all people i knew growing up  or thought i knew have been playing wicked mind  games but not only they so are You The People i just met or I am going to meet or i will never meet. i wrote a letter to someone used the word Friend like all that i write, say and do this word has been repeated. I heard a clergy on the radio say something negative about a  person who says they have no friends. I know this clergy was told to repeat this word. This Clergy knows Jack about not having  friends but sure likes to talk. a friend does not repeat to drive someone else Crazy. people in general don't like me and i know it! later i will mention a few people i thought were friends but have show me by repeating they are not. this is what you made me think of you. You are mind Rapists, cowards, Bullies and big time sinners and tomorrow Sunday you will all go inside a church and smile shake hands with each other because you are all of  the same kind! From Crystal City.        Rosa Luna Guzman  Sandra Garza Marta Jimenez Lily Olivarez       Lydia Olivarez    and much more.      more to come But what about if it was your pubic gray hair on the line, what would you do? You see i can't spread my legs like you grown women and young girls do.    i can't check my breast i can't go to the bathroom workout you the people giving me hints what i did in the toilet! You think this is funny?  lets see if you can laugh at yourself or laugh at someone you  love! more to come  

  next who are the people giving me a hard time at all jobs more to come 

Updated October 25, 2014 more on how God tells me He is in control and makes me strong on my faith in Him. In the Nineties I was restless and without a job i asked this family nick named Los Monstruos  if I could ride them up north. we came to work in Clarkfield, MN. The year my children and i went to Colorado we passed through   Littlefield, TX  more to come Next on Susie and El Mirror and their daughter named   more to come 

Update October 28, 2014 What does the Bible says about privacy?Today as i listened  to Dr. Ed Young talk on Video about A Broken Court System. I can't more to come 

 

Update October 30, 2014 it was Tuesday October 7, 2014 My daughter and i were on the car on 13 Ave South passing 32 Street southwest. when i noticed the beautiful big Moon surrounded by clouds.  The Moon was right straight in front of us as we drove East.  I felt as if she wanted me to noticed her and i did I told my daughter look at the Moon so bright and beautiful. I missed the first Lunar Eclipse because i had forgotten the day but that night i had gone outside i just never looked up. and on Tuesday October 7, i didn't know there was going to be another Eclipse or i had forgotten . Tuesday night I  set up my clock alarm around 6:15 am on that morning i got up and heard a religious radio station  telling people to call in during the  Moon Eclipse then later I looked out the window facing west and i saw something that if i were a painter  i would have wanted to paint. as I looked  out to the West i saw on the left the big cross on top of the church and on the right i saw the big moon. the moon was about to be all covered  just a bit was left on the top right  corner.  more to come    more on the     Hospital

Updated November 4, 2014 Yes women you can be t with your own bodies. you can do as you please with it. you can have unprotected sex  with as many men as you want to and laugh about it all the way.  But when (conceived) have another human in your stomach it is not completely all your body anymore. When does life begins? Right away! Like an Apple Seed. Update 10, 2014   I don't remember well if it was here in Minnesota or Ohio or someplace else but I remember it was up north that Update November 12, 2014  Nuns showed us a film about how life begins with what little i can remember about this film is that it started with an Apple tree then with the seed of an  Apple. i was too little and had seen a new born baby but i can't remember if it was before or after watching this film. more to come  more to come Conception= Concha = Connie = this is my oldest sister name Maria Con  more to come   

Update November 6, 2014 Now here's another Eric, Eric Matthew Frein the American fugitive.Update

November 10, 2014  back then when i was in school a male teacher told the class who was the Government. He said we were the Government meaning the big companies  and  big organizations. he was right. today I had to make a visit the Social Security here in Fargo. the woman on the first  north side  window knew very well why i was in but she like all the rest of you People was playing with my mind. How? I started telling her the reason i was there   but she was too busy having herself a drink of coffee and wasn't paying attention to me it all when i told her for the second time the whys  she said i was being rude. In the lobby at the Federal Building i was asked if i had pepper spray why pepper spray?Bbecause every morning i have two eggs with lots of  black peeper  and where is this coming from Command Center    later i will write how they are repeating  more to come   last week i got a form from Command Center 3901 N Schreiber Way,Coeur D' Alene, ID 83815 with many addresses they say i had  lived. according to them this is a background check. most of them if not all are not true but they know it. one paragraph says that back in 6/12/2013 i plea Guilty to a traffic accident. this is not true i have never plea guilty to no traffic accident or anything else! . on 6/12/2014 i was here in Fargo and i was  in red light stop when i was hit from behind later went to see a Doctor on 1515 south University Dr. but i never  had to appear in  any court to plea guilty for something i wasn't responsible for. Now from where did Command Center says they got this lie? they say from North Dakota Admin office of Courts, ND Specific Information. now why would they lie? because this is one of the many ways you the people are trying hard to drive me crazy. but is it working? not really but what if it was you would this and other things i will mention later on made you  want to tear off with your owe black brown red or blonde or gray pubic hair? if  you knew the law was looking at you in the nude and knew what color of underwear and you females what color of bra you were wearing, and knew when you were in your period ? and saw you having sex. I am sure you would not only Fart on your men underwear boxers or your little bikini men underwear, you would Crap out (shit yourself ) on them too! and you women who wear the underwear between your asses to look and feel sexy     more to come        

Update November 12 2014 I never heard my father say one bad word  never heard him swearing at nobody but when i marry Raul one day he was talking about lawyers and bad mouthing them i told him not to say so many bad words then he told me do you think that lawyers don't say bad words behind close doors, they speak worse  words then what i am saying. Then  much later in life  i met Alberto De La  Cruz he was a nice man but he used this word a lot Mother fuckers. he used these two words on almost all his sentences . now back in the seventies i thought this word was bad Sons of  Bitches or Son of a Bitch but my white speech teacher down in the Valley said it wasn't! and i guess he was right because nowadays some women like to be called Bitches.  more to come

Update November 13, 2014 Through the years I saved as many  Plain Truth Magazines and small Booklets as i could  because i knew i was going to need them one day I just didn't know how much they would help me. Several years back  I knew that everything Ive gone through in life was to get me prepared for what i am facing now. Update November 22, 2014 Not even my grown children understand me or want to understand me. and i understand very well why it is better for them not to believe or want to believe  what sometimes i tell them why things are going the way there are.their minds might not be able to handle and accept we are on 24/7 watched and sometimes Ill have something on mind and they too repeat. so this is something i know now it's only meant for me but they too are in Gods plan. i know this because if somethings  were not the way there are i wouldn't have had a car to drive i can't hold a job for too long because people are bothering me all the time wherever i go    more to come 

update November 20,2014 Obama Heath care systems might be good for the middle class people but for the poorest people like me it makes no difference all stays the same!When i lived in Colorado I had a root canal done . Now you know that if you get a root canal your going to need a crown or eventually you will lose that tooth. Yesterday i got two root canals on both upper sides but the insurance that i have won't cover the crowns so that needs i need to start working nonstop for four weeks until i make enough for both crowns. now i want to know where is the  Difference between then and now?Nothing not a thing all stays the same! At the beginning i know nothing about Obama Hearth

more to come  Update November 23,2014 today as i was looking for Cambria Suites on 825 E Beaton Dr West Fargo. I saw Sanford Fargo Medical Center and I saw 55 Street and i drove to Amber. now later  i will write about the word Amber but for now i will write about the new Hospital. I know i started witting about this way before and haven't gone back to continue but there is so much i need to write and not enough time. when train came to Fargo for the Hospital concert i was there and when i saw the Hospital picture i knew i had to be there to see how it was going to be built. it has 4 corners four wings  more to come    

Update November 25, 2014 about people from other countries like Mexico. My father used to say is Mexico is very rich in soil and minerals. but the Rich are Rich and the Poor are poor. the rich don't want to help the poor.  do you know what would happened  to me  if i go to Mexico illegally ? The    Government would put me in jail. i have no rights asking another Government for any rights in a land i don't belong! now i understand Mexico  people have very hard and i know how the United States came to be what it is today but me and others also still have it very hard here! i am still poor my children are still very poor my grandchildren are very poor other people born here are very poor! and what is Obama going to do about this ! more to come   update November 28,2014 most of the time i rather write but today because i need so much money i would have rather worked but there so no work for me instead i did my  laundry. and as i was lying in bed thinking about many things and thinking  why i am where i am my son comes tells me for the forth time since several weeks ago to hear about the Rothschild family of five sons and their father created banking empire. now i know i am learning as i go and i know he knows more about     more to come Update December 2, 2014 while you the people are blowing my mind by repeating what i see do or say, God is telling me its His plan. last night my daughter was telling me about the twins in the Bible. the first ones were   from Isaac and Rebe more to come then she told me about   Genesis 38   Tamar and Judah twins who were Update December 4, 2014 Last night i found out about Eric Garner death today i know about another black man killed in the hands of a police officer. more to come and on the radio woman against suicide. more to come Update December 8, 2014 past Thursday these two women Martha and Monica on morning Fox News were talking about Hillary being boring = dull and had no change for the presidency. Two women, I could be wrong but i don't think so if Hillary runs she wins big time ! and No she's not boring!

According to some ministers  it is very  bad to use the F word but it's OK to repeat certain words to drive someone crazy.

