12/21/2019 later i will write about the Veteran who welcome me at apt 303 Roberts in 2010. she has all I needed a small TV with built in video case a wing chair and more
why the church don't welcome single people
Saturday, December 21, 2019
Friday, December 6, 2019
12/6/2019
12/6/ 2019 Attention people i just learned what i been writing is divided into new posts . I thought all was put together like when you write on a diary and you were following me page by page. OK now i know a bit more but you the reader need to keep reading if you want to learn something else too . Now what is H. pylori? First let me tell you a little true story. In 1975 when i went to live with sister Barbara i noticed she would go to Mc Allen, TX bus station and asked Mexican women if they wanted to work doing housekeepers because she needed one. she did find some who went to work for her. One day one housekeeper was washing the dishes had them in a small bowl with very little water and very little dish detergent. I asked her to used the whole sink to put more water and more detergent. i asked her why was she doing it that way she said because she had worked with women from her home in Mexico and they would get mad at her if she used a lot of water and detergent. I told her not to worry sister would not get mad at her if she would washed dishes the way i had asked her to . On some public bathrooms and motels I noticed women from other countries and some from here start cleaning with same cleaning towel bathrooms bowls working their way to feminine boxes top toilet tank then top shelf if there is one. Now washing hands after using bathroom is very important. Using clean water is very important even a good city working sewage. A good garbage disposal and dishwasher if home has one. i believed any of these things can get people sick. San Antonio had health inspections and some restaurants were told to close up until next check up. Once i was at this Asian restaurant on 32 Ave south i told restaurant lady bathroom needed paper towels or hand liquid don't remember she got mad looked at me as to say who are you to tell me bathrooms needed assistance. She didn't bothered to go put any. I think they closed up i don't know because i don't go there anymore.
Friday, September 6, 2019
9/6/2019
September 6, 2019 Mexico Hundureds and other counties leaders need to start caring for their poor people!
September 7, 2019 I can go back to any part of my writing where i left off and start again only if i had the time . Now Omarosa when she said all who hate Trump will bow down to him that I didn't like not that I hate Trump because I hate nobody even when they do me wrong but I only bow down to God and this is where she learned how to say those words in His book. Now she mentions The Spook Who Sat By The Door. now i asked why banned? Along the way I might have seen this movie on TV but never payed attention until now
September 10, 2019 I heard this true story many times before from many other places, let the rich people come in by air planes and we will give them more and let the poor needy people stay behind in the Bahamas.
Now who is running for president that cares about this poor Chicana? Nobody. I hear a lot of caring for the poor and rich illegal immigrants and other things but none talk about people who struggle here.
September 11, 2019 Why Trump why invite the Taliban for a peace talk on the week of 911? When all they think of is killing they have no peace but I guess there is still hope.
September 12. 2019 I can write all day how things around me repeat but i get bored so to clear my mind i go to the news which some repeat but why Jorge Ramos as Democrat moderator? Silly question there are no other choice.
September 17, 2019 Trump should not even go there let the Middle East people deal with Iran. Iran is just looking for ways to start a fight with the USA than they blame us they love to fight because they know the USA will feel sorry and pick up the tab. Now what repeats everyday i have some of those like the Odessa TX Bush Malissa who i met at people ready .
September 19, 2019 I didn't know who was Cokie Roberts to me she was just a familiar face on TV news but I always wondered is that her real name? Cokie had a wonderful life both parents were in the house of representatives. She was a journalist good marriage good family so much different than my life and still i knew that if I looked her up I would find more things that would repeat besides Roberts and her death in September and i did. Her real name was Mary Martha. Days before the number 17 kept coming up. Rebecca I just met another one this past Tuesday.. She had a sister named Barbara so do I. She will be miss.
September 21, 2019 weeks before i heard on N PR or MP R about how now more males are joining ballet several times i had watched the movie Billy Elliot about am 11 year old boy son of a coal mine worker who start dancing . I do have a short story about me dancing inside a grocery store then my niece Grace walking on her toes one summer she came with us to North Dakota.
September 21, 2019 The homeless in America I can also write about that. One day in the late 80s or early 90s outside on the yard neighbor Gilberto Garcia told my brother he went to visit his brother in California and he saw a lot of homeless people living under a bridge. Both men joked and laughed about them not living in California because it was harder for poor people.
September 27, 2019 Years ago when I first saw the picture of migrant Florence Leona Thompson it stayed in my mind. Now with the internet I know a bit more about her . She was a white widow woman 32 years old with children when her face became the look of poverty during the great depression. She had 11 children liked music born September 1, 1903 died September 16, 1983
September 27, 2019 Now about Joel Osteen being blessed forget about the parking spot at the mall he was blessed since the day he was born because he was born white. Osteen will never have a problem with the law or finding a good paying job even if he wasn't educated or a preacher anything he would say or do would become gold he didn't even had to try hard. Houston city needs to remember if there is another disaster you need to go knock at his big solid doors to see if he opens because Osteen needs to be told poor people need his help or else he won't bothered.
Now about the female white officer who thought she was in her apartment and killed a black man one day that happened to me while I threw the trash out in San Marcos but let me tell you fast my brain worked I knew I was in the wrong apartment because of the furniture and because of the one or two white young men who were inside the apartment. This was in the first years of people and other things i noticed were repeating with everything that had to do with me. During those years I wasn't getting enough sleep my mind was a mess and still i knew what was going on so I don't believe the woman made a mistake there is no way she would have gotten confused.
I think it was in school when all of the sudden a man walked in. We were asked what he was wearing what would we remembered about him. This kind of test I know officers are given to remember their surroundings.
October 1, 2019 Street I drive by quite often and house numbers that repeat are 12 Ave south and 10th Street south in Fargo are 1111. October 1, 2019 On radio i was listening to Gloria Steibnem born in Ohio and i thought good for her and the rest of white women I wish i could be paid and be treat at least like one of them but i am not because i am not white no matter if i am i don't want to burn my bra or kill my babies
October 3, 2019 I am very much afraid of people with guns. We never had guns inside our home or on cars. I am also afraid of people with certain kind of dogs that when i see them I just walk the other way i know many people used both to intimidated others .Some people with guns can used them say it was self defense say they fear for their life. Ten years passable out in 5 or 2 is not enough. I know about forgiveness this is how i have survived this long. I know there is God but I know browns and blacks have been sent to prison for many more years and are libel for lesser crimes than taking a life. What repeats Amber and Dallas and if I haven't mentioned Amber later on I will.
October 5, 2019 this black man family who was killed by Amber in Dallas did they just got here from another country and still don't get it!? After the I want a hug can I please have a hug with the bleach blonde killer . You know what was missing bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolate candies. where she's going for a short time there are many Bibles many good books to read anything on opening the legs and you touch me I tough you only touching the good book if she really wants to .
Before this was on TV I had been reading the book In Contempt Christopher Darden and this is what i can say about what he wrote about how the black people acted and why they acted that way Christopher said he didn't like or didn't agreed
October 5, 2019 did I missed something on the Raw Video in Johnson county white trooper screaming at a black man in a car then shooting him three times on April 4, ? Maybe the black man was showing the officer he had a gun only that because if the black man wanted to shoot the officer wouldn't the black man gotten off the car on his left side and done just that ? I can't really hear or see what the black man is saying only that the officer is saying don't do it! Don't do it! Do what? This is why i am so afraid being stopped by a police officer because they might panic and don't like me and might shot me this can also happened within my own Race officers that is.
October 9, 2019 growing up 70% money was our problem i could say raising my children almost alone was the same. For me money can also move mountains all you need to do is buy a bulldozer and learn how to use it . I know there is the other kind of moving a Mountain through faith on Mathew 17:20.
Here in Fargo on south University Drive K Mart is closing . I worked at the West Acres Kmart when it was closing and I bought a black and white Lee denim jean sign later people were talking about Robert Edward Lee. Just months ago i met by phone a person with middle name Lee I knew it would repeat . Cavalier, ND yes we had a black Cavalier car during the 90s.One day me and Diana daughters friend were going to Uvalde and I burned the engine half way there . Now in Grand Forks, ND I also worked at Kmart only days and by then things were repeating the manager i remembered a woman showed us around the store she said she loved to collect dolls because when she was small she was poor and didn't have any will i can say i was very poor and only had one doll but their is another reason why there were no dolls in the house. remember I said mother was raised
About music records eight -track cassettes CD's i got from other people
Gary Lewis and the playboys his music been playing on radio. now i see Jerry lee Lewis born September 29, 1935
Today October 9, 2019 again I am reminded I need to write about who was running for governor under La Raza Unida Party Ramsey Muniz as i looked him up I see ex governor Dolph Briscoe and remembered January2008 news on radio about the death of his granddaughter. Political prisoner Ramsey Muniz did have charisma and was and is smart but you also need a strong mind be able to know when you need to get away from certain people who will bring you down. Big brother used to say what saved him from prison was coming to work on the fields because in TX gangs wanted him so did the law. In Crystal City when children were small and growing it was the new law and still they were recruiting boys to boot camp preparing them for prisons nothing had changed only now it was more on single poor mothers and from the same Raza= Race.
October 11, 2019 It was 2008 I was with niece Gracie in her car so was her mother Connie and sister Barbara. I don't remember if Maria was with us but we were on our way to San Antonio to visit first brother Luis then Ricky who were in different hospitals when for the second time i think I heard it on radio or just Connie and Gracie started the conversation about what i understood Briscoe granddaughter parents were acquaintance or knew well the cousins Lara. I just heard them talked didn't get into the conversation. I was feeling bad brother was dying and Ricky was very sick too and now not only my older siblings other children were heard on me but now the whole world was also doing weird things like repeating . Now I know its all from God. Now for a short time my two brothers worked remolding or adding to the first state bank of Uvalde i remember Luis used to mentioned they were working at the governor Briscoe bank. there is more that went on this ride
October 10, 2019 Besides drugs what is the other weakness of a Chicano Man in power or out of power ? A Bleach blonde white woman what happened to Cisneros she wanted money money for a broken promise. October 13, 2019 One day I was somewhere in San Antonio an older lady setting closed by me started a the conversation about how disappointed the people there were about Cisneros. I guess there were thinking like many of us. He will be our first Chicano governor even maybe the first Chicano president. Now there is nothing wrong with a single man having any kind of women he wants but when man is married there is a problem. Many times Chicanos to get somewhere they really need to be close to perfect we get no forgiveness no second chance.
October 11, 2019 Trump, I think who were kissing your ass might be going to jail. Omar is just one of the reasons you might get reelected if something else doesn't happened.
We really need a third Party. I talked to white people and Chicanos who are living here they say the Democratic Party is lost and so is Trump.
October 13,2019 now i don't know how hard its living in Mexico or in South America or in the Middle East but i can tell you how hard it was for my grandparents parents for myself and my family. Even with an education and experience a good job with fair pay and fair treatment its hard to find .
This past Wednesday i went to the post office because it looked like if i was going to need a passport to get to Canada. Now i am at the post in Fargo looking to the left side where i seen others taking their pictures for a passport a tall white man asks me if i needed a passport i said yes would i need one to get to Canada he says yes you need one to get to Mexico. now i am not mentioning Mexico because i don't need to go to Mexico his going by how i looked not by what i am asking him for. man gave me a form told me to read it wrote on it how much i had to pay again mentioning me going to Mexico again i said Canada. later back to the days in south TX when we needed no passports to get to Mexico and about the mango
we went to see the joker movie. October 18, 2019 what came in mind was this is a Republican movie but also had to do with bullying in grown ups mental or not mental and about Republicans favorite Toy the gun.
October 18, 2019 Facebook is scary I had to used it because like everything else in my life i was doing someone else a favor by sending a message today i got in a whole lots of pictures of people I don't know. Who are they!? Then i couldn't get out Facebook wanted a picture of me i have no pictures i want others to see this blogger is enough for me. Facebook is for people with a lot of time on their hands.
