Greetings

July 2012

Greetings people,  

What you are about to read is not only about me, it’s about you the reader and the rest of the world. You will read how the world is mocking me repeating what I do, how the world is living a lie there is no honesty just repetitions of what I do.

Hello, my name is Marta Fernandez Munoz; I am second generation on my father’s side to be born in the U S A. Originally I am from Crystal City, TX but for now my home is Fargo, ND. But I am familiar with ND. Fargo, Casselton, Mapleton and Moorhead, MN are part of my past and recently also Grand Forks, ND, East Grand Forks. 

When I started writing these letters I was computer illiterate reason was I had no need to use a computer. This is why some of my letters are not in chronological

al order.   I would write a letter then prints out, but now I save. The first letters I wrote I rewrote on my drives. I will be going back and forth with information but all letters and documents are dated. Today October 13,2012 my son calls me was going to ask questions but didn't. He sounded upset i know the law sends people to make it hard for him but i can't stop because if i do you the law will win, drive me crazy and keep him in prison for as long as you want.  I know you the law sent inmates and out side people to confuse my son made him think what i am doing is keeping him in prison when in the first place it is you the LAW who are doing this to us! And who do i mean? I am talking about Lawyers in general! And other law enforcement! 

Update November 10, 2012 .Attention people this information applies to the whole world but North Dakotas and Minnesota have front seats. The whole world is repeating. Even these words ( front seats). Lawyers, FBI, government church leaders and you the people, It is written. What good is it that you have gain the world more to come  

November 2, 2012 if I were to believe to (know) that the FBI, the government, you the people were in control of all my being. I would have given up by now but I know you are not! God has giving me hints of things to come. These are a few songs I can relate to and this one was played in TX radio to give me hints I was being watched.  Every Breath you Take  this song Eye Of The Tiger was in the last movie i saw here in Fargo back in 1982. Before this song came out Losing my Religion. by REM  1991. One Sunday a priest named Leo Martinez in front of the congregation in a corner inside the church took the Eucharist from my hand. Both my children not long before had made their first communion. Updated January 8, 2013 That day i didn't feel like going up to the alter. So I told my children to go without me. But one (i think was my son) told me he wouldn't go without me. so i got up and i think I  put my left hand on top of the other to receive it. And as i am waking by the corner in front of the church choir. the priest Fr. Martinez who was known in Town  for doing such things. Screamed at me asked me what was i going to do with the Eucharist i had on my hand. I told him i was going to eat it. In my mind  i was going to get closer to my seat or wait to set down before i did. i was so embarrassed. (Like all stories there is more). The priest told the people there were people using the Eucharist in witchcraft. He said other things i didn't hear well because people were laughing. When Mass was over I told my children to go to the car to wait there for me. My son asked me what was I going to do. I told him not to worry and to just do as i  had asked him to do. But my son stayed with me. I waited for the priest and when I noticed there were less people around. I asked him if i could have a few words with him and where could we meet. He said there where we were standing was fine. This was outside the church as he departed the people waking out the door then I spoke my mind. I asked Fr. Martinez why had he taken the Eucharist from my hand. he started saying something like this "people were or are doing" then i stopped him and told him, witchcraft! i wasn't going to do such thing! i told him that he had taken my right to receive what was mine. And that if i was to die that day it would be on him because he had taken my last rights. i went home and told my oldest brother what had happened in church. and i cried a lot that i stopped going to church. my brother noticed that and if we started a conversation i would speak bad about Fr Martinez. i would bring up all the wrongs i knew about him all the bad rumors going around in town. And when i would bring it up with people i found out they knew more then i did. Because what he had done to me i didn't know he had done to others. And i  surely didn't know about rumors of him and my first cousin head church leader  Elvera  going around about Fr. Martinez and her. I don't know if it's true but this is what two  sisters and other people in Crystal City told me. That one day  Elvira Lara husband Willie Galven had gone raging inside the church or parish with a rifle on his hand accusing both of improper behavior. Now Elvira has always thought of herself better then us always with her nose up. But my father and her mother did get along very well. And i do need to say she did respected my father but my mother it's a different story. Now I  have never cared to know how these people are related but Ray Perez wife Rebecca is Willie sister.            I had heard long ago from a next door neighbor the family Galven were called Skunks because they developed gray hair in an early age. January 15, 2013 now when my son was shot he almost lost an eye and still has bullets that weren't able to be removed. One of the man involved was related to Dora? But she liked to be called Dorothy. This couple used to run a restaurant back then in Crystal City. Now Dora nephew was involved. Another man involved was related to this other woman Sevirita Lara the one Jose Angel Gutierrez says he wrote about but actually it was about the events that i was going through in 2005 2006. Stories I told Troy Lawrence. (the pervert informer that you the lawyers sent to me) back in 2005. February 3, 2013 not attending Mass was the worst thing ever since my father's death or even worst because this was the only thing i looked forward to doing on Sunday mornings. Getting up at 6:am be at church before 7:00 am just as i used to do when i was growing up with my father. now I had my own children and i would dressed  up tried  to look my best for my God and set a good example for my children just as my father had done with his family. So after many times my brother kept asking me why couldn't i forgive Fr. Martinez  i went back to church and then came my daughter's 15th birthday (Quienceanera) everything went well. But in January 2005 when my daughter was getting things ready for her wedding some things were not right but i still didn't know you the lawyers from ND had called TX and badmouth me  .Then after January 2006when i went back to TX I started looking back and now i can say the mind game began since 2004. more to come                              

Update November 28, 2012 Lawyers, Judges, FBI, Government. Stop giving my son a hard time in prison! Face me you cowards! Yesterday November 28, 2012 from a  Minnesota prison where my son is doing time for crimes he didn't commit.  n inmate called me! i asked him who he wanted to speak with. the inmate told me in a sarcastic    way, "Oh, ma'am I apologize  I have the wrong number" Who of you cowards gave my number to another inmate to call me!? I  know you are tormenting my son in prison!   Government and you the people if you don't like what I write about you, you can always come to me! This is between us stop bullying my family! My son is in prison and can't defend himself! Stop torturing my son! And all you Church Leaders are involved in this wickedness! March 21, 2013 I know that you the people are being told  what to repeat about me but now I know not all. I know that because this is so wicked somethings you just repeat without you even knowing it has to do with me. more to come    


Update October 11, 2012  these are the things i must wrote for now because these are things I have in common  with people from the past and present. This are  things I can relate to things that parallel with my life and things that for some reason i need to see and hear.  
(Updated October 2, 2012) last week my daughter and I were watching the news on TV and we saw the  report about the wildfires in Idaho and other states. I haven't had time to write because I've been busy with personal things I needed to do.But I  wanted to write about a dream  I wanted about a dark cloud of smoke or storm  that  was  in my dream, i dreamed i was looking at a road and there were people running from the  cloud that I didn't know what it was a cloud of rain or fire. The day my daughter and I were watching the news on  fires in Idaho and other states. I told my daughter that i had dreamed of what we were watching. She just made a gesture with her hands as if she didn't  believe me. But i kept wondering if maybe there was more to this dream and as  i saw  the news today the cloud of smoke and the road were also going to happen closer to home. Today October 8, 2012  i have so many things to write but haven't had the time  i started working as a nanny with a couple with five children. i will continue tomorrow.

Update February 24, 2013 On June 23, 2011 a man named Casey     invited me to a Casino before walking to his home where we were going to meet for the trip. I took a nap because out off nowhere i was feeling sleepy and tired. when i woke up i took with me this movie which i had bought at the Dakota Ranch to see on his TV because my VHR  Recorder wasn't working. The Movie was The Seventh Sign with Demi Moore. by then i had notice that some of my dreams i was living so when i woke up from that nap i wrote down what i had dreamed. in a book i bought at the downtown Fargo Library or Dakota Ranch I wrote down what i had dreamed. the book i pickedsound of silence   played on my funeral way before 911 i had also told i had received Christ as my savior after he had told me he had been saved. Then he asked me something like the words in this movie and in the same tone and i think he asked me twice. "Would i lay my life for someone else.i answered, yes. i don't know if part of his question was also because he had served in the Military. Before 911 I  was committing adultery with a man who's parents were owners of a Motel on Highway 83 in Crystal City, but he was running the Motel. A woman named Sandra Garza had introduced him to me. After 911 his parents sold the land to Zavala County Bank which at the time was located in downtown Crystal City. One day this man gave me several Bibles from the Motel to give away. I took some to one of my niece named Gracie for her to keep. Although there were Bibles in the house I kept some and in 2004 when i went to Grand Forks i took one for my son and for his live in girlfriend. and i kept one for me which is the one i still have with me. Somewhere before 2004 this man moved to San Antonio so i haven't seen him since then. Now on the movie from where did the young Jewish man and Moore got a bible  ? March 19, 2013 from a Motel. Bibles placed by The Gideons. Now why I am saying  I was committing adultery if the man I had married was living with another woman in Colorado. But because he was still alive I was still married to him. Even if we would had been divorced by men law, we were still married by God's law.                                 more to come Casey then told me





    



Updated October 25, 2012 this is something else  I need to mention not only my son and I are suffering. Not only we are the government's target not only the wicked government is destroying our life's his also destroying my grandson's life's as they remain without a father since 2005. My daughter is also giving a hard time in all the jobs she gets. She doesn't know what the government is capable of doing  wouldn't believe a word I say against the government. There are many ways to kill a personThe Makingautobiography of himself or so he says, but are lies because there all have to do with conversations I had with Troy Lawrence and other people in 2005- 06  while I was in Grand Forks, ND and because they are simply lies and this other book he wrote with many more lies We won't back down! base on Severita Lara rise from Student Leader to Mayor. Now, what was one of the  song played in the Obama Democratic Convention ? We won't back down? Same words the Catholics are using now on their demonstrations against abortion and same sex marriage     who are they to judge if they are also mocking me they are killing my mind and approving what the government is doing to me and my family.   ? more to come 
Updated June 27, 2013 California has given in to the same sex marriage, who's next? this is how bad this madness is. mothers want government and people approval  to kill their babies.  Man want government and people approval to marry man. more to come  

Today November 6, 2012 i voted Democratic except for the governor. and this would be my first time voting in the State of ND. on this election in ND memories 
came back to me when one time long ago in my childhood i saw something that made i think. I saw a man hitting his dog forcing the dog to get back in his back truck. The poor dog didn't want to get on this man's truck because the man was abusing the dog hitting him with what looked like a metal object.  i felt so sorry but what could i do? i was a child and who would i call for help? who would listen to me? nobody! I couldn't do a thing! i just saw this man repeatedly hitting the dog that in one way i knew the dog wanted to go with this man but he just wanted the beating to stop. The poor black skinny dog got in the back of the truck and drove away with the angry mad man. This i saw once in Casselton and writing about it wasn't easy for me. 
Guns I remember once my sister Barbara and I were staying late watching TV with the farmer's kids (parents were out) a car came to the lot farm driving fast. The farmer's daughter jumped up opened a closet door and grab a rifle. The  man got off his car walking towards the house insisting I think i heard him say to the farmer's daughter needed gasoline. I don't remember if he got what he had stopped for but i knew he wasn't going to mess with the farmer's daughter and her rifle, so he left. In 2000 a friend took me somewhere near a bridge that had been built back then to be used to crossover a river to get from the south towns to north going to Uvalde. But had been torn down and now the bridge, river and land are claimed by Rangers who bought land near by. This was my first time there and on the  broken down bridge I read  many names of Mexicans from Crystal City that used to go swimming, fishing back then. February 4, 2013  About half an hour later at the river I got a feeling someone was watching me and as i looked up a hill i saw a man with a rifle on his hand pointing at us. I told the man i was with to stop fishing and move quick because i wanted
Updated November7, 2012 i will look up what day on this past weekend     I went to  Blockbuster  and checked out this movie named Bush Family Fortunes the best Democracy money can buy and just barely this morning i was able to see this movie and what a coincidence. YOU REELECTED PRESIDENT OBAMA USED THE song on  YOUR WALK IN SPEECH! I learned a lot more by watching  this movie about how the government works how the Bush  family has no shame is as evil as can be but they're not the only ones.Bush danced his way out of the White House while USA soldiers and innocent people from other countries were being killed. (later  read why he danced his way). 
And what did you said Obama? "We  killed Bin Laden!" Speak for yourself I killed no one. Say that to yourself and the Bush family and their supporters. And no, you have never been poor, Obama, you don't know the meaning of being poor! And you and others know very well these are not coincidence. Singed Sealed and Delivered by Stevie Wonders. In 1975 or 76 the year I moved to the Valley. In McAllen, TX there was a sign that read Bob Hope coming to McAllen.               Obama you have two daughters. Romney you have Five son's. November 9,2012 last night Jay Leno


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Updated February 10, 2014  I  don't remember the year but  i think this happened before 2001 on this weekend i was celebrating my birthday when i heard  through my sister Maria who at the time worked at Del Monte Factory that cousin  Juan F

 

Updated May 11, 2013 i don't remember the year but it was after my sister Barbara had elope with her boyfriend and stayed behind in Idaho to marry Rey Salinas from Alamo, TX. we were working in the fields
Now i hear on TV that ND and MN have a problem with smokers. I can't remember back then  ever seeing so much cigarettes butts and trash on the streets of Fargo, ND.  Smoking is back glamorized in movies like Zero Dark Thirty as actors repeat after me.         more to come    at the age of 13 or 14 i asked my father to teach  me how to drive  car . we had bought an extra car to take to the fields. The car was a Red standard Rambler. one day coming from a south field i was driving my father was with me i turned in a corner too fast and went down to a ditch. the next day i told my father i wanted to drive the car again. he smile and laugh and told me after what had happen a day before he never thought i was going to ask him for more driving lessons. i learned how to drive the red car that summer going and coming from the sugar beets fields and many years  after when i took my driving test in Crystal City i drove with my two feet in an automatic car up to now that's the only way i know how to drive. i don't know how right my father was  or if i understood right but he had told me that at first there were only standard cars. that after the second war the government started making automatic cars for the men who were coming back home from the war with an amputated leg.updated May 24, 2013 in the Summer of 1975 i went independent i boycotted my oldest brother Luis Jr and worked alone with the money i earned I bought a  Ford 1965 galaxy or galaxies  500 and got someone to help me drive it  back to TX .    more to come   Updated July 6, 2013 the Farmer protected his field workers. in the middle of the night if there was a dangerous  storm warning or a tornado the farmer would go knock on doors asked us to take shelter in his basement with his family.  more to come  actives Cesar Chavez and his people one time were protesting against buying grapes   from a grocery store in Wautoma, Wisconsin. i remember seeing a group of Mexican  people with signs. After working in the sugar beet states like ND  MN South Dakota Nebraska Montana most all  of the people would then gather in this small town this was the final  destination but like many farm  workers our headquarters was ND. Updated July 12, 2013 just yesterday i know who was and is Dolores Fernandez Huerta. her named i might have heard but i might have thought she was a he not a she because the name Dolores in Spanish is also used on males. but i do remember hearing the name Tigerina and back then I understood he was trying to give back the land of New Mexico  Arizona Colorado back to Mexico. i remember I being frighten thinking what if  succeed and TX would be next. Today i read into who was Reies Lopez Tigerina and what happened in June 5, 1967 and how the government tried to make him Loco a crazy man. Now Cecar Chavez did a lot for the people in California and lower (BAJA California) and maybe other states on housing and wages. But it did not really had a great impact on the migrants in North.Now why was Chavez heard? Nobody cared about the migrants wages or housing conditions. nobody cared he was on hunger strikes. he was finally heard when  he said the grapes and other fruits  and vegetables had poison and it was going to the tables of the prestige privileged white people!people like the Kennedy who would also benefits from the field labor workers in other ways.     I remember seeing him on a talk show  by then the white people were aware what was going on. Updated July 16, 2013 back to housing in ND one summer day in the seventies as we rested at the farm a journalist from the Fargo'sdydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydydy


Updated February 1, 2013 on  February 2006 i was watching the Superbowl game tryingmoves like Jagger came from? And even Obama had him dancing for him. February

Obama do you love your daughters? do you love your wife? do you think your daughters like having a father who's a Peeping Tom? You are the 44 elected president and it is your 20th wedding  anniversary.  November 18, 2012 this year it's the 20th anniversary of the Fargo's Dome. updated March 10, 2013    Obama, I will get back to  you Updated March 30, 2013  my mother had me when she was 44 years old. 

November 19, 2012  the Twinkies are going Bankrupt


Updated November 4, 2012  what is abortion

Who commits Fornication ? Rich people poor people short

who commits adultery? Even the presidents! more to come
Updated June 19, 2013 today i saw History on the making around 2:04 pm as i was heading north on 4th street to Hornbacher's Grocery Story on Broadway. I made a left turn on 6 Ave to get to Broadway St north but the street was blockade and the red light came on. But I got a full eye picture of the Fargo, ND  New bishop

Updated January 19 2013 I don't know what to call these things that are happening to me but  for now i  will call them Premonitions.  something like what you will read here has happened before.On the weekend Saturday 19 and Sunday the 20 of February 2012.  As so many times before the people at Pizza Corner in Valley City, were playing

October 10, 2012 I was raised Roman Catholic and I used to vote Democrat. When invited by friends I would visited other denominations. I learned a lot by reading a few  books from  Jehovah witness. But I learned much more by listening

Updated January 28, 2013 now on the new testament ti says on chapter -more to come-   (Now  I had be wrong) but these persons are not the the ones because Martin Luther  who was a monk and went against the Roman


February 25, 2013 on several occasions  when i was a child i went   with my mother to visited cousins in Austin, TX.  This was one of them an uncle had died and my mother wanted to be close to her nieces and nephews.  My aunt Virginia was a young widow with many small children. this was the month of October and i remember the radio started playing early in the Morning this song by the Monkees Day Dream Believer. everyone who was in school got up i myself was supposed


Updated February 23, 2013 Yesterday Friday February 22, 2013 for days i had in my  mind the Twilight  Zone show from the sixties. Back In January 2006 i was without a car by then you the law had sent officer Olson badged 566 to set me up in East Grand Forks. And i still talked on and off with Troy Lawrence the man you the law sent to spy on me. On that  same weekend  i asked Troy to take me out to a bar because i wanted to forget all that had happened. So we went to a bar i had been there before with a white woman named Linda who had been my grandson's grandfather ex girlfriend. On that night out with Linda at the Bar on Demers Ave she had introduce me to two men

April 24, 2013 updated on the 8th of this month i started working with Dow Services cleaning offices. one night on my second week working there i felt God's presence.  His power as i was looking at all wires, machines with so much electricity. for a while i felt a bit of fear.   Updated April 26, 2013 this fear wasn't bad fear it was good fear. days after my daughter tells me about a church leader who's son had bought a gun in line and had killed himself and had mentioned on his writings that the bible mentions 365 ways not to fear. then my daughter tells how this makes sense because there are 365 days in a year. i had not noticed what  was the first day of 2013now i know it was a Tuesday.          more to come  last night i couldn't  sleep and i got up around 330 am i went through the pages of this book Great Events of the Bible Times and i stopped at 110 where it reads the Persians capture Babylon the middle paragraph last sentence i see the 555 numbers more to come Updated April 25, 2013 did any


Updated March 12, 2013  it's all a lie about what Obama is worried about that  his wife  Michael private records are being hacked ! no one is looking or trying to get into their  computer  lives! TheyLiar. then he said a story about people buying  lottery tickets. he said that no one can get rich by buying  them and he went on to say more that gave me hints he knows or is told that i am being watched all the time. this man was talking about me! Well, Doctor Robert Agnew i know you don't know me but you do hate

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Update October 30, 2012 yesterday my daughter calls me tells me Bill Clinton will be in town. At the time I am still at work so she goes without me. Around 6:45 I walked  fast to the Civic Center but had to stop and fix my shoelaces on the sidewalk. I bend down then continued walking and stand in line waiting outside the Civic like others to get in. A not too largeme are told to go to a room and wait for Clinton and Heidi . AtHeidi and listening to Clinton and Heidi. I called my daughter told her where I was and for her to come join me because Clinton and Heidi were coming my way. Later on my daughter comes joins me then we waited. Later the two came into the room and I followed them to get pictures. I hear a woman asking Clinton for his autograph i asked him too. Then Clinton says he needs to tie his shoe laces and bends down in front of me and another man who says "I took a picture of Clinton tying his shoelaces, I said so did I. Clinton
street heading to the Civic Center to see him and Heidi. January 8, 2013 Here are two pictures I took of where i asked Clinton  for his signature.  this book has the names
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Updated June 15, 2013 came walking  from Fargo to Moorhead.  Before writing had to listen to music. i tuned in to song Red River Valley because it was in my mind as  walked across the river. this SaturdayBut Not For Me in 1956 released in 1957.  I listened to other songs she sang.  listened to Smothers Brothers sang it too. But this was not the information i had in mind to write. Somewhere i had wrote or written  about  an episode on the show Hawaii five- 0. on this episode i learnedA Time ToI had bought some time ago and hadn't seen it .i know i went to the movies to see it but i don't remember with who i went with. it could have been my daughter because she had told me about the writer John Grisham and i know shes a fan of Sandra Bullock. today before i started writing i checked out who was this writer  most of you might know but i didn't. He was born on February 8, 1955. updated June 19, 2013 it was on a February 8, 2006 when i went to court in   more to come   On Sunday June 16, 2013 as i was watching this movie for the second time i notice these  words  that were used. The word Capital then i realized i should have gone with my instinct


Updated June 22, 2013 this past Thursday i couldn't  sleep because i started  my psychical exercise after 11:30 pm around 2:30 am i got up and read a few lines from this book. Dictionary Biblical Literacy Compiled  by Cecil B. Murphey and on page 73 i learned about  a Samaritan  priest displays a scroll of the Five books of Moses, the only old testament books which they accept as authoritative.  more to come on page 359 the numbers 666 are motioned the zip code to San Marcos, TX  ends with 666. on page 469 right bottom says the four - letter word Hebrew word "Yhwh" was the name by which God revealed

June 22, 2013   today i went to write at the Fargo's library and now i am at the Moorhead library writing more. i arrived here around 3:35 pm and while i get off the car i am thinking about an nephew named Ricky De La Cruz as looked to the right i see this book with the words My Two Moms by Zach Wahls and  there is a man between two women kissing him on his two cheeks.   i thought to myself this book is about a biological

on Friday
Today July 1, 2013 i need to  stress this out i do not hear voices see visions these are things you the people and see and hear because some of them

Updated July 5, 2013 a little bit after  June 28, 2013 i was lured to listen to a conversation on my phone. this conversation was with my son in prison and a young woman he is writing to and sometimes calls. The conversation starts with with a hello then she says she is late for work then my son sounds as if his jealous, demanding and controlling. and wants to know whats shes



Updated ?  29, 2013 I just found out late last night that it had been 50 years ago August 28, 1963 Martin Luther King Jr "I have a Dream." And last night I learned that back then governor Rockefeller loaned money to the black committee for black  Adults

Update February 10, 2014 In 1984 my children and I were living in Greeley, Colorado. From 1984 to 2004 are twenty years. On April 4, 2004 I don't remembered the time but I know it was in the afternoon that i went by my sister's Maria Taco Stand on Highway 83 and one of my niece told me they were closing up because a dangerous storm was about to hit  





Update May 28, 2013 on May the 25 i wrote the name Raul on SaturdayThe Call with Halle Berry. And  just as in any other movie i have watched in this movie  there was repetition. On the morning of  9-11- 2001 i know there was a lot of repetitions emergency calls of  911. i had wrote  the name Raul and the name Raul was on the cell phone

Updated May 25, 2013 when i had settle down one day a man  named Raul Ramon who was my mother's cousin  was walking by the street told me my grandfather on sad hot  days started fiddling his violin and neighbors around would come to his yard wet the ground and start dancing. The night  i was set up  January 25, 2006 the two men who were told to lured me into crossing the bridge were told to tell me about a brother or son of  Raul Ramon who lived in East Grand, Forks. these two men told me they were going visited him before they wanted to be dropped at Davila's apartment. I did wanted to go meet him so that night Davila and Balboa and I went to visit this man. From that apartment Balboa

since very young  before and after i moved the trailer for years i had worked with the local politicians with a woman named   Update May 21, 2013 when i moved in  my    living at this lot a family named Hernandez   more to come         more to come update May 8, 2013 On the same building i  live is the Music Emporium and used to be The Culture Diversity Resources and the The Native American Center   more to come         updated May 10, 2013 Cold play song Viva La Vida more to come 



Update May 13, 2013 this is what i think or believe that God knowing everything  the beginning and the end made it possible through songs to be one of His ways He would let me know that it was His plan and for me not to panic that it was meant to be for all   human madness would rise against me. but not only songs through Movies and through thing i had to go through life. One day this past April 2013 i drop
l them out going house by house. later Salvation Army is giving out doughnuts. during
                             

Update October 10, 2012 this day i will write about what Abraham Lincoln who was  assassinated at the Ford's Theater on a Friday Evening on April 14, 1865 at the age of 56 and died at 7:22 am on April 15, 1865generation. Instead i looked up information on who had killed John

 I told her stories about me growing up and coming to North Dakota and other states. She told me I should write about my stories. I guess maybe she liked listening to them I really don't  know. I told Mrs Pollman I had a Menorah and pointed to her's because at that time I didn't know what it was called. She asked me to take my Menorah to show it to her. But I think that was the last time I went back to work for her or I just simply forgot to after that. President Benito Juarez was an orphaned at an early age,he did not begin his education until he was 12 years old .
Despite the late start,he studied law.And he was president for five terms in the turbulent years of 1858 to 1872. Most of this information about Lincoln and Juarez I barely got today October 13, 2012 But for some reason this and other things i will write have to do with me and has to do with fives



This is the some of the information i have read about AbrahamLimestone vault at Oak Ridge cemetery in Springfield, Illinois,a a large keyAbrahan Lincoln an extraordinary life by the Smithsonian National Museum of American History's Exhibition Abraham Lincoln: this exhibition was made possible by the generous support of :Ford Motor Company Fund. on page 22 -23 is a picture of   men marching for Lincoln a sign with an eye is carried. (i also have an eye on my signs but this is to resemble the F B I (Eye). The words are WIDE AWAKE at first i used to used these words WAKE UP! on page 52 he wrote "If slaveryTIME, The 10 Most Important People Of The Century  and just last week i had time to watch it this is what i learned from it. Henry Ford's, Ford's Five Dollar Day program was set up in late 1914. and at age more to come 

Updated June 7, 2013 i took my driver's license test on a Lincoln's car borrowed from a  cousin. One day this person named Sandra Garza who i used to call  my friend but now hates me and repeats asked me why didn't i get a drivers license i told her i didn't have a car. she told me she was going to ask her cousin  who lived close to her house by W Lake St  to lend me his car. i can't remember well but i think it was during  some kind of  elections. during that time her father was the Crystal City sheriff. i am having a hard time remembering what year this was.  Updated June 12, 2013 her cousin had a black long Lincoln car. i don't remember if it was a two door or four door but I'll say it was a four door.  inside was all push button and the front lights were covered i had never driven this kind of car before.  that same day  she asked me to    more to com  


Update June 12, 2013 last night the San Antonio Spurs second to the last scored was 111the final was 113. In 2007 as i tried to ignored all the mental confusion you the people were and are giving me  as i was watching the Spurs


February 5, 2013 the lights went out at the Super Bowl

Updated January 20, 2013 The Beatles Movie i think it was A Hard Days Night i saw in Ohio. Updated February 1, 2013 i can't remember if it was the same camp where a young man would visit

Updated January 22, 2013 In 1975 I moved way south to live with my sister Barbara her husband and children in Alamo,TX. I graduated in 1976 from Pharr San Juan Alamo High School. This area

updated February 26, 2013 these are some of the movies I saw  here in Fargo Guess Who's Coming to Dinner. i saw more then one  007 Bond movies. The Odd Couple      The Graduate   more on  theaters here in Fargo      
and what the state of Ohio and me on I am not to sure but i think we lived in Delphos Ohio and all of us children ready to made the First Communion were taken to another town (this might have been Lima but i am not sure) for the church ceremony.  I think it was in a late summer or early fall day and  I might have been 7 years old. I remember a young white man would go on evenings in his car to a camp where he would meet with a small group of Mexican children and would teach us to pray inside his car. When I finally learned all the prayers for reward. The young man gave me a box full of bubble gum ( pink gum wrapped in pick paper ). He told me the gum was all mine and that if i wanted i could give one to each of my older siblings. But when I went inside my home my older siblings took the box and all the gum was gone. February 26, 2013 On February 12, 2013 i worked at the Holiday Express and for days i had been thinking about one time in Ohio that i was riding home from school in a school bus and there were a few black  and a few Mexican children in the bus. The bus stopped and as some black children were to getting  off the bus  the driver asked the black children if they needed blankets because it was going to get very cold. i don't remember what the children told the bus driver but i do remember the bus driver told the children he was going bring them blankets. at that point i also asked him for blankets but he said something we didn't really needed blankets because we were not there to stay. i know the bus driver was right we were also done with our work and would be going back to TX.  that day February 12, 2013 my grandson's birthday Mary the Holidays supervisor asked me if i wanted some blankets she didn't had use for. i told her i did and i took these blankets  to a women with small children and as i gave them to her she told me they were in need of blankets. February 28, 2013   yesterday  someone told a man to put on a black blanket and walk  along First ave street. the white bus driver

In 2006 when Fr Bob took me to buy car insurance to get really for court day in MN. I  wanted someone to be real not just repeating what had to do with me. I tried to be as friendly as I could with Fr. Bob. And  I asked  him where he was from. He told me he was from Ohio. But I could feel and see someone had already poisoned his mind. In any case I told him  that as a child my family used to migrate to Ohio and there is where i had made my Communion.     



Now when i went back to TX and i was writing a certain letter about what was going on with me and about La Raza Unida I needed to know what year the Crystal City, TX walk out took place. So I asked the librarian for the two new books I heard Jose Angel Gutierrez had written. I checked
Now when I went back to TX everyone was repeating. One day one of my neighbor's and I were talking about making TamalesDeer Meat. I knew this neighbor like others was repeating what i saw on TV or what I said to others but I had to ignored  what she was doing because I needed to talk with someone.And I knew i was under surveillance

Up Dated November 17, 2012  these are things that have been reveal to me weeks ago. What president's face is on a penny? Lincoln! Now on most of my first letters i wrote are addressed to Dear Mary, which I wrote to you Mary Seaworth but as you know not one letter i have sent to you.  these are two other words I had mentioned before are some of the words people are told to repeat. Dear and Mary.  What was Lincoln's wife's name? Mary. Now i might mention more of these kinds of coincidence but this other kind that i will mention is different. i only have a converter to watched  TV so i only get about 10 or 11 channels. One day maybe around the first months



Update today November 3, 2012 again  I was reminded I am not to go inside a church. I went to confession the priest told me to repeat something i don't really remember now but it had to do with numbers 2 and 5. Then someone else told me I shouldn't had confessed with the priest.At first I got unset but this person was right because in confession  i only heard words that later would cut me like a knife and
made me cry. Updated March 20, 2013 when i was still in Colorado after i had received Christ as my savior I kept going to the catholic church but my beliefs had changed. I stopped going to confession but i was still  was receiving Holy Communion. One day after church or a weekday I went to pray at the alter. I saw bibles and rosaries on a table i bought one rosary and a Bible I had never opened a Bible to read. Updated March 21, 2013 So I  took them home and a few days after i would opened it and glanced through it but I was afraid


Updated March 28, 2013 yesterday my daughter and I had this conversation we were talking about when  Christ is praying in the Garden and a white or silver snake representing the devil. Then i told my daughter that in 2010 one night as i was waiting for the city bus on N Broadway St outside the shelter in front of a nursing home i had seen a small silver snake slithering by me going into a sidewalk there was some snow in the ground and it was a cold night i don't remember if it was March or November .    Updated March 30, 2013 this is  what i learned and what it has to do with what i am writing. Pontius Pilate asked the people. "Why is it that 5 days ago you welcomed this man and now you want Him killed"? This was Palm Sunday when He was seated in a donkey and  followed by many.  Pontius was the 5th governor province and the second longest in those days, when our Lord Christ was crucified under Pontius Pilate. Pilate served from AD 26-36 this would be 11 years.  Pilate appears in Latin on a 2 by 3 limestone block found in 1961. updated April 5, 2013 on this book Pontius Pilate by Ann Wroe on page 48 it says from the third son of Adam to the coming of christ, 5,500 years. Therefore the coming of Jesus Christ in the ark of his body was to be after 5,5oo years.    more to come      Cesar had warned polite twice his bloodshed  would be next. more to come   

Update April 2, 2013 on Good Friday this officer Kirk W. Wilmore, MA area Commander came to me as i was picketing the Federal and asked me when was my son going to be release from prison so i would stop being outside with signs. i told him it was up to God when my son would be release. then he told me John Hoeven wasn't here and i told him that i knew he wasn't in Fargo but that he was and i asked him to take my log in address to read what i was going to write about him he told me he was too busy with so many things he had no time. On Saturday i mentioned to my daughter i wanted to buy water because now the water here in Fargo is coming out too salty. On Sunday  night  a  cop rides fast in front of me with a bottle of water. this one of the many ways the law gives me the car i drive is bugged. more to come Update April 4, 2013 today i came walking to Moorhead, MN i felt like listening to music before writing  i tuned to U Tube and i wanted to hear this song since yesterday Rocking Robin then i heard Surfing Bird and heard the vocalist interview with Dick Clark back in 1963. the vocalist tells Dick that one of the group number is from ND then i learned the other three are from Minneapolis MN. Then i listened to this  song Roll over Beethoven. and listened to Malaguena then this song  A Bone = Ford car 64 then i listened to the yard birds then to I started a joke and the first of May. and i read Robin Rest In Peace. Earlier today i went to Hornbacher's on Broadway I've been there many times before but never payed attention to the outside top glass apple picture today for some reason i looked up. Update April 5, 2013 on Easter Sunday i felt like being alone walking downtown Fargo i stopped at business windows to see what they were selling. i saw Lincoln sating in a chair this i had seen before but not the t shirts that said something about the first two ND  governors appointed by Lincoln. i kept walking and somewhere near Subway

July 13, 2013 i haven't  payed attention to the Zimmerman trial but this happened in  Sanford, Florida. A teenager man named Martin was killed. these words Zimmerman      Sanford and Martin. Martin is my Tocayo namesake.  the day after i was set up a woman last named Zimmerman went to pick me up in East Grand Forks. Sanford is the name of  a Hospital  here Fargo. Sanford last four words are Ford. Before i was set up i told Troy that some people from Crystal City used to migrant to Florida but not us. after the set up when i knew all people were playing with my mind by repeating all i said and did. One day  as I waited for the City Bus near Dianita's apartment in Grand Forks, ND  a man wearing sunglasses walking towards me and stood beside me started a conversation while he blew my mind repeating told me he was from Florida. and who won this year basketball game ? Florida. July 20, 2013 last night my daughter rented out this movie The Jackie Roberson Story. one of the actors is Harrison Ford. in the movie Jackie played in Sanford, Florida. there were 399  more to come  Zimmerman interview with Hannity was something else  and still he was found not guilty!?  This big man that knows how to fight   and had a gun says he was the victim!? he says  it was God's plan!?  No, Zimmerman! you were listening  to the Devil not to God!Updated 22, 2013  Zimmerman you do have a lot of  Supporters anyone that loves his or her gun loves you too! And yes there are many like you! The women on the panel




February 17, 2013 the door i open when i am hired to work for the Holiday Inn as a housekeeper and where i go for lunch on 13 Ave S the door i go through has these numbers 11. There i get to see many people from other countries who speak different languages. I know God has me there for His reasons. February 26, 2013 Often iI remember the sixties when my sister Barbara  and I would come downtown to a record shop on the corner of  first Ave N and N Roberts street to buy 45 size records. One day as me and my sister were browsing


Update June 14, 2013 i don't remember if it was more then one summer that all children from surrounding areas were brought to St Joseph Church in Moorhead, MN. we had to stay there for the whole week then on weekends we were taken back to the  farms with our parents. Updated July 20, 2013 the first day the nuns took us children swimming and we were outside all of us girls were covering our bodies with our towels and huddle because we were not used to wearing bathing suits and exposing so much skin. At first the white Nuns didn't understand what was going on with us so they would laughThe Singing  Nuns and heard them sing the song Dominique. this might have been

Updated August 17, 2013 On July 31, 2013 i was running low on fuel so i went to the Food Pantry and i saw free books so i took some home with me. This was one of them We Never Called Him Henry by Harry Bennett. i still haven't had time to read all the book but on page    these numbers 1919      This morning Commend Center called me helpers were needed at Kelly Inn Motel. as i drove West on Main Ave I see these numbers that i have seen so many times before and somehow i knew i would see again or would have something to do with me and my writing. by reading this book i learned more about Mr Ford and the writer of this book.  updated August 19, on this day August 17, 2013 the supervisor at kelly Inn Motel gave me a  hint on what streets is the  Old Broadway. She made a phone call and mentioned the words NP Ave.then asked me if I had heard her having a hard time with the other person on the line about where she was calling from. (I kind of knew i was wrong  with the address but i haven't had the time to change. Today at Moorhead I was looking for Porfirio cousin from Oregon   and Emiliano Zapata showed up so i looked in to the information then i read he was born on August 8, 1879 and died on April 10, 1919. On  Sunday  August 18, 2013 around 9:55am as i took a walk in downtown then sit on a bench on Broadway and 6Ave st I was looking at the you the people going inside the Catholic church (something i can no longer






Updated December 15,2012 my son was born August 10, 1980 on that early morning there was a Tropical storm named Allen.the nurses  would come to my hospital room in Dimmit, County  kept asking me to name my son Allen after the Hurricane.i am not sure but i think my son was the only male born on that morning . I knew I would name him after my father and give him a second name. The another name would be from the first pages of a baby
During the time i worked  in Valley City, there was a couple his name is Bob her name is Sandy. Sandy was always asking me where was I from. This question she would asked because she wanted me to know that she thought of me being from Mexico but she knew i was born here. I kept telling Sandy I was born in TX. but she kept asking because i know she was told to do this to annoyedSandy Hook Elementary 1956. what is the  1956 for?  What does it mean, is it just another lawyers mind game?Updated July 31, 2013 One day on the first days of July 2013 i saw Bob Sandy's husband and i remembered he and Sandy had told both of them were twins. So i asked him again to make sure. He told me they were and that Sandy's twin brother had married a twin. more to come.  
 



next I will write about the women on this show To The Contrary with Bonnie Erbe. And explain why these women and others maybe you the reading are using the word bottom line.  These women talk, talk and repeat but don't fix a thing! To start off the black and the brown women want to look like the white woman. They bleached their hair light.Do they think light is beautiful and brown and black is not? more to come

In March 2006 when I went back to TX  I stopped watching  TV because just as today everyone  was repeating everything that had to do with me that i got sick. I bought old movies but even what was in these movies people repeated. These were some of them the movie Gotti. And these other ones much older movies of Sherlock Homes, The Three Stooges. And a few silent movies. These movies and other ones I watched most of the time because I didn't have money to keep buying more. But what I saw and heard in these movies people have been repeating. The word Bottom line is mentioned on the Gotti Movie this is a word people are using more then ever before. I  liked watching this movie because I was learning how the FBI works how they can bug inside homes. Sherlock, was remade  the Three Stooges was remade. A black and white silent movie was also remade. I heard a new Gotti movie will come out too. During this time in 2006 i was very sick that  most of the time I couldn't sleep or eat. You the people have been giving me live flashbacks that my mind got so weak. I would get up from bed at     around 2:am or 4: am  and  just drive around but this didn't help because like never before you the people from Crystal City like everyone else would park your cars backwards. leave outside houselights on at night. had empty birdcages or birdhouses hanging outside your porches. one of my next door neighbor hanged a birdcage. i would drink lots of water because of thoughts i was always thirsty and by watching these movies and not watching TV watching a  new movie or listening to the radio  it would clear my mind for a while. more to come             



             

But for me now it's a necessity to learn how to operate a computer because I need to reach out to all the people. And even though I was born here my first language was Spanish. I still struggle with writing, speaking in English and expressing myself. But I speak a lot and read a little in Spanish. In Crystal City where I grew up I had no need to really practice English. In Crystal City there were  no people to whom I could speak English with other then the teachers and especially after 1969-1970 Crystal City, Schools workout. when La Raza Unida took over most of the school books were removed. We were to work on something called contract. This meant we had  assignments on boxes placed near the windows and we were told to work accordingly to our own speed. i didn't like this way of teaching because i wanted and i felt i needed to have a teacher lecturing to me. I really needed that because i knew i was way behind  and by listening i felt  i could do much better .        unlike my older siblings i didn't have a good head not only  because of all the years of early school year withdraws and late registrations because we unlike many other Mexicans had to migrant up north. Two or three of my older siblings were more fortunate then me because during that time my parents           would send  to Mexican schools with Mexicans teachers and there they would get prepare. My oldest brother used to tell me that when he      regular school  at the Grammar. The white teachers couldn't understand why or how he was so advanced in  math, reading and writing. i know he and my oldest sister could had gotten educated but then in a way i know it wasn't  meant to be.  more to come            

  
Repetitions

The FBI and other law enforcement knows what I am up to so constantly my son is given a hard time in MN prisons to discourage me from writing. The law sent people around me to give me hints  that I am being watched. People harass me wherever  I go even at work places this is why it’s so hard for me to stay in one job or attend a church.

I can't hear a  new song, see a new move, see a  new TV commercial see a talk show or talk with people because everyone is repeating what has to do with me. updated March 21, 2013 the THIS channel now is the ME channel and do all has to do with how and what i write.  

And if I do read between the lines just as this coward,  liar and more attorney and professor from ArlingtonNo Insurance Ticket before I appeared  before a judge who also played with my mind. I still don't know his name but I will find out and write it down. I hired this lawyer to help me out instead he blows my mind even more by letting me know that his not sent to listen to what happened the night I was stopped but to let me know that I  was going to plead guilty and not innocent like my son had done in Grand Forks, ND. Here are some of the questions and things Eric says to me to frighten me and let me know my son and  I were set up and how he let me know there was no lawyer that would help me or my son . He told me if I plead innocent we were going to court and all the jury the people would be staring at me. Eric told me all these bullshit because he knew how scared and embarrassed I had been in court when my son had taken his case to trial. (And I was very much embarrassed that I went to a bathroom  twice to kill time ).  And I was against my son going to court because at that time I trusted what Monty was telling me. But I didn't know what was going on.      
November 1, 2012 today I will write differently. Attorney Eric Lee Gudmundson, remember the morning of  February 8, 2006? I do! I remember i was wearing a pretty  green  pullover sweater from the Mission's downstairs donations and i wore my own blue jeans.  I remember that day being so scared because by then I knew my son and I had been set up. And all people around me even the priests were acting weird. Fr Bob on the way to Crookston, MN asked me if I had had sex with any of the lawyers. And I knew I had no money no friends no church leader to talk with and at the same time I had to deal with the world repeating what I was doing. Gudmundson! You walked in the court house looking around as if looking  you were looking for me but you were acting like a fool because you knew where I was waitingThe Making of a Militant  on February 8, 2006 after court in Crookston, MN from a borrowed phone I called Fr Bob asked him to please pick me up then I  called you Monty

When Fr. Bob arrived and i got in his car he started a conversation on the phone with a woman. The woman on the phone was practically screaming saying something about  big dogs that  had gone outside someones fence and were lose. By then my mind was    sick of all the coincidence going around me, but what could i do! Up to now nothing is real all people do is repeat what as to do with me. I had to get use to it ignore it or lose my mind. One day this was after the set up  in East Grand Forks as I would then walk everywhere because officer Olson had confiscated the only transportation I had, my son's car. That day as I walked to downtown like all other days. people coming outside to repeat what i had seen or heard.  In a white car  two adultsIdaho that night i had given a ride to  Davila and Balboa. my family and DavilaCalifornia and you made gestures with your hand as if you were holding a paper airplane and said "I will fly to California. I had told Troy your informant that  I had never been to California and once all this was over i was going to fly to California. I  had told Dianita I was going back to TX and you and other people with words and gestures gave me hints I was to stay in ND. Then I told you I was going home to TX and you told me I was to stay in ND. Then I Started crying  i told you i was going home just to say goodby to my oldest brother Luis who i was taking care of. And I told you I would come back to ND. Since that night I was framed  I knew I had no control of my life and i just didn't know what to do. Then you got a call from a woman and you put one finger on your mouth as you looked at me and went shush making it seem as if it was your wife on the phone and what was taking place between you and me was unappropriated. That day when I was known by you what was to be expected of me as I was walking out your office you said in a loud voice OK! I went waking to Dianita's apartment with my mind all messed up. Now i will go back to why you said the word OK. Before January 25, 2006 Henry and Dianita  were going to face a judge to see if (not sure but i think was going to accept the Motion). I had gone to talk with you at the courthouse asked you news about my son's case. As I was walking down the stairs you Monty told me about Dianita and Henry going to court . I turned around and told you in a calm way OK. By then you knew and Henry knew through Troy I wanted nothing to do with Henry.     After this i stopped going to your office and to Henry's office but through people you the lawyers kept playing with my mind. Updated  March 19, 2013 a few days before Christmas 2005 I went to Crookston, MN to pass Christmas with Delicia Cazares and her family and to asked her for a recommendation letter on behalf of my son. At that time I did notice strange things but I didn't really get it until after January 2006. Delicia  who is my children's second cousin wrote a letter then later on I called my daughter and told her about it. My daughter asked me to read the letter on the phone and I read it to her. Monty, one day when I went to your office you gave me a hint that you had heard that conversation. You Monty got a law book and begin reading but you were pretending you didn't know how to read. (Monty! I still don't know how to read or to spell but I am still going against you and the rest of this wicked world!)        


 January 29, 2013 Monty, Troy had been using the word sucker and said that his mother didn't like to use it because of the way it sounded. he brought up other conversations about this word. Monty, then one day as you opened your office door you had a lollipop (sucker) in your mouth and as you quickly opened the door you quickly took it out from your mouth. You did this to give me hints a about the         more to come        things that had to do with this word   one time i don't remember well if it was before or after i was set up in East Grand Forks. but   Then I wrote a letter to you and to Henry  at another time you Monty gave me hints you were more to come                                  
 updated December 28, 2012 Before January 25, 2012 (I also wrote about back in 2008.) You Monty told me it would be helpful to have a letter from a person my son knew stating that at the time of their arrest he was not staying with Danita     



January 25, 2006. That night if i am right was a Thursday and I was hand writing a letter on my son's behalf to Judge Lawrence E. Jahnke who at the time I thought would be the only one to trust because by then I knew I couldn't  trust my son's lawyer Monty J. Stensland and Henry H. Howe because Troy Lawrence who now lives here in Fargo had told me the lawyers were meeting at the       but not only discussing my son's case but  also about me. 

On the   of  January 25, 2006 I  had been with these two men both i knew since childhood 

Updated Monday
 on Saturday i bought cherries at Sun Mart on Sunday we went to see the movie MAMA.  did you notice what the girls ate to survive? The children i used to drive from school to their home, the girls wore eye glasses.and their hair looked the same as of the little girl with glasses on.     


 Lawyers, FBI and judges if you updated 

March 3, 2013  one day in 2011 on the rode on our way  from Fargo to  Finley there is an exit to Mayville on interstate 29 and the exit is 111. Today March 3, 2013 i wanted to know what was the day i was born and as i searched to September 11, 1956 i read it was a Tuesday and there are 111 days remaining and it's the 255 day of that year. back then when i saw at this sign  i knew i needed to remember this exit

Update December 5, 2012 on Monday 3, 2012 like most of the nights a black man who pretends to be crazy and talks with himself was waiting for me to leave the library then he walks behind me . This man you the people have seen here in Fargo and Moorhead. He wears black clothing


Update January 7, 2013 Attention people! These are some of the books i checked out from Fargo library back in 2011. Armageddon by Larry Massa, Secrets of Revelation by Jacques B. Doukhan and Revelation Unveiled by Tim Lahaye. what i understand the USA is the daughter of Babylon! Read Armageddon on page more to come 


Update April 7, 2013 today i had so much to write so i walked to MN but started listening to these song         instead of writing. Can"t help  it music is in my blood. last night through Commend Center  i worked at the Fargo Dome and this i had read before there and on Broadway but not this way the word Sanford - Ford. this morning by watching  Public TV i learned that in 1938 Germans destroyed buildings this night is called the Crystal Night. more to come        





Update May 16, 2013 today i came to write but i had to listened first to music these are the songs i heard. Red Rubber Ball didn't know it went up to 2 in 1966. Now I know it was written by Paul Simon and Bruse. Never heard the song Words now I  know The Cyrkle also sang it.   listened to Coming to America  Along Comes Mary   more to come  


December 26, 2012 i will tell you the people of Fargo why you were saying on radio stations back in March 2010 that Simon and Garfunkel were coming to Fargo, ND. In TX I had bought the Simon and Garfunkel CD The Concert In Central  Park back in the nineties. Since a child I have always liked to listen to their songs. I used to listened to it back in the sixties when riding with my family in the mornings to hoe sugar beets on the long way to the north fields in Casselton. The Lawyers, FBI had gone through all my past and my belongings if not direct indirect. In 2005 2006 before the law set me up. Several times I went to El Roco night club. I notice that as soon as I walked in the disc jockey would start playing this song Cecilia. At the time I thought anything of it  but my mother's name was Cecilia. update January 3, 2012 On March 2010 while i was staying at the YWCA Radio Stations were announcing Simon and Garfunkel's were come to the Fargo dome. As much as you the people have been playing with my mind I really wanted to go to one of their concerts. So I called one of woman i knew named Bonita to listen to the Radio Station who were giving out tickets.  By then I had moved to 303 downtown Fargo. Update December 31, 2012, during 2005 and 2006 the time I was in Grand Forks, I told Troy one of the ways I had learned English  was by listening to music. Years before September 2001 I had told an educator from Crystal City that when I died I wanted this song be played at my funeral The Sound Of Silence. The man I told this to passed away, I believe he had cancer. this man has brothersSimon And Garfunkel's Greatest Hits. January 4, 2013 On this CD  are songs I like but didn't have one of them was I Am A Rock. now by then we knew Simon and Garfunkel's were not coming to Town. so someone told these two women to visit me gave me the CD and gave me a hint i  was still going to see one of them. ( the native women said something like this " you will get to see one of them or get to see them" but this was a hint i was to see one of them in person. One day in the fall or winter of 2010 as i was walking on Main Ave a man carrying a guitar coming towards me. this man looked at me and  smiled he did resemble Simon. i didn't looked back to see where he was going to I know this man wasn't  Simon he was sent to just blow my mind but he did looked like him in his younger days . You  Government,  The People have been playing with my mind but still you don't know it all. this song I Am A Rock if you listen to it, it fits the way i live now.  As a child i just like to listening to it but  I wasn't alone I had my parents and older siblings. And now  I am grown up with my own family but in a way I am alone. Since March  2010 I live in an efficiency room  and from my  two windows I can see below three streets on winter covered with snow and  i see you the people on the sidewalks and parking lots . And i have seen deep dark Decembers just as this song says. 



Update April 22, 2013 about two months my daughter had told me twice that a classmate of her's had told her he thought i looked Russian


Update May 22, 2013 i have so much to write but for now i must write this information. long ago i had seen the on tape the movie Devil's Advocate and in the letters i wrote i used it as in example how you the people are acting around me as if the Devil is in you  your bodies and mindsPainted Black  and i know this song has been played on purposed many times because it was to remind me of what i said about the Ford case. and i remember right now it was played on the radio one day in San Marcus when my mind was all massed up and drove in a parking lot at a HEB store the wrong way. and a woman told me i was going the wrong way. it wasn't a big deal but this she did to let me know i was being watched all the time. Back to today may 22, 2013 i came to Moorhead to write and i looked up the lyrics to the song Painted Black because it's played at the end of the movie and read what it says. I see a red door and i want it painted black.           

Before this day May 22, 2013 i really didn't know what all the words were in this song.
this past Friday i bought a pair of sunglasses at the Mall. my daughter asked me, "where did you get those sunglasses from" i told her at the mall then asked her why. she told me because they were D G and she knew would have not found them at a thrifty shop. I think it was Sunday we went shopping when i saw this little boy with his mother with a pair of sunglasses hanged on his front T shirt the way i hung mine when  I take them off  inside a store. i thought to myself even children are told to repeat what i do and i thought this way because i know some children are told to repeat. Then  i hear that a Twister hit Oklahoma then i read on newspaper today that destroying an elementary school with direct blow as children and teachers huddled against winds up to 200 mph. i read it was the second one to hit the first was in 1999. today i read that on may 22, 2011 a tornado hit was the deadliest in the usa since modern tornado  records.and today the word Crazy is one of  the most popular words ever used even with children. more to come    

back to the document  February 12, 2013 On  page 3 it says that the T F O Nickel asks Bustamante how she knows that marijuana is in the package. Bustamante says that her boyfriend (Luis Munoz) was expecting a package on that day. Let me tell you the reader what else i told Henry H. Howe in 2004 not only  had I  told Howe about Rey Perez being unfair with my son and  had sent him to boot camp and had later lose a granddaughter.  I  also told him that if Dianita the mother of my grandson's didn't shape up i was going to try to take the boys  away from her. I told Howe i had asked Dianita why were so many men going inside her apartment. she told me she had been selling Marijuana. Back in August 2004 first time in Grand Forks i dropped everything  i was doing in Crystal City, TX and hurried myself to Grand Forks because my son was put in jail and Dianita's grandmother had phoned me that my son had beat up her grand daughter  but his was a lie my son had not put a hand on her this is what happened.  One night Dianita

You will read letters my son sent to me supporting what I say. You will read documents explaining how the law framed my son twice in ND and now in MN. You’ll  see pictures how my son was mistreated in Jamestown prison. These pictures were shown to me to discourage me from fighting back. You will see the ticket the law gave to me when I too was set up in East Grand Forks in 2006 and how the law played with my mind.

You will read letters from lawyers who started this conspiracy who are eager to drive me insane so my word is not valid against them.

You will read letters from Bishops here in Fargo how they are covering up for two priests I need to question about this conspiracy but were relocated. You will learn how priests, ministers repeat what has to do with me. You will read how National News, San Antonio Express News. And the Fargo’s Forum TV reporters and many other kinds of Media also support the government and are participants in this wicked mind game. Where even the ones who want to be known as Christians play along! 

July 21, 2012 I heard this morning on the radio, "Casselton, ND will be having a twist dance contest." Read my letters see what I wrote about  dancing the Twist how this has to do with my past years in ND. See where you the people are getting your ideas to play wicked mind games. May 25, 2013        more to come February 2013 

This is so wicked that inside churches like First Presbyterian made a commercial where the priest and entire congregation are dancing around going thumbs up saying "…. Downtown baby!" What used to be God's Temple is now being use to destroy my mind! July 2012 days after I added this information a man walked inside this church stared at me as he closed the two front doors across the street as I hold my signs outside the Fargo's Federal building.
Update December 14, 2012 who is this woman in this wicked commercial who was told to stand in front of the church congregation and posed so brave as front leader? Listen I have been writing all along that there is a conspiracy going on masterminded conducted by lawyers like Monty J. Stensland, Henry H. Howe and many others from Grand Forks, ND! Lawyers like Rey Perez, Roberto Alonzo, Jesus Gamez and many others  from Crystal City, TX! By now this is not just these lawyers by now it is a worldwide conspiracy! Every lawyer is behind this madness! Does president Obama knows? Yes Obama knows! Does Mitt Romney knows? Yes Mitt knows! Have they played the mind game? Yes, they have played the game! Now this woman or anyone else can come to me tell me why such words and why do this kind of church advertisement? People, this is why I say this relates to me. In 2005 when Monty took over my son's case there were several times that he called me concerning where my grandson's were with because both parents at the time were in jail. And I had just arrived in ND and was worried about their whereabouts. On all these first phone conversations I had with Monty I would addressed my grandsons in this manner."My Babies." They were not babies they were toddlers. But to me they were babies. I could hear or not hear the silence of Monty on the other side of the phone as if he sounded so fed up with my words and my accent. Where does the word downtown  comes from? On letters I been writing I write that I live in downtown, Fargo.  
Would this be just another coincidence? If you the people were told to use such words  more lightly these are not coincidence. Someone told you to repeat and you did it willingly.  
This brave woman can come to me at anytime and anywhere because just as other women who I know have played with my mind I will ask tough questions. If you the people don't help me solve this problem then you are my problem! And please First Presbyterian church if you have me in your church results please put down my whole blogger this way other people and read the rest. Thank you. more to come 

Updated  August  5, 2013 On this day July 27, 2013 as me my daughter and one of my grandson's were  on the car going  north on Broadway Street. I noticed on the left side  on 22 Ave  St North was a garage sale. I stopped and my grandson and i got out of the car to see what goodies we could find. My grandson saw a picture of Christ asked me to buy it. I saw two V S H and bought them too. I gave one to my grandson and kept I kept this one title National Geographic Video The Incredible Human Machine. Days after i saw the film noticed these numbers 5 and seventies are mentioned. Last night August 4, 2013  i went to buy the newspaper and felt like taking a walk. So i walked and then sat on a bench on the corner of Broadway and 1st Ave north. as i was enjoying the nice cool brisk air. I looked at the door of Old Broadway Bar  i noticed the numbers 22. i sat there with my thoughts on how many times this happens to me here in Fargo. i after a while i waked home to 303 and turned on the TV and start watching the story of the diary of Hannah Senech. And her age at that certain time of her life is mentioned age 22. i also learned something else that the star the Jews were told to used during Hitler days was Yellow. before knowing this back in 2005 i had told Troy Yellow was my least  favorite  color.  this past week my daughter and i were talking about the song Yellow and i was thinking this song too was written on purpose to remind me of what i had told Troy. My daughter had something else in her mind  that i didn't know. she   said it reminded her when God tells Abraham this "Look at the stars how they shine for you" more to come This morning August 5, 2013 as i parked the car in front of spicy Pie on Broadway  i see these numbers 322 and on the left i see these numbers i had seen before  since 1911. Updated August 6, 2013  Yesterday as i clicked out without paying attention to the computer time I had 22 minutes left to use.   more to come on this day       
   



Read more as to why people are told to say and do such things. Most of you the people are playing wicked games and it’s so frighten more horrible then the movie “Rose Mary’s Baby” (where people were demons) or any horror book Steven king has ever written, because this is for real and you the people think nothing’s wrong for it!

Read books of the Holocaust notice that many didn’t care what Hitler and Himmler ordered doctors and others to do these were wicked things done to innocent people. While the government, doctor’s even churches leaders from here and other countries were saying it was okay or looking the other way. 
 

My son and I mean nothing to the world this is why you the people are doing wicked things to us. The  law has given me hints not only  my medical records have been exposed to the public but also gave me hints my brother's medical record were exposed while he was alive and in San Antonio, TX hospitals. The FBI reads my letters, hear my phone calls, see me nude.And sees more personal things I do inside my home then tells you the people to repeat it!            

You will read letters I wrote to church leaders using these words, “and you approve it” or “you approved it.” These and many other words, lines, ideals the politicians stole from me.  Stole my way of writing to used in their political commercials!  The Forgo Forum  like everyone else gets ideas from my letters. This is one of them I used these words "He says," I wrote about  Jose Angel Gutierrez  what he wrote but I write "He says' now the Forum writes "She says." I wrote on my letters. " This is why I will do it my way." Now politicians and others say. "The North Dakota Way." 

Politicians like John Hoeven, Heidi Heitkamp, Rick Berg, and all other politicians know about this mind game but still are willing to play. And if president Obama used the words “approved it”

And if any politician or other persons says I am lying let him or her come before me; explain to me before the world why so many coincidences are going on, why they politicians, celebrities and ordinary people repeat what I do. more to come 

July 30, 2012, Yes! President Barack Obama you know about this conspiracy and you approved it ! Thanks for letting me know by showing me on one of your TV political commercials that you approved it. I won't forget and in return I won't let you and other demons forget how you are destroying our lives! 


I am going to plant a seed in your minds ask you question how would you feel if what me and my son are going through would happen to any of you or your love ones! This will be just questions but they will stay in your minds forever!    

People,I didn’t start writing these letters because I wanted to learn how to write well and become a great writer, I started writing out of necessity to prove how the law framed my son and has kept him in prisons for crimes he didn’t commit. To prove how the law framed me and has me under 24/7 surveillance. To prove how the law tells you the people to repeat what I wear, see, read, write, hear and  sometimes even what I smell.

You the people have made this possible by repeating what I do on Movies, Songs, Books, TV shows, National News, Daily news and Conversations. Church Congregations but none of you see this wrong! Some of you might not know what is going on but most of you do know and will deny it and play along you go to church thinking God approves of  what you are doing!

John Hoeven name is on my signs because he was the ND Governor back in 2005 and because he knows about this conspiracy he approved  it! I know there was no way this madness would have started and gone this far without his approved! just think back when he was running for Senator and when he made his commercials laughing like a demon, saying, "and I approved it!      who is called when 

I can prove that because of lawyers, judges, the FBI, I have no privacy. Politicians, writers and others invade my privacy. The FBI reads my letters steal my ideals steal my lines, my way of talking my way of writing read my medical records whatever I do, you the public knows and repeats. 

But God is revealing to me this is His plan that I was given a reason to come before the government on His behalf.But through connections with FBI,  lawyers and others you the people are told to repeat anything that has to do with me. 
But not all I have noticed dreams of events I had way before knowing I was coming back to ND are occurring! The streets construction that took place in 2010 in Moorhead. The streets construction

I dreamed I walked streets with large holes, pits the large pipes the deep open broken ground! The first thing I grab when I am inside a library is a dictionary. 
And as I looked for the word pit I noticed this. "If two opposing things or people are pitted against one another,they are in conflict. These were two strong men who pitted their skills against each other." In 2010 when I saw Moorhead streets on construction I thought I had seen it all because there were the streets I walked in my dreams. But there
was more for me to see now I see the rest of my dream here in the streets of Fargo.    Now I know that what is written on Mathew 10:16-22 does refer to me!  Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents,and harmless as doves.but beware of men: for they will deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their Synagogues;and ye shall be brought before governors and kings for my sake,for a testimony against them and the Gentiles. but when they deliver you up,take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak. for it is not ye that speak but the Spirit of your father which speaketh in you. and the brother shall deliver up the brother to death,and the father the child:and the children shall rise against their parents and cause them to be put to death.and ye shall be hated of all men for my sake:but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. Now read Lake Mark 13: 1-13       

But nevertheless this madness did start with lawyers Monty J.Stensland and Henry H. Howe from Grand Forks, ND. And Mexican American lawyers from Crystal City, TX like Rey Perez Jr. Rey Perez Sr. Jose Angel Gutierrez, Roberto Alonzo, and many others but now it’s a worldwide conspiracy. Law enforcements, government agents, government employees, churches leaders know about this mind game too but none are willing to talk and will say they don’t know what I am talking about! This is why I will make them talk!

And if  any persons I mentioned don’t like the tough

These are some of the things you the people are told to repeat. Chew gum with mouth wide open. Call me Maria when you know my name is Marta or Martha .Whistle, extend your hand out from car windows. whisper on someones ear. Wear red and men are told to wear pink shirts. Make U- turns on streets. Give thumbs up and used the word baby. Use the word This, Have a good day, lick their lips use the words, Once Upon A Time. wrap sweaters around waist. October 31, 2012 i used to say this this words to the people of Fargo when i first started pic   "i will declare my son's innocence" today i heard  Joel Ols has made a book starting with the words i will declare this man  like many others has been mocking me and i can prove this to his face! more to write     

Turn car lights on in daylight. Park

But I have notice and I know

I know this has to do with  some of the signs Christ told His disciples were going to happened before things would get worst. I know this things are happening and these things can be proven. Then this means there is no other God only the God of Jacob Isaac and Abraham and that  means Christ was the son of God and that He was and is the true Messiah who came and died and was risen from the dead  for the forgiveness of our sins! And that his keeping His promise and His words are being fulfilled! 

But up to now I have nobody to talk with  about this amazing

You will read how my personal stories and my way of living what I do inside my home is repeated by many church leaders like pastor Tony Scheving. And many well known book writers are repeating. And even unknown writers like Jose Angel Gutierrez who wrote two books about him me and another woman from Crystal City TX repeats things I told the lawyers informant  Troy Lawrence in 2005 2006 when I was staying at the Mission in Grand Forks, ND. Gutierrez  repeated many things also all chapters are about stories I told Troy and other people.  

This started in 2004 or maybe way before but I don’t know when or how it’s going to end. I pray to God it will end soon. Sometimes I am afraid to write something I am not sure of because I’ve been wrong before but I know this wickedness is going on!

By reading my letters you will learn more about me understand how this game is being updated January 28,2013 Military men and education in my family. My father told me once in a conversation that when he was called or tried to join the military he was not accepted because he didn't understand English well enough. this was because he had only gone to the third grade but to a Spanish school in crystal city. So my father knew how to write and read in Spanish. He was also very bright in math too and kept up with currant events. and even though he didn't  join the army he worked hauling in food for the Japanese people who were kept in the Crystal City Concentration Camp.  He once told me that the government had gotten smarter after the second war. and this is why he said this when  my oldest brother who was born in 1942 was in junior high  school if any Mexican boy missed school the sheriff would go to the boy's home and pick him up take him to school. this was not because the law cared so much about the Mexican boy getting a good education. but because the law the government wanted for him to understand the English Language, get them ready in case of a war. March 2, 2013  more to come 



Updated September 22, 2013 People i have so much to write but for now i can only write this information. yesterday at windy on 13 Ave a man i didn't know gave me a Bison ticket. my daughter told me to go watch the game  and take pictures so i did. I didn't know  the marching band used a gold star i couldn't believed it because when i have so many thoughts in my mind i draw stars and boxes. my daughter writes her name i used to do that but i stopped long time ago and I started drawing Stars and boxes. Now Texas is known for the long Star. more to come. last time i dreamed this is good because it means i got a good night sleep. I was very tried and i needed rest. maybe this dream means nothing  but maybe it does. i dreamed i was in a plane with other people. the plane had windows on the ceiling and as i was looking up i saw a big round thing something like a jelly fish. this could have been because my daughter and i had been at the mall and i had seen from far away the glass Aquarium. i don't know what this means but i saw this big jelly fish or that looked like a jelly fish up in the sky and in the dream. i kept looking up. the sky and this thing that looked like a jelly fish looked blue more to come                  

 Updated January 8, 2013 all these OKs and more came from the mouth of a female attorney who spoke at the YWCA on March 2010 during the time i was homeless. Her name is Kelsee Macintosh  Legal Services PO Box 1327 Fargo, ND. phone:701-232-4495 Ext 310. This demonized woman and others tried hard to blow my mind. I complained to the ND  Bar about her and others but nothing was done. Now i am going against her and  all the others! But I am doing it my way! On the mouth of March 2010 she and others from legal Services were at the women's Y as she started talking she kept repeating the word OK on every sentence she said. And kept shaking  her head just as i had done in court when my son was on trial. You, Macintosh were repeating this word so many times that i started writing down all the OKs that were coming out from your mouth! i don't know at what point i started recording them on this green notebook but i got all of these ones. Are you sick? or were you repeating what this pervert  Monty J. Stensland had screamed to me giving me a big hint i was right about me and my son being set up. And about me being watched all the time. ( Now Kelsee I will come back and get personal with you and other brave women)! The song   firework  by Katy Perry is about sex about having an orgasm. Orgasm= the peak of sexual excitement,characterized by ejaculation of semen by the male.  In March 2006 when i went back to TX. These were some of the words and sounds brother Angel was told to repeat to play with my mind. The word  Rocky Balboa and he would walked by me making  a sound like this ah ah, ah ! Not as loud as Perry but he did this again and again. One time i asked him why such sound he said his leg was hurting. but i knew he was just repeating what he was told to repeat. Updated January 18, 2013 In 2005 I wanted freedom! My daughter had just gotten married my son was in Grand Forks, ND living and having baby boys with his now ex girlfriend.  I wanted to start  taking more  care of myself. Go out, meet a nice man who would take care of me, get married and why not maybe even have another baby, start again! And what I used to see as wrong was not concerning me that much. On September 2005 I took a ride to ND with a man I knew since childhood because back in the sixties for several years his uncle would take him and his sisters to help us with the sugar beet fields here in ND. i knew his first wife De La Cruz. But now he was married to his second wife Moncada.  i had always liked this man only as a friend and anything else. My mean concerned was to get to ND talk with the appointed lawyer and get my son out of jail.now that i look back i know all was a plan that lawyers from ND and TX had in mind. on our way to ND i told Juan Jose that if it was a set up i was going to take it to the Media. then he told me the name of the newspaper in Grand Forks. When i arrived Dianita was just barely released from jail and not in a good mood so after about two weeks she told me i hadn't stay with her any longer. i knew i had to stay because i wanted to know what was going to happened to my son and talk with his lawyer so i moved in to the Mission. the first day a man named Troy introduced himself to me. This man was the lawyers informant but at first i didn't know until i started noticing how he was behaving. more to come         
     

played and hopefully help me stop this ordeal that would drive any person in insane 


Updated March 16, 2013 of the few CD's I brought here from TX is a CD of Bob Seger  who will be performing  tonight at the Fargo Dome. These are some of the songs i sometimes listened to before walking  down stairs to the Federal building and do my picketing with my signs that read John Hoeven Conspirator U Approved It, And I Can Prove It! GFNTF You Set Up My Son With A Box Of Drugs!FBI & Attorneys U Read My Mail, See Me Nude, Read my Medical Records  FBI & Attorneys U R  Cowards, Perverts & Mind Rapists    more to come          Against The Wind, Main Street, Roll Me Away, Like A Rock           Updated march 18, 2013  On the night of  March 16, 2013  i worked doing housekeeping and a woman named Marlin called me Sharon she knows my name is not Sharon but i know she was told to do this because i knew a woman named Sharon here in ND. And day of the times i worked at the Holiday Express another woman called me Susan will i also used to know a Susan in Colorado. this is one of the many other ways you the people play with my mind.  more to come  





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Updated June 1, 2013 This Document dated May 14, 2009 i had used or said these words c/o was a repeated back to me  more to come    

Updated July 10, 2013  Really Monty J. Stensland, Laughable!? Laughable just as in 2006  when i called you  hoping you would stop playing mind games and stop sending people to harasses me i said these words  to you and you started laughing out loud in the phone. "You Are The Winner" what were you thinking? you Monty were thinking about your D! Your penis this is why you started laughing! months ago or a year ago this very big pregnant woman named Jessica Simpson said in a talk show she had eaten a wiener and  was having a boy. This big woman was told to say such thing and she did and people started laughing. this is what she wanted to say something that would bring attention to her. Monty that afternoon  i was disparate to find some kind of relief  i wanted you and others to stop sending people to mess with my mind i didn't know what else to do! updated July 11, 2013 this morning around 9:28 am i walked to my car that was parked on a Avenue and got in to drive it to a street on Broadway because very 90 minutes  it needs to be moved. i you the lawyers want to shut me up I know you the wicked lawyers sent someone to break my driver's side door mirror. this is not the first time you the law vandalize my property just as it was done in TX. And i know it won't be the lest

more to come  i will continue with this letter and explain to you Monty why and how i can sue you! more to come about this letter! now what a coincidence there is  a lawyer who wants to be New York

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Updated June 3, 2013 Attention   there were and has been many ways you the judges and lawyers have twisted everything around for your convenience to indict my son and start a physiological  mind game on both of us. so far you have kept my son in prisons for crimes he didn't commit. And so far have had the support of other lawyers, judges and even church leaders on your side.now i know that all my children are suffering because of what i write in  jobs in prisons and in their schools.  i know my family  has it hard  because of what i write and do. But back in 2008 in a letter addressed to Muriel way before i knew how to use a computer and way before i knew i was going to hold the hard core evidence i now have in my hands.     I warned you that if no one would come forward i was going to program all information on the internet for the whole world to see and i still have a copy of that letter that now I will use!. now as you know i don't know much or not a thing about law. but i know there is something very wrong here! Motion to SuppressSince Day One." But  lets play this way for now! more to come             

updated June 1, 2013 Monty J. Stensland since the beginning you and Henry H. Howe and many others have tried very hard to drive me and my son crazy but i don't forget a thing.  Remember back in 2005    when you lawyers had my son in jail. you  told him or sent a grand to get my son into admitting he had a mental problem and for him to take some kind of drugs and that he would be cleared from all the chargers he was accused of. you Monty and others are still playing with my son's mind. his now in Moose lake and was told to to a physical check up which he did then he was told he needed to be more to come and can't wait    you Monty      taking  sent him a       right now my son is in moose lake and   i don't have a mental

Updated July 25, 2013 Henry H. Howe on this letter you wrote for me and gave to your supporters Kalash and Pettit Attorney at Law to pass on to me by mail.  I will prove how you lied and played with my mind by repeating words that had to do with me. In 2005 i went to north  Dakota with a man last named Fuentes. this man i knew since childhood because his uncle Antonio Ramirez and wife would bring him and his oldest sister to work here in Mapleton, ND  through the years i knew this man i never did like him for anything else other then a  friend. 2005 I somehow got disparate on how things in my life were going. On one of the dates i had with this man i asked him for a more personal date.At that time Troy was around me wherever  I went. And by then he had admitted to me not my son but I was the mean topic in conversations you Henry,  Monty and the guard

But I know that if I don’t put some of you in my situation you will never care enough to read my letters and help me stop this madness!