Update December 10, 2014 now back in the eighties my oldest sister was dating a white man named Jerry, Jerry only had one daughter if i am not mistaken her  name is Penny. Penny = a  Lincoln cent. I only  have one daughter she married a man named Jerry. My oldest sister Concha  first husband  last name was  De la Cruz.    more to come Updated December 11, 2014 the young man who helped me drive to Texas the first car i bought here in Fargo last name is Gonzalez. In 1975-1976 school year in the Valley  I met a very nice and beautiful girl named Monica Gonzalez. Her brother Eddie took me to my senior school prom. more to come  

Updated December 14, 2014  Now Alberto has a daughter named Monica and a son named Christopher more to come December 14, 2014 several weeks ago when Moorhead library was selling books i bought a few, one of them was The Truth About Hillary by Edward Klein and about one or two days after my son took me out for breakfast at Fryn Pan Restaurant on 300 Main Ave and like any other day You The People are told to repeat  the waitress called me Monica  and gave my food order to my son and gave mine to him.  more to come in 2006 it was the 50 years Anniversary of the Ten Commandments with more to come           

Update December 11, 2014 about two weeks ago my daughter and i were in going out to eat and this song was playing on the radio The Piano Man i told my daughter that was my favorite  song  from Billy Joel and i told her that one summer long time ago here in North Dakota at the farm i had seen a black and white old movie on TV and i thought it might have been a Sherlock Homes Detective movie.  i told my daughter that might have been where Billy Joel got the idea from because  more to come 1999 last time he came to Minnesota now i hear his coming  back in 2015. more to come 

Update December 16, 2014  Almost everyday you the people make me cry by reminding me what i ate read said heard and even smelled in or around my apartment. And almost everyday I asked God for help and to made it stop.God answers back by giving me more to write. This past Friday my daughter checked out the movie about  Stave Jobs before watching i know almost nothing about these people who invented the Apple computer and remembered only seeing Stave introducing on TV     something about a phone (i think, not sure). Long time ago before 2006 I  didn't care to know about these people but now i feel i have to know about them because i feel i need to w  because          Steve Jobs today i think different.  now when i wrote about the Apple tree seed birth the next day a radio station played this song Heart of Rock and Roll. and it reminded me of New York because the song starts with these words New York New York  but then i thought about what other name New York is called  the Big Apple or Red Apple. more to come         Now there is 1st Stave Paul Jobs and 2st Stave Wozniah who were introduced by Bill Fernandez more to come Stave Jobs was born on more to come Update December 19, 2014 like every other day i wish i had time to write more but again i can only write a few words about how God tells me His close to me. last night for the second time I read a few pages of this book Prayer, Finding The Heart's True Home by Richard J. Foster on page 21 it reads words that i had used so right away i go back to the copyright to check when this book was published and it reads  copyright 1992. by reading what i write you the reader knows by now i haven't done a lot of reading in my life so i don't know how to write i just write. now most of the books  i buy from  Fargo  or Moorhead  Libraries. more to come. Update December 21, 2014 today is the second day i hear on the radio about the two N Y P D  officers killed sitting on their car more to come this past week my daughter checked out these three movies Dream House Gifted Hands and George Wallace. before watching this movie like many other things i knew very little about one time Governor of Alabama  George Wallace  only what i saw on TV and heard on News  more to come   

Update December 23, 2014  back  in Texas my son 1whad bought a book of many strange events that had taken place and today before logging in i saw the update  news of  the sad story that happened back in March 24, 1944 about the youngest person being executed by an American State in the 1800s. The 14 year old black  boy name was George Stinney from South Carolina. i remembered seeing this story on my son's book.   

And yesterday i took this copy because there are too many coincidence in my life too. more to come  Update 24, 2014 today as i walked to the new  Dollar Tree Store in Moorhead  i started thinking about a woman who was one of the persons in charged of  Federal teachers programs the year  i was working as  a Teachers Aide . A few days ago i  mentioned this to my daughter about this woman who i think was married or living with a man last name was Guzman. One day we had a meeting and  this  woman who i don't remember by first or last name and i think was not born here because of her different accent gave a speech.  To me she was light skin  tall sort of over weight . as this woman was talking and i don't remember what she was talking about  but i do remember she saying  these words as she looked my way or looked at me. "History repeats itself." like all other days i wish i could go on but i just got a phone call. I need to call back see you next time where there is always more to come. Marry Christmas, to all!  update December 26, 2014 now i believe this woman had children from the man Guzman and the oldest child was a girl named Monica. Monica had the same problem as i did when i was  a child in school.  she too couldn't understand these two words Came and Come.  i could  only tell them apart if i was reading  the word (Welcome) then i could read the difference. she spelled the word Com but didn't write the E. more to come  

Update December 28,2014 Since October 2014 i been using this medication for Dry Eyes  Restasis. My eye  doctor  is Ana Miller. I have a sister named Barbara. These were the names of  my children two teachers in Colorado. Head Start = Ms  Barbara, Kindergarten = Mrs Miller. more to come

  Update  December 29, 2014 People, i am not bragging about the men i have met and no I didn't have sex with them but i do need to mention them for you to understand what i am writing.  Back in Greeley there was a Mexican American man I met in a dance. He taught  in a middle school in Greeley,Colorado but i can't remember if he said he was born in Arizona or New Mexico. he told me the kids in school used to called him Superman because he was tall and wore black frame glasses.  He  man was very pleasing to the eye and to the soul.  He was tall and had great manners, he had all that any woman would want in a man. But i wasn't in love i wasn't ready to give up on my marriage. so he tried and tried until he gave up. He mentioned the word Doctor but to protect the innocents i will not mention why.          update January 2,2015  this man told me he had been married twice.  They had one child born then if i am not mistaken he said they had two sets of twins. During  the time i met him i was attending beauty school. He told me his second  ex-wife was a hairdresser and was several years older then him and there were no children from this marriage. more to come    

 Updated January 2, 2015 lately i been working through Labor Master and they bank with Ramsey National Bank on 3232 25st south. more to come

Update January 2, 2015  it might have been 2012 or 2013 that i saw this number 15 on the building of Bell State Bank &amp; Trust on Broadway Street that I thought to myself not until the year 2015? more to come   Update January 2, 2015 about marijuana what i saw in Colorado and  the few people i seen smoking it why i say need to be careful with this grass more to come  

Updated  January 7, 2015  i wasn't going to mention these two names but they were on my mind now that i heard about what happened in Paris i feel i need to mention that i knew a man named Carlos and his friend David. more to come  i also had one neighbor named Carl and one named Carlos. Both names = Charlie      now why did the New York police officers turned their back on their mayor? why do such  wrong thing!?  Update January 8, 2015   it looks like Ray Rice thought he was punching a punching more to come   no more time Hopkins st was the street i used to walked get to the library in San Marcos more to come   Updated January 13, 2014 Today is my third grandson's birthday, born 2006  in Grand Forks, North Dakota. Little did i know that after his birth my life was about to change forever, but way before then i know you The  People were acting  strange! more to come 

Updated January 13, 2014 on Friday December 26, 2014 my daughter checked out this movie from the Fargo downtown library named North Country. On Saturday 27, 2014 my daughter and I  watched it and liked it a lot because we had never heard about it and acting was good and it was based on real life events. As i watched this movie i knew i had to write about it but  i had no time on this weekend because i had to work. On Monday December 29, 2014 or Tuesday December 30, 2014  I thought I had heard on Minnesota radio station  someone that had to do with the movie had died but i didn't  hear clearly what had happened  until later on . Today I asked the Moorhead librarian to help me find  information on the real lawyer who sued against Sexual Harassment in a Minnesota mine.  His name was Paul Sprenger born September 8, 1940 Died December 29, 2014 more to come   Updated January 14,2015 this past weekend my daughter and i went to see the movie Selma  this was also a very good movie that i also can relate to especially the part where FBI Hoover sent Martin's wife a recording of him Martin Luther King having sex with another woman or with other women. Because this is what the FBI been doing to me since 2004. the only difference is that today the FBI has the help of you The People but like i said before in many ways God is giving me hints He is in control and for you ministers that have dirty minds when i write the word He i mean God Almighty, not the devil! but i say it again many things you the people are told to repeat and later i will mention a few names. Back to the movie Selma

  Updated January 15, 2015 next  i will write about  a summer back in the seventies when  Gloria Hernandez  told me about a Clerical program at Texas A&amp;M University in Kingsville more to come  and i will write about what i think were students from  more to come  Update January 17,2015 as i get into the website to see what was going on today in Kingsville, TX. i read this Texas A&amp;M University Kingville Javalina-Porky. At Greeley, Colorado there was a girl nickname Porky. Little Porky was also in Mrs Miller class and she was our neighbor at the     more to come when i saw Gloria  I  was buying more to come  

Update January18,2015 since time ago i had noticed Oxford apartments on 3301 32nd Street South Fargo,58104 and Friday morning  I asked my daughter the meaning of the word Oxford . I didn't know  this past week she had bought the movie Slum-dog Millionaire  2009 Fox  which we had seen before at the Movies or on DVD.  We had seen this movie before but I don't remember if it was in TX  or it was here. Today around 11: 55 am I made breakfast at her apartment and she puts on the movie. more to come            Update January 20, 2015 how i know cousins and sister of this actor Updated  January 21, 2015  who I was told had changed his name   more to come.    January 21, 2015 like always i have so much to write but short on time.   

January 21, 2015 this Black Bird called the Crow  for a long  time on and off  has been crowing around me trying to get my attention and if i am not mistaken on  Martin Luther King Day this bird was somewhere outside near my broken window or two windows making his loud noise. more to come Next i will wrote about Housekeeping, Philippine and cousin from California more to  come and Gettysburg Battle 1863 and 50 years after and  Gettysburg building  here in Fargo more to come  Update January 29, 2015 i hear  Dr. Charles Townes  born July 28, 1915  Laser inventor died on Tuesday January 27,2015 at the age of 99.Now what things are Repeated ?    more to come and i heard Obama wants to go back to Valdez, Alaska! Now what was the last name of the two girls I played with? Valdez!      more to come  back to Carols and David who i met back in the eighties.  One day Petra Rodriguez asked me if i wanted to go cruising more to come    Update January 31,2015 today like every other day i have so much to write and not much time but i need to mention about my heart this past week for days i had felt and heard my heart beating like never before because this was the times i would lie down on my bed i wasn't moving or felling any  anxieties (out of the ordinary  that is because all days for me are stressful) . But  because I am  in a diet and have been losing wight i thought this was because my skin is closer to my internal organs that i could hear my heart beating and this is one of the reasons why i went to get my sugar level and other health  concerns  check out by a doctor . But then this Thursday or most likely Friday as i was listening to the radio i heard the story about this young  doctor from Germany named Werner Fossmann told to Melissa Block by this writer Rob Dunn  maker of the book  Man Who Touched His Own Heart  one of 1956 Nobel Prize winner. more to come now most of the time i have worked at the Fargo Dome as a housekeeper i clean bathrooms and yes you  guessed it  right  I clean Toilets and men Urinals.  But i don't do more to come This past Monday i drove by  Schwans which is on  the corner of 26 street south and 20 Avenue South in Moorhead.   back in the sixties there in Mapleton  there was only one small Post Office and one small bar which  i believe was also this is where   in love with the Schwans    Maple Nut Ice      a more to come  Update February 1, 2015 Hint Of The Century = My uncle Prescillano Fernandez from California my father's oldest brother (and i hope i spelled his name right)  when he went to visited us in Texas back in the late sixties or early seventies told me or i understood he was born in the beginning of the century this would be January 1, 1901  the Twentieth Century. more to come  update February  3, 2015 for months i had the name Oscar i would asked myself why Oscar i know no Oscar at the time  i could only remember Anita Shanchez first husband Ocsar Rodridez  but then i hear on the radio about  Oscar romero the priest who was killed in his church baxck in the eighties  more to come and about To Kill a Mockingbird   