October 18, 2019 pregnant women trying to get into the USA because they want their babies born here i also know of USA couples having babies and not pay their rent because they had to pay some money to the hospital . for many poor people here take away food stamps and Section 8 and see what we have. what the government should do is find a way to make other country leaders start taking care of their own people and stop fighting.
October 21, 2019 Trump sends troops to Saudi Arabia? Why? who is getting the 100% of money from oils in exchanged for USA blood? Now who! If we are to get out
October22, 2019 there was a time we hadn't cross Alvacado's and Mango's from Mexico to the USA. Today I heard about Mango's Restaurant here in Fargo where we dine in once in awhile and i remembered i haven't written about the day in the 70s when Petra and one or two of her sisters were there but i know her mother was we were walking back to the USA or were told to get off the car because Mexican border patrol had smelled our mango's they wanted to check our purses.
Now I don't want to hear the we are all Immigrants! No we are Not!! Not me!! But ! October 23, 2019 I know! I know! Finish what I started but give me a break! British younger ones have problems!? they should take one of my days see what problems are!! they only talk about themselves what about the nurse who took her life for just saying a few good words mother and child was doing good ? shes never remembered right!? these people should be very thank everyday be at church giving thanks to God they have it so easy.
October 24, 2019 too much not enough time when i was a child and me and other children were staying at the St Joseph's church i didn't know the numbers to the store across the street which is 101 Hornbacher's grocery store. now there was a young woman who kissed us children goodnight and a Deacon who would take me and other children to our home. on our way he would buy us ice cream i always would asked him to stop at the Hornbachers store but he would say no lets wait we will stop in Mapleton which we did I always asked for a lime Popsicle. Now this is what I remember about the young woman who came to visited us. She dressed fashionable like in a pencil dress and her hair was up like a beehive hair style everybody liked her. i can always write more but no time need to start on something else on mind.
Now when i was growing up I only knew my world saw a lot a child abused and even went through some of my own but i never knew how it was to live under a one parent roof now i know it must have been much harder especially because everyone around was poor no help or very little help from the government. True story about a single mother in the late 60s early 70s now mother and daughter are both died but daughter had once told me that her mother had gotten mad with her because of a man she had brought in their home mother got jealous with daughter. Nowadays i see a lot of single mothers and some single fathers I know what is like i am one but i question when something so bad goes on like a child being so much neglected physically abused and even sexually abused by someone who doesn't live at the child home and present parent don't know what is going on !? Where was the present parent when this was going on by in outsider !? Was this an all welcome in house!? when i asked my father for his blessing to move to the south TX valley along went mother with me for a few months. Parents wanted to know why i wanted to go elsewhere but didn't asked me just one parent went with me but mother knew i wasn't pregnant for sure thee were a lot of evidence around me to prove it
October27,2019 Now my mother had it bad growing up she did only what she knew could but there was neglect like but i did ate a marble i burned my little hand the
Leora's house yes there were our across neighbors at Chamber when they came from from Mexico. I used to play with Rosa who as a child had Polio.
October 28, 2019 Once my mother told me that in the old neighborhood there was a time homes had no inside electricity. Poor people had to use lamps that had a wick to light up with Kerosene. One thing i know there were no street lights the moon was our light on nights we visited Maria and her adapted niece Belia Juarez.
music we listened to Elvis but also Wolly Bully 96 Tears and hang on Sloopy which many of us thought it was Lupe then we were corrected.
I ate a red hot pepper my uncles had hanging outside their
October28, 2019 Before coming to Moorhead in 2009 when I was in Crystal City I had stopped reading the newspaper and other current magazines because all in some way were repeating so i would checked out books written before 2004 from the library. one of them was the story of Thomas Edison.
October 28, 2019 Because we took the Jefferson bus to South Dakota for a concert before I had this on mind about the day when teacher at Pharr -San Juan -Alamo took us students to the library and the fast book i saw was Go ask Alice
Now I want to know why we TX migrants children never got free lunch when we went back to TX?
October 31, 2019 Oh now I understand the royal problem a bit better. Advise for Meghan and husband Harry stay away from father Thomas and 1/2 sister Samantha run away from them! They will always bring you and your family problems. Meghan you will always have problems with the public because you are not full white not your fault God just made you that way. Father and sister are very jealous of you. Now you don't have to give a dine to your father at all if you don't want to. Let sister Samantha. Meghan you do know you are breaking ground? Maybe Someday people will see a child as dark as your mother playing outside the Royal Palace. later why i kind of didn't like the name Victory and why I didn't liked my name but now I do thanks to one of the cousins at a family funeral.
November 7, 2019 One day children still in school maybe in Junior high don't remember we went shopping at the Eagle Pass mall but first we stopped at the Pizza Hut on Main and Johnny Canales was at a table with a blonde woman but not Anglo at the other corner. I told my children i am going over to say hi to Johnny children said nothing but i didn't go because i knew they would be embarrassed of mother doing such thing . we used to watched Johnny Canales show but before that show there used to be a show in the 70s i believe was aired from Laredo, TX that show my parents also liked to watched. today i just learned his wife name is Nora which it repeats.
November 7, 2019 I don't know who i will be voting for in the 2020 Election there is no candidate who to vote for hopefully someone will jump in who cares about the forgotten people like me.
November 9, 2019 One day when lady Diana was all in the news I think it was about her separation. Rosa Luna was cleaning brushes or doing something else in the shampoo bowl looked up to me asked me something like "what is all the fuss about in the news what is that about?' I really didn't have time to explain to her what I knew but now i can write what I knew since i was a child and what my father told me and what now i know somethings repeat i really can't take a break its all round me. I checked out the Victoria series movies this what repeat. names Cecilia Albert Crystal and Tumour liver cancer. when my mother got pregnant of me because she was going on 44 she thought she had a tumor in her stomach. lady Flora died from a liver tumor at age 33. prince Albert husband of Victoria named his idea Crystal Palace. I was in junior high when father told me about the Kings and Queens what he knew about them . My father said that once there were no more kings it was getting closer for the coming of the real king who was Jesus Christ. He said the royal family in London had just stayed in royalty meaning that was it. why I don't like the name Victoria is that i only seen poor little Mexican Victoria's but it has been a royal name and i guess it comes from the word victory. Now Queen Victoria that was her second name prince Albert that was his second name. I call my son by his second name Albert. now nursery rhymes as children we used play. London bridge is falling down, Tweedledee Tweedledum the mouse now that i moved had my encounters with them. November 21, 2019 now father told me royal families and rich ones married within their own but at one point stopped the tradition because the babies were being born mentally or physically deformed not quite healthy
November 9, 2019 now what i have noticed is that Middle East people many of them come to this country speaking better and educated than us who were born here. I know i had bad teacher growing up in Crystal this was done so poverty among Chicanos would continue but why were the Middle East leaders educating English to their people? Update
November 17, 2019 Today a lot to write that repeats but like always i can only stay for a while because i have ether things to do. This past week i felt my heart beating a bit faster so Friday I went to get my blood pressure checked at family health it was 111 over 72 which for me its good i had taken the stairs up to get to third floor most of the time that's what i do and for me its no sweat. Now daughter and one of grandsons wanted to go out to the movies last night its what we did. i am always busy to know whats showing at the movies at West Acres. i had no clue what we were going to see. we went to see Doctor Sleep. now last week i had checked out the movies Bull season 2
November 20, 2019 this morning i saw a boy looked between Hispanic and black he was wearing a green hoodie sweater he walked from somewhere 32 street south to 17 street Lewis and Clark Elementary school. Boy must have missed the school bus I really hope he won't missed it tomorrow morning i heard its going to be very cold rain or snow. I sure felt bad for him i wanted to afford him a ride but i didn't because little boy don't know me. Little boy reminded me when i walked from home to school and from school to home twice because there were no free lunch for migrant children at the Grammar . Though our parents worked for farmers who received government money and land we got nothing not even free lunch .
November 21, 2019 New words Quid Pro Quo . Now all eyes are on USA and so are mine because if God gives me 30 something more years daughter and I want to know if History books will write the truth nothing but the truth so help us God.
November 23, 2019 Mr Fred Rogers it repeats. what doesn't repeat? Nothing because in a way or other everything i can relate to and i can write about it.
November 24, 2019 About Thanksgiving. Now remember the movie La Bamba where Ritchie and Donna are in the car and driving by land full of orange trees? That's that way Alamo road used to look like when brother in law Rey and sister Barbara bought land and put a Mobile home. Later in time they started building the house which is the one that stands right now. Now about who came here first was it Spanish Cortes Columbus or the Vikings people living breathing people were already here. Now many times I have asked like Bob asked his mother in the movie La Bamba, What about me!!
November 25, 2019 How I remember familia Fernandez first Thanksgiving. When I was little before I started school we were so poor I never knew what Thanksgiving was all about maybe along the way i heard parents going to church to give thanks to God for what little we had because they were church going people. When i started school teacher would give me a paper for me to drew a turkey by spreading my little hand and drawing through my small fingers then i would drew eyes and feathers to make it look like a bird. One day i don't remember what age I was but by then we lived on Crockett st and Connie went by to pick me up and by then i heard some people would cook turkeys to celebrate thanksgiving. We had a small stove but i don't remember any grown up using it to cook maybe it didn't work or grown ups didn't know how to use it i don't know. We went by the Maria Rodriguez sister to El Mirror. i need to stop now there is much more on how it is to live poor in the USA. Now I think Maria said she had bought a chicken so they were going to have chicken and other foods for Thanksgiving.
November 25, 2019 now God keeps me poor and keeps me lonely but if He wants me to be somewhere He will take me there. Yesterday Sunday I went to the Dakota ranch looking for cookie cooking sheet when i saw the movie Fahrenheit 9/11 i had never seen this film before very educational i learned a lot
Yes, God has sure blessed Gallagher but not the boy he killed . Bad teachers I can't even put a sentence together.
November 29, 2019 One day i think it was 2grade for a while there was a music teacher who colored her classroom with fun pictures on the wall and we
November 27, 2019 I hope and pray tomorrow the whole world gets to eat something.
November 27, 2019 Trump you are making a mistake do you really want more people at the border?
November 29, 2019
November 30, 2019 Movie i checked out from library before buying Fahrenheit 9/11 was Forevermore about Karla Faye Tacker the second woman death row #777 to be executed in Texas under governor George W. Bush refused the final 11 hour to appeal to block her who for his own reasons did not pardon this woman from death row. Karla said she did it because of drugs i say she did it was of the evilness inside her and bad hard life she had but when she received Christ this is when she found peace. She truly had converted and she was saved.Later George W Bush became president and did he really sent soldiers to Iraq to kill many people? now why was the first woman to be killed in a prison ? A Mexican woman!
November 30, 2019 Now i am tried of hearing this country was built on migration!!! and why is it that Americans are not producing because babies are expansive life is expansive even to die is expansive!! If life was better for us people here in the USA families would be growing. when we were still in school i remember Maryann sister to Petra saying she only wanted one child i don't know how many children she's got but life has been hard for poor people.
there is a lot of ignorant people who say this country was built on emigration but this is not true if you really look into history you will see it was because of land that was stolen from people who were already here and because of people brought from Africa to work for free. Mexicans had worked very hard to make the US what is today.
December 1, 2019 Now if you think i write because i like writing on this blogger than you are crazier then you think i am because most of the time i don't . I never asked for this i never went looking for it but when wired evil people and wired things first started like now i had nowhere to go no one who would listen so i was force to learned about computers to see how they would help me put what was going on around me. Now there is a lot of bad people around me giving me hints like this past weekend a man who looked well dressed that i know don't need to come sit at the Moorhead library looked at me as if he knew something I would later know about. this are mind games let me tell you one of them and its because of what I write and many of you don't like.