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Today  November 29, 2012 as I was picketing outside the Fargo's  Federal Building a young man came to me started  a conversation then told me to look into the Native Mayan  history. I told him I would and what  i have learned on this book title The 2012 Story by John Major Jenkins is somewhere on top or bottom where you can read  need to keep reading but here is this information.  I hope i haven't already wrote it somewhere else. Updated April 12, 2013 on page 365 last paragraph this millennial or b'aktunian movement responds to the close of a great prophetic cycle of 400 years in the Maya calender. for the Maya

This is why I will use lawyers, Judges, government employees and ordinary people as examples

Keep reading to understand how the law manipulated, twisted everything around to fix the system for their convenience. I will begin with a series of letters I wrote and rewrote on my drives.Thank you for reading and keep logging in everything  I post will be explain.

Update November 26, 2012 these past weeks i been watching a documentary on Natives that helped built the towers in New York. i wanted to know if they had also helped built the twin towers and the answer is yes. Some of the Iron Workers were Mohawks. i wanted to know this because i too have Native blood. and they live in Central New York state.     
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July 25, 2012 my mind and heart are aching because I had planed to put all my letters on display for you the people to read. But  yesterday at the Moorhead, MN Library I was only able to scanned one more letter because all the others I had saved on my drive were lost. These letters  gave details how since 2004 most of you are supporting lawyers, judges and other government employees to keep my son in prison and drive me in  insane. And yesterday some of you started giving me hints you knew about it. But I can only believe that for some good reason God is allowing

In 2005 I arrived in Grand Forks, ND I knew something was not right but I didn't  know my son had been framed. On January 2006 my son was found guilty by an organize jury that was set up by the law. This was a copy cat from the trial in Crystal City, TX lawyers going against the Ford motor company when lawyers like Rey Perez were suing the Ford company no one could say a word against them because they would bring your world down. An empire can not go against each other they have to stick together or they will fall. This is why all lawyers are working together all lawyers are telling you the people to help them out by repeating anything that has to do with me!

And the only way this psychological warfare could be affected was if I knew about it. If I knew my son had been set up to be kept in prisons for crimes he didn't commit and for me to know there was a conspiracy going on to drive me crazy. The law wanted me to know that this madness was orchestrated by lawyers, judges, FBI and government employees. So in January 25, 2006  around 9:30pm in Grand Forks,MN the law sent out officer Olson badge #566 to stop me tell me my back lights were not working but they were because  my son had asked me while he was in jail to get his Explorer checked out  but nothing was wrong with it. Officer Olson knew I had no car insurance  he was already informed by the lawyers but he needed to give me a reason why I had been stopped. Officer

In 2006 when I went back to Crystal City I applied for another copy of my license. Now I want to face this officer in person! On February 8, 2006 I went to court in Crookston, MN. My appointed lawyer was Eric Lee. Gudmundson which I had been spelling wrong. Weeks before court day in MN Fr. Bob took me to buy insurance at 25003 2nd Avenue South P.O. Box 14899 Grand Forks, ND Phone 701- 795-1459 with Jodi Adair.  I asked Jodi if she would write down Eric Gudmundson, name she did but wrote it this way Goodmerson. This is why I have been spelling his name wrong. I don't know if she did it on purpose or if she just didn't know how to spell. But I knew she was told to play with my mind and I knew I was going to need her name and Eric's name because once I got home I  was  going to start something and I was going to need as many names I could get from people to get back at the lawyers who I knew had started this madness! more to come

It hasn't been easy for me and I know it hasn't been easy for my son being in prison for this long and many of you who wanna be known as Christians know whats going on!     Jodi Adair like others did many things to blow my mind but this is the one I remember the most. She asked me for my Social Security  number I  had never been asked for that when buying car insurance. But this she was told to ask me because when i was driving my son's white Explorer the night I was set up and stopped and set up in East Grand Forks I left my purse behind  in the Explorer. I know the lawyers gave it to     people from Mexico to get work here in the USA. Then in 2007 I had to prove to the  government what they already knew that my number had been used. Not only that I had to call all places it had been used and pay money to the government to clear my name! Here are the documents and this is why more to come     




Update  this words up date I used on my letters because I needed to mention  new information and these words were used on the national news on that same day I used them. I had opened this blogger back in 2009 but still was writing letters on my drives and now 2012 the blogger uses update too I don't know if blogger was using it before me.

Update! Several months ago I bought this book Divided We Stand by Eric Darton and I haven't read it only gone through the pages. Yesterday August 1, 2012 my daughter and we were driving from Fargo's Wal

 Updated September 21, 2012 before 911 I didn't know there was a  Federal Trade world Center and that it was in New York. The colors I try to wear whenever  I am picketing out side the Federal Building are Red white and black. Later on  I will tell you why I wear these three colors.

 November 26, 2012 i wanted to know what day was September 11, 2001 it was  on a Tuesday Morning this was the second day of the week. For weeks i had been looking parts of a documentary on who were the Natives that helped built the New York towers and i learned that they were Mohawks from New York state. I wanted to know this because I too am a Native.  Iron workers they too helped built the twin  towers.  

August 7, 2012 today I am so glad my son called me while I am here at the Moorhead library and today my North Dakota nurse Aide  certificate expires and as I write this information people come in the library saying their library card has expired. I never got to use it because I was afraid I might have been falsely accused  of doing something wrong. last night I went through book Divided we Stand because I remembered other things I had read on this book that relate to me. and here are some. in 2010 I started  picking ting outside the United State Court House but one day as i was looking for the social Security office I stumble by the FBI office which is in the same building. then i called and asked for the name of the leader or head man to write on my signs and a woman answered he phone. I asked her what was the name of the lead FBI then she asked me, "who are you?" look at page 184, one morning in march 1992 you stared up at the world trade center towers

Today is a beautiful Saturday morning August 11, 2012  time 9:30 am. All this month I've  been looking for a job. Wondering  why God hasn't led me to one that I won't be harassed and  be close to my apartment.  I been worried about how I am going to put minutes on my phone and pay my rent. 

Asking

"July 23, 1915 was designated "Ford Day" by the City of Fargo.To celebrate the completion of the building." "The 55 -piece "Big Ford Band"with H.C. Phillips visited Fargo that day and gave a concert in Island Park." Then I walked inside Fargo's library and the first book my eyes caught  was  Chicago  by ThomasMine Eyes Have Seen  by  Richard Goldstein On page 257 it reads They were one too many - Anna betrayed him for 5,000 reward and a posse of FBI agents and police erased Dillinger as public enemy no 1."  

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Updated November 2, 2013 August 24, 2013 was the 50 years  March Anniversary in Washington. Nonmember 22, 2013 will be the 50 years Anniversary of assassination of president John F. Kennedy. more to come         

Update August 5, 2012. What brings me to J. Dillinger? well I don't  really know much about this man but I will write what now it has to do with me. On this day August 5, 2012 at the Moorhead Library I  go through the pages of these two books Dillinger's Wild Ride by Elliott J. Gorn and John Dillinger by Dary Matera before looking at these books the only thing I remember about Dillinger's
now?  On September 13 as I listened to the radio I hear, "today are 54 days until Election day." Then this came into my mind on my Birthday September  11, it was 56 days until Election day! 56 numbers double again on the 11.   

On August 6 for some reason I needed to know more about the song "Red River  Valley" and this came up  ( Jo Stafford sings "Red River valley" in 1955.) Last night August 8, 2012 I heard on the radio this song I used to like to listened to back in the seventies.
 Nights In White Satin" and this I didn't  know it wasn't played on the radio because it was too long so it took five years to be played and it was 2# on the 100 hit list. Something came into my mind, something I knew but I had to be reminded to  mentioned  to you the people . Would this be Christ coming back for the second time? I say it is! Though I like the song and would listen to it  on these radio stations, Fargo K Q W B and on K T S A San Antonio. I really didn't know about this song. Now I know the Album was "Days of the future passed" What I am saying is that the law is spying on me telling you the people to repeat but not all please keep reading to understand why I am saying wi 

February 8, 2013 on September 11, 2001 early on the morning my daughter From Threshold Of A Dream and i listened  to Tuesday Afternoon. before yesterday i had never seen their cover album before or knew their cover names. more to come      
   



In 1985 one day while I was a student in a beauty school in Greeley, Colorado a white pregnant woman got near me asked me if I wanted to receive Christ as my savior. I accepted the invitation and ever since my fears were all gone but in  January 25, 2006 I were to encounter horrible, wicked satanic realities of this world.     The word Colorado is red in English, red = Colorado.In the license picture officer Olson kept in 2006 I was pictured with a red blouse. And at that time I was severely anemic but I didn't know. I think it was later that i went to the doctor and i was given red iron pills and premarital vitamins. In August 2004 the first summer I went to Grand Forks, ND I was only concern about the Carpal Tunnel Syndrome on my hands. I thought my weakness came from that  because I had been very busy with other things I wasn't taking the iron and premarital vitamins and wasn't thinking it was my blood that was weak. That year when i met Howe and his wife Mary Seaworth i told them about my hands. Mary Seaworth told me she had the same problem and that she had surgery on her hands. I told her I was going to look into that once I went back to TX. Now all these was in 2004. I also told Howe about Rey Perez being unfair and  had send my son to prison then later had lost a granddaughter in a Ford vehicle. In 2005 when I went back to ND when I arrived  I stayed  about two weeks with the mother of my three grandsons then the she told me I  needed to move out because Social Services didn't allowed


Update December 20, 2012 these are other things I notice. The ticket Olson gave me the numbers on his badge are 566, then there is the I pad phone 5.  more to come

December 27, 2012 back in 2006 when I knew I couldn't end my life i asked God to please take me with Him. (At the time I wasn't thinking about the pain my son and the rest of my family were going through. Because I was hurting too much and couldn't do a thing about it). When i noticed God wouldn't answered. I told Him I couldn't live this way to please help me go back to North Dakota and help me face the lawyers.I asked Him to prepare me a table in the presents of my enemies. I kept praying asking for strength, tolerance, patients and forgiveness. It would be many reproaches, hateful remarks, word repatriations, mind blowing games from you the people.And i still had to bury my oldest brother who also played with my mind, before I would see North Dakota again. But on July 2009 I heard my son had been arrested again here at the half way house. He had already plead guilty to another false accusation from MN. By then the law knew I was coming back because I had wrote to Governments even church leaders. My son had begged  me to stop writing but I refuse. I knew he was going to be set up again I knew you the lawyers with government support were going to do it again. I told my son when he was in the half way house to be careful not to be around Dianita'sCommand is used many times. Command = to direct with authority; give orders to. 2. to have control or authority over; rule.  At one point back in February, 2011 i was feeling bad wanted to give up but then i notice the two sings that were put up after the governors elections on interstate 94 west passing  Casselton  going to Valley City, ND and that gave me hope again!By then i knew i was to come before governors, councils. more to come                                                                   
  



Between  August 10 and September 14, of this year 2012 both of my only two grown children will be 32 years old. Add 3+2=5  3+2=5  5+5=10. This year was the tenth anniversary of 911.Month of September 2012 these are other things reveal to me that i didn't  know or didn't remember because I paid no or little attention to. On  September 5, 1972 11 Israelis were killed in West Germany during the Olympias. The murders were eight Palestinians belonging to the organization called Black September. Police killed five and hold three but later were release. On July 2012 London had for the first time Israeli team killed in 1972 honored in the London Olympic Village. The numbers 11 and 5 and the month September are present here. Now on Thursday 20, 2012 as I  watched TV and like always having to hear repetition of what i say and do. I also see this on NBC News Rock Center Show New York, City, 55 Engine 55 firehouse ( Double Nickel) it was built by Napolean Le Brun and son's. Updated February 25, 2013  The night Olson stopped me in East Grand Forks he told me he had stopped me because my back lights were not on were not working this was a lie! Because many times    previous to that set up in MN. During several  visitations with my son in jail. he had told me to take his car for check ups one of the places he told me to take it was Gateway Auto Tech. he kept telling me to get it checked so later on Troy told me about a mechanic station who he had worked for and i also took it there to be checked.  i know there was nothing wrong with the back lights when Olson and you the lawyers confiscated  my sons car. You! Told those people to give away my social security card to these  illegal  people who used it on these five states!  Then i had to prove it wasn't me who had worked in these states ! When you, Fr. Bob took me to buy insurance with this wicked woman named Jodi she asked me for my socialNever before  I had been asked for it! all this suit you the lawyers told this wicked  to say and to do just as you have been telling everyone else!Now this you told her to asked me because you so bad for me to  know you the government had everything on your hands! That you were controlling my life! more to come    






 






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What I am saying is that everything that has to do with me and the world is doubling as in twins the same kind.Two together in pairs. What were the two towers in New York? They were two of a kind, twins. This September I will be 56  years old. I was born in 1956 then this will double. What are lesbians and gays, and what do they want in ND? They want to marry, marry the same sex this would made them  two of the same kind! What are two things that now Fargo, ND and New York  have in common? It's something I never saw before in the years when we used to come work on the sugar beet fields is diversity. And there is a miniature statue of the lady of  liberty like the one in New York, N Y on Main Ave bridge that separates ND and MN. I was born in Crystal City, TX. Who is being picketed by a Union? The American Crystal Sugar company! On letters I wrote and I am writing  I am saying lawyers who were suing the Ford Company in Crystal City, TX started this conspiracy with lawyers from Grand Forks, ND. 


Now why would I say this? In 2004 my son and his ex-girlfriend mother of my three grandsons got into an argument and my son went to jail. my son had bought a car from a lawyer named Henry H. Howe from Grand Forks, ND because my son had been in trouble years before when he was a child. The police officers were also finding ways to arrest him that is why we don't really trust the public defenders or certain judges. I went looking for Henry H. Howe he and his wife Mary Seaworth have their law offices close by the Grand Forks  jail. We got to talk and he said he would help my son and he did my son was release and I went back to TX but during one of the conversations I had with Henry I told him that back then Judge and lawyer Rey Perez and been unfair with my son when my son was only 13 years old and had sent him to boot camp that later on Rey had lose a granddaughter in a car accident.This was the month of August 2004 and while I was still in Grand Forks I notice too many coincidence going on after that and on the bus on my way home back to TX ! But how would I have known a wicked conspiracyBelieve  is one of the many words people repeat. Then he told me he didn't know what Simonson thought about the Motion and that i shouldn't trust appointed lawyers  well he was just repeating to me what i had told him in 2004. And he told me other things that got me worried. That night I couldn't sleep so the next morning i went to talk with him again  I told him these words "i didn't have money but  maybe someone will feel sorry for me." he right then told me about Monty J. Stensland and where his office was which was across his street. Monty and i started talking i got the inspiration he didn't really like Simonson. Monty told me the fee and i agreed to pay him one thousand dollars to take the case. But i didn't even had that money so i called my daughter and she was the one who helped me pay off.  And  i didn't know  how i was going to pay him the rest but at the time i had other things to worry about and i was kind of enjoying being in Grand Forks. The man i got a ride with had told me if i wanted to go out i only had to call him and he would pick me up.Maybe go out to see the town and maybe go to a night club dancing. i might say the truth i knew this man since childhood and i liked him but not to be seen in public or in any other way. i just wanted a ride up here and see the town. I never did call him but he called me and we went out. one night he came looking for me with other man we both knew from Crystal City and told me to call him when ever i wanted to go out. This man also knew about the mind game people were and are playing with me but at the time i didn't know what was going on. i went to see a movie with him then      we went out with him. Back to Monty, Henry had told me Monty didn't have a secretary and  i wanted to speed up the case so i told  Monty i could go pick up my son's documents. when i got the Simonson office i waited for a while then i was asked to go in and talk with Simonson he told me about all  these other cases where men acted so bad but then he told me my son was different that he kind of like my son. When I got my son's documents i made this remark. "I am not afraid because i come from the dirties political town where they're suing the Ford company." I know these words also got to the lawyers in TX. When Monty took over, the first time we went to court he told me or asked me about a tape he had on his hand he showed me the tape and asked me if i knew what was in it. He told me the  prosecutor was going to be used it against  my son. After court Monty looked angered as if he had decided not to go with what Henry and him had agreed on. I got worried and right after that I went to see Henry but Henry told me not to worry. Mary Seaworth  you were there and told me the prosecutor just wanted to intimidate me.  Monty! then you told me after a while that no judge was going to accept the Motion, right? How did you know? Well now i know you and others knew a lot! then you told me it was better if my son would make a deal. you told me and told my son and i have the copy as you can see of that bargain. my son was to do 10 years but with 6 suspended. came down to 4 years then  from 4 years came down to 18 months on good behavior. but then my son told me that YOU PROSECUTOR THOMAS H. FALCK, JR ND BAR ID #03216 WOULDN'T GUARANTEE THE PLEA BARGAIN! THEN LATER MY SON TOLD ME THAT ONE OF THE OTHER REASONS HE DIDN'T WANTED TO TAKE   THE PLEA WAS THAT IN COURT YOU MONTY J. STENSLAND WERE ACTING LIKE A FOOL GOING THUMBS UP TO EVERYONE IN THE COURT! (NOW THIS IS ONE  MANY  WICKED THINGS YOU THE PEOPLE ARE TOLD TO REPEAT  (GO THUMBS UP). NOW THEN REMEMBER HENRY H. HOWE I WENT TO ASK YOU IF MAYBE I COULD GO TALK WITH FALCK  TO SEE WHAT WAS HIS PROBLEM AND YOU TOLD ME THAT MAYBE HE WOULDN'T SEE ME. BUT ANYWAY I DID WENT TO SEE THOMAS AND THIS IS WHAT YOU THOMAS TOLD ME.  "HOW CAN I MAKE ANY GUARANTEES  IF NOT EVEN THE SUN IS GUARANTEE TO RISE TOMORROW!" FALCK JR!  I DIDN'T GO TO  YOUR OFFICE TO ASK YOU IF YOU KNEW IF THE WORLD WOULD END TOMORROW! I KNEW YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT ONE BUT I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHY THE HELL YOU WOULDN'T GUARANTEE MY SON'S PLEA! NOW I AM GOING TO WRITE WHAT I WROTE MANY MONTH'S AGO OR A YEAR AGO ON ONE OF MY LETTERS. AND YOU THOMAS  AND THE REST KNOW WHAT I WROTE. ON THIS BOOK THE AMERICAN POLITICAL DICTIONARY BY JACK C. PLANO AND MILTON GREENBERG ON  PAGE 297 PLEA BARGAINING= NEGOTIATIONS BETWEEN A PROSECUTOR AND AN ACCUSED PERSON OR HIS OR HER COUNSEL TO SECURE A GUILTY PLEA FROM THE ACCUSED IN EXCHANGE FOR A LESSER CHARGE OR PROMISE OF LENIENCY. 

SIGNIFICANCE= PLEA BARGAINING TAKES PLACE IN THE MAJORITY OF CRIMINAL CASES IN THE UNITED STATES. THE ACCUSED IS OFTEN WILLING TO BARGAIN TO AVOID A HARSHER CHARGE AND SENTENCEEAGER TO SECURE A CONVICTION AND ALSO TO AVOID THE TIME AND RIGORS OF A TRIAL. 
Updated January 19, 2014 I am far from done with you North Dakota and Texas, i will return!




Update November 11, 2012 Thomas! that day  in your office you told me my son's apartment was filthy.  (People were told to repeat this word filthy to me in Grand Forks).  Thomas,i am sure this  was after you had sent the box with drugs then send the GFNTF to framed my son and raided his apartment and scared my grandson's. Remember the same day I went to see you, you ran outside cross the street told me I should go back to TX because it was going to start snowing? You were eating crackers

Updated October 9, 2013 Dear People i haven't had the time to write but here is new information on the day of September 30, 2013 as i was packing my belongings at 303 residents i opened Barbara Bush children autobiography and learned she had a sister named Martha and she had a brother that frightened her and she too was closed to her father. more to come 

Updated September 9, 2013 for months i had these two names on my mind Elizabeth and Olivia. Last week i think it was Friday night as i was watching the NBC News interviewed Elizabeth Smart tell her horrible sad story of her being kidnap more to come updated October 11, 2013  i am not sure but i think it was on  my mother's funeral that one of my cousins Lara (it wasn't Elvira) told me that when Olivia Lara my cousin  said her speech on her day as Valedictorian  back in the late 50's she had mentioned something about going to the moon. more to come  Elizabeth   Faz was a friend she likes to be called Elizabeth but her name is in Spanish and right now i don't know how to spell it I need to look it up. On September 11, 2001 i went to her house to see the twin towers


Updated November 8, 2013 I think it was the second week of October 2013 i was on my car driving to the Federal Bank and the disc jockey said he was told to play this song by Jackson Browne Doctor My Eyes.   more to come. 

Updated November 9, 2013 i need to mention this before i forget and start writing other things. one day back in 2010 one Native woman and a white woman i met here in Fargo were disgusting  where the Clothing and Connection was located. the Native woman said she thought it was near two buildings that looked the same she said the Twin Towers. weeks later i saw this building and then i knew she wasn't lying but at first I thought to myself she's just playing with my mind there can't be a Twin Tower building here in Fargo. In the summer of 2012 i took a  night walk and i wrote down the name streets so i wouldn't forget to write this information down but i forgot. In the month of September i took another walk in a soft rainySundown and i pointed out the the billboard . this morning of November 9, 2013          Casey talks about  twins  sisters  pointing out some  more to come 

Updated November 21, 2013 this is what i remembered from November 22, 1963 it might have been a sunny day In Dallas but in my neck of the woods it was a misty, cloudy . All students were back in class from lunch and i knew something was wrong because the teacher was not there to greet us. so we were all very quiet until she walked in the class looking sad and shocked then she said something like this "Our president is dead." or "our president has died." You all can go home." that day the white teacher was wearing a pThe Four Days In November back then i might have seen parts of this movie but i have never seen it all i am hoping this weekend i have to to see it on the internet. but what little i saw  last night has also to do with what i have been writing on my blogger. the numbers 4  and 5 are repeated. and there are many other things about those days i didn't know. more to come if i am right president Kennedy was the second president to be killed. more to come 
about what Kennedy might to the my parents and other Mexican Americans more to come.  
Updated 22, 2013 Next I will write about the trip why i didn't go see the play J Super
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Updated January 24, 2014 on this letter my son sent to me back in January 28, 2009 he writes that he knows nothing about what he law is accusing him of. By this time i knew something like this was going to happen to him because i was w


                





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Updated September 14, 2013 one of my good neighbors subscribes the Martha Stewart Living Magazine for me but i try to read only things that i find very interested because it also repeats like on this page of the September 2013 edition.


Updated September 14, 2013  i hear the rain from Colorado is here.
Updated October 22, 2013 today as i am on line renewing my TX Cosmology i am reminded to write this down the address to T D L R in Austin TX is 920 Colorado Street. And where did I go to beauty school? in Greeley, Colorado! more to come Updated October 23, 2013 Fargo Chiropractic 1515 University Drive this numbers are repeated more to come  Updated October  23, 2013 i know i have mentioned before that one of my dreams was that i kept going by Main Ave and  Broadway St. this is why this was one of my dreams Commend Center does business with Wells Fargo Bank. In my dream i am looking at a building on a hill which now is the Bank of the West where i have to drive by to cashed my checks at Wells Bank from Commend. At the Wells bank is a picture of a model wearing a coat. on one of the letters i wrote i mentioned  a nice coat also new coat i had found at the Mission in Grand Forks and  at that time i had told Troy about this coat that fit


Updated September 14, 2013 I bought this book The Diary Of  A Young Girl Anne Frank.  I also wrote about her in my letters. I wrote about her because since a long time ago i thought i could relate to her in about two ways. i wasn't into writing like her because i don't know how to write but i always hold my hair up with a writing pin. And like her I had a better relationship with my father then with my mother. Today September 2013as i have read a few pages of her diary i learned that i might have more things in common more to come         Matthew 14: 15-17 and they said unto him, we have here but five loaves, and two fishes.  more to come updated 


October 26, 2013  these are the new things on my mind for this day. one very hot day in the summer of 1986 my children and I were back in TX after living for a few years in Colorado. Once in TX  I went several times to Austin to take the TX Cosmetology exam and i couldn't pass the practical part until i took a refreshment class in Uvalde TX and like the instructor at the Uvalde College   had told me i would pass it with flying colors and  i did. on one of those trips to Austin I stayed with  my aunt Eva Pena and cousin Marcela. One early school morning the music came on the song was Panco and Lefty by Willie Nelson and Merle Hagged. i  had heard this song many times before and somewhere in the future with this sad song i would remember a nephew named Eddie. Today as i read the lyrics  i see words like an iron, a gun. The gray federales Ohio and as i looked to the right of the screen i see the  Red album of the Big Iron song by Marty Robbins. on that visit with  relatives my cousin Marcela and i went to a football field to pick up her twin son's both football players.M My cousins was involved with the local politicians so we stopped at the Sheraton Austin Hotel and the news reporters were there too. Sheraton is on 701 E 11St phone (512) 478-1111and the map shows a Red River St. that night i remember i saw a white young bald women     more to come Updated i will write about these days   from 10- 12- 2013 to ? more to come            

Update September 25, 2013 Attention readers more hints to read! Yesterday September 24, 2013 i was at the Moorhead public library and i was going through pages of this book i had opened before named  9/11 and American Empire Intellectuals Speak out edited by David Ray Griffin and Peter Dale Scott. Then i read on page 106 2020 Vision at A& M and the Space Command.   "A few years ago, Texas A& M initiated vision 2020, the University's "roadmap for attaining it's quest to be recognized as a consensus 'top 10' public university by the year 2020." with leaders like Gates in charge, i fail to see how A & M can achieve this". I put the book away got on my car looking for this place named RKAK  Residental and Commercial Property Management. And guess what the address is ? 2020 1st Ave South Moorhead, MN 56560. it's been days that i wanted to write this other information the mobile home i had had two rectangle windows on one side of the wall and it had a larger one picture window similar to the ones on the Fargo Federal building where I stand with my picket signs .  yesterday as i was walking South streets and 218 10 south in  Moorhead  still looking for an apartment and as i looked up the building i notice the windows i used to looked out at night back in the sixties at  St Joseph catholic church are also rectangle. and the apple tree i used to eat from is still there. more to come   

NOVEMBER 11, 2011 later i will write about why you Fargo people are going crazy  over a  purple purse and what it has to do with me.my daughter had bought me a purple purse here at the J C Penney's
 
Updated February 26, 2013 i know i wrote about a young white man who stopped and talked with me one day last year while i stood outside the Federal building. he told me i should looked into the Mayas. On  February 24, 2013 i checked out this book The 2012 Story The myths, Fallaciesfifth Millennium according to the ancient Maya calender initiated in the mythical year that corresponds to 3114 B.C. (Updated March 6, 2013 before 2012 i don't remember hearing, knowing anything about the Mayas calender. i only  knew the calender they had created is the one we still use but that was it! And between January 2006 and somewhere 2009 i was trying to stay sane and not lose it because you the people haven't stop repeating. so all this time I've been trying to figure out how to solve this wickedness around me and why this is happening. what is the meaning to what  now i know God is telling me or us!) Back to this book now on page 323 it reads after the trade towers went down on 911, a false connection between Saddan Hussein and the Osama bin Laden / Al-Qaeda front in Afghanistan was asserted and repeated by the Bush administration and in the mainstream media. now on the letters i wrote about Jose Angel Gutierrez he writing on one of his books that have more lies then truth because most is about me. He says that words can be used as weapons now i know all writers  know about this conspiracy and are repeating but where all this is going not even i know! Now keep reading what are the words that are repeated? and what is the author of this book says can be used as weapon? Fear! And yes, this is what you lawyers were trying on me, Fear! now the author says that Macaw strikes fear into the hearts og his subjects and thereby keeps them trembling and under his spill. the propagandists, such as Karl Rove, knew that one need only to repeat, repeat, and repeat the method. the words "terror" and "terrorists" were thus endlessly repeated by Bush, Cheney and secretary Donald Rumsfeld, laterally hundreds of time in a given speech. and it reads if you can keep the public in shock trauma, you not only control them better, but you can pass all kinds of crazy self-serving legislative that wouldn't have a change otherwise. in the aftermath of word war 11, Hermann Goring, Hitler's Reich Marshall, gave his Nuremberg prosecutors a simple lessen in mind control, saying the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. this is easy all you have to do is tell them that are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for a lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. it works the same in every country. these are tactics that were employed by the Bush administration. now again going back to me this is how you lawyers like Henry H. Howe Monty J. Stensland, Rey Perez, Roberto Alonzo Jesus Gamez  more to come 

Update January 5, 2014 It's January 5, 2014 a new year and i have a lot to write but haven't' had the time. My new address has these numbers 2-4-8 and my new zip code is 56560. Sammy's Pizza and Restaurant on 301 Broadway Street North on the window is a neon sign that reads since 1956. more to come    


Updated Today March 9, 2013 this is other information i have learned through the internet  about the Mayas. chick into: quick understanding of the seven Macuw and the twin Heros        the bird in the tree is Seven Macuw  representing figures of a narrative included within the colonial kich document called popol vuh and constituting the oldest Maya myth to have been preserved the p.lough Big Dipper. read on this book the 2012 story by john major Jenkins on page 180 where it says He [Carlos] said Mayan Day keepers viewfifth Sun. read page 181 whether we call it Mayan or millennial,wee living today in the shadows



March 3, 2013 why hasn't anybody mention this past week was 20 years past Waco, TX  was target by the Government.                                     





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November 23,2012 on this book BUSH'S WARS by Terry H. Anderson on page the number 44 is mention. read on page 71 how bush in a way didn't want to put the blame on  Al Qaeda but on Saddam.  Today November 29, 2012 around 3:25 pm i was listening to this song which i had heard before on a CD player which the family that i work for have in the car I drive the children around and right now as i look for the page i need to find which is page 79 to look for where i saw the number 44 but as i opened the book Bush Wars i get to this chapter 2 Rush to War. One of the song in that CD is Only Fools Rush In.  Then I get to page 79 where it reads his forth wife, umm ali was from mecca family, and she eventually had three children .years later, in summer 2001, when Osama and his family were living Afghanistan, he decided to take another wife. he sent a bodyguard to Yemen, who paid $5,000 for a 15-year-old girl for 44 year-old international terrorist.then on page 64 it reads in fact, between the inaugural in january and September 11, bush received 44 morning intelligence reports from the CIA mentioning the al Qaeda threat, and not once did he say... "let's begin a process to stop the attack."' Somewhere on page 66 it reads  the 19 had entered the united states a total of 33 times, through more than ten different airports, without ever being stopped or detained. on page 57 reads by 5 to 4 votes, the majority republicans appointees stopped the recount, giving the state - and presidency- to the republican candidate. given the unusual circumstances of his election,bush began in a relatively weak political position, with most opinion polls demonstrating an approval rating only in the 55 percent range, which slowly began to decline to 50 by June.the house was narrowly republican, and the senate was split 50-50;there was little mood for compromise, and there was no "honeymoon" for the new administration.five days later vice president Cheneyirline Flight 11 took off at 7:59 and climbed to 29,000feet.  then reads, on Earlier , at 8:2020 ,American 77 had taken off from Dulles international airport, and by 8:46 had reached its cruising altitude of 35,000 feet. Five minutes later the Boeing 757 made its last report to air traffic controllers.On chapter 1 it reads  Bush, Bin Laden, and the P declared that he would like to accept bin Laden's "head on a platter," and the next day the president visited the party destroyed Pentagon. page 67 in Boston, American Ainnacle of the world Sympathy. Terrorism was not an issue during the 2000 presidential campaign, and neither were Saddam Hussein or Osama bin laden. the republican candidate and governor of Texas, George w. bush, made values one of his main themes. A born -again christian, Bush roused the Republican faithful at the convention: "And so, when I put my hand on the Bible, I will swear to not only uphold the law of our land, I will swear to uphold the honor and dignity of the office to which i have been elected, so help me God." now on starting on what is page 131starts with pictures and what would be page 135 is figure 9 is a picture of Bush and the USS Abraham and reads. Aboard the USS Abraham Lincoln, president bush flashes the thumbs - up after declaring the end of the major combat operation in Iraq, May 1, 2003. AP photo/ J. Scott Apple white.  What does this have to do with me? In the movie I saw named       where the US pilot tells the men.   before my son shot. I had dreams of many lights that I was coming down between these light, landing down as when you  are landing in an airplane. but i had never been in an airplane. The night my son was shot I rode with him and the paramedics to San Antonio, TX Hospital. once as a child in a field trip the teachers took us to the airport in Fargo. I wanted so bad to take a ride in  an airplane but the teachers only showed us the inside of it because most of the children were scared . when my son was shot i thought to myself well i guess this was it to my dreams. But i was wrong. December 11, 2012 and boy was i wrong. this is something more God revealed to me last night. the family who i had been working for moved further north and for the last time i had to drive the children from their home to their school activities. and as i drove by the military airport again i saw the lights that were in my dreams years before my son's almost fatal shooting. more to come                                                 


August 21, 2012   Last  night   around 9:30 pm  as so often  I walked from Moorhead to Fargo but this time I walked home through Main Ave and I got to see the Stature of Liberty. Then I walked by the corner of  Main and Broadway then I saw another sign on the corner of the railroad tracks and I read  something like this, " the Main Ave became the Front street in 1955.  Another repetition of 55. On letters I wrote way before reading these historical monument you will read what I wrote about the Main Ave, streets. And buildings like the The Bank of the West and many other hints and the numbers 4, 7, and 10. more to come

Updated February 19, 2013 this is one of the dream i had way before i knew i was coming back to Fargo. i dreamed i was moving in a fast motion

Updated August 24, 2013 a few nights ago an apartment neighbor passes away. on Friday 24, 2013 at work man number 1110 puts his underwear on his seat he writes " you crack me up" I say to him thank you for reading my blogger! updated September 3, 2013 managers secretary at commend center told me one neighbor had passed away but his alive                                                                                           

Before I go on I need to say I was born on September 11, 1956.As a child one day while walking the streets of Fargo. I told my father I was afraid of  the things to come and that time was going by too fast like world events. Something in me wanted  things to slow down. Other kids enjoyed watching TV as men fly to the moon  i didn't. One time I  also told him about frequent flood dreams. In 1975 ND had a major flood. And the world has had many floods ever since  just like the ones in my dreams. Two weeks before 911 I dreamed I was in the middle of two buildings looking up. Then I saw fire coming down left and right from side ways not from the sky. I called my daughter told her about the dream I told her something bad was going to happen. On September 11, 2001 she called me saying, "Happy Birthday, have you seen the news?" when I saw the news the dream I had came back to me. I had turned 45. 4+5=9. This year I am 55. 5+5=10. This September I will be 56 add 5+6=11. In 1958 my parents, older siblings and I started coming to Casselton and Mapleton, ND to work on the sugar beet fields, our last year here was the summer of 1982.
On September 14 my daughter will turn 33 and my son will  be 32 add up 33+32= 65 and 6+ 5=11.

Up Date September 3, 2012 Julian and Joaquin Castrofive, a favorite formation in the death camps.     The Death camps.and look on page 74 what it says about twins. The medical Experiment Mengeles greatest interest was twins. He thought if he could discover what caused birth he could use the knowledge to increase the birth rate in Germans. When transports arrived, he would walk quickly along the ranks of people waiting for selection  shouting "Zwillingeaus!" 'Twins out!" Updated September 23, 2013 i had forgotten the Bushes daughters are twins. My sister Barbara was named after my father's mother. my sister Concha (Connie) was named after my mother's mother. but no they are not twins. more to come  

Yesterday August 9, 2012 my family and I went to spend time at the Island park and we were looking at the Angel of Hope stone. Today August 10, as I go through  the pages of another book of the Holocaust Library by Earle Rice Jr. I see  this on page 75 Josef Mengele "Angel of Death" read this page what Anne Frank called him "the Angel of extermination." 
On page 76 it says German  physician Josef Mengele use his position during the Holocaust to perform gruesome human experiments, especially on identical children, there is a picture of him on this page with a big smile just as I see many people now smiling as they do horrible wicked things to us and pretend like this man they are doing nothing wrong! but in between their lines they just repeat! now the government doesn't have to kill our bodies they only need to kill our minds and that will work as well! and this is being done by the help of you the people! mind games have always been played on wars, this is anything new! but the only big thing different here is that God is telling me through other things this is His purpose not the world's! 



Update September 11, 2012 last night I was feeling hopeless and I grab this book i had bought for 25cents at the library. I opened up and I had forgotten about  this book  Collier's  Encyclopedia and the year it was from 1956. Now I  know why I bought it. You see people, these things in life I never did before in school. Back then in my school years I rarely used the  library as much as I do now. And as I opened the book this was the first page my eyes sees page 403 National Education Association. The 94th annual convention of the National Education  Association was held in Portland, Ore, July 1-6 1956 general officers elected were president Martha A. Shull,teacher,Jefferson high school, Portland,Ore. Page 85 pictured is princess Margaret inspecting a guard of honor formed by the 5th (Tanganyike)Battalion of the King's African Rifles at Port Louis, a port of call on her five-week East African tour.On page 285 reads "The Second Five- Year Plan." The second plan, in the discussion stage for two years, went into effect in 1956.    
  
 September 16 2012  Dwight David"Ike" Eisenhower was the 34 president of the united states from 1953 until 1961. he had previously been a five star general in the United States Army. he married and had two sons.    

In 1956 there was a drought in ND SD  


September 15, 2012 these are some of the things I read related to me now on the 1956 Encyclopedia the president was Republican   Eisenhower who was re-elective with vice president Nixon.. On page 632 reads. "On June,8 the president was again stricken with illness,the second time in nine months,and this opened for the nation and the world another period of anxious uncertainty." 

Democratic      Contenders. throughout the spring and early summer the only two Democratic  candidates that were being seriously consider for presidential nomination 
were Adlai Stevenson,former governor of Illinois, who had been defeated in the 1952 presidential election, and Sen. Estes Kefauver of Tennessee.they vied with each other in the state primaries for support of the delegates to the national convention, but Stevenson was able to commend the stronger support.  On page 635 it reads with pictures. a five- way handshake of democratic leadership on the rostrum in Convention Hall,Chicago,during the rally that marked the windup session of the Democratic Convention. Former President Truman is flanked by presidential candidate Adlai E. Stevenson and Estes kefauver, candidate for the vice-presidency. Behind them (left) are Averell Harriman of New York and (right) Lyndon Johnson Of Texas. Page 201pictured Egyptian President Gamal Abdel Nasser (left)receiving Dmitrishepilov,Soviet foreign Minister (right), at the Government head -quarter in Cairo. the two boys are president Nasser's sons. On page 309 Giovanni Gronchi, President of Italy,casing his ballot  in Rome during the two-day local administrative government election. 


15 January 1918-28 September1970)was the Second President of Egypt from 1956 until his death.        




September 6, 2012 surely, all politicians are repeating trying heard to blow my mind! Here are some of the in directs, some of the in between  lines the two political parties want for me to hear. The word (Believe) the word Menudo the color of lipstick on Micheal Obama lips is the same color I wear. You the people will read on my letters what this word lipstick has to do with me! 

"Let me make myself clear," are other words i used on my letters. Arithmetic, what have I been doing people? Mr. Clinton,      women    knows what i been writing! I have been adding, subtracting, multiplying,and dividing dealing with numbers! Right! So, it's clear, you Mr. Clinton and the rest have been reading my letters! And this are heavy duty, hard core, Evidence! That if my son is in prison is because of lawyers and people like you! And I will also mention  that if my son hasn't called me is, I know because of people like you and the rest who think you are too smart



      







In March 2011 while driving to Pizza corner in Valley City, ND  there was a billboard sign   The Governors Inn (built in 2004). Then I saw "Casselton, proudly providing  ND fifth governor.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    
On August 12, 2012 my son called me told me to stop whatever I was doing because he wanted to apply for Boot camp to have a better chance to be release earlier. I know my son was told to tell me that be sounded frighten. I know he was told to tell me to stop writing or they were going to keep him longer!    

on March 2006 I went back to TX and all along the way the game kept on going it has been this way all along since 2004 but it was made clear to me the night on January 25, 2006 when I was set up in East Grand Forks.                                                                                                   

Once I arrived in TX I wrote to as many as I could for the Bar Association address. I knew D.A., Thomas H. Falck Jr. was involved so I asked him too. Falck sent me this document dated August 11, 2006. During this time I was severely mentally and emotionally exhausted  because  the law had and was giving me hints my son  and  I had been set up but there was nothing I had do. My home my car  phones calls are  bugged! My medical records had been exposed! The law was watching me 24/7! would tell people what to repeat about me! To repeat anything that had to do with me to destroy my mind! I couldn't  go to church because priests and people were repeating and nobody liked me. The only reason people came around me was to repeat to show me how much they hated me,to show support for the law. Nothing has change since then. Update this pass Friday September 14 was a bomb threat in the NDSU and almost the same time same day another at  Austin,  TX. Then today September 17, 2012  as I  ate at the Salvation Army a group of people were talking about the Radisson also had a bomb threat. I say this is coming from the government it self! My daughter lives across the Radisson Hotel  in downtown Fargo and we been talking about the threats. I know the law is listening to us.  This also happened today September 17, 2012 after i finished

When I was in TX and I started writing about what had happened in ND.When I wrote the letter about how (Troy Lawrence who was the Lawyers informant) had told me  that all lawyers were the same that they all got together at Golf fields and talked about the out come of a trial how they knew how it would all end. Troy was giving me hints how they The Judges The Lawyers  had planted my son's trial that it was just a joke   well organized

On January 2006 after I was set up in East Grand Forks I started saving business cards, document anything with names on. I even brought the local phone directory. Because I knew once I got to TX I was going to do something but I didn't know how to use the computer. Then I saw this woman named Darlene Margo at 6502 Bandera Road,Suite 203 San Antonio, TX  zip 78238 phone 210 737-8637 on  a San Antonio phone directory. I called her to see if she would write on paper my story by listening to cassettes I had recorded. She said she would but like all others played games with my mind and charged me a lot for a mess not even I could understand. On my letters I used the word mess up mu mind now this word and other words  I used are used in  songs and many Movies like Campaign. I never enjoy a movie or a song because it has to do with what i do.   

At first  learning how to use a computer wasn't easy the librarians in Crystal City were not helpful maybe because some were like me didn't  know much and if  they did they weren't that eager to help me because I was writing against the law. It wasn't until 2009 when I came to MN that librarians from Moorhead taught me how to use a computer help me how to open an e -mail taught me how to create this blogger. 

When I was in Grand Forks I had saved business cards, letters and I tried to remember all I could from that time. I knew all lawyers were involved but I still needed their names
 on paper to spell them correctly so I wrote to the ND Bar Association and others.         I posted a picture of the only Crystal City, TX Sacred Catholic Church to show you what I am saying . 

Update! August 29, 2012 yesterday God reveal this to me as I was working at Kelly Inn on Main Ave 3800 I was looking out the window  I saw the highway sign " 10 Main Ave East. Later on in my letters you will read what I wrote about Main Ave here in Fargo and what it has to do with me.  update  this morning about 3: 00am September 17, 2012 i couldn't sleep so i got my Bible and this is what  i read on page

    

Here are some reasons I had to stop going to church  in 2005 2006 while I was in Grand Forks, ND after I was set up in MN I notice people were repeating then  one day I called my daughter who was in TX told her, "now with baby Julian being born and his two other brothers not being potty train will be harder for us." I would try to go to church almost everyday but the repeats never stopped. One day after this conversation with my daughter Fr. Braun started saying a story about a couple with three boys not potty train he said something like this, "it was a sacrifice to change so many diapers because they were three boys." 

update November 21, 2012 The movie Rocky part 3  me and other people who were living with us at the Ranch came to see this Movie here in Fargo back in the summer of  1982. this was one of the last movies i saw because we stopped coming that year. the song the eye of the tiger


Then my daughter was getting ready to come to Grand Forks, ND to baptists my three grandsons. We had this other conversations on the phone. I told  her St Michel's  church was beautiful had tall pillars inside.  I know you the lawyers, judges and other people with money are giving a lot of money to people and church leaders to repeat to get me sick enough to get flashbacks.
Look at this church picture at the bottom I don't remember what month it was but  i noticed this porch with pillars were added to the church after March 2006 months   after I arrived from ND. 

The columns  pillars resemble in color and structure the ones inside St Micheal's church in Grand Forks, ND. These pillars don't even match the color of the rest of the church. When I  knew my son was framed again I sold my home to neighbors who were eager to buy it because I was practically giving it away they too were playing with my mind talking out loud like never before to be heard by me repeating words I had said or heard during the time I was in Grand Forks, ND.  I had one limestone on my mobile home lot. This stone pictured neared a pine tree and three black trash bags. When the FBI and local police saw me take my limestone to my parents home they called people to get as many limestone's to placed on and around the Fatima gazebo for me to see every time I would walked by going to the HEB grocery store. These stones were so many that as you can see there was no way you could walk without being trip over them if you were not careful to see where you were walking to. These are some of the cars parked backwards outside homes, Catholic church and the Police Department but this was going on at all churches in Crystal City and on all other towns it's going on here in Fargo too. People park  their cars this way while they attend Mass. This goes on wherever I go! 
I don't remember quite well but I think I mentioned once inside my home to my brother about a broken cross then people from the church place a cross outside the church and broke it into four parts and left it there for many days for me to see as i walked or drive by. When my daughter was going to Grand Forks i asked her to take me a rosary and i also asked a church helper id she had one she could give me. I really wanted to pray it because I wanted God to hear me so i was doing all i had do to get His attention his grocery Store El Nino

Before 2005 Updated May 8, 2013 soon i will write about Gutierrez what he wrote on his books that has to do me. Updated  July 27, 2013 on March 13, 2009 I wrote this letter and rewrote it on September 22, 2010 on a drive. Updated August !, 2013 I had added more information on this letter and on many other letters that were lost on this drive. Now i will wrote what i can remember. This is what i wrote on that letter about this self proclaim Chicano Leader, liar and hypocrite and much more Jose Angel Gutierrez. Letter #35  Dear Mary, I told Troy I had participated in the Crystal City School Walkout. and that I had read a few  pages of the book written by Chicano Leader Jose Angel Gutierrez title The Making of a Chicano Militant  and that once I got home I was going to buy the book and finish reading it. Troy knew  I was not a good speller so he kept asking me, "how do you spell the word Militant?"  While we were having this conversation we were sitting in my son's Explorer. Now I realize updated July 29, 2013 If Troy wasn't recording me my son's Explorer was bugged because the two new books I read by Gutierrez parallel with what I told Troy and what happened to me in 2005 -2006 during the time I was in Grand Forks, ND. And what is happening  to me here in TX. It's 2009 and since March 2006 I am back home in TX. I am at the Public Library writing all these letters that now I need to write so hopefully I can stop this madness around me and i need to know what year was the workout so I can write letter #23 about "The Educator from out of Town."  So i asked the Librarian for Gutierrez two new books I heard he had written. First i checked out this book title We Won't Back Down!    (Base on Severita Lara rise from student leader to Mayor). I noticed too many things that had to do with me. Then i checked out The Making of a Civil Right Leader written by Gutierrez about himself. According to Gutierrez his Autobiography. And again i read so many things I can relate to. I will go back  to Severita's book and what he wrote about himself. He wrote that his got poise, and his articulate, enunciated and that his a lawyer. and a professor of Political ScienceHe Says remind you of the Fargo Forum!?) They moved from Shelly, Minnesota to Crookston, South Dakota. On March 2006 on my way back to TX the bus driver drove East. In 2004 when I met Henry and his wife  Mary and went back to TX  the bus driver drove South and we made a stop in Fargo, ND. (After January 2006  looking back I can remember many strange things going on) On  March 2006 the bus driver stopped at the Mc Donald's fast food in Crookston, MN. Gutierrez wrote on Severita's book that the girls had gone to a Mc Donald's  back in 1968 in Crookston, South Dakota. But back in 1968 there was no, Mc Donald's in Crookston, And there is no Crookston, South Dakota! Its Crookston, Minnesota! He says the Lara sisters went to a Mall in Crookston but there wasn't and isn't any Mall in Crookston. MN!  On letter # 21 way before I read any of his new two books I mentioned two a young men riding the Grand Forks City Bus one was staring at me as if he was angry at me but wanted to start a conversation told me he was from Alamo. Then  I asked him," From  San Antonio?" And he said, "No from Alamo, TX.  Updated July 30, 2013 (This man told me this because he wanted me to know he knew who I was and to let me know he was playing with my mind). Then  asked me this, " which  Mall is the best one to shop, is it the one on Columbia Rd or Grand Cities Mall?" (As both men looked at me in a strange angry  way I knew they were sent by you the lawyers to mess up my mind). Then when I read Gutierrez books I knew I was right.On  march 2006 a black bus driver insisted for me to ride with him and not wait for another bus. He said his route was shorter and safer but he and almost all the people on the bus were repeating words I had said or heard in Grand Forks or on conversations i had had with my daughter on phone calls from TX. i asked a passenger why are we going east when we can go south. he just made an  evil smiled and when we stopped in Crookston i knew i was in for more wicked mind games. Gutierrez wrote that when Severita and her sister went up north with the Serna family it rained a lot that it was their first year migrating and that they broke down in the middle of the field and cried. He says they moved from Shelly, Minnesota to Crookston, South Dakota and were paid  1,000.00 dollars for that summer. Quite a lot of money for 1968. He mentioned lipsticks. Troy often would asked me this, " what color of lipstick do you have on?"  He says the girls saw  something they had never seen before, youngsters skating on Ice. And this was in summer!? On one of my letters I wrote before reading his books I  mentioned Monty J. Stensland once had his Ice Hockey pictures out for show off at his office. Gutierrez wrote that he went to a Spanish school in Crystal City  and was taught by a teacher named Susie Salazer and that he learned a lot. I have this to say. Unlike Gutierrez I was too late for Miss Susie Salazer classes and too early for Mrs. Lady Bird Johnson's Head Start. But i know for sure there is no Crookston, South Dakota and there's no way those two girls got paid 1,000 dollars during those years not even in the state of Minnesota. But i did paid $ 1,000 dollars to Monty J. Stensland back in 2005. Why Gutierrez would write all these mistakes would they be done on purpose to mess up my mind or is this his only capacity? Gutierrez wrote Severita likes to dance alone. Well I  like to dance by myself. I  am not a good dancer but as a child i used to dance for the Lupe Serna daughters. The young women would asked me and my sister Barbara to dance the Twist at the  farm  in Casselton  back in the sixties when American Bandstand was shown on ABC. And i did danced with myself when Troy asked me if he could stay with me during the Christmas Holiday at Dianita's apartment when she was put in jail for the second time. The law had accused her of using cocaine and neglecting the boys. (But i don't remember seeing Saverita dancing alone or with someone else not even in a ballroom with her husband because he belongs to a religion that forbids dancing). During this time i had noticed that Howe was anxious about me moving back into Dianita's apartment and kept asking me if i had found the keys to the apartment. (When Dianita was release and after i was set up i realized during that time I was in her apartment I was being watched). and i remember something Troy had told me about now he  being able to see something that he was not allowed see before. i know now these were video's of me in the apartment.Gutierrez wrote that  during the time Severita was a student studying medicine In Mexico. a law officer stopped her told her that if he saw her again he was going to confiscate her and her car. One day at the Mission a man who almost all the time wore Army camouflage asked another man named Dale Hale Linda's brother. " Are you giving her to me?" ( Linda lives in Grand Forks,  ND and is one of Dianita's  father ex girlfriend.)  I knew this was about me because this was while we were dining at the Mission and it was just the three of us at that table. And it was after I was set up in Minnesota.  After I was set up in East Grand Forks and I had gone to court in Crookston, MN. Again I went to see Monty and again he was implying with his face and hand gestures that what i was going to do with Howe in his office sofa  i was going to do with him at his office meaning the hand job and other sex tricks that Troy had told me Howe wanted me to do with him.( And yes by then I was very scared because i knew i had no one to talk this about not even the priests that i knew were brain washed . So  I wrote two letters that i was going to give to Hanry and to Monty hoping they would stop sending people to harass me but instead  i decided to show them to Fr. Bob so I  called  Fr. Bob told him I would be going over to visit him.  But when i got there i waited about thirty minutes and Fr. Bob never came. Instead Fr.Braun came out to see me. Fr. Braun looked as if he did'nt want to pass a word with me looked angered.  I told him i wanted to speak with Fr. Bob he told me he knew but that Fr. Bob had gone to attend other matters. I showed Fr. Braun the two letters  and he read them out loud. Told me something like this, The letters are no good that my writing was not good. I didn't know how to explain what the lawyers were doing to mess up my mind because it was in so many different ways and so many people were involved. I knew even they the priests were told what to repeat.  I didn't know what to do next  because I didn't  write the letters to be corrected or told i was a bad writer, I knew that. I wrote them to get the priest to listen to me And I know someone told Stensland about the letters I  had wrote for him and Howe but instead  I took to the priests to read. Because     that same day  i went to talk with Monty and he wouldn't  opened  the door. he was on his phone but every time i would knocked he stopped talking and there was no sound. About a week after I went again and he knew i was at his door because it sounded as if he was typing with one finger but once i would knocked he would stop typing. that same day after going by the church I went to lunch at the Mission and everyone around me were repeating words I had wrote on the two letters i had taken to the priests to read by then my son was sentience and i never went back to see Monty and Henry again but the mind game went on nonstop. i know the priests  were told way before about me and i know the priests told the lawyers about the two letters i took for them to read. Updated August 13, 2013 On one of the several times  i went to speak to Henry about my son  he told me my son's trail was like playing a game. In 2006 one morning  as i was doing my exercise walking at Garcia's Park i was approached by Linda Lara Severita sister after more then a decade that her son had been involved in the almost fatal shooting of my son  in Carrizo Springs, TX  she was apologizing to me for her son's involvement. But she was lying she was just repeating words twisting her hair with evil eyes just as Deborah Zimmerman had twisted her hair when she went to pick me up in East Grand Forks the morning after i was set up. Gutierrez wrote that back then Crystal City Sheriff Sweeten had placed a recorder on a table to record what he Gutierrez was told to say to be recorded to be used  more to come    him.  

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Updated September 3, 2013 this is letter #23 most of all my early letters are address to Dear Mary but not one has been send to her. more to come    

 






















Yesterday August 6,2012 my son called me sounded worried he told me a women who  writes to him had told him I had put his picture on the internet on my blogger. And that I was saying he was in person because the law had set him up. He told me not to use anything that had to do with him or else he was going to be punished and not be able to be in the boot camp and be release sooner. This is not the first time his been put in this kind of predicament. When the law knew I wasn't gonna go crazy like they wanted me to and that I was planing on coming back ND to fight them back. My son was framed twice ND made him say he has sold drugs to an informant by then MN made him plead guilty by saying he was involved in other charge that MN said had him on camera outside a grocery store. You will read on my letters how this made up story built up case by the law has to do with me and the informer sent by attorneys Henry H. Howe and Monty J. Stensland back in 2005 2006 the time I was in Grand Forks, ND !            I am  posting all cards documents pictures and as many letters as I can to prove what I am saying is the truth!                       

The Olympic people like all others know and have being playing  the psychological warfare game they too repeat things about me. They and others use things I did said or write on Commercials like Toyota camry car where a women sees a man in front of a building she knew in college tells him the government is following her and other things  that have to do with me. They like everyone else definitively know about me and my signs outside the Fargo's Federal building. The Olympics organization and others don't want anyone else using their materials but they are not original they're from  my letters my past and my present! Here are some of them blowing kisses, thumbs up, using the word crazy and many others things about me because this is an on going thing that all has to do with me!  

But just like an Olympics athletic who is trained for many years to compete so have I. My training is of mental and physical  strength the ability to be self determined to do what I have been set out to do without the assistance of any professional trainer. My trainer is God who as been molding me through the years.          updated September 10, 2012 these are things i didn't know before the year i was born was a lip year and the Olympics were going on. when i started comparing the Olympics with me I i didn't  know this. what i am saying is that just as an athletes practice for an event so in a way have I, i just didn't  know it. the things in life that i have been through help me be who I am and help me understand why i am in this situation. I have been able to handle this ordeal because of the life i had like my  father mother older siblings and dreams. The people I knew growing up the places i been. But I would have not understand it all if i would have never read the Holy Bible. now i have never read it all but what i have read i know as to do with me and my son and not only us two but my whole family. so this means only one thing what Christ told His dis

Updated January 11, 2013 I think it was this past Wednesday at the Salvation Army as many times before i was looking at the people who now sometimes i dined with and had many thoughts. When i got home this thought got me. "Martha, these too are my children." This thought almost made me cry but i hold on hard not to because i need to be strong. Then yesterday I was thinking why the number 5? That day or the following day I saw this documentary on Prairie Public Skid row. As I listen I hear a man being interviewed say something like this " "this is my hand and it has five fingers." i didn't listen well but i think he was saying it's like a hand with five fingers we are all brothers and sisters we are all God's children. Then heard this was about homeless on fifth and  sixth streets in downtown  Los Angeles , California. last night i asked my daughter about it and she said something like this  "which one, Skid row the rock group or Skid row the streets?"she said she knew from school. but i didn't know or don't remember maybe only the rock group. Today as I  was walking down the stairs I thought again why a five? Then came to my mind a week day has five days then i thought about time a hand watch or any other kind of time watch. Then around 12:30 pm today I turned on the TV and I watched this other documentary on Prairie Public  Closer to the truth                                                                  



November 20, 2012 my son and i were born in a leap year. there are 366 days in a years. Updated December 9, 2012 Jesus  was crucified at age 33. The five dollar bill                                                                                                                                                    

Back in  January 2006  while we were waiting for my son's verdict  Monty told me he had told the jury some story book about  Mark Twain these and many other hints Monty gave me he knew about the articles I had saved from the Ford case and because he knew my thoughts were going to remind me my son's trial was anything but a joke.   These articles from the Crystal City Ford case are in display for you to read. Updated February 28, 2013 jury selection day. my son had told me that he wanted me there when the court was going to select the jury. he told me You Monty would select some and that  Thomas would select others. my son felt there was a change for him because he thought ones the jury saw what had happened how he was being charged for a box he never touched, saw or smelled. the jury would understand and the other thing that was going on you his lawyers and the prosecutor had played his his mind by just going around. making it very hard for him to even plea guilty. you had him all confuse. and had me thinking it was all his fault.          You Monty asked the panel if any of them had been or knew of any person being in trouble with the law. all panel shook their heads said no. one woman was crocheting i used to crocheted.    my son  more to come                                                        




Updated June 4, 2013 this afternoon June 4, i was thinking about my name how i can be called  Marta or Martha. i was thinking many other things that had to do with my name. i went for lunch at the Salvation Army. the second to the last woman who was serving  with short brown hair and sunglasses on her head, asked me, " what is your name?" i told her it's Martha. this like many other times might have been because about a week ago or some my daughter and i were having a conversation on the car about Martha and Mary in the Bible. how Martha brings it to Jesus about her doing all the work and Mary just listening. and just some days ago i had in my mind what Jesus repeats tells Martha,"Martha Martha." The thing is this woman might have been told to use these words to blow my mind but she didn't know what was in my mind just minutes before she spoke to me. and like i said before this was not the first time i have noticed these kinds of things going on when people repeat what is in my mind and not only what they are told to repeat. updated June 4, 2013 this past Saturday i was   then i went for a few beers at the VFW where everybody knows your name. but before that i was serenaded by more to come                 

Updated June 6, 2013 last night my daughter reminded me of the assassination of Robert Kennedy. i told her i was here in ND at the farm watching it alone on TV when he was shot on the 5 and  dead on the 6 of June. More to come.  Updated  more on dreams as a child i had many dreams of me flying on the air going by many  electric poles. these dreams were color gray or black and white i did't like giving them. and as a child some summer my mother used to buy me a toy that i had to blow on it to make it spen. more to come  

Updated May 29, 2013 i bought this book around this time 11- 13- 11 for about a dollar the name is The Bible Code by Michael Drosnin. i have read a few lines still need to read more to understand. This writer might have been wrong in some of his understanding of Bible codes or maybe i am the one who is wrong but for this reason i will read more and tell you The People why i think it was meant for me to find it read it and tell you what i got out of it.  updated May 30,2013 Right now i am on page 86 and what i see is the numbers 5756 i am 56 with God's will i will be 57 this September.    i also learned that there are 5 books   more to come 

Updated August 10,2013 today is my son's 33 birthday. and i known for a while that i have to move to Minnesota and on Thursday as i was  at work vacuuming and as my  routine i turned the TV on and was set on public TV as I  was watching the Ed Sullian  show the rolling stones played two songs one of them was Ruby Tuesday. in the last days of July i got a letter from my son asking me to find a place in Moorhead, MN because soon he will be release from prison and needs to stay in the same state. i know the channel  at work was set on purpose but i can still say and i know other things that i see or hear you the people don't have a clue of ! as i  drove home i cried because i love Fargo and will miss living here and i don't know what is next but i know i am getting closer to what i came to do. But I know I will come back some day soon. on this day July 30, 2013  i went to Mister Money on Broadway and was looking for the movie Immortal beloved  but mister didn't have it so i bought this movie named Identity. as i watched the movie.this movie is about a motel and a serial killer see how the number 9 turns to the number 6. then i thought i seen this number somewhere here in Fargo and it's at the Green Farmer  as i drove to Minnesota i saw this number  more to come                  


I  mentioned before that I was going to use you the people as examples and now I will do just that! the Bible says. "Do on to others as you would like them do into  you"      I will start with Mary H. Seaworth, Mary how would you like it it was you who had to see people were giving you hints a pervert man named Henry H. Howe who saw hands out

Updated July15, 2013 this instructor named Karen Mayer also was repeating words that i had said or that Troy told me in 2005 2006 in Grand Forks, ND. The first night that i stayed at the Mission in Grand Forks troy had introduced himself to me and was being very helpful. this is one of the things i didn't like him saying and found strange. he would asked a big black man who used to  guard outside the Mission and others, "isn't she beautiful?" like all other places and people so did this woman repeated when i took a continuing class with her. all through the class she was repeating and as the class came to an end she walked out the class screaming . "Isn't she beautiful, isn't she beautiful? Yeah right!" This women blew my mind all through her class and taught me not a thing . she said she didn't like cutting men hair more to come      

  

 October 24, 2012   jack van impe ministries box 7004 troy, michgan 48007     What is this about DRS. Jack and Rexella VAN IMPE on TV saying about Obama having connections with the enenny when all of the time they are repeating what i write and do? i will write on how these  two hypocrisies are blowing up my mind and still want to be seen on TV as goody two shoes. when all of the time they are repeating what has to do with me! in the Global ID 666 Jack and Rexella van Impe March 5, 2013 this is very good that you Jack and wife give me hints by saying  these words  "look into your dictionary," and  i will get back to you and others who support the wicked pervert government that is watching over  me to repeat what I do,  and you obey for  money! You, Jack and wife who say you know a lot what the Bible says should practice what you preach! Because Christ is love not hate and what is that you are doing when you repeat and give me hints and you make angry faces?  You and wife like many others have had it very easy. you don't have the FBI watching  what you do inside your homes. you don't have them watching you when you take  of  your clothes  when you clean

On December 20, 2012 my daughter and I went to Moorhead looking for a  dresser to put cloth in. Earlier during the day. I had gone alone to several stores and had seen some that looked like the one on the picture below.  On that same night the  Insider celebrity show  a guest shows pictures of  Barack Obama. On one laughing the other like this one in the internet it reads "It  appears that president Obama got caught  in a spider -man's web at the end of October." This is what caught my eye the dresser drawers with a mirror are like the ones i saw and why show this picture now in December? Why weren't this pictures shown  in  late October or early November?  Alright Obama,  get ready for tough question, that will make your face turn red! and yes Obama you and the rest of the world repeat whatever i do. this is what lawyer  Eric L. Gudmundson meant when he read to me only this part of the Miranda warning. but what about if it was your more to come     July 27, 2013 today I will write how the Fargo's library committee people plays with my mind. you the people should know  that when you are for years  under extrema pressure  your stomach  jacks up. One day about 1 and 1/2 years ago i walked into the first floor  women's library bathroom and  there was a group of five or six men inside carrying on a conversation. as i opened the door one man told me i could use the bathroom as they all walked out. this month i drop my library card and as i was done writing i forget to pick it up someone used it to check out 10 movies  that now i will need to pay if they are not returned. i asked the manager if she could check the camera's to see if there was a way to see who was the person or person's who might have checked them out but she says the camera's can not help. right now there is no one i can trust so who's knows if  this is like all other places a inside job. In 2011 i went to  Wal-Mart Store on 13 Ave S to get a flu shot. The nurse who gave me the shot hit me on a nerve on purpose. Since then if i laugh cough or sneeze too hard my right arm hurts for a long time. One winter morning in 2011  around 3:45 am coming from Valley City on interstate 94 a white truck came from an a wrong way from an  exited way driving in a very fast speed toward the car i was in. The driver i was with was a black young man and there were one white and one native women and and me in the back. A white man in front  with the driver.  I knew right away it  was a set up to frighted me. The driver acted as if he wasn't buying attention to the road and the white truck coming it us. He kept talking on his cell phone driving on the left side of the road. The two women acted as if they were afraid and were saying it was a drunk driver on the road. I told them all that was not true that this person was a professional  driver he knew what he was doing  in such conditions with snow in the road. The truck came at us then went to the right side. The driver we were with stayed in the left side then the truck turned around  came back behind us in a fast speed then he passed us. Then he made a right hand exited. one night as a man maned Maldonado whom i had asked to take me to Uvalde where i was going to catch a bus to San Antonio then to San Marcos, TX    more to come       

Updated August 3, 2013 In 2010 in Moorhead, MN library Bob Dylan's music was the first music i learned how to record on my more to come

January 18, 2013 now before i go on i need to say. Yes, my son and his ex girlfriend were on the wrong path. They needed to be stopped. my son needed to stopped smoking the weed he had leaned(Readers remember the word (suspicions). Now Thomsen told   S/A Graham    that they opened the box and found what they believed to be      

         

Updated February 28, 2013 this picture was taken a few days before Christmas 2012 in Fargo, ND.  This is one of the few times i am half happy.  When i am with my grandsons and my daughter who took this picture 

   at her

apartment. For  my eyes have not seen my son since January 2006.

with these documents  I will prove how my son was set up and how his trial was a joke set up by you the government 

          

Updated July 15, 2013 On January 2005 my daughter  and I went to  Uvalde, TX Walmart to take photos together this is one of them. i had notice that on this day my daughter was acting as if she didn't really wanted to be pictured with me. i knew that if we didn't  pictured together we were not going to have another opportunity because our lives were going to chance.At this age i still felt i really didn't need a lot of help with face make up. I slept well I exercise and i used and still use Clinique Compact Foundation.  I had two  little brown spots from being out in the sun in the right upper side of my eye. now as i look back to that day something was wrong but at the time i didn't know what it was. The two young women that were told to photograph  us were told to play games with my mind by pointing out to me more then once about those two brown spots

                             Updated September 8, 2013 the 6  and 7 of this month of September  I went to work at the Fargo Dome on  Friday  September 6  Taylor Swift was p he Red album tour. more to come

  Most all songs have to do with words i write, say or do. words like  "Trouble  "call me maybe"    

 September 8, 2013 Updated right now  words repeated   "back in the bus" " Musicians can do the math  too" "doesn't add up."  The very famous  words are "Who drew the Red Line" I say who what does it matter just do the right thing. more to come

Today September 8, 2013 i read Elton John  in November 22,2013 is coming to Minneapolis more to come        

Updated September 13, 2013 these days I've been so busy with so many things that I need to do before the   month of Septembers fly's by. At this time i am looking for an apartment in Moorhead, MN but under these conditions that once my son is release from prison he can come live with me. But finding a Landlord that will accept my son is so heard because once I say his coming from a prison that he is a felon they shake their head. Felony =  A crime, typically one involving violence, regarded as more serious than a misdemeanor, and usually punishable by imprisonment for more then one year or by death: Now at this time i am also waiting to  hear from HUD to my questions as to why can child molesters who rape minds and bodies of innocent children have a place to live once they are release and even those that were convicted of  manslaughter are also accepted. Now i know and can prove how my son was framed  in ND  and  can I prove that because the law in ND knew i was coming back framed him again at the half way house here in Fargo. And i can prove he was forced to incriminate himself. I can prove  how the law in MN also framed my son and also forced him to plead guilty. I can prove and will prove how all these were set ups! You the law that was suppose to protect us are the ones that are harming us from all sides! because of how you trapped and kept   trapping my son he has no rights!because of you he has no place out here. the only house you  have for him is in  your prisons to make him a criminal! and yes you feel you can do all these and more because you have the wicked world on your side! you have the church leaders that most are very happy with just receiving  money for their repetitions. and of course you  have politicians you have the world you have the people!         more to come    have you notice that here in Fargo addresses street numbers are repeated? later i will show you some. Updated November 6, 2013 today i had a harder time then ever before getting into my blogger Mr. Google 10 !00 Google. 10 2 = 100 has joined the party and is repeating but i known this since i opened my account.  Last night as my daughter and i were on North  Broadway going south i told her that back in the seventies i had only heard people in the South Valley used this word said  in Spanish Sanguineos  = bloody and that before that i had just heard the bloody word used in English actors Movies.Google wouldn't  let me in my blogger and kept me on things that had to do with Blood hood. more to come        

Today  November 6, 2013  I read this on this book Darkness Everywhere The Assassination of Mohandas Gandhi by Matt Doeden. on page 63   it reads in India Gandhi's birthday, October 2, is celebrated as a national holiday.  On page 59 it reads the trial was held at the historic Red Fort, a Fort and palace built by Mughal emperor shah Jahan in the 1600s in old Delhi (a historic part of Delhi, India's capital district).                   

 Updated September 9, 2013 this is a copy of an original  picture of  my father taken in October 1938 about a month and a half before he married my mother Cecilia who he used to called Cici. My father like me was the youngest child and his birthday was also in September.  My father told me the most he weighted in his life was 170 pounds. His height was about 5  feet 11 1/ 2 inches tall. He was  light  complexion with blue eyes. more to come  

Updated May 29, 2013 i will come back and write more about my  father but for now i will write about my mother Cecilia Pena Fernandez.. My mother was more Native she had light brown eyes and cheek bones. she was 5 f more to come 


Update September 10, 2013 I was born in 1956 and I am 56 years old . About  losing my religion  i drive a 1999 Buick Century. one day at the Grand Forks, ND Mission Troy tried to whisper something about someone else in my ear but i said no because that is children play or gossip and besides i don't like it. In 2006 in Grand Forks, ND  i was desperate and needed to talk with Fr. Bob so i called for a confession but the church sent me an older priest i didn't know. In my confession i said i had lied about the lawyers that is how despair i was. i was choosing my confessions. more to come

Updated September 11, 2013 next i will write about my past life at Main Ave St in Fargo and the dreams i had before i knew i was coming back and what I wrote  and lost on my drive about this song Written In The Stars.  today i am 57 years old. Thank You, God! Not very sure about this but i think there was a  
National Bank On Main Ave where now is the Bank of the West and we used to come cashed checks. we would park facing the front door on Main Ave i don't think i ever went inside this bank but i do remember waiting in the car looking at the sky through the reflections of the window mirrors. looking at the sky was very pleasant for me. Before my son was set up for the third time i was having these kind of dreams.  I dreamed i am on something going up and down the streets, railroads and going over and under bridges and even  parks. And i am looking at what i think in my dream are buildings. One of the building always gets my attention because it looks tall in a hill  and looks to me like the National Bank in Fargo. more to come      


Updated September 17, 2013 i used to listened to KQWB - FM = Fargo Moorhead. The Surrender was signed on September 3, 1945 i turned 45 on September 11, 2001.My son is 33 years old my address is 303.