Update February 7, 2015 You the world have it  make! You live you get Sick or Killed then you die. that is a normal way of living. most all of you don't have other people Stalking you, making it impossible to live a normal life but i do everyday i am being Stalked Harassed repeatedly treated unfair at Jobs Clinics Hospitals Dentists offices and so on. Who is doing this to me? It's you the people, in many ways!This is people sending  people to repeat and  treat me bad making it known to me you know what i said or did to someone else or at home or in the car! What is Stalking = here are some of the ways Waiting to get near me to repeat what i said or did. Text me messages on phones and laving voice mails on my phone. Using Network sites &amp; technology to track me. repeatedly watching over me following me everywhere i go and more! in the beginning in East Grand Forks and Grand Forks, ND and Texas i was very much afraid and i did feel unsafe that i asked God to take me with Him  because there was nowhere to run. But God never answered  so i asked Him to bring me back North and that He did. This could have been  February Tuesday 3, 2015 that i went to work at the Fargo Dome i saw a woman i had met at  Sam's Club in Moorhead, MN i spoke to her told her i would call her up. I got home i charged up a small phone i hadn't used for a long time to  look up  her phone number only that because it had Zero minutes on it. Update 9, 2015 the following night as i looked for her number someone had put in about $41and cents. on this phone there were two unfamiliar  phone calls. That night I called 218-288-1832     more to come        

Update 8, 2015 this is another way people harassed me at work  and it's approved by local  ministers who also repeat what i say in their churches  to make you the People laugh! Last night while i was working at the Fargo Dome was told by the Mexican woman who works as a crew leader and lives with the Anglo  Fargo Dome Head Crew Leader that i was Tonta  for cleaning the toilets and that her friend the other   Mexican Maria wasn't because she cleaned a few mirrors and stand by to watch me finish working. now i thought working at the Fargo Dome was Team Work last night while head Crew leader bark at me i understood it isn't and i was told by now his in live together woman  named maria  i was Tonta now lets see what is a Tonta and who else called me Tonta  by doing my best to clean about 25 or more toilets in a very short time where you men and women and your children put your butts that thinks to  Miley Cyrus and Katy Perry that love to show their asses to the world  and love to see any men penises and other entertainers  become very popular dance The Twerk. (And lets not forgot Katy's Ministers parents are very proud of their daughter for showing little girls how to please men )  Now what is a Tonta and let me tell you this harassment by the leaders at the Fargo Dome came from their hearts this is how they show me how much they hate me. i looked up on oxford Spanish Dictionary Tonta = Falta de Intelligencia  = stupid, dumb idiot dummy. now when i am dome with what i have to say lets see who are the Tontas and Tontos! more to come this woman named Maria is always trying to get close to me get into conversations not because she likes but because like everyone else wants to find a way to repeat. more to come      

Update February 10,2015 have you the people ever seen the eyes of a true christian? I have and these few people don't'  have to preach it because anyone can see it! They don't have to stand inside a church screaming yelling to other people to live a moral life they just live it! Now have you ever seen the eyes of a child  Molester or Men that looks it girls like they want sex with them? Now look it Katy Perry eyes and look at Miley Cyrus eyes and many other women that are making money by not only singing about sex and how to do it but taking off as much as possible and promoting sex with Toy sex objects to children.   now what does sex = ? Pregnancies!  Now don't get me wrong i love sex too but i know  more to come and about going to the movies to see Fifty Shades of Grey coming up !   update February 11, 2015 tomorrow i will have a doctor check what is wrong with my right ear since last week I've been having terrible hearing well. but it's not the first time when day back in the sixties when i like many other Mexican children was going to summer school in Casselton, ND where i was told i needed to get take medication for ear infection. then years went by and my children with many other migrant children were taking on bus to a summer day care  at Lewis &amp;Clark Elementary School. And this is where i got a letter saying that i needed to go see my daughter because she was having hearing problems. I knew this was true because  long before in TX my mother had notice that when she called my daughter  from behind she would not respond. That summer after i was told in North Dakota about my daughter's problem my children were in-roll at a Texas Children  Migrant Program in Crystal City. And one day as my daughter and I were riding in a what i think was a  Red Pinto car. ( Rosalinda Garcia who i believe is sister to farmer Sheriff Alberto Sanchez) who  worked transferring children to San Antonio medical specialists. My daughter was going to be seen by a ear specialist. I'll never forget on our way there because Rosalinda had the radio full blast and we were listing  and rocking to the song 1999. Now when you go inside the Family Clinic  more to come 

Update February 14,2015 Because today it's Valentine Day i will write about when my children and  I were living on  Avenue North corner of Canela's Bakery. One day i was sitting on a sofa chair in a corner near a  telephone table.  I wasn't waiting for a call and i was alone my children were at school and serenity came over me for a very very short time it was if the Holy Spirit was in me i had never felt this way before and up to now i have never felt it again. It was so peaceful calm and clean. I knew then  it had to be the Holy Spirit as i know now it was the Holy Spirit. I know this did not happened to me because i am  good   like most of you there is nothing good about me but i think this was because God wanted  me to to know He is I Am. And He was with me. more to come . On Fridays I love to watch Shark Tank and they know it because they repeat !  I don't mind if what i write is repeated  it's what i do and say inside my home that bothers me. There are two women on this show Barbara and Lori. I have a sister named Barbara and a niece named Laura. Laura = Lori. Now Laura Fernandez Barajas daughter of Maria was born in the summer of 1981 here in Fargo, North Dakota at Essentia Health Hospital on South University Dr.  Now Jose Luis Barajas is Laura's only brother and is married to Iris Munoz. more to come  

Back to 2006 to my darkest  years when i first knew the law was telling you the people what to repeat

.And i am back in TX. This is another movie I watched to clear my mind  

   Mr. Holland's Opus. And just today here at the Moorhead Library on line i find out there is The Mr. Holland's Opus 1996 Foundation.  more to come Update February 14, 2015 One day weeks after I wrote I was shy a bald man i had never seen before as i was at the VFW on 2nd Avenue pretended to buy drink and got close to me at the Bar said out loud so i could hear.  He said something like this, "since when have you been shy?"  Well Bald men and Hairy men and the in between. I have always been very shy that was the reason back in  1975 I moved to the Valley and later i will write about this but when all this madness started I knew i had to change. i knew i had to be strong and leave my shyness behind. i asked God many times to help me and He did i am here. now about men men that come around me just come to repeat to blow my mind.  they pretend they wanted start something but it's all a lie!    more to come 

Update February 19, 2015  today i will write as much as i can about  Carlos David, Petra and me and before my family and i moved to Colorado. One day Petra introduced me to these two men for some time we four went double dating just riding around Zavala country lonely roads. One time i told Petra that Carlos looked a bit like Alabama lead singe Randy Owen. now what State has been in the news? Alabama! more to come   Update February 21, 2015 for  days i had this in mind about not having a Quinceanera but still having danced with my father. And about the TV show CHIPS starting Erick Estrada  more to come . Last night my daughter and i went to see the movie  McFarland. I knew nothing about the 1987 boys cross country team. But i had wrote about dreams i had long time ago about running through the back Farm fields. more to come  

Update March 2, 2015 One day at Highland's Hill Beauty Academy all of the sadden  I said the word Gigi  it sounded so funny  students near me started laughing and so did I. some weeks ago or a week ago i heard on the news that Louis Jourdan star of Gigi dies at 93. more to come today on a license car plate i see 888 then i go to eat at more to come 

Update March 3, 2015 I need to write about Amber and Dinosaur Bob more to come  but i also need to write about these names Ashly Nancy  Foxy more to come    

Update March 4, 2015 these are other things i will also write about  i had just met Rosa. Rosa my father and I were talking about the movie Adam and Eve then  I heard the World was going to end. I ran  to the door my father asked me, "why did you run?"   more to come      2005 Grand Forks, ND the day Troy and I watched the movie The Doors on home Video. Conversations I had on the phone with cousin Lula or sister Connie about mother sometimes telling to us children  she was like Maria Cenicienta = Cinderella and  when i was about to sat the word Troy Lawrence knew what i was going to say before i even said it. Cinderella. more to come       

 Update March 5, 2015 last night as i listened to Ronald C White on radio talk about his book A Lincoln God was giving me hints He was with me but i  still feel very lonely because there is no human talking back to me there is no one to talk with. i dont know what     more to come Today March 5, 2015  i have so much to write but  like all other days no time to write it.   

Updated March 6, 2015 Sorry, Mr. John Robert Lewis but Lesbians and Gays has anything to do with  Human Civil Rights, but you gain  more votes if you think that way! Now, I think you said you were born in Troy Alabama? US Representative for Georgia's 5th Congressional District. attended non- violence workshops in a Basement.  Survivor of  Tornado's?now you say you received a honorary degree from Brown University. Now read and count  how many things I have written are repeated!? more to come                           

March 6, 2015 Today i am looking up the words Mistake and the word Sin. Now we The People have been sugar coating many actions that are Sins for the nice word Mistakes! Mistake= error you didn't know any better.       Sin =  you knew  you were doing wrong but you though nobody would find out. then you called it mistake when they did          now i hear it's a mistake to be discover that you are a lair. i hear it's a mistake to be discovered you steal     now i am just having fun because i have to run but i hope tomorrow 

 i have more time to write  more to come  

Update March 10, 2015 back in the seventies before i knew who Christ really was i used to love this song with Helen Reddy.  I Don't Know How To Love Him. Today i got to listen to it and i had to fight back my tears. The part where it says "He scares me so" this is so true for me because He is almighty.  He is powerful! And He is love but we are not! and that's what scares me! 