November 25, 2019 I went to Holy Cross pantry . Sometimes when i am out and its a Monday and i am closed to the pantry i go get a box of food not because i use it all myself but i know of mothers with small children who need food so i give them some keep a bit for myself. The spoil i threw away no need to get people sick but i noticed the dark side of these people and this past Monday they played with my mind and yes they can refused me they have it written on their outside wall. I went in two women who asked for my ID one asked me if i live in Moorhead by now she knows i do. now when all people were outside waiting for doors to open two women coming from different ways one white the other looked middle east and hair covered both wearing flip flops. this day was cold very cold. now i get box when i get home a roll of dirty toilet paper was December 2, 2019 now you dark people stay with your food i really don't need it and remember where to use it.
December 2, 2019 In 1986 when we went back to TX nothing had changed everything was the same. sisters would come around only when i was needed. Now Three Rivers i never knew that town until Barbara asked me to go with her more to come
good housekeeping magazine Mall of America The Judd's cookies recipes
The Indian Horse movie
September 7, 2019 I can go back to any part of my writing where i left off and start again only if i had the time . Now Omarosa when she said all who hate Trump will bow down to him that I didn't like not that I hate Trump because I hate nobody even when they do me wrong but I only bow down to God and this is where she learned how to say those words in His book. Now she mentions The Spook Who Sat By The Door. now i asked why banned? Along the way I might have seen this movie on TV but never payed attention until now
September 10, 2019 I heard this true story many times before from many other places, let the rich people come in by air planes and we will give them more and let the poor needy people stay behind in the Bahamas.
Now who is running for president that cares about this poor Chicana? Nobody. I hear a lot of caring for the poor and rich illegal immigrants and other things but none talk about people who struggle here.
September 11, 2019 Why Trump why invite the Taliban for a peace talk on the week of 911? When all they think of is killing they have no peace but I guess there is still hope.
September 12. 2019 I can write all day how things around me repeat but i get bored so to clear my mind i go to the news which some repeat but why Jorge Ramos as Democrat moderator? Silly question there are no other choice.
September 17, 2019 Trump should not even go there let the Middle East people deal with Iran. Iran is just looking for ways to start a fight with the USA than they blame us they love to fight because they know the USA will feel sorry and pick up the tab. Now what repeats everyday i have some of those like the Odessa TX Bush Malissa who i met at people ready .
September 19, 2019 I didn't know who was Cokie Roberts to me she was just a familiar face on TV news but I always wondered is that her real name? Cokie had a wonderful life both parents were in the house of representatives. She was a journalist good marriage good family so much different than my life and still i knew that if I looked her up I would find more things that would repeat besides Roberts and her death in September and i did. Her real name was Mary Martha. Days before the number 17 kept coming up. Rebecca I just met another one this past Tuesday.. She had a sister named Barbara so do I. She will be miss.
September 21, 2019 weeks before i heard on N PR or MP R about how now more males are joining ballet several times i had watched the movie Billy Elliot about am 11 year old boy son of a coal mine worker who start dancing . I do have a short story about me dancing inside a grocery store then my niece Grace walking on her toes one summer she came with us to North Dakota.
September 21, 2019 The homeless in America I can also write about that. One day in the late 80s or early 90s outside on the yard neighbor Gilberto Garcia told my brother he went to visit his brother in California and he saw a lot of homeless people living under a bridge. Both men joked and laughed about them not living in California because it was harder for poor people.
September 27, 2019 Years ago when I first saw the picture of migrant Florence Leona Thompson it stayed in my mind. Now with the internet I know a bit more about her . She was a white widow woman 32 years old with children when her face became the look of poverty during the great depression. She had 11 children liked music born September 1, 1903 died September 16, 1983
September 27, 2019 Now about Joel Osteen being blessed forget about the parking spot at the mall he was blessed since the day he was born because he was born white. Osteen will never have a problem with the law or finding a good paying job even if he wasn't educated or a preacher anything he would say or do would become gold he didn't even had to try hard. Houston city needs to remember if there is another disaster you need to go knock at his big solid doors to see if he opens because Osteen needs to be told poor people need his help or else he won't bothered.
Now about the female white officer who thought she was in her apartment and killed a black man one day that happened to me while I threw the trash out in San Marcos but let me tell you fast my brain worked I knew I was in the wrong apartment because of the furniture and because of the one or two white young men who were inside the apartment. This was in the first years of people and other things i noticed were repeating with everything that had to do with me. During those years I wasn't getting enough sleep my mind was a mess and still i knew what was going on so I don't believe the woman made a mistake there is no way she would have gotten confused.
I think it was in school when all of the sudden a man walked in. We were asked what he was wearing what would we remembered about him. This kind of test I know officers are given to remember their surroundings.
October 1, 2019 Street I drive by quite often and house numbers that repeat are 12 Ave south and 10th Street south in Fargo are 1111. October 1, 2019 On radio i was listening to Gloria Steibnem born in Ohio and i thought good for her and the rest of white women I wish i could be paid and be treat at least like one of them but i am not because i am not white no matter if i am i don't want to burn my bra or kill my babies
October 3, 2019 I am very much afraid of people with guns. We never had guns inside our home or on cars. I am also afraid of people with certain kind of dogs that when i see them I just walk the other way i know many people used both to intimidated others .Some people with guns can used them say it was self defense say they fear for their life. Ten years passable out in 5 or 2 is not enough. I know about forgiveness this is how i have survived this long. I know there is God but I know browns and blacks have been sent to prison for many more years and are libel for lesser crimes than taking a life. What repeats Amber and Dallas and if I haven't mentioned Amber later on I will.
October 5, 2019 this black man family who was killed by Amber in Dallas did they just got here from another country and still don't get it!? After the I want a hug can I please have a hug with the bleach blonde killer . You know what was missing bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolate candies. where she's going for a short time there are many Bibles many good books to read anything on opening the legs and you touch me I tough you only touching the good book if she really wants to .
Before this was on TV I had been reading the book In Contempt Christopher Darden and this is what i can say about what he wrote about how the black people acted and why they acted that way Christopher said he didn't like or didn't agreed
October 5, 2019 did I missed something on the Raw Video in Johnson county white trooper screaming at a black man in a car then shooting him three times on April 4, ? Maybe the black man was showing the officer he had a gun only that because if the black man wanted to shoot the officer wouldn't the black man gotten off the car on his left side and done just that ? I can't really hear or see what the black man is saying only that the officer is saying don't do it! Don't do it! Do what? This is why i am so afraid being stopped by a police officer because they might panic and don't like me and might shot me this can also happened within my own Race officers that is.
October 9, 2019 growing up 70% money was our problem i could say raising my children almost alone was the same. For me money can also move mountains all you need to do is buy a bulldozer and learn how to use it . I know there is the other kind of moving a Mountain through faith on Mathew 17:20.
Here in Fargo on south University Drive K Mart is closing . I worked at the West Acres Kmart when it was closing and I bought a black and white Lee denim jean sign later people were talking about Robert Edward Lee. Just months ago i met by phone a person with middle name Lee I knew it would repeat . Cavalier, ND yes we had a black Cavalier car during the 90s.One day me and Diana daughters friend were going to Uvalde and I burned the engine half way there . Now in Grand Forks, ND I also worked at Kmart only days and by then things were repeating the manager i remembered a woman showed us around the store she said she loved to collect dolls because when she was small she was poor and didn't have any will i can say i was very poor and only had one doll but their is another reason why there were no dolls in the house. remember I said mother was raised
About music records eight -track cassettes CD's i got from other people
Gary Lewis and the playboys his music been playing on radio. now i see Jerry lee Lewis born September 29, 1935
Today October 9, 2019 again I am reminded I need to write about who was running for governor under La Raza Unida Party Ramsey Muniz as i looked him up I see ex governor Dolph Briscoe and remembered January2008 news on radio about the death of his granddaughter. Political prisoner Ramsey Muniz did have charisma and was and is smart but you also need a strong mind be able to know when you need to get away from certain people who will bring you down. Big brother used to say what saved him from prison was coming to work on the fields because in TX gangs wanted him so did the law. In Crystal City when children were small and growing it was the new law and still they were recruiting boys to boot camp preparing them for prisons nothing had changed only now it was more on single poor mothers and from the same Raza= Race.
October 11, 2019 It was 2008 I was with niece Gracie in her car so was her mother Connie and sister Barbara. I don't remember if Maria was with us but we were on our way to San Antonio to visit first brother Luis then Ricky who were in different hospitals when for the second time i think I heard it on radio or just Connie and Gracie started the conversation about what i understood Briscoe granddaughter parents were acquaintance or knew well the cousins Lara. I just heard them talked didn't get into the conversation. I was feeling bad brother was dying and Ricky was very sick too and now not only my older siblings other children were heard on me but now the whole world was also doing weird things like repeating . Now I know its all from God. Now for a short time my two brothers worked remolding or adding to the first state bank of Uvalde i remember Luis used to mentioned they were working at the governor Briscoe bank. there is more that went on this ride
October 10, 2019 Besides drugs what is the other weakness of a Chicano Man in power or out of power ? A Bleach blonde white woman what happened to Cisneros she wanted money money for a broken promise. October 13, 2019 One day I was somewhere in San Antonio an older lady setting closed by me started a the conversation about how disappointed the people there were about Cisneros. I guess there were thinking like many of us. He will be our first Chicano governor even maybe the first Chicano president. Now there is nothing wrong with a single man having any kind of women he wants but when man is married there is a problem. Many times Chicanos to get somewhere they really need to be close to perfect we get no forgiveness no second chance.
October 11, 2019 Trump, I think who were kissing your ass might be going to jail. Omar is just one of the reasons you might get reelected if something else doesn't happened.
We really need a third Party. I talked to white people and Chicanos who are living here they say the Democratic Party is lost and so is Trump.
October 13,2019 now i don't know how hard its living in Mexico or in South America or in the Middle East but i can tell you how hard it was for my grandparents parents for myself and my family. Even with an education and experience a good job with fair pay and fair treatment its hard to find .
This past Wednesday i went to the post office because it looked like if i was going to need a passport to get to Canada. Now i am at the post in Fargo looking to the left side where i seen others taking their pictures for a passport a tall white man asks me if i needed a passport i said yes would i need one to get to Canada he says yes you need one to get to Mexico. now i am not mentioning Mexico because i don't need to go to Mexico his going by how i looked not by what i am asking him for. man gave me a form told me to read it wrote on it how much i had to pay again mentioning me going to Mexico again i said Canada. later back to the days in south TX when we needed no passports to get to Mexico and about the mango
we went to see the joker movie. October 18, 2019 what came in mind was this is a Republican movie but also had to do with bullying in grown ups mental or not mental and about Republicans favorite Toy the gun.
October 18, 2019 Facebook is scary I had to used it because like everything else in my life i was doing someone else a favor by sending a message today i got in a whole lots of pictures of people I don't know. Who are they!? Then i couldn't get out Facebook wanted a picture of me i have no pictures i want others to see this blogger is enough for me. Facebook is for people with a lot of time on their hands.
October 18, 2019 pregnant women trying to get into the USA because they want their babies born here i also know of USA couples having babies and not pay their rent because they had to pay some money to the hospital . for many poor people here take away food stamps and Section 8 and see what we have. what the government should do is find a way to make other country leaders start taking care of their own people and stop fighting.
October 21, 2019 Trump sends troops to Saudi Arabia? Why? who is getting the 100% of money from oils in exchanged for USA blood? Now who! If we are to get out
October22, 2019 there was a time we hadn't cross Alvacado's and Mango's from Mexico to the USA. Today I heard about Mango's Restaurant here in Fargo where we dine in once in awhile and i remembered i haven't written about the day in the 70s when Petra and one or two of her sisters were there but i know her mother was we were walking back to the USA or were told to get off the car because Mexican border patrol had smelled our mango's they wanted to check our purses.