Updated September 19, 2013 People in Fargo are very excited about this coming Saturday 21, 2013 as it  might be a nationwide or maybe even a worldwide event. Broadway street is just behind the building where I live. And the platform is getting really for the ESPN College Game Day takes off!

September 19, 2013 Child Beauty French Senate votes aims to protect  girls more to come.


September 19, 2013 Here is something i read today on this book Here is my kingdom by Charles Sullivan        "We Serve Whites Only No Spanish Or Mexicans" The whites didn't know what to label us because in my birth certificate where it reads Race i am white.  more to come

Update December 4, 2013  its been quite a while i haven't had the time to write more information  but because of the winter storm we are having i won't be going to work this afternoon so i have some time to write this down. it's been months that i had noticed this book named Autobiography of Mark Twain Volume 2 at the Moorhead public library and today i got a chance to look at some of its  inside pages. and because i had  mentioned Twain on my letters and on my blogger i will  mention him again. These are some of  the pages that caught my attention. page 376  Tuesday 22, 1907 and on page 301 this picture The Clemenses' house on Farmington Avenue, Hartford, winter 1880. and page 33. there is much  more but for today this is all.more to come

Updated January 19, 2014 Here i come Minnesotans, hold on to your seats!  Minnesota says my son had an early released from prison ?! And this was for drugs charges  against him   that in the first place were never ever proven by any lawyer, Judge or court!?  and these words are said to him again and again like a mind game for him to more to come                        



January 22, 2014 updated Katy Perry parents, pastors? there is a saying "The fruit doesn't  fall far from the tree." There is good money in preaching and many people do it for just that money they use the word of God. Gods Word to gain power and fame and of course money. she says (Katy Perry) her parents are Republicans and that they  didn't voted for Obama and asked her if they could go with her to Obama's Inauguration. Why!?  more to come

January 26, 2014 red carpet Updatd January 29, 2014 I can't remenmer what year it was but it was after 911that my uncle from California told  me i had to move my moble home so i bought a lot on the same street. And again i had to cleaned the yard. I can't remember if it was on the first lot or the second lot that some one gave me a  red carpet and a gray carpet. these carpets were were new never had been used. the gary carpet was too small for any of my two bedrroms so i gave it away. i don't like red carpets  but i didnt have money to buy tile to cover the floor.  this past weekend the Boat show was at the Fargodone and i went to help clean it up some of the floor had red carpet . Since long time ago I wanted to write about my badroom red carpet but did't have the time.  more to come


Updated January 29, 2014 Attention people more dreams! This morning i got up at 5:15 am to warm the car and get ready to drop my son on  700  30th  Ave S Moorhead. Then i went home cleaned the apartment and had breakfast set the  alarm clock to 7:30 am then I went back to bed.  I dreamed i was on the right side of a street looking to the opposite side. then i saw a man walking on the street talking to other men also walking with him. This first man i saw was doing most of the talking and in my dream i thought it was about the  downtown streets. this man was holding  on his left hand (hanging on his arm  a brown folder and a  black briefcase as he walked by). To me this man looked as if he was a lawyer or a CEO

Updated January 31, 2014 last night one of my children asked me if i knew what was going on with Henry H. Howe i said, no.  What?! this is for real or is it a Joke well planed by whole court system!? Because nothing i read looks real to me! and I will use the same words Howe used on his reply to Robert Ackre Attorney at Law then were sent to me back in December 31, 2008  "divert focus to the messenger rather than to me" would the United States Courts be  using Howe as a Scapegoat!? to divert me!? Now the word divert= turn and change.now a murder his not!much more to to come  


Updated February 3, 2014 many time i have woken up looked at the clock time is 5:55 am 3:33 am 1:11 am  2:22am 12;12 am 6:06 am  4:44 am more to come Today February 3, 2014 my daughter and i were out dining and she mentioned that this day was 55 years ago Ritchie, Holly Buddy and the big Popper were killed on a plane coming to Fargo, ND then she said we were eating a food  said to be good for prevention of Alzheimer's  disease    more to come




February 5, 2014  i will write about the number 9 Update February 9, 2014  on Tuesday January 14, 2014 as we were coming from Willow River, MN back  Moorhead  i was in the back seat and i turned my head to the right and there it was a road sign with the number 9. Several days after my daughter is remembering a kids show she used to watched then she mentioned  all you can do with  the  number 9. February 10, 2014  Where i live now the street  numbers are 2 and 9= 11 my mother had 9 pregnancies        . more to come   

Updated February 5, 2014 On January 28, 1986 i remember like most other people i was watching the Challenger took off and looking at the space ship exploded  what looked to me into two parts. more to come  
Uprated February 10., 2014 i can remember watching  on TV the civil rights movements especially  summer days when we were resting and having lunch. one day my oldest brother said, "I  don't know why they  just don't get a job and work." i didn't understand it ether i thought the people on the streets had too much time on their hands and were looking for trouble. this was because in a way we had never seen that there was a better and easier way to make a living. working on the fields was in a way all we knew. the black people because many lived in big cities were housekeepers, nannies  and by then were educated and knew  there was a better way of  living. more to come as i look at this book marching to the Mountaintop by Ann Bausum   more to come 
February 11, 2014 i don't  go inside any kind of church or listen on radio or TV   more to come

Updated February 13, 2014 i remember when i saw on the national news about a man named Morrie who was dying. i thought to myself why is it or him so important to put this dying man on the news, everyone dies, we are all going to die! And life went on for me  later i heard or saw on TV about a book  another man had written  named Tuesdays with Morrie still i would never care to know about this book because in the first place i had no time to read. And because i could not relate to it in any way my life has been  totally different, or so i thought. The Fargo and Moorhead libraries twice or once a year have book sells and lately i been collecting books that most of the time I still don't have time to read but more to come      and now that i am trying to understand what is going on what God is telling me and pass it on to You The People,  To You the World. more to come

Updated February 16, 2014  On January 24, 2014 i was about to give this book away that i had gone through the pages several times before and saw anything that i could relate to. I had bought it at Fargo's library long before the word Ford meant anything to me. The book is Medicine's Great Journey One Hundred Years of Healing introduction by Dr. Robert Coles.  Now that my son is with me he has asked me more then once, "why do  you have so many books?"  At first i really didn't know i just kept buying them but now i think it's because i need to go through most of them and read some lines to make sense of what is going on what i need to write about because on January 24, as i was going to give this book  away i went through it again and this is what is on page 72 a picture of a skeleton named Ford.  then i go into the internet to see who is Dr. Robert Cloes  and i read about him and musician Bruce Springsteen more to come

Last year was one century my parents were born.  This month  was my first grandson's birthday 2-12- 2014  his age 12.  This day also would have been the male educator  birthday that asked me once if i would lay down my life for someone else,  now i mentioned earlier that in 1975 i had moved to Valley with my sister Barbara and her family.  My address in Crystal City is 310 West Crockett my sister's address is Alamo Rd in Alamo TX. more to come

Updated February `16, 2014 today i went to the Fargo dome to to buy tickets for the Toby Mac concert. T shirts were on displayed for sell with one eye and this words "I got my eye on it." One of the sign's i hold outside the Federal building had one eye too, now who was first with this idea?  I was, or I am ?! Are Christians singers also repeating? Yes they are, i would say since 2004. more to come     
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February 21, 2014 the first time i saw this liquor store named 99 bottles on  Main ave in Moorhead i thought to myself,  "why the name, 99 bottles?" Months later i remembered the song 99 Bottles of Beer . then way  later  i remembered i had seen on the dictionary  einsteinium/ the chemical element of atomic number 99, a radioactive metal of the actinide series. Here's another one Concordia College on 901 8th St South,  in Moorhead. Concordia ship the one that sank. growing up my parents used to take me and my sister Barbara to the Luna Mexican Theater. Sometimes my mother didn't joined us, this was before i met Rosa Luna. When we got home  from the movies my father would asked us to rate the movie we had seen so we got to sit around the table and talk about what we had seen and what we liked about the movie February 22, 2014 and i told my father i had liked the part when the movie started where three is a girl in the middle with two boys on the sides in a convertible car driving in a downtown city singing and dancing to a song that went something like this, "como un reloj,  ticky tock." like a clock tick tock. i liked it so so that i  still remember on that night i would stand on a chair sing and dance to only those words that up now are the only ones i can remember about that movie. today as i am looking on the internet i come across the song by Kesha- tick tock  2009 and like most singers she repeats,    moves like Jagger. Now if you been reading what i been writing back in 2006 in Grand Forks, ND i was laughing at Jagger moves and  just like now the law was snooping.  FB<0>  was watching everything i said and did to tell you the people what to repeat back to me. now today as i drive north and south east and west  north on Main Ave i see and so can you a sign with a  countdown clock showing when the Dairy Queen will open.  more to come  
February 22, 2014 by the time i moved to 303 Fargo i knew i was on a mission. i knew i was about to do something to get the attention of you the people. and for me the hardest thing to do was to picketed  outside Saint Mary's Catholic church this is why i would do this at night. more to come

Updated March 8, 2014  on my father's side that i knew of I had  four uncles and two aunts. one uncle i never met because i think he died before i was born or i was too small to remember him. And one uncle moved to California with his wife and children. one aunt i never met because she died i heard giving birth to her first child.  many years later in the nineties  i met her husband named Jimenez. more to come

Updated March 26, 2014 two of my uncles one  named Tomas the other named Julio stayed in Crystal City also my aunt named Maria De Jesus Fernandez Lara then later Tellez.  .
I don't remember which  uncle died first but on this first family funeral i attended


Updated March 10, 2014 does the Fargo Federal people and government want me back on strike?! this day Monday March 10, 2014 i went to the social security office and this is what happened.  more to come if you want me back i am really with new signs and new words! March 13, 2014 and i will come back  to you the women on the second to the last window who played with my mind and didn't gave me my right to public service  you gave it to two other short men when it was my turn and i had been waiting on a long line.  i will call you brave woman because you have no idea what you got yourself into when you decided to play with my mind. Now i will go down to your most personal private and  ask you "how would you feel if it was you, me!"  more to come

Updated March 11, 2014 attention  people more hints  these words: Oklahoma, Bastard  Beatrice  more to come

Updated March 16, 2014 yesterday i was going to start writing about a person named Gracie in Greeley, Colorado then i remembered all the people i knew with the name Kelly. so i looked up Grace Kelly and leaned she was Grace Patricia Kelly. who was born November12, 1929 had a car accident on September 13, 1982 and died September 14, 1982. was married in 1956 to a Monaco Prince. which made her a princess.                    

why  on  March 10, 2014  i went to the Federal building was to get information on how to get my rightfully widow funeral benefits i never received  from the Government. Raul Canela Munoz had passed away back in 2011 and at that time i was living here in Fargo, ND. now on this day march 10, the women now i call Brave gave me a form it says that i had two years to report his death to get my widow benefits. i remember very well that when my father died not one person in my family knew about  government sending money to  widows. the government just simply did their job because i figured  the funeral home  reported to the government that my father had died and  my mother just simply got a check on the mail that she was not expecting. back in 2011 about six months after my husband death  i found out he had died. i remember that on that day i mentioned it to crew i was riding with on our way to Pizza Corner. i had and have been too busy working to look into why i never got the money that rightfully is mine! now as i looked into the internet to see what funeral in Greeley had buried my husband live in  girlfriend. i read on her obituary where it says she had been with her husband since 1982. well in the fall of 1983 i moved to Greeley and Raul was seeing both of us but she was smoking pot with him  and having the babies. but he never field for a divorced. he was too busy making enough money to get High.  (This this was the time of Attorney General Dan Morales who at the time was too busy  in bars looking for a strip tease to marry.) he had no time for single parents like me. i would call Del Rio to report Raul absents but Dan was too busy hitting the Go Go Bars looking for a bride. so men like Raul were with out any  obligations to pay child support. Raul went on having  out of wedlock children. now i haven't been able to find Raul obituary but my daughter told me that she and her bother were not mentioned on his. when i found out his girlfriend named Gracie Beatrice Guzman had passed away before Raul i looked for her obituary and couldn't  find it until these past weeks that i read mentioned her husband. i called the funeral and told him  i had been his wife. he told me something like this that if they were living together for a curtain time they were consider married.  i told him he never divorcied me and we had been married by cival and church they both were just having children. Then i asked him, "what husband  is going to be witten on my obituary?" and i went on to tell him, "my children are not the Basdturs!" i told him he had to start making changes on her obituary because what he had were not facts but lies. Back in 1975-76 school year   in the valley there was an argument going on with the Diama class students about some studeants or teachers not allowing the word basturd to be used on the Oklohola play. i have never really payed attention to the movie or play to hear if this word is mention but i was told it is mentoned. some students back then  were  asking why not use the word when it is even wrtten on the Bibile. now that i read it i know this is  true.    her name was Gracie    more to come






Update April 10, 2014 this past Tuesday my daughter and i went to see     more to come about the dozen of  jumbo eggs  i bought at   and all eggs have  two yolks. on Tuesday  Laura Story said she was having twins. i will write about this same week i told my daughter about my sisters  back in the seventies buying home decor with spears. when I saw For King and Country drums  this was the design i was  trying to tell my daughter but the spears were on an x not a cross.more to come soon i will write about the morning i saw the  trains passing on  the day of the explosion. i will go back to the seventies when a man from Australia stopped to talk with us as i were working on the f

Update April 17, 2014 everything everything around me is repeated even this road car assistance booklet repeats. This month of April 2014 i noticed this. more to come


Updated April 19, 2014  later i will write how the Protection Social Services protects the abuser but not the abused child. i will write how the abused child has no rights and has no voice. more to come


I will write about about Tuesday's  April 15, 2014 Blood Red Moon i will write about Mr. Snowdon. and the day


Update May 7, 2014 i don't remember how old my daughter  was or was going to be but on one of her teenage birthdays her father Raul send her a box with some things on it. one of those things was a cassette with music and i remember these three songs were on it Amarillo By Morning, American Pie and Mr. Bojangles    more to come

Update May 7, 2014 one day when i was a child i went with my father to my what i believe was the grocery store of my Godparents. on the wall was a picture of a white woman and a refrigerator with a long line of all kinds of food coming out from it. i couldn't stop looking at it because i liked it colors and liked looking at all the food coming out. My Godfather told me   more to come why i kn      

Updated May 21, 2014 since i moved to 56560 i remembered and  been wanting to write about Crosses but i haven't had the time.  Today May 21, 2014  I saw things in the internet i don't know about 911 Zero Ground and the cross, a lot more to come!  growing up during the summers here in the North we went through many scary  storms


Updated May 24, 2014  i am not sure but i think  the Red Rambler that my father taught me to drive was mounted somewhere on West Main Ave  more to come

Update June 2, 2014 if you pay attention you will notice that names are also repeated. The Summer  my sister Barbara   stayed behind with her husband to be Rey Salinas a boy older  then me named Mike serenade me the song Windy. more to come  later more on Mike

Updated June 3, 2014   i see this man who at first i haven't  noticed then one day he gets my attention but in a strange way reminds me of another man's brother i used to talk with .Days go by  might have been the 21, 22,or23  that someone says the name Eric.   Update June 12, 2014  what i am about to write here is not easy for me and i don't even know how to start I don't want to hurt anyone or bring up sad memories  and you need to understand that i am  also hurting  very much too.  But in order for you to understand me i need to write down and explain  to the best of my ability that what is going on around us is very very serious. this is not just about me wanting to come before the government but something much deeper. since i made up my mind to come north and confront  the lawyers I've been very strong and i try very hard not to let my guard down. the man that came to mind is Mr. Eddie Cuellar Elsa Perez husband. now they had two children a daughter named Erika and a son named Erik. Erik  is  resting in peace and  was born in the month of September. Erika has twin boys. now Eddies brother Julio was born on February 12. Julio is also resting in peace. i can't reveal         more to come

Updated June 5,2014 Now that Paul is coming to town i must write about one Summer day it could have been 1969 or 1970. We  were  finishing a  sugar beet field and the radio car  was on then the song Long And Winding Road  started  playing .  July 9, 2014 during these years of late sixties and early seventies my big brother invited two families from Crystal City to help us with the beets. one was the family Ramirez and the  other were the Luna. (Luna = Moon not related to Rosa Luna) Mr. and Mrs Luna only had one son named Manual .Barbara my sister when she heard they were coming  along  went wild she really liked Manuel. Manual was a  football   player and wore eye glasses was medium height and light weight. Barbara liked Manual and they did dated for a while. I personally didn't like Manual and he knew it. to me Manual thought of himself as too much of a good looking. Too  much of a good football player too much of a high society but then again i was just a kid. but when the Radio started playing Long and Winding Road and  i saw my big brother heading towards the car i knew he was going to change the Radio Station and he did. then i saw Manual looked up and stopped working so did I and we both looked at each other in disbelieved for a while Manual and i became friends and we were probably  thinking the same thing  how dare would my brother change the Radio Station and put it on a  News program.  I know my brother liked the  Beatles  music but every time a Beatles song was played he remembered Ohio.  i don't know for how  long we migrated  to Ohio but i remember we had to stop because my brother was getting real bad allergies  attacks were he couldn't breath. the  fog  from the lakes or trees  he was allergic to and a doctor told him if he wanted to live he had to leave the State. for this to affected  him so much  might have been   because  he had met someone he liked a lot and wanted to keep seeing her. i really don't know but i bet it was Love. in Texas as a child he had been diagnosed with Asthma.


Update July 10, 2014 Now Rosa Luna has a brother in law who was or still is working with NASA. One day Rosa was cleaning her closet and found an Elvis Presley button picture and said something like this " only memories are left behind of Elvis concert i went to with my sister in Houston  more to come   long before I  knew i was losing Rosa as a friend  to her boyfriend Guzman and so did her mother. more to come 

 July 9,2014  growing up in a  farm is not easy for a child most of the time  it's very lonely i had no one to play with on rainy days or Sundays only when we went downtown Casselton for Mass and the priest had something going on we would meet with other families. my sister Barbara always liked to teased me to the point of making me cry. my mother and us girls slept on a one bedroom house which had a kitchen where we cooked.  my father and brothers slept on another house closed by. one day Barbara came to the bedroom  whisper on my ear that there were a group of boys in the Kitchen  from other Farms that were visiting me and wanted to play with me. i was shocked and very much embarrassed  i didn't know what to do. I wasn't a tomboy and as much as i didn't mean them being boys i wanted to play with girls. so i stayed in the room and i climbed  up to the bed to see through a hole on the wall  and there they were i don't know if they were three or four of them but they were sitting on a twin bed watching TV waiting for me to come out. up to this day i have no idea  who those boys were.             

Updated June 9, 2014 from here on i will not erase what i write ! I will rephrase it differently   but I will  not erase  it ! So you married men be very careful with your actions and in directs!

  


 June 9, 2014 i will write about last week at the Moorhead  Public Library when i saw this children's book title Anne Frank's Chestnut Tree and why it made me cry.  before 2010 i colored  my hair light brown or  medium brown but one day i saw this color here in Fargo Medium Golden Chestnut brown box 46 by Revlon and i more to come   next   will write about last  name Nelson Updated

 Updated June 25, 2014  Mr. Nelson was my Crystal City High School  History teacher he said he was from South Dakota. more to come   July 8, 2014 Mr. Nelson was very good at teaching most of the time he would know if  (I  will speak for myself )was listening by looking at my eyes to see if i was paying attention to him. but one day i closed my eyes. and how i wished i had never done that! Mr. Nelson was liked = WW2 he would have us watching endless 2 world War films. I already had a war of fears going on in my mind. attention towards me i wanted none i knew i wasn't pretty and that didn't bothered  me as much as not  being smart but back then i didn't know how to be smart now i know that maybe if i would have visited Mr. Websters more often i would have had a better chance of being smarter.        on that day i felt so bad after Mr. Nelson told me no one was going to fall asleep    on his class room and many other things that for a while i only saw his now that i know ( Norwegian light hair mustache  moving)   i wanted to find a big rock and hide underneath it. i was so embarrassed  i don't remembered his ex words but my mind was going please stop it i promise next time i will not even blink    please no more attention towards me  more to come        

Updated June 12, 2014 Mr. H.Howe now that you didn't go to prison start looking for the recording you said you have of me yelling and chasing away an Task Force Officer because you are going to need them! And  i never said i had been your Client!Update


June 17, 2014 one day long time ago I might have been in the eighth grade i had been cruising in town with Jesse Moncada and we park at Garcia's park Jesse kept looking at me then told me this " You look so much like my sister Beatrice"  also other people had told me i looked like her and i can still remember one time we both were in the  school girls bathroom  and we looked at each other. I was thinking do i really look like her could be she was thinking the same i really don't know because we never talked to each other  now before i go on Jesse was a decent young man so all we did was talked  and i knew him enough to trust him because times more to come  now years went by when Belia Juarez  was living in San Antonio and had asked me to go stay with her for the weekend. Belia told me Ricardo Salas sister had an apartment closed by and that she wanted to meet me and for me to pay her a visit.  i knocked  on her door she opened and called me Beatrice. now where am i going with all these ? I knew  Raul's girlfriend name was Grace but i didn't know her second name was Beatrice.   more to come


Updated  June 25, 2014  i wish i had more time to correct my spelling  but i don't and i still have so much more  to write about  words like  Amber, Marbles   and the   The Westertoren seen from the attic window of the secret annex and he cross i see from my apartment. more to come   and about the Movie i watched on my day off from work The Big Chill more to come

Update June 30, 2014 right now i will write about the Heart when i knew my marriage was going nowhere i prayed to God to give me courage  to go back to Texas without looking back and He did. i was young with two small children i  often  prayed to God  for a new start with another man i know i even bargain with Him  but He never answered.  more to come     

Update July 12, 2014 my mother's favorite actor was Pedro Armendariz i was very little but i remember mother never missed his movies. she used to say that Armendariz reminded her of one of her brother's. i don't know about that but i know she loved his acting. and i know that if Armendariz ever went to Crystal City she would have been one of the first ones in line to see him. and yes back then Mexicans actors and actress did go to Crystal City Theaters. more to come

Updated July 14,2014 today before i could write i had to listen to these songs to charge my mind  By UB40 Can't Help Falling In Love  Red Red  Wine   last night my daughter told me sad news about my beloved nephew Ricardo's death. I knew he was very sick but i wanted him to die close to me but this was out off my hands.  And i know his in a better place but i will sure miss him. Ricky like so many children suffered a lot.more to come

Update July 16, 2014 whoever else went to the Paul Mc Carthney concert did you hear him say the word cookies? In 2005 when i met you lawyer H. Howe( and it was only me and you in your office) i used that word and you thought I  pronounced it funny. Who told Paul to say and do certain things i say and do? i know it had to be you  and the rest of the people who the law tells what goes on inside my home, car and what i say on the phone. Howe, are you having a hard time finding the recording of me yelling to an narcotic  officer?Remember I have a copy of the letter you sent to the third party.

Raul Munoz that is my children's father told me once that when he was in the military some white people  would called him Paul because some could not pronounced the word Raul or because they got confused and thought his name started with a P.

Update July 21, 2014  today I got a phone call from people who told me i was under an investigation. I got this to say, "what's new about that!?"  i have a lot to write about  just normal questions I asked a coworker  on how he would felt      if it was him  under 24/7 surveillance. now i didn't   





Update July 30, 2014 on my way back to Texas i was constantly given hints i was being watched but it first i tried hard to ignore it  and it worked for a while. but then i got so sick i couldn't more to come 

Updated 24, 2014 Yesterday as it sink in i was so mad so angry but  like everyday of my life i had to stay cool and pretended  i was OK this is this is what happened. I was fired from my job  because i was accused of sexual harassing two grown women just for asking them questions on how would they feel if they were the ones being seen having sex with their husbands live in boyfriends and this got these women upset when they have been repeating things  only i would  know. (When in fact it is me the ONE who is daily mentally raped

July 24,2914 for many many years i have been forgiving you pretending nothings wrong accepting  all your hate without doing much to fight back now lets see how much of a forgiven Christians you really are. many of you say you love God and are good people but what if you were me? Would you still forgive the world and believed in God? Like the saying goes " talking is cheap" Back in 2006 when you the law set me up and  let me know you had set up my son and you were in power and there was nothing i could do because you hold all the cards i wanted to go crazy. (and that's what you wanted) i felt so down that one night i just wanted to take my clothes off go out in the snow and just die. when i got enough strength went back to Texas i had to go through the never ending  mourning  lost of  privacy. this is a feeling that never ends i just had to get used to it because there is nothing i can do or anyone else can do things are just going to get worst and if your priest is saying there are not he is lying. privacy is a thing of the past right now is me and who knows who else on camera but tomorrow it might be many of you and you just wouldn't know it unless the law wants you to know. now i knew it was time for me to move on because i will be 58 and Fargo zip is 58102 and the other thing is that about two weeks ago the dryer on my apartment reaped two of my white new blouses. more to come      


  July 24, 2014 before i write more on this let me tell you women, i am not like you! I don't have a mama or papa or husband or live in boyfriend not even a lover! no man pays my bills! i am truly alone! July 31, 2014  (well not really Christ is with me)  but i tell you i will defend myself! !next i will write what were the questions. Update July 30, 2014 i never stay angry for more then an hour. I know angry  i will never accomplished a thing.           



before January 2006  i used to closed the door got on my knees and pray. i used to undressed and do many other things that should be private like checked my breast without thinking i was being watched.  but not any more      more to come  but first you the people need to know who I was  and what i was forced to become to over come this horrible ordeal that i am  still going through.  

Update July 21, 2014 this is one of the ways God tells me He is in control.     what i am about to write has been banging my head for a long time about two weeks ago a man named Kamill did something that reminded me i needed to write it down. this man originally from the Middle East saluted me. Salute= gesture of respect, homage or polite recognition or acknowledgment.      when i was in second grade a boy i knew named Hector Juarez  used to salute me as he was going  in line with  his classroom mates   from the south side and i was going in from the north side with my class mates  to my classroom. He would moved to the side of the line and stand straight up and salute. he did this for about two weeks until i got tried of him only playing this way with me then one i  saluted him back. but look looking Hector didn't seem to like it then i stopped and he did it again. through the years i knew he liked me but i knew all his family and I saw him like a cousin or very closed friend. then one day as i was waiting for his sister Yolanda he was at the door and he tells me look at that girl her name is also Marta. the other Marta was from Mexico and was nanny for the children of a Band Director and his wife. Hector was calling to her and  whistling at her as she was walking by. she did say something back to him but i don't remember what. later i heard they were getting married. then years later i hear they are living in San Antonio but not together years after i hear he died. Marta was or still is a very good looking women. Now nobody can argue with me that most all Mr. Juan and Antonia children are very good looking. especially  was Rebecca that i only knew by picture. Rebecca's father in law was very well known because he was a Radio d                        more to come 

Update July 28, 2014 i heard  it's been 30 years since Purple Rain, purple was Rebecca Juarez Montemayor   favorite color more to come  

One day back  in 2011 as  i   was riding  with others to Valley City i asked   why was the Airport named Hector International Airport, who was Hector but nobody knew. more to come  


 update July  21, 2014 next will write about movies Apollo13 and
 Update July 26, 2014   The movie Confidence. Wasn't  it William Shakespeare who said "All The World's  A Stage?"   All the world a stage,and all the men and women merely players: they have their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts,and his acts being seven ages. i buy back then movies to relaxed my mind because most movies from nowadays are repeating. but movies like this one makes me think twice.  I bought this movie at the Dakota Ranch  and all movies are checked before put up for sell. I put the movie in and it repeats. July 30, 2014 it starts where King is touching jacks hands                   more to come   

Update July 25, 2014 maybe now with a bit more time i will write more and learn about one of my daughter's  favorite  author who was C.S. Lewis

Updated July 28, 2014 last night i dreamed I was somewhere in Texas i saw flowers everywhere on the ground and we were at War. maybe this dream has to do with two movies i saw during the day. but around 7:00am the clock alarm wakes me up and i hear the news  more to come.

Update July 30, 2014 Today I am very happy because yesterday I saw my future.

Update 30,2014 reason why in 1975 i moved to Alamo with my sister Barbara. more to come

Updated August 1, 2014 On July Thirtieth my daughter calls me tells me one of her Crystal City school classmate  has two tickets for the show Heaven is for Real. I really didn't wanted to go i thought to myself what possibly could I learn from it? I know there is a Heaven like i know there is a Hell. That night  around 11:45 pm i went out for a long walk  started complaining to God why He had taken Ricky when i wanted to see him and make up for not being there for him when he needed me the most.  i had many other complains on my list.  when i got tired of walking i sat outside the apartment on a white chair facing  north. one of the tenant left a radio on and i was listening to a talk show and my mind was full with thoughts. the station could have been Coast to Coast but i am not sure it might have also been  a religious show. the topic was about strange sounds or strange things that sometimes cannot be explained but by praying can be stopped . I started thinking why when I  was still  a child i wanted to stop going to school and had asked my parents to stop sending me to summer school and instead take me to the fields with them. i don't remember if i told them why but for many years i was the only child at the Farm.     more to come  Updated August 2, 2014 on this night as i was talking to God  in my head  as I looked up to the sky I saw some kind of White Bird flying  from the North to the South moving fast i kept looking up until it passed over above one tree blocking my view. more to come   

Update August 18, 2014  This year was the 56th  Annual Pioneer Bonanzaville days in West Fargo. August 2, 2014 Did you know that Hitler was 56 when he died? Adolf Hitler German leader born in Austria; chancellor of Germany 1933-45. he confounded the National Socialist German workers (Nazi) party in 1919 and came to prominence through his powers of oratory.   


Updated  August 21, 2014 many more hints God has given me i just don't have the time to write them down. Several weeks ago i started driving these streets 33rd Ave south and 33rd St south from these streets you can see a Ford Company. The first time I drove by these streets there was an empty  lot now the Ford company parked vehicles . Update August 22, 2014 if you keep driving on 33rd street and hit 35rd Ave  you will come to a died end with a line of twin-houses. now if you go inside the hospital on the corner of these two streets which is at 3000  32nd Ave south  Essentia Health Hospital and use the inside telephones more to come     Now on  these streets 32 rd Ave south and 32 rd St south there is a Five Star storage more to come  

Update August 22, 2014 now people if you think you can play games with my mind and get away with it you are very very wrong  because just as you give me hints you are mocking me by playing  on the radio certain songs like this one Every Breath You Take and if I belong to you then you belong to me and i will mention you on my blogger.  i used to be very shy but you the people are full of evil that i had to change my ways.    Now is sucking really a bad word to use? more to come

Update August 25, 2014 i just had to listen to the Fabulous Supremes. In the school year of 1978-1979 Rosa Sanchez and  i used  to work for the Crystal City School District and on my way to work I would pick her up at her  parents home on East Holland Street. One day she told me she had something to tell me but didn't know how to start. She told me she had dreamed i had died. I am more then sure this was after i had a dreamed I was Bald. Now the woman who took my place is dead and my son is Bald.  more to come 

Update 26, 2014  Here i will write about Sam's Club  but first i must write about my daughter's Senior  Wal mart       $1,000     Scholarship More to come

Update August 28, 2014 Remember everything around me is repeated. One day Mrs Pallman Jewish lady from San Antonio had a painting on her wall on the left side as you walked out to the front door on the  hallway. one day as i helped her waked to the kitchen she asked me what was the painting about. i told her it was somewhere in Holland.   she asked me how did I know it was Holland.    more to come


September 6, 2014 On the month of May 2014 these two songs were often played on F-M radio stations. Maggie May and You're No Good.  Linda Ronstadt has Parkinson's disease my oldest brother Luis had Parkinson's. disease.  September 9, 2014 In Crystal City i know a woman named Esmeralda Rodriquez but she is also known by the name May. In 2006 in Grand Forks when I knew something was terribly wrong and i knew it were the lawyers sending people to mess me up. To clear my mind i would watched movies  with my grandsons one of them was the How The Grinch Stole Christmas


One night on the month of June 2014 i walked from Fargo to Moorhead and read the stone which reads S S G Andrew P. Nelson Memorial Track more to come


September 7, 2014 My daughter once told  me she had read somewhere that if you wanted to make God laugh just tell Him your plans. Boy wasn't He been laughing at me! Today Sunday  morning I  had planned on going with other women to Bismarck work at Walmart Store but my ride never come instead I went to La Unica in Moorhead to see two young women that i never noticed before they are twins     more to come


September 9, 2014

September 10,2014 like i wrote before i had a lot to write but i just don't have the time. On September 11, 2001 my daughter had called me to tell me the news about the planes she knew about it because one of her friend of an airline attendant and he was suppose to be on one of those planes but something happened and he was not. at the time my daughter was living in San Marcos, TX her zip code was 78666  more to come

Back to my dreams  way before i knew i was coming back to ND i had several times  i had this other dream i was in a car and i am always sitting on the left side on the back  i am thinking it's  somewhere in North Dakota and i am with the rest of my family it's a ride to the fields but then i hear unfamiliar voices and i realized i am with strangers  then i looked at them  and i see there is snow on the road and i know it's somewhere here but i am thinking who are those people i am with and where are we going and why is there snow in the ground. now i know what this was all the people i would ride to Valley City were strangers to me more to come Updated September 20, 2014 other dreams i used to have were that i was running through the back Farm  fields of  wheat or more to come back then at night i would stand and looked to the East and wonder what it would be like to live in  downtown Fargo more to come      

Updated  September 16, 2014 What! The  Big NFL monster parent is out and the four year old child is in  a jail house!   Later i found out the NFL didn't even lives with the son.   more to come

  Update  September 16, 2014  I think I  know who is the father of Miss  Idaho Preteen  one day back in the  late sixties  or early seventies when my sister Barbara was dating Salinas she heard that a white woman was going to have  or that had a baby and the father was Salinas. that day Barbara took me with her at first i didn't know where we were going but we drove to her home and Barbara asked the young lady  if it was true. I don't  remember  if during the time i  was in the Valley I got to see the little boy but way later in life Cecilia Barbara's daughter did show me a picture of her and her brother from Idaho where he had escorted her to her 15th  birthday party.  since 2006 when i noticed my older siblings were also playing mind games  i stopped all contacts so i don't know too much only what i hear from my children          more to come

Update September 18, 2014 for  several  weeks I been working at the Wal mart store on 13 Ave in Fargo      through Commend Center and one of our Wal mart crew leader told me and others about what she had heard on TV about the Polyethylene on Crest toothpaste.  I instantly  thought about  the rumor back in eighties in Colorado what people were saying about Crest Trademark. someone back then pointed to me the more to come then i looked up the word crest


Update September 19, 2014 Early yesterday i was thinking about a poem i used to love to read in school Annable Lee by Edger Allen Poe.   I think it was with Mr. Escamilla when I first learned about this poem. I used to think what great love this man had for his Annable Lee. Then later last night I am watching the Scandal when  previews  of  the horror movie Annablle  The Haunted  Doll I see.   (I have never known of anyone ever loving me that way maybe it's because I don't know  how to show I love. I really don't know i just know I am still waiting on God for His answer)      this is not the first time something like this happens to me. One day before Rabin William took his life my daughter and i were having a conversation about the  weather here up north. we were talking about how long the summer days are then i mentioned the movie insomnia  more to come

Update September 20,2014 Just as when i saw  the word Oklahoma  on  posters at the Discovery Benefits i knew i was going write  about it so  was it when i saw Jo Stafford on Capital Records. One day when my children were in Junior high my brother and daughter were watching a TV program about Capital Punishment and i was in another room but i  could hear  i walked by and  announced to them that if someone would ever take my life not to seek the death penalty. The Death Penalty is something i strongly don't believe in it

  Update September 23, 2014 last night i was listening to a Moorhead radio program about Spanish music and i heard one of my favorite song Las Nubes by Little Joe Y La Famila then I remembered back then there was a Spanish  F-M Station that would play Spanish music  early in the morning for about one hour or  thirty minutes. Today I saw &amp; heard  my fathers favorite song Solamente Una Vez      sang by Little Joe &amp; Willie Nelson         more to come Update September 23, 2014 remembering   two Epidemics we had back then one was were flies  the other were Grasshoppers. when i was in beauty school  in Greeley Colorado there was a young white woman  always happy and out going always going  to  music concerts. She  liked to be called Cricket so i never knew her real name.And  if i am not mistaken she had red  curly hair. Flies seen to be reminding me not to forget about them too  more to come  one day Cricket was in a hurry to leave i knew where she was going but anyway i asked her where are you going  she said i am going to see Phil Collins to hear him sing Sussudio

September 23, 2014 about late shows like Jimmy Kimmel more to come
 Update September 24, 2014 am i right the women i saw today standing at the Women's Way clinic  were Mama killers? There were also a few Papa killers. more on how the Devil almost made me have in abortion by showing me all the whys

Updated September 24, 2014 Yesterday Tuesday morning i knew i had to wake up by 6:00 am but my eyes were wide opened way before has I looked at the clock it was 5:55am. Around 6:30 am I am driving on 32 Avenue South as  I  looked at a sign and it read 55   more to come   


Update September 24, 2014 before i start writing i need to mention that i never said I was smart or that i knew everything what i been saying is how everything around me keeps repeating. The name Eric has been on my mind  and just tonight i learned that author Gorge Orwell real name is Eric Arthur Blair 1903-1950.  Update  September 29, 2014 Several  months ago i got calls from an doctor's office where i had been seen     for a car accident  and calls from an insurance agency  asking me if i could call  payroll    Erick Balanger about late insurance  payment     more to come



Update October 7, 2014 Jodi Adair remember when i asked you to write down name and phone number of  Eric L. Gudmundson ? And you wrote it  Eric Goodmarson more to come

 October 1, 2014 Update now let's check who is Jay Metzger and see how smart  and educated he really is. more to come

Update October 2, 2014 Jay Metzger do you remember writing the word Scabies on this medical form? This is your handwriting i know because i asked you to write what you had diagnosed me with on this day that i went in to see you    red itching skin April 6, 2012 i will get back to this but for now i will tell you what you told others i had and again i will prove to you, you were wrong! Do you know Gopi MD, Sreejith? Update October 4,2014 Metzger what was wrong with me was BED BUGS! How  they got to my apartment i don't know  they could have come from my grandsons apartment because before i had heard  from their mother they were having this problem but once I  figure it out i called a Pest Control Professional and the problem was gone!  And i was going to forget about this  Big mistake you made until this week when i went for  a Sugar Blood Test and Gopi MD told me what you had said and wrote down about me having a MENTAL DISORDER. You like many others think you can say and write anything you want  about me  to look good with each other and have a good laugh. You think I won't  fight you back! You are very wrong  i wish i had the time to write more but i also have to work and still tolerate you the wicked people!  Metzger you wrote down I had  Paranoid Personality Disorder =  influenced by anxiety or fear, often to he point of irrationality and delusion.       making false accusations and the general distrust of others also frequently accompany paranoia. (Everyone is out to get me) I have  a lot to tell you and others and i will!       Much

September 29, 2014 more to come






Update September 25, 2014 this  dream might mean nothing but i will write it down several weeks ago i dreamed my sister Conch (Connie)    was in a wheelchair on that same dream i sew soldiers getting off a ship running to ground. Concha = Shell. when I hear the word shell i think seashell



 Update October 7, 2014 this card was sent to my mail box.  Is this really how these people think of God? Crazy a very popular word since the madness began back in 2004 to drive me crazy now even some who call themselves Christians use it like nothing now they even say God is also crazy. What  is this world    coming to? I know we should be more careful with words when we put God our Savior = Jesus Christ in front.    more to come

    

Update October 11, 2014 I didn't know  Ebola first United States Victim full name was Thomas Eric Duncan. more to come

  October 11, 2014 So  much is on my head but not enough time to write.  My mother had half siblings from my grandfathers second marriage. Two of her half brothers married two sisters.  (I didn't and i don't  know much about Sadden Hussein  but then my daughter and I watched the movie  Sadden Hussein. He marries two of his daughters with two brothers who he later sends to be killed). My mother first half brother's name was Porfirio and another half brother was named Antonio. Profirio  had children I only have met two of them Profirio Jr and Gracie. Now from a long time ago i knew Profirio Jr was studying medicine then i heard his brother Antonio was also a Doctor. 

Update  October 13, 2014  Now in Fargo i used to live near the VFW on 2th Ave North i used to and sometimes I  still go in to listen to  live music and a few beers. Now my mother had several military gifts that her brother Profirio had sent to her when he was in if i am not mistaken U.S. Air Force. i am sure i saw something like a sofa pillow case that read these words To my sister and the words Air  Force.       more to come

 Update  October 13, 2014 My third  grandson Julian birthday is January 13, 2006  his mother birthday is today October 13, 2014 

                                                                                                                                                                                Updated October 13, 2014    Back then i don't really remember it could have been in the early seventies Profirio and his girlfriend were on their way to Mexico to continue or begin his medical career and they stopped by our home Profirio i can't remember well but he said something about trying to get a  Crystal City VFW scholarship. Back to Austin, Texas  on the night I went tricking or treating  with my cousins  I put on an old Military Boots that were in my a Virginia house.      more to come          

Update  October 14,2014  In the Idaho Camp there was a family i don't' really know where they were from but there was a boy who had been in a car accident and he had lose one arm. His sister told me that when the time of the accident  her brother had his arm  more to come     hand and the mute lady more to come

Updated October 14, 2014 how we now love Halloween and  Fornication that it's part of life and we have even taken it to our churches.    more to come  the movie Annabelle and Dolls more to come 

Update October 15, 2014 There is a one Menard store in Fargo, ND and there is one Menard store in Moorhead, MN I've  been to both stores. Can you guess where my Father was born? In Menard County, Texas! What was his favorite  rose? The Yellow Rose of Texas.  

Why are some people mentioning the name Carlos? I'll tell you why. more to come. 

Update October 20,2014 now one of my son's Godfather is Dr. Antonio Guzman MD from Corpus Christi, Texas.  The last time I saw his mother  in Crystal City   who used to call me Comadre because Tony wasn't married had invited me to go visit my Compadre in Corpus Christi. Compadre = more to come 

Update October 21, 2014 when i met Raul not long before he had been released from the Army and was driving a red and white top Fire bird.  I don't remember the year of the car, but it looked new.  And I don't remember the year but it was before we married Raul and his passengers had an accident in Grafton, North Dakota      i am not sure but i think it was in 1983 when i bought a two door all green Thunderbird . more to come  

Update October 23, 2014 back then in Crystal City, TX  there was a young man who was brutally killed. and if i am not mistaken his name was Luis Alberto Segovia. now back in 2004 I knew a woman named Linda this woman sometime before had gone to Crystal City because at that time was girlfriend to my son's grandfather. i saw her in Grand Forks, ND in 2004 and again in 2005.In 2005 we went out to eat and drink  while my son was in jail. Linda introduced me to another Mexican woman from Grand Forks, ND her name is Lucy Segovia. on February 8, 2006 when attorney Eric in court gave me hints that all i did or said was going to be used against me these two women like all of you were also repeating. now in 2011 i am here in Fargo and start working in Valley City there i met this woman named Maria Segovia from Mexico who is also doing the same repeating what i do inside my apartment what conversations i have with my daughter on the phone and on the car. Update October 26, 2014 now how does Maria works her way around me? I used to talk with this woman then i stopped because i know since a long time was told to repeat and who is telling this woman to repeat? This information about me has to come from the Law the law gives it to you the People then you repeat.  

It would be impossible to mention  all who repeat because you are the World you are the People. So i will mention only a few from Crystal City. Polly Lopez and her employees. HEB store in Crystal City. Here employers and employees at Commend Center. Employers and employees at Kmart store in 2006 in Grand Forks, ND. Kohl's Department store at 4444 13th ave south here in Fargo. Employers, employees and customers at  Walmart store in 13Ave south here in Fargo. people at  Sam's club    more to come 

 Next what is a friend? Mr.  Webster's says Friend =  a person whom you know well and like;  Update October 25, 2014 Not giving friends is not easy for me all people i knew growing up  or thought i knew have been playing wicked mind  games but not only they so are You The People i just met or I am going to meet or i will never meet. i wrote a letter to someone used the word Friend like all that i write, say and do this word has been repeated. I heard a clergy on the radio say something negative about a  person who says they have no friends. I know this clergy was told to repeat this word. This Clergy knows Jack about not having  friends but sure likes to talk. a friend does not repeat to drive someone else Crazy. people in general don't like me and i know it! later i will mention a few people i thought were friends but have show me by repeating they are not. this is what you made me think of you. You are mind Rapists, cowards, Bullies and big time sinners and tomorrow Sunday you will all go inside a church and smile shake hands with each other because you are all of  the same kind! From Crystal City.        Rosa Luna Guzman  Sandra Garza Marta Jimenez Lily Olivarez       Lydia Olivarez    and much more.      more to come But what about if it was your pubic gray hair on the line, what would you do? You see i can't spread my legs like you grown women and young girls do.    i can't check my breast i can't go to the bathroom workout you the people giving me hints what i did in the toilet! You think this is funny?  lets see if you can laugh at yourself or laugh at someone you  love! more to come  

  next who are the people giving me a hard time at all jobs more to come 

Updated October 25, 2014 more on how God tells me He is in control and makes me strong on my faith in Him. In the Nineties I was restless and without a job i asked this family nick named Los Monstruos  if I could ride them up north. we came to work in Clarkfield, MN. The year my children and i went to Colorado we passed through   Littlefield, TX  more to come Next on Susie and El Mirror and their daughter named   more to come 

Update October 28, 2014 What does the Bible says about privacy?Today as i listened  to Dr. Ed Young talk on Video about A Broken Court System. I can't more to come 

 

Update October 30, 2014 it was Tuesday October 7, 2014 My daughter and i were on the car on 13 Ave South passing 32 Street southwest. when i noticed the beautiful big Moon surrounded by clouds.  The Moon was right straight in front of us as we drove East.  I felt as if she wanted me to noticed her and i did I told my daughter look at the Moon so bright and beautiful. I missed the first Lunar Eclipse because i had forgotten the day but that night i had gone outside i just never looked up. and on Tuesday October 7, i didn't know there was going to be another Eclipse or i had forgotten . Tuesday night I  set up my clock alarm around 6:15 am on that morning i got up and heard a religious radio station  telling people to call in during the  Moon Eclipse then later I looked out the window facing west and i saw something that if i were a painter  i would have wanted to paint. as I looked  out to the West i saw on the left the big cross on top of the church and on the right i saw the big moon. the moon was about to be all covered  just a bit was left on the top right  corner.  more to come    more on the     Hospital

Updated November 4, 2014 Yes women you can be t with your own bodies. you can do as you please with it. you can have unprotected sex  with as many men as you want to and laugh about it all the way.  But when (conceived) have another human in your stomach it is not completely all your body anymore. When does life begins? Right away! Like an Apple Seed. Update 10, 2014   I don't remember well if it was here in Minnesota or Ohio or someplace else but I remember it was up north that Update November 12, 2014  Nuns showed us a film about how life begins with what little i can remember about this film is that it started with an Apple tree then with the seed of an  Apple. i was too little and had seen a new born baby but i can't remember if it was before or after watching this film. more to come  more to come Conception= Concha = Connie = this is my oldest sister name Maria Con  more to come   

Update November 6, 2014 Now here's another Eric, Eric Matthew Frein the American fugitive.Update

November 10, 2014  back then when i was in school a male teacher told the class who was the Government. He said we were the Government meaning the big companies  and  big organizations. he was right. today I had to make a visit the Social Security here in Fargo. the woman on the first  north side  window knew very well why i was in but she like all the rest of you People was playing with my mind. How? I started telling her the reason i was there   but she was too busy having herself a drink of coffee and wasn't paying attention to me it all when i told her for the second time the whys  she said i was being rude. In the lobby at the Federal Building i was asked if i had pepper spray why pepper spray?Bbecause every morning i have two eggs with lots of  black peeper  and where is this coming from Command Center    later i will write how they are repeating  more to come   last week i got a form from Command Center 3901 N Schreiber Way,Coeur D' Alene, ID 83815 with many addresses they say i had  lived. according to them this is a background check. most of them if not all are not true but they know it. one paragraph says that back in 6/12/2013 i plea Guilty to a traffic accident. this is not true i have never plea guilty to no traffic accident or anything else! . on 6/12/2014 i was here in Fargo and i was  in red light stop when i was hit from behind later went to see a Doctor on 1515 south University Dr. but i never  had to appear in  any court to plea guilty for something i wasn't responsible for. Now from where did Command Center says they got this lie? they say from North Dakota Admin office of Courts, ND Specific Information. now why would they lie? because this is one of the many ways you the people are trying hard to drive me crazy. but is it working? not really but what if it was you would this and other things i will mention later on made you  want to tear off with your owe black brown red or blonde or gray pubic hair? if  you knew the law was looking at you in the nude and knew what color of underwear and you females what color of bra you were wearing, and knew when you were in your period ? and saw you having sex. I am sure you would not only Fart on your men underwear boxers or your little bikini men underwear, you would Crap out (shit yourself ) on them too! and you women who wear the underwear between your asses to look and feel sexy     more to come        

Update November 12 2014 I never heard my father say one bad word  never heard him swearing at nobody but when i marry Raul one day he was talking about lawyers and bad mouthing them i told him not to say so many bad words then he told me do you think that lawyers don't say bad words behind close doors, they speak worse  words then what i am saying. Then  much later in life  i met Alberto De La  Cruz he was a nice man but he used this word a lot Mother fuckers. he used these two words on almost all his sentences . now back in the seventies i thought this word was bad Sons of  Bitches or Son of a Bitch but my white speech teacher down in the Valley said it wasn't! and i guess he was right because nowadays some women like to be called Bitches.  more to come

Update November 13, 2014 Through the years I saved as many  Plain Truth Magazines and small Booklets as i could  because i knew i was going to need them one day I just didn't know how much they would help me. Several years back  I knew that everything Ive gone through in life was to get me prepared for what i am facing now. Update November 22, 2014 Not even my grown children understand me or want to understand me. and i understand very well why it is better for them not to believe or want to believe  what sometimes i tell them why things are going the way there are.their minds might not be able to handle and accept we are on 24/7 watched and sometimes Ill have something on mind and they too repeat. so this is something i know now it's only meant for me but they too are in Gods plan. i know this because if somethings  were not the way there are i wouldn't have had a car to drive i can't hold a job for too long because people are bothering me all the time wherever i go    more to come 

update November 20,2014 Obama Heath care systems might be good for the middle class people but for the poorest people like me it makes no difference all stays the same!When i lived in Colorado I had a root canal done . Now you know that if you get a root canal your going to need a crown or eventually you will lose that tooth. Yesterday i got two root canals on both upper sides but the insurance that i have won't cover the crowns so that needs i need to start working nonstop for four weeks until i make enough for both crowns. now i want to know where is the  Difference between then and now?Nothing not a thing all stays the same! At the beginning i know nothing about Obama Hearth

more to come  Update November 23,2014 today as i was looking for Cambria Suites on 825 E Beaton Dr West Fargo. I saw Sanford Fargo Medical Center and I saw 55 Street and i drove to Amber. now later  i will write about the word Amber but for now i will write about the new Hospital. I know i started witting about this way before and haven't gone back to continue but there is so much i need to write and not enough time. when train came to Fargo for the Hospital concert i was there and when i saw the Hospital picture i knew i had to be there to see how it was going to be built. it has 4 corners four wings  more to come    

Update November 25, 2014 about people from other countries like Mexico. My father used to say is Mexico is very rich in soil and minerals. but the Rich are Rich and the Poor are poor. the rich don't want to help the poor.  do you know what would happened  to me  if i go to Mexico illegally ? The    Government would put me in jail. i have no rights asking another Government for any rights in a land i don't belong! now i understand Mexico  people have very hard and i know how the United States came to be what it is today but me and others also still have it very hard here! i am still poor my children are still very poor my grandchildren are very poor other people born here are very poor! and what is Obama going to do about this ! more to come   update November 28,2014 most of the time i rather write but today because i need so much money i would have rather worked but there so no work for me instead i did my  laundry. and as i was lying in bed thinking about many things and thinking  why i am where i am my son comes tells me for the forth time since several weeks ago to hear about the Rothschild family of five sons and their father created banking empire. now i know i am learning as i go and i know he knows more about     more to come Update December 2, 2014 while you the people are blowing my mind by repeating what i see do or say, God is telling me its His plan. last night my daughter was telling me about the twins in the Bible. the first ones were   from Isaac and Rebe more to come then she told me about   Genesis 38   Tamar and Judah twins who were Update December 4, 2014 Last night i found out about Eric Garner death today i know about another black man killed in the hands of a police officer. more to come and on the radio woman against suicide. more to come Update December 8, 2014 past Thursday these two women Martha and Monica on morning Fox News were talking about Hillary being boring = dull and had no change for the presidency. Two women, I could be wrong but i don't think so if Hillary runs she wins big time ! and No she's not boring!

According to some ministers  it is very  bad to use the F word but it's OK to repeat certain words to drive someone crazy.

Update December 10, 2014 now back in the eighties my oldest sister was dating a white man named Jerry, Jerry only had one daughter if i am not mistaken her  name is Penny. Penny = a  Lincoln cent. I only  have one daughter she married a man named Jerry. My oldest sister Concha  first husband  last name was  De la Cruz.    more to come Updated December 11, 2014 the young man who helped me drive to Texas the first car i bought here in Fargo last name is Gonzalez. In 1975-1976 school year in the Valley  I met a very nice and beautiful girl named Monica Gonzalez. Her brother Eddie took me to my senior school prom. more to come  

Updated December 14, 2014  Now Alberto has a daughter named Monica and a son named Christopher more to come December 14, 2014 several weeks ago when Moorhead library was selling books i bought a few, one of them was The Truth About Hillary by Edward Klein and about one or two days after my son took me out for breakfast at Fryn Pan Restaurant on 300 Main Ave and like any other day You The People are told to repeat  the waitress called me Monica  and gave my food order to my son and gave mine to him.  more to come in 2006 it was the 50 years Anniversary of the Ten Commandments with more to come           

Update December 11, 2014 about two weeks ago my daughter and i were in going out to eat and this song was playing on the radio The Piano Man i told my daughter that was my favorite  song  from Billy Joel and i told her that one summer long time ago here in North Dakota at the farm i had seen a black and white old movie on TV and i thought it might have been a Sherlock Homes Detective movie.  i told my daughter that might have been where Billy Joel got the idea from because  more to come 1999 last time he came to Minnesota now i hear his coming  back in 2015. more to come 

Update December 16, 2014  Almost everyday you the people make me cry by reminding me what i ate read said heard and even smelled in or around my apartment. And almost everyday I asked God for help and to made it stop.God answers back by giving me more to write. This past Friday my daughter checked out the movie about  Stave Jobs before watching i know almost nothing about these people who invented the Apple computer and remembered only seeing Stave introducing on TV     something about a phone (i think, not sure). Long time ago before 2006 I  didn't care to know about these people but now i feel i have to know about them because i feel i need to w  because          Steve Jobs today i think different.  now when i wrote about the Apple tree seed birth the next day a radio station played this song Heart of Rock and Roll. and it reminded me of New York because the song starts with these words New York New York  but then i thought about what other name New York is called  the Big Apple or Red Apple. more to come         Now there is 1st Stave Paul Jobs and 2st Stave Wozniah who were introduced by Bill Fernandez more to come Stave Jobs was born on more to come Update December 19, 2014 like every other day i wish i had time to write more but again i can only write a few words about how God tells me His close to me. last night for the second time I read a few pages of this book Prayer, Finding The Heart's True Home by Richard J. Foster on page 21 it reads words that i had used so right away i go back to the copyright to check when this book was published and it reads  copyright 1992. by reading what i write you the reader knows by now i haven't done a lot of reading in my life so i don't know how to write i just write. now most of the books  i buy from  Fargo  or Moorhead  Libraries. more to come. Update December 21, 2014 today is the second day i hear on the radio about the two N Y P D  officers killed sitting on their car more to come this past week my daughter checked out these three movies Dream House Gifted Hands and George Wallace. before watching this movie like many other things i knew very little about one time Governor of Alabama  George Wallace  only what i saw on TV and heard on News  more to come   

Update December 23, 2014  back  in Texas my son 1whad bought a book of many strange events that had taken place and today before logging in i saw the update  news of  the sad story that happened back in March 24, 1944 about the youngest person being executed by an American State in the 1800s. The 14 year old black  boy name was George Stinney from South Carolina. i remembered seeing this story on my son's book.   

And yesterday i took this copy because there are too many coincidence in my life too. more to come  Update 24, 2014 today as i walked to the new  Dollar Tree Store in Moorhead  i started thinking about a woman who was one of the persons in charged of  Federal teachers programs the year  i was working as  a Teachers Aide . A few days ago i  mentioned this to my daughter about this woman who i think was married or living with a man last name was Guzman. One day we had a meeting and  this  woman who i don't remember by first or last name and i think was not born here because of her different accent gave a speech.  To me she was light skin  tall sort of over weight . as this woman was talking and i don't remember what she was talking about  but i do remember she saying  these words as she looked my way or looked at me. "History repeats itself." like all other days i wish i could go on but i just got a phone call. I need to call back see you next time where there is always more to come. Marry Christmas, to all!  update December 26, 2014 now i believe this woman had children from the man Guzman and the oldest child was a girl named Monica. Monica had the same problem as i did when i was  a child in school.  she too couldn't understand these two words Came and Come.  i could  only tell them apart if i was reading  the word (Welcome) then i could read the difference. she spelled the word Com but didn't write the E. more to come  

Update December 28,2014 Since October 2014 i been using this medication for Dry Eyes  Restasis. My eye  doctor  is Ana Miller. I have a sister named Barbara. These were the names of  my children two teachers in Colorado. Head Start = Ms  Barbara, Kindergarten = Mrs Miller. more to come

  Update  December 29, 2014 People, i am not bragging about the men i have met and no I didn't have sex with them but i do need to mention them for you to understand what i am writing.  Back in Greeley there was a Mexican American man I met in a dance. He taught  in a middle school in Greeley,Colorado but i can't remember if he said he was born in Arizona or New Mexico. he told me the kids in school used to called him Superman because he was tall and wore black frame glasses.  He  man was very pleasing to the eye and to the soul.  He was tall and had great manners, he had all that any woman would want in a man. But i wasn't in love i wasn't ready to give up on my marriage. so he tried and tried until he gave up. He mentioned the word Doctor but to protect the innocents i will not mention why.          update January 2,2015  this man told me he had been married twice.  They had one child born then if i am not mistaken he said they had two sets of twins. During  the time i met him i was attending beauty school. He told me his second  ex-wife was a hairdresser and was several years older then him and there were no children from this marriage. more to come    

 Updated January 2, 2015 lately i been working through Labor Master and they bank with Ramsey National Bank on 3232 25st south. more to come

Update January 2, 2015  it might have been 2012 or 2013 that i saw this number 15 on the building of Bell State Bank &amp; Trust on Broadway Street that I thought to myself not until the year 2015? more to come   Update January 2, 2015 about marijuana what i saw in Colorado and  the few people i seen smoking it why i say need to be careful with this grass more to come  

Updated  January 7, 2015  i wasn't going to mention these two names but they were on my mind now that i heard about what happened in Paris i feel i need to mention that i knew a man named Carlos and his friend David. more to come  i also had one neighbor named Carl and one named Carlos. Both names = Charlie      now why did the New York police officers turned their back on their mayor? why do such  wrong thing!?  Update January 8, 2015   it looks like Ray Rice thought he was punching a punching more to come   no more time Hopkins st was the street i used to walked get to the library in San Marcos more to come   Updated January 13, 2014 Today is my third grandson's birthday, born 2006  in Grand Forks, North Dakota. Little did i know that after his birth my life was about to change forever, but way before then i know you The  People were acting  strange! more to come 

Updated January 13, 2014 on Friday December 26, 2014 my daughter checked out this movie from the Fargo downtown library named North Country. On Saturday 27, 2014 my daughter and I  watched it and liked it a lot because we had never heard about it and acting was good and it was based on real life events. As i watched this movie i knew i had to write about it but  i had no time on this weekend because i had to work. On Monday December 29, 2014 or Tuesday December 30, 2014  I thought I had heard on Minnesota radio station  someone that had to do with the movie had died but i didn't  hear clearly what had happened  until later on . Today I asked the Moorhead librarian to help me find  information on the real lawyer who sued against Sexual Harassment in a Minnesota mine.  His name was Paul Sprenger born September 8, 1940 Died December 29, 2014 more to come   Updated January 14,2015 this past weekend my daughter and i went to see the movie Selma  this was also a very good movie that i also can relate to especially the part where FBI Hoover sent Martin's wife a recording of him Martin Luther King having sex with another woman or with other women. Because this is what the FBI been doing to me since 2004. the only difference is that today the FBI has the help of you The People but like i said before in many ways God is giving me hints He is in control and for you ministers that have dirty minds when i write the word He i mean God Almighty, not the devil! but i say it again many things you the people are told to repeat and later i will mention a few names. Back to the movie Selma

  Updated January 15, 2015 next  i will write about  a summer back in the seventies when  Gloria Hernandez  told me about a Clerical program at Texas A&amp;M University in Kingsville more to come  and i will write about what i think were students from  more to come  Update January 17,2015 as i get into the website to see what was going on today in Kingsville, TX. i read this Texas A&amp;M University Kingville Javalina-Porky. At Greeley, Colorado there was a girl nickname Porky. Little Porky was also in Mrs Miller class and she was our neighbor at the     more to come when i saw Gloria  I  was buying more to come  

Update January18,2015 since time ago i had noticed Oxford apartments on 3301 32nd Street South Fargo,58104 and Friday morning  I asked my daughter the meaning of the word Oxford . I didn't know  this past week she had bought the movie Slum-dog Millionaire  2009 Fox  which we had seen before at the Movies or on DVD.  We had seen this movie before but I don't remember if it was in TX  or it was here. Today around 11: 55 am I made breakfast at her apartment and she puts on the movie. more to come            Update January 20, 2015 how i know cousins and sister of this actor Updated  January 21, 2015  who I was told had changed his name   more to come.    January 21, 2015 like always i have so much to write but short on time.   

January 21, 2015 this Black Bird called the Crow  for a long  time on and off  has been crowing around me trying to get my attention and if i am not mistaken on  Martin Luther King Day this bird was somewhere outside near my broken window or two windows making his loud noise. more to come Next i will wrote about Housekeeping, Philippine and cousin from California more to  come and Gettysburg Battle 1863 and 50 years after and  Gettysburg building  here in Fargo more to come  Update January 29, 2015 i hear  Dr. Charles Townes  born July 28, 1915  Laser inventor died on Tuesday January 27,2015 at the age of 99.Now what things are Repeated ?    more to come and i heard Obama wants to go back to Valdez, Alaska! Now what was the last name of the two girls I played with? Valdez!      more to come  back to Carols and David who i met back in the eighties.  One day Petra Rodriguez asked me if i wanted to go cruising more to come    Update January 31,2015 today like every other day i have so much to write and not much time but i need to mention about my heart this past week for days i had felt and heard my heart beating like never before because this was the times i would lie down on my bed i wasn't moving or felling any  anxieties (out of the ordinary  that is because all days for me are stressful) . But  because I am  in a diet and have been losing wight i thought this was because my skin is closer to my internal organs that i could hear my heart beating and this is one of the reasons why i went to get my sugar level and other health  concerns  check out by a doctor . But then this Thursday or most likely Friday as i was listening to the radio i heard the story about this young  doctor from Germany named Werner Fossmann told to Melissa Block by this writer Rob Dunn  maker of the book  Man Who Touched His Own Heart  one of 1956 Nobel Prize winner. more to come now most of the time i have worked at the Fargo Dome as a housekeeper i clean bathrooms and yes you  guessed it  right  I clean Toilets and men Urinals.  But i don't do more to come This past Monday i drove by  Schwans which is on  the corner of 26 street south and 20 Avenue South in Moorhead.   back in the sixties there in Mapleton  there was only one small Post Office and one small bar which  i believe was also this is where   in love with the Schwans    Maple Nut Ice      a more to come  Update February 1, 2015 Hint Of The Century = My uncle Prescillano Fernandez from California my father's oldest brother (and i hope i spelled his name right)  when he went to visited us in Texas back in the late sixties or early seventies told me or i understood he was born in the beginning of the century this would be January 1, 1901  the Twentieth Century. more to come  update February  3, 2015 for months i had the name Oscar i would asked myself why Oscar i know no Oscar at the time  i could only remember Anita Shanchez first husband Ocsar Rodridez  but then i hear on the radio about  Oscar romero the priest who was killed in his church baxck in the eighties  more to come and about To Kill a Mockingbird   

Update February 7, 2015 You the world have it  make! You live you get Sick or Killed then you die. that is a normal way of living. most all of you don't have other people Stalking you, making it impossible to live a normal life but i do everyday i am being Stalked Harassed repeatedly treated unfair at Jobs Clinics Hospitals Dentists offices and so on. Who is doing this to me? It's you the people, in many ways!This is people sending  people to repeat and  treat me bad making it known to me you know what i said or did to someone else or at home or in the car! What is Stalking = here are some of the ways Waiting to get near me to repeat what i said or did. Text me messages on phones and laving voice mails on my phone. Using Network sites &amp; technology to track me. repeatedly watching over me following me everywhere i go and more! in the beginning in East Grand Forks and Grand Forks, ND and Texas i was very much afraid and i did feel unsafe that i asked God to take me with Him  because there was nowhere to run. But God never answered  so i asked Him to bring me back North and that He did. This could have been  February Tuesday 3, 2015 that i went to work at the Fargo Dome i saw a woman i had met at  Sam's Club in Moorhead, MN i spoke to her told her i would call her up. I got home i charged up a small phone i hadn't used for a long time to  look up  her phone number only that because it had Zero minutes on it. Update 9, 2015 the following night as i looked for her number someone had put in about $41and cents. on this phone there were two unfamiliar  phone calls. That night I called 218-288-1832     more to come        

Update 8, 2015 this is another way people harassed me at work  and it's approved by local  ministers who also repeat what i say in their churches  to make you the People laugh! Last night while i was working at the Fargo Dome was told by the Mexican woman who works as a crew leader and lives with the Anglo  Fargo Dome Head Crew Leader that i was Tonta  for cleaning the toilets and that her friend the other   Mexican Maria wasn't because she cleaned a few mirrors and stand by to watch me finish working. now i thought working at the Fargo Dome was Team Work last night while head Crew leader bark at me i understood it isn't and i was told by now his in live together woman  named maria  i was Tonta now lets see what is a Tonta and who else called me Tonta  by doing my best to clean about 25 or more toilets in a very short time where you men and women and your children put your butts that thinks to  Miley Cyrus and Katy Perry that love to show their asses to the world  and love to see any men penises and other entertainers  become very popular dance The Twerk. (And lets not forgot Katy's Ministers parents are very proud of their daughter for showing little girls how to please men )  Now what is a Tonta and let me tell you this harassment by the leaders at the Fargo Dome came from their hearts this is how they show me how much they hate me. i looked up on oxford Spanish Dictionary Tonta = Falta de Intelligencia  = stupid, dumb idiot dummy. now when i am dome with what i have to say lets see who are the Tontas and Tontos! more to come this woman named Maria is always trying to get close to me get into conversations not because she likes but because like everyone else wants to find a way to repeat. more to come      

Update February 10,2015 have you the people ever seen the eyes of a true christian? I have and these few people don't'  have to preach it because anyone can see it! They don't have to stand inside a church screaming yelling to other people to live a moral life they just live it! Now have you ever seen the eyes of a child  Molester or Men that looks it girls like they want sex with them? Now look it Katy Perry eyes and look at Miley Cyrus eyes and many other women that are making money by not only singing about sex and how to do it but taking off as much as possible and promoting sex with Toy sex objects to children.   now what does sex = ? Pregnancies!  Now don't get me wrong i love sex too but i know  more to come and about going to the movies to see Fifty Shades of Grey coming up !   update February 11, 2015 tomorrow i will have a doctor check what is wrong with my right ear since last week I've been having terrible hearing well. but it's not the first time when day back in the sixties when i like many other Mexican children was going to summer school in Casselton, ND where i was told i needed to get take medication for ear infection. then years went by and my children with many other migrant children were taking on bus to a summer day care  at Lewis &amp;Clark Elementary School. And this is where i got a letter saying that i needed to go see my daughter because she was having hearing problems. I knew this was true because  long before in TX my mother had notice that when she called my daughter  from behind she would not respond. That summer after i was told in North Dakota about my daughter's problem my children were in-roll at a Texas Children  Migrant Program in Crystal City. And one day as my daughter and I were riding in a what i think was a  Red Pinto car. ( Rosalinda Garcia who i believe is sister to farmer Sheriff Alberto Sanchez) who  worked transferring children to San Antonio medical specialists. My daughter was going to be seen by a ear specialist. I'll never forget on our way there because Rosalinda had the radio full blast and we were listing  and rocking to the song 1999. Now when you go inside the Family Clinic  more to come 

Update February 14,2015 Because today it's Valentine Day i will write about when my children and  I were living on  Avenue North corner of Canela's Bakery. One day i was sitting on a sofa chair in a corner near a  telephone table.  I wasn't waiting for a call and i was alone my children were at school and serenity came over me for a very very short time it was if the Holy Spirit was in me i had never felt this way before and up to now i have never felt it again. It was so peaceful calm and clean. I knew then  it had to be the Holy Spirit as i know now it was the Holy Spirit. I know this did not happened to me because i am  good   like most of you there is nothing good about me but i think this was because God wanted  me to to know He is I Am. And He was with me. more to come . On Fridays I love to watch Shark Tank and they know it because they repeat !  I don't mind if what i write is repeated  it's what i do and say inside my home that bothers me. There are two women on this show Barbara and Lori. I have a sister named Barbara and a niece named Laura. Laura = Lori. Now Laura Fernandez Barajas daughter of Maria was born in the summer of 1981 here in Fargo, North Dakota at Essentia Health Hospital on South University Dr.  Now Jose Luis Barajas is Laura's only brother and is married to Iris Munoz. more to come  

Back to 2006 to my darkest  years when i first knew the law was telling you the people what to repeat

.And i am back in TX. This is another movie I watched to clear my mind  

   Mr. Holland's Opus. And just today here at the Moorhead Library on line i find out there is The Mr. Holland's Opus 1996 Foundation.  more to come Update February 14, 2015 One day weeks after I wrote I was shy a bald man i had never seen before as i was at the VFW on 2nd Avenue pretended to buy drink and got close to me at the Bar said out loud so i could hear.  He said something like this, "since when have you been shy?"  Well Bald men and Hairy men and the in between. I have always been very shy that was the reason back in  1975 I moved to the Valley and later i will write about this but when all this madness started I knew i had to change. i knew i had to be strong and leave my shyness behind. i asked God many times to help me and He did i am here. now about men men that come around me just come to repeat to blow my mind.  they pretend they wanted start something but it's all a lie!    more to come 

Update February 19, 2015  today i will write as much as i can about  Carlos David, Petra and me and before my family and i moved to Colorado. One day Petra introduced me to these two men for some time we four went double dating just riding around Zavala country lonely roads. One time i told Petra that Carlos looked a bit like Alabama lead singe Randy Owen. now what State has been in the news? Alabama! more to come   Update February 21, 2015 for  days i had this in mind about not having a Quinceanera but still having danced with my father. And about the TV show CHIPS starting Erick Estrada  more to come . Last night my daughter and i went to see the movie  McFarland. I knew nothing about the 1987 boys cross country team. But i had wrote about dreams i had long time ago about running through the back Farm fields. more to come  

Update March 2, 2015 One day at Highland's Hill Beauty Academy all of the sadden  I said the word Gigi  it sounded so funny  students near me started laughing and so did I. some weeks ago or a week ago i heard on the news that Louis Jourdan star of Gigi dies at 93. more to come today on a license car plate i see 888 then i go to eat at more to come 

Update March 3, 2015 I need to write about Amber and Dinosaur Bob more to come  but i also need to write about these names Ashly Nancy  Foxy more to come    

Update March 4, 2015 these are other things i will also write about  i had just met Rosa. Rosa my father and I were talking about the movie Adam and Eve then  I heard the World was going to end. I ran  to the door my father asked me, "why did you run?"   more to come      2005 Grand Forks, ND the day Troy and I watched the movie The Doors on home Video. Conversations I had on the phone with cousin Lula or sister Connie about mother sometimes telling to us children  she was like Maria Cenicienta = Cinderella and  when i was about to sat the word Troy Lawrence knew what i was going to say before i even said it. Cinderella. more to come       

 Update March 5, 2015 last night as i listened to Ronald C White on radio talk about his book A Lincoln God was giving me hints He was with me but i  still feel very lonely because there is no human talking back to me there is no one to talk with. i dont know what     more to come Today March 5, 2015  i have so much to write but  like all other days no time to write it.   