Update March 10, 2015 last month i opened a book of the Civil  War and there was a picture of  solders at the 50th Gettysburg  reunion in 1913 that was the year my parents were born. The movie George Wallace President Kennedy in 1965 is on TV and brings up it's been 100 years since the Civil War. This past weekend was the 50th anniversary of Bloody Sunday. Now my daughter checked out the Movie George Wallace and she loves to drink a lot of Coca Cola. George asked Bob Kennedy and other guests if they wanted a coke 4 said they did. Four little girls died in Birmingham in 1965. more to come this is why i believe that long before as i drove by the corner of Broadway and 15 Ave the words in the apartment were right on my face, Gettysburg! more to come  

Update March 10, 2015 i wouldn't mean so much if you the people just hated and repeated i got used to that but besides repeating things i do and repeating curtain words like Bottom line and calling me Maria. You the People also do this. Last Year with landlord permission  I had  nailed a  Aluminum Can  Crusher some one like you the people went and broke it. this night i just found out the City was called to pick up a Van i had parked on the back also i had asked Landlord for permission . Today i went to ask if there was any work Ashly calls me Maria. i told her she knew better then i told her i knew someone else had told her to call that name as other people do. i also told her i was writing about her name but i wasn't mad i just told her that because i was going to  write about the name Ashly. Back then in Crystal City when people were normal i had friends or at least i though i did becasue now i know no one  is my friend. Belia Juarez had given me a puppy his mother's name was Ashly because she had black and gray hair. i told Ashly at Commend Center  about the female dog named Ashly she didn't like it but she does like messing up my mind calling me names   i am not even the church leaders they also repeated more to come  next i will write about when Bonita and her  Native friend  kept me against my well (hostage) back in 2011on a winter night   more to come 

 Update March 16, 2015 On March 9, 2015 According to this towing service my landlord called Aggressive Towing and Recovery and were told to pick up a Dodge Van parked behind the apartment house were i am ranting. The woman who answered the phone said my landlord had even given his phone number. that day i didn't asked her what that phone number was because she had told me I had until 5pm that day to take out or it would be in additional  $185.00 Dollars. i knew this was not true because i had asked my landlord for permission and the day i found out it was missing i had called him and he didn't know what was going on and advised me to call police and let him know what was going on. I might have I  really don't remember if I asked God who was this person and while i am looking through the Yellow Pages looking for FM  Towing Services i see a name that stands out to me. This name is of an Anglo man but this is something I am not able to prove. This is the phone number this man gave to woman at Aggressive 701-290-2317. which is not my landlord's phone number.  I had paid $500.00 for the Van was planing on fixing it up for used on summer trips with grandsons but  more to come    March 25, 2015 not much i can do about the Van because this man is not acting  alone    

March 11, 2015 today has been one of those days that by now I should used to. Today  I  know where my Van went to but it's not mine anymore i had to sell it. more to come   

 March 11, 2015 back to 2005 during the 2005 Holidays my son  and Dianita were in jail and i didn't know where my grandson's where. i only knew they were somewhere in Grand Forks. the only person i knew a bit more was Troy and he had told me he was tried of leaving at Mission and he asked me if he could stay at least for one night at Dianita's apartment. I felt bad about this because i really wasn't a homeless like him i just needed to stay there because i was waiting to see what was going to happen to my son so i told him he could sleep in the second bedroom but that night i had a hard time falling asleep. i was awake all night because i really don't know him. more to come

March 11, 2015 i also had this name on my mind Nancy today while i am waiting on gas station to fix one tire i see N G M 2014 Wild Pats and a page I see a Deer named Dillies. i knew a Deer named Nancy. Some Girls last name Mendoza used to live close to the Nueces River   more to come  now when i was in school i remembered singing this song  and i loved it until more to come   Doe a deer, a female deer

Sound of Music 1956 more to come

update March 12, 2015    for months i been looking at this Billboard on 1St Avenue North Shoe &amp; Tarp Today i will write about it back then before 2004 i had read on a magazine that people on the old days were named after their Trade. One of the names i saw was Shoemaker. Today i want to give my grate sincere  thanks to my brother's  Neurologist Dr. Shoemaker. My brother trust him with his life and felt good after seeing him but one day i really don't remember. Dr Shoemaker retied and my brother had to be seen by another doctor that he really didn't understand and neither did because it after 2006 and this was the time all was new to me about people messing up my mind. (more on this later)   i know it's been long ago but i still want to give my great thanks and appreciation to the doctor that performed the Kidney surgery  to my brother Luis P. Fernandez Jr. God using you gave him more years to live and to see life in a different way. And  many thanks to the young black man's family from where i believed was from Houston , TX that had donated his Kidney way before his death for someone like my brother that would live longer. 

Now back to Shoemaker, my brother used to have a friend last named Mondoza when i cleaned out my uncles lot and moved in my trailer his father was one of my good neighbor. this man Mandoza moved to Fargo or Moorhead i really don't remember. but one day my brother and i came to visited him i just don't remember where was this white house he lived in. Well guess what !?  He was a Zapatero! He repaired Shoes !  more to come    

Update March 13, 2015 Believe It  or Not weeks ago i was driving under ND and MN bridge going East and was thinking about the long time ago comedy movies that all they had to do to make people laugh was throw pies at each other faces!That same day i also remembered the time my two uncles had died and my uncle from California told lawyers he wanted anything because he wasn't around his two brothers when they were in need. My oldest brother told me about what the lawyers told my aunt Maria De Jesus Fernandez Lara then Tellez  about the pie being cut in half and she was going to get only one half and my  father the other half of the pie. Now if you The Reader consider yourself smart by now you should know what i am writing about. My aunt wanted and she told the lawyer my uncles slice from California! The lawyers had to used a pie to make her  understand this was not going to happened. Back then in the seventies i thought it was so funny and i still think it is! Now my aunt had educated daughters enough to know better even a math teacher daughter. I wonder why no one told her about the Pie. Now today i heard on radio tomorrow is Pie Day! I do remember the  elementary math teachers using a pie but that's all i remember only the pie. Happy 3/ 14/ 15 more to come 

Updated March 16, 2015 some time before I wrote about this address 1919 on Main Avenue now back to F-M Flooring on 1919 Main Ave.This caught my attention long time ago just didn't have the time to write about it. Inside the new Family Health Center now on 301 N Pacific Avenue on the wall  is a Boiler dating back to 1919. This weekend my daughter checked out this movie named  The Great Debaters. One day long time ago i really don't remember what grade  it was seventh or eighth when a boy came up to me and  asked me questions about different things he wanted to defend or go against . He wanted to start a debate with me he wanted to know what i thought about certain things and if i could defend them.  at that time not even later in life i knew nothing about U I L this was until my daughter was in high school that i knew about it.  Now back to this boy we started debating and i left him speechless. He might have taken me on one or two but the rest were mine and this is the truth. I don't remember what we argue about but at the end he told me i was very good. I don't know who this boy was i don't remember seeing him in other classes. if i am not mistaken this was after the 1969-1970 school walkout. toda 

Update March 25, 2015 some time ago i heard about the DOT -111Tank Car also known as the C T C- 111A. now on march 6, 2015 i text my daughter about a dream. i dreamed i was talking with a  tall man wearing a brown top coat. more to come     

Update March 27, 2015 The movie The Great Debaters, what town? Marshall, TX. My children and I been to Marshall, MN.  Belia Juarez told me and two of her siblings she had named her twin daughters Yvette and Yvonne because in Spanish it sounds like Come and Go. In this movie the student tells his professor, I Come and Go. Now Yvette didn't make it but Yvonne did and we call her Bonny or Bonnie 

Update March 30, 2015  now back then in the late sixties or early Seventies  there were young men i don't know where they were coming from they could have been from N D S U, Concordia or Minnesota State University in Moorhead i really don't know but these men would go to the fields where we were working  run after young people trying to recruit enroll  so they could to stay in the North and start collage. I remember them doing this for several years now i believe some people did stay behind and got educated. i remember one summer one of those young man came up to me and asked me if i wanted to  enroll  but i still had several years to finish  school back in TX.  And i might have told him i didn't like living here because of the long cold winter months. But i knew I wasn't collage material.  more to come 

March 31, 2015 Now back to Kingsville, TX  one day a young man tall slim darker skin  then mine came to me and started talking. he wanted to know me so for several weeks before i went back to Crystal City we would walk  around the campus and talk. He was Iranian i don't remember his name but one day we were sitting on a bench and  from far away i looked inside a building to check time on a clock.  I told him i had to go because i was on curfew then he asked  me, "do you have certain powers like Wonder Woman?" at that time TV was showing the  show Wonder Woman with         more to come 

Now in Greeley, Colorado i met another man from the Middle East his name was Fahad or Fahd he was  Saudi Arabian.  more to come by now i know it was meant for me to meet all these people i still don't know the complete reason and maybe I'll  never know but for now i know i need to keep writing  as much as i can remember about me you and the rest of the world.   

Update March 31, 2015  I know you the people don't like me and i really don't care if you do or not but i know you people are always finding ways to make my life harder then it is. Last night i slept very little because my wicked neighbors were smoking right in front of  my apartment door.this went almost all night  the smoke kept me awake all night. But just as in Crystal City God will take care of people like you  who do me wrong for no good reason. Like i said before the man who called to tow my Van is not working alone he has many evil helpers even Church Leaders are joying in. and where can i run to, this is everywhere i go. more to come  

Update April 1,2015 yesterday my daughter reminded me about Salina Quintanina 20 years after her death. This morning i had to make a stop at Essentia Health on 3000 32nd Ave S and as i am walking on the left side going into the building on the wall i see 2000. This morning i went to work at the Moorhead more to come 

Update April 2,2015 now i need to write about this other movie my daughter checked out  La Bamba Updated April 8, 2015 No! I have not been watching too many movies only the ones i believed God wants me to watched  so i can write about. Because i don't checked out movies my daughter checks them out ! Most of what  i write about just comes into my mind and  i just write! Just yesterday Tuesday  i learned that this past February 3, 2015 was 56 years ago to the story about La Bamba! and i learned it was on a Tuesday  they were killed! In 2009 when i wrote letter #23 i didn't know 50 years were going up More to come a lot more!              

  

Update April 3, 2015 I love all you people but i know you the people don't love me and later when i have the time i will write down how you the people hate me so much that you repeat what you are told to repeat to kill my mind! Satan is in the hearts of Church leaders! 

Update April 4, 2015 now some time ago i heard on the radio from some local pastor some thing like this that the disciples, Jeremiah  or other Godly people on the Bible were "full of it"because they got mad with God because of  what they were told to do.  Now help me here i am still learning English.are we suppose  to fill in the blank? Because i heard this saying full of it on regular now played music on  radio and i am thinking full of Shit? Help me! NO! What God told these people to do was not easy it was hard ! How would any of you liked to be without a female or male friend!? Without someone to talk that would listen and understand what you  were going through? Most of you pastors  have it make! You have a woman  or women to have Sex with and release your tensions and you have other people around you who understand care you have no idea what it is to be alone!   more to come and Happy Easter to all!  

Update April 8, 2015 Today at around 4:45pm i saw  with my own two eyes what i  could not believe was  the devil dressed to kill  in action! I witnessed the Video shooting of a black man running away from an officer named Michael T. Slager.  