Now I don't want to hear the we are all Immigrants! No we are Not!! Not me!! But ! October 23, 2019 I know! I know! Finish what I started but give me a break! British younger ones have problems!? they should take one of my days see what problems are!! they only talk about themselves what about the nurse who took her life for just saying a few good words mother and child was doing good ? shes never remembered right!? these people should be very thank everyday be at church giving thanks to God they have it so easy.
October 24, 2019 too much not enough time when i was a child and me and other children were staying at the St Joseph's church i didn't know the numbers to the store across the street which is 101 Hornbacher's grocery store. now there was a young woman who kissed us children goodnight and a Deacon who would take me and other children to our home. on our way he would buy us ice cream i always would asked him to stop at the Hornbachers store but he would say no lets wait we will stop in Mapleton which we did I always asked for a lime Popsicle. Now this is what I remember about the young woman who came to visited us. She dressed fashionable like in a pencil dress and her hair was up like a beehive hair style everybody liked her. i can always write more but no time need to start on something else on mind.
Now when i was growing up I only knew my world saw a lot a child abused and even went through some of my own but i never knew how it was to live under a one parent roof now i know it must have been much harder especially because everyone around was poor no help or very little help from the government. True story about a single mother in the late 60s early 70s now mother and daughter are both died but daughter had once told me that her mother had gotten mad with her because of a man she had brought in their home mother got jealous with daughter. Nowadays i see a lot of single mothers and some single fathers I know what is like i am one but i question when something so bad goes on like a child being so much neglected physically abused and even sexually abused by someone who doesn't live at the child home and present parent don't know what is going on !? Where was the present parent when this was going on by in outsider !? Was this an all welcome in house!? when i asked my father for his blessing to move to the south TX valley along went mother with me for a few months. Parents wanted to know why i wanted to go elsewhere but didn't asked me just one parent went with me but mother knew i wasn't pregnant for sure thee were a lot of evidence around me to prove it
October27,2019 Now my mother had it bad growing up she did only what she knew could but there was neglect like but i did ate a marble i burned my little hand the
Leora's house yes there were our across neighbors at Chamber when they came from from Mexico. I used to play with Rosa who as a child had Polio.
October 28, 2019 Once my mother told me that in the old neighborhood there was a time homes had no inside electricity. Poor people had to use lamps that had a wick to light up with Kerosene. One thing i know there were no street lights the moon was our light on nights we visited Maria and her adapted niece Belia Juarez.
music we listened to Elvis but also Wolly Bully 96 Tears and hang on Sloopy which many of us thought it was Lupe then we were corrected.
I ate a red hot pepper my uncles had hanging outside their
October28, 2019 Before coming to Moorhead in 2009 when I was in Crystal City I had stopped reading the newspaper and other current magazines because all in some way were repeating so i would checked out books written before 2004 from the library. one of them was the story of Thomas Edison.
October 28, 2019 Because we took the Jefferson bus to South Dakota for a concert before I had this on mind about the day when teacher at Pharr -San Juan -Alamo took us students to the library and the fast book i saw was Go ask Alice
Now I want to know why we TX migrants children never got free lunch when we went back to TX?
October 31, 2019 Oh now I understand the royal problem a bit better. Advise for Meghan and husband Harry stay away from father Thomas and 1/2 sister Samantha run away from them! They will always bring you and your family problems. Meghan you will always have problems with the public because you are not full white not your fault God just made you that way. Father and sister are very jealous of you. Now you don't have to give a dine to your father at all if you don't want to. Let sister Samantha. Meghan you do know you are breaking ground? Maybe Someday people will see a child as dark as your mother playing outside the Royal Palace. later why i kind of didn't like the name Victory and why I didn't liked my name but now I do thanks to one of the cousins at a family funeral.
November 7, 2019 One day children still in school maybe in Junior high don't remember we went shopping at the Eagle Pass mall but first we stopped at the Pizza Hut on Main and Johnny Canales was at a table with a blonde woman but not Anglo at the other corner. I told my children i am going over to say hi to Johnny children said nothing but i didn't go because i knew they would be embarrassed of mother doing such thing . we used to watched Johnny Canales show but before that show there used to be a show in the 70s i believe was aired from Laredo, TX that show my parents also liked to watched. today i just learned his wife name is Nora which it repeats.
November 7, 2019 I don't know who i will be voting for in the 2020 Election there is no candidate who to vote for hopefully someone will jump in who cares about the forgotten people like me.
November 9, 2019 One day when lady Diana was all in the news I think it was about her separation. Rosa Luna was cleaning brushes or doing something else in the shampoo bowl looked up to me asked me something like "what is all the fuss about in the news what is that about?' I really didn't have time to explain to her what I knew but now i can write what I knew since i was a child and what my father told me and what now i know somethings repeat i really can't take a break its all round me. I checked out the Victoria series movies this what repeat. names Cecilia Albert Crystal and Tumour liver cancer. when my mother got pregnant of me because she was going on 44 she thought she had a tumor in her stomach. lady Flora died from a liver tumor at age 33. prince Albert husband of Victoria named his idea Crystal Palace. I was in junior high when father told me about the Kings and Queens what he knew about them . My father said that once there were no more kings it was getting closer for the coming of the real king who was Jesus Christ. He said the royal family in London had just stayed in royalty meaning that was it. why I don't like the name Victoria is that i only seen poor little Mexican Victoria's but it has been a royal name and i guess it comes from the word victory. Now Queen Victoria that was her second name prince Albert that was his second name. I call my son by his second name Albert. now nursery rhymes as children we used play. London bridge is falling down, Tweedledee Tweedledum the mouse now that i moved had my encounters with them. November 21, 2019 now father told me royal families and rich ones married within their own but at one point stopped the tradition because the babies were being born mentally or physically deformed not quite healthy
November 9, 2019 now what i have noticed is that Middle East people many of them come to this country speaking better and educated than us who were born here. I know i had bad teacher growing up in Crystal this was done so poverty among Chicanos would continue but why were the Middle East leaders educating English to their people? Update
November 17, 2019 Today a lot to write that repeats but like always i can only stay for a while because i have ether things to do. This past week i felt my heart beating a bit faster so Friday I went to get my blood pressure checked at family health it was 111 over 72 which for me its good i had taken the stairs up to get to third floor most of the time that's what i do and for me its no sweat. Now daughter and one of grandsons wanted to go out to the movies last night its what we did. i am always busy to know whats showing at the movies at West Acres. i had no clue what we were going to see. we went to see Doctor Sleep. now last week i had checked out the movies Bull season 2
November 20, 2019 this morning i saw a boy looked between Hispanic and black he was wearing a green hoodie sweater he walked from somewhere 32 street south to 17 street Lewis and Clark Elementary school. Boy must have missed the school bus I really hope he won't missed it tomorrow morning i heard its going to be very cold rain or snow. I sure felt bad for him i wanted to afford him a ride but i didn't because little boy don't know me. Little boy reminded me when i walked from home to school and from school to home twice because there were no free lunch for migrant children at the Grammar . Though our parents worked for farmers who received government money and land we got nothing not even free lunch .
November 21, 2019 New words Quid Pro Quo . Now all eyes are on USA and so are mine because if God gives me 30 something more years daughter and I want to know if History books will write the truth nothing but the truth so help us God.
November 23, 2019 Mr Fred Rogers it repeats. what doesn't repeat? Nothing because in a way or other everything i can relate to and i can write about it.
November 24, 2019 About Thanksgiving. Now remember the movie La Bamba where Ritchie and Donna are in the car and driving by land full of orange trees? That's that way Alamo road used to look like when brother in law Rey and sister Barbara bought land and put a Mobile home. Later in time they started building the house which is the one that stands right now. Now about who came here first was it Spanish Cortes Columbus or the Vikings people living breathing people were already here. Now many times I have asked like Bob asked his mother in the movie La Bamba, What about me!!
November 25, 2019 How I remember familia Fernandez first Thanksgiving. When I was little before I started school we were so poor I never knew what Thanksgiving was all about maybe along the way i heard parents going to church to give thanks to God for what little we had because they were church going people. When i started school teacher would give me a paper for me to drew a turkey by spreading my little hand and drawing through my small fingers then i would drew eyes and feathers to make it look like a bird. One day i don't remember what age I was but by then we lived on Crockett st and Connie went by to pick me up and by then i heard some people would cook turkeys to celebrate thanksgiving. We had a small stove but i don't remember any grown up using it to cook maybe it didn't work or grown ups didn't know how to use it i don't know. We went by the Maria Rodriguez sister to El Mirror. i need to stop now there is much more on how it is to live poor in the USA. Now I think Maria said she had bought a chicken so they were going to have chicken and other foods for Thanksgiving.
November 25, 2019 now God keeps me poor and keeps me lonely but if He wants me to be somewhere He will take me there. Yesterday Sunday I went to the Dakota ranch looking for cookie cooking sheet when i saw the movie Fahrenheit 9/11 i had never seen this film before very educational i learned a lot
Yes, God has sure blessed Gallagher but not the boy he killed . Bad teachers I can't even put a sentence together.
November 29, 2019 One day i think it was 2grade for a while there was a music teacher who colored her classroom with fun pictures on the wall and we
November 27, 2019 I hope and pray tomorrow the whole world gets to eat something.
November 27, 2019 Trump you are making a mistake do you really want more people at the border?
November 29, 2019
November 30, 2019 Movie i checked out from library before buying Fahrenheit 9/11 was Forevermore about Karla Faye Tacker the second woman death row #777 to be executed in Texas under governor George W. Bush refused the final 11 hour to appeal to block her who for his own reasons did not pardon this woman from death row. Karla said she did it because of drugs i say she did it was of the evilness inside her and bad hard life she had but when she received Christ this is when she found peace. She truly had converted and she was saved.Later George W Bush became president and did he really sent soldiers to Iraq to kill many people? now why was the first woman to be killed in a prison ? A Mexican woman!
November 30, 2019 Now i am tried of hearing this country was built on migration!!! and why is it that Americans are not producing because babies are expansive life is expansive even to die is expansive!! If life was better for us people here in the USA families would be growing. when we were still in school i remember Maryann sister to Petra saying she only wanted one child i don't know how many children she's got but life has been hard for poor people.
there is a lot of ignorant people who say this country was built on emigration but this is not true if you really look into history you will see it was because of land that was stolen from people who were already here and because of people brought from Africa to work for free. Mexicans had worked very hard to make the US what is today.
December 1, 2019 Now if you think i write because i like writing on this blogger than you are crazier then you think i am because most of the time i don't . I never asked for this i never went looking for it but when wired evil people and wired things first started like now i had nowhere to go no one who would listen so i was force to learned about computers to see how they would help me put what was going on around me. Now there is a lot of bad people around me giving me hints like this past weekend a man who looked well dressed that i know don't need to come sit at the Moorhead library looked at me as if he knew something I would later know about. this are mind games let me tell you one of them and its because of what I write and many of you don't like.
November 25, 2019 I went to Holy Cross pantry . Sometimes when i am out and its a Monday and i am closed to the pantry i go get a box of food not because i use it all myself but i know of mothers with small children who need food so i give them some keep a bit for myself. The spoil i threw away no need to get people sick but i noticed the dark side of these people and this past Monday they played with my mind and yes they can refused me they have it written on their outside wall. I went in two women who asked for my ID one asked me if i live in Moorhead by now she knows i do. now when all people were outside waiting for doors to open two women coming from different ways one white the other looked middle east and hair covered both wearing flip flops. this day was cold very cold. now i get box when i get home a roll of dirty toilet paper was December 2, 2019 now you dark people stay with your food i really don't need it and remember where to use it.