Updated March 6, 2015 Sorry, Mr. John Robert Lewis but Lesbians and Gays has anything to do with  Human Civil Rights, but you gain  more votes if you think that way! Now, I think you said you were born in Troy Alabama? US Representative for Georgia's 5th Congressional District. attended non- violence workshops in a Basement.  Survivor of  Tornado's?now you say you received a honorary degree from Brown University. Now read and count  how many things I have written are repeated!? more to come                           

March 6, 2015 Today i am looking up the words Mistake and the word Sin. Now we The People have been sugar coating many actions that are Sins for the nice word Mistakes! Mistake= error you didn't know any better.       Sin =  you knew  you were doing wrong but you though nobody would find out. then you called it mistake when they did          now i hear it's a mistake to be discover that you are a lair. i hear it's a mistake to be discovered you steal     now i am just having fun because i have to run but i hope tomorrow 

 i have more time to write  more to come  

Update March 10, 2015 back in the seventies before i knew who Christ really was i used to love this song with Helen Reddy.  I Don't Know How To Love Him. Today i got to listen to it and i had to fight back my tears. The part where it says "He scares me so" this is so true for me because He is almighty.  He is powerful! And He is love but we are not! and that's what scares me! 

Update March 10, 2015 last month i opened a book of the Civil  War and there was a picture of  solders at the 50th Gettysburg  reunion in 1913 that was the year my parents were born. The movie George Wallace President Kennedy in 1965 is on TV and brings up it's been 100 years since the Civil War. This past weekend was the 50th anniversary of Bloody Sunday. Now my daughter checked out the Movie George Wallace and she loves to drink a lot of Coca Cola. George asked Bob Kennedy and other guests if they wanted a coke 4 said they did. Four little girls died in Birmingham in 1965. more to come this is why i believe that long before as i drove by the corner of Broadway and 15 Ave the words in the apartment were right on my face, Gettysburg! more to come  

Update March 10, 2015 i wouldn't mean so much if you the people just hated and repeated i got used to that but besides repeating things i do and repeating curtain words like Bottom line and calling me Maria. You the People also do this. Last Year with landlord permission  I had  nailed a  Aluminum Can  Crusher some one like you the people went and broke it. this night i just found out the City was called to pick up a Van i had parked on the back also i had asked Landlord for permission . Today i went to ask if there was any work Ashly calls me Maria. i told her she knew better then i told her i knew someone else had told her to call that name as other people do. i also told her i was writing about her name but i wasn't mad i just told her that because i was going to  write about the name Ashly. Back then in Crystal City when people were normal i had friends or at least i though i did becasue now i know no one  is my friend. Belia Juarez had given me a puppy his mother's name was Ashly because she had black and gray hair. i told Ashly at Commend Center  about the female dog named Ashly she didn't like it but she does like messing up my mind calling me names   i am not even the church leaders they also repeated more to come  next i will write about when Bonita and her  Native friend  kept me against my well (hostage) back in 2011on a winter night   more to come 

 Update March 16, 2015 On March 9, 2015 According to this towing service my landlord called Aggressive Towing and Recovery and were told to pick up a Dodge Van parked behind the apartment house were i am ranting. The woman who answered the phone said my landlord had even given his phone number. that day i didn't asked her what that phone number was because she had told me I had until 5pm that day to take out or it would be in additional  $185.00 Dollars. i knew this was not true because i had asked my landlord for permission and the day i found out it was missing i had called him and he didn't know what was going on and advised me to call police and let him know what was going on. I might have I  really don't remember if I asked God who was this person and while i am looking through the Yellow Pages looking for FM  Towing Services i see a name that stands out to me. This name is of an Anglo man but this is something I am not able to prove. This is the phone number this man gave to woman at Aggressive 701-290-2317. which is not my landlord's phone number.  I had paid $500.00 for the Van was planing on fixing it up for used on summer trips with grandsons but  more to come    March 25, 2015 not much i can do about the Van because this man is not acting  alone    

March 11, 2015 today has been one of those days that by now I should used to. Today  I  know where my Van went to but it's not mine anymore i had to sell it. more to come   

 March 11, 2015 back to 2005 during the 2005 Holidays my son  and Dianita were in jail and i didn't know where my grandson's where. i only knew they were somewhere in Grand Forks. the only person i knew a bit more was Troy and he had told me he was tried of leaving at Mission and he asked me if he could stay at least for one night at Dianita's apartment. I felt bad about this because i really wasn't a homeless like him i just needed to stay there because i was waiting to see what was going to happen to my son so i told him he could sleep in the second bedroom but that night i had a hard time falling asleep. i was awake all night because i really don't know him. more to come

March 11, 2015 i also had this name on my mind Nancy today while i am waiting on gas station to fix one tire i see N G M 2014 Wild Pats and a page I see a Deer named Dillies. i knew a Deer named Nancy. Some Girls last name Mendoza used to live close to the Nueces River   more to come  now when i was in school i remembered singing this song  and i loved it until more to come   Doe a deer, a female deer

Sound of Music 1956 more to come

update March 12, 2015    for months i been looking at this Billboard on 1St Avenue North Shoe &amp; Tarp Today i will write about it back then before 2004 i had read on a magazine that people on the old days were named after their Trade. One of the names i saw was Shoemaker. Today i want to give my grate sincere  thanks to my brother's  Neurologist Dr. Shoemaker. My brother trust him with his life and felt good after seeing him but one day i really don't remember. Dr Shoemaker retied and my brother had to be seen by another doctor that he really didn't understand and neither did because it after 2006 and this was the time all was new to me about people messing up my mind. (more on this later)   i know it's been long ago but i still want to give my great thanks and appreciation to the doctor that performed the Kidney surgery  to my brother Luis P. Fernandez Jr. God using you gave him more years to live and to see life in a different way. And  many thanks to the young black man's family from where i believed was from Houston , TX that had donated his Kidney way before his death for someone like my brother that would live longer. 

Now back to Shoemaker, my brother used to have a friend last named Mondoza when i cleaned out my uncles lot and moved in my trailer his father was one of my good neighbor. this man Mandoza moved to Fargo or Moorhead i really don't remember. but one day my brother and i came to visited him i just don't remember where was this white house he lived in. Well guess what !?  He was a Zapatero! He repaired Shoes !  more to come    

Update March 13, 2015 Believe It  or Not weeks ago i was driving under ND and MN bridge going East and was thinking about the long time ago comedy movies that all they had to do to make people laugh was throw pies at each other faces!That same day i also remembered the time my two uncles had died and my uncle from California told lawyers he wanted anything because he wasn't around his two brothers when they were in need. My oldest brother told me about what the lawyers told my aunt Maria De Jesus Fernandez Lara then Tellez  about the pie being cut in half and she was going to get only one half and my  father the other half of the pie. Now if you The Reader consider yourself smart by now you should know what i am writing about. My aunt wanted and she told the lawyer my uncles slice from California! The lawyers had to used a pie to make her  understand this was not going to happened. Back then in the seventies i thought it was so funny and i still think it is! Now my aunt had educated daughters enough to know better even a math teacher daughter. I wonder why no one told her about the Pie. Now today i heard on radio tomorrow is Pie Day! I do remember the  elementary math teachers using a pie but that's all i remember only the pie. Happy 3/ 14/ 15 more to come 

Updated March 16, 2015 some time before I wrote about this address 1919 on Main Avenue now back to F-M Flooring on 1919 Main Ave.This caught my attention long time ago just didn't have the time to write about it. Inside the new Family Health Center now on 301 N Pacific Avenue on the wall  is a Boiler dating back to 1919. This weekend my daughter checked out this movie named  The Great Debaters. One day long time ago i really don't remember what grade  it was seventh or eighth when a boy came up to me and  asked me questions about different things he wanted to defend or go against . He wanted to start a debate with me he wanted to know what i thought about certain things and if i could defend them.  at that time not even later in life i knew nothing about U I L this was until my daughter was in high school that i knew about it.  Now back to this boy we started debating and i left him speechless. He might have taken me on one or two but the rest were mine and this is the truth. I don't remember what we argue about but at the end he told me i was very good. I don't know who this boy was i don't remember seeing him in other classes. if i am not mistaken this was after the 1969-1970 school walkout. toda 

Update March 25, 2015 some time ago i heard about the DOT -111Tank Car also known as the C T C- 111A. now on march 6, 2015 i text my daughter about a dream. i dreamed i was talking with a  tall man wearing a brown top coat. more to come     

Update March 27, 2015 The movie The Great Debaters, what town? Marshall, TX. My children and I been to Marshall, MN.  Belia Juarez told me and two of her siblings she had named her twin daughters Yvette and Yvonne because in Spanish it sounds like Come and Go. In this movie the student tells his professor, I Come and Go. Now Yvette didn't make it but Yvonne did and we call her Bonny or Bonnie 

Update March 30, 2015  now back then in the late sixties or early Seventies  there were young men i don't know where they were coming from they could have been from N D S U, Concordia or Minnesota State University in Moorhead i really don't know but these men would go to the fields where we were working  run after young people trying to recruit enroll  so they could to stay in the North and start collage. I remember them doing this for several years now i believe some people did stay behind and got educated. i remember one summer one of those young man came up to me and asked me if i wanted to  enroll  but i still had several years to finish  school back in TX.  And i might have told him i didn't like living here because of the long cold winter months. But i knew I wasn't collage material.  more to come 

March 31, 2015 Now back to Kingsville, TX  one day a young man tall slim darker skin  then mine came to me and started talking. he wanted to know me so for several weeks before i went back to Crystal City we would walk  around the campus and talk. He was Iranian i don't remember his name but one day we were sitting on a bench and  from far away i looked inside a building to check time on a clock.  I told him i had to go because i was on curfew then he asked  me, "do you have certain powers like Wonder Woman?" at that time TV was showing the  show Wonder Woman with         more to come 

Now in Greeley, Colorado i met another man from the Middle East his name was Fahad or Fahd he was  Saudi Arabian.  more to come by now i know it was meant for me to meet all these people i still don't know the complete reason and maybe I'll  never know but for now i know i need to keep writing  as much as i can remember about me you and the rest of the world.   

Update March 31, 2015  I know you the people don't like me and i really don't care if you do or not but i know you people are always finding ways to make my life harder then it is. Last night i slept very little because my wicked neighbors were smoking right in front of  my apartment door.this went almost all night  the smoke kept me awake all night. But just as in Crystal City God will take care of people like you  who do me wrong for no good reason. Like i said before the man who called to tow my Van is not working alone he has many evil helpers even Church Leaders are joying in. and where can i run to, this is everywhere i go. more to come  

Update April 1,2015 yesterday my daughter reminded me about Salina Quintanina 20 years after her death. This morning i had to make a stop at Essentia Health on 3000 32nd Ave S and as i am walking on the left side going into the building on the wall i see 2000. This morning i went to work at the Moorhead more to come 

Update April 2,2015 now i need to write about this other movie my daughter checked out  La Bamba Updated April 8, 2015 No! I have not been watching too many movies only the ones i believed God wants me to watched  so i can write about. Because i don't checked out movies my daughter checks them out ! Most of what  i write about just comes into my mind and  i just write! Just yesterday Tuesday  i learned that this past February 3, 2015 was 56 years ago to the story about La Bamba! and i learned it was on a Tuesday  they were killed! In 2009 when i wrote letter #23 i didn't know 50 years were going up More to come a lot more!              

  

Update April 3, 2015 I love all you people but i know you the people don't love me and later when i have the time i will write down how you the people hate me so much that you repeat what you are told to repeat to kill my mind! Satan is in the hearts of Church leaders! 

Update April 4, 2015 now some time ago i heard on the radio from some local pastor some thing like this that the disciples, Jeremiah  or other Godly people on the Bible were "full of it"because they got mad with God because of  what they were told to do.  Now help me here i am still learning English.are we suppose  to fill in the blank? Because i heard this saying full of it on regular now played music on  radio and i am thinking full of Shit? Help me! NO! What God told these people to do was not easy it was hard ! How would any of you liked to be without a female or male friend!? Without someone to talk that would listen and understand what you  were going through? Most of you pastors  have it make! You have a woman  or women to have Sex with and release your tensions and you have other people around you who understand care you have no idea what it is to be alone!   more to come and Happy Easter to all!  

Update April 8, 2015 Today at around 4:45pm i saw  with my own two eyes what i  could not believe was  the devil dressed to kill  in action! I witnessed the Video shooting of a black man running away from an officer named Michael T. Slager.  

Update April 11, 2015 when i saw the this numbers 19 on the Garmanwing   Plane Crash Pilot Andreas Lubitz apartment door it got my attention but at the time i didn't know why. I thought maybe because i was born in 1956 or i had wrote 1919 but yesterday as i was driving i heard a young women who had died of cancer at the age of 19. more to come 

Update April 11 2015 Years ago i knew i wasn't going to emulate my father even if i tried   because of who i had to be now even more i know i can't in order to survived what i am going through. now for me to say this you the people need to know more about my father and listen i am not writing about my life because i want to show off or because i like it. No most of the time i don't like my life i have no fun writing about my family or about you the people. I am tired of this way of living i would like to be free from all this harassment mind blowing games not having any kind of privacy not even inside my home because of the law who keeps an eye on me 24/7 then tells you the people to repeat. But by now i know i have to do what i am doing and what is next i don't really know! I just know i have to work to eat and pay bill's like all of you but you are not me you have each other and you don't treat each other like you treat me! more to come Update April 12, 2015 Years ago one night Petra Rodriguez and i were  cruising around town with second cousin Roberto Galven nickname Bobby second son of Cousin Elvida Fenandez Galven. He said something that i never forget he said that none of us meaning my fathers children came out like him. Now back then i did agreed with his opinion because he was right but now i can write that not even his grandmother Maria De Jesus was like my father.That night he took us to his parents Flower Shop. Along the ride we three talked about many things but for now I will go back to what he meant by what he said now my father believed in having a  peaceful life and this is who he was.  As far as i can remember  almost all Sundays  early in the mornings he would get up at around 5:30am or 6:00am to get ready for morning Mass. After Mass he would go by more to come            

 April 12, 2015 today  i saw parts of this other movie and again it was because my daughter checked it out from the Fargo Library the name of the movie is Rendition  what is a  female name often  mentioned on this movie? Fatima. more to come           

Update April 15, 2015 like always I have so much to write but not enough time in a day. Back in 2011 or 2012 when i used to lived at 303 Robert ST on some sunny days a man would sat on a bench at the corner of Broadway and 2nd Avenue North with a sign  saying something like this "she is Atheists"   more to come 

Scientology   Update April 19, 2015 Scientology believers this is what you need to know before it's too late, get off your high horse before it  kicks you down! more to come   

Update April 19, 2015 now this might just be a  dream i don't know but last night i  dreamed I was still laving somewhere up here in the North and I was inside a  nice house and for some reason i needed to go somewhere so i  went outside  got on a vehicle that looked to me like a truck or a high Van. As i was driving  my eyes were hurting from something that was getting inside the truck then i stopped got off the high truck or van (but was not a domestic  car) I noticed I was stepping on sand and i looked down and  around and it all looked the same sand everywhere. Then i shocked my feet on the sand to feel it then i released that something on my eyes was the sand going inside the high  vehicle i was driving.  I drove back to what i believed is my home and i looked outside my window and i saw  what looked like brown rain dirt or sand coming down from the  sky. I woke up  from this dream and turned on the radio which was set on Heaven 88.7FM  time was between 9:00am to 9:30am. The pastor was preaching about the d   more to come   Update  April 21, 2015 what was in my dream was a Drought! Update April 21, 2015 this morning around 7:45 am as i was about to get inside my car I noticed a strange images on top of my car's hood . I took several pictures of the snow that drop and made these two identical images that look like two XX more to come   back to the dream it looked to me like the pass Dust Bowl California governor is Jerry Brown

Update April 21, 2015 Raul hardly  ever sent my children gifts but these were the few he did he sent my son a long firetruck and my daughter

This past Tuesday April 14, 2015 my daughter reminded me about the 150  anniversary  assassination of president Abraham Lincoln. this coming Monday is 20 years since the Oklahoma bombing i Oklahoma city    more to come   Update April 25, 2015 last night after watching 20/20 i went through some books i had bought at the Moorhead library and i read a bit and saw pictures of  about the life of Mahatma Gandhi. i read about how the Salt March (Salt Satyagraha) began in 12 march 1930 and was important part of the India Independence. This morning i visited my daughter i tell her my feet hurt it might be the Gout then she asked me, have you been eating a lot of Salt? Right now on the internet i leaned more about Gandhi then i looked for (Salt March) and Salt lake City Utah comes up a city we used to passed by going to Idaho. Some years we used to stopped at a Gas Station that was up on a hill and we looked down at the city lights. it was so beautiful that  I could look at forever and ever!  Then I read about the  Salt lake Bees a minor league baseball team based in Salt lake City Utah. the Bees play in the pacific coast league and are Triple A. now were have i seen the triple A and i need to write more information  about at the Courtyard by Marriott in Moorhead. more to come

Now lets go back to 20/20 Yes it's i do think it's a mantel problem! and more doctors should be looking what went wrong when the Brain was developing. There is a story in the Bible went something like this. Christ was asked why is this man blind? Is it because his parents sin or was it something he sin ? Christ didn't bothered to answered  back  he just said lets fix the problem. This is what i understand doesn't sickness comes from Sin?  Now we are all living in a home named Earth. That means we are all brothers and sisters and we as brothers and sisters are getting worst aren't we ? living together not married is OK. killing babies while still in the stomach is OK. being married and having Sex with other then your spouse is OK. man with a man woman with a woman kissing and having Sex is funny and is OK. And lets not forget no more praying in schools is very OK! Saying lies is very OK. Repeating curtain  words to drive me crazy is very OK even Church leaders are doing it so it's OK. more to come  now back to 20/20  Not to say that back then there were no cross dressing Gays and  Lesbians . Yes! but not to the extreme it is now! And remember death is not the End it's the beginning!  

  April 26, 2015  This is not what i say this is what I've heard from you the church leaders and what i understand in the Bible.  more to come   now when i was young my mother showed me a red book that had four men riding horses.  i started helping in the fields very young because when the school dropped me off at the farm i was very lonely for many yeas we were the only family in the farm and i could even say i heard noises coming from one of the houses but no one else was there only me. Whenever the others would find horse shoes in the fields they would threw them to me not to hit me with them but just because i guess for them there was nothing else to do. at the Fargo dome  more to come In the later years  in other fields i would find

Golf balls. more to come  

Update April 27, 2015 horse - shoe= a shoe for a horse formed of a narrow band of iron in the form of an extended circular arc and secured to the hoof with nails. a shoe  of this kind or a representation of one, regarded as bringing good luck. something resembling this in shape:[as modifier]a horseshoe bend . [treated as sing] a game in which horseshoe are thrown at a stake in the ground.     back then i wasn't sure why there were horse shoes in the sugar beet fields i thought they were there because of the back then new pioneers riding through the land. but it never came to my mind that this was the way farmers plowed their fields.until i started working at the Fargo dome and saw picture like the first copy i have here.  Now i am going back to beauty school  in Greeley, Colorado and the horse shoe hair cut  more to come 

             

This is repeated ISIS. more to come            

Update April 27, 2015 picture taken May 2013  This is one of my greatest joy that keeps me going my third grandson Julian Munoz tipping a red hat to my daughter and saying "howdy -ma'am"  more to come

Update April 27, 2015 Now how can't teachers and students can't get Horny when there is so much SEX SEX SEX everywhere! A few examples look at Katy Perry music videos like California Gurls acting like a little girl with no clothing on when she's get pubic  hair and is showing off all she can on a music internet video then like at her friend Miley Cyrus also doing all she can to show her Fundi fav or Fundi five that means Ass. i remember one day in History class with Mr. Nelson one blue boy named Garcia or Garza  really can't remember his last name but he had a dirty magazine and  Mr. Nelson told him to put it away that instead  he should carry with him snakes and worms other things but not that.   more to come  Hornyness in Crystal with teachers and students? Yes it has happened Updated  April 28, 2015 the first ones i heard of were an Anglo female teacher and his name was Polo Gallegos. I don't know how old she was and how old he was but she was the teacher and he was the student.  They did get married. i would guess she was single and so was he. this was not a Mary Kay  and Vili case. But after many years after 1970 more Horny's in schools and this time some went to prison and others because of  good connections were only  asked to relocated. more to come now school girls are not the same as many many years ago. most girls at a very young age are doing what married couples do in private many of them know a lot about how to have Sex and they want it because remember once is not enough. One day at  the beauty school i heard school girls talking about their mothers taking them to get fix for birth control they were just laughing away as if they had gone shopping no big deal it was just a pap smear and all that a doctor has to do to get them started to have sex with whoever and whenever they wanted. But can't tell them anything because it's a free country. Here all women  and girls that the birth control didn't work or forgot to get it  not to worry just  go downtown  on Women's way where you see  Crystal Doors or windows on 1th Avenue North . And spread legs pull human baby out  in pieces and your all set to go. Now there was an abortion clinic in Greeley because i heard from an older sister of the young one who was going to have one done but that's all i knew anything else. My oldest brother once told me that one day  he went  to Mexico some men were talking about women from Crystal going down there to get abortions.      more to come      

Updated April 30, 2015  this is my opinion I believe Aaron Knodel is guilty and it don't matter who feels sorry for his family because it was him that did the crime! It was him that brought shame to his own family no one else but him, But i do think he should not go to prison just not allowed to ever teach again! This would teach a listen to him and  any other educator to think twice before doing such act! now the name Aaron if i am not mistaken was the name of an older Judge i came before in Crookston, MN on February 2006 but before i go  to write  about this i need to make sure. And  this old judge just like the attorney Eric played with my mind with gestures. and i will get back to this later on.  

Update April 30, 2015  Last night on  Minnesota Radio i heard the person that sang this song Louie Louie had died.  Yesterday was Jamie Jesus Munoz my second grandson's birthday. 

 Updated April 3, 2015 here are other things that repeat for short cuts to 32nd st and 32 ave i go south on University Dr. then i right on 27 ave then right on 25st. on the corner of 27ave and 25 st if i am not mistaken three twin homes the one on the corner last numbers is 2424. on 32 ave south is Papa John's Pizza their phone number is 701-297-7777.  I knew i needed to write this down because last week i went to Hornbachers store and my receipt amount  was $7 dollars and 77cents. Inside Scheels arena on an elevader 

 door is this address Doublewood  Inn 3333 13 Ave south. In Moorhead my son's bank is  Bell State Bank &amp; Trust on 1333 8th st south. Now the girl from Pakistani Malala repeats .   Today April 30, 2015  I went to order eye glasses at the Center Mall in Moorhead and there was a March 2015  Peoples magazine  more to come           

Update May1, 2015 Today  just remembering back then songs like these ones for children Michael Row The Boat Ashore, Puff The Magic Dragon and The Hokey Pokey. more to come  about this song Hokey Pokey and the male teacher more to come     

Update May 5, 2015  My son gave me a  very good explanation why when it snowed there were two XX on my hood car but now read this on Saturday May 2, 2015  around   8: 23pm as i was on my car facing North like others (  on 11 st south  and on Main Avenue ?)for first  slow Train  (if i am not mistaken) coming from the West going East  but then before it was over another Train  coming fast coming from the East going West  went by. As I waited there i noticed these letters on some of the Train boxes M I L X and numbers.  Now today 5/5/ 2015 as i was looking for the word Diagram i went to the Twin Towers diagram and this is what i see an X in the box. Now Sunday as i was driving on 19 Avenue south i noticed from far away that  Sanford Hospital has 8 rectangle windows on the 4 corner wings. And to me if looking down from the sky to the building it also looks like an X. now this is what i read world Trade Center 8:45 am American Airlines Flight 11 crashes into North Tower. 9:05 Airlines Flight 175 crashes into South Tower.  more to come                                             

                 

May 5, 2015 = Happy Cinco de Mayo!

Update May 5, 2015 m daughter told me Lopez  did a Tribute to Selena Q, Perez. Many times Selena went to  performed in Crystal City, TX but i only got to see her once because on weekends  i was always working at some beauty salon.  I think that back in the seventies there were two sisters last name Saldivar and their  father sold shoes in a downtown store.  Years ago someone told me they were cousins to Yolanda Saldivar.      and now i do remember one of them was in Mr. Nelson's  History class more to come   During the time she was shot my son was in a Boot Camp in more to come 

Update May 8, 2015 Like always I have so much to write about but not enough time . In Colorado i had received Christ  as my  Savior. And  in 1986 when i went back to TX i prayed and prayed to God to sent me a good man for me and my children .I didn't want to be left alone to do all the driving but as you The People can see He never answered my call. Growing up i had seen girls and boys being raised up by only one parent their mother and i saw how hard and poor it was to be the only one parent. (I was listening to the radio about the movie  Good Wife and heard about why many women stay with their husbands when they are womanizing, wife and child  beaters and sometimes even child molesters. now this much was not in this movie. I haven't seen it but i will tell you why some of the reasons many women just stay. It is so so  super hard to move on. It is harder for a woman because and here are some reasons. and what happens when the woman leaves the broken marriage.  Lets start from the top like with someone like Hillary Rodham Clinton. Why would she stay.  How I see it in her situation it,s more then just a marriage a commitment if she had set a goal to be the first president woman of the USA. staying would be the right choice for many reasons. many women don't leave if the man is still coming home unless the woman had someone else on the side to move on.  more to come

About praying asking God for things I need to make life easier are not answered. this does not mean i don't believe in Him I do. I know I am  to love Him with all my Mind Heart and Soul. and this is even if He never answers  my prayers.  I also know that many people don't pray to God don't even believe in God and yet they have all they need. and i know that if i take my life because i can't take it no more things will be worst for me and for my children. And i do know people that also believe in God have it worst then i do. about the world revolving around me is not fun i am not happy when people repeat to blow my mind! and this is everyday everywhere even church leaders like Dr. Ed young which i used to hurry home form Catholic Sunday Mass  turned on TV to hear him preach is also repeating words like  bottom Line. and many others that i just don't want to listen  to anyone  anymore! And if or not these people are told to repeat someday soon we are going to need to talk about this and many other things that are going on ! 

Next i will write about the Vietnam War Era   Updated May 10, 2015 One day i was at a Crystal City football game when  a young  man i don't remember  who he was  asked me for my address. he told me he was drafted and was leaving home and that he was told to get as many addressees from people he knew  more to come   and  only  one day i saw and met Armando Luna brother to attorney Jose Luna when went to pick up my sister Barbara  for a  more to come                      

(and just one thing i need to say things are repeating and we did have Papa and Sonny boy presidents now we might have husband and wife presidents).  

Updated May 10, 2015 Attention people more hints are given! last night my daughter and i drove to MN to buy lotteries  tickets  but on our way to the store i made a stop at my apartment and as i was  outside walking  towards the front door of the apartment  on the ground i  saw a black Kings card. I  thought to myself someone put it there for me to see because someone is up to something.  I didn't tell my daughter about it because what for most of the time she doesn't' believe me. Now most of the time I buy mine at the M&amp;H on Main Avenue. My daughter then tells me lets go to K Mart after that i asked her if she wanted to buy the tickets at Cash Wise there she bought two $5.00 ones one of them was a deck of playing cards game. when she bought them i told her that i too was looking at the ones she had bought. As we were on our way back home she started scratching them  and she tells me one is a winner. when we got to her apartment she tells me i can keep the winner ticket as i read it she had won $7.00 with two kings card. I then told her about the card i had seem outside my apartment so last night  when  i went back home i picked it up and i will put it on display for you to see it. today Mother's day  i just got  out off  work and I am  at the Fargo's library and as i am looking for what is a Kings card i read this. King usually represent the highlight ranking card. Update May 11, 2015 This is the card i found on the ground as i was walking into my house apartment front door and this  is what it reads. In the French patten,the king of Spades is the Biblical King David more to come   

Update May 12, 2015  The day i went to Moorhead Vision at the Moorhead Mall i read a bit about Carlos Morales and his beautiful Quadruplets more to come May 12, 2015 today i started off by listening to this song i had heard long time ago when it was released and it was here in the Mapleton farm. The song is Sukiyaki . One day long time ago my oldest brother and another young man were going to Casselton or coming to Fargo to gas up the car  i was sitting on the back seat when the song started playing i like it a lot and i kept hoping my brother would like it too so he wouldn't change the channel. none of us knew what were the words but my brothers friend said something like this in Spanish, "did you hear that? Chino Yo."   more to come   the other song that i heard is Suspicion  which i thought Elvis sang that song but now it's a   Terry Stafford song. more to come   Update May 13, 2015 today no work for me well not really i am always working. I stayed home and watched this movie Fargo. Now many things might not be true but this is My son was released in January  2014 from Moose Lake Boot Camp. i have seen the real Paul Bunyan statue in Brainerd, Minnesota. on May 10, 2015 when i was at the Fargo's library i wasn't sure what was the card i had found so i asked a man sitting on the right side of me what was  I pointing to. He said it was a King of Clubs when i got home i looked  at the one i had found and as you can see it was a Spades. Back to the movie twice i seen Fargo's people watching the Movie from the north side outside wall of Radisson Hotel. One night i was walking from Moorhead library  to Fargo. And it was so quiet as if i was in a real Theater there was hardly any noise on the streets. The word "Ya Ya"  i remember back then when my brother and started a conversation about some people up here saying this word Ya. now i had two aunts named Frances. one was the her first oldest sister who was a teacher and was picture with a violin. The second was her half sister who was a Spanish  radio Disc jockey in California and she also had a half sister named Olivia. years after the movie Fargo was out it was showed on Television and my brother was watching it trying to figure out where in Fargo was that bar in the Movie. I think  he died thinking some parts of the movie was somewhere in Fargo, ND  and i also remember him laughing while remembering the word Ya Ya Ya.   more to come   Update May 18, 2015 last night my daughter and I went to see the movie American Sniper at the Safari theater  in Moorhead.  now for months i had in my mind the dress i wore for my Confirmation and several times i told my daughter about it.  the dress i bought here in Fargo was short sleeve and in the style of navy and it was navy blue. Now when one time Raul told me when in the Army he and other soldiers  were told to kill kill kill! Christ said "you live by the Sword You died by the Sword." Now i know being a soldier is a job and  someone who marries a soldier the spouse can't be nagging. and i know that once the soldier been in a war zone and comes back home his never the same person he was before. i feel like a soldier i am in a daily mental  war zone. you the people have been playing with my mind some if not all are told what to repeat to mess up my mind. but like I said before not all your told to repeat. Many things that come from your mouths you had no way of  knowing and still you repeat.  more to come  

Update May 18, 2015 i heard BB king died May 14, 2015 born September 16, 1925. i heard something about The Lawrence Welk  show coming back to TV? This is one of the shows i used to watched growing up at the farm.      do you remember the song in the year 2525 ?      Update May 21, 2015 Time Time Time i need more! Today i need to mention the Martial Law and  what long time ago Mengo Hernandez had told me  more to come About the Minnesota SWAT which i saw today passed by my home. about Red River Judo on Main Ave and about the name Victoria name i really haven't' liked but still it's a name repeated and which today i had to drop an electricity payment at  the Moorhead Mall and saw the Bar Vic's  Bar &amp;Grill more to come 

Update May 26, 2015  Yesterday  remembering back then arriving on a  Memorial Day that looked more like a Sunday. I remember arriving at Casselton  in a cool morning or afternoon no stores and Gas Stations opened.  Only the United States flag more to come 

Update May 26, 2015 yesterday i bought the DeVinci code film and i have to say this there is no way Jesus Christ got married and had a family even if the painter Leonardo  thought He did! No way ! There is only so much time in a day to do so much! Yes Christ was and is as real as you and me! He also had to work and eat and He also had a mother ! It is written  He was  a Carpenter and a Teacher who was teaching His disciples and other people around him about our Father in Heaven. But what I read  migjht be true the book was translated into 44 languages. 80 million copies were solid the writer's name is Dan Brown What repeats? About a year ago i made a copy of the picture of the Mona Lisa and later i will tell you why. May 26, 2015  Back to the Movie Fargo the Asian man named was Mike who made up a story about losing his wife Linda. Erlinda was  my husband's mother name but most people know her by Linda. Her midden name is Canela = Cinnamon    more to come    Update May 27, 2015 what am i thinking when i am watching the Vitruvian Man? I am thinking how in  beauty school i was taught to cut hair and i am thinking about the two XX on top of my hood car then i looked into Lines Of Symmetry. more to come

Updated May26, 2015  We used to worked for two farmer brothers and long time ago first farmers wife who we used to live on their farm wrote us a letter saying her husband had died on his sleep that on that  day or one day before he had been golfing. more then once and weeks ago I told my daughter I wanted to die on my sleep just like the farmer.  and  for a while i had this on my mind . Today my daughter tells me she heard Bob Salter died on his sleep. Well my oldest brother who got to see my father  more in his youth years used to say that my father looked  kind-of  like Bob Salter former S.A. TV anchorman, may Bob  rest in peace.  more to come  

Update May 28, 2015  Porn and Child pornography and the now songs and Videos, videos from Katy Perry Miley Cyrus Sia  Taylor Swift Meghan Trainer and so many more that if they don't have the bigger Ass or breast they'll have someone else shaking it.      =  Now i had this in mind for a while and because i just learned on radio talk and on TV about  the Hot Girls Wanted now i will write about it . Remember the Red River Valley Fair back then in the early sixties when it came?  Back then there were not too many women or girls willing to take it off like nowadays. I was a child but i remember  there were a large group of men outside a tent and they were waiting for it to opened. These men could have had a wife daughters mothers granddaughters sisters. But they were there because they wanted to see someone else daughter sister or even mother take it off.   swimming pools were not enough not even Naked Girl Bars were not enough or maybe at that time they won't any around i don't know. these music artiest and many more like them are very smart they using children in their adult  music videos. One video from Sia is a dream come true for child p            more to come 

Update June 1, 2015 this Video Elastic Heart Feat reminds  me  of a story that was reported to the law and  came out on Unsolved Mysteries. This was  about a Nude camp when a man had been  wrestling with a girl and then she runs outside because the man started maybe touching   her  and she got frighten and ran out. This was reported to the Law I never did  find out if the man was caught but it make me think even in a Nudest  Camps there are rules that need to be followed. i knew you had to also be in the nude but that's all i knew.        more to come  

Update June 2, 2015 now next time Katy Perry comes to the Fargo dome all you boys young man old men and even married men get in line because Katy Perry wants to see your little, big or old even dirty Penis.  Have fun! I know she will teach very young girls not to be shy and ask boys to show them their penis. That is what the music Video Peacock is about, right? I wonder what she learned during the years she was leaving with her self proclaim ministers parents!? SEX!  The world ( we the people ) are changing just listen and  look around how words like vagina and penis are used more often now then yesterday. What happened to private parts of the body ? Is that old school? Yes, we are changing  fast but not for the better and that is in general! more to come later i will write how much and how Ive seen even  Mexican American parents have also changed. more to come. 

Update May 29, 2015 Here are more things repeated. On Tuesday May 26, 2015 at around 1:00 am  at the Wal Mart Super Center in south Grand Forks, ND a man black man named Marcell Travon Willis  originally from Springfield  active with the Grand Forks, Air Force Base goes inside the store and starts shooting people. shoots two employes then killed himself. Then i read Mayor says Not Normal a week ago while i was working through Commend center at the Wal Mart in Fargo at 13 Avenue i told a woman working with me my life was not normal like everyone else, meaning my life is different then everyone else. Was the  Mayor told to repeat my words? Maybe yes maybe not but according to the Herald and the Forum newspapers his name is Michael Brown and he came from Okinawa and according to the internet news Dr. Michael R. Brown, MD came  to Grand Forks as a United States Air Force officer and attended University North Dakota School of Medicine and is a Obstetrician at the Altru health. Now on Thursday i read one of the victims name is Greg =Gregory who died as a result. now according to his obituary he was a parishioner and greeter at the St Micheal's Catholic church in Grand Forks, ND where i met father Bob. Gregory = Gregorio  was the name of second husband to Erlinda Canela Munoz then Sendejo. One day in 2005 before i knew what the law was up to while Troy and i were  sitting inside my son's there was not much for me to do but wait for court day so most days Troy and i just spent time talking. But then he told me this, " you know so  many stories you could write one book after another" then I said yes, but i thought to myself if i only knew how to spell . i knew he was making fun at me but i never got anything serious until after January 25, 2006            May 30, 2015 because i did write about The Alamo in letter #32 i will post this letter and write more about the Alamo more to come. My daughter likes to read from well good known  Christian writers. Shes been telling me a bit about what Max Lucado writers  about how he thinks. So i wanted to know who is Max Lucado. this is what now i know about him more to come   

Update June 1, 2015   Because i needed to see a dental doctor today i met Fergus Falls, Minnesota and this is where i want to: Apple Tree Dental on Westridge Mall Suite 33 2201 W. Lincoln Ave Phone 218-998-2218. And the last mile sign  i saw coming back home was 22 miles to Fargo and these were the things i saw on my way there on a driven on a Cab (Taxicab) ride.  more to come  Update June 3, 2015

today was my second visit to Fergus Falls all went well. The  nice couple who sold me the Van  gave me two keys on key chains. One was a Yellow School Bus the other Fergus Falls Nelson Auto Car Sale. more to come       

Update June 2, 2015  I checked out these two books here in Moorhead about Symmetry and this is one Symmetry in science and art and on page 100 is the interwoven rings and on page 145 i learned about the Egyptian pattern. Update June 3, 2015 later on i will come back to this. 

Update June 3, 2015 now these are other things that so far have repeated on my life time. presidents that first were governors.  Theodore Roosevelt first governor of New York and 20th century 1899-1901.Franklin Delano Roosevelt second  governor of New York from 1929-1933   

Update  June 4, 2015 here i will write something funny  i heard last night on FM Radio wonderland more to come i got on my car had the radio on and a conversation with going with who i believe is  two men and a woman. one radio man is telling the world that his girlfriend asked him about going to shave her vagina pubic hair. the talk woman tells the man she has never gotten her vagina saved . the horny and i can tell by  the sound of their voices they are getting or are horny by that time that he will pay for her to get her vagina like his girlfriend and that she is gong to love it! now i have so much to write about these i just can't wait but i have to because it's almost closing time and oh i really like this song I 'm gonna marry her. These days not too many man want to married they just want to have Sex. and nowadays it's so easy and chip because parents proved the room no need to have sex in the back seat of a car or go  any  motel. parents proved room food shower and are very happy because they know the ones that might married their daughter more t come. yes all this and more goes on at FM Radios!     more coming  up  

Update June 4,2015 now back to the word Canela = Cinnamon. there were several years that migrant children were taken care at a school in Casselton. now one day in class we were group in 4 or 5 students i really don't remember but i do remember this. we were told to peek a favorite cookie to bake. so the group i was with we all Update June 6, 2015 later i  will write about the Mike Dairy  Farm and about the Chicken Farm           

Update June 8, 2015 Before 2006 before the law framed me and  later gave me hints my son had been framed too.  Troy once told me "your smile will soon fade away." more to come Update June 9, 2015 today on radio i heard a man talking about the suffering that gos on when you received  the Lord. the suffering i am going through is much more  deeper  then any of you the people!  

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June  11, 2015 for days if not months i been trying  to write this down but i didn't know how  but today at around 1:55 pm at the Fargo's library before dropping another of my daughter's book It's Not About me" by Max i read a little on page 125 and now i think i can write what i need to write down. Now if i am poor its because God wants for me to be poor if i don't have a good loving husband is because  God wants it that way. if i am sick it's because God wants  for me to be sick . If i am homeless its because God wants for me to be homeless. I can go on and on but for now i will write what i mean . Now Max asks this questions "Have i been selected to struggle for God's glory? have i been granted for Christ's sake , not only to believe in Him ,but also to suffer for His sake? Philippians 1:29 I don't have to think for too long to answer, i say i was selected to suffer for Him. but in more ways then you the people are suffering. besides writing for no money i still have to work for a living when i am  at any kind of work i am mentally harassed by You the People I am not paid fairly like others and treated like others.         more to come  before i go on i need to say that if this is not about God then i am  the greatest  fool that has ever walked this earth! But there is a God!  more to come 

Updated June 15, 2915 I never have time to see if anyone is reading what i write but about one month ago i noticed that i only have One Follower now i don't know what to do. My daughter asked me several weeks ago which story in the bible would i compared my life to that was  easy  for me to answered i told her Joseph. I always thought it was only Joseph now i think i can even relate with Job. but not in the richness and beauty and spouses God gave to him only on the hardships. no God hasn't   taken my children haven't given me  hard core illness but i still have it very hard. before 2004 i worked and lived just like any of you and i needed and something i had what i needed. Now i can't get what i need i can't get nowhere. Now this doesn't mean i will stop trying but now life is so much harder my life has gotten  from bad to worst and no i don't believe it's because  you the people have the power to do me wrong play mind games with my and get away with it no if these things are going on is because in some mysterious   way God wants it to be that way. You the people have no power over me just what God gives you. I saw my father more to come        

Update June 11, 2015 and i wasn't going to write about this Movie I saw about  father Miguel pro but then i saw the numbers 44 and remembered other things on this movie that now i know i need to write about it. more to come           Updated  June 16, 2015   Last night i saw   I think this is his real name   Florentino  Gonzalez his son and one granddaughter at a store near by my apartment. Now  my husband Raul nick name was Pewie or Peewee. Mr. Gonzalez nickname is also Pewee. He  was also married to a woman named  Marta  Lopez from Crystal City. And i could be wrong but i think i heard along the way that the Lopez family were our far away cousins their only child their son had also been in prison  more to come. now if I am not mistaken Raul was named after his maternal  grandfather Mr. Raul Canela. I named my son Luis after my father Luis Fernandez. back to Mr. Canela, Mr. Raul Canela made sweet Mexican bread and had a Bakery which it's still open for business. my son has been working for about a year and months at the place  called Country Hearth Bakery. growing up I understood that my aunt's second husband Mr. Tellez had been a butcher, worked  cutting meat.  One day when  my son was in  a prison don't remember what state it could have been in Minnesota or North Dakota he told me he had cut his finger while cutting meat. he told me no one else wanted to cut the meat so he would v    

Update 17, 2015  In the late sixties when we moved to 310 West Crockett i was the only one in the block named Marta but then John and Marta Mchazlett  and family moved  from Chicago with his aunt Virginia Galven then we were two Marta's  in the same side of the street. Then later on Marta moved out and it was again only me for so many years then came Marta Ramirez her husband and family  more to come    

Update June 18, 2015 Boy! Do i have a lot to write about what  repeats as i read on the Cracking The Vinci Code .  No facts    what i read  about Jesus marring Mary Magdalene but let me write how it repeats.  Dan *Brown repeats  *Margaret  = Maggie *Starbird *Micheal Baigent *Richard Leiah *Henry *Lincoln       more to come           

Update June 20,2015 Today  I wanted some time  to write about how great my father was but instead i need to write about this NO! NO! NO! Minneapolis, Minnesota  Law! You should also Charged The 20 year old  Mother for what happened to 2 year old Sophia O Neill! it's TIME MOTHERS ARE HOLD RESPONSIBLE for the MONSTERS  THESE KIND OF  MOTHERS WELCOME TO THEIR CHILDREN'S HOMES! THESE MOTHERS DON"T SEEN TO CARE IF THEIR CHILDREN ARE IN SOME KIND OF DANGER THEY ARE JUST THINKING ABOUT SEX SEX SEX!  I AM SO TIRED OF HEARING A CHILD GETS HURT EVEN KILLED!  BY THEIR BOYFRIENDS! NO, START! QUESTIONING THE MOTHER WHERE AND WHY WAS THE CHILD LEFT ONLY WITH THIS MONSTER!  THE LAW AND SOCIAL SERVICES SHOULD START WARNING MOTHERS THAT IF HURT COMES TO THEIR CHILDREN UNDER THEIR ROOF THEY WILL BE HOLD REASONABLE! START NOW!    more to come ! 

Update June 20, 2015 what happened at the Emanuel African  Methodist Episcopal church did remind me if what happened in Birmingham Alabama more to come  Updated June 23, 2015  i have said many times before some of you The People are told what to repeat to blow my mind this is the Devil in you, you are doing His work but let me tell you The people how God is telling me not to take it to mind and heart. Here  is one of many examples. Today a man who lives on the same apartments i live in was told to call me Yolanda by now he knows my name. this man has been acting and talking like my brother Angel Fernandez who was married to Yolanda from Carrizo Springs, TX   but for days Ive been thinking about long time ago  what she had told me about pennies and this man also from Carrizo Springs named Cleo Bustamente an Entrepreneur and like many days before today i  picked up a penny i saw on the floor downstairs in the laundry room. Yolanda once told me  something like this  "Bustamente has money because even a penny  he sees on the  floor he will pick it up and put it on his picket." My grandchildren  mother last name is Bustamente. more to come

 Update 24, 2015 Last week  my daughter asked checked out this movie from the Moorhead  library A Place In The Sun now we had seen this movie many times before but we still like to watch it. After January 25, 2006 the night i was stopped in East Grand Forks and given hints my son  and I had been framed   and that  the Law was watching every move  i made and  told  people  to followed  me soon after i noticed that even the new Movies  were repeating. So for a long time i didn't like going to the movies but i didn't say no because i knew my daughter would not understand me she thought i was going through some kind of depression but i knew  the world was repeating and i really thought it was only the law with connections with you the people to drive me crazy so my word against them would not be valid and this is true the law has being watching  me and telling some of you to repeat. But now i know thee is much more to this and not all is coming from You The People. these is what repeats from Fargo i drive east to now my home in Moorhead Eastman. i think are  twin doors  1401 1401 has they walked by the street to her home at 44331/2. i see the name Walter on a mail box. The first landlord i went to asked about in apartment his name was Walter and i can prove it i still have the contract more to come Update June 25, 2015 i rechecked this movie and today i noticed Elizabeth tells Montgomery something like a penny for your thoughts. Montgomery is celebrating his birthday on the *15 of the month of what ? August ?  now way before i had read and i am more then sure wrote about Elizabeth and T      

Update 25, 2015  this is the second year i hear my daughter mentioned the word Ramadan. She had told me a bit about it but today i read a bit more . Now Ramadan is the *ninth mouth of the Islamic calendar during which strict fasting is observed from sunrise to sunset. in the twin cities followers be in for *15 hours or more of fasting      Update June 29, 2015 i need to write about employed   women who don't washed their hands on sinks but do it on toilets! But not today no time! 

Now if this is the man i think he is accused of double murder Ashley Kenneth Hunter i only know him by his second name Kenneth. If his the man employee by Commend Center then me or I and others travel to Finley, ND to work in a Bakery. now this man didn't sound or looked to me like a killer. I know that you can not judged a book by it's cover or more to come Update June 30, 2015 now this is what repeats on Sunday night one day before the killings in north Fargo I couldn't found my small Hammer to hummer a nail on the wall to hung a curtain.  I called my daughter to asked her for her Hummer. I don't remember exactly the time  it might have been between  9:00pm or 10:00pm. I wanted to clear my mind  so i walked to her apartment in downtown Fargo. I stayed with her only for a short time then i walked back to Moorhead and used her Hummer to hung my curtain.  The next day I don't remember what time it was and i don't remember if that day i worked.BUT I do remember that I saw a car coming from the West driving under the  rail road train tracks bridge  as I was also going under but driving East making a left turn to Moorhead when i was a white small car with maybe two person in it. One for sure was driving  the other person might have been a woman that had a Hummer out the window as they drove by as i was waiting for the green arrow light to turn on. *( Railroad Someone to prison without a fair trial or by means of false evidence.)

( now i thought to myself the law who keeps in eye on me told these people to drive by me with a Hummer on their hand.)At that time i knew nothing about what had happened or what was going to happened. I just remember that I think it was Monday late afternoon  I passed by 12th Avenue North and i saw police men in the yard of a two story house. *(i know from way back in  2006 in Grand Forks, MN and Grand Forks,ND  the law has me under  24/7 surveillance and tells certain people to gave me hints what i do and say but there are things that no matter how smart you the people think you are You are not smart enough to manipulate everything . When i  wrote the name Ashly  i thought it was only used on  females. now the second victim was found on Tuesday at 1122 12th St North it reads the house is owned by the Catholic Diocese of Fargo.    more to come             

Update 9, 2015 The Bible talks about Twins one set of twins were named Perez and Zerah son's of Tamar and Judah.  My son' best friend nickname is something like Java i think named after Stars Wars Java or his real name right now I don't remember how to say or spill it. Now his parents are both Perez.  so his mother last name is Perez Perez. He is second cousin to Erica twin son's. If i am not mistaken  one of his mother brothers is Miguel Perez from Carrizo Springs, TX  more to come two days ago i listened to Billie Holiday music who was born on April 17, 1915 and died at the age of 44 years old. I am writing about this because before and after these numbers I been looking at on addresses and   more to come.For days i had this name on my mind Victoria  i  bought an old movie with J more to  

Update June 29, 2015 now what Aaron knodel juror found it too hard for him? That is nothing! You should walk on my shoes women size 71/2 for one whole day! What you heard is nothing it was just about Sex between two adults!  Nobody else was watching them nobody is playing with their  minds only themselves with each other!  more to come       

Update July 2, 2015  What parent  leaves a  child alone inside a running car? This parent should pay a fine and be sent to jail for a few days for doing such stupid thing !     more to come

Updated 8, 2015On Dakota Park Apartments this is what repeats 3131 and on top in the middle  of the buildings is what looks to me shape of a Diamond. more to come   

Update 10, 2015 In TX years ago  i worked as a housekeeper with these two families now I don't remember excecly thier last names but they sounded  or spelled something like this one in Crystal City was House or Homes or Holmes the other was the same but in Carrizo Springs  House Homes or Holmes. right now i  don't remember  who was from where. What i do remember is that the old man who I worked for was from Carrizo Springs and  had taught English. update July 13, 2015 MistakeSpanish!  . One of his sons who was also a  teacher was accused of  killing his wife. The other one in Crystal City had Cancer on his more to come. Now what was the name of Aurora theather?=Century. What was said about this story?=  Twelve people were killed in Aurora, Colorado and 58 were injured in midnight Batman movie. The movie Dark Knights Rises.  Who did the killing?=James Holmes unloaded 4 weapons full of ammunition. 2012 Aurora shooting was the deadlist shooting since the Columbine massacre in 1999 where twelve people were killed more to come  

Update July 2, 2015 this past Saturday my daughter and i went to West Acres Mall  i didn't  feel like walking around and I needed to put eye drops on my eyes so i sat on a bench inside the Roger Maris Museum. now many times before i had sat there and had noticed some things that i could write about that were repeated but the 6161 I really didn't know what it meant . So in my mind I asked God what is here you want me to write about? then I looked more carefully to the left side and then i understood  what was repeated. In 1961 Maris  more to come Update July 6, 2015 now remember when i wrote the word Amber? I had in mind to write about the few expensive Jewelry i had as i was growing up and one was an Amber ring the other was a three small diamond ring and a gold high school ring. But like everything else i write about  there is always much more to the story that has to do with me you and the rest of the world . more to come 

Update July 7, 2015 (9) Nine black  people were killed inside church in Charleston , SC. Today i went to this story more to come      

          

Update 7, 2015 I wrote about my family and me arriving here back in 1958. I am 58 years old and there is a monument of the Ten Commandments in the middle of the City of Fargo building and  downtown  Fargo library dating back since 1958. There is another Ten Commandments that Fargo gave to Moorhead and its outside the Moorhead, MN Courthouse behind Clay Social Services building.  Today i read a bit about the Ten Commandments and this is what i understood. more to come  

Update July 7, 2015 Now people are we really living like God wants us to ? NO! We are Not! for us all is WELL and OK! Today nothing is wrong anything goes!  Now lets talk about nudity everybody wants their body's seen by everyone else! We like it so much just as much as we like SEX. And we got people like Katy Perry remembering us and showing children how to do it on music videos. Right!  You might say its been like this since before i was born. Yes you might be right but now there is so much more then before because now  we not only have movies, magazines  and TV but we have the famous Computer!  I remember one day when my brother Angel asked my father about looking at a woman without clothing and what it did and how it made a man feel like . this question was and is important  because by nature if we are looking at a nude body especially young ones  more to come              

Update 13, 2015 now remember i mentioned these two names David and Gilbert, Gilberto? Gilberto half brother to  Davila one of the men i knew since childhood  who in Grand Forks, ND was told to lured me into going to East Grand, Forks where the law set me up. Gilberto got married had children with sister of  David Castillo's wife .  But I don't remember their names i think they were Fancisco Ramirez daughters. Now if I am not mistaken  Gilberto real last name is De La Cruz but runs by his mothers last name Castillo. Update July 15, 2015   I remember i heard Gilbert going to prison for the first time because of setting  a house on fire in Crystal City  the  house i believed  i heard belonged to Gutierrez that at that time Gilbert and his family were renting or living closed by (Not Sure). What i do know is that David Castillo and his wife adopted  Gilbert's children and Castillo for several year m  to ND and lived on the same Farm we used to come do sugar beets. i thought how Castillo would have  known about his farm is i believe Lucila A       Eusebio Davila more to come

Update 18, 2015 this past Sunday July 13, 2015 would be one year that my beloved nephew  Ricky De la Cruz went to sleep to be with our maker. Right now i  am remembering after his death the  night I saw a white Dove flying from the North to the South. Later that week i heard he had been taken back to Texas to be buried      where he was born in Carrizo Springs, TX. Later on I would see a white Dove again. more to come  . When  my motehr passed away my daughter told me she had seen two white Doves flying away in the school yard. What came to our minds was that was my father who had come for my mother. more to come

Update July 16, 2015 for a long time I wanted to write about close people i knew and know that have been in prison for a long time one even died that my oldest sister first husband and it was during the time the white people were in control in Crystal City but when more to come .   

 

 

 Update 21, 2015 Like always today i have a lot a write about but need more time. later i will write about   Jennifer Lopes Green dress = The Fargo Lions = south TX decor Lions = Fergus Falls Apple dental = my new eye glasses and much more    Update 22, 2015 Now i have a lot to write but i need to put my two cents on this one because it's everywhere I go. I go to the Moorhead Social Serveries or go do Housekeeping or other places  i see Pechos Pechugas Chichis = Women's Breasts= Boos. I noticed women nowadays want everyone else to see their Breasts. Making excuses about feeding their kids. I know Breast feeding is the best mike for babies but these mothers need to cover up. If they want to show off their boos go to the Bars and show them off anything is wrong with that. Drunk men old men and young  men might want to see Chichas = Boos =Breasts.  Young old or wrinkle breasts they don't main. Today i opened the newspaper and i see a poor white women with brown wrinkle shorts in a Moorhead swimming pool told she needs to go.          more to come  

Update 23, 2015 Because by now i know Evrything has to do with me I will post a picture of myself   from the Spring Break of 1976 at South Padre Island Beach. Back then it was nothing what it is today and there was no Donald Trump to be seen. In 1976 while on Spring Break Monica paid me a visit and told  me  something like this ,"let's go to Padre  Island," I said with who? I don't remember well what were they to her  but two boys were in the car one was white and he was from Nebraska and the other was Mexican like us . I told Monica  I didn't have a  bathing suit she said, "I,ll get you one." And she did so off we 4 went to Padre. more to come  (Now i will be  going back to when Raul and I went to Colorado )    Laredo is  more to come 

Update 24, 2015 My daughter asked me to checked out this book Running On Empty by Jill Briscoe. right away  I thought about the song Running On Empty By Brown but what also came to mind was the time my brother Luis and my nephew Rick were hospitalize in the San Antonio Hospitals. And one day while driving from one hospital to another Concha started the conversation about the young woman who had killed herself on her Ranch related to back then governor Dolph Briscoe who served a  4 year  term and was a banker in Uvalde, TX. more to come      Update July 27, 2015 this is another way you the wicked people do evil to me on July 24, 2015 I was sent to work at the      where I was food poisoned. if it was only me who had that reaction to the food then for sure it was done on purposed to get me sick. more to come on   

why i know   this could be true .  

Update July 28, 2015 today i started throwing  away papers and cards when i saw this one i started laughing because my children still think the same as when one of them wrote this letter to the other, they still don't believe a word I say.  update 30, 2015 i laughed  for a while because i thought to myself only if this ordeal would be  so easy i would just see a doctor get some kind of pills and in the morning it would be over and done with .more to come oops last the card

Update July 31, 2015 in 2005 before i left  to Grand Forks, ND something told me to take my expired license with me and this is what helped cashed  checks and visited my son in jail. i destroyed the rest but  kept the picture  more to come 

    

Update July 30, 2015 i am almost done throwing out papers and cards i don't think i need anymore but back then i really didn't know what was going on the only thing i knew was that you the people were told to repeat what i was doing. Now i know that it was meant for me to come back and see how many persons places and things are repeated around me and many have nothing to do with what many of you are told to repeat about me   Later i will write  more about Sam's Club, Sandra Garza  me and others. Now what names are in the news? A black man named Samuel = Sam DuBose from Ohio was killed by a police officer. A black woman named Sandra Bland is said to be found dead in a Texas jail. Both deaths were results of only a Traffic violation. more to come      Update August 18, 2015 this license had expired on September 11, 2004. more to come  

Update July 31, 2015      Update August 3, 2015 like always i have a lot to write but no time and like always all has to do with me. Now   some time ago i went  to Menard's in  Moorhead to pick up  an application for work and this song starts playing on the radio " Time Is On My Side" this goes on in several stations . I go to the Dakota Ranch and buy two movies one of them is this movie that i had seen before but had forgotten about it and back then meant anymore then just a movie. This movie "Fallen" plays this song "Time is on my side" now as i start watching it i noticed it excel y what is going on with you the people but you don't even have to touched each other you just pass on your evilness. more to come Update 3, 2015 some time  last week my daughter checked  this movie The Jerk    more to come

Update August 4, 2015 today there was no work and no pay. so i went to Chapel at 333 Roberts St North for the second time since i been up north.  I also went to   see art at The Art Gallery on Broadway St. Today I walked downtown something i hadn't done for a while. I  enjoyed the nice hot sun and cool wind compared to Texas weather in a summer day. Today at noon i went to eat at Salvation Army with strangers all around me. This is one of the many places that certain people with good hearts volunteer more to come      



Update August 5, 2015 I know very well   i need to go back and check on my spelling and grammar but i have no time. Way before  i gave my life to the Lord i remember my oldest brother saying in some conversations we had something like this "You don't play with God" I think he meant on God things we need to watched  ourselves what we say. Since 2006 its been so hard for me that in the at first when i went back to TX. I really wanted God to remember me and just go to sleep. Now i am over that i know i need to be here. But i am so tired of this kind of life where i am getting nowhere with this and nothing seen to work and there is no end to my suffering.  And the worst is  there is no relief no one to talk with about this strange things that are going on that you the people should also see but don't care to come up to me and talk to me about it. But what i do see and hear is that you the  people repeat  so do  church leaders and no one cares about what i am writing about. So all these Christians books i read a bit from and these few church leaders i hear on radio don't mean a thing to me because nothing applies to me. 

Now i know God is and Christ is and died and came and is coming back but i am having a hard time believing He gives me Not you Me what i need.  I can only speak for myself. Before being saved  life was hard after salvation life was fine but now it's even header. it used to be that  i could talk with what i used to call a  friend or go to a priest or Nun even to someone i knew from other religion. Not anymore I have no friends and church leaders only want to repeat which means  I am not welcome. (And i haven't forgotten how Crystal City people and others have played wicked mind games with me  later i will write about it.) Now the few if any of you who read what i write might think that what some of you people are repeating is what i been writing here on this blogger, No! I noticed that you the people been repeating since 2004 the first year i came to Grand Forks, ND and after January 25, 2006 when officer Olson #556 kept my TX license it really got worst. but by now i know this is  from God not you the people for some reason God is letting you do this wicked things to me that almost all has to do with me just keep reading my blogger.  Before 2006 after Catholic Mass i used to drive fast to get home to hear Dr. Ed young and others on TV. And all this time i never head him used this word (bottom line) and it's not only this word he repeats it's many others. Here  in town it's Tony from baptist church (bottom line) and other words he repeats. About  Catholics  they too repeat and don't like me but i do hear Tony on radio about sprinkling the water on babies head on baptism but i don't see him and his wife on front of the crystal doors where abortions(baby killers)   are taking place helping with signs against abortions.  From  different Christian church religions  i have learned a lot  but none are perfect. It's the relationship with Christ that matters. 
These past years i am having a hard time  trying to understand God. But now now I am beginning to  think this is the way it is with me it's not what He does or doesn't give me it's how i react to it. And this is what is so hard for me to accept His will.  Today before i turned in this book Running On Empty by Jill Briscoe.   On page 108 about Martha being worried about Mary not helping her and brought it to the attention of Christ. on Luke 10:38-42 . Yes i too am not afraid of hard work but my life it not like any of you i have to  work take all the abusiveness mind games from you the people. Some health providers also play mind games with me but just like you i get sick and have to go see a doctor.  I have to  pay the rent  the bills  bring home the food cook it take care of car drive car watched every penny i spend. And if i don't work i don't have money! And i have to find the time to write it down. I tell God i need from Him. But what i understand now is that it's not what He gives me that matters it's how i am going to react to what He doesn't give me. What i am saying is i am to love Him even if I don't have the things i need or want! I am to Love him with all my heart  and soul regardless. And there is where i am having a hard time accepting because i am alone I don't have not even one person who is willing to hear. I feel He wants me to do it all and I don't know how because it is too much it's  you the people I live with and i have to go against you because i  have to point out what is that you are doing to me!  

Update 6, 2015 when working at Sam's Club i used to drive by the Budweiser Plant and i knew that I was going to write about it. On the Movie Fallen the beer Budweiser is mentioned Budweiser is the first kind of beer i started drinking with Raul after i got married.    more to come update August 6, 2015 Fallen =theology subject to sin or depravity: fallen human nature . (of a woman )regarded as having lost her honor through engaging in a sexual relationship outside marriage. I can remember hearing from some people I knew how easy back then in the seventies was to have sex just take the pill. growing up in my family i knew anything about the pill and in school I  didn't really wanted to know because i wasn't planing on using it. i grew up thinking sex was only done in marriage. This is way couples that ran away would come back to get married. more to come about                                                            


Update 8, 2015 Now when i was hired from Sam's Club i will write why . Everywhere i work people love to play with my mind in TX was the same . Later i will write about some of the people there who played wicked mind games with me and they thought  they were funny. But for now i will mention two of the women that callled me. One of them is Stephanie she is white the other is Rosa but likes to be call Rosie originally from Colombia but is living or married to a white man. Both  women work at the Moorhead,MN Sam's Club as Event Specialist both are short. like in all places since the first time i started working there and in Fargo Sam's Club i was continually given a hard time in many ways by almost everyone including you the people who shop in these places. these games are like the ones attorneys Monty J. Stensland and Henry H. Howe and many other people were using in Grand Forks, ND and in Minnesota and of course all the way into TX. Because i can not prove it all i can only write a bit as to what was going on when these two women called  their higher authority and twist it around to their behalf . As you know by now God didn't made me self-sufficient when it comes down to spelling and reading.theses are all mind games done with repeated words that has to do with me with hands and face gestures never coming straight  up to me but using them to hit my mind and my emotions always with bad intentions to hurt me. i have told you many times since 2004 my home cars and many places i been i am under watched.  This goes back to what Eric Godmerson (if spelled incorrect i will correct later) in Court before i stood before the Judge who also played with my mind  by using face gestures and words. This is what Eric told me on February 8, 2006 " anything you say can and will be used against you" now lets see if these two women will think the same after i finished writing about what where the questions i asked them on how would they feel and what would they do if it were them under 24/7 surveillance. now these were just questions anything more then questions i wanted to know if they could take a bit off what i go through everyday since i was told back i 2006 what the law was up to how they were going to drive me crazy until  I would just give up and end my life. This is what you the people are trying to do because some one is telling you to repeat to me certain words or do certain things. This is going on for so long that it's part of you The People then you all get together inside a church and think you are perfect Christians. Today i was reading  the writing on the walls to the back of the Forum and Century buildings. And this word  UFFDA! that I didn't know how to spell but now i do thanks to you The People I can write about the questions i asked these two women.
Now whenever my oldest brother Luis used to smelled somethings that didn't smelled pleasant like a  fart. Fart =  Gas from the Anus. (fart about around) he would say the word Uffda! Now lets see if You The People will be saying Uffda to these two women and others i will write about. Just as dirty and uncaring these two women and many others have been to me i have become stronger more to come     Update 10, 2015 Last month Commend Center sent me and others to work at the Days Inn Motel in Moorhead i gave ride to one women who was staying at the  Grand Inn on Interstate 94 &amp; Highway 75 South. As i drove into the parking lot i noticed a sign that read Hair 75. I asked the woman what it meant  she said inside was a beauty shop named Hair 75. My grandson's (Mistake)  great step grandfather name is Ismael Cabello and son is Isreal Cabello. Cabello = Hair you can also say Pelo = Hair. more to come  Update 11, 2015 since yesterday both my grewn children are 35 years old. Now in some of my dreams before coming to the North I dreamed i am driving around or someone else is driving me around by now i know this is the City bus and the building are mostly brown and sometimes  i feel lost. which this is true because back then in the eighties i didn't know all Fargo and our last year by then the town was growing very fast  One day in the first days of July 2015 while looking for Corwin Auto Sales  on 301 38th St and i find my-safe looking at a sign that reads Microsoft. Now Isreal is an Software Engineer his wife is originally from Mexico her name is Erica.   more to come


next about Cotulla, TX  Update August 13, 2015           In 1928 president Johnson taught school to poor Mexican American children in Cotulla , TX  Judge Perez first sent my son to Boot Camp in Cotulla, TX more to come

Update August 17, 2015 this past Friday the car wouldn't start so i walked to Lost &amp; Found Ministry to see if someone would help me charge the battery. Not sure what was wrong but i figured i might as well start with that. Later i went back to the car and it did start running this was not the first time it does that now i thinking it's the ignition. but i knew since long ago when i first show it i was going to write about it now the address is 111 7th street south.  Moorhead  more to come and before i had this in mind more to come Update August 18, 2015 for days i had been thinking about what Donald Trump said about Mexicans and about women and as i was inside this place named Lost and Found  i saw this book "Men Who Hate Women And The Women Who Love Them" by Dr. Susan Forward. Now Trump is a funny man he makes me laugh. I think he thinks his rich because of himself but that not true.Trump is rich because God wants him to be rich.  more to come 

Update 24, 2015 Now in the movie La bamba it starts they are somewhere in San Fernando Valley. Cesar Chavez first son his  named is  Fernando. About two years before i was born my parents had a baby boy they named Fernando. Fernandez lived only for a short time.


Update 26, 2015 Attention Ramos even though i don't agree 100%  on what comes out from Donald Trump mouth. But  you Galavision  Jorge  Ramos Do Not I say Do Not represent me or other Mexican Americans ( Chicanos born and raised in the USA)  that might think like me. If you Jorge Ramos really care about your Mexican people born in Mexico go back and do something about it! Tell  your Mexican President to do something about his  poor people! You Jorge don't know Jack about how hard it's been here for the people that through  generations have sweat it out on hard labor and many of us are still poor fighting it to call the United States our home! many young people have educated then self for what !? now they not pay back the government and they are still poor! more to come    I had to speak my mind.  more to come

Update September 9, 2015 It is wrtten on Luke 12:2-5   = For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed;neither hid, that shall not be known.  Last week my daughter checked out this movie JFK. i heard about it back then when it first came out but i hadn't seen it. Update September 10, 2015 Now here are some things that repeat from the movie JFK. Clay = the substance of the human body.  Clay Shaw = I live in Moorhead , MN  which is Clay County.  more to come Update September 11, 2015 on the second time i went to work at Days Inn at lunch i went out to eat at the south Moorhead Dairy Queen as i looked at the receipt  I noticed their phone number 218- 512- 2222. Kennedy was our 35th president. Right now  both of my children are 35 years old. Kennedy died at 1:00 pm Central time and 2:00 pm Eastern time. From Fargo to Moorhead i drive Eastward. Love Field? In  the summer of 1979 Raul took me to see Loveland, Colorado. On that sad  day on TV this word was repeated Bulletin! Bulletin! Bulletin! more to come

Update 15, 2015  The year my children and I came to Clarkfield, MN Yellow Medicine County with the Loera family we stopped at for a while somewhere in a town  in south  MN to visit  with one of Loera's daughter and her husband. The couple had a baby they named Mara. I remembered Maria was so excited about her granddaughter that she kept calling her name, Mara! Mara! Has she hold her up.  Some weeks ago  my daughter was telling me the story about Naomi how she had geven herself the name Mara becuase she had lost her husband and two sons. Mara = bitter; sad,a symboical name which Naomi gave herself because of her misfortures. Ruth 1:20.   On September 12, 2015 I went back to work at the Dome when i went home underneath my radio clock my son place for me 6 $20 dollars bills for my birthday gift. the i hear about this book 102 Minutes The Untold Story of the Fight to Survive insade the Twin Towers  more to come back to the name Mara.  I know Maria Loera and her husband did not know what this name meant but niether did I. and i don't even  know if her daughter or son in law knew about it too. somewhere along the years when i went back to TX i read on local newspaper that Martha meant lady but i didn't know that Mara also meant martha and now i know that in Aramic more to come 
 About these two women One from  Morehead Kentucky and the other who came before a judge and was told to uncover her head both are wrong!  and i will tell you why  more to come

Update September 16, 2015  In the USA everybody is  allowed to have their own religious beliefs but they should leave their religion at their homes and at their temples and have them in their hearts and minds but not take them to their  workplace or to the  government courts!  Unless they owned their workplace then they can do as they please.   This woman Kim Davis  most lightly like most of us is a  big sinner  more to come  Update September 17, 2015 It is written Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember also your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil come and the years drew near of which you will say , I have no pleasure in them . She has been a  Fornicator an Adulteres more to come September 19, 2015 I too am against Gay and lesbians getting married and if i were Kim Davis and felt strongly about my beliefs and was against what You The people  voted ed by popular demand  I would have step down and let someone else take over. But is it just the beliefs or is it $$$ money! ? How much money ? $80,000 a year?  more to come

Now who are we as a nation, to have come to this mess of sins we are in ? more to come Are we the Fornicators?   let me tell you the ways and i will start with yours truly, ME. more to come then we will go to Adulterous Whorish lairs    

  next Bush your wife is not a Mexican American and i will tell you why! she is an immigrant!   = a person who leaves his or her Native country or region to settle in another   more to come
 also next is Rabbi you had it right but when God took a Detour you and many others didn't followed !  September 19, 2015 Now lets look at the word De -tour    more to come one is to avoid or bypass (something) Christ came in and what we could avoid was the killing of an animal lamb. Because He became the Lamb of God more to come  now please don't be upset this is my strong believe i am not trying to  offend anyone! more to come


Update September 19, 2015 on the Republicans debate i heard someone say we were or are the  richest   nation.Well  I never saw my father and mother rich and i am still waiting to see me and my children and  my  grandchildren rich. I will tell you who comes poor very poor and gets rich and didn't even have to sweat it out by going hungry missing school. not knowing the English language  because of lack of  integrating with south white people    we were out on  spinach, cotton, sugar beat,   cucumbers tomato's onions     fields and some   poor people i saw living on dirt floor in Crystal City, TX of the USA!       more on  being a USA born citizen and getting on education and having to pay back money  while other people just come here and the red carpet is threw on their feet with free collage free housing free hearth care free English classes money to start a business and much much  more  ! and about the kid who took the clock to school is he now going to sue the school and the police department like the woman who went to court and had all her face covered and got away by suing more to come do i sound upset? I guess i am , sorry. but i been poor all my life and  see that even with one two three diplomas hanging on the walls you are still not even making enough to make ends meet and to pay for those diplomas. owing a house  or getting a newer car ?Is out of the question ! more to come

September 20, 2015 this is the time i found out that if you were attending some higher education school here in the USA and you were not from this country if you agreed to stay here you did not have to pay back a penny to the government for your education. What a great deal for people who were not born here!  One day at the Uvalde Beauty school came a young woman she looked so much like Gloria Estefan  that is  when Gloria was younger. Now as me and another woman were doing her hair we started talking about what she was studying and where she was from. i don't remember where exactly she said she was from but it was somewhere in South America. Now yesterday as i looked into Gloria Estefan she was born in Cuba which that i knew but i didn't know she was born on September 1, 1957 and she also has a son born September 2, 1980. she and her husband got married on September 2, 1978. she lived in Houston, TX. Her mother was a school teacher. she was raised Catholic. more to come     

Update September 20, 2015 later  I will write about the farmers wife gardens my fathers TX gardens NDSU  Coopers Community gardens.
Update September 21, 2015   i know many or all don't like me and if you read what i write you like me less and will gave me a harder time. This has been going on since 2004 so i had to get use to it and get over it.  In the fall of 1975 when i moved in with sister Barbara  had this thing about going to the bus station in Mc Allen  looking  for housekeepers to take home . One day she took one  home. I noticed  how she was washing the dishes. Update September 23, 2015 Now I understand  this woman didn't know any better   more  Sanitation.        

