12/30/2017

Today here at the public library in Moorhead showing Dirty Dancing took me  to when i was a child visiting cousins in Austin, TX. Sometimes people would asked my mother, "is she the baby?" Mother would say, "yes she is." That's as far that would go.  But I used  to hear about a cousin in Austin who everybody called Bebita because she was the last born in the family like me .On  one  visiting  in Austin cousin Bebita older then I was getting ready for a date gave me a pair of white pantyhose. This week on M P R  i hear Vanna White saying she was too embarrassed to keep asking her father for money  but not embarrassed to take off her clothes in front of men women, women who liked watching other women take it off!!?? I don't understand that one. Is this a  little white lie from Vanna White? Because one  would  question what kind of a father Vanna had or has?   

12/30/2017

 Nowadays  there's  few  country songs I like but this one caught my ear. "Tin Man," not only i like  to listen to it but it  took me back to my childhood  when i first saw The Wizard of Oz. One day in the old neighborhood  all children were invited to go over to a family's house (name i forgot)  to see the movie  in a black and white TV. Some years ago while working at Sam's Club  here in Moorhead some of these children  I got to see .  Their father used to cleaned take care of the Catholic church when he died sister Connie and I cousin  Elvira was  there too at his funeral. One day at that poor neighborhood  housewife mother of these children was sitting down outside her house crying she missed one of her daughter's who a man had taken in marriage had promised to bring her home for visits but never did.   When my father died Barbara  told me to get really we were going to visited our parents  in Crystal City she didn't tell me father had died. Her husband Salinas stopped in Zapata to gas up. As I was on the back seat i told Barbara i don't know why but i feel father is doing very well his not hurting anymore .When we got home this is the family i saw outside our home  then i knew they were waiting to comfort mourned with us.      

12/29/2017

 Because of strange  Events in my life i know something going on i don't understand but i know it has to do with God. As i was hold down I  was  looking back at the driver with my head up looking asking the driver to please go back to town. then i told V. Melendez in the name of God to stop holing me down and go back to town. Melendez  said," there is no God" then i felt lost i didn't know what to say or do next I knew he didn't  fear God.  but after i kept begging the driver he turned back and they dropped  me at my house at 310 west Crockett. my brother Angel was at the door as if  he was waiting for me  i think he was he asked me who were they i told him they gave me a ride i went in next morning i did tell a few people what had happened but i never told my brothers because i knew they were going to blamed me for getting in a car with men when i should have walked home if there was no other way. this is the way it was back in my home with the Fernandez brothers the sister  did something wrong this is way bad things happened to her. she she was not out at night even if it was before 10:pm it still was late. now Sandra did other things like other girls i knew did me wrong. one time she told me she was giving me a TV i didn't want to have she still had it brought to mt home then about 2 days after a fat angry woman  came looking for it she said TV was hers. i told her take it Sandra gave it to me she brought it here i don't want it take it away! were my sisters on these maybe there were later i will write why i say they might have been.       

12/29/2017

That night Sandra and I had went downtown but i don't remember if w got a ride or someone took us the thing we needed a ride home it was her idea to asked two men she knew more then i for a ride. on many things I looked back and wondered if  Sandra had set it up because as soon as  we both got in a trunk they were in she asked for her to be drooped first but my home was closer  then from where we were in town. before i knew it she was off the truck and i was next to be drooped off. the truck was facing East on lake st where Sandra lived with her parents and still lives with second husband named Alberto.  these two man i knew one a bit more then the other but i got home safe because of the one i knew less he was the driver i begged to turned the truck around back to town as he was driving very fast what is East Crockett we had passed the river i knew i was i trouble. as the passenger  hold me down on the seat  i was  in the middle looking at the driving asking him to turned  back        

12/28/2017

Crime Watch is asking people who the sentence fits the crime i say it does . whose gun was it why after a man tells you he wants nothing with you and is scared of you why does a woman still wants to go by his home? Why 999999999 times ?? At 19 i was almost raped. I married an abused husband . one day in Colorado Raul old man stepfather  in the small old house kitchen all of a sudden grabbed me from behind turned me facing him hold me very tight he kissed me on my lips. so abused i been there and yet i can tell you true stories about women who are just as bad as men i have seen and other people have told me.    when first i got to Colorado after a fight between Raul and Sendejo Raul had told me about bad things that Sendejo had done to one of his  Munoz sister. so nobody can tell me i don't know what i am telling about because i do.   My father never abused my mother never said one bad word to her or talked bad about my mother . bother Angel never abused  

12/23/2017

Now if i am thinking any church will  call  about my  writings  I know there will be no one  calling   because  even churches are all about money. and i am just a  poor Mexican  uneducated no spouse woman who writes mostly negatives not positives like Joel Osteen who is a white man and  had it very good all his life and says its because i don't remind God of His promises. which i can go into an argument on that one and many others i don't agree with his teaching because I know God gives goods to whoever he wants because He wants to they don't deserve it didn't work for it might have been stolen like stolen land oil and such but He lets them have it. And about sins not everyone gets what they deserve i know if i do wrong i will serve a long sentence i know that if someone does me wrong i will not be believed  my word does not count and it was my fault i make it happened  because of who I am i have to be on guard.  Can you imagine one stalker what about having  more then one? then someone comes tells you they are going to accused you of stalking them when you don't even know who they are? I know people stalk me but what can i do? nothing not a thing the law is not on  my side they are on the stalker side so i just

12/23/2017

  500 =Exodus 30:22-33 God said to Moses Mix 250+250=500 Shekels.