December 2, 2019 In 1986 when we went back to TX nothing had changed everything was the same. sisters would come around only when i was needed. Now Three Rivers i never knew that town until Barbara asked me to go with her more to come
good housekeeping magazine Mall of America The Judd's cookies recipes
The Indian Horse movie
Thursday, July 11, 2019
7/11/2017
July 11, 2019 I been thinking about in the early 70s or 80s not quite sure Petra Rodriguez told me she had gone to visited relatives or just someone she knew at the Mexico Chico and this is more or less what I remembered she telling me. She saw a baby who was very sick that she told them several times. "If you don't take this baby to a doctor the child will die." Later or that same day she told me the baby had died. Many babies children and adults not from Mexico not from any part of South America but born here in the USA that some say is a rich country have died and are still dying because they have No Money I say No Money to go see a doctor! I remembered my parents and heard of others using home remedies to try to cure health problem. One day when I was working at the Elementary a teacher gave me copies of home remedies I even remembered a Latino priest mentioned remedies at a Sunday sermon and made older ladies laughed.
I really feel for the mother of the 21 month toddler but where is the father? Watching the pictures it looks to me she had it good in Guatemala why risk it with a child? Now I remembered back when men would come looking for work not the women and their children and why is the USA responsible for health care food and shelter for people from other countries when in the first place has not and is not taking care of its own poor people? I don't have to close my eyes and imagine how hard it is to work walk for miles and still be hungry and don't pay my bills I lived it and so have others. Just days ago someone told me it won't be long when people at the border will want to sue the USA people to pay them money because they don't have good housing good food good health care while they wait in line. Now there will be more and more lawsuits because many do come sick and who is going to pay these American lawyers that are taking this lawsuits because its all about money.
July 17, 2019 Questions for the migrants at the border who want to apply for Asylum . How did this children who say they came alone got to the border by themselves? How did they get this far? Why are so many women with small children some even pregnant and no man!? Surely these women were having sex and getting pregnant? Here in the USA a mother who wants Welfare is asked who is the father so they can go after the father to pay up the child support . These women come with dreams and children but no men why!? Do they want the good old USA people to raised their children and be responsible for their lives while the men in their lives just get the fun!? The well kept mother who lose her child never mentioned the father
July 12, 2019 My mother told me of a time at a field she had to drink dirty water so dirty she used a cloth to filter the water that was used to irrigated through a ditch or canal. Now Rush Limbaugh is a bad person and ignorant by saying drinking water from a toilet is better water than where the people at the border been drinking. If he pays attention not all people come poor. The woman who lose her child is not poor I can tell by her very nice manicure long finger nails her beautiful long hair her proper court clothing. I know there are very poor women around Dilley, TX that have rough hands short nails because they used them to feed the farm animals and work the land . people from other countries can always visited their homes and even start a business come and go as they please.
Why would anyone even if they have it good in their country would still come to the USA? There are many reasons. Here if you get sick or don't want to work you can always get food stamps go under Section 8 go to a school have a chance to get ahead.
Dilley, TX where my father and brothers used to go buy watermelons to resell.
Now computer is giving me red lines but I am not selling you a book so I can't pay attention to mistakes I have too much to write. Now I heard that Texans people especially Chicano's have a lot of pride. An older woman in Colorado told me that we do have too much pride. Now Most men will work very hard to have what they can have and don't like to think they are poor or asked for government assistants .
July 13, 2019 Other things I am relate to
Why I am for marijuana even if I don't smoke it. One summer day in the 70s we were on the road going north or going south I can't remembered but we were tired and sweaty we stopped July 20, 2019 at what might have been a Sonic restaurant in Oklahoma City or Kansas City, Kansas a group of white young people were parked on our left side and it started smelling like Dope so they started looking at us and we started looking at them. Now my brother wasn't educated but he was street wise and started thinking and told Dad. "We better leave because if a police officer comes he will arrested all of us he will think its us and blame us for them getting high. Now I don't remembered if we ordered and got our food or if we just drove away. Now I believe that people who have been in prison for a long time and been put in solitary confinement for long times some have P T S D and should be given in as in option to use medical marijuana because many are also dealing with child abused even extreme poverty living conditions can mess up your mind. If by using a certain amount to ease the pain and released the bad memories. I hear its also good for arthritis. Now it wouldn't have worked for me before i knew it was from God because repetition were actual events going on it wasn't on my mind they were not memories. Many people brown and black have been sent to prison for using or selling marijuana and their lives have been shaken. If the government wants to benefit by them selling and taxing it to the people than let it be.
A toothpaste tube and a toothbrush inside a small fabric bag. July 16, 2019
Children traumatized.
July 15, 2019 This is something that happens to me all the time. Yesterday I had a lot in mind what I wanted to write and I was going to use one of the words I learned in spelling class with Taylor but it was Sunday libraries were closed. The word was nevertheless then today I heard Trump beat me to the punch.
Now the word Asylum is also new to me before I came here I never paid attention to what it meant now I know it and many others know it too.
July 16. 2019 When I was outside the Fargo's Federal building with my signs a white woman came up to me asked me if i was an Alien with my innocent thoughts I didn't know what to say because I am from this earth. Later on I thought who is she to asked me such question I am much more American than her. Now this question wasn't bad others would tell me. Bitch go back where you came from. I thought to myself. " No I am staying here where I come from in south TX its too hot and its too poor at least here I get to see how the rich people live. Who was left behind in TX many are still behind and this are born USA people and don't tell me I had my chance because my family never got anything free no chances were given to many of us ! Why I get upset that nobody in Washington cares about the poor people living here in southwest TX where I grew up. Now I remembered when big brother said, "it was good that we didn't built a bigger house with many rooms we would have not been able to keep up with the Taxes." Now our house was very small with the 6 of us thank goodness the older sisters married young but some of us had to sleep in the floor but we were much better than others many people had to rent old houses that looked more like chicken shack with dirt floor. Now I never thought about how others lived until one day we were in Austin i think it was cousin Carolina or Irene that started a conversation about a white man who had to do with the city council or something like that went to their home and he was in shock that it was a large family and asked, "where do you all sleep?" She told him we all are siblings so we all sleep close to each other and in the floor.
Why do you think in the 70s a lot of people were selling drugs because they like it ? Hell No !
July 18, 2019 What was I doing on July 20,1969 ? Hiding away from the TV news landing on the moon. What are some of the things that repeats? Apollo 11 and Module.
July 20, 2019 Now I know it might burn to the skin but Yes definitely we need a priest to go sprinkle Holy Water on Trump and Omar they both need cleansing. The Evangelicals did the touching praying to Trump but it didn't work because they all think the same way. Now Trump might be thinking he is talking to a woman when he talks to Omar but he is not. Muslin women here in the USA are the mirror of their Muslim men this is why she was quick to answered him back using his own words. Now I heard young Muslims women using the F word very freely as off nothing and acting with strong behavior that would not be allowed in their birth countries and even here inside their men home but is practiced with others.
July 20, 2019 Now what does Iran wants?Why play with us and others why is it provoking us to tension? Simple they want war but they want us or the British to start the war so they can say we are at fault. This is their strategy
July 22, 2019 Ricardo Rossello I am not asking you I am telling you get out!! You are no longer governor of Puerto Rico!! July 24, 2019 Yeah right! You think saying "Drain the Swamp" will help you like it does for Trump but it doesn't. You Ricardo got a lot to learn Trump is doing mostly for his white rich people you were supposed to have been helping your poor people but you weren't doing that you were only doing for yourself. Now what evidence are you destroying before you leave the office!?
Next why I say there are more lazy people now then ever before and gays and lesbians in the military why Trump should keep his mouth shut about this. Later a man in Crystal City nickname Peanut and Monica Lewinsky
July 24, 2019 Other things I can relate to Hammocks at Fargo's Island Park. Other words that repeat Doll = Muneca. and yes sometimes what i write makes me laugh but they are true stories
July 27, 2019 If you the people have Free Will that is very good for you because you can determine your present and your future even if you couldn't determine your pass. Now for me every day and night is about repeat. I straggle alone to understand many things like why is it that I get much more hammered by God and left alone. Last night was one of those nights i was thinking why is it that me being single mother poor and brown Mexican never get a break. I read a bit of Job to make sure what i was thinking was right. now Job was faithful to God but had a very good reason he was super rich!! His son's got turns on starting a party and even their sisters were invited to the parties and all other people came and eat drink and be merry. So when Satan told God Job is faithful because you give him but just take away. Job kept his faith and didn't sin when he blamed God for his suffering and after that God gave him more of everything back to him but what about when there is only poverty after poverty and suffering after suffering and problems keep coming and coming. Now nobody is gong to tell me its because of my sins my great parents and parents put together sins that's why now I am surrounded by problems keep knocking on my door telling me everything I say will be used against me in any Way Shape or Form but i guess i am not Job i wasn't chosen by God and anointed with oil. Now nobody can tell me my ancestors sinned more than white Trump and his ancestors and many other white people who have it very good generations to generations even when they sinned more by killing taking away land cheating and lying and having slaves to work on their stolen fields and controlling to get more. Why does the Bible says its easier for a camel to get through a needle than a rich man? Have you seen Trump in an old video where many women are chanting Donald Donald and his going crazy thinking and saying how many of these pussy's am I having for SEX. Now we know sex = pregnancies how many unwanted children were killed? It is harder for rich men to get to heaven because they can get hold of their temptations pleasures used people send people to kill others. Lie doing all sorts of sins and get away with it. Now what repeats? This morning someone knocks I asked who is it they said neighbor so i opened thinking it was an apartment neighbor but no it was Jehovah witness the ones i wrote I learned a lot yes i did stories of the old testimony. Now last night I got very little sleep doing things I had to do and worrying too which is the only thing I can do for free but if i don't worry i can't figure out if there is something i can do to fix things up. Two women one black one white at the door wanted to talk a bit asked me how I was I said not too good. The Good News was about who do you think here on earth is in control and guess what scripture they used? Job which then we got into a discussion because I hear its the evil but if you read into it God has the final word and the evil only does what God permits this and other things we did not agreed on. Now I asked them why is it that brown and black people get hammered the most. They didn't answered the question but said i would die for her than the white woman said the same i wasn't quick to answered but this is not true at all if they want to go that way. In that religion you can not accept blood transfusion body organs and join the military so both women were lying but they left me the news of the day was 1 John 3:8, Revelation 12:12 and 1John 2:17. Now in writing this I am not Atheist I know there is a God and i do fear Him but I have a heard time understanding why dark people suffer the most and why everything around me repeats and I have to do it alone and what is the purpose if I am just making more enemies. I know the last shall be first and the first shall be last and yet he didn't mean that all who are poor here will have it first rich in heaven. Now weeks ago I been watching the movie Analyze This and just right now I know about Robert Mueller nickname by watching Stephen Colbert reruns on you tube. Now the movie is funny but if I didn't live here i wouldn't get some of the jokes said like who is Barnes and Noble.
July 27, 2019 a 12 oz bottle of coke and 1 oz of peanuts what was school lunch for many Mexicans i saw eating at the old Crystal City high school. many reasons why I didn't like school. Lunch time was very bad for me. Now when we started having free lunch many of us didn't eat at school we were used to walking home opening a can of corn or eat whatever was there to eat. Third cousin Dora Rodriguez Morillo would asked me to walk with her to her home her grandfather and my father were first cousins. Third cousin was very pretty but did weird things like one day while we were walking up the stairs at the junior high she bite my ear and thought it was funny and there were other things she liked to do I will not mentioned . July 29, 2019 Dora and I had a lot of laughs growing up many things in life she was way more advanced than I. Every family was different some had more some had less depending how they did they're living and how many children and how many adults worked. At Cousin Dora's house there was always food her grandmother was an excellent cook. and they had a phone. At that time not everybody had a phone I remembered Diana Palacios going over to used their phone. When my father got sick we didn't have a phone we asked a neighbor after his hospital released we called Bell
July 30, 2019 when we moved to Colorado I met Sylvia Davila cousins but I had met other cousins in the West. I don't remembered her cousins names but one of them gave me 2 or 3 Oral Roberts books that I loved to read. Oral said that God uses us as His instruments.