Update April 11, 2015 when i saw the this numbers 19 on the Garmanwing   Plane Crash Pilot Andreas Lubitz apartment door it got my attention but at the time i didn't know why. I thought maybe because i was born in 1956 or i had wrote 1919 but yesterday as i was driving i heard a young women who had died of cancer at the age of 19. more to come 

Update April 11 2015 Years ago i knew i wasn't going to emulate my father even if i tried   because of who i had to be now even more i know i can't in order to survived what i am going through. now for me to say this you the people need to know more about my father and listen i am not writing about my life because i want to show off or because i like it. No most of the time i don't like my life i have no fun writing about my family or about you the people. I am tired of this way of living i would like to be free from all this harassment mind blowing games not having any kind of privacy not even inside my home because of the law who keeps an eye on me 24/7 then tells you the people to repeat. But by now i know i have to do what i am doing and what is next i don't really know! I just know i have to work to eat and pay bill's like all of you but you are not me you have each other and you don't treat each other like you treat me! more to come Update April 12, 2015 Years ago one night Petra Rodriguez and i were  cruising around town with second cousin Roberto Galven nickname Bobby second son of Cousin Elvida Fenandez Galven. He said something that i never forget he said that none of us meaning my fathers children came out like him. Now back then i did agreed with his opinion because he was right but now i can write that not even his grandmother Maria De Jesus was like my father.That night he took us to his parents Flower Shop. Along the ride we three talked about many things but for now I will go back to what he meant by what he said now my father believed in having a  peaceful life and this is who he was.  As far as i can remember  almost all Sundays  early in the mornings he would get up at around 5:30am or 6:00am to get ready for morning Mass. After Mass he would go by more to come            

 April 12, 2015 today  i saw parts of this other movie and again it was because my daughter checked it out from the Fargo Library the name of the movie is Rendition  what is a  female name often  mentioned on this movie? Fatima. more to come           

Update April 15, 2015 like always I have so much to write but not enough time in a day. Back in 2011 or 2012 when i used to lived at 303 Robert ST on some sunny days a man would sat on a bench at the corner of Broadway and 2nd Avenue North with a sign  saying something like this "she is Atheists"   more to come 

Scientology   Update April 19, 2015 Scientology believers this is what you need to know before it's too late, get off your high horse before it  kicks you down! more to come   

Update April 19, 2015 now this might just be a  dream i don't know but last night i  dreamed I was still laving somewhere up here in the North and I was inside a  nice house and for some reason i needed to go somewhere so i  went outside  got on a vehicle that looked to me like a truck or a high Van. As i was driving  my eyes were hurting from something that was getting inside the truck then i stopped got off the high truck or van (but was not a domestic  car) I noticed I was stepping on sand and i looked down and  around and it all looked the same sand everywhere. Then i shocked my feet on the sand to feel it then i released that something on my eyes was the sand going inside the high  vehicle i was driving.  I drove back to what i believed is my home and i looked outside my window and i saw  what looked like brown rain dirt or sand coming down from the  sky. I woke up  from this dream and turned on the radio which was set on Heaven 88.7FM  time was between 9:00am to 9:30am. The pastor was preaching about the d   more to come   Update  April 21, 2015 what was in my dream was a Drought! Update April 21, 2015 this morning around 7:45 am as i was about to get inside my car I noticed a strange images on top of my car's hood . I took several pictures of the snow that drop and made these two identical images that look like two XX more to come   back to the dream it looked to me like the pass Dust Bowl California governor is Jerry Brown

Update April 21, 2015 Raul hardly  ever sent my children gifts but these were the few he did he sent my son a long firetruck and my daughter

This past Tuesday April 14, 2015 my daughter reminded me about the 150  anniversary  assassination of president Abraham Lincoln. this coming Monday is 20 years since the Oklahoma bombing i Oklahoma city    more to come   Update April 25, 2015 last night after watching 20/20 i went through some books i had bought at the Moorhead library and i read a bit and saw pictures of  about the life of Mahatma Gandhi. i read about how the Salt March (Salt Satyagraha) began in 12 march 1930 and was important part of the India Independence. This morning i visited my daughter i tell her my feet hurt it might be the Gout then she asked me, have you been eating a lot of Salt? Right now on the internet i leaned more about Gandhi then i looked for (Salt March) and Salt lake City Utah comes up a city we used to passed by going to Idaho. Some years we used to stopped at a Gas Station that was up on a hill and we looked down at the city lights. it was so beautiful that  I could look at forever and ever!  Then I read about the  Salt lake Bees a minor league baseball team based in Salt lake City Utah. the Bees play in the pacific coast league and are Triple A. now were have i seen the triple A and i need to write more information  about at the Courtyard by Marriott in Moorhead. more to come

Now lets go back to 20/20 Yes it's i do think it's a mantel problem! and more doctors should be looking what went wrong when the Brain was developing. There is a story in the Bible went something like this. Christ was asked why is this man blind? Is it because his parents sin or was it something he sin ? Christ didn't bothered to answered  back  he just said lets fix the problem. This is what i understand doesn't sickness comes from Sin?  Now we are all living in a home named Earth. That means we are all brothers and sisters and we as brothers and sisters are getting worst aren't we ? living together not married is OK. killing babies while still in the stomach is OK. being married and having Sex with other then your spouse is OK. man with a man woman with a woman kissing and having Sex is funny and is OK. And lets not forget no more praying in schools is very OK! Saying lies is very OK. Repeating curtain  words to drive me crazy is very OK even Church leaders are doing it so it's OK. more to come  now back to 20/20  Not to say that back then there were no cross dressing Gays and  Lesbians . Yes! but not to the extreme it is now! And remember death is not the End it's the beginning!  

  April 26, 2015  This is not what i say this is what I've heard from you the church leaders and what i understand in the Bible.  more to come   now when i was young my mother showed me a red book that had four men riding horses.  i started helping in the fields very young because when the school dropped me off at the farm i was very lonely for many yeas we were the only family in the farm and i could even say i heard noises coming from one of the houses but no one else was there only me. Whenever the others would find horse shoes in the fields they would threw them to me not to hit me with them but just because i guess for them there was nothing else to do. at the Fargo dome  more to come In the later years  in other fields i would find

Golf balls. more to come  

Update April 27, 2015 horse - shoe= a shoe for a horse formed of a narrow band of iron in the form of an extended circular arc and secured to the hoof with nails. a shoe  of this kind or a representation of one, regarded as bringing good luck. something resembling this in shape:[as modifier]a horseshoe bend . [treated as sing] a game in which horseshoe are thrown at a stake in the ground.     back then i wasn't sure why there were horse shoes in the sugar beet fields i thought they were there because of the back then new pioneers riding through the land. but it never came to my mind that this was the way farmers plowed their fields.until i started working at the Fargo dome and saw picture like the first copy i have here.  Now i am going back to beauty school  in Greeley, Colorado and the horse shoe hair cut  more to come 

             

This is repeated ISIS. more to come            

Update April 27, 2015 picture taken May 2013  This is one of my greatest joy that keeps me going my third grandson Julian Munoz tipping a red hat to my daughter and saying "howdy -ma'am"  more to come

Update April 27, 2015 Now how can't teachers and students can't get Horny when there is so much SEX SEX SEX everywhere! A few examples look at Katy Perry music videos like California Gurls acting like a little girl with no clothing on when she's get pubic  hair and is showing off all she can on a music internet video then like at her friend Miley Cyrus also doing all she can to show her Fundi fav or Fundi five that means Ass. i remember one day in History class with Mr. Nelson one blue boy named Garcia or Garza  really can't remember his last name but he had a dirty magazine and  Mr. Nelson told him to put it away that instead  he should carry with him snakes and worms other things but not that.   more to come  Hornyness in Crystal with teachers and students? Yes it has happened Updated  April 28, 2015 the first ones i heard of were an Anglo female teacher and his name was Polo Gallegos. I don't know how old she was and how old he was but she was the teacher and he was the student.  They did get married. i would guess she was single and so was he. this was not a Mary Kay  and Vili case. But after many years after 1970 more Horny's in schools and this time some went to prison and others because of  good connections were only  asked to relocated. more to come now school girls are not the same as many many years ago. most girls at a very young age are doing what married couples do in private many of them know a lot about how to have Sex and they want it because remember once is not enough. One day at  the beauty school i heard school girls talking about their mothers taking them to get fix for birth control they were just laughing away as if they had gone shopping no big deal it was just a pap smear and all that a doctor has to do to get them started to have sex with whoever and whenever they wanted. But can't tell them anything because it's a free country. Here all women  and girls that the birth control didn't work or forgot to get it  not to worry just  go downtown  on Women's way where you see  Crystal Doors or windows on 1th Avenue North . And spread legs pull human baby out  in pieces and your all set to go. Now there was an abortion clinic in Greeley because i heard from an older sister of the young one who was going to have one done but that's all i knew anything else. My oldest brother once told me that one day  he went  to Mexico some men were talking about women from Crystal going down there to get abortions.      more to come      

Updated April 30, 2015  this is my opinion I believe Aaron Knodel is guilty and it don't matter who feels sorry for his family because it was him that did the crime! It was him that brought shame to his own family no one else but him, But i do think he should not go to prison just not allowed to ever teach again! This would teach a listen to him and  any other educator to think twice before doing such act! now the name Aaron if i am not mistaken was the name of an older Judge i came before in Crookston, MN on February 2006 but before i go  to write  about this i need to make sure. And  this old judge just like the attorney Eric played with my mind with gestures. and i will get back to this later on.  

Update April 30, 2015  Last night on  Minnesota Radio i heard the person that sang this song Louie Louie had died.  Yesterday was Jamie Jesus Munoz my second grandson's birthday. 