Attention Government if you don't wake up we are going to have hepatitis  from A to Z! You the government  leaders and other wealthy  people  don't have to use public services like library computers public bathrooms and more like poor white, black and Hispanic do. And the poor Natives that were here way back before any Blondy or more to come     You don't get to be around the poor people you adopted  from other countries and some of these people don't wash their hands.  now they do wet them on the toilet.  These women who do this i hope don't do it because of their religion.

Update September 25, 2015 Now i just don't write what i write just for writting. I always have a reason for what i write. I had noticed that certain women werew not washing their hands after using the bathroom so one day I asked two of them if they were going to wash their hands one said she ahd not used the bathroom but them both of them just walked out not even the one that had used it botherd to wash her hands. i brought this up with another woman       more to come  

Update September 23, 2015 I know my word doesn't count but i will speak what is in my heart and in my mind.  In many things I don't agree with  Ben Carson and i think he should go back to the ER or his operating room wherever  he specialized on . BUT I would never apologize to anyone for my religion beliefs! I am sorry but I myself will not vote for a Muslim running for president that would go against my beliefs .  I am glad these Candidates  are saying how they feel! And if i were  a Candidate I  would like grown ups in  Adults to come before me the ones that are of age to vote not a child who was told what to repeat.
 Update September 27, 2015 Now  here are some of the things i hear Muslin men expect from women that i do not agree with. If i am on my period  or i am pregnant i can't go inside a temple to worship God. But these men can have more then one woman as their wife's have sex with them  all and beat them have children they can not afford to feed and still with all their filthiness  are allowed to go inside and worship ? No way Jose!And Oh,  i am to cover what God gave to me that is  my mouth my nose my hair my ears my forehead and i can only eat what they want me to eat. You got to be kidding!God gave me my mouth to p     more to come and if i am poor i only get to eat meat on certain celebrations! more to come

Update September 23, 2015 This is what i believe God has not blessed  this Nation because we are good people, far from the truth but because we were based on the one and only true God through Jesus Christ. I welcome anyone or anybody  to come teast His good  love

Update September 24, 2015 I am more then sure my daughter and I had gone to  the theater to see  this movie Frida but last week my daughter checked it out from the Library. Now this pair  Frida and Diego did not fear the Lord but here are some things that i can relate to my writing. One day when i was a child   i went to the movies with sister Connie and Raphael was singing ( mistake" Yo Soy Aquel" ) and I loved it then i heard these other songs La Llorona and  Desde Aquel Dia  more to come    and later about the Pope and the  Native Americans .

Update September 27, 2015 when i arrived here from TX i started learning more about how hard life has been for the Natives more to come

Update September 28, 2015 Like every other  I have so much to write but not enough time. I've  been thinking  about  how hard and expensive it is to be born poor  here in the USA and want to an education.  For some it's just a dream and if it comes true it can be a nightmare.  First you need to have a God given brain then take out student loans pass all the exams like everyone else. Now because you are poor and don't get anything for free you will need a lot of LOANS. Students loans you will need a lot because remember you are poor and most lightly all the people around you are poor that would be your parents or parent  are broke living day by day. So there you go thinking positive an education will one day free me from generations of poverty. Now you worked hard on getting that degree and you are thinking now i will pay back the  students loans  by working here comes re more to come 

Update September 29, 2015 Attention ministers like Kenneth and Gloria Copeland and others i will mention later on. We were all made of the image of God but we are not little gods far from the truth. more to come What do i see on the Pope and others?  They all want to please the public  say good things that people like to hear  and be very soft so all can go to their churches and open their wallets more to come  but where is God in their church? more to come money money money   more to come

Update October  1, 2015 some poeple think that just because they talk in the radio they know it all but they don't. They can speak for themself but not for others. Tonight i just heard a women say that in spanich Refrigerator = refrigerador or she said  which is true if she was born in Mexcico that would be the correct way of saying it but if you were born in TX around where I come from we say Not even Heladera but refrigerator = Hielera. growing up this is the way i heard everyone around me say it Hielera! Later  more about this woman who thinks she knows itand  not all Mexicans are Americans you need to have been born here
Updtae September 3, 2015 this is for the people who were born yesterday and think they know it all.and for those new comers more to come   Now my mother was born in Mexico her father and maybe mother not sure where my grandmoter died because i don't remember my mother ever telling me and i never aske that d her . My mother only told me her mother had died when she was very little. How little ? I don't know but my mother loved her stepmother like her real mother but how my mother treated us especially me was sometimes not like a loving mother but like a bad stepmother. Even though my mother married my father  and my father was born in TX USA. I  remembered  she had to fill out a card i don't remember if it was once a year and it might have been sent by the governmentb or  if she had to peek it up at the post office or it was  mailed to her then it had to be drop off at the post office by a certain time. None of us had to report to the government only my mother! Now this is what an immigrant had to do only an immigrant not a born citizen in the USA!  I remember one of my neighbor Hilda Perez  Benavidez  once told  she was tired of asking her husband to fill out the card because sometimes  he didn't feel like  it. Now When  president Clinton second turn came to office and the many people more to come now don't get me wrong i loved mand still love my dear mother more to come  Updated October  5, 2015 now when my race took over the whole town the school neeeded new school teachers and many came we even had white young hippies. there was Mr and and Mrs Monroe Mr and Mrs Nelson and Mr and Mrs Zapata. now Mr. Zapata wife was a white woman tall and kind of fat with wide hips and  blond hair parted through the middle and wore eyeglasses . Now children learn from they hear from their parents and surrendering. back then even now many Mexican Americans   born here refer to white people as los  Americanos. One day in the classroom  one    more to come  

Update October 4, 2015 not sure but i think it was this past Friday night as i was in the kitchen fixing something to eat i was smiling  because i was thinking about when Sylvia Mata had asked me and another girl to take part with her in the Cinco De Mayo parade. Back then i was nothing like i am today . i really was a very shy person and i had many reasons to feel that way.  Friday i remembering  that  it was a very hot Cinco De Mayo and the other girl were sitting on top of a very hot burning car hood. So as my son is like always checking up on me asked me what was i smiling about. The next day i go the the Bell bank and there is a parade going on. same day Saturday i go to Fargo and a band is playing downtown. Update October 10, 2015 By now i know that most of what i see  hear i will  write on this Saturday i counted 15 flags  that collage girls were holding up on the parade 14 from other countries and 1 of  the USA = 15 flags.       more to come This past  Monday i started riding  with others to Jamestown, ND to work at the Wal mart and i see this book the killing of Ronald Reagan by Bill O Reilly on Wednesday one of the men who i ride with which so far is the only white man says he won $100 Dollars on the  2/2 red and white lottery ticket.  The  night after or  on the same night  my son comes up to me  tells me about the Chicago Cubs and about the movie 1985 Back to the Future.and shows me a picture of Pope Francs  kissing the hand of one of the most riches man on this earth.  Then he asked me what do i think about certain people with  power and money moving world things around for their benefits. This was my answer to his question    more to come           

Update October 6, 2015 last week  my daughter checked  out this 2008 movie by Oliver Stone W. Now on the Movie JFK  Oliver had me seriously thinking but on the movie W i was seriously laughing. Now did Papa Bush sent out the kill his own grandchild or grandchildren? So they do believe in  Abortions? What happened to the woman who got pregnant by Jr? This is what repeats and I really didn't know a thing about Oliver only his name now i know he was  born September 15, 1946 that means this year his birthday was 9/15 /15.     Update October 10, 2015     Update October 11, 2015 i wish i had more time to  write but i don't. On  a field trip  to the Alamo in first or second grade i saw  Peacock birds. Here in Moorhead behind the Rourke Art Museum i see a statue of a Peacock bird every time i visited the public library.         Update October 14, 2015  For today this is all i have time to write. My daughter also checked out these other movies 12 Years A Slave and Children Of The Corn . In jamestown, ND behind the Walmart is a corn field and us workers were told to pick up cronstalks. more to come    on the W movie and Bush call to be persident Update October 17, 2015

October 15, 2015 Yes, if George W Bush ever said he had a call to be president i believed  he did because it had to happend this way. Now before i started writting i hadn't seen all the movie and i still haven't  because there is no time.  more to come  about his brother and     more to come          


Update October 17, 2015 when i knew Raul was going to be the one to marry and he asked i told him he had to go asked my mother and brother and he did. Then he wanted Sex this is where i got scared and felt guilty about doing before marriage. He bought me a white dress then waited for the day but not waited for the sex  to began . I went ahead with his wishes but felt guilty and ashamed and i knew i was doing wrong. I do have to say I didn't feel good  about it nothing like what experience Katy Perry (La Manosa) says on her song Firework. On internet i looked up the word Manoso and Manosa they say it = skillful. No internent you are wrong! Manosa = want and likes to have Sex with anyone and likes to be in the nude for all people to see= Manosa.  Now since the late seventies. I have noticed that men don't mind if the woman they are going to marry has been around having sex with other men in a way I think most  men today like it because they too have been with other women.  Would this be one of the reasons today most brides don't wear white wedding dresses they also want to tell the world they had sex with other men not only the one they are getting married with? Bottom Line is that nowadays Sex is not that important nobody feels ashamed guilty about  doing it before marriage. Now this beings me to unwanted  pregnancies single woman and couples are being  selective in how many and when they want a child but they are NOT once they start having Sex going to stop having Sex because it feels very good.

sometime before i wrote my brother asked my father about the feelings of looking at a women in the nude and i wrote  that this was a very important question is because it is. Men and women go to nude Bars because they want to feel Manoso and Manosa but nowadays this is so everywhere for all ages that all you need to do is have a phone and anyone can see  nude pictures or people having sex. Now what you read here no preacher  is going to say in his church because you The people is how they get paid and you the people don't like to hear the truth just things  you  enjoy like you are little gods and you can do anything you want to do and God wants for everyone to be  healthy rich and happy. You want to hear what Victoria says "you are not doing it for God but for yourself". Is she saying God is not important? Nowadays we do have a lot of feel good churches. What happened to "if you want to follow me pick up your cross?" Sure i know God wants what is good for us but are we really doing what God want us to do? more to come

Update October 18,2015 For several months  i had been thinking about the round red Lady Bugs with black spots. And several times i told my daughter about when we used to come north to pick  tomatoes and bugs were all over the tomatoes plants. I can't remember if it was in Ohio or Wisconsin. Now last week i noticed yellow or orange lady bugs here in Moorhead  now I know they are called Asian bugs. more to come Update 19, 2015 now don't expact for foreigners to know a lot about cleanness and other things i was born here and back then while working on the fields knew nothing about Outside Portable Toilets. We used nature.      Update October 20, 2015  the year we came to MN with the Loera's more to come  these certain women i noticed used the toilets and there is a sound noise as if they are tasting the toilet water then they just walk out the door but don't washed their hands. the women i noticed doing this are the ones that cover their hair. so i don't know if it's their religion or they think the water is clean enough to wash hands. you need to understand they come from very poor more to come   

Update October  22, 2015 Just as W Bush called his father Poppy so did  my sister Barbara and I called our father Poppy.  Laura was a teacher and librarian i have said many times the library as become  my second home. more to come

Update 25, 2015 Ive been wanting to write about Crosses and many other things. This past week as i am driving home on Main bridge i paid attention to this car plate number 599. Now i try to write down most of what i see on paper because  i know  later i am going to need this information but it's too much to write and when i don't write the dates i know some i will forget. Months ago  somewhere i had seen this old sign  route 66  also in  other places 66 appeared to me.  On the month of July August or September i really don't remember out side a Bar on North University on the ground  I found $ three twenties one five and one dollar bill= $66.00  This past week my  daughter checked out from the Fargo library  4 movies this one i had never seen before from  1999 The  Bone Collector. if you turn these 66 upside and you get 99 NS see the movie to see where 99 appears again.

In 2006  when i went back to TX You the people continued playing mind games with me and people and you people were told to wear Red and Black. i got so sick because everywhere i went and what you said was repeated and still you are doing the same that when i went to get another copy  of my driver license i wear all white. white blouse and white earrings. my license will expired next year 2016 = 15 years after 9 -11-2001 

Update October 29,2015  In Jamestown this is what repeats and now i know these people who I ride with where in my early dreams before knowing i was to come back to ND.as me and others  ride on   Interstate West  94 from far away  I can see what i was told are two white Buffalo's  roaming the land. I can see the largest Buffalo monument. This is what i read  Northern Pacific Railroad General Thomas  Rosser named Jamestown after his hometown Jamestown, Virginia. On my last trip coming back to ND i stayed for about two weeks in Austin that is in the outskirts of Austin in a town named Pflugerville with my aunt Virginia and one of her youngest son. now there is Virginia Sr and Virginia Jr.  

Update November 3, 2015 One day my mother and i were watching TV Spanish Channel  41 with  the interviewer Marta T   which her last name right now can't spell was interviewing another Mexican woman.   My mother  recognized her and told me  her name  which i don't remember and told me she was Marta's sister . My mother told me she was highly educated and  knew several languages. Back then we had a Black and white TV so i don't know if she was light skin as Marta but i remember she had short hair and was slim to me Jeffery her nephew Marta's youngest son  looked a lot like her. Now before John and Marta and their children were our neighbors there was only Johnie's aunt Virginia Galven. more to come

now the men i ride with are three refugees one from Africa more to come                                                            

Update November 1, 2015 on the 16th of October on 8 Street  south Moorhead my I was rear ended. My new cell phone number last 4 numbers repeat example 9696 the man that hit my car his cell number is 9595. Other things that repeat  I wrote  i was riding  with others to Jamestown, ND we are working for Walmart stores remodel Project 2001 Southeast 10th street Bentonville, AR 72716.  In November 22, 2010 my son wrote to me from this address 222 W. Walnut  Devils Lake, ND stamped on the envelope $.44.
Update November 3, 2015 In what year was 911 ? In 2001. People like it or not we are all in the same boat! Anyone dare to say, "stop the world and let me out!" September 11,2001 i had just turned 45. Here    are two towns i see on my way to Jamestown, ND beside other towns like Valley City is Cuba, ND and  Spirit wood, ND.  

Update November 3, 2015 most of the time i just don't know how to start writing down what  i have in mind  but here it goes. Sometime ago I was fired from a job through Commend Center but then i was hired for another on that day I said this to Commend  personal Thank God for Commend Center. Now I still have so much to write about Jose Angel Gutierrez and later i will but because today i read a bit about the Alamo getting a facelift on The Forum Sunday November 1, 2015  newspaper. Several years ago  I  told my daughter about what i had read on one of Gutierrez books about  the Alamo battle. I remembered what she said to me about what her Mexican American generation had to say and I used it on my earlier letters against Gutierrez  "Thank God For The Alamo." 

Update November 4, 2015 i know that even the refugees and   from other countries  are treated  much better then me this is everywhere i go.
I am in pain can't find a doctor that cares about the pain i am having only see the hurt on their eyes more to come          


Update November 5, 2015 now going back to when i first had SEX the word everybody likes to hear nowadays  even children because it's so normal to every ear young or old. i was so embarrassed  because not even a doctor had seen me nude. Now what is that i hear women want to go breast bear? Yes and later men will say we also want to show off to the world  our Penis Nipple! Why not lets all go back to the Garden of Aden and Eve! Why not? None of us old or young feel embarrassed  anymore! We want others to see our breast and even Pipi pubic gray hair it's all GOOD! We can even take it as far as lets all have a street  orgy!Any way we are all little gods and church leaders don't care to tell us any better as long as we buy their books and feed their money baskets, it's all good we are all good and God is all good He forgives! But please say it like it is but don't say it's about public breast feeding  or equal to men   because it's not! It's about women liking for others to see them in the nude ! Look at the face of Erika Jayne in Housewife's and many other women!  And it's not about breast cancer Neither! The bigger they are the more they smell!  Now my question is we going to see men underwear at Broadway 2011 for men with cancer on their balls?! I don't think i want to  eat there, sorry maybe a drink. Now there is nothing sexy about having breast cancer.  Back in TX when everybody around me  were  nornal  i met women with breast cancer one young lady had one cut off. the another my daughter and i went to visit her. If i am not mistaken her last name was Luna and she had a brother named Fernando. She left teenagers  even small children behind  the good thing was that all were adopted by good people most were their godparents. Like in many cases the father was around but out of sight out of mind and really couldn't  do such for himself or others . there was another women i met she was an older lady she showed me and Sandra more to come          

Update November 6, 2015 this is another movie my daughter  checked out  this past weekend and i just  droped it at the library. Philadelphia 1993 . In 2006 after i had been stopped by trooper #556 and he took my driver license  I  had no car to drive. One early night  in Grand Forks i went walking and  saw two Native women who asked me to go to their place they were staying at a motel on Gateway street by then i know things were not right and that the lawyers were sending people  to repeat what ever i said  did or  about conversations i had on the phone with  people in TX and people in TX like my sisters were also repeating  i had nowhere to go  I could  not find an honest person . I went hoping they wouldn't play with my mind but they did. In the motel there were other people and someone wanted to play cards so we did. We were watching TV and on TV someone mentioned the city of  Philadelphia then  i said  brotherly love. One of the man who was there asked me what did you say and i said it again brotherly love. more to come   
Update November 6, 2015 One day in Crystal City while walking north on the sidewalk on North Avenue A  enjoying the day going for a  visit to my sister Maria at JFK Drive a car slowed down beside me.  The persons on the car were Henry Bonilla and Deborah Knupp from San Antonio . They were looking for a street the street they were looking for was the street  I used to live on before moving to 310 W Crockett. That street is Chambers st but they were looking for East Chambers way out east on the other side of town close to the new High School. They were looking for his relatives  uncle Bonilla aunt Maria  and cousins  Victor and Juan Bonilla are the only ones i remember of the familia Bonilla .  Now I  wasn't able to help Henry because after Urban Renewal the street  for me got complicated and i needed more time and it looked as if Deborah wanted to move on. But now I know it was meant for me to be walking at that time on that street to write about it other things on that day don't matter and that's all i can remember from that day.        I more to come

Update 7, 2015 As i am looking at a Crystal City Map to check if i got right the Avenue where Henry asked me about Chambers st  which i didn't it's North Avenue B i noticed  Canela's Bakery address is 222 W Sabine St. Crystal City has this street Refugio = Shelter

Update November 9, 2015 I don't remember if it was after my dream of 911 or after 911 that i was sitting  outside my mobile on the phone with someone that suddenly a bright light came upon me. This scared me because i was talking about 911 . then i went inside my home i called  out to my son to checked  if he was inside but what  i think i did next was just drive to my mothers home. this light over me was so bright and it came as fast as it went. After 911 my uncle told me i needed to move my mobile  that's when i bought a lot and moved  about 1 1/2 blocks south on the opposite side of the street. So at first my front door was facing north when i moved i had it facing south. This happened before 2006 I don't remember what year it was but one day i was doing laundry and  went outside to my back yard to used the clothes line. for some time i had been listening to music coming from what is or was Serna's Grocery store.  Mr and  Mrs Serna  Sr had a son who had been Barbara's teacher and mine too. And had been or was about to be my daughters' professor or something else that had to do with a collage program (  I do remember i took a picture of my daughter and other students getting inside a bus Mr. Serna is also in this picture). Now i had bought  this CD 3 Doors Down because i liked most of the songs on it especially Kryptonite. Then i heard  something like this from across  the street. "this song  goes out to the one who is busy on the clothing  line . Or this song is dedicated  to the one who is hanging her cloths outside. The song was Kryptonite.I didn't know Mr Serna had one pair of twins boys until about one month ago . I knew Belia  Juarez had  a pair of twin boys one named Alberto and the other named Luis. And  i knew Mr. Serna and his wife Mary Alvarado Serna had a daughter who is married to one of Belia's son but i don't know if it's one of the twin boys or the oldest one named after their father. more to come  What repeats? On my way to Grand Forks, Minnesota on the right side going over the bridge is a sign  Alvarado 19 or 20 miles something like that . Maria i knew first when i was a student at the Migrant  Grammar school in Crystal City.   One day we were playing outside and  Mr. Talamantez  told us to moved to another area. I said something to him  (insignificant)  he didn't like it sent me up to the classroom and Maria Mary Alvarado was concerned why i had been punished and told me to tell her about it that she would talk to Mr. T . But i was too shy sad and afraid  and  i knew that if i opened my mouth i would just start crying . After that day i never saw Mr Talamantez the same. But in my mind i have always appreciated when  Miss Alvarado or Mrs Alvarado Serna offered  me her help. Later on  in Junior High i met her sister Bertha and way later her sister Lily and  Gracie  then their sweet mother rest in peace.            just become just as anyone of you now it's so hard for me to  look forward with a smile because now i know this is coming from God and i am having a  hard time handling it.  Most of you  have where to go for help i don't  I have to try to figured out everything myself. I do pray to HIm but  Life  for  me is this way  good or bad how am I going to  handle it how am i going to react to it. When i went back to TX there was not a soul that wasn't playing mind games with me all the people i knew and  loved and still love were playing wicked  mind games just as today.   more  the only thing i know is that there is a God and i know God is good and  He has me where i need to be for something else i really don't have  all the answers to this .

Update November 12, 2015  I don't  know why I couldn't remember Mr. Serna's  first name  but last night I remembered his name is David and on that day i heard  music coming from across the street was one of his son who i think is or was  in a band and  they were practicing.  ( right now i can't correct my mistakes like always I still have a lot to write )  I am not very sure of the year  but i think it was in the summer of 1968 here in Fargo we bought what i believe was a white and blue 1968 pick up truck. not very sure about the years  but here it goes. My sister Barbara was born on April 1951. the day she eloped with Rey Salinas from Alamo i heard my brother Luis telling my father there was nothing they had do because she was  legal age  to get married  which was 18 years old.   more to come about car accidents and Chiropractics.and this book I thought my father was God and other True Tales from NPR National Story Project. i keep this book on my bed  once in a  while I opened it up and  read a story. almost every time i do this i wined up reading a story that has to do a bit of what was my past or is my present. Last night i went thorough it and this story got my attention Double Sadness by Martha Russell Hsu on page 169. I  noticed it because of the word Double then i read these other words on page 171 i read Hairdresser Chiropractor and Grocery. now sometime in  the seventies my father and I had accident in what is East Crockett and what was Zavala Ave and is now Veterans  Ave. My father was giving me a ride to school and at the time there were no street lights.    Update 13, 2015 I don't remember what grade i was in but i do remember that one of my teachers was Mr. David Serna and i told him about the accident we had just had. reason i brought up my sister is that the accident happened years after she stayed in Idaho  but i don't remember the year. now the truck had full coverage  Update 23, 2015 That day of the accedent  my brother walked over to where we where and i was still inside the truck he asked  me if i was hurt i told him  I wasn't because I was not bleeding neither was my father but we were very hurt we just didn't know it more to come

Since i heard this song Where Feet May Fail by Oceans i know this song God had made for me or i like to think He made for me. This is where i will post the picture of me at Padro Island, TX  in 1976  more to come


Update 14, 2015 when Raul and arrived  from Colorado  we lived on Holland Street.  I don't remember if it was before or after I dreamed I was standing on what is  now Veterans Ave and Holland or Refugio street  looking north to an explosion.   more to come  Most nights I listened to the  radio station that broadcast NPR. when i bought the book i didn't noticed it   Update November 17, 2015 yesterday i went to Dakota to look for a pair of pants saw this book March of the Penguins but put it back then I saw this book Galileos Daughter . What repeats ? It was  back in the seventies in Crystal City, TX where  I first met 3 Refugees if i am not mistaken  from two different countries.  Two women Mr. Ramon Garza and family and his family  gave shelter.  the other moved on to another place then i met a young man .    more to come  

Update 22, 2015 twice before i tried to save what i wrote  but for some reason wasn't able to print it  so today i am just testing to see if what i write blogger is going to print. OK, looks like i am back to business!  I know i wrote about what ISIS warned the USA and about women cosmetics and for me how it = my oldest brother. Today I might not have the time to write about it but i am hoping i can do it tomorrow because i think it is very important. None of my older siblings got educated and like my daughter has told me me I barely finish high school  and she is right but some of the things i heard  my oldest  brother say were wise and stayed with me because through my life i have seen that they are true. Once he said something like this, "if a person tells you they are going to do something  bad to you, you better take them serious because they are not playing." This is why i say to the USA government do not and I repeat do not take this threats lightly!  This is not to say that we should run for cover but the leaders should be on  guard because  the  enemy is among us and they are multiplying! This is not to say we should not help these who are running away from wars on their lands but the government should be very careful    more to come Update   Update 25, 2015 there has to be a way the USA can help people who are runing away from wars. Happy Thanksgiving!   Update December 1, 2015 like aways i have a lot to write but no time. On November 23, 2015 i went to ask for a Voucher at  the Native American Center at 109 9th Street south here in  Fargo . They they gave me one for Frances thrift store and one for the New Life. That day i went to Frances and wasn't able to look for what i needed because i was at the wrong hours and was asked to returned the following day.  But anyway i looked around and didn't see a thing i wanted  to buy but then i looked to the room full of books and kept looking until i walked in there i saw this book that caught my eyes When God Winks On love . why i bought it was because of the word Coincidence but then later i thought about the people i knew before 2006 that had Winked at me one was little Laura Trevino Update December 2, 2015 now  I am not sure but i think this was when i was Teacher aid to second grade Gloria Escamilla classroom. at first i thought maybe little Laura as a eye medical condition this is why she winks at me. so then i would be looking at her to see if she would winked to others but i noticed she would only wink at me.  she was very smart i know she had noticed me looking at her and when she did she would look at me and wink at me. Then one day her father came in and i remembered him from back a bit after the school walk out when one day after a school activity Mary Nayola who was my friend asked me if i wanted to go to Trevino's house for a cook out. now i say Trevino because i don't know if it was Jamie or his brother Armando who we rode with to the Trevino's home for the fire camp out gathering. later in life i got to see Mr. Jamie Trevino at the church he preached and this was because  Clementina Bustamente Cabello  invited us to go for  church  dinner but i don;t remember the occasion  nown in will go back to when i was a child and a man used wink his eye to me.  December 24, 2015  Now on this same day if i am right November 23, 2015 in the morning a doctor had wink his eye to me neither the Dr or I  knew i was going for a voucher at the Native  then to Frances thrift store. Things i do just come to my mind to do. that day i was about to walk out the store  because my voucher could not be accepted.             
next = yes the word Hello =Barbara  had a green Parrot Update December 8, 2015 i don't remember who came first me or the green parrot or we both came at the same time. He might have had other colors white orange or blue i really don't remember the only thing i can remember it was mostly green and it was in a black cage inside of the trailer's front door.One day  this bird started talking but the only word it would repeat was hello. Monday through Friday I would arrived from school and just as i opened the door  the bird would greeted  me with repeated hellos. At first sometimes i would forget the bird could talk  more to come             
Update December 6, 2015  Update December 10,2015 like always so much to write but not enough  time. Later in time  I  will write about the conversations i had with the men i used to ride with on my way to work in Jamestown, ND one from one Africa who said he was a Hutu and a Christian the other two who were from the Middle East and were Muslims. conversations we had about sex religion polities and the home  they left behind and how they feel about the United States of American and much more to come  
Update 15, 2015 I don't remember what day it was it could have been a few days after December 6, 2015 but there was still snow and ice on the ground. i had reverend  about 80 or  100 feet going west on Main Veteran  Ave bridge on the right side of the street  because i was going to go under the bridge to my daughters in Fargo.  When all of a sudden a gray and black car drives fast in front of me gets on my side without singling  i noticed this person was a woman her head was covered. But as quick as she was to get in front of me i was quick to brake and honk at her so loud and long that a white man walking on the left sidewalk walking east  raised his head to see what was going on. this woman drove  straght forward was not going to make a right turn just tried to scared me off and or make it seen i had hit her from her back .  If this is because of what i write too bad but  I know my rights and i am so glad to be a true American the land of the free not govern by only men!   You woman can join the hate wagon against me  but this will not stop me from writing what i need  or feel like writing, like it or not ! What you did was done to me in TX most likely from my own race and it was done to me here in ND in a very snowy road. If you hate me  that much peace be with you but be careful because what you wish for me it might go back  to you. May God Be With You  much more to write   Update December 19, 2015 now if the law the goverment can't get to me they will get to me throught my grown children with people they meet        

Update December 23, 2015 In the Bible who is Hagar. Next i will tell you what from my daughter and other source i have leaned about the Mecca = Muslims and how they are also descendants of Abram who was told  by his wife Sarai (Sarah) to have sex with her maid Egyptian Hagar through them would be the first child born named Ishmeal =   


Update December 23, 2015 Merry Christmas to the world!

Update December 23, 2015 YOU TED CRUZ , if you don't like the world making fun of your daughters DO NOT TEACH THEM TO BE HATEFUL and  Disrespectful to grownups and to all ages! Through children books using your daughters you were making fun of other people! You used them first that is a NO NO! You burn your books and start teaching your daughters to respect! Too bad you are leaning this at a very old age with gray hair everywhere!

Update December 23, 2015  Who is pastor John  Charles Hugee and who is Britney Spears these two people are big sinners just  like me they are  Fornicators Adulterous and many many other bad things we have done and said. Right John Hugee!?  We are very nasty people. Now as far as i can remember i never  really sit down to listen to this man named John Hugee preached because he wasn't  my taste. but i do have to say he knows way more that i do but has he acted what he knows? No i don't think so. Now back then i didn't know his pass life but the few words  i heard him saying as the home TV was on and i was just walking by busy with work at home or getting ready for work i did not like  what i heard and now 2015 i get to write about it. one day he was talking about Briney Spears getting married and getting a divorced. more to come   One day i was just walking by when i heard him say bothered  me a lot that i still remember.   He said something about an old run down car going on the San Antonio freeway with a  bumper sticker  saying something like this" God is with me or Christ is with me."  this is what i understood you John Hugee sreamed to your congregation about this car and his driver. you said no junk like that should be on the freeway with such words! you said you wanted to stop the driver and tell him to take  off the sticker from the car and  the car off the road! Excuse me Hugee! but all my cars have been old used up cars and yes God has always been with me! He has always been with me that now i can write about what your sinful mouth been saying! Update December 30, 2015 another time i heared you say that God only took care of His children you said something like this. if you as a father   more to come what did you say about  2005 hurricane Katrina in new Orleans?!! more to come    

Update December 29, 2015 Today i heard even more sad news as i hear that no law officer was found guilty for the murder of a little black boy around the same age of my first grandson for just playing at a park.     

Update December 29, 2015 If we are to think like this pastor we need to think this way. This is what happens when ministers  don't just preached the word. This past weekend i was listening to a local radio church channel and the local pastor was talking about death why death is good for some people why some people should die. Though i agreed to a  certain degree let me tell you who came to my mind  he didn't mentioned.  If i am right he mentioned  Hitler and Hussein and others but he forgot one that has been in our history books and was born here in Ohio USA. And that was US general  George Custer and because i am learning as i go i just heard on the radio about what i had learned in Mr. Nelson History class that  its been 150 years ago today December 29, 1890 the Massacre in Wounded Knee Creek, South Dakota. When more then 200 children women and men were killed. And why? Because of land that rightfully belong to the Natives. now   more to come

 now this past weekend in Moorhead we went to see the movie The 33. What happened in Chile in  2010.  What repeats? In March 2010 I moved to 303 Roberts St. In 2011 when going to Valley City I met  Maria Segovia.  Refugio = Shelter repeats. the name Esperanza had been in my mind = Hope  more to come

Update December 30, 2015 today as i read The Forum on page  A4 Nation +World  it reads about women in control of Yazidi  slaves for sex or whatever men want them to be. this is the way i see the covering of the face hair and rest of the body in women being control . I don't care if they want to cover their bodies and hair but i think they should at least uncover their face in courts.  By now  most of these women  are so used to it that they called it religion but to me this is control. These women were raised that way by their fathers brothers male cousins they are even told what to eat. I  say this because i saw it at Sam's Club . And  i am OK with that but when it comes to coming before a  USA court judge they should abide by the laws of the court and keep their beliefs at home. If the government goes by whatever any person says its because of my religion then in the future who knows if we will hear of women  men and children saying " I will go before a court judge only  in the nude because my religion takes me back to my first parents Aden and Eve." And they even go as far as saying a men can have me and many other women. What man can take time to be with so many children  work and feed them !? now when commend center  was seding me and others to valley city i met Muslims women  one told me she had children but no husband and that she was going to get one   because she wanted to have more children. I asked her who is going to feed them she said God is and she asked me isn't  he already feeding the ones i have? i didn't respond to her question but i thought to myself  why come so far if the god she believes on can do that in her home country? now there was her or another that didn't wanted  to wash dirty pots and pans with pork on them.  Back then I didn't  know Muslim don't eat pork Update January 2, 2015 this Muslin woman was not asked to eat the pork but only to washed it she didn't even wanted to do that she asked me to do it for her! they need to leaned that if they are in a job they need to do what they are told or go home!       more to come

Now i  been told  Mary and Jesus are mentioned in the Quran but i hear that Muslins say Jesus is not the son of God you are right because Jesus is God.  (Here is where the  Holy Trinity kicks in the Father,Son and the Holy Spirit )  Listen  people of faiths or no faiths God can do as He please! And what He did was transformed Himself like us humans  went as far as born poor  then to hell so we didn't have to! We are  saved  only by Him  not by what we do it is not enough! and let me tell you all I don't know when but He is coming back in Great Force! Others like the Jews also say Jesus is not God  more to come      update

January 2, 2016 I get very upset when i hear muslims wanting time off work to pray! the USA goverment better start telling these people if they want to come to the USA they better be prepared to come to work!  And take care of their work not walk out! If the goverment doesn't start making this a law we are going to stay way behind  and have just lacy people wanting to take brakes  to smoke or prayers! These people have it made when they get here they are given a lot a very good Head Start! They don't no need to complained but get to work! Am I a bit jealous I might be and so would be too! If you know you have worked hard all your life nobody gave you jack and mistreated at work in Texas low pay not able to cashed a North Dakota Farmers check in Zavala county because the only Bank in town didn't think  you had made that amount of money working on the fields! Back then when i knew of the goverment giving out Food stamps my oldest brother told my father the goverment is up to something there is a conspiracy going on they are not telling us the people.We had never gotten many thing for free we had sweat for every penny! i don't remember if it was the year Barbara stayed in Idaho or the following year that she sent us food stamps by mail. We didn't  used them until we got to TX we stopped at a Red owl or HEB really don't remember but it was the poor side of town. My brother asked one of the bag boys if we could buy food with what we had that was the food stamps he told us what my sister had wrote to us only food nothing uneatable. now who are the ones opening the doors to Muslims or welcoming the Muslims ? Who are they?  I hear they are Christians from here goodhearted Christians that believe  in Loving others no matter what! This is Christ way! And He is the only way!

Update January 11, 2016 I don't know when but some years ago at the Moorhead library  i bought this book, the Everything understanding Islam Book by Christine Hude Dodge. now is Hude a muslim? because if her or his name i think it is. i will be writting about what I read from this book and write where is incorrect,    wrong!      more to come


Update January  9, 2016 For weeks I been waiting to write about these numbers 111 but had no time. On Thursday eve my daughter and I went to a Vietnamese restaurant on 32nd Ave south  as i waited for her i looked out the window and i see this plate number with an H and 111. Now before this about 3 days after i had bought this book when God Winks without noticing i had put Commend center and other papers on page 111    more to come and also when back in 1975 when i heard this name Johnson and Johnson and now again here in Fargo ND. and about what Here means  more to come Now back in 1975 through my sisters connections for a while i worked at the  Mc Allen Mall. There I met three women one was about my age the other two were older. Both these women were from Mexico the owner of the shop I think she even lived in Reynosa . The other was married to a white man and she had a daughter named Linda. This lady mother to Linda did not speak English. To me this mature  woman was very good looking. Update January 10, 2016 now one day i heard these two older women talking among themselves  about who Linda was apparently at that time dating. this is the name i heard Johnson & Johnson. According to these two women Johnson & Johnson was a very very good fish in the ocean  a very good catch. I don't know if it was because he or his parents were doctors, lawyers or just had money and were high society.  I don't know who he was.      more to come

Update January 10, 2016 now on January 3, 2016 at around 10:45 pm i had a great fall like everything else that i write  you be the  judge if this was not meant to be. more to come Now Ruben means Here more to come i wish the  Moral of the Story  would just be one  but it goes on and on! more to come January 11, 2016 before this fall for weeks i had been thinking about the people i met while in the valley and just about maybe two three months ago i learned about what here means. when going to Idaho there was a boy named Ruben he was nephew to what later would be my brother in law Rey Salinas. Sylvia Davila sister to one of the young men who was told to lured me to East Grand Forks used to make fun of me she would say  Ruben liked me and this is why he would drive around the camp on a big truck. Today January 11, 2015 i see another Ruben from Texas maybe someone sent this one to give me a hint of what i been writing.    
The word Here I use it to say here in Fargo here in Minnesota because this is the way i talk the way I write i am not an educated person i know if God wanted me educated  He would have given me the way but He didn't. Now on the Bible Leah is having a hard time making Jacob love her or shes having a hard time getting pregnant (sorry need to look it up) when  he is

born she says Here = Ruben is the eldest son of  Jacob and Leah. Founder of the Israelite tribe of Reuben.   

I can go as far as to say if on January 3, 2016 at around 10:30 i would have not eaten that tuna that gave me a  stomach  ache  I would have stayed on my job and made more money and then i would have not had that great fall i had that messed up my face. more to come     


Update January 11, 2016 Google says deeds not words. Oxford American Dictionary says Deed = an action that is performed intentionally or consciously: doing good deeds a brave or noble act : their deeds will live on in songs . Action or Performance . A legal document that is signed and delivered. This is my deeds and  I don't get paid but i know most of what i write i need to write ! I don't do it for fun there is very little fun in my life i do it because i have to.Many times i would rather be like you the people but i know i am not! And if i was like you the people i would have never had a blogger be writing about my life! Or any other thing like that!  I would rather be married let him do the driving! But that was and is not me I am who I am because I need to be me! Believe me i would have been a very private person if I had it my way ! Right now i don't know if anybody reads what i write and if its understandable but i know there is no one else like me. I know there are many like you and you have each other that is very good not me I am alone there is no another  person that can explain to me what is going on why everything around me somehow in someway repeats itself!

Update January 11, 2016 because i hear  so much about public breastfeeding this is what i have to say. Now  before I go on i know God does not approved of all my writing i know i am guilty of that so don't think that all  i write goes well with my Lord Jesus Christ i know i am doing wrong in many parts but I am human just like you the readers. This is what i have to say to Alyssa Milano You and many others  like men and other women looking  at your breast and you also do it for controversy! You and others know it is a way an excuse to show off your breast to men and women even to children. Breast that mostly on daily  public life is covered but now women like you are doing it because it goes against others that don't dare to do it! You like the attention because this gets you on TV shows! And with this you see $$$$$ meanwhile you get yourself hot and others hot thinking about you! Even a child knows this is about SEX so stop the talking and just say you like it!  The bald man doing your face looks very happy his getting a free show! and this might even be a hot turned on for you and your boyfriends or husbands! now back then most all poor Mexicans American or Mexican mothers had their babies at home with the help of a midwife  and they all breastfeed up to a certain age then came the Pat can milk or Carnation can milk.  Now one day when i was a little child but i still  remember my father and I went to visited my aunt  Maria De Jesus Fernandez Lara T and there in a rocking chair was one of my cousins breastfeeding her baby .The baby was half Anglo and half Mexican. the baby looked white and i think hair was red.  So i don't know if the child was born in a hospital maybe not don't  know. Cousin was so happy with her precious gift she was showing it to my father and me. I saw my fathers eyes looking away as she would covered herself then he took a look at the baby. I was looking at her and my father but i knew this was a part of the body not shown in  public because I had never seen  it before.       Now time goes by and i am a mother and one day my  husband Raul asked me to breastfeed our baby so I did. Now this is what he tells me about how it feels about more to come

Update January 12, 2016  soon i will write about some of the False Prophets in America.

Update January 12, 2016 Here are some reasons i am glad i didn't get an education knowing my lack because i am a Mexican American woman  i would be in debt up to my ears with student loans i would have not been able to pay back and if i would be hired i would be paid less than men doing the same thing and having a very hard time at work being discriminated harassed  no matter how hard i would work it would never be enough because of whom i am. And the only ones that had a win win were the Universities and the governments collectors because whatever I earned  I had to pay back. and because i had no way of paying back my credit would be so bad that i would have no way of  buying a car or a house so i would be so poor with a collage degree that would have cast me more then what i  would ever make in my life time.    Update January 14, 2016 the president to be should care more about the people he already has here that were born here should help those poor ex student on finding a way to pay back student loans! you might say someone that was born here has it better then the one who just got here. This is not true life here in the USA  for many is very poor and hard ! I heard on radio that a family from Mexican had came to the USA by air with a green card that later expired but kept moving places to places staying here e legal.  Now they have a daughter who has benefited education and is closed to having a doctors degree. And is waiting for some kind of government program to stay here and not be sent back to Mexico. This is not right who has been paying for her school? The Tax payers from here not  from where she came from. Now i know i can not afforded an airline ticket to TX not even a bus ticket. So yes!  I do  get jealous when i hear of others getting freebees when putting nothing in bowl!  So what is the government to do? First help the ones that are here  because most likely their children will be the ones sent to protect our country! Don't forget about us the poor people!  Government you already have a lot of needy people starting with the  Native Americas !   more to come The first years we stop coming to ND were the hardest ever later i will tell you why.                


Update January 13, 2016 I really don't know where God is going with all this but i am very tired. The place where i felled down their last 4 phone numbers  repeat like mine and they followed my last 4 numbers.

Update January 14, 2016 Now look who's talking!  Republican governor Nimrate but wants to be called (Nikki) Rondhawa Haley. She says don't scream turn down the volume. But on Tuesday I could  hear her grinding her teeth all the way to Fargo Moorhead!  Now Nimrata Randhawa Haley if president Obama is  known for giving good  speeches what are you good for? Now people are saying you don't know American   History. and i read you had Sex with two different men that later they both talked about you having Sex with them.
January 15, 2016  Now Nikki because i am a bit older then you and have lived way different then you  let me give you some good  advice about men. Some men are worst then women they loved to gossip and brag  about themselves.  And the sorry thing is that true or not true most people will believed them.  more to come Now some men know where to hit they study the women around them  to see if they are easy. these men can smell them from far away only by the way they walk talk and act   more to come

Update January 15, 2016  On  January 3, 2016 i went to the Emergency room was seen by Schaff, Troy C, MD and Bjerke, Gregory J, MD . Now  I don't remembered who did what but both of this doctors did a very good job sawing my face cuts . And i am much better because of  their God given talent on healing me. To one of the  doctors  who sawed up my broken face. i told him that after the fall i was driving as fast as i could to get to the Hospital because i was bleeding  and I was complaining to God about the fall. I told him this because i was and i know the law hears every word i say. Now I complain to God because i have no one else to complain to. Up to now He hasn't  given me anyone in bed to roll over and complain to.  One of this doctors  told me that God was testing me and that  i had passed the test. I thought a lot about what he said to me and now I think to myself why only me am i the only sinner in this world  to be tested for so long again and again? Because I know He knows me and He knows I know Him enough to even sometimes be a little afraid of Him. Now today this is what i have to say about what the doctor said to me. If God  has been  testing  me  He also tested him and is testing  everyone else. That night God might have been testing him to see if he would repeat certain  words to blow my mind. Did the doctor passed the test only i can say if he did or he didn't.  Later. Now what i think and i might be wrong is God might be testing all of us or He might just be warning us that it is getting late  and we all need to repent. I think God is more to come
Update January 17, 2016 On Friday night January 15, 2016 my daughter and i went to T.J. Maxx on 13 Ave in south Fargo. there i saw a young woman wearing yellow long rain boots. for weeks i had been thinking about  back then one day  as child  i went with my parents to a grocery store and there  was classic music playing and i started to dance pretending to be a ballerina and i accidentally kick cans off one shelf.  My parents who heard the cans came over to me and  were very upset with me telling me not to run  around not knowing i had been dancing between the aisles. Now comes Saturday night my daughter are out again going to Sun Mart on North University and there she rents out movies one of them is about Ronald Reagan  and Nancy Reagan. In this movie about the second  Reagan  family more to come       

Update January 19, 2016 Next I will write about what this man from Liberty University said about Donald Trump and   Jesus Christ.  Update January 22, 2016 now Donand Trump you say it this way
Second Corinthians not (two) 2 Corinthians. You rich old man need to read the Bible!

Update January 24, 2016  Trump you said you can shoot to kill and still have many vote supporters? You are absolutely right! And you can be sure some  of the first ones on your side will be the two that spoke so good about you at the Liberty University!  making you look  as good as Mother Teresa!   One even said you reminded him of his father!  This is all said  in the name of God!? Thank goodness my father was nothing like you ! Now i didn't know who he was so i looked him up his father and now I  remember. he was another i didn't really care to listened to. Now today January 26, 2016 i will write about what some people who do witchcraft  in Mexico or here in the USA used in their homes. I know because once i went with Rosa Luna and her mother.  Many times I had told Rosa not to believed on these things. January 27, 2016 on that day i went with them Rosa told me she needed me to drive because she had a lot of paper work she needed to finished but she had told me before that the magic woman had told her her powers were not working because someone close to her had a strong negative believe. when Rosa told me that i told her that is me!  I am that person !  We went to a purple house on a corner and inside was the woman. she had many pictures of all kinds of saints  more to come now you might be thinking where am i going with this, so you don't care to know that is OK i will still write about it . Well like they used pictures of saints crosses of Christ this is the way many churches are using Gods words now i am saying this because isn't Christ the Prince of Peace? now where in the new Testament does Christ says get a gun and shoot your enemies. Ant's  it hard to be a Christian? The Bible surely says on Mathew 7:16 By their fruits you will recognized them this is what one man said about Trump.well lets see who is Trump. Trump looks like he can buy whatever he wants to buy. Now the same God who gave me very little ways to make money gave Trump a lot of ways to make money.   Now Trump looks like if he can't find the right woman his been married 3 times or is it that he wants them younger while his getting older.  i don't know. Trump talks as if he doesn't like people from Mexico and  he doesn't like  Muslims. He talks bad about women  on their period. He told the only one Republican woman  running for president she was not good looking. Well looks who's talking too! Lately have you seen yourself on a mirror!?

Updated January 28, 2016 Now Jerry from Liberty if you and I were put to trial for being too Christians would we be found guilty? I don't think so with my jealousy and your hateful  way of thinking we both would be very more to come    

Mirror  = One summer my brother Luis invited Jesus Rodriguez= El Mirror to help us with the sugar beets that summer El Mirror felled in love with  Susie Torres who's family also came to work in the fields. In Texas they got married  had a daughter  named her Ruby. now this could have been because of the song "Ruby don't take your love to town."  Later I heard Ruby was in San Marcos a student at Texas State University .    more to come  Now I might have been wrong about the man i thought i knew from working with Commend Center about  the murder case of the man who killed a man with a hammer but look what repeats the word Bishop.  while i was in  in San Marcos I lived on Bishop Street.  Now later i will write about 1100Aquarena Springs Dr  San Marcos 78666  more to come                                  

Update  January 19, 2016 when i heard about the woman telling Rolling Stone Magazine she had been raped at the Virginia University i knew i was going to write about the name Virginia. long ago these other names i had in mind too Carolina Pearl and Mc Donalds more to come One day back when my first pregnancy Raul asked what was i going to named our first baby. i told him if it's a boy i know his first name will be Luis like my father. Raul didn't like his father's name and was afraid that if we had a boy i was going to named him after his father because that was how his father got his name after a relative. so we made a deal because back then we could only hear the heartbeat and not see the baby's sex he said that if it was a girl i could named it and if it was a boy he was going to named it. because of the way my stomach was crewing my mother and other people told me i was going to have a girl i started a list of names. these are two of them Carolina and Pearl. Pearl because of the song Black Pearl and Carolina because i like the way it sounded. when i heard the news about the church shooting in South Carolina i was not surprised  because that was one of the names on my baby named list. more to come

Back then in the Crystal City fields there was a man who sold Hamburgers. He was called Mc Donalds because he had a white truck and sold Hamburgers. one day way before i met Mr. and Mrs MC Donald's grandson that would be the man later on i would married. my father had told me about how good his Hamburgers tasted and i know as much as my father         more to come            


Update January 22, 2016 Now for this week what repeats? The last name Anderson. When my daughter was in 5th grade if i am not mistaken the Crystal City  Lions Club  for the first time hold a top ten student award. Now I don't remember her first  name but  her last name is Anderson and she works in Washington. But she was from Crystal City and was a cheerleader and in  many other activates while in high school back in the seventies. Now this woman as i understand sponsored the awards for the 5th graders so she is pictured with my daughter and we have that picture. Now i think it was this past Monday we met a Clay Anderson here in Moorhead Clay County and then by phone I met a women last name Anderson. 

Update January 24, 2016 now today January 25, 2016 here are the names of the men i travel to Jamestown, ND and because i am still confused as to what they told me why they  would  vote for any Republican for president but not for Hillary Clinton. These four men blamed Hillary for what was going on in their country of Africa. This is what these three  men  told me back in October 2015 by now they might have changed their minds i don't know. And i don't know if in the first place they can vote because they are refugees and i don't really know how much they know as to what is going on in their own country.Now I know they were all from Africa but two of them were from Somalia and are Muslims who read the Quran. One of them named Adam  one day coming  back from Jamestown told me about Dr. Zakir Naik and asked me to listened  to his preaching on his phone. Now Feliciano = Happy Joy is the one on the left side of this brown paper towel he says he is highly educated but  can't  get a job because of the color of his skin. he says he is a Hutu and a Christian. He speaks 5 languages.  Now he would talk with Mubarak       more to come    

January 26, 2016 Now I hear James Taylor is coming to town and for years I had in mind what i am about to write. One summer  in Washington  Barbara and i went to movies to see a movie about Drag Racing cars. And for the first time in my life saw when a wife does wrong to the husband . I had always heard it the other way around but never the woman doing wrong. I remember after the movie Barbara and I never talked about  the movie well back then i was just a child and so was she. that part was sad especially when the song Fire and Rain starts playing.      

Update January 27, 2016 on Monday morning i had a doctors apointment on 32 Avenue south  but my stomach kept telling me No so as i  am already getting closer to doctors i make a lift turn on 42 St south and kept driving hoping to made a U turn then on my right side again  i see  the name of a lawyer named Anderson. Last night around 1:30 or 2:am i go the the Fargo's post office to drop a Sanford survey form i was sent after my fall . as i am driving away i see a car parked beside me with a plate number 777. this morning i turned on my radio to hear the news i hear it's 70 years ago Holocaust. All my days are like this.   

Update January 27, 2016   I wrote about Doors here's more.  The Doors = James Dougles Morrison i understand  his father named  him Douglas after someone he knew in the military. My son in law middle name is Douglas  named after someone his father knew in the  Military. 

Update January 28, 2016 If i am not mistaken i think my mother told me that when i was born there were two women bartenders and the midwife with her. Now that would explained why once and a while i  go to  a bar for drink. But what would be the reason my oldest sister Connie enjoys going to bars for drinks?  I say this because our mother never step a foot in a Bar. Back then mostly only the women at the bars were women like me. Had a husband but was a widow or was abandoned  for another women or never had a husband but had one or more married lover and had to do whatever for  a buck. Because if there was government welfare  like today  it still  wasn't enough like today. now back then I can say all women got pregnant had their babies no matter what! babies were born! these were  mostly poor families but they had their child.    Updated January 30, 2016 Now this is not to say that all women without men  who working at Bars not it all in the first place there were very few of those. sewing ironing for others was some of the jobs women had cleaning houses. some widow's would married again and some women with children but not married at first would find a man to marry. But back then most women would not go inside a bar not like today. now educated women all kinds of women you see at a Bar and now Bars are called     

 Update January 28, 2016 this morning between 10:30 am 11:00 am if i am not mistaken i went to by my daughter's apartment to grab something to eat. I turned on the TV started  watching Escape next was Unsolved Mysteries a TV program  I used to like to watched but now i see it all too different.The first episode was about back in August 4, 1981 a young woman named Cynthia Anderson from Toledo Ohio who one year before having frightening dreams of being abducted and murdered and here i am watching it. Too many coincidence right? I know they are not Coincidence something more is happening here.            

January 31, 2016 last night coming from Schell arena going home driving on 5th street south going north  on a one way. from far away on the left side i see a group of people. one young woman with a white sweater and about two men and there was a black car parked on the left side as if the group of people are talking with the driver of the car. then i see a young white man walking straight at me as i am driving. i got so scared that i slowed down and tried to get on the right side. then i thought if he doesn't  stop waking toward me i am going to try to turn around because i don't want to hit him. as i slowed down he gets closer to the passengers window and says "can you give me a ride?" the passenger who is with me who i am giving a ride to tells him no. i get home drank a zero coke went to bed but couldn't  sleep worried about what had just happened. worried  about the young woman i saw far way worried about the two men and very worried about the young man with a brown  light leather   jacket. but i said nothing as he asked because i was like in shocked i didn't understand why he had to walk toward the car. i think that if he would have just stayed on the left side and waved at me i would gave reacted different. i just want to say to this young man i am so sorry that i said nothing i should have asked you who you were and what was the problem but i got scared. i know i  would taken you and the others even to Fargo but i just more to come I can only say i am sorry and i hope you all got home safe.    

Update February 1, 2016 this is one of the ways God comforts me. Sunday Morning around 8:30am  i got up having not an ounce of sleep. i told my sons friend about the people i had seen she said it had not been that cold then i said Yes it was freezing. This Morning around 9:35 am running late like always  as i am walking out  the door i felt warm and as i get on 8th Street driving south i see all naked trees and bushes covered with white. It had frosted!  This I did not see on Sunday morning of January 31, 2016. this is a way of God saying to me Not to Worry.  Frost =            

next about the movie Giant and the documentary 

Updated February 2, 2016 Today I was listening to M P R radio and i got so boiled up when i heard that a Muslim woman was saying something like this that she was tired of sending her children with Valentine  cards on Valentines day then she said something like we gave you your Easter day or you have your Easter day and i could hear the people on the back ground laughing! This to me is making fun laughing at my religion in my beliefs! In the first place you  Muslim woman  have given me nothing! God gave me Christ to enjoy the Holy Easter.! This kind of laughing  i heard from the two Muslims  men i used to ride with going to Jamestown, ND and it also had to do with  Christ words! I don't understand that if  where Muslims come from you are all Muslims then why can't  you get along! You are mostly all  of same religion mostly same color of skin then why is it you can't find peace!?           

Update February 3, 2016 now i will tell you all the whys if i were a child would want to celebrate some Holidays in school and why I am glad I did! When i was growing up because we were so poor i knew nothing about Thanksgiving about a good hot turkey meal! And I know other poor Mexican American  children didn't know neither . In our home we had no oven to cook a turkey or bake a cake. I remember  in 1th 2th and 3th grade we were told about when Christopher (1451- 1506)Spanish explorer1492) Columbus arrived in America according to then (had discovered America) and even now that  I know it wasn't' true because people were already living here. I was learning and maybe at that time my family didn't have the ways to celebrated at home but i was learning to be thankful  even if we didn't have a turkey.  One thing i still remember from  school is drawing a turkey  in a brown paper using my hand  coloring wings  and than cutting  it.  more to come      

Update Febuary 4, 2016  I am very sorry to say that I disagreed with  President Obama about Muslims being harassed and discriminated 

 on matter how hard the Muslims think they have it here in the USA it is not bad it all! Muslims don't know a thing about being discriminated! Muslims came in a time when there are more opportunities more equalities  rights for all minorities! Muslims don't know what it is to serve your country and still be treated like some one from another country! They came when the government is giving people stamps to buy food. Coupons for  pregnant poor woman  to buy mike eggs and other foods!  Because of technology Muslims are aware of many things out there that other people before them were not. More human rights more education rights and much much more! The way i see it most of these Muslims came here as refugees and got a warm welcome and given a good head start. i know that none of the people from Mexico or Mexicans already here long time ago in Texas Arizona California New Mexico Colorado generations through generations got Zero and were treated so bad that some i knew in Colorado would not speak Spanish because they  were told by their parents to only speak English! something happened here more to come

 And this is one of the things that gets to me when i  am at a grocery store and i see a Muslim woman just touched  and tossing the vegetables and fruits around  not buying them no consideration for other people who will  be taking that food home! I guess i am that way because lone ago i once for money was picking cucumbers cherries onions and many other foods that now Muslims and other people can just go to the grocery stories and just get for free! i guess if you have never worked out there on the beautiful fields of abundantly foods from the earth you will never learn to appreciated all the goods God has given us to enjoy! and not only that those fields need to be worked before you see the reward. Update Febuary 5, 2016 am i greedy no I am not greedy. I write about the past because the newcomers need to know how hard it was back then and how hard is still for poor people who have been here all their lives and why many are still very grateful for having  lived  in the United States . more to come Greedy = having or showing an intense and selfish desire for something,esp. wealth or power more to come about  because of what i see things are going to get even  much worst here on earth and i hope not in the near fyture but way way way out there in the far away future. 

Update February 5, 2016 now i know i wrote that my dreams are about what i think I am somewhere in Fargo and Moorhead and other places here in the North. In 2013 i saw a very good doctor that got me back on my feet and i am seeing another good doctor and day by day i am feeling better. where i drive by to  see doctor i see these two places on my right i see  The Pilot Flaying J. Gas and Service and on my left side  i see Loves Travel Stop. OK, after the walkout junior high students were asked if we wanted to change the school name.in my class we all looked at each other and couldn't  think  of a person who we could name it after so we all said no we want to stay with the same name  Sterling Fly Junior High School. We couldn't  think of  a Philanthropist.   A person who seeks to promote human welfare; a Philanthropist. or any other close  to that who was Mexican American. We knew no important person to named it after so we all said we wanted  to stay way the same name. the teacher said something like you will be thought as students just flying around  in the class room flying like fly's. We just laughed and said it was OK with us. more to come 

Update February 7, 2016 now in Colorado i think it was on the last 3 or 2 months i was  in beauty school there that a new group came in and there was a white woman i believed she was older then me and i was told she had just gotten married  and that was her third time her last name was love and she would put on this white high heels shoes with the word Love on the back of the heels. i cant remember if she had money or her third husband was of money what i do remember more to come        

Update February 7, 2016 Because I heard the Republicans debate talked about this word (Eminent Domain)  for a long time i been wanting to write about what Eminent Domain did to the poor people in Crystal City in the neighborhood  where i was born as to  the results not only some lost their property but some i knew also lost their minds! And how many people would wind up in the hands of Public Housing Authority. I remember when my sister Connie moved to the housing Authority at the end of what is East Uvalde St Dead End to where the white people's cememtary is more to come       

Update February 9, 2016 Corruption in Crystal City, TX ? Nothing knew it's been going on since the White people ruled!                     

Updated February 10, 2016  Today i will write why i am a Democrat and  why i will always vote Democratic. one day i might have been in third or forth grade it was early in the morning and my father was getting ready to go out to vote and i asked my father what are we meaning who do we you vote for? he told me he voted for the Democratic party. I asked him why? He said because the Democrats do more for the poor people.  And my father just as he took so seriously getting up early on before 7:00am to attended  1st Sunday  Mass at 7:am.  He would also take very serious going to vote on election day! i remember he once mentioned the Poll  Tax. Let me tell you more about my father he was a very clean man he had a very good hygiene! Every morning  he would bathe  brushed his teeth sheave his face put on underarm deodorant and  a some nice smelling  

Update February  16, 2016 this might have been two or three weeks ago on a late night Sunday that i was watching Jack and Rexella Van Impe  Ministries on TV when  I heard them say what would be the age we would all have in Heaven. They said it would be the age of Jesus Christ death which is 33. Now this could have been Tuesday or Wednesday morning  late afternoon or both don't remember but my daughter and i had a conversion going about how dangerous  it was for people and law officers to get  involved in a domestic violence something my children and i know too well from back in Colorado.   more to come  

Update February 22, 2016 today has been for Fargo- Moorhead and so many others one of the sadist day ever. I don't know how to expressed my deepest sad feeling to the parents wife and children and other relatives of this great man named Officer Jason Moszer who was born September 27, 1982 who served the US National Guard and  Fargo, ND  Police Department at 222 4th N Fargo ND, 58102. Today i wanted to attend the ceremony at Scheels but didn't  have the time and energy. But i got  to see it on TV and tears came down from both of my eyes as i heard  from people who knew him and talked  about what a great  man he had been.  more to come   Now i must write about what has been repeated my brother Luis and cousin Roberto(Bobby) Galven also died on the month of February. I bought my brother a blue neck tie the same blue i sew  today on the police officers. Now because i wanted to wear the same colors as my brothers tie.  i bought myself a two piece suit. This two piece suit made it to Fargo, ND - Moorhead, MN. and on November more to come  mistake it was a three piece suit it was a blazer and a short sleeve blouse with a  knee length   skirt. my brothers tie had two or three  blue  stripes Update February 29, 2016 sister Barbara has two daughters oldest is Cecilia youngest is Rachael Noemi 

Update February 24, 2016 In 2006 when i went back to TX i had noticed people were wearing the red a lot and sometimes people would wear black this and many other things people were doing got me sick so when i went to get another drivers license i went all in white not evening thinking one day i was coming back to the North where  winter is almost all the time in white. And as you can see in Texas i also was a donor. i like to think that up to this year i had aged very good. i had problems like most of you but  most of the time i  had   peace of mind. I had beautiful  thoughts sometimes even pleasure ones that could have been sinful. the more time went by the more i knew things were not going to get any better for me i knew the whole world was  against me and there was no where to run. because i knew i was being watched i was giving all the credit to the law at this time i knew God was with me but i didn't know it was His plan more to come     

Febuary 29, 2016 buildings on downtown  Broadway Loretta, Aggie Block, Power Hotel, The 400. Where i used to live on Roberts St Herald building.  more to come Lydia and family also were playing mind games. Now Lydia Faz i knew since Junior High she got marred at around age 19 to Angel Olivarez  more to come

Update February 29, 2016 i hear Hillary is coming to MN now i like Sanders ways a lot but i also like Hillary ways and I think its about time we have a  woman president in the white house. I know she is very well  qualified  and  strong i know she can take job.  more to come      

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Update March 2, 2016  Did you know there are people who don't know what is a money order for? Update March 7, 2016 Back in TX when i sold my home the little money i got from my property i divided in three parts. i went to the Crystal City post office and put the money in three money orders. when i arrived here at the bus station  i called a Taxicab i had no cash he took me to the downtown Post Office to cashed the money orders at the time i didn't know God had an apartment right by Roberts st N where it would be my home. But first i had to stay at Churches United in Moorhead          more to come and what about   what are the words Caucus and  Delegates more to come
Update March 8, 2016 now how far was Hitler from Fargo, ND? not too far. I think it was the year  2010  or late 2011 that i walked in to the north on University Dakota Boys Ranch and I saw two Hitlers postage stamps.  more to come

   


Update March 5, 2016 About Abortions i don't care to know and support  Mama baby killers and  i also don't want one Penney from  my  hard working little $$$ paying check going for abortions to girls and woman  that should know what they are getting into before having SEX! But i am  100% for any kind of birth control that is out there.  more to come

Update March 5, 2016 I did mentioned i had two aunts named Frances. Now who is Pope Frances to tell Trump he is not a christian because he wants to built walls? What!?  Here in Fargo, ND if i want to go inside the St Marys Catholic church perish  first i need first to talk into a wall sound machine speaker explanation why and who sent me.   more to come He pope lives behind tall brick walls!  is he going that way to not put more attention on his priests!? more to come

Update 9, 2016 i hope the presidential  candidates are more concerned about the poor people from here than those who are from elsewhere.  I don't see why Clinton and Sanders need to answer back to people from other counties who are illegally here. Some of these people with Taco want answers from  candidates from here! Why!? Mexico is rich in more to come

Update March 10, 2016 here are more things that repeat. Here we go again Jorge Ramos barking at the wrong tree! Jorge Ramos if you really care about Mexicans go  back to Mexico and do something! Go have a good long talk with their and your president! His name is president Enrique (Quique)  Pena Nieto. Jorge let me tell you some of the problems we Mexican Americans have here in the USA and no I am not speaking on behalf of all of us just what i have seen around me. Life for  many of us is not easy  at all not even if we get an education because still the whites rule and there are many like Donald Trump that just see brown  and think we are all from the other side of the border and many of us are treated that way. even though we been here way before they got here! At many work places  there can be one or two Mexicans and others whites and i am more then sure the Mexicans are getting  paid much lees then the whites for the same job and many times for putting more hours and doing more work ! Some education  sometimes more educated but because she or he is brown (it) will get paid less and many times it is expected from brown people to do more work. i know some Mexicans don't want to admitted because they are embarrassed to say what kind of  humiliations  discrimination harassment's  they go through but its the true.   more to come on Ramos     Update March 14, 2016 Ramos you talk about children but where are the parents of this children? I know their country father is president Pena Nieto the one of doesn't know how the price of the   tortillas his poor people need to buy to live. But  aren't these parents  responsibility for their own children or are this children  orphans?   more to come              


Now what repeats?  my mother midden name was  Pena.  He was born on  July 1966. how much money did  i said i found at the Bar on North University  Drive ? $66.00 more to come      

Update March 10, 2016 Now this is for you Donald Trump  you say we as a Nation are not respected. do you really think the world is going to respect a president whose wife is showing the whole world her  front pussy  her breast and her rear end bottom  laying down in a bed  as  if she is getting ready for a good hard core SEX !?  You got to be kidding!!!  And no i am not making this up like many other people young and old children even  church leaders  if they want to can look it up! Its on the internet who your third wife was and is! Now i understand that you think having money is respect and that you can sent someone to get killed or you can do  it yourself  and  you will still get elected nothing will happened to you because you got the money and maybe you are like many church leaders who think they are little gods( if they would only  took a good look at themselves on a mirror they would see what i see they are getting old and they are losing their minds to Satan )                   more to come          and about OJ next   Update March 13, 2016 yesterday at the parade i sew what i believe were soldiers one of them was carrying an Axe on his shoulders . one day long time ago my mother and i were at the cemetery and she was looking for a particular headstone with an Axe on it because she know who was buried there. i don't remember if she said it was one of her brothers or more to come we did find it and it had one or two Axes more to come

Update March 14, 2016 almost everyday coming back from Fargo crossing the bridge back to Moorhead on Main Avenue as i looked to the left i see Riverside MM VII. I know this too has to do with dreams i had way before knowing i would come here. In my dreams the building i see are of  brown colors and deep reds.  and i am   riding on something high and i go under and over railroads. My father for a while worked for railroad department.  Mr. Mondoza father of the shoemaker and also once my neighbor also worked on the railroads. He used to tell me stories and one day he told me that nowadays it's not about color or Race but all about money. He meant it's all about who has the green        more to come  Did we worked on the MN side? Yes we did.  One day  in the late or early seventies our farmer asked us to help one of his  framer friend. That day coming to work in Moorhead  we stopped at a gas station more to come


Update March 19, 2016   When i heard about Cicel the Lion  from Africa  killed by dentist Walter Palmer from MN. If i am right it was the time  i had gone to a dentist here in Fargo who had messed up my two teeth.   Then i heard $55,000 and then Task Force Conservation Johnny Rodriguez.  Now back in the eighties  when i went back to TX my sister Concha (Connie) in Crystal City from East Uvalde ST  had moved to Uvalde, TX.  And i remember  one day she and my nephew Ricardo told me his first  conformation  godfather was going to be brother to singer Johnny Rodriguez.And one day i met Ricks godfather brother to country  singer Johnny Rodriguez from Sabinal. Today as i am looking for Johnny Rodriguez from Sabinal for information about him i found out Rodriguez and Johnny Cash had sang a sad song named Deportee. (The song is about a true story about a plane crash with illegals Mexicans that were being taken back to Mexico.)  and that one of Rodriguez wife's was or is Willie Nelson's  daughter. The year i went to Austin with my mother and went Trick or Treating with my cousins i didn't  know why i put on someones old what i think were Army Boots.( Now i know why Boots on the Ground.) That year  if i am right my cousins were trying to get me to ride a goat. What is said about how and where singer Johnny was discovered? He was in jail for stealing a goat when a Texas Ranger heard him sing. more to come   

Update March 19, 2016 Yesterday  song i had in mind I'm so lonesome I could cry by Hank Williams more to come next i will write about what in Crystal City Client  Maria  Martinez  if i am not mistaken class mate to cousin Olivia Lara Acosta  told  me once about Zavala  banker Williams and his daughter also class mate to Olivia. I don't remember knowing Olivia  but on my parents once told me she was  a sweet heart  and had a great personality.  more to come   


Update March 20, 2016 Now i saw the interview on Night line with  Diane Sawyer interviewing Mexican actress Del Castillo but why was Diane in shocked  making herself more face wrinkles when Diana asked  Del Castillo about going ahead with the movie project?  I don't understand because here in the USA Movie makers have always made movies about drug lords  and murderers  that have make them more famous and rich!   Now what repeats = Loera Castillo and Guzman. Update March 23, 2016 more repeats  Teresa    Mendoza   more to come

Update March 20, 2016  Next about getting in education having to pay back and  about becoming a government slave and about when and if a Mexican  American gets hired the harassment the prejudice and much more that goes on the workforce and  in many States its OK more to come 

 Update March 21, 2016 about the movie The Boss and about children using dirty words and as a child when i   first heard another child  in the school bathroom. I might have been in the first or second grade can't remember but i was washing my hands at a sink at the Migrant Grammar school when  suddenly came this girl screaming and crying i asked her why she was  crying she looked at me with evil eyes has she started washing  her face and told me something like this but different  words in Spanish " What the fuck are you looking at!" Her words and her anger got me so scared i walked out as fast as i could. This girl grew up and later moved closer to where i lived on Crockett where her parent built or moved also a Jim Welter home later she married Rosa Luna Guzman then Jose Zavala then again Guzman and again divorced something like that. Later she married  Rosas brother Rosa told me Lilia Hernandez that is her name now Luna   more to come   Update March 23, 2016 Now Lilia might had been at the Principals office and might have had been spanked on her buttocks with a flat wooden paddle because she might have started a fight or said  bad words to a another student or talked back to the teacher.      Update March 26, 2016 years went by one day my brother Luis told me he had been working out somewhere in the fields with Lilia's father and other field workers and that Mr. Hernandez had  been swearing a lot while he was working. When my brother told me this I knew it was true becasue Rosa had already told me long time before when her brother had married  Lilia.  We are the prodect of our parents they are our first teachers then along the way as we grow we learned from others. I too have learned from my parents siblings and others. what you say in English is Vulgar   some words i heard from De La Cruz before him i didn't know they existed .  Profanity   more to come     

Update March 21, 2016 now when i was in school i was very shy because i knew who i was i wasn't  smart i wasn't pretty i didn't dressed nice and in school it was just me i had no brothers or sisters around my age more to come next Petra Rodriguez what she said to an more to come  Update March 26, 2016 later i will go back but foe now let me tell you Kenneth Copeland Benny Hinn  and others i knew and know i am no little god either are you ! more to come

Update March 21, 2016 today what comes in mind that repeats?  Grand Forks newspaper Herald. Now where in Fargo was my home? 303 Roberts Herald building which  is also home to Commend Center.