Now back to Acosta if am right cousin Olivia married an Acosta and had one daughter I only seen their twice at her grandmother's home my aunt and at a family funeral home. Last night someone reminded me niece Rachel Noemi Salinas also married in Acosta.
Growing up when we used to migrant at schools we used to sing "Its a small world after all" Now I never been to Germany but Sandra has. One day she told me she was at the airport can't remembered which one in San Antonio or in Germany when she saw Juanita Rodriguez sister to El Mirror =Espejo who worked with us at the farm. What I understood they were looking at each other from one end to the other when they started getting closer both didn't know husbands were in the service or coincidence both were there but one of them was leaving the other had just gotten off the airplane.
August 1, 2019 Now with this story I can go many ways but for now this is how it repeats. Sandra 2 husband name is Alberto. Alberto first wife name is Kimberly. Raul only half brother name is Ruben Sendejo. During the time we were in Colorado Ruben impregnated a very nice good girl named Kimberly. Way later in time one day in town I saw them walking together both greeted me. They might have gotten married this is what Kimberly wanted when she went over to Erlinda home to speak to her about her son's word that he would married her but I don't know what happened next. Now Juanita is not no longer married to her husband but once she was Juanita Rodriguez Rodriguez. Mario Rodriguez now is married to a white woman with red hair. They were both in the military don't know if they are still serving. This I know because Oralia Rodriquez Mario's mother showed me a picture of Mario's 2 wife and I think she was holding a baby not sure.
Now this is kind of funny one day I was with Sandra going inside her mobile home when I saw her husband military picture and i had to tell her he looks like Hitler. Now when the white supremacist stayed at Albert's motel they left a lot of pictures of themselves behind. One picture of one man looked a lot of someone very close to me. Hitler wanted only white German people how little did he know there are many other Races that can pass for Germans. Now i heard there is a Nuremberg judge who is 99 years the only one alive to tell
August 1, 2019 If I remember right back home today is one of my neighbors birthday if she is still with us.
July 31, 2019 Eminent Domain what I called Urban Renewal because as child its the word i heard when we were forced out from our home at West Chambers st .we lived the way we could and that was fine with us . Quality costs money something we didn't have and was very hard to get because most people had to really work hard for their money. reasons i believed we were moved out many moved to housing authority where you had to pay rent more light to pay and get extremely poor.
August 2, 2019 I Hate Ranting!!!You never know who you are going to live with . You can get lucked out of your own apartment. You hear all kinds of noises because walls are too thin. The home you are paying for will never be yours to keep and you can't have visitors staying more than two weeks.
August 2, 2019 Today i heard a man talking on the phone to a so called Christian radio talk show trying to sound like a Christian but his mouth was repeating what I write and giving me in directs about what he knows about me but not man enough to say who his talking about. He was talking about sin than he uses words like hammering speeding ticket. I have a speeding ticket got it trying to get to an interview but got lost. Hammering is the word i used to described how i feel when He pours it on me. Now this man for sure has it good lives a very good life knows nothing about other people suffering and cares less to know. When Christ was asked why is this man blind it it because the sins of the fathers He didn't even bothered to answered He just said lets heal this man. Many many of us don't suffer because of sin. some with bigger sins don't know the meaning of suffering for they lived a rich content life no worries of any hungers
August 2, 2019 One of the movies i bought last year was Casablanca and just this past week i started watching it then I heard Saoirse Kennedey Hills dies at age 22 but i knew this number would repeat i just knew. Now growing up only or most of the time I was remembered when I was needed. Barbara would asked me to go with her to her friends houses which before she knew how to drive that meant walking. We used to walked to the Avila's home not too far from our house. This was when we were already living at W Crockett St. We used to walked to town asked another friend along the way who lived near by but sometimes we would be in and out of the Avila's home and the older Avila's would be watching Casablanca or the Chinese Detective movies with the father and the son telling everybody not to leave the room then all lights were off than on and a person was died or missing. so i never really knew what the movie was about
August 3, 2019 Today I learned Psalm 22 with book Roman Missal.
August 3, 2019 The world we lived poor men should not reproduced later why I say this. Life is too expansive even when you die it is a burden and yet I am so glad I am here I am so glad I had a father I am so glad I have my children and I am so glad to see my future in the eyes of my joyful precious grandchildren.
August 3, 2019 The Syndrome by Doctors "I Forgot My Baby In The Back Seat," is Nothing But Bull Shit !!
August 3, 2019 Here in the USA we have a lot of children living inside home prisons for some if they survive their childhood is to escape and run away. This is day and night child abused.
August 3, 2019 Now I have said many of you blow my mind by repeating doing what others tell you to repeats but there are a few of you who are just you and for me these people are fresh air and mind cleansing.
August 5, 2019 NO! Trump!! This Is Not A Mental Sickness!! This is Pure Hate Evil made them Very Happy Laughing Smiling because they hate brown people!! TX was Mexico!! You will see many many brown people we been here all the time!! Where do we first learned how to walk? Home Sweet Home. This had nothing to do because they were rich poor or ugly.
August 5, 2019 I am here to please God by trying to be like His son Jesus Christ who died for my sins. Muslims and Jews need to get in the ball >
August 12, 2019 Not so fast who think Epstein took the easy way out. Suicide is not the end but the beginning. Who are these now grown women?where were the mothers fathers stepparents grandparents of these 14 teen girls how did these girls got to know older billionaire man named Epstein?
August 12, 2019 now the movie Casa Blanca is a Romantic Comedy Drama movie but never before had I payed attention to and it repeats symbol at Sanford hospital = ring. The word drunkard I got more but no time .
The movie US also repeats. this past week we saw the movie but before August 15, 2019 OK so you might be thing Jeremiah 11.11 repeats and that's that but on this like many others I wrote you just have to believe me or not believe before now i had only seen the previews to the movie until my daughter check out the movie but before i had been thinking about at one time in his life Crystal City paramedic Mr Fred Mendoza. one time I don't remembered the year my children were still small TV was on we were watching Unsolved Mysteries and I cut my ring finger with my shears.
August 15, 2019 does Omar want more attention? Why does she has to go to Israel ? I am asking because she doesn't like them only has spoken bad about them why want to go there is it something that's going to help Minnesota? In spending this money on this trip is it going to better things here in Minnesota? What is the purpose of she making this expanse trip? this is just a way to get back in the news for more attention on herself ? we all know Muslims and Jews don't get along with each other they are always fighting for a land that it don't matter because its not going to save them from hell
August 17, 2019 In the first place who pays for congress people personal trips ? Don't congress people have enough problems to solved here in the USA? Why is Michigan Muslims congress woman crying over not going to see her grandmother when she can go only if she doesn't make it political? The crying has to go doesn't she know it doesn't work for older even young color women only for white young and old women? If I were her and I really wanted to go see my grandmother and trip and expanses were payed by the people of Michigan I would eat my pride and go for it. Now this woman is going where women have very little rights if any so what is the gain ? That Palestinians and Jews don't get along there is a big chance they might never will because they both refused to believe in the Prince of Peace Jesus Christ. Both believe in the Eye for in Eye and a tooth for a tooth but when these people come to the USA both Muslims and Jews seen to get along with each other. Can we blame it on the Christians?
This Idiot of Steve King also has to go! King!! Being raped is not fun it all!! You say your mother might have been raped this is why you are here. If she never compliant is because she wasn't raped it was because she liked it.
August 20, 2019 Yesterday two years ago in Fargo, ND beautiful Savanna Greywind was murdered and her baby ripped out of her stomach both were kidnapped. Mother was put in the Red River to die baby girl was kept for two weeks by two evil hateful jealous persons named Brooke Crews and her helpful sex partner who is the reason she did it for William Hoehn who should have gotten the same sentence as Brooke life without parole. Both were raciest and each hated her for different reasons. killer older man William had his eyes on Savanna since he was dating her kin and Brooke knew it and most likely during sex told Brooke about his sex fantasies. Brooke not young and not attractive went madly racist insane. Now before I go on run out of time both knew they could get away with it because they were both white. No police were going to go pointing guns at their faces at their apartment. No way Jose. Now back to them many men really think they are younger and handsome than they really are and William thinks that way but deep inside he knew she saw him as an older man with his older girlfriend she was too innocent to see who they really were. William was there at their apartment all the time but Brooke lied for him.
August 21, 2019 what repeats 400 hundred years of slavery are still with us. Movies like The Book Of Negroes 400,000 attendant Woodstock in August 15, 1969. 1913 Jefferson bus line 100 years if parents were alive that would be their age.
August 26, 2019 A lot is repeating. today like other days been asking for a miracle . today and some time ago i went by Sanford hospital on Broadway read a bit on its history i read but didn't have time to wrote about it until today. In 1987 11 year old Alvaro Garza
For months i had in mind Motociclos = Motorcycles movie easy rider then i hear peter Fonda dies. Mall Of America the number 11 the number 77 This past weekend 4 others and I went to the Mall of America .sorry no time.
August 28, 2019 Now lets talk about being happy worried fearful and about comparing about what some have and some don't have or had but lost. My father used to say anything is good in good moderating. Now some people have it much better than others since the day they are born. Some even when are in the womb still in the oven are not wanted so to say to others be happy don't worry is to hate the ones who are suffering. nobody should say to someone who is hungry who don't have a place to sleep who don't know how they will pay the monthly rent and many others hardships ( no not in another country here in the USA) not to worry unless they are going to play God and help them out in some way because the God loves you doesn't work the don't worry doesn't work and the don't compare yes many times you do need to compare. why I know the black movement started because they started comparing this is why. Fear kept me from trying drugs. Fear kept me from having more children without a commitment.
September 5, 2019 other things i will write about. In the 90s someone else Roosters crowing in my back yard. People who think they been cursed put a a spell on them and how they get revenge.
I really feel for the mother of the 21 month toddler but where is the father? Watching the pictures it looks to me she had it good in Guatemala why risk it with a child? Now I remembered back when men would come looking for work not the women and their children and why is the USA responsible for health care food and shelter for people from other countries when in the first place has not and is not taking care of its own poor people? I don't have to close my eyes and imagine how hard it is to work walk for miles and still be hungry and don't pay my bills I lived it and so have others. Just days ago someone told me it won't be long when people at the border will want to sue the USA people to pay them money because they don't have good housing good food good health care while they wait in line. Now there will be more and more lawsuits because many do come sick and who is going to pay these American lawyers that are taking this lawsuits because its all about money.
July 17, 2019 Questions for the migrants at the border who want to apply for Asylum . How did this children who say they came alone got to the border by themselves? How did they get this far? Why are so many women with small children some even pregnant and no man!? Surely these women were having sex and getting pregnant? Here in the USA a mother who wants Welfare is asked who is the father so they can go after the father to pay up the child support . These women come with dreams and children but no men why!? Do they want the good old USA people to raised their children and be responsible for their lives while the men in their lives just get the fun!? The well kept mother who lose her child never mentioned the father
July 12, 2019 My mother told me of a time at a field she had to drink dirty water so dirty she used a cloth to filter the water that was used to irrigated through a ditch or canal. Now Rush Limbaugh is a bad person and ignorant by saying drinking water from a toilet is better water than where the people at the border been drinking. If he pays attention not all people come poor. The woman who lose her child is not poor I can tell by her very nice manicure long finger nails her beautiful long hair her proper court clothing. I know there are very poor women around Dilley, TX that have rough hands short nails because they used them to feed the farm animals and work the land . people from other countries can always visited their homes and even start a business come and go as they please.