 Updated April 3, 2015 here are other things that repeat for short cuts to 32nd st and 32 ave i go south on University Dr. then i right on 27 ave then right on 25st. on the corner of 27ave and 25 st if i am not mistaken three twin homes the one on the corner last numbers is 2424. on 32 ave south is Papa John's Pizza their phone number is 701-297-7777.  I knew i needed to write this down because last week i went to Hornbachers store and my receipt amount  was $7 dollars and 77cents. Inside Scheels arena on an elevader 

 door is this address Doublewood  Inn 3333 13 Ave south. In Moorhead my son's bank is  Bell State Bank &amp; Trust on 1333 8th st south. Now the girl from Pakistani Malala repeats .   Today April 30, 2015  I went to order eye glasses at the Center Mall in Moorhead and there was a March 2015  Peoples magazine  more to come           

Update May1, 2015 Today  just remembering back then songs like these ones for children Michael Row The Boat Ashore, Puff The Magic Dragon and The Hokey Pokey. more to come  about this song Hokey Pokey and the male teacher more to come     

Update May 5, 2015  My son gave me a  very good explanation why when it snowed there were two XX on my hood car but now read this on Saturday May 2, 2015  around   8: 23pm as i was on my car facing North like others (  on 11 st south  and on Main Avenue ?)for first  slow Train  (if i am not mistaken) coming from the West going East  but then before it was over another Train  coming fast coming from the East going West  went by. As I waited there i noticed these letters on some of the Train boxes M I L X and numbers.  Now today 5/5/ 2015 as i was looking for the word Diagram i went to the Twin Towers diagram and this is what i see an X in the box. Now Sunday as i was driving on 19 Avenue south i noticed from far away that  Sanford Hospital has 8 rectangle windows on the 4 corner wings. And to me if looking down from the sky to the building it also looks like an X. now this is what i read world Trade Center 8:45 am American Airlines Flight 11 crashes into North Tower. 9:05 Airlines Flight 175 crashes into South Tower.  more to come                                             

                 

May 5, 2015 = Happy Cinco de Mayo!

Update May 5, 2015 m daughter told me Lopez  did a Tribute to Selena Q, Perez. Many times Selena went to  performed in Crystal City, TX but i only got to see her once because on weekends  i was always working at some beauty salon.  I think that back in the seventies there were two sisters last name Saldivar and their  father sold shoes in a downtown store.  Years ago someone told me they were cousins to Yolanda Saldivar.      and now i do remember one of them was in Mr. Nelson's  History class more to come   During the time she was shot my son was in a Boot Camp in more to come 

Update May 8, 2015 Like always I have so much to write about but not enough time . In Colorado i had received Christ  as my  Savior. And  in 1986 when i went back to TX i prayed and prayed to God to sent me a good man for me and my children .I didn't want to be left alone to do all the driving but as you The People can see He never answered my call. Growing up i had seen girls and boys being raised up by only one parent their mother and i saw how hard and poor it was to be the only one parent. (I was listening to the radio about the movie  Good Wife and heard about why many women stay with their husbands when they are womanizing, wife and child  beaters and sometimes even child molesters. now this much was not in this movie. I haven't seen it but i will tell you why some of the reasons many women just stay. It is so so  super hard to move on. It is harder for a woman because and here are some reasons. and what happens when the woman leaves the broken marriage.  Lets start from the top like with someone like Hillary Rodham Clinton. Why would she stay.  How I see it in her situation it,s more then just a marriage a commitment if she had set a goal to be the first president woman of the USA. staying would be the right choice for many reasons. many women don't leave if the man is still coming home unless the woman had someone else on the side to move on.  more to come

About praying asking God for things I need to make life easier are not answered. this does not mean i don't believe in Him I do. I know I am  to love Him with all my Mind Heart and Soul. and this is even if He never answers  my prayers.  I also know that many people don't pray to God don't even believe in God and yet they have all they need. and i know that if i take my life because i can't take it no more things will be worst for me and for my children. And i do know people that also believe in God have it worst then i do. about the world revolving around me is not fun i am not happy when people repeat to blow my mind! and this is everyday everywhere even church leaders like Dr. Ed young which i used to hurry home form Catholic Sunday Mass  turned on TV to hear him preach is also repeating words like  bottom Line. and many others that i just don't want to listen  to anyone  anymore! And if or not these people are told to repeat someday soon we are going to need to talk about this and many other things that are going on ! 

Next i will write about the Vietnam War Era   Updated May 10, 2015 One day i was at a Crystal City football game when  a young  man i don't remember  who he was  asked me for my address. he told me he was drafted and was leaving home and that he was told to get as many addressees from people he knew  more to come   and  only  one day i saw and met Armando Luna brother to attorney Jose Luna when went to pick up my sister Barbara  for a  more to come                      

(and just one thing i need to say things are repeating and we did have Papa and Sonny boy presidents now we might have husband and wife presidents).  

Updated May 10, 2015 Attention people more hints are given! last night my daughter and i drove to MN to buy lotteries  tickets  but on our way to the store i made a stop at my apartment and as i was  outside walking  towards the front door of the apartment  on the ground i  saw a black Kings card. I  thought to myself someone put it there for me to see because someone is up to something.  I didn't tell my daughter about it because what for most of the time she doesn't' believe me. Now most of the time I buy mine at the M&amp;H on Main Avenue. My daughter then tells me lets go to K Mart after that i asked her if she wanted to buy the tickets at Cash Wise there she bought two $5.00 ones one of them was a deck of playing cards game. when she bought them i told her that i too was looking at the ones she had bought. As we were on our way back home she started scratching them  and she tells me one is a winner. when we got to her apartment she tells me i can keep the winner ticket as i read it she had won $7.00 with two kings card. I then told her about the card i had seem outside my apartment so last night  when  i went back home i picked it up and i will put it on display for you to see it. today Mother's day  i just got  out off  work and I am  at the Fargo's library and as i am looking for what is a Kings card i read this. King usually represent the highlight ranking card. Update May 11, 2015 This is the card i found on the ground as i was walking into my house apartment front door and this  is what it reads. In the French patten,the king of Spades is the Biblical King David more to come   

Update May 12, 2015  The day i went to Moorhead Vision at the Moorhead Mall i read a bit about Carlos Morales and his beautiful Quadruplets more to come May 12, 2015 today i started off by listening to this song i had heard long time ago when it was released and it was here in the Mapleton farm. The song is Sukiyaki . One day long time ago my oldest brother and another young man were going to Casselton or coming to Fargo to gas up the car  i was sitting on the back seat when the song started playing i like it a lot and i kept hoping my brother would like it too so he wouldn't change the channel. none of us knew what were the words but my brothers friend said something like this in Spanish, "did you hear that? Chino Yo."   more to come   the other song that i heard is Suspicion  which i thought Elvis sang that song but now it's a   Terry Stafford song. more to come   Update May 13, 2015 today no work for me well not really i am always working. I stayed home and watched this movie Fargo. Now many things might not be true but this is My son was released in January  2014 from Moose Lake Boot Camp. i have seen the real Paul Bunyan statue in Brainerd, Minnesota. on May 10, 2015 when i was at the Fargo's library i wasn't sure what was the card i had found so i asked a man sitting on the right side of me what was  I pointing to. He said it was a King of Clubs when i got home i looked  at the one i had found and as you can see it was a Spades. Back to the movie twice i seen Fargo's people watching the Movie from the north side outside wall of Radisson Hotel. One night i was walking from Moorhead library  to Fargo. And it was so quiet as if i was in a real Theater there was hardly any noise on the streets. The word "Ya Ya"  i remember back then when my brother and started a conversation about some people up here saying this word Ya. now i had two aunts named Frances. one was the her first oldest sister who was a teacher and was picture with a violin. The second was her half sister who was a Spanish  radio Disc jockey in California and she also had a half sister named Olivia. years after the movie Fargo was out it was showed on Television and my brother was watching it trying to figure out where in Fargo was that bar in the Movie. I think  he died thinking some parts of the movie was somewhere in Fargo, ND  and i also remember him laughing while remembering the word Ya Ya Ya.   more to come   Update May 18, 2015 last night my daughter and I went to see the movie American Sniper at the Safari theater  in Moorhead.  now for months i had in my mind the dress i wore for my Confirmation and several times i told my daughter about it.  the dress i bought here in Fargo was short sleeve and in the style of navy and it was navy blue. Now when one time Raul told me when in the Army he and other soldiers  were told to kill kill kill! Christ said "you live by the Sword You died by the Sword." Now i know being a soldier is a job and  someone who marries a soldier the spouse can't be nagging. and i know that once the soldier been in a war zone and comes back home his never the same person he was before. i feel like a soldier i am in a daily mental  war zone. you the people have been playing with my mind some if not all are told what to repeat to mess up my mind. but like I said before not all your told to repeat. Many things that come from your mouths you had no way of  knowing and still you repeat.  more to come  

Update May 18, 2015 i heard BB king died May 14, 2015 born September 16, 1925. i heard something about The Lawrence Welk  show coming back to TV? This is one of the shows i used to watched growing up at the farm.      do you remember the song in the year 2525 ?      Update May 21, 2015 Time Time Time i need more! Today i need to mention the Martial Law and  what long time ago Mengo Hernandez had told me  more to come About the Minnesota SWAT which i saw today passed by my home. about Red River Judo on Main Ave and about the name Victoria name i really haven't' liked but still it's a name repeated and which today i had to drop an electricity payment at  the Moorhead Mall and saw the Bar Vic's  Bar &amp;Grill more to come 

Update May 26, 2015  Yesterday  remembering back then arriving on a  Memorial Day that looked more like a Sunday. I remember arriving at Casselton  in a cool morning or afternoon no stores and Gas Stations opened.  Only the United States flag more to come 

Update May 26, 2015 yesterday i bought the DeVinci code film and i have to say this there is no way Jesus Christ got married and had a family even if the painter Leonardo  thought He did! No way ! There is only so much time in a day to do so much! Yes Christ was and is as real as you and me! He also had to work and eat and He also had a mother ! It is written  He was  a Carpenter and a Teacher who was teaching His disciples and other people around him about our Father in Heaven. But what I read  migjht be true the book was translated into 44 languages. 80 million copies were solid the writer's name is Dan Brown What repeats? About a year ago i made a copy of the picture of the Mona Lisa and later i will tell you why. May 26, 2015  Back to the Movie Fargo the Asian man named was Mike who made up a story about losing his wife Linda. Erlinda was  my husband's mother name but most people know her by Linda. Her midden name is Canela = Cinnamon    more to come    Update May 27, 2015 what am i thinking when i am watching the Vitruvian Man? I am thinking how in  beauty school i was taught to cut hair and i am thinking about the two XX on top of my hood car then i looked into Lines Of Symmetry. more to come

Updated May26, 2015  We used to worked for two farmer brothers and long time ago first farmers wife who we used to live on their farm wrote us a letter saying her husband had died on his sleep that on that  day or one day before he had been golfing. more then once and weeks ago I told my daughter I wanted to die on my sleep just like the farmer.  and  for a while i had this on my mind . Today my daughter tells me she heard Bob Salter died on his sleep. Well my oldest brother who got to see my father  more in his youth years used to say that my father looked  kind-of  like Bob Salter former S.A. TV anchorman, may Bob  rest in peace.  more to come  