Update March 26, 2016 Adolf Hiter born April 20, 1889 died April 30, 1945. i turned 45 on Setember 11, 2001.  The two Hitler Stamps I saw at  Dakota Ranch stayed on my mind then i read the news paper and there was a woman who had some i went to buy 5 from her she lives around  these numbers 556 and 555 more to come. on the morning i had been cleaning  More to come

Update March 28, 2016  In Fargo there is a Building that had this name City Center  but now is Jackson Building. About a year ago my oldest grandson and i went to eat hamburgers and talked for a while inside the car at this park that is closed to his home  at that time i didn't know the name of the park.
Yesterday afternoon we all went to that same park  to celebrate Easter Sunday and there was a  stone that read Paul A. Jackson, M.D. Memorial Shelter by his widow and and children  and neighbors 1987. Update March 30, 2016   San Bernardino, California  December 2, 2015 14 killed 22 injured by terrorist at the Inland Regional Center. What repeats two lookalike buildings  one left one right. FBI wanted Apple to open back door to apples phones ? Why, i told my children they can do it themselves and they did. I know the government doesn't need  permission or instructions on how to get information inside  phones conversations. Now here is another  name that repeats Loretta, Loretta Lynch U S Attorney General. now when i went back to TX there was not a person i knew on purpose repeating what i had said on phone or at home  Elizabeth and her  Lydia Faz Olivarez and other family numbers were repeating blowing my mind they even had their grandchild doing the same. i day i went up to Angel Lidia's husband and told him to stop doing what they were doing because it was getting me sick. I cold be wrong but i think it was on my birthday or days after and it was after i had been attending early weekday Mass he tired to tell me something but i didn't stay to listen and walked out. if i am right this was the day they heard about  their daughter in law Malissa Olivarez and their daughter Loretta had been  in a car accident what i believed were  coming back  home  from another State   after visiting Melissa  Anglo father or from Las Vegas Navada  . But even after the death of Mellisa they kept playing their wicked mind games. Now keep in mind  most all the people i will mention i knew most of my life.  Lydia and  i went to school together sometimes at noon we had  lunch  at Lydia her  home next day at mine. Update March 31, 2016 if I am right this was on the month of September and according  to what i think heard on the news she died on September, 14 but i don,t remember the year  more to come 

Update March 31, 2016 when Jose and Olivia Serna opened their grocery store by Hwy 83 My brother Luis remembered Anita Bryant because if  a sign with they had with these letters O.J. = Olivia and Jose but also = orange juice.  My brother would bring up the subject about when Anita became last popular because  of her beliefs against Gay rights. Now today i looked up videos on the gays rights and i saw this one Gay USA.  In 1977  we had a full Moon now this past December 25, 2015 we had another full moon now we won't have another one until 2034. What  else repeats ? I didn't know  Anita had twins Billy and Barbabra. i didn't know she went against Jim Morrison. Now what else repeats? O.J. is again on the news now about the movie O.J.  days in court.  When i wrote about Williams  I didn't know there was a movie about him coming up   more to come  next   about  Update March 31, 2016 here in West Fargo is a street named Shyenne. In 1979 the year Raul and I went to Colorado we went to Sheyenne Wyoming more to come now

Update April 4, 2016 In the morning of  Monday February 22,2016 as i was driving  home on 8th south   coming home from working at Sheels Arena as i looked at the Korsmo Funeral Home clock read 2:22 am. Several months ago i worked for a day or two at the West Acres Mall there  phone number is 701-282- 2222.  Now officer Moszar died on February 11, 2016. Now the West Acres business card has three leaves of what i believe are wheat leaves.  Now back then whan i saw a billboard  of John Hoeven on a wheat field more to come Update April 6, 2016 Now the  summers days days that followed  after barbara stayed behind in Idaho to marry Salinas my summer days at the farm became so long and lonely  that my mother would tell everyone i would cry myself to sleep.  One summer  day at the farm i asked my mother to take a picture of me on a back narrow  winding road that took us to the back farm  fields. Near by was a field of  Barley maybe Wheat  but i don't think it was Oats. The field  was all dressed up in gold the sun was already on the west that i had to squinted my eyes as i  stood on the right side  which  was the east side looking to the west behind  me was a tall gold  field that waved with the wind coming from the south. So that  day riding the Fargo City bus on 13th Ave as i saw the billboard i thought someone had seen that  picture and that was why Hoeven had taken a picture in front of a golden field. At this time God had not yet revealed to me i was on one of His plans or i still didn't get it so all i could think was this is all  from the lawyers. But about me on 24/7 watched is true but God has showed me in many ways it's His doing because there are too many coincidences that can't be explained . When my daughter and i are in the car and we hear the song  Field of Gold by Sting. She tells me she likes to listen to it. So do I but never before i had paid attention to the lyrics.  now i wonder if any minister who says he is a little god can explain to me what is going on? i am sure no one can because we were just made of His image that's all. more to come   now going back to what the law can do watch Bait Car on see how the law can put cameras all over a car why can't it be done inside a home?  I had to get used to it but can any of you do the same? Forget about not wanting people to see  your hair in public think about other parts of your body and what you think you are  doing in  private and maybe your not. This was what got me sick when i went back to TX people repeating what i did and said and it all started  back in 2004 because of what i said to lawyers in Grand Forks about crystal City lawyers suing the Ford company i just didn't know until the law gave me many hints after January 2006.

Update April 7, 2016 Today not my day I didn't keep up with time i lost about two hours of writing. today at lunch time my daughter started a conversation about the skating days of Tonya Harding  as we were watching her skate. we are thinking about back when we all thought she was pretty and a great skater even my brother thought so. Here is a bit about her and about me. Tonya  was born on November 12, 1970. she is 45 years old the age i came to be on 9-11-2001. The numbers 1970 i been using  since January 2016. Born in Portland, Oregon home to some of my Pena relatives. A two - time Olympian and a two- time State Skate Champion. Her father was her (mother Mrs LaVona Fay Golden 1933-2009 fifth husband. In 2010 at Bethany on University Dr on my CNA exam i got 5 wrong answers. Tonya started skating at the age of 3. it is said she was a natural at the age of 5. Her Trademark is the Triple Axle. Then we started talking  about Michelle Kwan.                        

Update April 5, 2016 I don't know how many pair of eyes read what i write but still I feel I need to keep writing. And yes i do get t ired because i am alone on this no help comes my way and  for today this is what else repeats. While living at 303 Roberts St for a while i worked for Mr. and Mrs Juan Mondragon  at two restaurants one in Fargo on Broadway and in Moorhead on Main Ave . Mondragon home was or is 1313 Elm Street North in Fargo, ND. I hear they are or were having problems with Sysco foods . My nephew Jose Luis Barajas  son of Jose and Maria F. Barajas while working on the summer sugar beet fields here in  Dakota as a boy they called him El Nino. Jose Luis works or was working for  Sysco Foods in Crystal City. El Zagal Golf Course. Last name of the Cass County  District judge Norman Anderson.  Today as i am looking for that house i see 1122 Oak St North and other homes that repeat.

When i first got here and  i saw a sign that read Froggy 99.9 i thought about Rosa Luna what she told me long ago about what a witchcraft woman told her to do if  she wanted her first  husband Guzman back. And because i knew that in 2006 when i went back to TX  people were told  to repeat  i couldn't stop thinking something else about more to come At that time 99.9 didn't matter to me because i still didn't know what God wanted me to see later on. Just the word Froggy because that story in 2005  I told Troy while i was in Grand Forks, ND. Today i looked up and Froggy 99.9 has been on the air since April 11,1994.   more to come Update April 4, 2016 back then Rosa me told what she was told to do was to find a frog tie its legs and buried  it alive baptizing  it on his name. She told me that was hard for her to do to a Froggy. Sometimes i  thought it was funny when she said the word Froogy but what she was told to do was not funny at all! So i  told her even if you do such thing if he wants to leave he'll hop away tied up or not. on the Bible and i will find where it says not to be wanting to know about evil things or they will not leave you.      

Update April 6, 2016 now i need to clear this up last night we were watcing Rocky IV and today I am looking up that it was released back on November 21, 1985. So i make a mistake about when i saw this movie it could have not been here in Fargo then it was Rocky  111 released may 28, 1982 that i saw here  and i know i saw Rocky IV I just can't remember if it was TX or Colorado. but i know that when i came to  see Rocky  in Fargo I took both of my children because i had no babysitter to watched over them. Now last night i noticed that on the movie Rocky IV if again i am not mistaken i see the numbers 1818 and i hear these words Popeye Spinach. it is too much to remember but all my life events did happened at one time. Update


April 8, 2016 Now help me here migrant teachers  i had growing up were not too hopeful. What are you saying Mr.  Trump ? Cruz is putting out there Melania in the nude while on the rug! Is  that like what some men say when women are on their period?   I really don't' understand that one.

April 8, 2016  Today i am very upset knowing men pay less  then women and sometimes no Tax for their personal products.  more on this.    

Update April 13, 2016 here are more names that repeat Henry Wells and William G. Fargo Wells Fargo Banks. One day in Jamestown while i was putting bags full  of cornstalk in the back dumpster i found a First Community Credit Union enveloped with a bills and a Wal Mart received. the amount of money was not the balance of the received and i really cant remember how much money was in the envelope but i am thinking it were $12.00 dollars and about two weeks after i did tell the three men i was riding with about the money i had found. Now from Moorhead to this bank in north Fargo you drive 12 Avenue North  and  to the left side corner of Collage St North  you will see  1144 Farmhouse Fraternity N D S U Agriculture   more to come

Update April 13,2016 other things i wrote before but didn't know they were coming up William Shakespeare April 23, 1616   400 years ago. 1976 40 years ago.

Update April 14, 2016 i hear its 75 years for Cheerios i also hear Dairy Queen is 75 years old.  I  was here for the summer of 75 but i didn't returned for  the summer 1976. I stayed in TX had to repeat two classes.   In the school year of 1975-1976 in the valley i also made friends with  Esperanza (hope)  her family and her boyfriend David who later she married. Esperanza and i used to ride with one of her cousins to Edinburgh for summer classes. for a while we both worked at the newly built Dairy Queen in Alamo, TX.  Update April 17, 2016 Sexual Harassment are the words and the other woman i saw through a window in the Sears department store at the Mall back in 75-76     more to come

Update April 17, 2016 more on how the world repeats after me.Anita Hills born July 30, 1956 to Albert and Erma in Oklahoma. more on  when my family and the Avila's family in a stormy day took shelter at a Catholic church in Oklahoma  how we were told we were not welcome by the church priest that came to see us just to tell us that.  now i will write  about what he said to us in the time of need. even if his die or alive now i will speak my mind. and much more about Anita Hills and the wife of Thomas  of wanted an           



Update  April 16, 2016 Now this is not a fashion swimsuit show this is just to prove that i was where i said i was back in 1976. more to come about the perm and those fishhooks on my hair.

Update April 19, 2016 today as i am learning  who is Ginni Thomas i learned her name is Verginia i didn't  know. I also looked up her husband Clarence the one who Anita Hills says he wanted to go out with her but she refused. Now i had to look up the word Sexual Prowess now i know it means that him Thomas told Anita he was an expertised and very well  skilled in all kinds  and activites of sex.  And Anita says he Thomas talked about women having sex with animals and he knew about  sex groups in  films. Wow! this man knows a lot about all kinds of sex and did he really say this and much more to Anita ? I say he could and most lightly he did  because he knew he could get away with it. now why is this man like Ted Cruz and the other black man are Republicans!? i know  this too there are a lot of Mexicans who you can  almost see a cactus on their forehead and don't speak Spanish and are Republicans 


Update April 23, 2016 today much to write but like aways no time. On Tuesday night around 9:30 pm i was having severe stomach aches that would come and go so around i think was 2;30am Wednesday i drove to Sanford hospital for what i thought was going to be a check in check out situation but no i had to stay in until yesterday Friday  April 22, 2016. Now on Thursday morning on TV i see a big white building that i understood the news reporter  was saying something about a died body found where Prince lives in Minneapolis. Now this is where things again repeat.  Back then i had heard that Rebecca Juarez Montemayor had been a nurse. Then i learned what was prince real name Prince Rogers Nelson. I might have read or heard his name before once or twice but it didn't stay with me. more to come  Update April 24, 2016 yesterday i had very little time to wrote more about Rebecca but on what was her parents last residents at west Lake St in Crystal City was a picture of Rebecca  holding a tray  all in white  wearing a  nurse cap uniforn and white shoe.  Now remember i wrote about one day in Wautoma, Wisconsin   going shopping with Mrs Antonia Juarez and her daughter Yolanda when Mrs Juarez became sad when she saw a pair of purple high heel shoes and told me purple was Rebecca favorite color. now I my children and me where living in Colorado back in 1984 when the movie Purple Rain was showing and what was new back then? The V H S box. i remember Petra telling me she and her boyfriend liked the movie so much that they watched it more to come Update April 28, 2016 now as i was watching  people on TV in Minnesota paying their respects to Prince i see these words Mayo Clinic and believed or not for months  i had it in my mind about when i were on the road and we could hear a  Spanish radio station coming from California now i looked it up and it was founded on September 30, 1889 by William Worrall Mayo more to come               

Update April 25, 2016 Today in the morning my daughter was telling me about the interview with Jim Caviezel actor of the movie The Passion of Christ. I saw a bit of it on her phone I did't like the interviewer  but i did like Jim he took all he said for real the minister was more into making people laugh but nothing was funny about the topic! this is for real people when we become part of God's family we might be called to go through certain things in life that will not be funny and there might be a lot of suffering. This is no joke! For us to want to be called Christians that is what is all about! Most of you might not be put to test but i think many of us will be called and we need to be ready! many ministers today have it so good that they  start thing they are some kind of little gods.  yes we are given certain knowledge     more  to come

Osteen  says his father made a marriage mistake. No! just like many of us his father  sinned! if he was so young why was he thinking about sex and having a wife!? I don't know if his first wife had children but if it was a mistake then occurring to his  son Joel Osteen his first children were also a mistake!? No!  Osteen! you are wrong  but what you  wrote on one of your books  can be called a mistake! i will let you know where you were wrong next time OK?

Update April 28, 2016 now what repeats about you and Victoria? Back then before 2004 i used to listened to you talk and at the time Victoria would just sat and listened to you talk about something that you and her had gone through at home and you were making people laughed at what you were saying about her and she would looked at you. But i could see she also wanted to be on stage with you. now i see and hear her also talking and giving her opinion as to what she thinks God wants from us. now how did you met your wife? i remember you saying on a jewelery store while buying a watch. Now what have i been writing about? Time. more to come     


Update April 27, 2016 for months i been wanting to write about what my brother Luis used to tell me about the White law back  in the days he was growing up  in Crystal City, TX how they would sent  off Mexican  American young men to prison one of those men was Gonzalo De La Cruz our brother in law married to Concha (Connie)   Fernandez De la Cruz then married again to a Venereal. Now  I know God wants me to write about it because  today as i was waiting for my daughter who was with her dentist i saw this on the next door Henry Schein Fargo Center the door 1100. I will write more on this i have to God is telling me to do it ! now  i hear no voices and see no Virgin Marys but HE lets me know by repeating what i see and what i lived. much more to come are things the same as yesterday ? Yes they are! my brother used to tell me what helped him was that we would migrant to the north other than that the sheriff would have sent him to prison like he had done to many Mexican young men. The white sheriff once (don't remember his but Jose Angel Gutierrez also mentioned this sheriff  on his also all  false information  books) had told my brother he was going to get him and sent him off  to prison. Now Mexican American  and the blacks need to understand that  there is no justice for us so more to come now Gonzalo died in prison just like many have died because the law gives them life in prison many more to come    Update April 19, 2016 now i hear and read white men get sentenced much more last time then others do. a white man can kill a brown or black man and will get Manslaughter.  Update April 29, 2016  Now what is Manslaughter lets look up the definition Manslaughter = the crime of killing killing a human human being without malice malice  aforethought, or otherwise in circumstance not amounting to murder: amounting = quantity of something .  Now before i go forward  i want to say  that if i were to blame someone or some bodies  for the results of this action i would blame the same LAW which is in Existence and No one else !May 1, 2016 i will come back to this and much more about how the law works     The need to acknowledged the existence of a problem.  During the time i was outside the Fargo's federal building with my signs more then one white men came up to me told me that in Grand Forks, ND there was a lot of racialism = racism = the belief  that all members of each race posses characteristic or abilities specific to that race so as to distinguish it as inferior or superior to another race or races . prejudice, discrimination,or antagonism directed against someone of a different  race based on such a belief. racist = a person who believes  that a particular race is superior to another. more to come

Update May 9, 2016 I remember my brother telling me that the first time Gonzalo was sent to prison was because of a very small mariguana joint =roach. i have noticed that throught the years the law has been very unfair with this family and i will continue  to write how the law here up north has done it again. i am no fool and i can see why a Mexican  man will be given more time in prison then a white man for doing the same thing and i can see that if a white man kills a Mexican he is given a  time 

Update April 29, 20`16 now when i first arrived here on the North the first books i read were about the discrimination against the ones i hold close to my heart the Natives The Ones God first put here to live and roamed. now who wrote this song " this land is your land this land is my land?       more to come                    


Update May 1, 2016 Last night my son told me to looked at a one dollar bill because there was an Owl. now i told him there might or might not be one but i can tell you this. about two nights ago i went walking all the way to North University Dr then back on 2th Ave north  and as i was walking by North Drive University Manor i saw an Owl. now that is a coincidence but its not the first coincidence . more to come   about Occult secrets 


Update May 2, 2016 Hopefully tomorrow i have more time to write but for today i will write a bit of what i will be writing more tomorrow. Today my daughter taught me something more she learned about  Mathew 18:22 not 7 times but 77 times. more to come

Update May 2, 2016 Because Mother's day is coming  up  i will write more about John Hagee Mother's day and  Greeley, Colorado. Now John Hagee once in TX i heard you making an example of how God takes care of his children. Hagee you  said something like this. God has food only for his children. you said that if you have a  refrigerator full with food and a neighbor came in to your home  opened it and ate from your food you had the right to say to that person that food is there only for my children and not for  you the neighbor! You said that God was like that. Now i can see why you are a Republican. but if i am not mistaken on the Bible it says God is there for all of us good and bad. more to come  now you say you found the Church at the Castle Hills on Mothers Day  married your  first wife Martha Dowing in 1960 doverced her and your children in 1975. Now back in Colorado Raul used to say that every first day of the month was Mothers day because this was the day  mothers who were on public assistance would get a check. now you say you don't believe on Climate Change maybe this is because you are always eating inside  your air conditioning  nice home.   come out side in the summer and you will feel it. It will help you lose weight. more to come 

Update May 3, 2016 Last night i was watching Justice and i saw this  Mexican drug law officer who thought he was all that bad by screaming to a man who was sating outside his home where the law found drugs. the Mexican officer thought  to himself he was all that high and mighty as his words came out from his dirty mouth so bad that the words he was saying to the man who lived on that drug house were cut out. Now as the camera went around the other Mexican  drug officers maybe one black officer among them no one else said a word but this Mexican who was putting on a show for anyone else to see. this man thought he was looking so good for the camera but he wasn't i sure wouldn't want to be near this man he sure needs some kind of mental counseling . he fault so good because he had found cocaine underneath a can of Ajax. He want out the house told he drug man he was going to need a lawyer. Well for sure, what is new about that!? Ajax= Greek Mythology.I known men that were born in Mexico later come live here now they worked as border drug and undocumented immigrant  agents.        

Update May 3, 2016 now i don't care if you Ted Cruz thanks and feel white because you are educated and you are married to a white woman named Heidi Nelson and because you don't like to be call Rafael because its too Latino. i am sorry but you are still a Cuban with a Spanish name and Spanish last name and all you  have to do is look at yourself on a mirror  there is the truth . i dont know why you and more to come

Update May 4, 2016  Growing up I don't know from where i heard this saying but its from the Hail Mary and its when there is a one man with many women. On TV I saw Donald Trump surrendered by women and i thought to myself. Bendito tu eres entre todas las mujeres? translation = Blessed are you among women? Hell No!Every time i see your face I see Evil!! Now i also thought who of those women are on their Period...? = Menstrual. Is the woman on the right dressed in white on her period or is she not blooding anymore? That means no more babies. Now Donald have you had a Colonoscopy = instrument          ? you are  much older then your third wife if you still havent gotten one to check to see if you don't have cancer where the shit comes out from you like mst of us that are over 50 years of age you need to talk with your doctor about it. and so does the rest of your wife's there are not that young anymore. now if you think going to the bathroom to do popo is disgusting wait until you get sick and close to dying you will be doing a lot of popo = soil = shit = shit oneself  Nothing to get embarrassed about its all part of getting old and final countdown =death.And when your mother gave birth to you she bleed for about 45 days after you came out of her.  so you should be Thankful to your mother and to women the women  who gave birth to  your  babies. more to come

Update May 6, 2016 now what do i hear some young  men and women did took off their clothing only wearing underwear and bras to say (it was what you  were wearing?) Go and tell it to the Cows! why do men and women go to see other men and women with out clothing? to get  Temptation    SEX  Pleasure! now i know that what  you wear should not mean you want sex and want to be attack but this goes back to what my brother Angel asked my father about looki

Update May 10, 2016 Mexican  President Enrique Pena Nieto!! Do something for your poor people! You have the ways you live in a very rich country feed your children  with jobs and help those lonely poor sick forgotten  children! You don't think God is looking down at you!? He is just as He is looking down at me! Stop being a coward start programs that can help your poor children so they won't have to run for the border!

Update May 11, 2016 i see and hear most TV ministers and i can say most of them need an all season house clean up! Back when i used to see Joel Osteen it was just him on stage and often i would just hear him talking about his wife and his wife looking back at him. and people thought what Joel was saying  was funny because he had his audience laughing out loud. and now that i can see them more clearly i can see who they remind me of Donny and Maria Osmond show and Sunny and Chair  these couples used to make people laughed  by making fun of each other. And Joel about getting old and sick this will happen to all of us! All of us! Either we die at birth we are killed by someone or have an accident  or just die from getting  sick and old. We are guaranteed to die sooner or later. just look at your wife she is not has young as she used to be she now looks older and more heavy body. now look at yourself you don't look the same  your eyes didn't sparkle. and you say there are many ways to Christ ? Are you just saying that to have people come to your church and give you money? when i used to listened to you  i never heard  you  talk against abortions adultery fornication lying stealing homosexual and about Gods judgment,  you know all the good stuff people don't like to hear. No your show is all about the good life and money  which for many of us is not a reality.  Well, for me it is not and its not because i don't believe there is a God as you can see i am writing about Him.  more  about I Am.   and about this other celebrates old people  Benny Hinn just holding hands White  Kenneth Copeland john Hagee  Joyce Meyer  more to come    

Update May12, 2016 What repeats?. There is always so much for me to write but today since  morning i had in mind the number 75.  Right now as i first log on to hear music i looked for Neil Diamond and i looked for  the movie The Jazz Singer this movie i went to see at downtown theater in Crystal City  with Patra and her sister  Marianna. Now  i just couldn't move on i had to hear his songs but now i know  his age is 75 and i read The Winter Garden Theater.  more to come  

Update May 14, 2016 yesterday Friday May 13, 2016  this is how i got to see Bernie Sanders outside at  the Ramada  hotel on more to come                         


Update May 16, 2016  about labor abused  and claiming labor rights in ND what i now need to do   Now yesterday Sunday May 15, 2016 Command center sent me out to work at Quality Suites at 1415 35th st south Fargo, ND . I went in at 9:30 am and by 7:00pm i was so tired  that i looked for the person in charged  signing  the time card. i had only taken 20 minutes for lunch. a black woman who just stated working there said she as going to go home because she was also very tired had been there since 10:00am. when i told the man  i was going home he only  circle  4 hours of work. i thought to myself  this and much more who does he think he is! now he just  circle 4 hours and he had another India man from the lane of India ( the ones with a red dot on their forehead later i will write why Mexicans mothers back then used to put a red dot on babies foreheads) doing laundry signed the card. Updated May 17, 2016  they had all planed what to do these two men thought i was just walked away without saying a word but that is not me i am here to speak my word! Now let me tell you what else this white younger man then me  did. like a coward  he ran upstairs to the second floor so i ran after him from one side of the hall i asked him why had he only given me 4 hours when i had worked 9 hours and 40 m more to come now Update May 18, 2016  now the day didst started bad in fact i thought it was going to be a good day but i should know better by now most days are like this one bad. when i went in the young man told me, "i know you, you  once gave me a ride." then he told me he had been hired as a head housekeeper or something like that. I told him i was glad for him that now he had a steady job. and before i go on  i never stay mad at the person who does me wrong long time ago i learned to forgive but  now i need to  write  about it  more to come 



Update May 18, 2016  In  February  2011 when i  i started  traveling  to Valley City pizza corner  with strangers these were  some of the songs i enjoyed  listening  to on snowy night and looking at the sky and at the Billboards on the side of the roads.  Rolling in the Deep and Written in the Stars. Now i just need to say this isn't Lupita Nyong'o so Beautiful. Every time i go to a grocery store and her picture is on a magazine it's hard for me to look away.  Later i will  write about women and maybe even men who lighten up their skin and do other things because they  say they want to  look better, better then how God made them. this is something i would never do even if i had the money i am who i am this is the way God made me. i will lose weight if i have  used face creams for wrinkles do things like that but i will not lighten my skin or go under the knife that would be too much. i know to the world standards  i am not beautiful but to my Father i know I am because He made me.  
 Update May18, 2016  i remember seeing the movie Bruce Almighty 2003 and if i am not mistaken doesn't  he get a call from 777 or 555 something like that? i have the movie i just need to see it again because at the time i saw it i wasn't looking out for things that were repeating now my life has changed. Days ago   i was  explaining to someone how things repeat and  as i had told him i had been looking at  his wall clock checking the time and at that time his  busy doing something else but  i see  11:11 pm. The following  day i am somewhere else and there is a  public clock and the time is 11:11am . Not the first time this happens to me. And none of this helps me pay my bills i still have to  go out to work for every penny and get mistreated at the same time.     more to come

Update May 23, 2016 went to Sanford Clinic  for a Bone Density Text  nurse like other people  played with my mind by looking at her chart and calling me Maria now i will mention her name and how she looked at me while acting as if it was me the one with the problem. This evil crazy look was on the faces of the nurses in Crystal City clinic. and i will write what the people were doing in the hospital  room the three days  i stayed at Sanford Hospital.how they made my staying very hard. If you the people want to play with my mind by repeating words and calling me names i am not then i will mention you on my blogger.   you the people don't think what you are doing when you are repeating what you are told to repeat but the devil is inside you.   more to come  
          
Update May 25, 2016 This past Thursday was my first day working direct with Wal Mart store i hope i can stay there for a while but i don't know when people will start giving me a harder time at work. Now Mr. Walton plays a big part as to what i am writing about because its not only about jobs but most impotently its about FOOD. Food what we all need everyday to stay alive and function. as i was listening to how he  got started and how at a short time grew so fast  i was also thinking  how in the future many things will also  change fast. Today  are fun days for many children and grownups there is all kinds of different foods in the stores so much to choose from and here in the USA there are Food Stamps for  poor people so in the first days of the month even  poor people can try different foods. more to come  now the Bible says there will be a day all who want to pay or sell food are going to be asked to have a number that will repeat. Right? right now if you want to pat at Sam's Club you need to have a card that card has your number.what about if in the future all groceries happen to be that way? more to come    

In the past there was a TV show named The Walton's.  The Walton's would end the night show by  saying to each other, "goodnight."

Yesterday Robert Allen Zimmerman May 24, 1941 =75 years old. What name was i asked to name my son? Allen. TV General Hospital had a doctor named Allen. 
                 

Mr, Obama is going to Japan he says he won't apologize to them is this good or bad? What if the USA  wouldn't  have fired back then what ? where would we be now?  more to come


Donald Trump needs to be stopped he is like a boy in a candy store. A rich boy that is. Update

May 28,2016   Now when i knew what I was in  for one of the things i asked God for was that He    make me think like most men do. I don't know if this is good or bad but i knew i had to have a strong mind. Now Donald  Trump  what is this about you not  wanting to put your fighting  gloves on and fight Mr. Bernie Senders? Mr. Bernie is still on the race and he wants a few rounds with you why won't you fight him back?  Mr.Donald are you all mouth and no action?  Now I know what you want you want  to fight with a woman, what? You want a woman to bully her. You want to say she takes a long time in the bathroom. Mr. Donald most of us women washed our hands fix our hair put lipstick on put eye drops if needed. Now Mr. Donald do you washed your hands after going down there?  I hope you do.  Now i know Hillary will not go to your low standards and be nasty like you and hit you below the belt  but i would i would hit you back do hard that you would cry to me "Please Martita stop hitting me."             Now going back to verbal fighting    more to come

Update may 31, 2016 last night i had a dream but i don't remember what it was about i just know Sandra Garza was in my dream. at work i thought about that dream and even though  she hates me i kept hoping she and her family would be fine. I got home the TV is on and as i looking there is a young man last named Garza. i didn't get to hear the whole story. Around 7:20 pm i get on my car the radio is on  and there is a story being told about a  Sandra.  today after work the radio station i listened to is talking about September 1, 2001 and the aftermath. i remember listening to KTSA which is a republican.

Update May 2016 I just heard Wal Mart is paying me the least but everywhere i go is the same thing. more to come        

Update June 6, 2016 Today I am writing this down because God wants for me to write it down. How do i know He wants for me to write it down? Because I have no other way to  sent my message across  than by writing it down my phone won't  charge. Now I want to gratefully and sincerely  give thanks to Mrs  Nancy Larson for connecting me with  Mrs Mary Daily who not only provided  a ride for me but also provided a place where i could stay in Minnesota for State Convention.  I also want to  give thanks to  Paul who is going National who was the person who had called me asking me if i was going to attend the convention. Now let me show you what was repeated in Minneapolis. The street here i had the convention  is 11 Street  the building is 1111. The door  entrance  we used for going out and coming is named Nelson Entrance. Other things  that were repeated.  One day long ago Anita Sanchez and i went to Mrs Daily home in Crystal City. Anita had to do a small load of ironing for Mrs Daily. Way later on but before all this started  I was in line at the HEB store in Crystal and so was Mrs Daily who  started a conversation with me about why she and her husband Dr Daily would just rather live in Crystal City. more to come   
Update June 7, 2016  now what else repeats?  There we were at the Hilton Mary me and other delegates and I was facing the TV when the breaking news came on about Muhammad Ali death born Cassius Marcellus Clay jr born January 17, 1942 died on June 3, 2016. At 22 he won the Heavy weight championship shortly after he converted to Isiam. In 1984 at the age of  42 he was diagnosed  with Parkinson's disease. My oldest brother Luis had Parkinson's and  I live in Clay County. Ali was born in 1942 was diagnosed at age 42. more to come Update June 24, 2016 my brother was born on December 30 or 31 and if i am not mistaken  the year 1942 and he also was a junior.and he too would have been 74 years old.  now last week  Friday June 16, and Saturday  June 17,   i walked  by 11 St north add 7+4= 11. today i saw these numbers on a g 

Update June 11, 2016 this past Wednesday June 8, 2016 at Wal Mart managers sent out to a warehouse two Muslims men one African woman one white woman and me to work with a woman named Mary. on the first brake the two men took a 35 minute  brake. this strong Muslim man around his late twenties or early thirties said that Mary was difficult to work with and  both men decided not to work  the black woman stayed in a room talking away. when i left the room  i told the men and woman it was time to go back to work but they still stayed behind. I told Mary but Mary i noticed didn't care and spoke back to me with  Taco. I wanted Mary  to call on the men and women because working at the Warehouse is a harder job for women. Occurring to Mary she told the two young strong men to go home but somehow i knew this was a lie both men went back to the Walmart and got their job back . The black woman also told Mary she had to checked out early and went back  to the store. so the only two persons working at the Warehouse were me and the young white slim  women. Now one of the Muslim man told me he wanted to join the Military but when he saw how the USA government was treating the veterans he decided not to. he told me what is the USA government going to give me for joining the USA Military? nothing he said so this is why he would not go join the Army. I know this saying that goes " You give them a Ride and they want to Drive."  And for this and many other reasons i do not and will  never  vote for a Muslim for President! Much more to come Donald  and many other white people see all other Races the same but we are not!  Most  Mexicans that came or  are  coming  from Mexico worked hard for a living and never got Nothing Free! Most Mexicans knew and know their place in the USA and we obey the law! the people i grew up with i also saw working very hard and i mean very hard for just a few dollars a day! more to come   Just in Crystal City, TX  at Garcia park you can read all the young Mexican who went to War and didn't  come back ! and i am sure when he were on their way were not thinking what am i going to get back from the government!  more to come

Update June  13, 2016 Mr. Obama, what  happened  yesterday in Orlando Florida ? In Mr. Nelson classroom  i thought I had learned what happened in Wounded Knee was the worst massacre in the United States of  America?  One more thing it don't matter where they are born if its in their heart and in   their mind. and one more thing yesterday i saw pictures of that killer and this is my opinion to me he looks gay. most of the time when a person hates is because he wants what he or she sees. in the news  i heard he had told his father he had seen two men kissing. fear and hate comes to us when we fear that could be us or we don't have it.            Update June 14, 2016 and what is this that  hear 3 times in and out from FBI doors and didn't bothered to put killer under  Servalince! Before that  Chistina Grimmie at age 22 also killed in Florida. what needs to be done about hand guns and other weapons    more to come
update June 15, 2016 just found out about what went on in ohio Walmart i feel so sorry for the woman who the officer was asking questions about her boyfriend and officer just went on to say his dead.  John Crawford at age 22.

Update June 22, 2016 I want a lot of things from our next president and this is one! I want mandatory child support  proves of  parents who have the children where the money goes! I want the government and the absent parent to know it does not go to boyfriends girlfriend Bars tattoos beer drugs body  rings parties and much more!  more on  Attorney General Child Support. what needs to be done.      Update June 24, 2016 last Friday i went walking  on the left side of the street on 11st  north in  Moorhead to get to my red car that was parked at social  services . my thoughts that day were is my God the one and only? then i saw this house with these  numbers 221 as i  acrossed to the next block i see a political  sign that reads something like Bernie for president. now last night my son was telling me about dreams he hasd while in prison. and he kept telling me you won't belived me. but i did because in  a way they have to do with what i am writting  about. my son told me he dreamed about two men one of them was like marching in  line as if he was in the Army. years went by my son is sent to boot camp he sees that man there  ready to leave boot camp as my son is to start. . now my son tells me about another dream he had more like a nightmare more to come  update June 25, 2016 he tells me that several nights while in prison he felt as if someone was chocking him . that someone was holding him down by the throat and he could not breath while he was sleeping. i understood there were two other men with him and told him that on one night he sounded like a woman chocking . now back when i worked for Mr. House who had taught Spanish in Carrizo Springs, TX.   I understood  that he or his other daughter in law had told me his son  who was charged for killing  his wife had choked her to death while she was  sleeping.  when Mr. House told me about his son problem i did not fear for my life that much but one day it did when his son who also had taught school and was charged with the killing of his wife  had a white male friend came to visit him. this white man showed he  hated Mexicans by the way he was talking and i noticed the Host didn't bothered to run him off his home. ( asked him to leave). the words i don't remember but they were hard core  intense passionate hate for people of my color.  the next day i told them i was no longer going to work for them.   In TX there are a lot more white prejudice white   people and they show their true colors  more to come

Update June 28, 2016 now i don't remember if House was from Hondo or Castroville . Hondo, TX what is i hear a group of people don't like their Godly sign? Perez sent my son to the Boot Camp in Hondo.  FFRF repeats. Atheism =


Update June 25, 2016 my oldest brother wasn't religious but i know he feared God a bit. he used to say that the end of time was near when strange things would be seen in the sky.  On June 11, 2016 as i am driving  my daughter and grandson to the Amphitheater  on 50th Avenue SW  to see Lecrae and Switch foot  as i looking up to the left side up in the sky i see an X cloud.   i went back to pick them up about one hour before the concert was over then i noticed  an X on the stage  there might have been more then one but from where  i was standing i could  only see one.           
                       Update June 25, 2016 why i know Mexicans in south TX where i leaved didn't leaned much was  white teacher we could even asked them a question. i remember Mrs Taylor English  7or 8th grade teacher.  She wanted all class room to be just quiet she would just stand and be with her mind somewhere else. more to come never talked with us about nothing not a thing came from her mouth just this       Taylor always looked mad but one day i saw how nice she was with her white students   kind more to come

Update Yesterday July 4, 2016 what was repeated? 7+4= 11. Bicentennial year 1976 = 200 years 40 years today is 240 years ago.

UPDATE  JULY 9, 2016 WHAT IS GOING ON! A WHITE POLICE OFFICER KILLS A BLACK MAN RIGHT UNDER OUR NOSE!? ONE TIME! TWO TIME ! THREE TIME ! FOUR TIME! NOW WHY WOULD BLACK BROWN AND EVEN SOME WHITE PEOPLE BE MAD?!  REPEAT 1234! REPEAT 4444 SHOTS AND  POLICE WHITE OFFICER IS STILL WITH GUN POINING AT WOUNDED BLACK MAN WHO IS BLEEDING AND SLOWLY DYING!  YES!  SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE DONE ABOUT BAD  POLICE OFFICERS!  I KNOW MOST ARE GOOD BUT WHAT IS BEING DONE ABOUT THE BAD ONES!? THE POOR BLACK WOMAN SAYS SR TO THE OFFICER WHILE HIS BOYFRIEND IS DYING BESIDES HER AND SMALL CHILD IN THE BACK SEAT WITNESSING  THIS HORRIBLE  AND VERY SAD TO HEAR AND SEE ORDEAL  . NOW M N GOVERNOR MARK DAYTON SAYS THE TRUTH AND SOME PEOPLE DON'T LIKE TO HEAR THE TRUTH.  NOW THAT'S  TOO BAD  BECAUSE IT IS THE TRUTH. IF IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A WHITE MAN THIS WOULD HAVE NOT HAPPENED. NOW I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU THE READER BUT  THIS IS WHAT GETS TO ME WHEN TAKEN TO COURT NOBODY IS AT FAULT!  I KNOW IF IT WAS ME OR SOMEONE I KNEW I WOULD SENT TO PRISON FOR MANY YEARS OR BE  KILLED IN THE ELECTRIC  CHAIR. Today July 12, 2016 as i read more on what went on with the white officer who killed black man i can't believed  it BUT this things have  always happened just now with phone cameras we can see some if not all. The black woman i know was so scared she and her child would  be next and  the white police officer is just waiting for the opportunity. i know i would have also been scared i would have also called him SIR. USA Police Department need to know this few white officers who kill black and brown were brought up this way and it is very hard for a person to change when they are full grown into older adult. We start at home with what we learned from our parents how we are going to respect and learned to live with other people. if we don't learned that at home it will be very hard once the person is a full grown woman and man.   i know the only way of having peace  and love for others is by  having Christ in your heart there is no other way. And still the Devil will try his best to make you do it.      

Update July 9, 2016 now what about manners  being polite to others behavior at work place watch out for the other guy? remember that TV  commercial? it should come back now with all the new comers

Update July 11, 2016 Because I hear so many lying  preachers, God has many poor children I am one of them . No! Not all are His children! God made us all but not all are His let me explain. more to come   Oprah and Osteen if you don't know there is only one way to God = Jesus Christ.  Update July 12, 2016 we need to be reborn again and only through Christ that is possible. this does not mean you will have it all NO! giving your life to Christ might mean you might suffer. Now some have a lot and why? Because He wants  for  you to have. When Jesus feet were being washed with expansive  perfume  He said  "The poor will always be among  you, but not I "(there is much more to this story)   Now do i like being poor? No i don't but through the years i learned  I do not control my life i can only control how i am going to react to what i am going through.  and yes some of  His children are rich he gave them a lot.   more to come Back to the today preachers who are always asking for money  using the word of  God only  when its to their  convenient to get people to give them money for lies.   Update July 14, 2016 lets start who is Paulino Bernal born June 22, 1939  from Mcallen, TX how does he asked for money and about the 5 desires he promised you  get  if you sent him money. and what happened when this woman asked me to go see him in Carrizo when he told his men to closed the doors as we were to walk out Update July 16, 2016 One day Asalia Talamantez asked me to go with her to Carrizo Springs to see Bermal. I really did't feel like  going  but I did. It all started good  now i don't remember it there was music but i know there was a a lot of peeaching. When it was almost over the asking for money started. So we started moving out and as we were opening the doors two or three men came to us and stoped us  they closed the doors told us to go back  that the good stuff was just getting  started. Now here we are two poor women one more  poor then the other. Well thank goodness Asalia had two dollars one for her and one for me to give to the Paulino brothers. According to brother Paulino God had told him he needed or was going to raised i don't remember  the $ amount  but it was a lot. I remember i saw one  of crystal city female teacher and i thought to myself not even she looks too happy to give that great amount.  so yes its about sending money and getting 5 Deseos 5 wants. I say  if  only I got 5 needs like for whoever been opening my car doors  moving my hand wheel  and other nasty things  to me that would be nice if it would stop.     
now back to being poor Update July 16, 2016 God became poor to make us spiritual rich  one day I learned this by listending to brother Paulino. Yes many prechers know a lot but many are using His word to make themself  worldly rich. more to come

Update July 16, 2016  I remember when i used to listened to Dr. Ed Young and i learned about the Prodigal son how Dr. young said the  father saw his son from far away and just by his way of walking the father knew it was his son and ran to welcome  him back  home. those days i would go to church at 7:00am to be home to listend to young and Charles Stanley.  i remember this two men were so good i never knew if they had a family i never thought about it too busy learnding but one day it was mother's day and Stanley started talking about his mother more to come 

Update July 12, 2016 now for a Mexican and some black people sometimes education does not guarantee  you will even get a job and if you do you are expected to work more get paid less and work harder.  Some places even bad treatment called harassment.   But you are  expected to pay back to the ones who already won big$$$ collage and  student loan banks. I only write what i see and hear what i am going through.  

Update July 12, 2016 Today i didn't go to work not because I didn't wanted to but because I couldn't God had other plans for me. He had me walked to  2th Avenue North  and Roberts St north  in Fargo. Then He had me walked to 1901 first Avenue North in Moorhead. now i know i wrote about this before but i need to write it again  in this two places i saw what were in my dreams before coming here broken ground large pit holes. I can only think it was Gods idea because i did all i could do to get myself to work.

Update  July 13, 2016  if God wants i will be 60 years old on September 11, 2016 and i can still walk a lot and sometimes even  faster and not get tried of walking this has to do with all the walking i did on the fields here in the North.    

Update July 12, 2016 The movie Fargo what was about the postage stamp? When Raul and i got married one of the first thing he told me about himself was that he liked to collect posted stamps. He told me whenever you go to the postage get me  left over or collectable stamps something like that he told told me. Now when my children and i got a ride from Colorado to Texas  with this very nice  Mexican man who was married   to also very nice white woman. their children were friends with my children. He had told me he was going to Mexico but he needed to stop in Odessa for a while guess what? We stopped at a house that was build by the same company that built our house and the last name Fernandez was on their mail box.  

Update July 13, 2016 One size does not fit all meaning the 5 in blue who were killed in Dallas July 9, 2016 were 5 of the many good law officers we have to protect me . This 5 good men are resting in peace may this bring comfort to their families.  What repeats 5 and blue. On the weekend of  July 4, 2016 I went to work on Sunday because i wanted the 4 day off .And as i was waiting for the doors to open i asked another employee who was also waiting what is the blue law why is Wal Mart  doors closed on Sunday mornings. the employee told me it was because of religious reasons. Then i understood  this gives employees who went to attend church to do so. The number 5    more to come       Next about

Update July 14, 2016 i hear the MN black man was born in Mexico this does not   surprise me . many born Mexicans living here are racist in Mexico with darker skin even if they them self are dark if they hold a better job they feel bigger but this also true with mexican American born here. I noticed many of my owe Race is that way.   Next i will write more about people i know who are this way back in TX. Update  16, 2016

July 16, 2016 Now do i have  real  stories  about Mexicans who think they are lighter and don't like dark Mexicans even if they are relative? Yes i do and it happened here in ND. I  remember one summer our farmer needed more people. I think  this was before my brother  asked other families from Crystal City for help. This summer if i am not mistaken came a family who were from San Antonio. I don't remember if i ever  spoke to any of them but my brother Luis did and he got freaked  out  when one female member of the family told him the rest of her family didn't like her because she was darker then they were. Sometimes while working i would looked their way  to see any difference but i never did to me they all looked the same. One day in TX i listening to La Ranchrita Del Aire a spanish radio sation coming from Piedras Negras Coahila Mexico and a radio man  and woman were talking about how in Mexico lighter people got farther in life than darker skin people did. more to come    Next about your children how they look at me and why i need to talk about the ones everyday are being abused killed by you  mothers  fathers  boyfirends girfriends  just evil  people around them   children who don't have a voice. more to come Update July 20, 2016 one day Bonita the one who  hold me back on that winter night introduce me to one man she knew from Mexico. in a conversation about President Obama he say he didnt know how a black man had won the president seat here in the USA. i don't remember if I commented  but if i did'nt i should have said yes you bit he did and twice. 

Update July 18, 2016 one day back in i think it was 2009 in San Marcos, TX   if i am right at a Target store there was young Asian couple with a little girl who wouldnt take her eyes off me. she kept staring at me for a very long time that her parents starting laughing so did i. but if i am right this was not the first child that did that there were others. this has been going on for a while   Update july 20, 2016 before you jump the gun this Asian parents looked very good parents to the child more to come
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July 20, 2016 i don't agree with all that was said in the 2008 speech by Mrs  Michelle Obama  and repeated by Malania Trump about working hard for what you want. you can work hard for money but if you are only getting  950 1050 1150 1250 1350 1450 1550 or less  you can work very hard and long hours but when  pay day comes its all gone! Now if you have an education went to collage that means you owe money if you get a job and you  are getting paid very little you are still very poor more to come about this and Texas History books.     Update July 20, 2016 how much does Donald Trump loves the USA? not much as his third wife said he did and let me tell you why. first if i say i love the USA especially on election day i listen to what the candidates   and their wife's are saying about themselves. i pay good attention to their words and if i plan to run for more the reason. Now as you know by now i am not an educated person but if i am going to talk about the person i am with i do not need help in writing how i feel i just need to be . Now  Malena what do you know about hard work ?   I thought you were  known  for Nude Pictures.  That is modeling your body.   now you said you married him because you love him? you mean you  fell in love with a very old man older then me?  This is a fact did you know Malana that if he was poor and you both got old together and he got sick so sick he had to use adult pampers guess who had to do some of his cleaning? This is for real and it really  takes Love. i mean who knows who is going to get sick first but this is the real life. now back to the speech. more to come you both were going for you no for you honey more to come
next how easy is it to become homeless even when you are educated? very easy more to come   

Update July 21, 2016 about things  getting  bettter?   more to come Now today i noticed that on the back area in the Wal mart store on 13th Avenue  where  the groceries trucks  pull back to dropped food the door number is 11.  Now in 2012 a house here in Fargo  was given away to a family and now 2016 there will be another home giveaway more to come about how the family true story repeats.Update July 23, 2016 i hear Hebrew is read from right to left well so did my mother sister Connie my daughter and so did I  when i was small. more to come Now this story about the Gilbertsons, family you can read on July 2016 Design & Living Magazine page 27 where you read how  in 2012 their key 18 opened the door to their new home.  Now before i looked into the Chai = life Chet = of 8 and the Yud value 10= good lack  and gifts.  The movie  Fidder on the Roof i had seen in several places but at the time i didn't understand why now i know why and so do you. Now my mother unlike her oldest first sister named Francisca Poncheta did not get an education. This  might have been because  right after or a  few years later my mother was born her mother passed away things inside  De La Pena  home were not the same anymore. But yes i do remember seeing my mother opened books magazines from the back to the front. more to come

 next why it is much harder for  Mexican American to get ahead then blacks Americans Update July 23, 2016 now i hear stories about Mexicans coming to work here and having it very hard let me tell you the ones i know were born here and still are here and go to work on the fields and still have it hard and get paid very little. Many  Mexicans that come to work here have it made because they don't live here they go back to where they are from and can do a lot in their land with the  American money we the ones  born here can not. now i am for raising the  Minimum Wage  but only if everything else won't go up too! And how can this won't happening if the renter wants more the house builders  want more the car sellers want more the grocery stores want more the light companies want more    everybody wants more!

July 23, 2016 last night i watched 20/20 and for now let me tell you the woman who had  a child with Edward Kennedy. you did something that many women do go after a married man because they are easy very easy to get for sex. married men are so easy and  just like Kennedy that kept lying so do many other married men because they want the easy  open legs of a willing woman. more to come now  you want to made money with your book, right? and no it was not a mistake you knew what you were doing because you had done it before  more to come       Update July 25, 2016 before 20/20 July 23, 2016 i knew very little about who i thought was another Kennedy but then i asked my daughter and got her confused she did't know who was i talking about that made me looked up who these people were. back then i do remember seeing on TV about it but for  some reason i thought he was a Kennedy and while his wife had cancer he was having sex with another woman.  Then came my hard years and this is where i am now. But this real  mistakes i can  erase . Rielle Hunter you were having sex  giving it away to a married man who was very sick with Cancer!  This was not a mistake! This was you not thinking about what the sick wife was going through! You gave  jack about her! You were just thinking about you having sex having pleasure! Now  you want people to feel sorry for you ? You both get along very  well because both of you are the same. this man was asked if he had sick with you and he said NO.  now you say you love him even if he was not saying the truth about you and him having sex  !? now what repeats ? Hunter Howie  more to come

Update July 30, 2016 what else repeats?  Raul C  Munoz birthday was July 26, 1951 he died on May  2011 he was 59 years old the day he died in Colorado. I am 59 years old here in Moorhead  Minnesota. We were both born in Crystal City , Texas.

Now what do i hear  Muslims  that did the crimes now they are in jail want money because the jail house gave them Pork for dinner? No way!!! if I were the law in  North Dakota  i would say this and much more to the Muslims. This is what we have to eat if you don't like it get someone from outside to get your  food because you did the crime now you are in our hands and you eat what we have or don't eat it all. And please don't bring in your religion if you were so religions what brings you Muslims to jail?  Now Muslims let me tell you how the real God even knows what i think and many times wherever i am i pray without having to go face at any direction to be heard. On January 3, 2016 as i was at work  cleaning i didn't feel well and this thoughts came to me God can make a fool out of me. am later as i fall on my face at the 25 St South i did feel like a fool and so embarrassed that when i got up i looked around to see if anyone had seem me fall. I got up as quick as i could and took off to the hospital. more to come

now i hear people from Mexico are Americans yes you are you have a voice  here in the USA. We born here don't and you don't even have to vote to be heard! Let me tell you why i wasn't moved by Trump or Clinton for what they had to say  not a thing had to do with a relief for the people born here! First of all       

Update August  2, 2016 and Muslims do not worry about what i write about you because you are truly loved by Trump  and Republicans  what is going on is just polities between Trump and Clinton. You see you for the government people you are worthy  North Dakota and many other states get money for having you as residents and where you work they also get some money so its a win win deal. And maybe by now most of you know this is way you act like you do. This is way you don't have to look at me with your evil eyes i am the only one who is deeply hated not you. Now there is a person or persons who for a long time ago got a hold of my car door keys and whenever they feel like it get into the car and do has they please and they get to have a very good laugh about it i can just imaged they can even peed on their underwear as they laughed away . Today at work this person or persons even send  out a someone to moved the car. In the morning i had parked it facing  west because i come from the East. This someone who was told what  told to do for this day  got in the car and parked it facing East outside the Auto service. Yesterday one white Wal Mart  employee was waiting for me in the morning  to just tell  me not to park it on the lawn and Garden lot. i told me why only me i seen others parked their car on the Auto and Gordan lot. now this person and persons also tell other people to have me a hard time like throw a trash can on top of the washer as my clothing is in the washer. These are just a few bad things you the people do to me here in the North. now i had to get used to get because i can't prove it you are too many just like in TX.  And you the people can say i can get away with it because God forgives yes and so do i. I had to  learned to asked God everyday to help me forgive you asked because it is impossible to live hating you the people.  now  back God we all take God very lightly we say that we can sin and sin and He will forgot and forgive all our sins, right? The Jehovah which i learned a lot from the Old testament say that there is no Hell because God is all good and He will not send no one to hell as i think they believed  something like the Jews they will just won't exist.     witness       more to come Catholics say they can go to con more to come    



Now last week as i was putting cans away before i knew about the film about self  defense at work. i felt i had to looked behind me because i felt as if someone was going to harm me. i really don't know that Wal Mart  was showing  us a film about self defense. more to come Now in Crystal City there was  a teacher that was Ricardo Diaz Sr who one day said something like this, "Anybody can be a teacher but not everyone can teach."   more to come

Update August 3, 2016  today like always i have a lot to write now i never said  i knew it all just weeks ago by watching  reruns i learned  Wonder Woman  Linda Carter was Diana Prince now who was Purple Rain ?

 about jobs i remember watching  Bewitched how  when her husband   invited  his Boss for dinner wanted everything to go well because it was his Boss coming over.   .  more to come   Update August 3, 2016  next i am going to write about the good days when the peanut man  Jimmy Carter was president and how  it were good times  for many Mexican  American students  born here  and some who had moved from Mexico . today August 6, 2016   Here i might have made another mistake but today i don't  have time to corrected. more to come  


Update August 6, 2016 some time ago  i understood my daughter told me  something like this that in the Bible when  a name is repeated twice it means a promise. Later that day  i thought a promise to what? So today  August 6, 2016  i looked it up  here in the internet and this is what i read that when God wants our attention He doubles up. i was doubling up in some of my writing because i wanted  attention i was doing it without knowing this is His way.  now back to the internet i read that when God calls a person or town twice it is immediately elevated to great biblical importance  example Abraham Abraham Genesis 22:11.  Now why i say  only true Christians have it right  is because  what is going on is in the Bible. now it says it will be a Nation of many languages more to come . Update
August 8, 2016 on June 3, August 8, 2016 now why did Hillary  Clinton said some wanted to stick with the king and some wanted to stick it to the King ? on her speech she was talking about the first group of peoples that were coming in to steal the Natives land. now colony = Colonia and i told  part of this story  to someone else from here before she Hillary said her speech. Now when i was a child and some kids were mad at each other they would say but in Spanish if you don't stop it  I am going to hit you on all of your Colonia = Ass.  now i grow up and go to Greeley,  Co and hear there is a  place called   La  Colonia where a lot of poor Mexican people lived  more to come Colonoscopy Procedure.  Nowadays I laugh very little but this weekend  on the radio M P R what make me laughed about Thomas Jefferson    more to come

Update August 9, 2016 now i know  a lot of women and even men like for others to see their Colonia and others like to see it some even make money by showing it off  on concerts movies homemade movies and the famous internet but i know as  you get  older or just get sick  and the doctor  orders you to  see your Colonia i know you will think twice about showing him or her  your Colonia.      

Update August 8, 2016 on June 3, 2016 when Ali died and we the delicate were at the Hilton lobby  having a few drinks talking about what was going on there was a Mexican family celebrating a young woman high school  graduation  and the young woman was wearing a white cap and gown. Now Maroon and white are the Pharr San Jaun Alamo High School colors and white was what the girls wear for the ceremony.  Mascot = Bears.

Update August 9, 2016 about movies my oldest brother once said we see on TV what they want us to see which this is true. One day as as we were getting ready  to start an Elementary  school year  in Crystal City an Elementary teacher named Josefina said kids just want to watched movies  about sex and violence. this woman thought that because she was a teacher she knew it all . we don't control     
Update August 15, 2016 today i can't stay too long but    for a lontg time before the color Gold was in my mind and i did't understyand why since i don't like the color only on jeweley also the rings were on my mind since last year. now NBC my TV wouldn't get but this past week it started working and now i am watching the Olympics. rainbows more to come

Update October 9, 2016 now where have i been since August 15, 2016 i been sick i got so sick that on the night of August 15, 2016 i went to  Sanford Hospital Emergency room on Broadway here in Fargo and had to stay for  stomach  surgery. My first surgery and i pray it will be the last one. i have a lot to catch up with but i am still very weak so much  that even writing gets me tired. So much as happened that repeats to what i  been writing about. i asked God not to put me in this places like hospitals but He does and the only reason i think He does this is  because He my Father wants me to write about it . Today i don't know how much i can write but here it goes. Now personally i don't know this family parents of 11 year old Jacob W only what i see hear on the news but my deepest condolences goes out to his  family  especially his mother that for so long as been  suffering like a loving mother suffers when she  knows nothing of  the whereabouts of her precious  child  but i know that same moment  Jacob died  he went to  rest.  when the news came up about Jacob story my son came in to my bedroom and asked me do you remember when this was going on but no i didn't remember maybe i did see it on the news but i still don't really remember it might be that i have always been too busy working  or doing something else. i told my daughter and she gave me more information about it she told me the year we came to MN with the Loera  family  her summer migrant  teacher would asked the students to sing Jacob sad song. more to come           

more about women when on their period   what most of the time comes to my mind when i think about how hard it was back then when the USA  Government told the Natives to move out from their land so the whites could built their homes on the Natives land. How hard it was for those women who were old or pregnant or on their period.   now how many  Christians church leader do as Christ told us to do ?   more to come           What is going on at the UND is very understandably    now don't come here if you are highly educated and  want a good paying job because you wont get it even if you have the schooling    and this is everywhere not just here. Here we need people that will clean toilets clean houses        more to come i   


Update October 10, 2016 Now you need to understand that for so long only white women and white men have had the education to get the best paying jobs and now here comes a few Mexican Americans and black people also educated wanting to apply and get those jobs that they thought they could get but now they find out it was just a dream that the white educated leaders  told all students but in reality those high paying jobs educated are not for those who white people called colored people those jobs are only for the white people. now there You have anything but the truth.  now it all starts at home we all want the best don't we ? i hear some students even want it all free collage. my parents got Joke anything Free and they work hard like any other Mexcicns Americans and still in 2016 i don't see a change of getting ahead not even with an education because  most good paying jobs are being run by whites, white women white men they can make mistakes and are forgiven.  they can steel and they will be next day on 20/20 laughing it out and getting paid for their story. not blacks and Mexicans more to come

Update October 19, 2016 once you are done with school its all about competition in the workforce and if you are one of the few of a kind believe me you have a lessor chance of getting ahead. no matter how hard you work you will never be seen as doing excellent not even doing good because this means climbing  the ladder and getting paid more for what yo do . Now everyone wants to get paid more  this is why even people who come here want an education, who doesn't? but this takes  brain and  money and for some more money then brain.  Going back to the workforce if you are white you can make mistakes you can have tattoos and you will be forgiven but i really believe that if you are Mexican  or black you  really need to prove yourself and you might not get the job if you do you will be asked to work for way less money.  now this has nothing to do with po more to come        

Update October 18, 2016 i remember when my brother Luis used to say that his elementary teacher used to asked the class what do you wan to be when you grew up . to me now this was a laugh more on education 

Update October 16, 2016 Now one day when sister Barbara met Luna she wanted Al Pase A La Casa. = welcome inside our home or come in and enjoy take who you came in for  do as you please Just kidding but it does mean to walk inside the house. At that time i had no idea what this was  but soon  i was to find out after big brother was talking about it and had been approved by father and him. Nowadays this is more common within   Mexicans  American families but back then this wasn't so and there were many reasons why  boyfriends were not allowed to pick up  sisters at their homes . My believe is that white families used this more then we did but i could be wrong. Back then  this was lost of respect to fathers and in many cases trouble for brothers. later i will write about how the USA has become Al Pase A La Case. Now brohter Luis did'nt like it but he was not the boss so it was approved by both of them  and for the time sister and Luna were dating Luna would pick up Barbara at the house. When came the time for me to raised my family i went with that rule No, Pase A La Casa unless its for marriage. Nowadays we hear of many single  mothers who welcome men inside their homes and we hear of children being killed by who they called boyfriends i know some are even husbands  more to come today many parents don't see this wrong even when its more then one man coming in.        
Update October 17, 2016 today was just like any other day that repeats as i was looking for my   birth certificate i saw a bank receipt with this date 6/16/16 this was the day i went in to change my pin number. i am on my car and i hear on the radio about the  Bison lost to South Dakota and i hear 6 Seasons 6 lost.  Tonight  before coming to library my daughter  and i are watching this  movie named Woodlawn what number is mention 16 Anniversary.       

Update October 17, 2016 this is for old Donald this was not your year and Melania what is this about a boy, at also 60 years old with gray hair everywhere? now i know a lot of men used this word Pussy  and many women like it more when having sex.  i know you Melania must like it just as you like to show off your nude body and the word Gentlemen i been wondering about that word too because this word is used for Gentlemen club where women like to show off their nude bodies to all men. now what is so gentlemen about this ? lets face it there is a lot of men like your husband and i had to fight a few of my own i will write about this later on but Thank God my father Luis Fernandez was nothing like that later i will write more about how considerate my father was with women. He used to say that a pregnant woman was between life and death  he knew why after losing a sister as she was having her first child. We children never heard our father talk dirty or be disrespectful to our mother. more to come           now about the word Pussy i never new that word until i met De la Cruz     more to come

Update October 18, 2016 tonight i was remembering

Update October 20, 2016  I can not relate in anyway to Ted Cruz or Marco Rubio because i am not Cuban i just remember that in school after the Mexicans took over in choir we used to singed  a Cuban  song i liked a lot that earlier was played in the radio. but i can sure relate to the songs from the ones coming to Fargo the Moody Blues. i remember here at the farmers ranch listening to K Q W B played Question. On my lonely times which were many i would listened to songs like Tuesday Afternoon Voice Night in White Satin  and Seesaw which was an upper but as a child i didn't know what the song was about until many many years later now i even know that once they played at the Royal Albert Hall. now as i am older i can relate even more to these songs i used to hear and still like to hear . now when going to valley City there was a sign with a ? on the right side of a bridge.            
Update October 21, 2016 As i was watching SNL the second debate i was thinking about the time i was working at Sam's club here in Moorhead and there was always someone coming around me  repeating certain words or doing things i had done.  Now i had said before to someone  it was time for me to move on then one day as i was opening a cooler to get ready for work a woman i didn't know all of a sudden came behind me hugged  me told me to stay. i screamed out loud i wasn't expecting someone to do such horrible thing to me this frighten  me. When i told  Zack who had interviewed  me for the job  he started laughing he thought it was so funny. I wonder if it would had been his mother shocked  he would had find it so funny and would had laughed so hard. Yes there are a lot of men who say and bad things to women and they think nothing of it.  i have had people pretending they like me just to start a    more to come

Update October 22, 2016 Donald Trump be happy for what you got God has blassed you with so much more then many other people so stop complaining you will not be the next president this is not yours to take . You Trump  and many others don't have an idea what it is to be so poor and need so much and be a Victim of the world . You say your father loaned  you money no he didn't he gave it to you and he gave you much more then that but in reality it was God who made it happened.
Now  are we really good people i really don't think so most people nowadays i see are not good and let me tell you why i say this.  Tomorrow  is Sunday and ministers will be preaching but not one word will be mention about  what is going on at the Natives burials and Cultural  sites being taken away and destroyed. Not one man or woman  who tells about  the good word talks about this and other things like killing babies in the stomach  killing  children.  Why?  Because people will stop going to the feel good church and  that means no money on the baskets. when i was a little girl i used to dressed up like a grown woman and walked to a store near by sometimes if i wasn't careful i would stand on a hill of Red Ants they would get on my feet it hurt  a lot. i see many of you the people like red ants who are evil and you like being evil.

Update October 25, 2016 now Trump has been blessed rather he acknowledged or not i don't know. Trump is 70 years old has three wife's. more to come Now because i don't know enough  i asked my daughter if Christ says anything about prosperity she said no not in the way we normally here on earth see it. i asked her because these were the words of a pastor i heard on radio. and it is correct but without prosperity we can do very little, right. once i heard local pastor Tony Scheving at 3303 23 rd Ave south say that the first time he served he only saw $12.00 dollars he said something  i understood was not enough but then things got better along the way. now first what repeats 3303. Now        

Update October 23,2016 Now this is not an opinion this is a fact. Many many years ago who came  here from another place far far away with the idea of this word Treaty? The white government did, right ? Now what is a treaty? A treaty = agreement contract bargain  pact between two sides . Now the white government then says this treaty becomes a law. So now lets say i would go to your home and would say lets sign a treaty that your home is now my home and you need to move out and if you don't like it i will put you in jail or do worst. My question is how would any of  you like this done to you? Nobody likes it  and still its being done to the Natives at the want to do Oil Pine Line here in North Dakota  because now white government  says  its the law  and who cares about what is going on? Not we the Christians we are too happy in our homes and churches to care about that because we want more.

 Now i don't really care if the USA government more to come     

 October 23,2016 Now  what else has been repeated? In 2005 when i went to talk to Howe about my son's case he was on the phone with Monty and said "Don't they watched Law and Order" the other words he mentioned were something like this. "Court day will be close to  Christmas and people will be doing    their shopping at Wal Mart store. Now i am writing this down because i heard Trump and others say the words Law and Order and i have worked for Wal Mart stores here in ND.

 Updated October 26, 2016 now the white goverment came with the Iron House now it's the Black Snake its 2016 why won't the white government leave them alone its their land. Yes it's private property the land belongs to them they have the right to protest what is theirs so just move out and find another way in if there is one.  Update October 26, 2016 Say what!? who is the dishonest? only Hillary!? No old  house speaker  so is Donald Trump. i known men like them and i sure don't want one in the White House. there is a saying in spanish, "tell me who you walk with and I'll tell you who you are." more to come

Now i will write why i like the Obamacare and i will vote for it to stay. In  September 2009 when i first got here i stayed at the Churches United and one night i got sick a  nice white woman  named Dee or Dee Dee also staying there had a car she drove me to Sanford Hospital and there were other times i had to go see a doctor and these bills i still owe now to a creditor and this is the reason many poor Mexicans when going to see a doctor go to late they die within a short time. Mexicans don't get to live to long and talk about their teeth some never get to see a dentist. when my father was in the hospital my brother was just thinking about the hospital bills not about him getting better. now later i will write about the care i got at Sanford's how i was treated by the doctors and the staff.  more to come Update October 26, 2016  now because i have been writing for a long time i don't know if i wrote about his. Now how the word Hugo repeats back then i used to cut  October 27, 2016 now this is what also repeats the name Dee. When we lived in Colorado at the third apartments we moved into  there were a young Mexican American woman who was in beauty school who liked to be called Dee.  many years go by  my son has children with a woman named Dianita but likes to be called Dee. Here in Moorhead is a beauty shop on Center Ave Hwy 10  there is a sign with a picture of a black woman with the name Dee Dee.

Update October 28, 2016 the word Hugo, now in Crystal City i used to do hair to a family named Garcia. One day Mr. Garcia told me, "did you know that Jose Angel  Gutierrez didn't let his children speak Spanish inside his home?" Now this man who know he had been Gutierrez Gardener. this man was the one that had gone to Cuba  to visit Fidel Castro and some people say using money from the city   brought his ideas in 1975 to Crystal city after La Raza Unida. And this is the man who once back in 1969 said   more to come on this but Mr. Garcia had a son who they called Hugo. In 2005 when i was In Grand Forks at one point i told Troy i had met a man at the Hugo grocery store. this was a lie and he and the lawyers knew it. i told Troy this lie because i knew i was being watched 

Update October 27, 2016 my life and life's of others  around me are not easy at all there is not one day i am confused with all the suffering we are going through. Today like some other times i had to walk from 12 Ave north to downtown Fargo and lately  i had been thinking about going inside the church just as i used to back home when i was lonely and going through so many problems. As i am walking by St Marys church i see John 6:55-56. So i went in to talk to God and asked Him for help not that i don't talk with Him  because i am always thinking about Him to get by if not to understand what He wants from me but because He gives me so many problems to worry about and no one to talk with or go for answers. Now i had heard a bit about words John 6:55-56 but i did't know where these words were in the Bible.Update October 30, 2016  I kept thinking i had seen the numbers 55  on the movie Salina.   Now for days last week i had my car parked out of order so i had to ride the bus as bus #4 Moorhead drives by 511 it gets my attention and there i am thinking about the movie Salina which i thought i had seen the numbers 55 .Later that day my daughter puts the movie on and i kind of missed the part so the next day i watched it alone  to see where i saw the 55 and there it is on a trailer behind her as she is dancing before her life is chancing to a young adult then it jumps to El Paso, TX.  What other things repeat? Hector. They moved to live with their uncle Hector. The Moon.
Salinas and much more

Update Nov 1, 2016 back to what Maria Martinez once told me about my cousin Olivia. this i know Jerry might have never told sister  Connie about it while they were having their  rendezvous . now he might not have known  about it but 

Update October 30, 2016  as i read the Wikipedia of the  life of Bobby Vee born here in Fargo, North Dakota. i read his mother second name was Cecilia. now i knew very little about him i only knew  he sang the song Take Good Care Of My Baby.  Update October 31, 2016 today i just had to listen to music before i would start writing to relaxed or think more. i listened to Cherokee Nation Red Rubber Ball song i didn't know  was from Bobby.  i listened to tighter and tighter, I can see clearly now and a few more i heard. more to come. October 31, 2016  Here i go again writing more to make sense of what is going on but my writing don't pay my bills but  i still need to do it  to convince whoever  is reading and  for me to prove it. more to come        

Update October 31, 2016 now i did write about the Carlos i knew but i didn't know who the Carlos second richest man was until today. i really didn't care to know who this man is but he was mentioned in an interview Trump had with a reporter. this man is from  Mexico but is a Lebanese descent. now this man thinks all people are like him who don't gave a bit of what they have so much of.  He thinks Gate and Buffett don't give what they say they give.  Update Nov 1, 2016 Carlos from Mexico way of thinking don't surprised me there a lot of peolpe  in Mexico who are like this second richest man named Carlos and Trump wants to be and do like Carlos did in Mexico but Trump can only dream because Trump lives here .

Now only Trump can get old and ugly teach pussies without permission and say he did it  lie about it and still have preachers love him  so much because preachers say Jesus forgives. in my life i came across  old and young  men like Trump later  i will write about it.
Yes, Jack Van i agreed with you on some things but really a Vote for Trump?  more to come now i have to admitted more to come Now how in the world you Malania don't believed your husband likes to touch down there to women when he was touching you after having two wife's?  You know better but you just don't care  i understand. If Trump didn't have money he would just be a white run down hillbilly like now and  back in the eighties with long eyebrows that disparately need a good trimming and he would be like many of us  looking for jobs at Commend Center Labor Ready more to come      Trump what have you done with all Gods blessings?  i believe the more we have the more responsibilities  we have to help the poor. Now Rudy your old friend from New York  loves to get attention now he will get it. and your third wife when first got here did work she broke   the law does she need to go back to her country where she was born?    