Why would anyone even if they have it good in their country would still come to the USA? There are many reasons. Here if you get sick or don't want to work you can always get food stamps go under Section 8 go to a school have a chance to get ahead.
Dilley, TX where my father and brothers used to go buy watermelons to resell.
Now computer is giving me red lines but I am not selling you a book so I can't pay attention to mistakes I have too much to write. Now I heard that Texans people especially Chicano's have a lot of pride. An older woman in Colorado told me that we do have too much pride. Now Most men will work very hard to have what they can have and don't like to think they are poor or asked for government assistants .
July 13, 2019 Other things I am relate to
Why I am for marijuana even if I don't smoke it. One summer day in the 70s we were on the road going north or going south I can't remembered but we were tired and sweaty we stopped July 20, 2019 at what might have been a Sonic restaurant in Oklahoma City or Kansas City, Kansas a group of white young people were parked on our left side and it started smelling like Dope so they started looking at us and we started looking at them. Now my brother wasn't educated but he was street wise and started thinking and told Dad. "We better leave because if a police officer comes he will arrested all of us he will think its us and blame us for them getting high. Now I don't remembered if we ordered and got our food or if we just drove away. Now I believe that people who have been in prison for a long time and been put in solitary confinement for long times some have P T S D and should be given in as in option to use medical marijuana because many are also dealing with child abused even extreme poverty living conditions can mess up your mind. If by using a certain amount to ease the pain and released the bad memories. I hear its also good for arthritis. Now it wouldn't have worked for me before i knew it was from God because repetition were actual events going on it wasn't on my mind they were not memories. Many people brown and black have been sent to prison for using or selling marijuana and their lives have been shaken. If the government wants to benefit by them selling and taxing it to the people than let it be.
A toothpaste tube and a toothbrush inside a small fabric bag. July 16, 2019
Children traumatized.
July 15, 2019 This is something that happens to me all the time. Yesterday I had a lot in mind what I wanted to write and I was going to use one of the words I learned in spelling class with Taylor but it was Sunday libraries were closed. The word was nevertheless then today I heard Trump beat me to the punch.
Now the word Asylum is also new to me before I came here I never paid attention to what it meant now I know it and many others know it too.
July 16. 2019 When I was outside the Fargo's Federal building with my signs a white woman came up to me asked me if i was an Alien with my innocent thoughts I didn't know what to say because I am from this earth. Later on I thought who is she to asked me such question I am much more American than her. Now this question wasn't bad others would tell me. Bitch go back where you came from. I thought to myself. " No I am staying here where I come from in south TX its too hot and its too poor at least here I get to see how the rich people live. Who was left behind in TX many are still behind and this are born USA people and don't tell me I had my chance because my family never got anything free no chances were given to many of us ! Why I get upset that nobody in Washington cares about the poor people living here in southwest TX where I grew up. Now I remembered when big brother said, "it was good that we didn't built a bigger house with many rooms we would have not been able to keep up with the Taxes." Now our house was very small with the 6 of us thank goodness the older sisters married young but some of us had to sleep in the floor but we were much better than others many people had to rent old houses that looked more like chicken shack with dirt floor. Now I never thought about how others lived until one day we were in Austin i think it was cousin Carolina or Irene that started a conversation about a white man who had to do with the city council or something like that went to their home and he was in shock that it was a large family and asked, "where do you all sleep?" She told him we all are siblings so we all sleep close to each other and in the floor.
Why do you think in the 70s a lot of people were selling drugs because they like it ? Hell No !
July 18, 2019 What was I doing on July 20,1969 ? Hiding away from the TV news landing on the moon. What are some of the things that repeats? Apollo 11 and Module.
July 20, 2019 Now I know it might burn to the skin but Yes definitely we need a priest to go sprinkle Holy Water on Trump and Omar they both need cleansing. The Evangelicals did the touching praying to Trump but it didn't work because they all think the same way. Now Trump might be thinking he is talking to a woman when he talks to Omar but he is not. Muslin women here in the USA are the mirror of their Muslim men this is why she was quick to answered him back using his own words. Now I heard young Muslims women using the F word very freely as off nothing and acting with strong behavior that would not be allowed in their birth countries and even here inside their men home but is practiced with others.
July 20, 2019 Now what does Iran wants?Why play with us and others why is it provoking us to tension? Simple they want war but they want us or the British to start the war so they can say we are at fault. This is their strategy
July 22, 2019 Ricardo Rossello I am not asking you I am telling you get out!! You are no longer governor of Puerto Rico!! July 24, 2019 Yeah right! You think saying "Drain the Swamp" will help you like it does for Trump but it doesn't. You Ricardo got a lot to learn Trump is doing mostly for his white rich people you were supposed to have been helping your poor people but you weren't doing that you were only doing for yourself. Now what evidence are you destroying before you leave the office!?
Next why I say there are more lazy people now then ever before and gays and lesbians in the military why Trump should keep his mouth shut about this. Later a man in Crystal City nickname Peanut and Monica Lewinsky
July 24, 2019 Other things I can relate to Hammocks at Fargo's Island Park. Other words that repeat Doll = Muneca. and yes sometimes what i write makes me laugh but they are true stories
July 27, 2019 If you the people have Free Will that is very good for you because you can determine your present and your future even if you couldn't determine your pass. Now for me every day and night is about repeat. I straggle alone to understand many things like why is it that I get much more hammered by God and left alone. Last night was one of those nights i was thinking why is it that me being single mother poor and brown Mexican never get a break. I read a bit of Job to make sure what i was thinking was right. now Job was faithful to God but had a very good reason he was super rich!! His son's got turns on starting a party and even their sisters were invited to the parties and all other people came and eat drink and be merry. So when Satan told God Job is faithful because you give him but just take away. Job kept his faith and didn't sin when he blamed God for his suffering and after that God gave him more of everything back to him but what about when there is only poverty after poverty and suffering after suffering and problems keep coming and coming. Now nobody is gong to tell me its because of my sins my great parents and parents put together sins that's why now I am surrounded by problems keep knocking on my door telling me everything I say will be used against me in any Way Shape or Form but i guess i am not Job i wasn't chosen by God and anointed with oil. Now nobody can tell me my ancestors sinned more than white Trump and his ancestors and many other white people who have it very good generations to generations even when they sinned more by killing taking away land cheating and lying and having slaves to work on their stolen fields and controlling to get more. Why does the Bible says its easier for a camel to get through a needle than a rich man? Have you seen Trump in an old video where many women are chanting Donald Donald and his going crazy thinking and saying how many of these pussy's am I having for SEX. Now we know sex = pregnancies how many unwanted children were killed? It is harder for rich men to get to heaven because they can get hold of their temptations pleasures used people send people to kill others. Lie doing all sorts of sins and get away with it. Now what repeats? This morning someone knocks I asked who is it they said neighbor so i opened thinking it was an apartment neighbor but no it was Jehovah witness the ones i wrote I learned a lot yes i did stories of the old testimony. Now last night I got very little sleep doing things I had to do and worrying too which is the only thing I can do for free but if i don't worry i can't figure out if there is something i can do to fix things up. Two women one black one white at the door wanted to talk a bit asked me how I was I said not too good. The Good News was about who do you think here on earth is in control and guess what scripture they used? Job which then we got into a discussion because I hear its the evil but if you read into it God has the final word and the evil only does what God permits this and other things we did not agreed on. Now I asked them why is it that brown and black people get hammered the most. They didn't answered the question but said i would die for her than the white woman said the same i wasn't quick to answered but this is not true at all if they want to go that way. In that religion you can not accept blood transfusion body organs and join the military so both women were lying but they left me the news of the day was 1 John 3:8, Revelation 12:12 and 1John 2:17. Now in writing this I am not Atheist I know there is a God and i do fear Him but I have a heard time understanding why dark people suffer the most and why everything around me repeats and I have to do it alone and what is the purpose if I am just making more enemies. I know the last shall be first and the first shall be last and yet he didn't mean that all who are poor here will have it first rich in heaven. Now weeks ago I been watching the movie Analyze This and just right now I know about Robert Mueller nickname by watching Stephen Colbert reruns on you tube. Now the movie is funny but if I didn't live here i wouldn't get some of the jokes said like who is Barnes and Noble.
July 27, 2019 a 12 oz bottle of coke and 1 oz of peanuts what was school lunch for many Mexicans i saw eating at the old Crystal City high school. many reasons why I didn't like school. Lunch time was very bad for me. Now when we started having free lunch many of us didn't eat at school we were used to walking home opening a can of corn or eat whatever was there to eat. Third cousin Dora Rodriguez Morillo would asked me to walk with her to her home her grandfather and my father were first cousins. Third cousin was very pretty but did weird things like one day while we were walking up the stairs at the junior high she bite my ear and thought it was funny and there were other things she liked to do I will not mentioned . July 29, 2019 Dora and I had a lot of laughs growing up many things in life she was way more advanced than I. Every family was different some had more some had less depending how they did they're living and how many children and how many adults worked. At Cousin Dora's house there was always food her grandmother was an excellent cook. and they had a phone. At that time not everybody had a phone I remembered Diana Palacios going over to used their phone. When my father got sick we didn't have a phone we asked a neighbor after his hospital released we called Bell
July 30, 2019 when we moved to Colorado I met Sylvia Davila cousins but I had met other cousins in the West. I don't remembered her cousins names but one of them gave me 2 or 3 Oral Roberts books that I loved to read. Oral said that God uses us as His instruments.
Now back to Acosta if am right cousin Olivia married an Acosta and had one daughter I only seen their twice at her grandmother's home my aunt and at a family funeral home. Last night someone reminded me niece Rachel Noemi Salinas also married in Acosta.
Growing up when we used to migrant at schools we used to sing "Its a small world after all" Now I never been to Germany but Sandra has. One day she told me she was at the airport can't remembered which one in San Antonio or in Germany when she saw Juanita Rodriguez sister to El Mirror =Espejo who worked with us at the farm. What I understood they were looking at each other from one end to the other when they started getting closer both didn't know husbands were in the service or coincidence both were there but one of them was leaving the other had just gotten off the airplane.
August 1, 2019 Now with this story I can go many ways but for now this is how it repeats. Sandra 2 husband name is Alberto. Alberto first wife name is Kimberly. Raul only half brother name is Ruben Sendejo. During the time we were in Colorado Ruben impregnated a very nice good girl named Kimberly. Way later in time one day in town I saw them walking together both greeted me. They might have gotten married this is what Kimberly wanted when she went over to Erlinda home to speak to her about her son's word that he would married her but I don't know what happened next. Now Juanita is not no longer married to her husband but once she was Juanita Rodriguez Rodriguez. Mario Rodriguez now is married to a white woman with red hair. They were both in the military don't know if they are still serving. This I know because Oralia Rodriquez Mario's mother showed me a picture of Mario's 2 wife and I think she was holding a baby not sure.
Now this is kind of funny one day I was with Sandra going inside her mobile home when I saw her husband military picture and i had to tell her he looks like Hitler. Now when the white supremacist stayed at Albert's motel they left a lot of pictures of themselves behind. One picture of one man looked a lot of someone very close to me. Hitler wanted only white German people how little did he know there are many other Races that can pass for Germans. Now i heard there is a Nuremberg judge who is 99 years the only one alive to tell
August 1, 2019 If I remember right back home today is one of my neighbors birthday if she is still with us.