Update May 28, 2015  Porn and Child pornography and the now songs and Videos, videos from Katy Perry Miley Cyrus Sia  Taylor Swift Meghan Trainer and so many more that if they don't have the bigger Ass or breast they'll have someone else shaking it.      =  Now i had this in mind for a while and because i just learned on radio talk and on TV about  the Hot Girls Wanted now i will write about it . Remember the Red River Valley Fair back then in the early sixties when it came?  Back then there were not too many women or girls willing to take it off like nowadays. I was a child but i remember  there were a large group of men outside a tent and they were waiting for it to opened. These men could have had a wife daughters mothers granddaughters sisters. But they were there because they wanted to see someone else daughter sister or even mother take it off.   swimming pools were not enough not even Naked Girl Bars were not enough or maybe at that time they won't any around i don't know. these music artiest and many more like them are very smart they using children in their adult  music videos. One video from Sia is a dream come true for child p            more to come 

Update June 1, 2015 this Video Elastic Heart Feat reminds  me  of a story that was reported to the law and  came out on Unsolved Mysteries. This was  about a Nude camp when a man had been  wrestling with a girl and then she runs outside because the man started maybe touching   her  and she got frighten and ran out. This was reported to the Law I never did  find out if the man was caught but it make me think even in a Nudest  Camps there are rules that need to be followed. i knew you had to also be in the nude but that's all i knew.        more to come  

Update June 2, 2015 now next time Katy Perry comes to the Fargo dome all you boys young man old men and even married men get in line because Katy Perry wants to see your little, big or old even dirty Penis.  Have fun! I know she will teach very young girls not to be shy and ask boys to show them their penis. That is what the music Video Peacock is about, right? I wonder what she learned during the years she was leaving with her self proclaim ministers parents!? SEX!  The world ( we the people ) are changing just listen and  look around how words like vagina and penis are used more often now then yesterday. What happened to private parts of the body ? Is that old school? Yes, we are changing  fast but not for the better and that is in general! more to come later i will write how much and how Ive seen even  Mexican American parents have also changed. more to come. 

Update May 29, 2015 Here are more things repeated. On Tuesday May 26, 2015 at around 1:00 am  at the Wal Mart Super Center in south Grand Forks, ND a man black man named Marcell Travon Willis  originally from Springfield  active with the Grand Forks, Air Force Base goes inside the store and starts shooting people. shoots two employes then killed himself. Then i read Mayor says Not Normal a week ago while i was working through Commend center at the Wal Mart in Fargo at 13 Avenue i told a woman working with me my life was not normal like everyone else, meaning my life is different then everyone else. Was the  Mayor told to repeat my words? Maybe yes maybe not but according to the Herald and the Forum newspapers his name is Michael Brown and he came from Okinawa and according to the internet news Dr. Michael R. Brown, MD came  to Grand Forks as a United States Air Force officer and attended University North Dakota School of Medicine and is a Obstetrician at the Altru health. Now on Thursday i read one of the victims name is Greg =Gregory who died as a result. now according to his obituary he was a parishioner and greeter at the St Micheal's Catholic church in Grand Forks, ND where i met father Bob. Gregory = Gregorio  was the name of second husband to Erlinda Canela Munoz then Sendejo. One day in 2005 before i knew what the law was up to while Troy and i were  sitting inside my son's there was not much for me to do but wait for court day so most days Troy and i just spent time talking. But then he told me this, " you know so  many stories you could write one book after another" then I said yes, but i thought to myself if i only knew how to spell . i knew he was making fun at me but i never got anything serious until after January 25, 2006            May 30, 2015 because i did write about The Alamo in letter #32 i will post this letter and write more about the Alamo more to come. My daughter likes to read from well good known  Christian writers. Shes been telling me a bit about what Max Lucado writers  about how he thinks. So i wanted to know who is Max Lucado. this is what now i know about him more to come   

Update June 1, 2015   Because i needed to see a dental doctor today i met Fergus Falls, Minnesota and this is where i want to: Apple Tree Dental on Westridge Mall Suite 33 2201 W. Lincoln Ave Phone 218-998-2218. And the last mile sign  i saw coming back home was 22 miles to Fargo and these were the things i saw on my way there on a driven on a Cab (Taxicab) ride.  more to come  Update June 3, 2015

today was my second visit to Fergus Falls all went well. The  nice couple who sold me the Van  gave me two keys on key chains. One was a Yellow School Bus the other Fergus Falls Nelson Auto Car Sale. more to come       

Update June 2, 2015  I checked out these two books here in Moorhead about Symmetry and this is one Symmetry in science and art and on page 100 is the interwoven rings and on page 145 i learned about the Egyptian pattern. Update June 3, 2015 later on i will come back to this. 

Update June 3, 2015 now these are other things that so far have repeated on my life time. presidents that first were governors.  Theodore Roosevelt first governor of New York and 20th century 1899-1901.Franklin Delano Roosevelt second  governor of New York from 1929-1933   

Update  June 4, 2015 here i will write something funny  i heard last night on FM Radio wonderland more to come i got on my car had the radio on and a conversation with going with who i believe is  two men and a woman. one radio man is telling the world that his girlfriend asked him about going to shave her vagina pubic hair. the talk woman tells the man she has never gotten her vagina saved . the horny and i can tell by  the sound of their voices they are getting or are horny by that time that he will pay for her to get her vagina like his girlfriend and that she is gong to love it! now i have so much to write about these i just can't wait but i have to because it's almost closing time and oh i really like this song I 'm gonna marry her. These days not too many man want to married they just want to have Sex. and nowadays it's so easy and chip because parents proved the room no need to have sex in the back seat of a car or go  any  motel. parents proved room food shower and are very happy because they know the ones that might married their daughter more t come. yes all this and more goes on at FM Radios!     more coming  up  

Update June 4,2015 now back to the word Canela = Cinnamon. there were several years that migrant children were taken care at a school in Casselton. now one day in class we were group in 4 or 5 students i really don't remember but i do remember this. we were told to peek a favorite cookie to bake. so the group i was with we all Update June 6, 2015 later i  will write about the Mike Dairy  Farm and about the Chicken Farm           

Update June 8, 2015 Before 2006 before the law framed me and  later gave me hints my son had been framed too.  Troy once told me "your smile will soon fade away." more to come Update June 9, 2015 today on radio i heard a man talking about the suffering that gos on when you received  the Lord. the suffering i am going through is much more  deeper  then any of you the people!  

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June  11, 2015 for days if not months i been trying  to write this down but i didn't know how  but today at around 1:55 pm at the Fargo's library before dropping another of my daughter's book It's Not About me" by Max i read a little on page 125 and now i think i can write what i need to write down. Now if i am poor its because God wants for me to be poor if i don't have a good loving husband is because  God wants it that way. if i am sick it's because God wants  for me to be sick . If i am homeless its because God wants for me to be homeless. I can go on and on but for now i will write what i mean . Now Max asks this questions "Have i been selected to struggle for God's glory? have i been granted for Christ's sake , not only to believe in Him ,but also to suffer for His sake? Philippians 1:29 I don't have to think for too long to answer, i say i was selected to suffer for Him. but in more ways then you the people are suffering. besides writing for no money i still have to work for a living when i am  at any kind of work i am mentally harassed by You the People I am not paid fairly like others and treated like others.         more to come  before i go on i need to say that if this is not about God then i am  the greatest  fool that has ever walked this earth! But there is a God!  more to come 

Updated June 15, 2915 I never have time to see if anyone is reading what i write but about one month ago i noticed that i only have One Follower now i don't know what to do. My daughter asked me several weeks ago which story in the bible would i compared my life to that was  easy  for me to answered i told her Joseph. I always thought it was only Joseph now i think i can even relate with Job. but not in the richness and beauty and spouses God gave to him only on the hardships. no God hasn't   taken my children haven't given me  hard core illness but i still have it very hard. before 2004 i worked and lived just like any of you and i needed and something i had what i needed. Now i can't get what i need i can't get nowhere. Now this doesn't mean i will stop trying but now life is so much harder my life has gotten  from bad to worst and no i don't believe it's because  you the people have the power to do me wrong play mind games with my and get away with it no if these things are going on is because in some mysterious   way God wants it to be that way. You the people have no power over me just what God gives you. I saw my father more to come        

Update June 11, 2015 and i wasn't going to write about this Movie I saw about  father Miguel pro but then i saw the numbers 44 and remembered other things on this movie that now i know i need to write about it. more to come           Updated  June 16, 2015   Last night i saw   I think this is his real name   Florentino  Gonzalez his son and one granddaughter at a store near by my apartment. Now  my husband Raul nick name was Pewie or Peewee. Mr. Gonzalez nickname is also Pewee. He  was also married to a woman named  Marta  Lopez from Crystal City. And i could be wrong but i think i heard along the way that the Lopez family were our far away cousins their only child their son had also been in prison  more to come. now if I am not mistaken Raul was named after his maternal  grandfather Mr. Raul Canela. I named my son Luis after my father Luis Fernandez. back to Mr. Canela, Mr. Raul Canela made sweet Mexican bread and had a Bakery which it's still open for business. my son has been working for about a year and months at the place  called Country Hearth Bakery. growing up I understood that my aunt's second husband Mr. Tellez had been a butcher, worked  cutting meat.  One day when  my son was in  a prison don't remember what state it could have been in Minnesota or North Dakota he told me he had cut his finger while cutting meat. he told me no one else wanted to cut the meat so he would v    

Update 17, 2015  In the late sixties when we moved to 310 West Crockett i was the only one in the block named Marta but then John and Marta Mchazlett  and family moved  from Chicago with his aunt Virginia Galven then we were two Marta's  in the same side of the street. Then later on Marta moved out and it was again only me for so many years then came Marta Ramirez her husband and family  more to come    

Update June 18, 2015 Boy! Do i have a lot to write about what  repeats as i read on the Cracking The Vinci Code .  No facts    what i read  about Jesus marring Mary Magdalene but let me write how it repeats.  Dan *Brown repeats  *Margaret  = Maggie *Starbird *Micheal Baigent *Richard Leiah *Henry *Lincoln       more to come           

Update June 20,2015 Today  I wanted some time  to write about how great my father was but instead i need to write about this NO! NO! NO! Minneapolis, Minnesota  Law! You should also Charged The 20 year old  Mother for what happened to 2 year old Sophia O Neill! it's TIME MOTHERS ARE HOLD RESPONSIBLE for the MONSTERS  THESE KIND OF  MOTHERS WELCOME TO THEIR CHILDREN'S HOMES! THESE MOTHERS DON"T SEEN TO CARE IF THEIR CHILDREN ARE IN SOME KIND OF DANGER THEY ARE JUST THINKING ABOUT SEX SEX SEX!  I AM SO TIRED OF HEARING A CHILD GETS HURT EVEN KILLED!  BY THEIR BOYFRIENDS! NO, START! QUESTIONING THE MOTHER WHERE AND WHY WAS THE CHILD LEFT ONLY WITH THIS MONSTER!  THE LAW AND SOCIAL SERVICES SHOULD START WARNING MOTHERS THAT IF HURT COMES TO THEIR CHILDREN UNDER THEIR ROOF THEY WILL BE HOLD REASONABLE! START NOW!    more to come ! 