Now i hear preachers say Jesus is good He walked in the water he forgives He is Love. we should be like Jesus but here we have the owners true owners of this land crying for their rights and we don't hear one preacher say a prayer in church or better yet go out and joined them . Now we all enjoy this land that is theirs and now we even have Muslims saying this is my land and my religion and yet the true owners are being pushed back. I heard this pipeline was first going to be put in Bismark what happened here?      more to come

Update November 5, 2016 tomorrow is Sunday again and not a church leader who  has a big income and a big nice church warm inside and has a big nice lot and a big nice house with all other nice things will say in church. This land is their land and i am here because it was stolen from them for me to have  it and enjoy it all.  No not even  but how  they think is this  the Natives must obey our laws they are braking our laws we gave to them and if we want more we ask  Jesus Christ and He is on our side to protect us from  the bad Natives who keep braking our laws they should just accepted it how it is. Right church leaders this is how evil you are? because if you really read the Bible Jesus is nothing about taking killing and destroying.                

Update October 2, 2016 The Bible says we should not go backwards we should always want to go forward. now i know it's still very bad and many things will get worse no matter who is president but why would we vote for Trump  if he wants to go back, back to what? Right now at least many who didn't  have a voice have a voice. if Trump is president yes things will go back back to worst. Now i many Latinos Hispanics think Trump wants to share his fortunes with them  make them rich too. No  not at all  his  just looking out for himself. Does he cares about the poor or women  having abortions? Hell No! how many Republicans have abortions i would guess too many.  
The law should be investigating him too and  i don't care what hot dog winner or his wife said to Hillary on her phone it wasn't her who was involved with a 15 year old. Hillary has nothing to do with that  shit!  But i do care about a man ruining for president who says he can touch women pussies and get away with it because his got money. and i do care about what he thinks about people who look like me because not all Mexicans are what he says they are. just like i can say  not all the Race his wife is  take off their clothing  for money. Now  going back to what !? To when my father told me  the white law would ride on  horses at a certain time  at night  Mexicans  had a curfew so they had  to go inside their  home because the law would beat them up and sent them to jail? And many other worse things like black people and Mexican Americans  being sent to prison for many  many years just for smoking a joint or other small things  some even killed? Is this and  many other worst things is what Mexican American  and black people desired for themselves and their future love ones?  Now i know that the Natives were forced to forget their tongue (language  God gave to them).  But what surprised me was  when we were in Colorado i noticed Mexicans Americans even some who just had a few years living here were embarrassed  to speak Spanish and some didn't know it  didn't want to learn it . One day  at the beauty school a  dark Mexican woman came up to me and told me her  father did not allowed his children to speak Spanish. This  Mexican  woman looked so Mexican cactus but she had been around too long with white people she thought she was white too. This has happens to many Mexican  people born here or just got here from Mexico.These people were ashamed to speak Spanish as if it was something to be ashamed of . this is how the white people wanted us to feel about our language and  many fool Mexicans bought it. one day in beauty school instructor asked us who spoke Spanish most of the time Mexican  Dee told her i did that my children and i only spoke Spanish she told this to the prejudiced  hateful  instructor named Phyllis  who would tell us not to chew  gum but to lick Tic Ticks because of the mouth noise now what repeats? Donald Trump Tic Tacs breath freshener. now Dee said it in a way to embarrass me which it didn't work because  i saw her more then a fool for her  letting a white woman  come between us we were both of same Race. my children at play were also make fun of for not speaking English. now these people spoke English but only what they heard around them that was all because they like many from TX lack proper education. The sorry thing is that many of us don't know well Spanish  neither well English. and Dee was from somewhere in Texas i just don't remember right now from where.  more to come           

 Update October 3, 2016 Here is more to repeat  now you hear the presidential election is on Tuesday  8, 2016. I was born on  a Tuesday at 7 pm and i weighed exactly 8 pounds.  no hospital too poor only a midwife was needed father and a few good friends.        Now Monica was most lightly not a virgin  and at 20 something she was not a child she knew about sex and was doing it with anyone she could find  she was horny  she felt she needed sex.    Update November 5, 2016  i think i have mentioned my mother had me when she was 44 years old. President Obama is the 44 president . When 911 2001happended i turned 45 years of age our next president will be our 45 president.

Update November 5, 2016 now you hear at the end of times there will  be more  false prophets here are a few that come to mind right now  Billy Graham  Dr Ed Young and his son. Crystal City, TX Templo Manuel church leader Dino . Now i can't help mentioning the great evil i saw in the eyes of Ed young jr and his wife  last night on 20/20 . this evil i have seen  on TV in the eyes of Jack van as he talks about more to come next  why i say what i say. why i say its all about money  and a little about God. 
Update November 7, 2016 now why would i say such thing to you preachers? first of all why are you so afraid  ? you should know this days are at hand and there is nothing to worry about concerning the times because it has been written. we as Christians  should in a way be very happy the word is being for filled    many people look up to you and you know this.  You  yourself should vote and tell people to vote but why endorsed a candidate when you know how this person feels about other races and how he feels about women. if you endorsed him than you are like him you think the way he does. you think being hateful is good is the right way. if you endorsed him you like to used the same words he uses. you feel so strong about his opinions and you don't mean other people knowing you are with him . and this is not the christian way    

Update November 5, 2016
later what i have learned about early education and the KKK and what my father told me about educating  the Mexicans  only  enough  to understand  to prepare  for a war.  i remember one day my father telling me when the time came for him to signed for the military he didn't passed the test because he did not fully understand what they were saying and he could not speak well English . I remember he telling me about when he was being told about the hand  weapons he was being trained to used. my father then told me that the government then got smarter by making it a law for children especially  boys to go to school. if the child was absented the parents would have a visit form the sheriff. if the boy had long hair he was told to get a hair cut and more to come
       
Update November 7, 2016 One day i told Troy that in some things  I was like the song Grapevine i believed none  of what i heard and half of  what i saw. The two men i met from the Meddle East were not poor at all both men were students one in TX the other in Colorado and if i am not mistaken they're fathers worked with their government in the Meddle East . Now i see some refugees that came here with money and here they were given more.  I know they have money because if you just got here and is getting paid $9  $12 $15 in hour you can not buy a house and feed a family. i have seen at the family Clinic refugees driving much way much newer cars then mine . i could say new cars.  Wearing much better clothing that what i wear and not  from a second hand store. And i have seen expansive hand purses  some women carry on their hands. Many come here with a high education because they had  the money to go to school and  continue  to the highest they desired. So don't tell me  these people were poor because i won't believe you. Oh yes a picture can tell a thousand words. Anyone can take a picture in a poor neighborhood.  Go to Crystal City, TX and see many poor people and yet there are some  people who are not poor at all they have nice houses and drive new cars.  Sometime back i did feel for the woman who was on TV that had lose a  child relative refugees  trying to cross a river. she kept saying something about cutting a banana in half for two children . i used to do just that here in the USA when my children were small here many of us are just as poor as other counties.  Yes i know some are poor but not all. and this is  the same for the people from Mexico not all come poor. People that come from Cuba are educated. more to come        Update November 7, 2016 this Sunday i went by Ready Work people's Work on NP Ave without knowing i was parking in front of address 711. past week went to work at the Shooting Casino and i see Mustang lounge. in junior high we were the Mustangs and one year i was in the p more to come

Update November 8, 2016  In 1997 my daughter got an invitation to be at the Clinton second  Inauguration when i saw the latter i got sad and didn't talked about it because i knew there was no way we would have been able to attended  this special time in history. Now we are just glad to be able to say we voted for her.   now since time ago i noticed that  backward numbers are also repeated my daughter was born in 1979.

Update November 8, 2016  Now here in North Dakota we have a Nelson running against a Burgum for Governor. Now now now Republican candidate Boug Burgum aren't  we getting too old for a fiancee? without looking  i find this is way sometimes i just don't like to seek. The word Arthur in Crystal City, TX there is a named named Phil Arthur married to a Gloria.  One summer Gloria and her parents came from TX to work with us in the fields. Back then in Crystal City if you had a nickname that was it you belong you were one of us. Gloria had a brother who nickname was La Rata the Rat. Now my brother of course had a nickname too  his was El Cato which is the Cat.  more to come

Update November 9, 2015 since last night i feel so bad because even though i knew there was more bad people i wanted to believed there was still hope. starting January 2017 i have no president to represent  me because i am brown because my mother and my fathers parents came from Mexico. this is what he told me many times again and again.  I live here and some white people will continue to asked me, "where are you from?"  The person who will be the  next president hates the color God gave me. And  time  ago i  used one of many  who   picked cucumbers tomatoes cherries  onions and other foods for him and people like them to eat in their tables. Now what bothers me and find it confusing  many Mexicans gave their vote to someone who he calls  rapist murders and much more but i know my race some of them can be called bad things be put down work for less money and still  content just saying i worked or know a white man.   many new Mexican once they get here they care less for the poor people they left behind. more to come  Now  the devil dwell  inside many ministers. These ministers think the way this man thinks they love his way of thinking they are for hating other different color people like me.  more to come i can only pray to God like    

Update November 10, 2016 this is what repeats my  address in Fargo was 303 Roberts St this year ND elected its 33 governor. Hillary 33000 e.mails. Now  Billy Graham Franklin Graham and Anne Graham Lots you used examples how people were used in the Bible then you mentioned Donald Trump because you all and Jerry Falwell who is pictured with Trump and behind them and another woman is a picture of   a magazine a lot of fathers brothers sons maybe even you Frankie would see Playboy magazine. Now i know that sex  nudity for many of you is no big deal. now i have these questions do you think God is using me to  go against you to make you see you are wrong about the candidate you endorsed and now is going to be your president not mine because he told me many times how he feels about me my brothers and about how he can kill  a person and get away and still people like you  would vote for him and you did vote for him now he is your kind of president. And he can tough women on their pussies and he has touched  many pussies just look at how many wife's he had  even rape his first  wife and got away with it because his got money. 

Update November 12, 2016 this is more that repeats backwards 9-11and 11-9 another tragic day in America?  Please don't think i am having fun witting  all these that i write because i am not.  many times i would rather be  like most of you just be here and gone tomorrow. more to come    later i will tell you why you voted for him and i will write how much more hate and trouble it will bring to more to come   . 
Update November 12, 2016  Now Graham's don't give me that XXX that you endorsed Trump because he is like someone in the Biblical times ! He  was 59 or 60 years old and married to his third wife when he was still looking for more pussy. now i noticed that words like what Trump uses in English because it's the only language he knows are  a few.  I only hear fuck u fuck the window fuck the car and happy me fucking you. In Spanish there are a lot of bad words some i know some i don't  know but all i can't spill. Now i know you don't mean me using these words for examples  because you voted and endorsed a man who used these words. This word i looked up  pussy i only found pussy = Cono I have never heard that word before   must be a Cuban word but I have heard this word and i don't know if i have it right  Pamoja.  which believe me the Spanish dirty words sound  more insulting then  in English. now this is a man who i could even say that because of his many had many sex orgies = sexual activities with many women. you know the spreading the lags the you see me i see you more to come But please don't use  people from the Bible to explain why you like him so much because  right now there is nothing in him to say he is a Christians he has not and will not apologizes  for his insults. now i wonder how many of these women got pregnant and were told to kill their babies because as you can see he is very potent. now what does Trump has in common with  some not all  Muslims men he likes to have more then one  woman and abused them. Update November 13, 2016 how dare you  Grahams compared  Trump to people in the Bible!? That was before Christ and some of not all  were anointed and some suffered a great deal for their sins. you are too afraid of many things one of them the Sharia  law instead of being afraid you should try to bring people to Christ all kinds of people this is  your job and you are getting paid top dollor to do it.!   you voted for the person  the KKK voted for maybe this was meant to be i don't know much more to come
Update November 23, 2016 Now Anne Graham Lots when you say American is not what it used to be is it because  now you see too  much brown too much black Americas  is this what you mean? I am trying to understand  you ? 

Update November 14, 2016 i love how you both hypocrites Franklin Graham and Jerry F twisted and turn words around words from the Bible using Gods people from the Bible for your own benefit you should repent!. This is the same way witches do it too they used saint pictures and candles  to get people to believe in them. we all know we are all sinners but what Trump says and does is what got you and the KKK voting for him. He has never asked for forgiveness for his adulteries he has never asked forgiveness for toughing women pussies. he has never asked forgiveness for just for thinking he is better then colored  people like me. He talks bad about gays but he himself has three wife's and don't even respects his own daughter!  Homosexual is more of a  mind illness . Trump has a chose but he chooses to do wrong but maybe this had to happened  he had to be a candidate so your true colors  would come out. Your sister Anna says America is not the same anymore what does she mean? Now i know white people like you and tramp from other counties won't have a problem coming to the USA they will all be welcome, Right?

 November 15, 2016 You ministers  who indorsed Trump are to blamed for what is going on in the streets and for white hate in schools because you elected a bully a racist a bigoted and much more so don't come saying you believe in Christ  because you don't you just used His words His name to get money and power!  You have the right to vote for  whoever you want  but you should never encouraged others to vote  the way you did and  you use Biblical people saying Trump is a Godly man. There is not a thing Godly in that mans heart just hate like its on your hearts!  If this man doesn't even  pay his taxes he surely don't help the poor and neither do you right!? You are just the give give me in the name of Jesus Christ.  Now about climate change it is happening the weather is changing and you church leaders should know this but you act as if you don't for your own convenience and you voted for a man who thinks the way you do.                

Update November 14, 2016 Have the Ku Klux Klan ever stayed somewhere in Crystal, City ?Yes they have once they stayed at the De La Cruz Motel and they left a mess.  

Update November 13, 2016

Update November 16, 2016  today is the 13 of November and yesterday  because of the way we are feeling my daughter read to me Psalm 13 both  my parents were born in 1913.    

Update November 16, 2016 Yesterday i was sent to work at Bed Bath and beyond on 4340 13th ave in Fargo, ND another black woman was sent a bit later she was paid for taking a brake but i wasn't. This kind of discrimination unfairness goes with me wherever i go.       

Update November 15, 2016 here are more things that repeat. Origin of the Names of the Days of the Week.  We been to the moon. Monday =Lunes = Luna. Tuesday = Martes = Mars where did president Obama wants to go in 2033? Planet Mars. here is another one Sunday = Sol- Doningo = Sunday =Solis. Solis is my daughter's marriage last name.

Update November 16, 2016 I think it was this morning i heard the this song played on the radio Poor Side of Town by Johnny Rivers hit 50 years ago. What came to mind was back when played on radio  brother Luis would  remember his friend  Juan Rios.    

Update November 16, 2016 I don't know what God wants from  me  or what He  wants me to write or how much of me He wants me to write  so i just write what i been through in life that's all i can do. i just hope i am doing half or more of what He wants me to do. But  I see many coincidences in  2009 i called Linda Sendejo second  wife of Gregorio V. Sendejo mother of Raul Munoz. Linda  told me Raul and Grace were separated not living with her .  Update November 19, 2016 we talked a bit then time went by next call she said Grace had passed away i asked her from what she said i this what i understood  using  drugs what kind of drugs i don't know didn't  asked . I asked were there any small children left she said yes two. i asked who are they with she said with him and that they were living with her . i asked because i knew Raul had been on  heroin  since the time he had gone to Colorado not because he had told me or i had seen him used it but because  sometime before Sandra had told me and because of the way he was behaving .  i asked why not with her family Linda said they didn't get along. Up to this week i didn't know if they were two boys two girls or one of each but now i think they are two boys. now what a coincidence  what i understood from Linda  she didn't get along with her siblings  neither did i . I often  wonder and pray that i would not leave my children orphans because who would have taken care of them this would worry me once in a while.  Raul was a hard person to be with but i didn't know until we lived together. i think he would have been a good person but  what got him to be an angry man and angry with women was what he saw growing up what he went through. once he told  me he was just 8 or 14 don't remember years old and was in a bus on his way to see his mother  so i am guessing his parents were divorced.  I dated  Raul on and off so i really didn't know much about him  and back then i was very naive. when i had my daughter i told him i was going to use some kind of birth control because having babies was not easy he said no you are not and this is only your first one wait until you have 5 more. this man thought only about having children but not about how he was going to feed them. Raul didn't want me on birth control because he didn't trust me but i knew he trusted no woman. now i know that a woman should should always see first how the man gets along with his mother. Raul never told me negatives about his parents  but later way later  i knew more about her and his father i understood him better. I don't know much about drugs but i  believed for him  heroin was a way to escape reality.more to come as i looked into her obituary Grace Beatrice was born on February 2, 1957 and died February 2007. more to come

Now Gregorio  Sendejo  more about this man

Update November 20, 2016 today as i read the Fargo  Forum  i read about racism something that goes on strong in the workforce here in Fargo, ND and  HR is what child protected is to abused children not worth the time talking about it  more to come    

Update November 20, 2016 last night i saw two movies The  Central Park Five PBS and about 1956 comic film actor award Golden Globe Mario Moreno Cantinflas as i looked him up his pictured at the aircraft at Madrid, Spain  Barajas airport in 1964. This morning  on radio was the talk about in the future eating insects instead  of cow  meat and brother in law  Jose Barajas  came to mind when i used to tell him i wanted to eat grasshoppers  with chili  in a tortilla and  Jose would start laughing .     more to come                     

Update November 22, 2016  Who were Eric David Harris born April 9, 1981 died April 20,1999  and who was Dylan Klebold born September 11, 1981 died April 20, 1999. both of these young men had the devil inside them and from whom did they get money to buy the guns they used on their victims? These were two white young men with educated parents with money right  ?

Last night i watched the O J's movie. The one with  black  spoiled  lawyers  spoiled OJ and spoiled  white men all these men with too much ego. What repeats?  33year old person sentence said on movie 33 million law suit or 33.5 .e

Update November 22, 2016 on this last Bison game i talked with  a  white man named Robert he lives at the  Fargo High Rise his mother lives there too but in different apartment. That night after cleaning  the dome i gave him a ride. This was not the first ride i known him for a while so there has been other times. While we were  waiting for work orders he brought up the Obama  health care and his mother health and i told him about mine. First i will write about the one time i gave him a ride and he told me about a man lonely man at the Rise who had a cat  and before he died  he killed  his cat  and  if i am right the man wrote for both him and  his cat  be buried  together.  Robert sounded like if this was not right i looked at it in a  different way. To me the lonely man was concerned who will  take care of my cat once i am gone. This is a very sad  true story there are a lot of lonely  people who are alone and their best friend is a pet. Now back to health Care i told him i was in the hospital and  had surgery and I  owe nothing. He told me his mother had also been in the hospital and owe nothing but then we talked about what  now with Donald  what is going to happened to people like us who can't afford health care insurance. 

Update November 23, 2016 That is right God makes no mistakes! He knew what He was doing when He made me poor. He knew what He was doing when He made Ishmeal through Abraham and  Hagar  and  Isaac through   Abraham and Sarai  Sarah. But the only way to God is through Christ our Lord. now why do i say such thing? I am going through strange things that only can come from God. I was raised in a Christ believing home . i knew nothing about prophet Muhammad and the Quran  until now I've  learned  very  very little  bit of them hardly nothing. This is why i say i can not do it alone no works and or prayers of mine are going to save me from hell! i can only be saved by accepting Jesus Christ as my savior.   

Update November 23, 2016 Now about Thanksgiving, who are we to be thankful to besides God?!  The Natives the American Natives. The Indigenous for sharing their land with us to build churches and much more!  We should leave them alone stop taking what  little they have now ! Government  and church leaders what are you doing!? Do you think God is looking down on you with favor?     Update November 25, 2016 And remember the Natives were force to move on. On  foot in the snow now you might say it was not me who force and killed many of them. sure but now who is benefiting from it all who is growing seeds on their lands? who is building  homes? and now is is going to make money from this oil pine line? church leaders and government  you say you got used  to the free taking ?  church leaders didn't God said whatever you do to these little ones you do to me. Why aren't you doing something to help the Natives? Don't you speak about God every Sunday or American  Natives not humans like you and me ?many of  you have  invested money on this pine line.
Update November 26, 2016 now church leaders what are you doing to help the natives? nothing!? tomorrow i am sure  you will be telling your congregation all about what Jesus Christ wants us to be like, like Him right? but none of you are like Him if you just keep living your life as if nothing is going on at Standing Rock.  I hear people are getting hurt because they are protecting their land their water their way of living. You  people need to practice what you preach!

Update November 27, 2016 Today i read about  ND governor Jack Dalrymple born in MN but lived in Casselton ND and is said to be the 5th governor from Casselton, ND  who is known  by his family  having a huge farm nickname Bananza. Now how and from who did your family get so much land? Answer =from the NativeAmericans who were already here, right!? Why not just get some more and some more and some more, right!?  on December 5, 2016  to the problem  at Standing Rock is very simple you just need to move out of private property. This means someone else land not your family. Now why not do the right thing and be right with God?   Next how the word Bonanza repeats.
Update November 29, 2016 when I was  a child  we used to  live at  West Chambers street  there i met other children  one of them was one of the man who i was with the night i was framed in East Grand Forks  his  name was  Eusevio Davila Jr the other man was Fernando Balboa. Now both men i knew but i knew Davila  since childhood I knew his sisters and half brother Gilbert. His father Eusevio Davila was one of my uncles tenant. some mornings i would stop at their home to walk to school and sometimes Jr who was  one of the youngest child or the youngest child would start jumping  on a bed and chant " Bonanza Bonanza Picate La Ponsa!" English we knew very little because it was not spoken at home and school gave us a few good teachers the other was most of us children would checked out  early from school  to migrate and checked in late back to school.  The sorry thing we soft of got used to it and looked forward checking out early and checking in late that was our way of life. This memory  about Davila stayed with me and I mentioned it to my daughter but i never knew  why until i read about you  North Dakota  Governor Jack  Dalrymple. more to come  Update December 1, 2016 One of the TV shows we used to watched and learned words from  was  Bonanza   this is from where Davila  Jr heard the word Bonanza      

Update November 26, 2016 today I cried about another worry as i noticed i am losing hair so i looked into what vitamins to take and what to do about preventing hair loss. I read into shoulder  flu shots which up on till now i knew  nothing about  but one year I got my flu shot at Wal Mart on 13th Avenue South. and for a long time i had pain it still hurts but not as bad as it used to. Back then  if i moved in a certain direction  laughed  out loud or sneezed my left shoulder would hurt. Now every time i go get it i tell the nurse about the bad experience i had at the Wal Mart so they can go easy on me.  Back to losing hair i told my children one  said it was age genetics or both. I don't  agreed now even more as  i looked into vaccines. About a month  ago  i was told i needed to get the  Shingles vaccine  so i went in for the shot. Would losing hair be a side affect of the shingles vaccine ? I don't know but i am doing all i can do to keep my dark hair.

Update November 27, 2016 Here are more things that repeat. When i had  no idea why all these madness was going on in TX  had been going on in ND and elsewhere to clear my mind i would see only old movies Willy Wonka and the Chocalate Factory with Johnny Depp 2005 was one my grandson and i used to watched. Who was Gene Wilder born June 11, 1933 in Milwaukee Wasconsin  died August 29, 2016 in Stamford CT.  Released film June 1971.  Who is Johnny Depp born June 9, 1963.  One  of my  many favorite   songs "The Candy Man Can" 

Update November 28, 2016 Today like most  of other  days too much to catch up with. Now with this i am confused i hear some now US living here Cubans are celebrating Fidel Casto  death? But  then i hear and see many Cubans living here voted for a man who most lightly  in many ways thinks like Fidel Casto. I guess when you are raised in a certain way you become that way and you start liking it. And  why would anyone  celebrate someones else death? Sooner  or later  we are all going to die and it's not the dying we should  worry about its the where are we going after death. To hell or with Christ?  Now this is some things that for a long time i wanted to write. Fidel was one of my uncle's name. Fidel Fernandez who i understood took his life. Raul the name of the man who once was my husband and now his died. Now Fidel Alejandro Castro  has  a daughter named Alina Fernandez born 1956 . Sister Barbara has a son named Luis Alejandro nickname Alex. Raul Castro brother to Fidel Castro. There are more people on this family that their names are Raul Fidel and there is an Angel. i have a brother named Angel they also have a  Francisca, Francisca  is repeated  in my family. Later again i will  mention the name Castro from Crystal City and the name Loretta.  now here is the Cuban  song after La Raza Unida took over we used to song in the choir Guantanamera  by Jose Fernandez. And later by TV  commercials i  saw who was Tito Puente.
Update November 28, 2016 today at 2:00pm as i was watching Justice i saw Hot Shots in action and sister Barbara came to mind  when she use to tell us Reynaldo Rey her husband was somewhere in Idaho fighting fires . As i am thinking  the numbers 33  this is what  i understood repeats  1988 66 wild  fires and 33lost fire fighters. Yellow Stone we used to drive by, now  where did my children and i went to  with the Loera family  summers ago ? To Clarkfield, MN Yellow Medicine County.   

Update November 28, 2016 long time ago i heard You Dr Ed Young compared a hard Callus = toughened  area of skin which has become relatively thick and hard in response. Callus = Person. when it comes to the building of a learning Christian. I understood that it's better to start learning at a younger  age  because once you grew too old you are like a Callus with many layers of skin to get rid off it becomes harder to remove that skin (the old ways). I hear many ministers who think like Trump say Trump is a born again Christian.OK but look at who is one of the many who is  saying this hateful Jack Van and his wife and many other hateful ministers that all they preach about is against   Muslims instead of trying to be more like Christ they act more like the Devil And what age is Trump? now i read trump is compared by many biblical persons  here is another The apostle Paul who before was Saul. Now people please this was the beginning of  Christianity and God was electing His people from them came the Holy Bible which you can get free  almost anyplace if you want to and if you don't know how to read  you can hear the gospel. If trump has not yet  come close to Christ is because he doesn't want to he feels he doesn't need to but this is his big mistake. now who else loves trump? the new burning crosses supremacist KKK. i heard the leader say we are not equal to them. Leader says they are better then us because they are white. Many white church leaders and the KKK think God is white and only made white people to rule the world  more to come my big brother used to say
that in the future we are all going to have dark skin. Really for that white people  the ones who think God made you better  then other races?
back to Jack Van and his wife why don't you mention what is going on here in North Dakota about the injustices being done to the Natives? Why don't you and the rest of  church leaders confess your continuing  big big sins?  Christ was and is nothing  the way you live so get off your high horse and start walking!   Update November 29, 2016           

Update November 29, 2016 This is a good advice for Trump  and other people like him who like to make fun of others. My mother used to say something like this, "don't laugh or make fun of others because what you least  like you will have in your home your family or yourself." I hear people saying there is something wrong with Trump's son  because he looks out of touched didn't smille at the RNC. Clapped hands in an erratic way at a political party. Now i know only what i read see and hear and i am not a doctor so i don't know if there is something wrong with this boy but i do know this  because others  and I  saw  you Mr. Trump making  fun of Mrs. Clinton when she got  sick.  

Update December 1, 2016 because for me here in North Dakota its  looking so much like back when Mississippi Burning and Alabama Governor George C, Wallace i had to listen to these songs. Eve Of Destruction This Is My Rifle  other  songs by C C R  Doors Rolling Stones Cher

Update December 1, 2016 With all my heart I salute all the Veterans who are coming to protact the real Americans and their land ! Too bad for you goverment because you should have known by now  this is  not your land! What i can remember about Mr. Nelson  he said his father was a share crop holder but his father wanted his children to get educated because he saw more to come.  One  day one i asked Mr. Nelson about the natives if it was true about them  just getting  drunk people he defended them by saying it was not true and that they were hard working people and about their hard pass with the government how they had always had been abused.  Mr. Nelson said more but i don't remember what else he told me  i do remember he never talked  negative about the  Americans. i read today on newspaper is too late too late for who!? Just get these large tubes out!

Update December 3, 2016 President Obama you need to do this right away declare North Dakota Standing Rock a  National Monument! President this is your change to make a difference!

Update December 3, 2016 Sure John Hoeven  Jack Dalrmple and others you express sopport for the pine line because its not your land and  its not your back yard ! If the pipelines  should exploded  who and where would it hit first and most?! The Natives the owners of this land  the ones you hate and  for centuries you have been  trying to  get rid off for now and forever! I bet you even pray to  God, God  give in Hell please our God get red of them!" I bat you say "this is our land the land you gave to us where we can do as we please and kill who we please." I know these and much more wicked requests you make to God all in the name of  Jesus Christ!  Well I am here on his commend to tell you, you are  wrong! And as I am lossing my hair  my dreams are coming! And  sometimes it does   worry me  if am not right with   God so i do asked for  His  forgiveness. God doesn't speak to me like He did with others. I  only write what how  I  feel what is  happening  to me others and around the world.    Update December 4, 2016 And who are you to say don't to feed the poor!?

Update December 5, 2016 Attention! Do  not believe a word from mouths of Jack D  John H and others they are just putting on a show for the world to see. Don't let your guard down if Tramp took the house with lies so will these wicked people!  Lies  is nothing  for many  they used lies to get what they want just like the Devil uses lies.  Believe until you see large tubes(black snake) removed  and put far far away  forever and stayed away forever ! This  war is far from over!

Update December 5, 2016  Now what repeats? Several months ago i saw on Justices channel the story of  Sheila Bellush from Florida. In the school year of 1975-1976 in the south Valley I met a few Anglos Whites who were nice to me one of them was a girl named Sheila she even gave me her  school portrait. Sheila from San Antonio then Florida where she died. I remember watching her and her Quadruplets on the San Antonio TV news. I don't remember if it was after or before i saw her on TV I  met the brother or cousin of the man who was hired  by her ex husband to kill her in Florida. One night at the El Campestre Ballroom i met this man who asked me out to dance to me he was attractive darker skin than Jose Luis  El Toro but sure looked a lot like him. this man looked so much like Joey Del Toro that when i saw El Toro on TV i remember  the man i had danced with  at El  Campestre. In 2005  I told Troy  Florida and California were two states we never migrated to. After i was set up in East Grand Forks I couldn't keep my mind clear too many people were sent  to mess me up. One day as i was waiting for the bus i saw this man with sunglasses coming over to the shelter i knew he was  going to blow my mind and he did by saying he was from Florida and other words he repeated that is how i knew he had been sent to me. now next how Allen and Eusevio repeats          now back then  in Crystal City  there was a place called Las Tres Puntas   The Three Points     

UNDATED  DECEMBER 6, 2016 PRESIDENT OBAMA WAKE UP YOU NEED TO DO THE RIGHT THING  YOU ARE NEEDED HERE IN NORTH DAKOTA WAKE UP!

Updated December 6, 2016 for a long time i been wanting to write about this Crystal City woman Anna Maria Farias and now i will since she and Ben Carson have so much in common. both of these people were very poor and on welfare but both got  educated maybe one more then the other but both i say and they did  ate USDA foods later  more Update 7, 2016  these two  their life's got better while on welfare and public housing and now they  don't want others to get a good Head Start like they did with programs that the Democrat party provided one of them with a crazy  mental sick mother the other with a mother from Mexico still living if she is still alive at the Crystal City TX housing authority daughter working under  president Bush and still having her mother live in a welfare home provided idea from the  Democratic Party! more to come

Update December 7, 201 Now this is for false  Christian Franklin Graham and who he calls his enemy and who he and others are so afraid  of professor Larycia Hawkins. now what do you mean when you say Muslims and Christian do not worship the same god ? i wrote god small g . because when you Franklin say the same god it sounds as if there are more then one God. Get it!?   Now  what i understand is that Muslims say they worship the  God we  true Christians  worship and i think i am right. The Jews of course worship the one and only God as we do but they too like the Muslims don't  believe in Christ as we  the real Christians do. Now i call you Franklin Graham son of Billy Graham a false Christian just like i call the ones that burn the cross KKK false Christians because both of you do not speak the truth  do not act the truth you both are not acting like Christ and He is the truth ! You are not even trying to act like Christ because the devil is inside of you!! And about you Pope Frances if you said Muslims pray like Christians to the  one and only God Christ you Pope is or are  wrong  because Muslims don't pray to Christ  so how can they pray to the one and only  God if they don't believe that Christ died for our sins!? Back to the Muslim professor and other Muslims first and most you need to read the Holy Bible and ask God to help you understand the truth and next you need to start reading USA History to see how hard it has been for us and just look at the real Americans here in North Dakota! more to come       

Now what or who  is the Antichrist? i heard a preacher say it is a system i say its a system and a  way of living. i think  i he is right and my believe is a system that the 45 president is going to introduce to us !   Graham and others it is not a person  it is a way of thinking a way of life a way of ruling!    

Update December 8, 2016 Now Benjamen  Carson  born September 18, 2016 you are an African American. Some of the real  Americans  are here in North Dakota still trying to keep their land and trying to keep their  water clean !  


Update December 8, 2016 I don't know Pope Frances but you are WRONG! When you say we all pray to the same one and only God! How can these people pray to the one and only God through Jesus Christ if these people know nothing about Christ  which is the one and only God!? You are saying things that are not on the New Testament! Let me make myself very clear to you doesn't it say something like this ? I am the only way there is no other way to God but only by me!? Who is I am ? Jesus Christ! Isn't He !?  You mean to say that what Oprah Winfrey and Joel Osteen said there many   ways  to God is true  !?   Frances  what does it say on Mark 16:15!!!?  You and others should be preaching the truth  to the whole world and  not let them go blind !!!

Update December 10, 2016 Now because today  it is easy  for  anyone everywhere to be false witness and give false information  i apologize to the Pope if i misunderstood or read false news from the internet but if what i read is from your mouth Pope to others, "go your way with your beliefs" then you are  in the wrong because they are not in the truth and you has Christian leader need to do your job.     


Update December 9, 2016 Pope Frances so you mean to tell me what Christ did on the cross was done for Nothing ?!!!!! Are you trying to please to look well with  everyone by saying there are  many ways to get to the one and only God !!?  Now people do you see how the Devil is working his way around us ? The  Devil has  Franklin Graham working one way and Pope Frances  working the  another way. and both of you can't tell me NO because  both of you know what you are doing!!Both of you and others  need to get your act together !!!


Update December 10, 2016 Today on NPR i heard talks about how Jehovah Witness handle their  sexual abuse cases so i need to say. Now wait a minute just because i said i leaned a lot from Jehovah Witness religion  does not mean i agreed  with all they say and their beliefs ! But by reading  a bit from  their books  i did leaned more about the old  and new Testament but i disagree with them saying there is no Hell and i disagree with them on many other issues.  I  say i have no religion only a relationship with God through Jesus Christ. 

Update December 10, 2016 Is there hate racism discrimination at jobs and elsewhere here in North Dakota? Yes and  there has always been but it was not seen because there was no other race to compete with. The true Americans were kept far far away and kept quiet. Now again they are being  forced to move out when is it going to end?!! now i don't care to know if Hillary Clinton and  others  invested money on this oil pipe line but what is wrong is wrong and the government is again on private property!

Update December 13, 2016 Now jack van you mean to say you think there are more then one God! Update December 14, 2016 You Jack Van are full of hate for people who dress speak beliefs  are different then your! You say the bible says not to kill but in the old testament it says a tooth for a tooth and an eye for an eye.  And yes you are right on saying it says not to kill this is on the new testament  but you do believed in killing  you have said it yourself  that its in the bible  This is why you believe in having guns! You  jack van contradicted yourself a lot on  many things you say! now this could be because you are old or have a lot of hate towards others who don't look like you  speak like you (color language)  like yours.  But all these things  I  see  as  challenges for you  Challenges for you to think twice on how you think because i see it more as what do i need to do to have these people understand our God is the only God and the only way to God through Jesus Christ our lord.  And about other Gods here  again you are Wrong! i prayed to God about what you said was on the Bible that  there were other Gods and today this is a little on what i learned. Now you  read a few Deuteronomy 4:35 4:39 = besides Him there is no other 6:4-5 Isaiah 44:6-8   = I am the first and I am the last  Samuel 2:1-2 Samuel 7:22 Samuel 22:32   more to come. What i understand about having gods is that many of us can make money and other things our gods but in reality there is only one God. So Jack van if there are many other gods what do they control and what did they make the stars the heavens the earth?who are these other gods you say are in the Bible? Now the Ten Commitments  says do not  steal and what have the white USA done for white people like you ? they have stole land and brought salves to have you built the churches you have now to preach on.     


Update December 13, 2016 i am going back to a time i don't remember the year or the apartment  but i am thinking it might have been the Herald Square were i lived  the only thing  i  do know it  was somewhere here in Fargo where my sisters  Connie Maria and me were walking up stairs an in old  building and a man who i looked only from behind looked a lot  like my father and as i looked at my sisters who got to see this mans face they looked at each other     and later  they said, "didn't  he looked a lot  like father."   i remember wanting to see  this mans face but i didn't because i was feeling left out of my sisters conversations and i was up set with them and just didn't feel like talking to them.
 more to come

Update   December 14, 2016 Now the story  up  here  about a woman on a Jefferson line  bus who left her 7 year old  child  alone because a Somalia man named Mohamed Harir age 22 wanted to show her a movie  on his phone then she says he wants to show her  something she  thinks  was a knife but didn't  see and police didn't find and he most lightly didn't have . Now woman says she goes to back seat and man  takes off her clothing force her to have sex and she does it because shes thinking  but didn't see  he has a knife on him. Now they have sex intercourse  according   to woman. later after the sex according to woman who child left alone.  Man says to her  too fat and tells her to go back to the front of the bus where she left her 7 year old child alone. repeated by me because now  woman says she is a victim of rape. i read this story from the Fargo Forum and read it from the Valley news and if you the reader think i am a bad story writer you should read theirs who say they are professional. Now  to me who is the victim ?   The child is the victim not the mother as a mother you don't leave your child alone especially on a bus and sleeping! if i would have been in this situation  when my children were growing up  i would have just said if you are going to kill me  do it here  because i am not leaving my child or children behind and  going with you! another thing how can a man in a bus take off the clothing and still be on knife point knife on hand? i am sorry but this story does not make sense!   woman is guilty of leaving child alone she should have scream yelled get the attention of the bus driver do something and not just walked to the back with Somalia man!       

 Update December 16, 2016 today on South side of town i saw a  happy  black dog with a red collar    running and jumping  around  he had something on his mouth  maybe a toy  as his master was removing snow from their yard.  i started laughing and for a while i was happy  just to see how happy he was but  then i got sad just to know this dog was much more happier then me. and as to say its because i have sinned this is not true  i  know others  have sinned more and yet they are  

Update December 19, 2016  Today i would write about number 2  how it  was repeated on Justice and where i see it repeated here in Moorhead, MN but i started writing about what Franklin Graham says it wasn't Putin but God who intervene but i lost it on another computer and had to start  all over again. Now how 1 repeats   9/11/1956 now see how  here in Moorhead Window Wise repeats 111 next in Fargo where does 1111 repeats ?   
update December 22, 2016 this week somewhere in Fargo  i see a  book  free to take home  named 9 o clock in the morning. i come to library had seen a movie named The Nine Gate i checked it out  in this  movie  i see  stairs  that looked  a lot like stairs  i seen  here in a home in Moorhead.  The last time  i wrote  XXX. i was upset i also checked out this movie named Son Of Saul. Saul is a 1944 Jew prisoner under the Nazis he and other prisoners wore a long sleeve shirt with a red X on their backs. i had never seen this movie before to me it was very real    

Updated December 22, 2016 Here is what else repeats. Occurring to news Killer of Russian ambassador was Turkish policeman Mevlut Mert Altintas  age 22 fired some 11 shots with nine hitting ambassador  Andrey Karlow. My question is why and how did he got behind Andrey and nobody questioned him? Maybe because  he was  tall young  light skin and well dressed?

Update December 24, 2016 first of all Merry Christmas to all  

Update December 22, 2016  this is for John Hoeven   Update December 24, 2016     Hoeven, no problems with the North Dakota Natives all has been  kissy kissy hugy hugy  I love you, you love me we are as happy as can be. That kind of thing  going on ? Yeah right! Through Centuries  like it or not its been the governments  way! What is Homestead Act? it is land taken form the Natives to give  to the white people! you are used to taking taking  taking  with nobody complaining now that they

Update December 27, 2016  Christmas 25, 2016   we went  out to eat  at the India Palace  Restaurant which i know its on 13 Avenue south  but  didn't know the building  numbers were  5050. I wanted to try something different  then i saw a dish that had cashews and raisins two of my favorites foods  so  i ordered  Paneer Shahi Korma. The waiter told me i had ordered a dish that in his country was considered Royalty. Early today  on radio  i hear princess Leia  Carrie Fisher  born October 21, 1956  of Star Wars had died  December 27, 2016.     

I had also heard George Michael born June 25, 1963  had died  Christmas day December 25, 2016.    Today i came to library thinking about the time we were living in Colorado and i felt like listening  to a song i used to hear and wonder  about Raul the song was Lets Dance by born David Roberts Jones on January 8, 1947 died January 10, 2016  known by David Bowie. today i payed more attention to the  Video Lets Dance and earlier  today i was remembering one time i had gone to this church in Moorhead and

Update Tuesday January 3, 2017 Happy New Year! On  December  31, 2017 me and others like times before  went to work at  the Shooting Casino and one employee riding the Van with me  had told me to look up the meaning of the number 11 today i did but today i got other things i need to write about like the number 7. On January  first as i am on the Van with others waiting for late People  i feel as if someone is looking at me or trying to get my attention as i looked to the wall casino building  i see 777 which is the casino Hotel number. Today as i read a few of news on Fargo Forum i read about fifth year in a row 22 year old Austin  Bartz and brothers snow fish sculpture  masterpiece at  2777 16th st NW New Brighton,MN.  Bartz brothers accepting donations for clean water in African country. Now here what do the ND Natives want to keep !? Clean water!

Update January 3, 2017  next about Jamestown, ND  Lucas= Star Wars, cars  and when  home sewing was King.     When i was a child my father and i would visited my aunt Maria De Jesus especially  at our arrival from up North.  Most of the time she would be  sitting on a chair sewing for other people.    Updated January 4, 2017  Why Lucas  stayed in my mind.  Now there was a time when we went to visited my father sister and she was so happy with  her kitchen cabinets  she kept saying the named of the cabinet maker Lucas. more to come 

Update January 7, 2017 my opinion about the  Latinos father from Cuba  Menendez brothers but might think they are white they should be released from prison both parents did wrong yes also mother did wrong because there is no way a mother does not know what is going on with child and father. more about this

Update January 9, 2017 For most of us its hard to imaged or believed this horrible things  happen in  families but they do.  Most of the time if not all a couple to has to agreed with each other and in most cases the woman always gives in to the demands of what she calls her man. they are very few women who will turned her back on their  man even when she knows he is doing wrong. this type of women will defend her man against her or their children or anyone else. you see a woman has to become like her man if she wants to stay in the game of sex love money or wherever       Update January 10,
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and later my opinion about this other Mexican American woman from TX  Diane Zamora who David Graham says he was  taking  orders from love of his life Zamora to kill Adrianne Jessica Jones  which to me was and is a lie. Sure a white young man kills because a  Mexican American young woman tells  him to kill. I don't believe it.recently  I saw part of an  interview with Diane and yes he did it because he wanted to know how it felt to use a gun and kill someone. she should be released she did not kill David did the killing  

Update january 10, 2017 there is nothing wrong  no mental  illness with 22 year old racist Dylann Roof just good old hate towards black people and others just as Paula Deen  and others these people were raised this way they can't help it this is who they are.

Update January 11, 2017 I said it before i say it again, I am not  smart like judge Judy and i am not gorgeous like Sophia Loren  so this is what's on my mind. Today on radio i heard  a minister say " You Reap What You Sow"  I don't know what to think about this one because if  what we the people call the USA was stolen from the true Native Americans and yet we are  doing much better then others and blessed but mostly white people then why do  some people who do good try hard and know Christ can't get ahead in life and  then there's  people like Trump who is blessed with so much goods and as lived  La Vida Loca and still get's  ahead and becomes president and is supported by mostly white church leaders? Now these white church leaders that put their hands  on his head and prayed for him  voted for him  must think and act like he does.

Update January 11, 2017 earlier today when i wrote about Loren i didn't know her birthday now i do September 20, 1934. i didn't know about new news about Trump now i do about him having prostitutes for fun and sex paid  nude women to urinated on bed where the Obama couple had slept.now without seeing i did now he was the type of man that would want his woman to have sex with other women because him looking at Malania  would at least get his pines up to a 45 degree angel and make him hot. will now i see pictures where his third wife is nude in bed with another woman. this is  one of the things these pastor like  Franklin Graham  Jack Van Impe  Jerry  farewell John Hagee  and many other even women like Paula White love  about Trump.   this is called lesbian, right ? and john Hagee if you say you  know and believe on the Bible why did you like Trump left your first wife Martha for another to have sex with the other ?   about abortion and   Yes many men like this and much more from their women. it is said on newspaper where Maliina  is with other nude woman its human art no! its sex and sex sells!    

Update January 12, 2017  The eyes are windows to the heart and soul and  if you pay close  attention  you can tell  what lies inside  their mind. Months ago i told someone close to me  that Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu president of Israel had evil eyes. Now i hear his been  under investigation.  

Update January13, 2017 Today  what repeats my third grandsons barthday  January  Friday 13,  2017 his mothers barthday October Friday 13, 2017.

Update January 13, 2017 Trump  and others are trying hard to destroy what Obama did for  poor people on healthcare. Now we will go back to when a poor person went to hospital and went back home with a big fat bill  to worry and  the bill would go to credit score and if  there was the car you needed for work now again no car no house and maybe no food because you need to pay your medication.  So for these poor people that voted for Trump don't get sick  how are you going to pay for your big fat hospital bill? And let  me tell you, you make him very happy. So if Muslim men and others  voted for him because they would not vote for a woman be happy you got  what you wanted. 


Update January 14, 2017 for most of my life but not so much as a child  while traveling  up here by car or  bus i knew when we were closer to our summer home just by looking at the shy. I  liked to  look up to the northern shy to see the  clouds to me they looked  different then the ones in the  south. i know the sky is the same all around but  for some reason  they seem different then when we were moving south . Yesterday while driving i heard on radio a pastor preaching  about  Christ's return. He said Mark 13:16 At that time people will see the son of man coming in the clouds with great power and glory. Back when we  were done and driving back home   i know we were closer to home by the sound of the  crickets and warmer weather.

 January 14, 2017Its been a while i know as i look back to  places my children and i been and to  all our suffering i   realized  God  wanted us there and now here.  Otherwise how could i had been able to write what i been writing . Psalm 121:8 the Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go both now and forever.  i also have people watching my coming in and my going out. i don't know why God allows this and other  torments  against us. Last night i charged my phone at 3:30am  was ready. That  same night driving home i had passed by this address 320 & 330 2nd Avenue south . Now just like at the Shooting Casino where 777and other sign (later  i will  write about). Update January17, 2017   When this happens i am drawn to look that way like a magnet that won't leave me alone until i look where it wants me to look. Today i am driving  on 8th street south coming to Moorhead library going north passed Mc Donald's  i looked back a a right  clock  sign it reads  3:33pm.

update January 17, 2017 John Lewis said "I don't see Donald Trump as a legitimate president"  and i second that emotion.i would do the same not show up and here several reasons more to come

Update January 17, 2017 Last night my daughter and i went to see and hear Shaun King a young man with so much wisdom. He said this and much more, " The progression of technology does not translate to the steady improvement of humanity, they are not one and the same." Now where Point of View  you don't understand?

Now lets go with Martin Luther King 111 how much was the $ sign because its not once or twice or three times Donald puts his foot on his mouth. He  does it all the time he says what he feels what is inside his dark heart now what  is the part you don't understand?

 Undated January 17, 2017 Now about the wife of the killings of Florida mostly Latinos she knew what was going on with her husband yes she did.    now  on radio i heard a Muslim say now that they are here just as they had to learn     


Update January18, 2017 now anyone who wants to go the the Inauguration should go but me if i could go i wouldn't go because he does'nt represent  me he told me so by  the words he said about my Raza. Obama is president and will be known as a president him and his family should go Bill and Hillary should go too. anyone who feels his words  don't matter should go but i even if i had the money i wouldn't go. once i am told i am not liked once is a enough for me.        


Update January 18, 2017  I hear Muslims want Trump to stop Franklin Graham from speaking at his Inauguration? What !   First place who are you to tell your president who should speak !? You come from a country that most of all of you believe in the same religion speak the same language and  most of you have same skin color BUT still can't get along  with each ether. Then you come here many Christians are very good to you and some  feel  very sorry for you  this is why they are nice to you because of Christianity!  So what makes you think Trump will even listen to you!? He is your 45 president because people that think and are like Franklin Graham voted for him and i bet many Muslims did too like many Mexican that just got fix and other Mexican Americans that don't like being Mexicans how God made them to be but don't like themselves voted for him  Muslims you know jack you  know  nothing about how hard its been for many of us who have been here all our lives and through generations! read History get smart!     Now Obama you should have said the next president should be an  Native  American . Now Graham is the   the perfect person because he thinks like Trump. Update January 19, 2017 i am born here so was my father and we are Mexicans this means just like the Natives  we were here before the white people still we are getting to find our way in this country. We are still treated as if we are the ones who just got here. I remember one time as we were driving to somewhere up north  this could have been north Dakota   Ohio or Wisconsin but we had stopped at a restaurant and my oldest brother who was the driver and was hungry got off and he came back to the car as fast as he could and told my father there was a sign that read something like this  '"We Don't Serve Mexicans."  as fast as we could we drove away. i am glad we were told how they felt  about us. better to know because who knows what they would have put on our foods if they would have not told me how they felt about us.

Update January 21, 2017 last year I  read about a  Muslim woman  in Rochester MN named  Regina who went to a restaurant complaining about a sign that said  'Muslims get out of this country." she took them a card and flowers. Why do such thing !? i was born here but if i see a sign with such words i say to myself, thank you very much for letting me know! And i just move on and i tell my love ones not to go to that restaurant. I like to know who is my enemies  i sure don't want to go into a restaurant with people  wearing a big smile on their faces  but have hate in their hearts and will spit on my foods. Even with my own people some i don't trust and i have a reason cant to. Now what repeats?!  The name Regina. if i am not mistaken Regina was the name of one grandmother of the Juarez children and one time when i was a child  we were all gathered at a house i think it was Maria Juarez house and this old lady the Juarez called grandmother named Regina was cutting meat on a kitchen table because she was making Tamales this was in the old neighborhood which now is the part of Garcia's Park in Crystal City. Now Regina from Rochester, MN you can't make someone like you the only thing you can do is pray for them  and why  would you want to hind  reality how life is here in the  USA from your children? But  thank God its much better then where you came from, right ?  Now talking about things getting worst for certain people like me . One special  day back  in 2005  my daughter and i went to Black Rocks in Mexico which is very close to where we used to live in Texas. Boy did we had a hard time crossing  streets. Now how the Dakota USA is going backwards looking more like Mexico that is if Pedestrians have no right to cross a street and if run over no big deal driver drives away.      

 Update January 21, 2017 now why is it  that Trump has been blessed to the Max and looks so mad and angry?  now God has blessed him with many goods even preachers are on his side and we all know  what kind of life he has lived sex here and there with  lesbian women has had more then one wife has lied to many talks bad about the USA government.  asked and had helped from Russia on his behalf and won because of it and much more now we are going to see if God keeps blessing him  and lets him keep   having  it his way  more on   Sinatra     

Update January 22, 2017 if its  true what i read  but find it hard to believed that white women don't kill their unborn babies as much as Hispanics and black women  is not   because they are not having sex but  because white girls get  fix  at a very young age.       

Update January 24, 2017 Now back in Crystal City i don't know if it was 2006 or 2009 before i left town i bought a  postal stamp of frank Sinatra i liked it so much because its where his wearing what looks to me a blue hat just like the ones my father used to wear and my father also had blue eyes  now one day i think it was in Ohio i was at Melendez home and they had the TV on when i saw his daughter Nancy dancing and singing with boots on the song these boots are made for walking for then on i knew i was going to ask my father to buy me a pair of boots and later when i got a bit older i did asked him he took me at a store in Crystal City and bought me a pair of white boots  something like the ones Mama is wearing on the Mama and Papa musical  video. the store my fahter took me to buy those boots was Bracamontes Store.Update January 25, 2017 Just yesterday i found out  Frank second name was Albert today i just found out his daughter second name is Sandra  these two names repeat and today around 5:15 5:30pm on 13 ave south while driving East i saw one car MN plate 222 another car ND plate with  777. 777 made a  right  turn first then second car  222  made a right turn too. Nothing new these are just a few  things i see  this all the time and at first got me sick because i didn't know what was going on or by whom by now i know t has to be Him.

Update January 25, 2017 Drumpf = Trump like many people who come  from Mexico and other countries change their names and many times even  their age depending  on what is more convenient at the time they're  making their home here in the USA with the  real born Natives Americans.  Now Drumpf =Trump you are the winner why still so mad? You won you are their president and so far you been very blessed. now i read i write very blessed is Trump now lets see if God is going to keep blessing him with goods. i know my life will not get better because of Trump because to me Trump is speaking to people of his color not my color. when Trump talks bad about people from Mexico him and others like him  are talking and thinking about me too i look and speak like Mexico but i am not and i should have more rights to land like the real Natives but like the real Natives I have none. Now Tomi = Tomasa  Lahren if you don't like it here you can leave you and your family can go back  from where you came from for me i have always been here Texas  was part of Mexico.

Yes, so we are to see if God blesses Trump even more Trump is on the spot light where he likes to be             update January 28, 2017

January 25, 2017 now this past week  ND  lost a good  Blue man on action.      

Update January 26, 2017 Today what repeats ? I did write about Tomi Lahren now my paternal grandfather name was Tomas= Thomas i even had an uncle named Tomas. Now one day Raul was showing off he was having children with his live in girlfriend so he wrote us a letter and i am sure he and his girlfriend named one child Tomi.  Raul didn't know about my grandfather's  name because  i never mentioned it to him when  we were  writing our parents and grandparents  names on our wedding book. this might have been because i wasn't sure or didn't remember.  Growing up every time my birthday got closer i would looked at the year calendar and wished i had been born on a special day but Nada  = Nothing  was on my  birthday date.Then one day i checked it and  i saw Grandparents Day  i was still disappointed because i was still a child in Junior high far away from  even being a  mother.  Now did Raul ever loved anyone ? i don't think so because he named his first child  he had with his girlfriend Mary Alice after Maria Alicia Lomas a Crystal City girl he had met before he met me . i know his girlfriend never knew about it but he had told me without me asking him.     Later how Lomas repeats  

Update January 27, 2017  today i heard this song  That's The Way I Like It by KC and the Sunshine band and every time  i hear a song by them i remember back in 75-76 school year Red Light in Edinburgh, TX
next about Megyn Kelly on her period and Trump on her nerve about blooding from her eyes nose NO Trump her Vagina just like your mother did and your three wife's did and all the women you had sex with did and some still do. and your daughters have. Now why Tampons Pads should not cast so much and should not be Tax. women have it hard as it is and many young women can not afford to buy pads every day of the mouth this is something that women can not control. Back when i was in school many young girls would skip school when they were on their periods.  when i think about menstrual  i  think about all the Native women who back then were ordered by the white government to walk away from their land to make it a white land owner. The suffering of   old and young  women  on their periods blooding  and some with small  children walking on the snow with nowhere to go and the fight is still on no justice for the true Americans.        Update January 28, 2017 after listening  to a song i have liked so much today i just found out what its name is  Sultans of Swing. i just had to write these  words, "and Harry doesn't mind" and yes i knew two Harry's

Update January 29, 2017 I was  wrong and just  remembered like the song double 4 time  i knew 4 Harry's.  Chelo's son Harry Sr and grandson Harry Jr around my son's age. Teresa's Son Harry 11 and grandson Harry the 111 February 3, 2017 what else repeats ? Harry 11 has a daughter named Barbara who he called Barbie.     

Updated January 29, 2017 This is for Pantarosa I mean Omarosa  this week on The View. Now  first you are an African then you are an American. You need to learn this because the first thing people like your beloved  Donald Trump (that you say you  bow to, I only bow to the one who made me,)  see is your skin color. Nothing wrong with that as long as treated  as any other Human which we know that is not the case. And i hope you do marry  have joy and your marriage will least.  Next about Mary Tyler Moore  i used to watched her on TV and hear the Cat

Update January 30, 2017 USA!  Damned If You Do, Damned If You Don't! This is the way ISIS and others who want to see the USA in chaos. This comes from the ones who hate our ways of living!  we need to have this kind of surport for our Natives  brothers and sisters here in North Dakota.  Now Primo Enrique Pena Nieto why in the first place did you met with Trump? All along he wanted to force you  to pay for a long tall wall this has  been his  dream. What you need to do is help your children so they  will make their dreams come true on the other side of the river. Now  excuse me with my spelling.

Update February 1, 2017 people one of the things that hurt me the most is that here in North Dakota the white government  is still what they please with the Natives the true  owners of this land. they are still being push to the limit! the white government is still abusing killing destroying  their land and their water . White government   that came from far away now and then say, "this is my land. " when  it's plan to see God did not put them here by birth they came by water long time away and killed took away what was not theirs. Up to now up to this day they are still pushing them to death then i hear these white pastors preaching how to be like Christ but as far as i know Christ was nothing about stealing and killing. now this past week i heard one pastor  talk about a nowadays  song about killing the authority. now what was one song that said "I shot the sheriff but i didn't killed  the deputy"  Who sang this song was it a Black man was it a brown man?  No it was a white man! But nothing a white man does is bad   in the eyes of the white people. Its funny its holy its good its learning and its mental and its not  even a sin its a mistake. But listen  if he happens to be  black or  brown man his guilty!   now i just found out it was written and sang  by a black man but as far as i know Eric Clapton made it a hit why because his white.     Next about killing babies and children  nothing is done because they  are worthless.anyone can kill a child and its as if they killed an animal not even animals have more rights. so are we looking good with God ?next about Mexico and the USA


Update February 2, 2017 now with your new president things are getting worst , right ? But doesn't the Bible says like the song Mama said  there be  days like this, there  be days like this?  Now what's  up with Donald and his temper  hanging up conversation  phone calls? Remember  I mentioned  a man from Australia stopped at a field we were working  on  asked what kind of work we were doing on the sugar beet field? I saw on news hateful church leaders were with Donald supporting love to hate for others.  This is their  new picture of Christ.  F. Franklin and others Trump is nothing like David and Moses on the Bible but he is very much like the Antichrist the Bible talks  about  update

February 3, 2017 Who is Milo. Y? He is a man who like some woman  disputably  wants attention  from the public so he blushes his hair blonde and   wears earrings.  What happened at the University of California was set up by him and other Trump  supporters. He asked who else is  hilarious ridiculous  comically? The KKK who wears white bedsheets! About his eyes ? His got the gay  queerest wicked evil wired hateful  look. And no i don't hate him i am just repeating what he says   about them self.
Update February 3, 2017 Today what repeats?   In 2005  I came to Grand Forks, ND with a man i knew since childhood last name Ramirez  Mistake Fuentes nicknamed Bolonia = bologna . A few days later he and another man i also knew went to asked me out to town.   The other man was Pedro Pete Falcon both from my home town. Falcon was ex husband to May Rodriquez.   Update February 4, 2017 mistake on Falcon first name i think its Lionel but still not sure for now back to that night  when Juan Jose Fuentes wanted to show me the town but i didn't feel like going out and i wanted to spend time with my two grandsons so i just went  downstairs  to the car to say hi to Falcon who at the time was staying in a downtown apartment and working somewhere i don't remember where. Falcon   and Jose were closer friends i knew him very little only that he had been married to May. now Juan Jose and his sister years before  had come to ND  with their uncle Antonio Ramirez and his family to help us with the sugar beets fields. Update February 5, 2017 I still don't think i have gotten Falcon first name right but this is what i remember about him. his first  Rosa Luna cousin his got like an Afro hairstyle curly hair  cut.  now what is a Falcon ? A bird. Next about drinking getting drank in  bars the then and the now with what i knew more about my Race how now a mix drink anyone any educated woman can go in a bar and its OK. the Cantina the Cantinera the woman Bartender. how people see this nowadays. now who i came to the Bar  to Fargo was people from Crystal City and my oldest brother. Juanita Serna 

Update February 4, 2017   As i watched Justice i see so many cases that are being solved by DNA  Evidence and i remembered this Luke 12:2  Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed , and hidden that will not be known . About  11 year old Jacob Wetterling Rest In Peace after 27 years case is solved.  Today  i see  other things  that repeat. At that time two men were Person Of Interest but one was more then the other?Same first  name? Innocent  Daniel Rassier music band teacher about my age?  Danny Heinrich  the killer. St Joseph  Hwy 75 and Hwy 2. A tan Monte Carlo car? I am sure back in the eighties i came with others  to a Bar somewhere here in Moorhead or Fargo named Monte Carlo?  Not sure. Other things that repeat Dr Miller my eye doctor  Salena Q Perez at the Miller Outdoor  Theater.                  
 Update February 7, 2017  this is what repeats Falcons coach Dan Quinn born September 11, 1970 . 

Update February 6, 2017 Trump! You hit the nail! The USA is not so innocent this one you got it right because you know it ! On this one I  give you 100%   for being honest and not a lair!  now this is the interview with O Reilly about   Putin.

Update February 7, 2017 Tonight i just had to watched one of my favorites  shows  The  Middle on ABC. And wasn't Saturday Night Live funny? I was laughing so hard i thought my surgery was going to burst for the second time this time not for an infection but for laughing so hard.    

 update  February 7, 2017   Now about Bubble Boy Trump he might be right on refusing to be everybody's  daddy or

Update February 9, 2017  For quite some time i had the moon on my mind then i heard on the radio about the Lunar Eclipse. When i was a child sister Barbara  mother and I used to go visited Mrs  Maria Juarez  and  her adopted niece  Belia Juarez. i always noticed the moon was bright as if it was there to give us light as we walked back to our home which was about two or three blocks from their home.as we walked out their yard  mother would say something like this good night and until tomorrow Barbara and i would repeat what mother would say to them. This would go on twice or three times but many times the moon was out i would turned back to see it somehow  i felt scared.  Time goes by  this was somewhere up here  i was sitting on the green pasture as i am looking up  to the moon  my father cames closer and sits with me. i asked my father  how far is the moon he said very far away then he went on to say more about it until i told him to stop because something about it scared me and so he did he kind of smile  but i know he  wondered  why i felt that way.   

Update February 11, 2017 next about  Maria Victoria  La Criada Bian Criada  Mexican comedian and what Fox told TV Fox news about USA wakening   up  this is where V    Fox has it wrong Mexico needs to wake up for his people ! my father used to used to say it was a


Update February15, 2017 Trump says that if he uses the word FUCK like Vicente did people wouldn't like it. What is worst, you Trump saying you could  say you  kill someone and still be president! let me tell you three Trump  Pena and Fox you three people and other presidents don't give a Shit about others  only yourself   and   people around you who you love because they are rich like you  and on your side! Mexico is very rich in soil  Mexico and have abundantly for all Mexicans living in Mexico just like the USA!  But  the Mexican government just like Trump  wants to see the poor stay poor and the rich get richer!   Mexico  your people are hungry feed them  and they will stay there and not bother the USA! yes CACA am i upset  after hearing you   yes i am  Update February 16, 2017 now what repeats? Vicente Ruiz  from Crystal City was Raul's friend and classmate. One day my aunt Maria De Jesus  told my father her daughters had taken her to see Vicente Fernandez   in concert and she told dad Vicente F looked a lot like my brother Luis. Shooting Star is a place i will never work again but this is what else repeats highway  MN 59 that was the age i first i was sent to work at 59 years of age. on my way back i see 11 road and 75 road and on this town Update February 22, 2017 Sure Santo Santo Donald Trump you don't used dirty words  but you like to touch pussies without permission.   


Update February 19, 2017 Yesterday i felt  so discouraged and upset because of the way things are going in my life and the life's of the ones around me.  So my thoughts were  i am going to complain to the One and Only i know knows what is going on.  At that time i was parked outside People's Ready  building on North Pacific Avenue and i am looking at a sign i seen before with these words The Door Christian Fellowship Church. The word Door was the one that caught my eye. I drove to St Marys Church  on Broadway not knowing doors are closed on Saturdays. As i am  walking towards the door i am thinking You know why i am here i am here to complain and as i pulled the door to open the door was closed.  My point is God knows what we are up to He reads our minds. this i know but just wanted to mention it. the name    Update February 22, 2017 Sears and Kmart closing? i also have a true stories about those two. In 1978 in crystal City Sears  I bought my first washing machine in  2005 or 2006  for a while i worked at the Kmart store in Grand Forks, ND.  i remember  what       Update February 22, 2017 when Olson kept my license and tow my son car it went with my social security  card and was given to an illegal from Mexico who used it  when i went back to TX i had to do a lot to proved it was not me working somewhere in Colorado  and other states this was not fun i had to call very place this person was hired i had to sent papers proving it wasn't me working at those places . it  also was in a green leather  hand bag  my  daughter had given me was my mothers ID USA citizen ship card. i remember going with her through   president Clinton  flag colors and when she would get me confused and had me repeating the Mexico flag colors  red white and green in staid   of  red white and blue. 


Updated February 23, 2017  now God know HE was going to have me alone so He got brother Luis and others to show me the way, the way to what? The way to take care of a car so He had men telling me what to do in-case of a felt tire and other car problems. No i have never enjoyed doing this but i had and have  to do it no chose this is all Gods doing and if i complained too much He might tell me what he told Job Where were you when I  was building the stars?  And much more Job38:4.  Yes He can have me have it but i ask Him for Marcy. One day Sandra and i were going to Crystal City coming from Uvalde we had a  felt  on my car i stopped about 7 miles rest area. Sandra. G asked me you are not going to change the felt tire are you?   I didn't answered her i know i had to because that day traffic was slow and i wasn't going to wait for a man to stop by so i got off the car with high  heels and a dress  opened the trunk   and i might have asked her to help me get the tire out from the trunk. Now this was the old fashion   jack but later i did change tires with the new one the little one i really didn't like i had gotten used to the old way. Update February 24, 2017 now because now i only have enemies or could have been i never had friends people who i knew will say what i write is not true but it is  true i had to learned  many things like unplug a toilet fix the toilet if its wasting water paint put  motor and transmission  oil on car and just by listening  to the engine i know the car is good or has a problem.  and i know a bit about plumbing and many other things i had to learned. now in 2005 just in a innocent conversation i had  with Troy Lawrence that i had a friend who her father was sent to prison. i knew very little about this i  knew  only what Sandra had told me because it was during for some reason i was out of town and i only  knew what  Sandra told me. Sandra told me it was shown on  48 Hours. i told Sandra  i knew nothing  of what she was talking  about because i didn't. now i don't care if Sandra or anyone else i knew really liked me but i do have to say I liked her father to me he was a nice man very time he  saw me he greet me with respect and i know i got the job with Crystal City Schools  because of him putting a good word for me. So what i know happened was that ND lawyers were feeding  lawyers in TX  on everything i  said and did in ND.  and then i knew nobody liked me and i don't care if this is true but now i know even my children are treated unfair. and this is something i can't run from its everywhere we go. update February 27, 2017 if only God would have made it easier for me to write but He didn't so here i go again now unplugged a Toilet with a regular plunger  is easy harder when you need to use a snake. now what repeats? ND Pipe line = black Snake . when i moved my mobile home  plumber told me he was going to need an    Update February 28, 2017 i really don't remember if it was 48 hours or 60 minutes. Now  this past Sunday i started walking Fargo's library but then i got a cramp on my leg and i felt gravity was pulling me down so i walked back going towards McDonald and i see these  numbers on the door 220 now i am sure it was that day earlier  i had   watched  the most evil people on Justice and the highest number is 22. today i am writing about   Betty White on a picture she came out on TV weeks ago she is wearing a heart necklace just like the one an admirer gave me when i was in junior high. now about crosses   George Micheal  is wearing ear rings with a cross i got a carnival booth picture with earrings with a cross but smaller size.   Update March 9, 2017 Everyday i have a lot to write but very little time about 2 weeks ago i was working at Sears or fargo dome  here in Fargo don't remeber where but i started singing these words, biggie biggie can you see some how your words Hypnotize me. The  woman  who i was working with  started laughing so did I this morning i wanted to go to work at K Mart in  Detroit  Lakes, MN  which will be closing his doors but my rear lights were not working so i had to stay behind anyway this morning i heard the song plays  on NPR  radio station and i hear its been 20 years since Notorious Big was killed and about the same time Tupac was also killed. what repeats ?         

Update March 13, 2017 Trump you said, " I just found out Obama had my wires tapped." and you said a bad man sick) guy. Trump from where or who told you this? Or you just like to move your mouth? Now  like my brother used to say, can you prove it? now you have to prove it by saying who told you or how do you know or stop lying. This is for Ben Carson i am reading a very good book about  you and other black   people like you.  How you got here long  long time ago and back then black people like you were brought here as slaves. Ben next time i will write the name of the book so you can you buy it.                  
Update March 14, 2017 last night my daughter calls tells me about the author S.E Hinton who wrote The Outsiders when she was still  in school. first what repeats i went to get a haircut i see on a picture at the hairdresser station  numbers 22 and a 5 later more to come . she was born July 22, 1948. Tulsa Oklahoma we  and many other TX families for many summers  would passed through  Tulsa on our way here and back to TX.  This past week I met another Robert here in Fargo.  Robert Frost =   Stay Gold    more to come

March 14, 2017 several weeks ago a young lady on south University Y asked me if i knew what God wanted from me i told her no God doesn't talk to me she said yes the Bible. i been thinking yes God tells me He is by showing me things that repeat but i was hoping  you the people would know what His saying to us because i might not know all the Bible but i know many of you do and still i am alone because i am the only one going through this. i see and hear my children having a hard time getting ahead in life just like me and i see and hear the world getting worst but anyone of you can see it too.  What is Gods purpose what is ahead  i really don't know.i just know He is doing what He wants to do very little of what i asked.  My problems I take to Him He gives them back to me and sometimes with a plus. The old problems are still there I just ignore them  is nothing I can do.  The word Gettysburg again i see here in Moorhead and i think about the dreams i had way before i know i would be coming this way.
Update March 17, 2017 One day when my children and i were living in Colorado i got a call from the Oral Roberts ministry i was asked if i wanted to make a testify to make a Christian Testimony  i declined  because i was no where in my life where i wanted to be my children  and i were going  through horrible times. My husband hated me with passion  so did his siblings. the things they did to us were not kindness.  (But not as bad as now because back then all i had to do was moved and there was no more pain) now what is very hard for me its that  now i understand it was God who wanted these suffering put on us and i understand there were and will be people who will suffer more then others but what bothers me is i don't know the purpose. and the other is He gave me no one to go to for answers to what is going on. i see church leaders just wanting money           

Update March 15, 2017 I like this song "I feel it coming" and when i hear it  on the radio it sounds a bit like Michael Jackson. now Espejo = Mirror there is a doctor here witht he name Espejo that when someone told me it first i didn't believed it.

Update March 16, 2017

Update March 18, 2017 Now because i feel the way i feel has nothing to do with faith. i know i have had more then a seed of mustard but still it is what God wants not what i asked . i never  ask for luxury  i like many i know am content with very little but still that little many times doesn't  come. i hear songs that say take it all and many other wonderful words of giving it all to Jesus but these i know are just songs there are very few of us like this person  who i had in mind and heart for a long time  to me she is a  Martyr  Miss Kayla Muller. Even Peter put to the test he failed. Now  i know Satan  has to be putting these thoughts in my mind but its me writing how i feel and see life. Update March 20, 2017 now if it was back when father  big brother and baby brother and mother  i was still home no way i even came close to saying or knowing words now i know and must use to express myself on what i write. Now about  trumps  right hand Kellyann Conway how she is sitting on the Oval office with her legs opened and taking pictures on black men as they celebrate black History. i am not asking her any questions i know she will not answer me or anyone else she dances around her answers but i am going to say this or these whatever. Anyway i was looking for the word pussy in Spanish and i was given the word Cono now i have never heard this word before and pussy i heard Albert D L C used it before that time i didn't know it ex or what it meant i thought it was short for cat or baby cat.  .  Now Conway to me knows what she is doing she wants attention from black men she is saying you men try to see if you can look at my now i don't know if i am spelling  it right  in Spanish but i am going to do it like the local radio Mexican Update March 21, 2017

 Update March 21, 2017  Now Conway its not so much you feel at home its that  you want black men to look at your gray blond head  hair and see under your dress to see if they can see your  50 year old pussy  but looks more like 60 pussy face. You know there will be those black men who will love to see if they can see some of it if  not all down there. Now this will make your husband think about it and make him hot for good old  sex . Right ?There is nothing wrong with the words i am using your president used them before i knew what they meant its on video.   Now I know these words are on the dictionary. About  Obama he was in his home he was the  president at his home he is a man with pants on not a guest with a dress on! If he wanted he could have been with shorts on  and his feet on the table as long as he was doing his job ! What is trump doing ? his is companion for 2020 and still haven't even started working for his 2017 job! The rest of the world is laughing at us for having a clown in the White House and now what picture is his daughter going to play in the white house? Go have sex with her husband!? Get with it  religious  people  times will get worst with this man in charge!!! Before you will know we all will be running for cover! now what repeats ? Oval office perfect face shape ? Oval face. Obama is said to have thrown a football in the oval office? in 2004 at the Grand Forks, ND St Marys church i saw this and didn't like   more to come now about president Ronald Reagan being so good person? he never went to war and wrote and told stories he did what a liar. he was having sex with other women who he was not married with one of them was Nancy. So Tony Scheving  from Fargo Baptist church  who still needs to shake  off his hateful evil  ways  likes to talk  bad about Catholics. so much about Ronald wearing his suit in a warm oval office. And yes i do have something that  repeats with this too.  To say we have Christ in us we have to prove we are in peace with all people not just with some.    