12/23/2017

I don't mind  all the strange things  hard times Extras  God gave  me for I know about  Matthew 5:3-11.   I just don't want to do it alone. He didn't give me much to hold on to. I don't have where  to go  for answers not even  to help me figure out what He wants.  Why this is going on things that only I would know.   

12/23/2017

I never got to asked Angel why he had a beam on the wall  that looked as if it had no purpose because it was too close to the ceiling but now i know why it was there  . Some  mornings when i have  time i go by  St Marys Catholic Church on the back side is the Guadalupe Chapel  where i go worship is a Beam on top is a  Crucifix. 

12/22/2017

Today like other days  I asked God to help me not to become  more like Doubting Thomas that all he wanted  was just  the same proof as the others . That when I pray i will  receive.   You might say He died on the Cross. I say  yes He did not only for me but for all who believes in Him.  Still I am alone with no one to go asked questions  why do these things repeat all i know is that  He made me a woman He make me Mexican brown skin  so white Anglo even my own race would look down treat me bad . He gave me very little not even a good  husband to protect me help me walks with me in this wicked world I live in . This  world who  sees a lonely poor person and takes advance of.  I asked  God let me see your goodness because i know its not because of my sins or sins of my fathers. i seen other people do much worst yet they are blessed they have what  they need and even what they want  want.  i can tell sad poor stories of my patents and other people i hared and known later i will         

12/20/2017

Two TV shows  I used to  watched and still watch celebrated their 50th anniversary were  Carol Burnett  and 60 Minutes.

I always wondered  why back home in  TX at the home  of Mr and Mrs Angel Olivarez there was a beam put horizontal on top of what divides the kitchen and living room. I wondered  because their house has low ceilings. Now Angel  is a carpenter and maybe he was asked to threw it away instead   hr took it to his home didn't know where to put so he nailed there. but let me tell you where here  

12/14/2017

 There is a make believe  Big Dilly Bar  outside the D Q  on 8th.   What happened to black African American woman at the White House? 

12/14/2017

Is there a big chocolate  Dilly Bar outside the Dairy Queen on 8st and Main in Moorhead or am I seeing things ? 

12/13/2017

On my way back inside the hotel i saw an enveloped on the top  right corner was address St Jude Children Hospital  

12/13/2017

  On Sunday December  10, 2017 Heartland called asked if i wanted to work at Candlewood  on North University Dr. I was told just to go in my hours they would write  down on a writing pad.  On my way out i took  out my car keys but dropped the pad. I didn't know until i was  in side the car looking for it and didn't find  it on my coat pickets. So stopped  the car engine walked inside near the elevator was my pad. but this is what happened before that        

12/9/2017

Now in the Holy Bible who was Naomi Ruth and Orpah? my daughter and i have had conversations about these three women who lost their husbands during a famine . and why Ruth would married in older man named Boaz.

12/7/2017

 St Jude treat children that are suffering from cancer. 


The letter came on behalf of Eddie requesting letters of recommendation which we gladly and anxiously provided . Now  I heard Eddie died of Cancer. Growing up i used to love to watch  TV show That Girl with Marlo Thomas because she was cute funny and  fashionable.        

12/7/2017

One day at 310 West Crockett St we received a card with a letter. The card on the back had a St Jude Children  Research Hospital Seal.  This card came to us from a very important person and  much involved in the life of my first nephew  Eddie D L C. now St Jude is known to  cure many   ran  out of time  

12/6/2017

Because of the suffering stories i been told  and things i have seen  sometimes at feels and looks as if  I am living like during the time of the Egyptians and Hebrews but in a modern USA style.

Now it is written that Joseph and Mary had their child outside where the animals where in a barn  because there was no room at the inns = motels hotels.  

12/5/2017

These is one of the things in English translated in Spanish that makes me laugh. peoples magazine  The Sexiest man alive. El Hombre mas Manoso Vivo. El Hombre Vivo mas Manoso.           

Sex in the city =  

12/5/2017

 What is Free Will ?  for i I know everything I am was  set up by God I really don't think I  have Free Will. The only Free Will I have is this  do I get upset do I get happy or do I just take it as it comes. Sometimes  I looked  back I know  I have asked I have knocked  I have seek  even have worked for better and yet there is the answer NO.   

12/4/2017

 I wish i had the time to make my writing more exciting and with more details but i don't.   New things that repeat the Heather that I met here in Moorhead knows another Heather last name Golden. If I am not mistaken the new jail in Moorhead address is 911 on 11st north.
  
About these preachers who preached prosperity many of their teachings comes from Oral Roberts. when i was in Colorado i met Sylvia Davila cousins one of her cousin gave me two oral Roberts books to keep and read i took these books to TX .