Update June 20, 2015 what happened at the Emanuel African  Methodist Episcopal church did remind me if what happened in Birmingham Alabama more to come  Updated June 23, 2015  i have said many times before some of you The People are told what to repeat to blow my mind this is the Devil in you, you are doing His work but let me tell you The people how God is telling me not to take it to mind and heart. Here  is one of many examples. Today a man who lives on the same apartments i live in was told to call me Yolanda by now he knows my name. this man has been acting and talking like my brother Angel Fernandez who was married to Yolanda from Carrizo Springs, TX   but for days Ive been thinking about long time ago  what she had told me about pennies and this man also from Carrizo Springs named Cleo Bustamente an Entrepreneur and like many days before today i  picked up a penny i saw on the floor downstairs in the laundry room. Yolanda once told me  something like this  "Bustamente has money because even a penny  he sees on the  floor he will pick it up and put it on his picket." My grandchildren  mother last name is Bustamente. more to come

 Update 24, 2015 Last week  my daughter asked checked out this movie from the Moorhead  library A Place In The Sun now we had seen this movie many times before but we still like to watch it. After January 25, 2006 the night i was stopped in East Grand Forks and given hints my son  and I had been framed   and that  the Law was watching every move  i made and  told  people  to followed  me soon after i noticed that even the new Movies  were repeating. So for a long time i didn't like going to the movies but i didn't say no because i knew my daughter would not understand me she thought i was going through some kind of depression but i knew  the world was repeating and i really thought it was only the law with connections with you the people to drive me crazy so my word against them would not be valid and this is true the law has being watching  me and telling some of you to repeat. But now i know thee is much more to this and not all is coming from You The People. these is what repeats from Fargo i drive east to now my home in Moorhead Eastman. i think are  twin doors  1401 1401 has they walked by the street to her home at 44331/2. i see the name Walter on a mail box. The first landlord i went to asked about in apartment his name was Walter and i can prove it i still have the contract more to come Update June 25, 2015 i rechecked this movie and today i noticed Elizabeth tells Montgomery something like a penny for your thoughts. Montgomery is celebrating his birthday on the *15 of the month of what ? August ?  now way before i had read and i am more then sure wrote about Elizabeth and T      

Update 25, 2015  this is the second year i hear my daughter mentioned the word Ramadan. She had told me a bit about it but today i read a bit more . Now Ramadan is the *ninth mouth of the Islamic calendar during which strict fasting is observed from sunrise to sunset. in the twin cities followers be in for *15 hours or more of fasting      Update June 29, 2015 i need to write about employed   women who don't washed their hands on sinks but do it on toilets! But not today no time! 

Now if this is the man i think he is accused of double murder Ashley Kenneth Hunter i only know him by his second name Kenneth. If his the man employee by Commend Center then me or I and others travel to Finley, ND to work in a Bakery. now this man didn't sound or looked to me like a killer. I know that you can not judged a book by it's cover or more to come Update June 30, 2015 now this is what repeats on Sunday night one day before the killings in north Fargo I couldn't found my small Hammer to hummer a nail on the wall to hung a curtain.  I called my daughter to asked her for her Hummer. I don't remember exactly the time  it might have been between  9:00pm or 10:00pm. I wanted to clear my mind  so i walked to her apartment in downtown Fargo. I stayed with her only for a short time then i walked back to Moorhead and used her Hummer to hung my curtain.  The next day I don't remember what time it was and i don't remember if that day i worked.BUT I do remember that I saw a car coming from the West driving under the  rail road train tracks bridge  as I was also going under but driving East making a left turn to Moorhead when i was a white small car with maybe two person in it. One for sure was driving  the other person might have been a woman that had a Hummer out the window as they drove by as i was waiting for the green arrow light to turn on. *( Railroad Someone to prison without a fair trial or by means of false evidence.)

( now i thought to myself the law who keeps in eye on me told these people to drive by me with a Hummer on their hand.)At that time i knew nothing about what had happened or what was going to happened. I just remember that I think it was Monday late afternoon  I passed by 12th Avenue North and i saw police men in the yard of a two story house. *(i know from way back in  2006 in Grand Forks, MN and Grand Forks,ND  the law has me under  24/7 surveillance and tells certain people to gave me hints what i do and say but there are things that no matter how smart you the people think you are You are not smart enough to manipulate everything . When i  wrote the name Ashly  i thought it was only used on  females. now the second victim was found on Tuesday at 1122 12th St North it reads the house is owned by the Catholic Diocese of Fargo.    more to come             

Update 9, 2015 The Bible talks about Twins one set of twins were named Perez and Zerah son's of Tamar and Judah.  My son' best friend nickname is something like Java i think named after Stars Wars Java or his real name right now I don't remember how to say or spill it. Now his parents are both Perez.  so his mother last name is Perez Perez. He is second cousin to Erica twin son's. If i am not mistaken  one of his mother brothers is Miguel Perez from Carrizo Springs, TX  more to come two days ago i listened to Billie Holiday music who was born on April 17, 1915 and died at the age of 44 years old. I am writing about this because before and after these numbers I been looking at on addresses and   more to come.For days i had this name on my mind Victoria  i  bought an old movie with J more to  

Update June 29, 2015 now what Aaron knodel juror found it too hard for him? That is nothing! You should walk on my shoes women size 71/2 for one whole day! What you heard is nothing it was just about Sex between two adults!  Nobody else was watching them nobody is playing with their  minds only themselves with each other!  more to come       

Update July 2, 2015  What parent  leaves a  child alone inside a running car? This parent should pay a fine and be sent to jail for a few days for doing such stupid thing !     more to come

Updated 8, 2015On Dakota Park Apartments this is what repeats 3131 and on top in the middle  of the buildings is what looks to me shape of a Diamond. more to come   

Update 10, 2015 In TX years ago  i worked as a housekeeper with these two families now I don't remember excecly thier last names but they sounded  or spelled something like this one in Crystal City was House or Homes or Holmes the other was the same but in Carrizo Springs  House Homes or Holmes. right now i  don't remember  who was from where. What i do remember is that the old man who I worked for was from Carrizo Springs and  had taught English. update July 13, 2015 MistakeSpanish!  . One of his sons who was also a  teacher was accused of  killing his wife. The other one in Crystal City had Cancer on his more to come. Now what was the name of Aurora theather?=Century. What was said about this story?=  Twelve people were killed in Aurora, Colorado and 58 were injured in midnight Batman movie. The movie Dark Knights Rises.  Who did the killing?=James Holmes unloaded 4 weapons full of ammunition. 2012 Aurora shooting was the deadlist shooting since the Columbine massacre in 1999 where twelve people were killed more to come  

Update July 2, 2015 this past Saturday my daughter and i went to West Acres Mall  i didn't  feel like walking around and I needed to put eye drops on my eyes so i sat on a bench inside the Roger Maris Museum. now many times before i had sat there and had noticed some things that i could write about that were repeated but the 6161 I really didn't know what it meant . So in my mind I asked God what is here you want me to write about? then I looked more carefully to the left side and then i understood  what was repeated. In 1961 Maris  more to come Update July 6, 2015 now remember when i wrote the word Amber? I had in mind to write about the few expensive Jewelry i had as i was growing up and one was an Amber ring the other was a three small diamond ring and a gold high school ring. But like everything else i write about  there is always much more to the story that has to do with me you and the rest of the world . more to come 

Update July 7, 2015 (9) Nine black  people were killed inside church in Charleston , SC. Today i went to this story more to come      

          

Update 7, 2015 I wrote about my family and me arriving here back in 1958. I am 58 years old and there is a monument of the Ten Commandments in the middle of the City of Fargo building and  downtown  Fargo library dating back since 1958. There is another Ten Commandments that Fargo gave to Moorhead and its outside the Moorhead, MN Courthouse behind Clay Social Services building.  Today i read a bit about the Ten Commandments and this is what i understood. more to come  

Update July 7, 2015 Now people are we really living like God wants us to ? NO! We are Not! for us all is WELL and OK! Today nothing is wrong anything goes!  Now lets talk about nudity everybody wants their body's seen by everyone else! We like it so much just as much as we like SEX. And we got people like Katy Perry remembering us and showing children how to do it on music videos. Right!  You might say its been like this since before i was born. Yes you might be right but now there is so much more then before because now  we not only have movies, magazines  and TV but we have the famous Computer!  I remember one day when my brother Angel asked my father about looking at a woman without clothing and what it did and how it made a man feel like . this question was and is important  because by nature if we are looking at a nude body especially young ones  more to come              

Update 13, 2015 now remember i mentioned these two names David and Gilbert, Gilberto? Gilberto half brother to  Davila one of the men i knew since childhood  who in Grand Forks, ND was told to lured me into going to East Grand, Forks where the law set me up. Gilberto got married had children with sister of  David Castillo's wife .  But I don't remember their names i think they were Fancisco Ramirez daughters. Now if I am not mistaken  Gilberto real last name is De La Cruz but runs by his mothers last name Castillo. Update July 15, 2015   I remember i heard Gilbert going to prison for the first time because of setting  a house on fire in Crystal City  the  house i believed  i heard belonged to Gutierrez that at that time Gilbert and his family were renting or living closed by (Not Sure). What i do know is that David Castillo and his wife adopted  Gilbert's children and Castillo for several year m  to ND and lived on the same Farm we used to come do sugar beets. i thought how Castillo would have  known about his farm is i believe Lucila A       Eusebio Davila more to come

Update 18, 2015 this past Sunday July 13, 2015 would be one year that my beloved nephew  Ricky De la Cruz went to sleep to be with our maker. Right now i  am remembering after his death the  night I saw a white Dove flying from the North to the South. Later that week i heard he had been taken back to Texas to be buried      where he was born in Carrizo Springs, TX. Later on I would see a white Dove again. more to come  . When  my motehr passed away my daughter told me she had seen two white Doves flying away in the school yard. What came to our minds was that was my father who had come for my mother. more to come

Update July 16, 2015 for a long time I wanted to write about close people i knew and know that have been in prison for a long time one even died that my oldest sister first husband and it was during the time the white people were in control in Crystal City but when more to come .