 Update March 22, 2017  In 2004 when i went to Grand Forks,ND  i went to mass several  Sundays  at St Marys church. The first time i went to this church when the Mass was over one of the alter boy ran to the front as he was heading towards the door then what might have been the priest or a   for right now i am going to back up a bit. late  night show S Colbert passed a football to Obama in the white house on the 50 Superbowl game from TV to Obama. i didn't know this until last night but this has to do with what i am going to write about what happened in 2004 inside the St Marys Church that i didn't  like because this was a church house of God God's House more to come and next Update march      


Update March 21, 2017 Today like many days before i pause and wonder about this. In this whole world God made not even one person i can or could  go  for comfort? I am truly alone to figure out what He wants from me? There is nowhere to go for answers i  only  have people around me playing with my mind pretending they like me. Now i know God can do better because He did according  to the Bible He gave all His  Biblical people  more then one person they could go asked questions let them know when they were doing wrong and gave them many women they could get intimate with  because mostly they were men, His first image . its even written He had the longest conversation with a woman. now God knows how He gets to me when i remember the cross what Christ asked God, "why have you forsaken me"  since the first time i read this from the bible it gets me very emotional many times to the point of crying. maybe because many times i have felt that way and i am not Jacob i don't want to fight with an Angel or Him i am too weak for that and i don't want what others have i just want my own. 
Update March 22, 2017 My mistake i  am truly sorry  I apologize President  Ronald  Reagan did joined the USA military.  i did say i was  learning as i go now about Conway i know all these was done on purposed just to get attention on Obama putting his feet on the white House  table and this was a a distraction for less attention on  Trump accusations on Clinton when he said luck her up and Russia look into Clinton email   many other things he said to get other people in trouble.   

   Update March  21, 2017 Now about abused children that parents don't want who are even killed why there is so much of these going on. These children don't have a voice they can't talk they can't defend themselves. If they are born to hateful parents they are to born to suffer since day 1. No law rights for them very few people care to do something about it. This is why when a parent or parents kill their child or someone else kills a child the person or persons  walks they don't serve time in jail. If they do its not for a long time. A little person is not worth the time in court. This is why grown people kill children they know nothing is going to happen to them some will even say it was an accident. All  the time  i see it on TV news people who killed children get away with it.     

Update March 22, 2017  Birthdays  I forgot  March 2016 M&M candies celebrated 75 Anniversary. Here in Fargo , ND Peace Lutheran Church on 1011 12 Avenue North also  had a 75 year Anniversary.

Update March 23, 2017 Now when Trump says Mexico sent the USA its worst this is not true Mexican government does not sent his people here they come because Mexican government don't care if his people eat or get  sick. So  his people just come here and i hear there are a big Million  amount of people here from Mexico now they asked themselves   did it get so much out of control? Well many rich people like Trump were and are getting richer with Mexican chap help. Now Fox and Pena and others before them should be ashamed because they don't provide for their people and i know Mexico can do better but only they the rich wanted to still rich and talk and look down on the poor people just like Trump and many others here. now i myself and many other Mexicans born here we  are treated like from another country. later i will write how and where 

Update March 24, 2017   age 27 2+7= 9  Everyday i have something new  from now  or  from back when  to repeat.  i was watching  People magazine about the stars who died and they mentioned the ones who died at age 27. On that same day or the following  day  i go pay someone  $23.00 dollars  with a $50.00 dollar bill i get back $27.00.  Just right now i find out Amy Winehouse was born September 14, 1983. my daughter was born September 14, 1979. 

Update March 25, 2017some time ago i read on the news paper a man having a hard time finding a woman. The way i see it men have it easy all they have to do is make a move men are the hunters most men if they want a certain type of  woman all they need to do is start a conversation and they will get somewhere to see if its a yes or a no. But for most women its hard because all  a woman can do is try to look as pretty as she  can be and wait and wait if there is a man who thinks she's worth  asking her out to  dance  or start  a conversation or  just be friends.  A woman can't go up to a man because if she does he just turns spoil. Now when a man loves a woman he will do all he can to get her read the love story on the Bible about Jacob Leah and Rachel. When Jacob saw Rachel he kissed her and started crying for he knew she was the one he was waiting for.  but what happen to poor  older sister Leah? he never loved her even when she had all those boys        next about  Abraham and Sarah i heard  a preacher  say that it was Sarah who make Abe go to bed with the housekeeper. what a lie a woman tells her husband to go have sex with another woman i am sure she doesn't have to say it twice! but yes always men blaming the woman for what men like to  do.

Update March 28, 2017 Now Jacob had 10 sons with older sister used by father to work out Jacob for 7 years then again Jacob  worked 7  more years to get Rachael who i believed was having a hard time getting pregnant but then came the one i can relate to Joseph then came baby Benjamin which makes the 12 Tribes of  Israel . yes father insisted of giving  Rachel to Jacob he first gave him  Leah. now who was Jacob? He was twin bother to Esau. And what were they all? Cousins.  i am sure we can learn a lot more  from the whole story but one of them  is that when a woman loves a man it doesn't  matter it matters   when a man  loves a woman.  

Update March 26, 2017 today after another hard day with evil people at work i am reminded by  someone remembering forgiving  person Anna Frank who was just a child with a red heart to say words i find  hard to say. "I still believe in spite of everything that people are really good at heart."

Update March 27, 2017 The night in August 2016 when i got sick that night i went to the emergency parking lot at Sanford hospital on Broadway  i waited outside for about 10 to 15  minutes before going on because  i didn't wanted to go inside i knew i wasn't going to be treated fair but i kept vomiting  so i had to check in see why i was having stomach problem. growing up i had seen how hard it was for a single mother without a husband i had seen how poor and lonely it was for the mothers and how sad it was for the children. but i didn't know that even the people the world besides being poor the world also treated these women so bad until i became one.  Never again I  want to go back in needing a surgery it was a bad experience. i was sent home to go back to work but i knew something was wrong on the 7th day i went back to see why i was all red where the surgery was done to me it looked so stormy red. the Dr said it was fine and if it would burst not to show up at the emergency  just to clean it up and wait until the following day to go in. About 2 days after it did burst and i had to go in there was all kinds of fluids coming  out of my stomach. for the second time i was there again one and another Dr made a wound about a bit bigger diameter  size of a g  ball. later i will write what happen before and after but in between when the head dr was talking me what had happen like demons three other Drs  were cutting a piece if Gauze on top of the wound laughing at what they were doing while the head Dr just kept talking to me. i became worried that pieces of the Gauze  would go inside the wound.

Update March 29, 2017 checked in too late to write any information i have i mind too much to write too much to correct and go back to but not enough time. Best Western Motel in Fargo their  decorations are word   bears hanging on their windows

Update March 30, 2017  Here are some of the words and numbers that repeat. some of you people say Oh my God. i mostly use "Oh Chucks" March 2017 as i am driving my car somewhere in Fargo  on the radio i hear  Chuck Berry dies at age 90. 90 is a  number i used for a code. leaving us with songs like "No particular place to go" You never can tell and many more songs  shows where he does his dancing moves.   Days  go by again i am on the car with radio on when  i hear Chuck Barris form the Gong Show and the Darting Game and other games passed way at age 87. Some time ago don't remember  when  i went by this address and  today  i went again 383812 Ave North here in Fargo.

 Growing up weddings i attended and was witnessed  to when i was about 11 or 12 i really don't remember but a bride asked me to hand her the gifts  this wedding was in Wisconsin.  Years went by and here in North Dakota  i was asked  to be godmother Frank (Pancho)  Ramirez and i were Godparents to an older couple who needed to wed by the  Catholic church.  The one in Wisconsin i was pictured on the newspaper with others at the wedding. Anna Frank on her last days was caught on camera watching down from a window a wed couple. here in North Dakota someone took a picture of us at the alter i have that picture. and i still remember the peach dress that Angel my brother told me he liked how i liked and liked the long sting of  long neck less white  pearls i was wearing that came with the dress. and i remember what the bride Perez  said to me  she said she was told  she had to look much better then me. i thought that was funny  Update March 31, 2017 the bried to be was years older  then I i didn't know the world i didn't know why Perez would was saying that to me i think i was a Jr high student didn't know about anything yet but now i know that some women do want to look better then the bride today i think about it its in a way funny but back then i just didn't know what to think didn't know why she was saying that to me all burn from the sun being on the fields that is all i can remember that bothered me.

Update April 1, 2017   Brother in law  Jose Barajas married to sister Maria used to say if a woman is going out with a man (now mostly i would say he was referring to  married man) if the man doesn't marry the woman  within the courtship of 2 years he is never going to marry her. When a man loves a woman his going to marry her as fast as he can because in his mind his thinking some other man might  come and take her away from me which these things do happen. A married man can say and do many things because he wants to enjoy the sex his having with another or other women but as long as he doesn't put a ring on it and gets a divorce its all just air coming out from his mouth.  Many women just don't care they just  want a man to say ( i got a man) so if  this is OK with  the outsider the  intruder  having sex with a man or a woman  who will never deliver they will keep going  until they get tired of each other or bigger problems will come along.     Now i had seen and heard some of the bad and good my sister and brother in law had gone through to get where they where before they both died. Let me tell you they both worked hard coming up north to Wisconsin sister working at a bottle factory  in law working rolling  grass yards  in the  fields.  most of the year they would stay in Wisconsin i think they were only about 4 or 5 months in Texas then back to Wisconsin. They married very young i don't know if Maria was 13 or  14 and  I think Jose was 19 when parents married them. Jose would laughed when he remembered what mother told him to do to Maria if  she misbehaved. He said mother told him to beat her up as i write about this i am laughing too. My Dear poor mother was raised by a not too nice stepmother i know this had to do with how she was with us but i think she was even worst with me later i will write more about mother and i.

Update April 4, 2017 now i never heard my mother say not one bad thing about her stepmother but the way she especially treated me she didn't have to i know my mother had it bad and when i met cousin  Lula Pena Salazar when she and her husband Nick  from Michigan would visited us i started understanding my mother but my mother loved her stepmother very much  growing up that's all she knew . i remember the day my mother got the news her stepmother had  and she was crying. I asked my father why was she crying he said she had just gotten the news her stepmother had died.                   


Just last year i heard the news about the couple in San Antonio who had worked hard been married for more then 3 decades and husband was died. This couple i would say but don't really know because i don't know them worked hard to get where they were when husband died.  the wife had met her future husband when she was 16 then i understand married at 18. but husband like many husbands had a weakness liked  having sex with other women. i heard the mistress was trying hard to drive wife crazy by pushing  all the buttons she could to make wife leave husband. As i am watching her on TV i can see she doesn't understand why after husband being unfaithful to wife doesn't give up and divorce him was this because she could not get him to divorce her ? Now why in the world would a wife just walk out on an empire she helped  husband built  had worked hard for would just let another woman just walk in and take all goods wife had worked for? I read the wife got 2 years in prison i say mistress should also go to jail for intruding in his family. And well we know where husband is because of his infidelity but maybe it was his time to go we all have one. Anyway like many  husbands  took wife too many problems and talk about STDs. because remember this  woman don't asked  don't care because she says  it's not of her business  if man is married or has been around with many others.  Once back in time when i was staying with sister Barbara we went to see a friend of hers. Friend was in bed just released from hospital at that time i really didn't  know about STDs because i was still far  away from falling in love with Raul  and having sex but later i would remember what Barbara's friend said that it was her husband felt. i don't know if she had lost a child or something else i just don't know. Back to wife she needs to ask God for forgiveness  forgive herself and  mistress should get a job ask for forgiveness  fun days are over and about youth if you think 50 is old then you need to stop living because everyday we live we are getting old the body is getting really for death.  First  we need to know we are to love God with all our heart soul and mind. this means He comes before our parents husband and children and with this we leared to love them all.                                                 
Update April 2, 2017  One day  my  father and i  were going home after visiting Maria and Jose and father knowing that they would stay together forever father told me  he of a time they were having problems and that he asked Jose something like these  if he was still in love or love Maria Jose answered yes that is all father had to know to know there was still  hope in their marriage. Sex matters but sex it not all that keeps a couple together there has to be love. Love between a woman and a man is the most important. A man can be high on sex with  a woman  a woman can be high on money while it last but love will be there forever if it's love first then sex. and father asked Jose because what matters   most is that a man loves a woman that is sad for us women but that is so true.  u
Update April 3, 2017 No people  it wasn't all Bill's  money she was after it was their money! Widow was having his babies cleaning the house doing the cooking and much much more plus putting up with a spoil man who sometimes acted like a child.  She says what? She  forgives the widow? That is funny.  and who talks like that ? Giving in to his what !?    Update April 4, 2016  now she says they needed to kill unborn child because of medical health reasons but she goes to road  where man dies to  show Crime Watch  where she   says  there goes her children her future and who knows what else shes thinking her money? Is she confused or contradicting  herself. now here is a word to learn Fornication = having sex intercourse when not married.   


Update April 5, 2017 Once my mother  sadly told me about when my father and  one of his sister don't know which one maybe Maria De Jesus had  gone by her home after my father had asked my grandfather for her hand in marriage to go to town to buy a bedroom set. My grandfather told my father said no because they were still not married.  My mother often would  tell me her wedding dress was beautiful i would asked her where are the pictures she would say the film got burn. Later in life Lula told me that on my mother's wedding day my grandfather didn't even came out to celebrate the wedding. Lula also told me that  at first my grandfather had refused to give my mother in marriage  that her father being the oldest went to Crystal City told his father my grandfather that if he didn't let them got married Lucio that was my uncles  name  he was going to take my mother to Michigan with him but no more was my  mother going to continue washing baby  diapers and taking care of  his children he was having with his second wife.        

Update April 1, 2017 this week i got a letter from Minnesota Revenue their address 600 Roberts st., St. Paul, MN.

Update April 5, 2017  This is only my opinion. I  don't understand what is going on in Syria i think it's their own government killing his people. If this is true Syria has been killing his own children is because  Syria government wants to start a fight with the USA and so do others. These counties know how weak the USA  is when it comes down to children. These counties are always looking for ways to get the USA in involved even at the cast of their own people.  By giving their own people a hard time Syria government  knows they  will need to run somewhere else and other counties are going to open the doors to more refugees. and about Trump  saying Obama should have taken care of this problem is nonsense because this like many other world problems are not  that easy to  solve. Now lets see how Trump is going to solve it .



Update April 6, 2017 In case this was in indirect  to me this is for a local pastor i heard on radio talking about we should not compliant  to God. Let me tell you a bit of how i have prayed to God.  I give him thanks for the good and the bad.  I know He is He there is no other and i do fear Him.like most white people you have lived a very comfortable life you know that if you work


Update April 7, 2017 My mother always said whenever you help a person don't expect something in returned.  the Bible also says something like these don't ever let your right hand know what your left hand is   doing.  and also something like these.  when you do or give something good don't let  no one else  know  your reward is with me.  Now i am a woman that has and will give a ride to people some  and many times i don't asked for help with gas or anything else i just do it and sometimes if i see a person needs a ride i asked that person if they need a ride. But lately its been much harder for me to get around to make rent payments  pay light bills to pay car insurance that and much more. If i don't have i just don't go or i walk  but if i have i don't asked others to help me or blame others for not helping me when i can do it myself . On this day at work i was looking straight to the date number 6 which was the  on the wall.     God knows i have helped as much as i can whenever i can and if i missed some i am sorry. But one thing i do have i don't like to be told what to do with what is mine when i know others can  do for themselves.           Yesterday i went looking for work stopped at a temporary work agency i waited for a while  noticed it was slow i had  checked  in late past 9:00 am as i was walking out one male employer  came out told me he had just gotten a called from a workforce on 12 avenue and 39 street north and asked me if i wanted to go work there. i said yes he also asked me if i could give a ride to a man i told him i would but that he needed to help me a bit with gasoline.Now this man who already had a card work sheet  how did he get to the job where he was at ? i wouldn't  know because i am not his employer i am just  like him an employee but like in other agencies i know i am getting paid the least for doing the same  as others job. now at work i noticed he never came up the me asked me if he needed a ride so when we were done i thought maybe his slow minded i might have to asked him so i did  then he asked me if i was going back to agency i said yes. Thought sometimes when its just me and job was dirty  i  go shower then  i go put up check. so i tell this man he needs to pay $6 he says its too much that (agency said) it was only $3 dollars. (Now i know this is kind of funny but it is also serious).  So i understood he wasn't going to need to ride back to agency. i go home shower then go for check. When i get to the agency an employer asked me where is the man, according to the employer  i was supposed  to  ride man back to the agency. I told employer i told man he needed to help with gas man didn't need ride.  Employer asked me how much did you asked him to pay you i said $6  Employer said What!? Why so much!? When city bus only asked for $1.50? i didn't have to answered  one word to this employer because  my old run down used 1999 is not  his car!  If he so much cared  about his employee he has better cars more money for gas to go pick up his owe employees! I am not responsible for his employees i don't get paid for that ! And if the city bus only cast $1.50 Why asked me why demand me to give a ride to a stranger !?This is why . Mat bus only goes to 32  St north he would have to walk 8 blocks to get to the job. Then employer tells me i am a very bad person and he goes on and on tells me something as if they are doing me a favor  by giving me work i said yes but i am also helping you by working for you and i am thinking and getting paid the least and having  to give rides to people and told what to charge!? No Way!!! The only reason i am still inside office is that i am waiting for employer to pay me my money.  and at the jobs all jobs i have to put up with all the garbage around me. two more  things i can remember about that day he said something about me having more unfriendly people i thought  to myself get a number and get in line.   i know this agency and others in town pay car drivers if they are taking other employees to work but not me i only get to hear and watched it happen before my eyes.      more to come

Yes pastors you have it  made so you are the ones that should not compliant to God but be thankful that  very day you and your love ones wherever they go or you go and wherever you apply for work will not be harassed you will get paid what you deserved  be liked a lot by all people around you now that goes for even most refugees and people from other counties that are illegally here and working with who knows social security card. Pastors i hear that in the near future that will be more Muslims then Christians if this is so is because you are not doing your job! Muslims need t5o know Christ did not talk when He was a baby and that no one else took His place at Calvary it was Him alone who paid the price  for all our sins they need to know these and much more.     now later i will write about how bad it was for me when i had two surgeries done one after another because Dr did not listen and because  i was literally kick out of the hospital because i was told the bed was needed 



Update April 8, 2017 About what adulteries Nikki Haley caring so much about babies being killed in Syria  I bet she doesn't sent one penny to her  poor native land of India to help poor people of her kind. Now why is now  Trump saying he cares for so about what can be and will be Syria USA refugees?    Trump wants a war so poor Americans can die and he becomes famous? i am  asking  because here at home  he is taking away  food for the poor. and surly he doesn't care about his own  poor USA children it's all about him attention to him. and about what John Hoeven told ND  point of view Syrians don't want to come to America that is a lie all poor country people want to come to the US.  i         
Update April 9, 2017  This morning I heard  what happened with Christians in Egypt. The Isis sure have the devil inside their souls  they don't have the prince of peace Christ our Lord .

Update April 9, 2017 In Crystal City the first people i know from India were  two good  doctors Maya Varshney  and her husband i only knew by Dr Varshney . Several  times i was seem by Maya.    Mr Varshney operated my Mother and oldest brother Luis . I don't know if this couple came to the US ready to work or if they came as students but if they came as students and stayed here they both did'nt had to pay back to the US goverment like most of us do. This is what i saw was worng when their daughter graduated top student in Carrizo Springs of couse coming from two parents who were doctors she had the highest grades . Their daughter was giving i would say because i just keep reading  on newspaper almost or all scholarships which that is fine with me but the government if they came as students paid all their schooling so why not just say to the school administration we don't need  these money keep it and give it to other poor  good students who are more in need ?    Update April 9, 2017 Is OReilly and Trump twins? they sure like to do the same things . and don't compare Queen noor of  Jordon with meliina and her husband Trump.   her husband is just 9 years older     


Update April 10, 2017 Because  graduation  is just around the corner i will write what Maria Martinez heard or she  knew what happened the year cousin  Olivia Lara graduated from high school . i don't remember  what i read was her graduating year but i do remember seeing her picture with her classmates on the new high school.  Maria told me that banker Williams was not happy that his daughter was chosen Salutatorian. Williams went to the school board or whoever make those decisions and told them which i know back then had to be all white men about his daughter  not Olivia should be the valedi but he was told and shown no way Olivia had ranked the  highest.

Update April 11, 2017 this past Sunday my daughter and i went to see Unspoken Casting Crowns and Danny Gokey on concert at the Fargo dome.  Our first time to see  Unspoken and Gokey but second time Casting Crowns. Concert was  refreshing i needed  a spiritual night out  with some of these songs i remember some  days and nights  at the farm songs like East to West because at night  when  i would go get cold salty water from the red pump  and  i would walked a bit more  and stand for a while to look at the  lights shining from the  East and always wondered  how it would be like to live in Fargo and Moorhead, MN.  Praise you in the storm i need to hold tears back it reminds me when we were  all working in a field and a storm was on his way and we had to run to the cars but it also reminds me of the hard life that looks if it has no end.

 the day cousin  Juan  and his wife came to visit us in a field were working in a field that is on the straight road        


Update April 13, 2017 My oldest brother had  more then one operation  so i don't remember when he told  me he was giving Morphine for pain but i never forgot  what he told me  how bad this drug made him feel.  After surgery at  i told one RN  not to give me Morphine i thought they were going to write it down somehow they didn't later  comes one of the night  nurses putting it on the tubes suddenly i am feeling funny asked what   was the painkiller  she stood far from the bed and calmly said Morphine.  A few days  after first surgery i was told (and its written on my released papers) i was ready to go back to work i knew this was not true because i had to use a walker and i was feeling weak  no way i was going to be able to walk not even sit for a long time on a welcome customer chair because my stomach was  still not well and how was i going to stand up if i had very little strength. i knew something was wrong but by doctors order staff  wanted me out  and they were all  together on this.  One night nurse  i requested not to treat me because she   told day time RN  i had told her i didn't need any painkiller because i was doing very well. Next  morning comes daytime RN giving me hints i am doing so good because i no longer need painkillers. it wasn't i didn't need them i never  was asked   female nurse  never asked me how i was feeling.      


Update April 13, 2017 Did she first got a paid leave vacation ?  why was special aid teacher Sheridan Titista told to resigned? Right away she should have been given the number 5 just like at the Crystal City, TX Del Monte factory. The 5 meant you are no longer welcome to this factory.  I will tell you why she was not fired. She is white with blonde hair blue or green eyes. This woman and many of us need to be careful with our words and actions regarding children with special needs because who knows  God can sent us  a daughter or son  with disabilities or  even grandchildren. These children  are special  and beautiful  they are sent to us for all of us to take care of them. We are to defend them from people who think like her. Her words were not mistakes she just said how she felt. I don't know why she was teaching a class she doesn't like.  Maybe she just wants to be in the news and  wanted someone to  put her picture out there so everyone would see it.   

Update April 13, 2017 Remember superman? His second wife was a beautician.   

Update April 15, 2017 One day Maria Martinez told me what i understood could teach catechism.    She gave me cassettes to hear the new testament  she also gave me a new book she wanted me to read but i never had time i was always  too busy.  One day In 2005 or 2006  Troy Lawrence had that same book i don't remember if he told me he had checked it out at the library or he had bought it but most likely he checked it out.

 Updated April 15, 2017Right now I was remembering before 1986 I had heard heard or read that this was one of the sings of things to come when all churches all religions would come together.  i am remembered this happening back then and again i thought about it today.  Today as i am reading about the catholic church and i am looking at what really happened in 1986  when John Paul 11 invited all faiths to united. now this is NOT what Jesus Christ told us to do!!!  what i  understand by read this is that the catholic church leader is the Antichrist i don't think it it i know its a system ot a person! this is just part of that system what happened in 1986 is just part of an Antichrist system.  by telling people you keep your false faith just don't bother me is not what Christ     Happy Easter to all           

Updated April 17, 2017 now i know too little about mother Teresa but i don't like what i am learning about her because if i only have to be a better Marta why then do i need Christ ? i have tried to be a better Marta and always i come short i just can't do it. If  it's true mother Teresa though we could stay with our false beliefs and just be good then she really didn't know what Christ enough to say we all need to go through Him to get to God . then she was saying Calvary didn't matter  it was just a show or like what the Muslims say someone else was c             now yes she helped the poor did a lot many like many of us should do but she if what i am going to read to ture she did'nt sprand the good news. Update April 19, 2017 what mother Teresa did was very good but if she only helped the poor  and not preached the truth then these people were not  saved. Updated  19, 2017 correction  it wasn't ET i saw half naked people it was on The Doctors show


Update April 18, 2017 i know you the people are repeating what you are told to repeat or you are repeating what the devil inside of you tells you  to repeat but  i will tell you what happened on Easter Sunday. I went by two brothers i talk with once in a while . I have been to their home before but i wanted to ask on one of them about a  person's last name i still don't know. As i am parked on the street and i honk  i noticed they have the same house  numbers my parents had in TX 310.  I am going home i looked at my  hand watch the  time was 7:11 pm. On Monday i am at  Hector's  Airport in Fargo, ND and as i am looking  at all kinds of body shapes and sizes and thinking how we the people cover our bodies with nice clothing no i wasn't thinking anything nasty I was just thinking how our bodies would look without clothing and i thought clothing covers our bad body  imperfections. Later that day  or Monday night i am watching Entertainment Tonight and almost nude people of all shapes on TV.   On Sunday  when i went the that address i wasn't thinking the following  day  i was going to be at  Hectors Airports. one of the man that lives at 310 his name is Hector. this is just one of the many repeated things that has  happens to me if i had the time i could write  many more                                 Later about the dream i had about a church bomb and other buildings bomb    

Update April 20, 2017 Today its a good day to start writing what i saw in Greeley,Colorado when i first got there when i  was living on the poor side of town that was on the north  side if i am not mistaken. When you are poor you are poor everywhere you go it followers you.  Am i right is it Marijuana day here in Moorhead ? Let me tell you about  Juan Jose = J J  who in 2005 gave me a ride to Grand Forks, ND at the time  he was living in East Grand Forks. Back in the seventies he bought a Cheech and Chong record named Santa Claus and his old lady J J had everyone laughing at the farm. Back to Greeley where i rented an apartment where i will called on main avenue because it would take you  to the Mexican Bars a park grocery store and public services.  when we first moved there was a man who wanted to be a woman so he would dress up like a woman  and he walked  strange  later Raul told me he was having body operations to look more like a woman. i felt so bad for this man or almost a  woman because he looked as he was hurting having a hard time walking and i always saw him alone in his apartment.  later on i met a woman named Laure she also had a strange story to tell me later i will write about her. now there were about 4 men from somewhere in Mexico that moved in beside me and one of them was dating Laure. this man had told me about a woman who had many children and that she would let them all smoke marijuana to me that was so strange to hear that he thought  i wasn't buying it that and for me this was scary to hear that a mother would give her children  a drug son one day this man told me you need to come over to my apartment

April 22, 2017 i went in and i saw the mother her children  i think were all boys from ages of not sure but maybe 6 or 7 to maybe the oldest 15  I really don't remember.  They were her children sitting on a bed smoking a joint I  didn't  know what to think or say so i just walked out as fast as i could to me this was not normal. My oldest bother was the only one who was so spoil he would go home drank  making a lot of noise but he did his drinking at the bars or in the car not in front  of us but that  for us was enough.  No my father was nothing like that big brother just leaned along the way he could get away with it.           

Update April 22, 2017 Never before when we as a family used to come to this part of the north had i seen so much trash in the streets but then  there were less people getting messy. 

Update April 23, 2017 This morning i went to La Unica for tacos  this Tex Mex song was playing "El Amor Se Acaba."  (Later about Selena and her Fashion Boutique in Crystal City). Back then for a while i worked with Lydia Sulica when she was married to Juan Sulica. Now i never liked this song because for me if love ends it means there wasn't any love to begin with something like these is   written on the Bible  about love never ending.  Didn't like the music to dance to. Didn't like the lyrics to listened to.  Lydia sure liked  a lot so did other people. This song  was played way before her marriage  to Juan would fall apart. During this time Selena music was everywhere and her songs i did enjoyed  more to come

Update April 24, 2017 Last night went walking for a while but got tired still trying to recover  from  surgery. i stop sat on a bench looking at the Chinese Restaurant their last 4 phone numbers 8989.  Update April 26, 2017. 89 are two of my new phone number.     


Update  April 26, 2017 now  because i  know nothing about Mother Teresa I  wanted to know who she was just like i want to know  about other women shelter and food panties here were named after them  here in  Fargo Moorhead but  for now  i  checked out a book about Mother Teresa to see if what is said about her is true and i asked  myself who was Mother Teresa as i read about her life. Now i can relate with her on some few things but about doubting  there is a God i can honestly say, NO! and about her thinking she was doing the poor a favor by letting them die in pain  because  Christ died  in pain i say no way! Undated April 27, 2017  I remember watching Mother Teresa on TV with poor people from the land of India but was always to busy to listened to what was going on i thought she was helping the poor and i still think she was but i read and hear different this is why i now i need to read about her life to understand who she was        

Update April 27, 2017  I want to know who was Dorothy Day who was Native American Gladys Ray interviewed  April 22, 2004  why are food pantries and homeless shelters named after these two women.    
Update April 29, 2017 Now did my big brother deserved a transplants  kidney? Absolutely Yes ! and I can give you many reasons why he and many other like him that worked so hard on many prison  fields should have and should deserved the best medical science can offer but we don't!   Later i will write why so many of us don't get to live a long healthy  life. Back then it wasn't easy jobs like  today working  inside  a Wal Mart store and we didn't got nothing for  free   

  Update April 29, 2017 Thursday i saw a woman i know from crystal City talked with her for a little while   told her i was going to the Mall to get a second ears pierced. i see her car  i tell her its a newer model than my 1999. Now i get to the Mall to the  ear piercing  station  is a sign that reads something like

Update April 29, 2017  Pilo Rivera was one of the men my brother asked to come helped us out with the fields. Pilo drove from TX  a green Mustang car i am not sure if  Pilo gave or sold the car to a  white man who later i heard had  fixed it up.

Some people might think i know exactly where they live but i don't.       

Update April 30, 2017 Pilo had lived with his grandparents in crystal City most of his younger years but  later don't remember if it was before or after his grandmother died  he moved to Washington with his parents.  One day my oldest  brother Luis showed me a post card Pilo had sent to him. the post card was a picture of 1980 eruption of Mount St Helen's Volcano.  If i am not mistaken this is the state my grandfather Pena was buried.
Update May 2, 2017 What repeats ?

i have none memories  of my grandfather  Pena only seen him on pictures he looked a lot like a Historian Native American Indian in his older days but i do have one memory of my mothers stepmother named Maria  one day in   Austin, TX. This is what i remember from my childhood.

Update May 1, 2017  i was just a child but i was  learning fast  how older people could take advantage of small people. learning what was child labor and not get payed and not get to eat what i had worked for .  One day i was in Austin in a car going  somewhere with my mother aunts cousins and what later i would learned was my mother's stepmother. then we stopped in what looked  like a big park with tall trees. then we the children in the car  were told  to picked up pecans.  

Update May  2, 2017 i know i was small because i couldn't crack a pecan  i asked someone to cracked it for me don't remember if I asked mother or someone else.  When we were done getting ready to leave the park inside the car sitting on the left  side of me was a fat woman with big arms  i was in the middle of her and my mother.  when we were riding to that park  i don't remember hearing where we were going or what we were going to do until we got there and were told to pick pecans. This is what i do remember up to this day the woman later i would know  was my mother's stepmother said in a loud voice in Spanish something like this, "Do not eat any of these pecans they are all for my children in California!"  Now way later in life when i question myself and got a clear picture of what went on that day i thought to myself   her children  my half uncles and half  aunts were way older than us children from TX. Her  grown childern by then were already parents  her youngest son and my big brother were born about weeks or a mouth apart.

Update May 3, 2017 As i looked down to the left  side floor in the car where Maria was sitting there was a sack about half way full of pecans  we the children and grown up had picked for her and her children.  i know i was little because the pecan shell was too hard for me to crack and we were still living at the old neighborhood where now is Garcia's Park.  when maria spoke i noticed nobody said a word out of respect or fear or both don't know.
Update May 4, 2017   I wrote about two  Pena uncles married to two sisters. Juan Suliaca was married to Lydia. Lydia sister also married a Suliaca but during the time i working with Lydia her sister and brother in law separated. Later when i stopped working I  heard Lydia and Juan had also separated. One day  Lydia told me that she and her sister had talked about what if something like this would happen.  This was the day i showed Lydia  a letter  Raul had sent to me about him having children with Grace Guzman.  Here in Moorhead sometimes i drive by church named

 Update May 4, 2017  Last night on Night line was about Honduras men killing women. I think i only  saw  this woman  twice and talked to her once she  lived by Cometa road in Crystal City not sure but  i think  Olivia Rios who lived across her told me a man  from Honduras she once was dating went inside her  home killed her in her bed then  killed himself. This is a very sad true story her little  daughter was dropped off by the school  bus  found her mother died.        


Update May 4, 2017 Just now i am learning about  another Marta  from Mexico who my sister Connie knew because they worked in the same place  at the Crystal City  Manorial Library but I  don't think Connie knows what i am about to write about her and what  repeats. Martha P. Cotera. Before La  Raza Unida my  sister Connie  was  library  assistance  to an orderly white librarian lady don't remember her name       

May 5, 2017 Night Line:  What devil  monsters  parents  should  be right now  in jail and if the law doesn't  put them in jail the law is as bad as these Ass Holes no good  mother fuckers !  Don't give me that "i need help, shit!" Stupid lasy father  get off your white ass up go find a job which i know you won't have a hard time finding one to feed your 5 childern you brought to this world! Next time just don't have sex or cover it up when you do !  You   clown stepmother go get a job too  your  crying is just a show! Boy, people like you make me get mad!!!  this is the way you talk to your chidern this is the way you are to be treated!


Update May  6, 2017  Here is something i always want to mention but always forget.  Please give to St  Jude's children hospital and other children hospitals.   

Update  May 6, 2017 Today like many days before  i wanted to write about  my sadness and loneliness and catch up on what i have already started but can't because  without even thinking about it  I  started watching  a Video of someone who came before me who God  blessed  with the gift of writing. This made me sad close  to crying because i can relate to who he was and what he wrote.  His name was Dr Tomas Rivera from  Crystal City, TX.  Now  when i wrote about Pilo Rivera i wasn't thinking about Dr Rivera but this is the way its most of the time so now lets see what repeats.  One sunny day in San Marcos, TX  my sister Concha( Connie) and i were sitting  on chairs outside on campus  T S U  waiting  for my daughter  who was busy with her first  school year registration and we started talking about what if our life's would have been different . I told big sister something i  wished i  wanted to be but knew at the time was impossible.
May 8, 2017 i told Concha i wished  i could have been a writer and could have  write about my life and other things in life  she always had so much pride and  always embarrassed about things like that that she quickly said no not me.   Update May 15, 107   now at the time i was just talking because i knew it was impossible for me to write and i knew i wanted  to write about fun  things not what i am doing now.  i had to forced myself i had to become someone i never wanted to be.  Right now i still don't know why i am doing what i am doing it's no fun being me. Many times  i  would  rather just be like all of you just go through life  but i know i can't . Now  i know in a way back then  i was just predicting my life ahead of time.       

Update May 8, 2017 Another day and more to catch  up to.  Back when i worked as teacher's aide with Mrs Gloria Escamilla  i never thought about who was Tomas Rivera but later years  i did go see the movie, And The Earth Did Not Swallow Him,  with my daughter . Just right now May 2017 i am learning more about who he was but in school my daughter and other students did write about Tomas. She and other students went by Tomas brother    Henry's Auto Body Shop to asked about his life. My daughter team placed third but  i know her team did much better and should have placed first. About what is Papa grande i didn't know because  i didn't get to know my grandparents to call them such word i only know the word  grandparents in Spanish but i did hear Sandra used it when one day she asked me to go visited  her mama grande. At the time  i didn't  asked her what she meant by mama grande until we walked to Sandra  back yard to the other street and got in then i saw her uncle Lupe brother to her father then i understood. it's been a long time i saw the movie but what little i now have watched there are many things that repeat.  I know Tomas was having a hard time understanding God like   sometimes i do.  Now lately I been  saying i don't suffer because of my sins. Sure i have sinned  but all we have sinned and some more than others way more than others. Look at Trump his  sinned way more than me and still his got  way more goods that i do. i know its not because of my sins i suffer but because God wants me to be in certain places       

Update May 6, 2017 Now TV people  don't get so excited about a chicken playing a piano. my brother Luis loved San Marcos and when driving  by coming from up north  going back home to Crystal City sometimes we would stop at the Aquarena Springs in San Marcos to rest and see a chicken play her piano.  

Update May 3, 2017 I don't know where God is going with

Update May 9, 2017 This is for the ND rich  CEO pipeline. The truth is you stole again and you got away with it because you are white and you are the government but not because you are in the truth.   This land doesn't  belong  to you or any other white person!  God didn't put white people here you put yourselves here. You are used to taking as you please doing as you please because it works for you! t But what is right is right and what is wrong is wrong and you CEO  are wrong!  I don't care if you say, more land  more money more jobs more houses to built more of  everything because who is getting the more of everything!!?  Not  the owners of this land!!?
This is for the ND Governor who  was asked, "who is to pay for the cleaning and the damages"?  You are ! You got a good deal you stole again  and won again! And please don't give me that i want to cry  because i know you don't care if there  could have been  another Wounded  Knee because you know who would have lost.          

Update May 10, 2017 What is this talk about Rh negative blood ? I am Rh negative type A

Update May 11, 2017 Other things that repeat  address 310 W. Crockett  where my father bought on a bet this is where Margarita Sanchez and Maria Sanchez Rivera used to live . Who  is or was Margarita ? She is the mother of 2 children from  Jose Ramirez.  Who is Jose Ramirez? Jose Ramirez son of Antonio Ramirez and Luz Ramirez in the sixties moved from Mexico to TX later brother asked them to helped us with sugar beets played  guitar here  at church later married a woman from what i know was form  San Antionio when he was attending St Mary's University. later was a  music teacher at Tomas Rivera school where Margarita also used to worked. Do you remember the kung fu fighting, Bruce Lee?  Jose not only played the guitar  he also was learning karate. Some days he would wear a white uniform  to the field threw his  hoe to the ground and did some  kicking to the air and turned his way around. this was fun for me to watched   

Update May 11, 2017 now Jose not only played the 

Too many coincidence  now how can i say this is  not  from God ?

Update May12 , 2017 Now this  Bible  story goes something like this in the land of Uz lived a Godly  man who God had blessed with everything on earth  for him to be very happy but  one day God asked Satan have you ever considered my Job? Satan  told God Job is good because you gave him all kinds of riches but  take away and see if he doesn't  curse you. Now  Job was really put to the test but he passed and got back his earthly goods. During  his difficult times his wife told him curse God and just die his three friends thought Job had done something Wrong against God. Now we know this is where the saying goes God gives and He takes away. One of the things i get from this story is that to me Job knew God  could give him back if he would just hold on because he said  God gives  God takes but noticed his suffering  had anything to do with  Job sinning against God . Back to me i know i am a sinner i confess i am a  sinner and the only way to salvation is by Christ but what i am going through is much more then what you the people are going through. i get to be poor i get to watched  love ones and strangers suffer and most of the  times I am  not able to do a thing about it. Like many of  you   I  am poor i am lonely  I get  sick  and like all of you  i will die. but other  then that  i am the only one going through the extra suffering of  all these things around me being repeated  and many of you are doing things on purpose to  play with my mind. So i am unique and there is no one i can go   talk with about what is going on because this is a game that even some church leaders are part off . Now later i will write what are the many ways you the people are making my life  very hard. When i was recovering from the second surgery that had to be done because the doctor at Sanford ignored the infection i had only after a few days  after surgery and he told me it was nothing for me to stay home if it burst . I had to go back  to the emergency dripping from first surgery i had people going to my apartment to get me back on my feet. one of them was a therapies named Teresa  who came in and called me Maria. i was so weak to be hearing people like her calling me Maria what some of you at work or anyplace else are told to call me to jack up my mind now i have a woman who is getting paid to do the same. now way before i had just had it up to here that one day this is what happened now this was  way before the surgery at Sanford. i told my daughter i was tired of people calling me Maria when they knew that was not my name so one day a refugee whom i had work with was outside my home building  at 303 called me Maria i just said to him very calmly hello  Ass Hole. if you the people think you can play it smart so can I! so for whoever have called me Maria to me you are Ass Holes or worst because if you don't know my name that means you don't know me so i don't know you and to me you are Ass Holes. i was brought up to respect everyone around me but if you don't respect me why should I?  Now how can this Teresa who was sent  by Sanford Hospital wouldn't even know my name the patient name?  Why didn't Teresa bothered to read my medical report to make sure she had the right person ?   And yet just walked  in and start telling me what exercises i needed to work on called me Maria and the short time she was there i know got paid a lot by MN insurance. This mind  game has been going on for a long time also the calling me Maria and now i am going to write all the people and places i can remember doing that. On the second surgery  at Sanford hospital on Broadway i had a white woman roommate. One day a white woman from the hospirtal  came in told my neighor invited her  that there was a chapel where she could go pray but she did'nt invited me as this woman was walking out the room she  looked at me and i looked back at her  to me she looked evil.  What else has been repeating? Amber. and because you the people take time to do evil there has been a man from Crystal City asking for money when he can work but is  standing on a corner of 45 st south when there is  no need Willie can work but to do such thing even if he was paid to do so maybe there is something mentally wrong with him.

About gays one day  my big  brother said something like this it is hard being poor but its got to be  even harder if you are gay and poor. we were  brought up not  being judgmental our  mother always told us not to be. i hear  preacher talking about gays as if they have control and i really don't think so  they do. now its the in thing to do but what about  girls and boys in birth control  pills preachers like John Hugee dropping Martha. what about taking the natives land what about  slavery No! lets not only remember 911 but all other sins  we as a Nation have done                               


Today i put on all black clothing and a  necklace with a cross. As i am driving on 2nd avenue there is a funeral going on at the Wright Funeral Home and soldiers getting off their cars.    What repeats Wright last name of  landlord.  

Update May 12, 2017    

Update May 1, 2017 Now not because i write about all the bad things you the people do to me i live with hate .  Let me make myself clear I hate no one and i loved my parents and siblings  but i feel i do need to write about my life and you the people. Now the computer is still new to me but now i know there is no privacy and i noticed that most of  you the people like to be in the news like to be noticed and there is no going back to the simple way of life.  For now i really don't know what Facebook is and the Twitter is and don't care to know.  just yesterday my daughter and i were talking about how the  Irish   people are like us they named their children after saints or on the day of the calendar than i said yes like people who are born on Valentine's  day . Today what repeats?  I read about a person i think is who  i used to know but by other name still not sure  named Valentine.  Still not sure but i did read a Mike but not a Gloria then i read   about a Martha I didn't know.  What else?  A Buick car.

Tomas Rivera  what repeats =11 years old when he had the accident. Wife named Concepcion. Born December 22,     

Update May 13, 2017 Now  Fargo Point of View stop lying  nobody had to call the cops to Town Hall  to protect  Kevin Cramer. I heard on valley news Cramer tells  police where his going to be because his afraid of the people.  And the other was the man who you said touched Cramer was only putting money on his picket because Cramer loves money and can't get enough .

Update May14 2017 This month  mother's birthday  father's 's death . Now what i am about to write about when it happened i couldn't believe it. last night i was getting ready to go out my son asked me why so late it was around 12:13 AM . i said i am just going out for a little while. as i am taking my time son tells me  here is something for you but don't get drank. what my son gave to me was a very small bottle of  cinnamon whisky named  red hot fireball. once in a while i buy this size of bottles just to try them out. during this time i an watching TV then comes the second late news it was around 1:08 am and i am thinking its too late for me to go out. then comes the news about a couple who is in Washington and they are looking for Jason name and there I see a bottle of   Red Hot Fire Ball. i just could not believe this! i called my son told him about it.  Update May 15, 2017 i had bought small bottles of liquer before but i had never before seen this kind of whisky. now what repeats ?  Canela = Cinnamon.

Next i also  have a story about the San Antonio Spurs. one day i was with someone else in a San Antonio Bank and one or two Spurs were there one was carrying a woman's bag . The cashiers were getting so excited because they were in their bank. Update May 15, 2017 i hadn't noticed  the Spurs men  but who i was with brought it up to my attention. Now one of them was a tall black man in a dressy nice men's tie suit and  what i think he was taking care of was  his wife or girlfriend's  purse.                 Happy Mother's Day

Update May 15, 2017Today I was talking with a man from TX  and then he told me about a woman he knew from TX who had been going out with a woman then sent to prison got out knew she was dating other men + him and had killed her because she had talked too much said what was in her mind. Now to me this man who we were talking about had no reason to  have  killed his girlfriend. there is no reason to kill someone else period! The man i was talking with didn't see things my way but he is wrong. To me even in a marriage you don't owed  the other person. when two persons get together its to enhanced life to make it better not to control it. if one wants  out for whatever reason sadly they have the right to go.  to me that was never love and even though i never had love i have   seen love  first  were my parents second the love i heard cousin Willie had for cousin Elvira.   this i heard from someone else when two women were mad at her because both thought they had  won a Bingo card game as she called out the numbers at the  parish church. One of my client told me Willie was hurt about what was going on and he was upset because people were talking about his beloved wife. I also saw and heard love when  this couple i knew  Angel told his wife Lydia something like this in Spanish  "joyful are the eyes that are looking at you."   so many songs today are just about what can i get from you tonight.

Update May 15, 2017   I was watching old show Johnny Carson with Oprah telling Johnny she's   where she wanted to be because she had made it happened because she had worked hard on it to get where she was on succeed in life . I say she was and is wrong. She is in life because God let her have it her way not because she worked hard for it. more on this


Update May 16, 2017 about the only by mouth he calls himself  Christian Jerry Falwell Jr. He said if  he had a gun  at the time the Muslims  at the San Bernardino he  would have  shot them to death. Jerry Falwell isn't  it hard to be a true Christian?? Now you are so greedy you are for your president to take away health Care for the poor. You say let them all die you say this in the name of Christ who you do not know.  I have been poor and Mexican American all my life i have seen the poor die young but you haven't seen what i have seen. God blessed you with even private schools your father could afford by collecting  money from  young old rich poor people. Now you Jr feel like a giant. You like your president because he is like you he thinks and  acts like you . You like the same things he likes.  Jerry your eyes look evil they do not like humble with love. Sorry someone had to tell you .

Update May 16, 2017 before this i had to watched the video  The way it is and  Tupac changes i had  heard but never seen before. About the black USA woman  and  autism  Micheal  boy's mother  Ingrid Herrera and about the woman Tommy Bruse who just opened her mouth  said what was in her mind  now she wants to apologized.  Now back when la Raza  Unida days were getting old and people were dividing.  people  were all getting mad it  each other there was a newspaper that some people were  printing . One day i saw what was a  mama pig with  piglets the piglets were sacking  on the big mama pig. The piglets all had  names

Update May 17, 2017 later on piglets names if i can remember Now about the woman Tommy Bruce because back when  white teachers didn't  really wanted (I speak for myself) me to learned well English and if i would questioned them they would say, "don't you know!?" Now about what is the vice president and  the  poor boy who had  to  keep telling this Pence to apologized. Pence was ignoring  him. No! Big woman with gray hair everywhere boy was not stalking old man Pence. You Tommy don't know what stacking is  and you are white!!. You said now who is having  snowflake children!??  Now in the first place  i don't know what a Latina woman with her child  is doing where she is not welcome . i know its the white house and hopefully all Military  families were invited but if it was not i wouldn't have shown up. woman no matter if child not have any physical or mental problem you woman should not talk about anyone that way !! learn to respect!! Now is there a cry baby in the House?  That is the White House? your president is complaining about what !!?? To hear someone  who did'nt joined the  Sorry but this president  didn't even go to peel potatoes.

update may 17 , 2017   Today at the New Life a little white girl came up to me kept looking at me helped me with shoes i was trying on. This sweet little angel later more on this

Update May 20, 2017 What else repeats some of you might  know  by now but recently  i just found out . Greeley, Colorado. Horace , ND Horace Greeley. In 2005 or 2006  in Grand Forks, ND when the plan to set me up was thought up by the lawyers.  Troy told  me about a  car agency i wen to progressive to checked out the price. The agent wrote on a copy she gave to me Mary instead  of Marta. i don't know if it was with them or another agency but i remember i was called me back or i called them but this call was made at  St  Micheal church. I was with father Bob  when agency  asked to gave them my social security  number which i found this strange because back in TX i was never asked to give out my S S N. i remember i asked why they said they did that to all costumers but i knew they were just doing it to blow my mind. i gave the phone to father bob but now i don't remember why i did that if it was for him to asked them too, why? my social card with my mother's only picture of her US citizenship  card was in my purse and other belongings where on my son's  vehicle officer Olsen called to tow away . This is why the insurance agency asked  me for  my number so i would  remember what else i  lost the night  the law set me  up. today a progressive agent called me because  on Thursday someone hit my car the argent his name is Angel. today i went inside  St Josephs church.

 Update May 21, 2017 Some time ago on a Sunday driving by St Frances church in Moorhead i was feeling good when then i saw all cars parked backwards  it took me back to Crystal City and i thought to myself this is why i still need to stay away from any church its still not for me but i do go in on a special celebration. It was very hard for me to stop attending Mass i had a very hard time accepting things had changed.  All my life knowing church was where i would have peace.    

Update May 21, 2017  A lot of people think like Oprah  Winfrey especially when after a hard life gets better they think  its because they made all the right moves i don't think that way. According to the Bible Jesus went to the cross to safe us from hell  not because we deserved it but because He loved us. Then i think God gives us goods because He wants He lets many of us have it our way when we set up to go for it whatever that is but some of  us not so.  Now this is my opinion this is the way i see life.  the problem here is that i hear many even church leaders saying they are little gods they say this because they are doing very good all has gone  their way.     Today a pastor  said something like         

Update May21, 2017 about mind sight  20/20 i think i had heard this one but didn't know what it meant About the saying  having your cake and eat it well if i buy a cake or bake a cake  i surely want to eat it !now that i read into it i understand what is meant to say or mean later more on this but back to 20/20 isn't it like what i am going through? when you look back at a situation you realize  more about it


Update May 26, 2017 People you just don't get it! If my life is the way it is its because God wants it that way! I drive a 1999  Buick  Century  car because God wants it that way. You can advised me do it that way if  only your children would  do it this way it  will work for you.  If it works for me it can work for you.  You  can tell me cut  it this way use this recipe do it my way. Pray this way pray facing this way. Pray this many times but you still don't get it. When i was in TX daughter calls me gives me several titles for her  Masters Thesis I tell her used the one with the word Century use that one do it that way i advised her to do.   

Update May 30, 2017 now i am going to tell you why Muslims having their Ramadamdam days would not make it working long summer days in a fields or  in a  hot factory. I will write how early we had to get up and early we had to sleep . How  well  we had to eat to make it through the day. Since we knew God is not little we knew He sees everything hears everything we  knew He was and is powerful! We knew we  could  pray while we worked asked while we worked even praised Him  while we worked. Just  like a car needs fuel a body needs food. Oh yes we fast whatever day of the year but  we are told to keep it  secret between Him  and ourselves.  Now i am here to tell you no need to go hungry for so long God loves you and you are welcome to His home.  later more on these

Update June 1, 2017 now imagine being a poor man in a land where you can own as many women wife's as you say you can afford but not even yourself you can feed you have to wait for  charity  once a year  from other men or families to give you food wait for  Ramadan but all your life you been poor suffering going hungry haven't you suffered enough to go one more month without any kind of  food and water? Now in some of these countries you are  to fast because according to Muslims its religion  and its law of the land.   and i hear  at least ones a year you have to go to a place where you will walk around i don't know how many times because you just have to if you are Muslim to prove you believe  in a man named the prophet       Nope i surely don't understand  this religion and many others         

Update May 31, 2017 Ramadan must be very  hard on poor people but very easy and nice to show off for those who  have.  Now what repeats?   Five pillars of  Islam.  The  9  month of the Islamic  calendar. the lunar  Update June 2, 2017 now i read that in 2003 Zakir Naik said it is forbidden for  Muslims to wish Christians Merry Christmas  because it acknowledges Jesus as a  son of God this is the way its written a son of God. No He is  who came as son of God but he is God. I read that  by wishing  Christmas that is blasphemy for Muslims. Now just asking because like i said before i don't know i am leaning as i go. Is it Ok for Muslims to get food from a Christian food  pantry because i see strong young men dressed well with nice gold jewelry with their wife's and children at Christians  pantry where there is a cross  = Christ ?  now let me get a Mexican man to go to a pantry most of them  won't go even if they are down on their luck they just won't go  maybe now they will because  i am writing about it. for me its a hard knock life i go i don't get because of who i am                 

Now going back to Ariana Grande the day i was telling my daughter about how Sandra called her grandmother  Mama Grande the radio plays a  A. Grande song then i hear 22 were killed other injured at Manchester area.  Update June 1, 2017   one day i was in a ballroom don't remember if it was the Crystal ballroom with Juan Juarez his sisters and others when one of his cousin named Ruiz came in with his girlfriend Gloria  and Juan starts laughing and says look Beauty  and the Beast doesn't Grande sings this song?  

Now  only Trump can pushed people away and what was this his wife and daughter visited the Pope all dressed in black as if they were going to a funeral or a Halloween party! Don't they know how to dress up !? Update June 2, 2017 about Trump's son upset about some woman having a made believe Trump head cut off  does 11 year old boy knows daddy says he can kill a person and become president and get away with it ? Does 11 year old boy knows daddy says he can  touch women pussies  and not asked for permission because he is a star?  Just asking because i  really don't know much. Now this i know when   Obama  was president  all were all  called something like apes  in the white house and  some people said beautiful  first lady Michele  was a man. I never heard the Obama's complaining  about how bad they were treated by people who didn't like them. I forget what about the New York reporter with chronic condition you Trump made fun of ?  

It's never good to talk about someone else in a good way or do evil things to others no matter who they are we should all get along but sadly that is not the case because each head is a world. Now many times i rather be doing something else then being here writing      



What  American family  Life insurance told me about going to AA            now i been looking for a person with this address 102 because i need to give her something she lost and today i went by 201  to pay a bill was told it was open until 6 but this was a lie.       more things that   repeat I been looking for a life insurance and i am trying to tell as much truth about myself 

Update June 3, 2017 this is what  else repeats with 102  about  two weeks ago i was looking for a TX license the one i  had to retake in 2006 because  officer Olsen #566 on purposed  kept the one i had when he stopped me in East Grand Forks. The one he kept i had on a red blouse i  was a donor.  In 2006 in TX because so many people  on purposed were wearing red and doing other things to remind me of North Dakota   i then   took the  picture  all dress in white and again i signed up to donate. what i  found  is a donor named Ashley also dressed in red and  i did find my picture           

Update June 3, 2017 please Leslie Sansome have a phone number where i can order a  walking belt the

Update June 5, 2017 And  what is this shouting? "This is for Allah!" And what does condemning the attack change's anything ? If it was me I would go after the families of these men and women who come to kill in the name of Allah. now what repeats ? Theresa May    more to come what do  I mean about what i said?

Update June 7, 2017 Today what repeats? Today  I took someone to the emergency  room 22 . Today I met a catholic  lady from the valley in  TX  but been  here many years last name Gonzalez . Gonzalez from San Juan TX  was the last  name of the young man who took me to the senior  prom. A young man from Crystal City last name Gonzalez helped me drive  my Galaxy 500 to TX.  Last night my oldest grandson and i went to see Wonder Woman. Lately  without thinking i  been  leaning on my elbow resting my face on my hand just as little wonder woman did on the movie.  Now on the last days of Fargo  schools  i went to stay with my grandsons and  helped the
oldest a little  with his exams. on his exams was the word  flashback.  On my early writings instead  of repeats i used to write the word  flashbacks because  almost  everything around me  was repeated   after a while i got sick.  What is loyalty to Trump? Keep your mouth shut!  Yes church leaders were right more to come      


Update June  8, 2017 Now back to the summer while buying  fried chicken  when  i saw Gloria Hernandez  who told me about the program at Kingsville TX where i kept seeing   the word  century the twin  girls from Del Rio  and when  i went back for the second time with my daughter another  student and their teachers when i asked Mr. D the babies in the jars were they real babies.
Update June  10, , 2017 One day at Kingsville walking  down the stairs i was doing it very slowly not to fall but even  as careful as i was i went down several stairs to  the  bottom of the floor. The whole class came out to see what was the noise about they asked me what had happen i said nothing. That day i was wearing 3 inch heel shoes and a dress  before i had noticed that the piece of metal that was put to  hold  the linoleum was loose so what happened one heel  shoe got hooked on the floor  wire and i went down fast.  When the other  students and teachers heard the noise they  ran to see what had happened  by then i was up  had cleaned myself and just told them it was nothing but it was something i was hurting and my hand watch was all twisted i just too  embarrassed to say i had fallen from the stairs. That day i was wearing a gold  Bolivia watch  but it got so badly twisted i never wore it again. the first watch i ever had was a Timex watch if  i am not mistaken i  bought  somewhere here i know i  know i showed it to my father asked him if  he liked it he said yes. now at grammar school i remember Norma Rodriguez wearing a watch                      

Update June 9, 2017 Today  too much to handle a bit about what  i learned back in beauty school about cruelty to  animal  about their Placenta in perms shampoos conditioners and why some  US States were not allowed to be sold or used . What  now i am learning about slaughterhouses. Did God really made animals for us to kill to try to  make yourselves more young and beautiful? And what about those nice  purses and nice expansive clothing, is it all worth it? Ostriches i am sure i saw some in south  TX what were they for only  for their  eggs ?     


Update June 9, 2017  Now back  when i was grwing up in my Fernendez  family  home  i think i once  heard  my big brother  say no man is coming here to pick up girls this is not a whore  house. now there were many reasons why brothers back then did't want their sisters in and out with different men back then a fight with young men could even start with just a look at one man to another and in the heat of a     now who is lying, did't Trump welcome Russia  to our home to check up on Clinton's email


Update June 10, 2017  God keeps me on my feet: I can say it all started  back in 2004  with the lawyers but i know God started it all since way before i knew my name was Marta .  He had a platform a stage waiting  for me way before i was born. Now  if i say i don't know i am really saying the truth i don't know. When i wrote100 percent i didn't know  John F, Kennedy 100 birthday was coming up. Kennedy the youngest ever president. The  Kennedy family my parents liked them  could relate with them  and like many others Mexican  American families  had his picture on their living room wall. Mother collected other pictures like the one where they are pictured with daughter Caroline. father once mentioned  the initial  F on Kennedy's  name.    later more about  the letter F     
I didn't know or remembered this year June 2, 2017  would be  Salvation  Army Doughnut 100 anniversary day.  Now for the past  years when i heard Donuts day i would remembered  Mr and Mrs Monroe but mostly Mr. Monroe because of his  school  donuts machine and when another student named Olivia asked me if i wanted to stay after school to make and sell donuts for Mr. Monroe. now i might be wrong but i think Mr. Monroe didn't really like me because  i was very opened with my opinion on how i felt about Jose  Angel G i knew Monroe liked him a lot because he had told us the class that if Jose Angel would happen to walk into the class we the students had to stand up and greet him with a good morning or good afternoon  this i didn't  agreed with  and question Mr Monroe with a why ?  This is what i can remember about Mr. Monroe he said  that for some years he had lived in Mexico.One day  this is what i understood he said  when some students  girls were  standing  by the door. He said that in Mexico the women in Boys town would do that  stand by the door for attention. Now at that time i didn't know too much about that and i still don't know only what i heard here and there but i never have known where its at or anything else about it only what i head from one  neighbor  from Black Rocks and other people. Today on  radio car i heard Elton John song to Marilyn Monroe born June 1926 Los Angeles CA dead August 5, 1962 in Los Angeles . Marilyn Gladys Pearl . Pearl one of the baby names i had for my daughter.  now i can't remember if  Rosa Luna birthday is on June or July. If i did't go to your party it wasn't because i did't like you but because of my insecurity i am sorry    read up to see how the name Norma repeats
Update June 12, 2017 At Grammar school was where i first saw someone  my age wearing a watch and that was Norma Rodriguez. i have to admit i didn't know how to tell time but once i got home i knew who  to go asked to  showed me how to read a clock and that was my father.         

Update June 10, 2017 now even if i knew that it is said its an old or young tradition to wear black to the Vacation now i do respect the Pope but i would only go with the  covering of  my head but i would wear any  color  black  white blue pink red yellow  orange if   it looked good on me because  to me the Pope is just a man doing his job.    

Update June 12, 2017  Back in the days i used to hear my older siblings say that our  Fernandez uncles used to say we had a bit of France blood in us. In the old neighborhood  Gloria and Rafa  were the two girls  i used to play and go see movies with when their father used to  run the films  at the Winter Garden Drive In. Now for days my daughter and i had been talking planing on taking the boys out to a park for bike riding  yesterday i thought would be that day. Sunday morning comes  i get up turned on the TV i think  was set up on NBC where there is Tennis game going on. The camera is on the  winning champion  named Rafael who is France and is said to be playing on a clay court and i hear  he gives credit to his uncle for his success. Comes  Sunday afternoon i go picked up daughter and daughter instead  has with her two tennis  rackets.

Update June 13, 2017 I am sorry to be pessimistic if this is what it means to think the way i do but i been too long on this  earth called home to say that if i can do it you can do it too or  you can do anything you set up your mind to do. What i do see is that if i were white i would have no problem finding a job that would pay me good even  if i were disqualified  or  my boss was brown or black or in between and  had done some wrongs. There would be no reason for me to be homeless unless i was mentally  had a problem with drugs or alcohol but even that would not be on my way to success  or living a    One size does not fit all   Update June 14, 2017 where i am going with this is that i just don't understand why a Anglo father or mother  or both parents going homeless have their children  living in  a car when i know if they look for help they will  find it and  you can always just down size. Update June 14, 2017 About cooking  Menudo Kidneys and Tripes.    My  big brother once told me  father would bring home the caw stomach which was very dirty and mother would clean it up cook it make it Menudo.  Kidneys my father would buy them  here mother would also cook to eat.    the day Rosa saw my father cooking asked me what is your father doing i said cooking she asked where is your mother  i said in the bedroom or i don't know where at that time i didn't know most Mexican men didn't cook because all my life men around me cooked. i saw my uncles cook my brothers cook brother in law cook    

Update June 14, 2017 later about the dark memories i have  what i believe went on while watching Bewitched in someone else home  and names i will not mention to protect them and because now it doesn't matter.


Update June 15, 2017 So your name is not Checha or Chicha? i remember when Shah was overthrown       Yesterday in a church garden  a white woman was telling me in the sixties  or seventies she went  to Iran during the time Shah was on control because Shah  wanted Iranians to learned  how to  speak  English. What repeats? In Kingville TX I  met an Iranian student .Shah had a twin sister. Shah for some time was Emperor = King of Kings. Worried  History would repeat itself.   Eleven childen. 20th  Century crown prince. Shah  thought  God was  beside him because he had  visions and dreams.  September is mentioned. Shah was born on October 26, 1919.  he liked luxury cars and planes.    Volswagan  Beetle Martha Mc had a Volswagan Faz had a Volkswagen. On Wednesday  a Mexican  woman  at a church was told to call me Maria she knew my name but the evil was inside her so i told her your name is Checha she said no my name is Rosa. if Rosa forgets my name why should i remembers  hers. Now since last Wednesday i felt the evil inside some of these people but this Wednesday  the evil  people talked.         

Update 16, 2017 How white did this Mexican Yanez felt when he saw  black man Castile, Very white now even more. Yanez should be heading to prison not to his home! Right now Satan is dancing with joy inside  churches and courthouses. Update June 17, 2017 What did Yanez said about Castile nose ? There are a lot of Mexicans born here or born in Mexico who think  like  Yanez the  murder even if they like so Mexican    they think they are white.    


Update June 17, 2017  The Watergate movie  45 years  after. Besides all the similarities between Trump and Nixon  here are some things that repeat .The summer i was in Kingsville, TX  there were 7-Eleven convenience stores.  US Presidental election hold Tuesday  11/7/1972 turn around  7 11. Now add 7+2 = 9. When 9 /11/ 2001  I  turned 45  years old now Trump is your 45th  president. The vote was 27 to 11 to send the article to the white house add 2+7 = 9.In the movie Nixon watch battery ran out. In Kingsville  while walkig i saw  signs that read something like this  Real Estate Century 21 or 21 Century Real Estate. my daughter read to me several titles to name her Thesis i heard them right a way i told her 21st Century sounds the best. My last year  here when i came as a migrant  before  going back to TX i asked Silvana Avila to come with me to Fargo to pick up some things i had on lay away as we were arriving there were  some people outside looking up to the sky  there was a twister that  same twister earlier  mother had seen moving touching  ground  in the back  of the farm houses. That day going back to the farm i looked back to the horizon and i saw some many houses being built and i thought Fargo is growing a lot and we are not coming back. What is heavy right now ? Selling homes.  Some of the  years when we got here we drove by Fargo just to checked to see if there were new building if it had grown. The next day of our arrival i would hear these words, "lets go see the cars in Fargo." summer of the  Watergate all TV channels were showing it and every day we went to lunch at the  farm we were watching the Watergate just as we had watched the civil rights  black movement.

Update June 21, 2017  Yesterday internet out of order now is back to work . When i saw 220 West on N  University  being built i wondered  about it now i know why last week Adam West who i only knew by Batman died June 9, 2017 born September 19, 1928 . In 1976 prom night theme was the Garden of Adam and Eve  there was a tree all covered with foil paper with one red apple.           Update June 23, 2017  


Update June 24, 2017 Today like past days i don't know if this writing will be print out but here i go. First of all the man who killed American black man Castile is NOT a Mexican American he is just a Mexican citizen who is living here born in Mexico!!!    Repeated again!! Yanez Jeronimo was born in Mexico!! And like many Mexicans and Mexican Americans   born here they   love to show off to white people that  they think the same  when it comes  down to  black people !! What i heard one juror say to M P R  why Mexican citizen officer Yanez was not guilty for shooting an American  man 7 times was so cruel i could not believed my ears!!   i hear Yanaz fearing for his life thinking about his family and i ask why !!?? Yanez never saw a gun!! He was just told there was a gun in the car!! Yanez couldn't wait to show off to white officer Joseph   he  could kill a black man.


Update June 27, 2017 For days i been having trouble printing  lets see what happens today . These are some of the things i want  to write about Madalyn Murray O' Hair born 1919. (pregnant at age 45 not sure need to look it up )why i know there is a God  and when i didn't  know  Philosophy  existed  was too afraid to ask i thought it was just me questioning   life .   licorice candy  and much moreup   Update June 28, 2017 i want to write just facts no lies but this takes time O'Hair died at age 76. this is what i do rememebr about her i watched her on the Donahue show long time ago but did'nt  quite understand what she was taking about . 

Update June 298, 2017 Next about how i need to see and hear  words  in order to   memorized them and   learn  to pronounce them.
    These  people were hated because of what ? O'Hair and  1968  forgotten Australian  Sprinter Peter  Norman   black power  hero at Mexico.   

Update  June 29, 2017 Several months ago i had a  dream  and just recently I  told someoe about it. In my dream that is a man who looks a bit like Raul and keeps staring  at me days go by i am in town i honked  at a person i haven't  seen for a while we talked  for a bit. Days go by i am walking a red truck drives by the passenger   stares  at me just like the man in my dream that resembles    Raul.   

Update June 29, 2017   What repeats? Its a lot of work for me to look up information and for  not to be published so i hope Google today won't let me down. Now  I  think i have it right the young woman named Monalisa  in MN who accidentally  shot his Texas live in  boyfriend Ruiz her father i remember when working at the Elementary is twin to his brother Perez.  For days i had  this town in mind  Junction, TX then this week  in black and white western ME TV I see  a town named   Junction something or the other way around. days go by we go by Indian Palace on 13 Ave south in Fargo  i looked to the right and see Grand Junction. Long ago i was going to post the picture  of me  John Hoeven and the Monaliza but never had time i still have the cut out of both pictues. the year going back to TX from Colorado Raul and I stoped at              Update July 10, 2017

Updted July 12, 2017 I don't know if what  i write today will be published but what repeats are       Pallets and  Cedar. i   not sure if i already wrote about  Crystal glass .   Marta Jimenez and  family were very good to me but in 2005 when i went back to TX i had to stop my relationship because  of things being repeated once  Cedar       computer  or whatever is not helping me today July 13, 2017 I never picked cotton but mama did    now who is Ramsey Muniz  Update July 18, 2017 Moorhead and visitors see on 11 St north these numbers 1001  as we drive by other  numbers i seen  in Fargo are 1551. my  phone for right now  repeats middle numbers and first and last  numbers UPDATE JULY 25, 2017 CAN'T GET MY WORK PRINT OUT JULY 30, 2017 NOTHING IS PRINT OUT  WHO IS THE PROBLEM !!??

Update August 3, 2017 I don't know if this will print out . Today  listening to the song Running on Empty  and what repeats and why 101. Update August 9, 2017 what repeats? Campbell buses parked  at the Green Miller here in Fargo,  ND. Glen Campbell  in  1967 1968 or 69  not sure was judge to the  Crystal City High School most beautiful  and handsome contest.  other things repeat but don't know if today will  print. Kimberly . Songs i like in this order  Wichita lineman  Galveston  by the time i get to Phoenix  Gentle on my mind.  This day  Wednesday  August 9, 2017  rained on me as i remembered my first nephew named Eduardo. Eddie, who once my father  with a smile on his face  and joy on his heart said Eddie was first to  make me a grandfather.  Campbell before i saw the school buses i had heard before i knew it would repeat. 101 goes back to Uvalde TX and now again i see and write 101 . Sister  Maria  born August  4, Now  August  4, 2017 Now  we say with faith   Eddie until we meet again.  Updated september 11, 2017 Before second Hurricane TV didn't worked so i went through old movies I  had  bought some time ago but one  I hadn't  seem  named Hurricane. i really didn't know i had bought that movie .  the other i had sen was The Devils own now too much as repeated  but i am still having a hard time printing.  Update september 12, 2017 This September are 16  years after 9/11/2001. This year 2017  I am 61 turned it around you get 16 years.

Undated September 13, 2017  I am surprise to know  many people  don't know what  happen to many Jewish twins in the 11 world war !    update September 14, 2017 Now here at the Moorhead, MN library for some time i noticed twin Jews brothers and some time ago i read they where on the front page of the Fargo Forum i wanted to know about them because i have been writing about things that repeat, right ? So last night i asked the front disk to give me their names and they are Dean and Dennis Johnson. now last night i went home and was playing around with numbers this is what i came up with 2016= 9 16+61= 77 now right now as i just read these much i still haven't read all the rest about the Jewish twins they said on paper  "A Seven Year Judgement On America" i hope this will get print but  for now i got to go and i still need to read the rest about these twin brothers. 

Update September 16, 2017 A class in Psychology  a  field trip to a mental  house in San Antonio and the letter F.