July 31, 2019 Eminent Domain what I called Urban Renewal because as child its the word i heard when we were forced out from our home at West Chambers st .we lived the way we could and that was fine with us . Quality costs money something we didn't have and was very hard to get because most people had to really work hard for their money. reasons i believed we were moved out many moved to housing authority where you had to pay rent more light to pay and get extremely poor.
August 2, 2019 I Hate Ranting!!!You never know who you are going to live with . You can get lucked out of your own apartment. You hear all kinds of noises because walls are too thin. The home you are paying for will never be yours to keep and you can't have visitors staying more than two weeks.
August 2, 2019 Today i heard a man talking on the phone to a so called Christian radio talk show trying to sound like a Christian but his mouth was repeating what I write and giving me in directs about what he knows about me but not man enough to say who his talking about. He was talking about sin than he uses words like hammering speeding ticket. I have a speeding ticket got it trying to get to an interview but got lost. Hammering is the word i used to described how i feel when He pours it on me. Now this man for sure has it good lives a very good life knows nothing about other people suffering and cares less to know. When Christ was asked why is this man blind it it because the sins of the fathers He didn't even bothered to answered He just said lets heal this man. Many many of us don't suffer because of sin. some with bigger sins don't know the meaning of suffering for they lived a rich content life no worries of any hungers
August 2, 2019 One of the movies i bought last year was Casablanca and just this past week i started watching it then I heard Saoirse Kennedey Hills dies at age 22 but i knew this number would repeat i just knew. Now growing up only or most of the time I was remembered when I was needed. Barbara would asked me to go with her to her friends houses which before she knew how to drive that meant walking. We used to walked to the Avila's home not too far from our house. This was when we were already living at W Crockett St. We used to walked to town asked another friend along the way who lived near by but sometimes we would be in and out of the Avila's home and the older Avila's would be watching Casablanca or the Chinese Detective movies with the father and the son telling everybody not to leave the room then all lights were off than on and a person was died or missing. so i never really knew what the movie was about
August 3, 2019 Today I learned Psalm 22 with book Roman Missal.
August 3, 2019 The world we lived poor men should not reproduced later why I say this. Life is too expansive even when you die it is a burden and yet I am so glad I am here I am so glad I had a father I am so glad I have my children and I am so glad to see my future in the eyes of my joyful precious grandchildren.
August 3, 2019 The Syndrome by Doctors "I Forgot My Baby In The Back Seat," is Nothing But Bull Shit !!
August 3, 2019 Here in the USA we have a lot of children living inside home prisons for some if they survive their childhood is to escape and run away. This is day and night child abused.
August 3, 2019 Now I have said many of you blow my mind by repeating doing what others tell you to repeats but there are a few of you who are just you and for me these people are fresh air and mind cleansing.
August 5, 2019 NO! Trump!! This Is Not A Mental Sickness!! This is Pure Hate Evil made them Very Happy Laughing Smiling because they hate brown people!! TX was Mexico!! You will see many many brown people we been here all the time!! Where do we first learned how to walk? Home Sweet Home. This had nothing to do because they were rich poor or ugly.
August 5, 2019 I am here to please God by trying to be like His son Jesus Christ who died for my sins. Muslims and Jews need to get in the ball >
August 12, 2019 Not so fast who think Epstein took the easy way out. Suicide is not the end but the beginning. Who are these now grown women?where were the mothers fathers stepparents grandparents of these 14 teen girls how did these girls got to know older billionaire man named Epstein?
August 12, 2019 now the movie Casa Blanca is a Romantic Comedy Drama movie but never before had I payed attention to and it repeats symbol at Sanford hospital = ring. The word drunkard I got more but no time .
The movie US also repeats. this past week we saw the movie but before August 15, 2019 OK so you might be thing Jeremiah 11.11 repeats and that's that but on this like many others I wrote you just have to believe me or not believe before now i had only seen the previews to the movie until my daughter check out the movie but before i had been thinking about at one time in his life Crystal City paramedic Mr Fred Mendoza. one time I don't remembered the year my children were still small TV was on we were watching Unsolved Mysteries and I cut my ring finger with my shears.
August 15, 2019 does Omar want more attention? Why does she has to go to Israel ? I am asking because she doesn't like them only has spoken bad about them why want to go there is it something that's going to help Minnesota? In spending this money on this trip is it going to better things here in Minnesota? What is the purpose of she making this expanse trip? this is just a way to get back in the news for more attention on herself ? we all know Muslims and Jews don't get along with each other they are always fighting for a land that it don't matter because its not going to save them from hell
August 17, 2019 In the first place who pays for congress people personal trips ? Don't congress people have enough problems to solved here in the USA? Why is Michigan Muslims congress woman crying over not going to see her grandmother when she can go only if she doesn't make it political? The crying has to go doesn't she know it doesn't work for older even young color women only for white young and old women? If I were her and I really wanted to go see my grandmother and trip and expanses were payed by the people of Michigan I would eat my pride and go for it. Now this woman is going where women have very little rights if any so what is the gain ? That Palestinians and Jews don't get along there is a big chance they might never will because they both refused to believe in the Prince of Peace Jesus Christ. Both believe in the Eye for in Eye and a tooth for a tooth but when these people come to the USA both Muslims and Jews seen to get along with each other. Can we blame it on the Christians?
This Idiot of Steve King also has to go! King!! Being raped is not fun it all!! You say your mother might have been raped this is why you are here. If she never compliant is because she wasn't raped it was because she liked it.
August 20, 2019 Yesterday two years ago in Fargo, ND beautiful Savanna Greywind was murdered and her baby ripped out of her stomach both were kidnapped. Mother was put in the Red River to die baby girl was kept for two weeks by two evil hateful jealous persons named Brooke Crews and her helpful sex partner who is the reason she did it for William Hoehn who should have gotten the same sentence as Brooke life without parole. Both were raciest and each hated her for different reasons. killer older man William had his eyes on Savanna since he was dating her kin and Brooke knew it and most likely during sex told Brooke about his sex fantasies. Brooke not young and not attractive went madly racist insane. Now before I go on run out of time both knew they could get away with it because they were both white. No police were going to go pointing guns at their faces at their apartment. No way Jose. Now back to them many men really think they are younger and handsome than they really are and William thinks that way but deep inside he knew she saw him as an older man with his older girlfriend she was too innocent to see who they really were. William was there at their apartment all the time but Brooke lied for him.
August 21, 2019 what repeats 400 hundred years of slavery are still with us. Movies like The Book Of Negroes 400,000 attendant Woodstock in August 15, 1969. 1913 Jefferson bus line 100 years if parents were alive that would be their age.
August 26, 2019 A lot is repeating. today like other days been asking for a miracle . today and some time ago i went by Sanford hospital on Broadway read a bit on its history i read but didn't have time to wrote about it until today. In 1987 11 year old Alvaro Garza
For months i had in mind Motociclos = Motorcycles movie easy rider then i hear peter Fonda dies. Mall Of America the number 11 the number 77 This past weekend 4 others and I went to the Mall of America .sorry no time.
August 28, 2019 Now lets talk about being happy worried fearful and about comparing about what some have and some don't have or had but lost. My father used to say anything is good in good moderating. Now some people have it much better than others since the day they are born. Some even when are in the womb still in the oven are not wanted so to say to others be happy don't worry is to hate the ones who are suffering. nobody should say to someone who is hungry who don't have a place to sleep who don't know how they will pay the monthly rent and many others hardships ( no not in another country here in the USA) not to worry unless they are going to play God and help them out in some way because the God loves you doesn't work the don't worry doesn't work and the don't compare yes many times you do need to compare. why I know the black movement started because they started comparing this is why. Fear kept me from trying drugs. Fear kept me from having more children without a commitment.
September 5, 2019 other things i will write about. In the 90s someone else Roosters crowing in my back yard. People who think they been cursed put a a spell on them and how they get revenge.
Monday, July 1, 2019
7/1/2019
Today July 1, 2019 and every other day is all about repeat today I went by Advanced Auto Body & Glass at 2220 Main Avenue E West Fargo ND. Last night i saw the movie Loving Vincent remembered
Tuesday, June 25, 2019
6/25/2019
June 25, 2019 growing up even calling someone else stupid was not allowed but there were other ways my older siblings would insults me put me to shame for no reason so i learned to keep quiet when it was hard . when I almost got raped i did tell others but not my siblings because i knew they would question me why was i out and how late was I out and what was I wearing. When Fr Martinez took my Eucharist at the alter days after or later that day I told big brother because i was hurting a lot he said what were you wearing? back then I was naive didn't had the mind i have now but what in idiot to asked me such question. Now I believed Jessica Leads and I believed Trump what I don't understand is why Jessica didn't screamed hit him bite him make any kind of scandal if she was in a public plane? why didn't she say something to somebody this is what trouble me not the time she is now speaking out. Now why was she waiting on others to go recuse her? Didn't she see it was wrong for a stranger or someone else touched her kissed her didn't she think this man was crazy get up and start saying to other people I am moving because he is attacking me. men like this later will say they let you like Trump said it laughing coming out of the bus. This kind of men will always be around it is us who need to do something about it right a way.
Mexicans past and present presidents if they are still alive like Felipe Carlderon Carlos Salinas Vicente Fox Enrique Nieto Pena all others and who is now in office Andres Manuel Lopez Obrador should be ashamed of themselves for forcing their own people to rick their lives when they could be doing as well or even better than the Canadians.
Fox knows Trump very well because he is like him. i know people who were born in Mexico when they go visited their Mexican families they can't wait to get back to the USA some I heard saying while they are there they can't breath and can't wait to get back to the USA. about people dying trying to get here is history its always been that way now you got pictures but for us people living close to the borders its an old story. Now I am fine with politicians wanting to help other people from other countries but what about us the poor people here? Just today it sounded like a foreigner asking a white woman for money at the 13 Avenue Walmart yesterday another woman who said she was from California but was here with a friend asked me to help her out by buying from her pictures of animals flowers other stuff like that because she wanted to go to prestigious collage. I told her why not a community collage. she was petite but young and strong might have been Asian I really don't know but I should have asked her how about a job.
Today I was doing a job that for many even people who just got here in the USA find it hard to do. Growing up generation through generations most all Mexican and Chicano's worked very hard in any kind of jobs to get by but people have changed because the world is in our palm that is the new TV telephone= Cell phone. Information on how the rest of the world is on our hands . Farmers and Ranchers think people from poor countries will come and do as we did I got news for you they won't maybe the parents will but not their children like all of us we want to get ahead.
Mexicans past and present presidents if they are still alive like Felipe Carlderon Carlos Salinas Vicente Fox Enrique Nieto Pena all others and who is now in office Andres Manuel Lopez Obrador should be ashamed of themselves for forcing their own people to rick their lives when they could be doing as well or even better than the Canadians.
Fox knows Trump very well because he is like him. i know people who were born in Mexico when they go visited their Mexican families they can't wait to get back to the USA some I heard saying while they are there they can't breath and can't wait to get back to the USA. about people dying trying to get here is history its always been that way now you got pictures but for us people living close to the borders its an old story. Now I am fine with politicians wanting to help other people from other countries but what about us the poor people here? Just today it sounded like a foreigner asking a white woman for money at the 13 Avenue Walmart yesterday another woman who said she was from California but was here with a friend asked me to help her out by buying from her pictures of animals flowers other stuff like that because she wanted to go to prestigious collage. I told her why not a community collage. she was petite but young and strong might have been Asian I really don't know but I should have asked her how about a job.
Today I was doing a job that for many even people who just got here in the USA find it hard to do. Growing up generation through generations most all Mexican and Chicano's worked very hard in any kind of jobs to get by but people have changed because the world is in our palm that is the new TV telephone= Cell phone. Information on how the rest of the world is on our hands . Farmers and Ranchers think people from poor countries will come and do as we did I got news for you they won't maybe the parents will but not their children like all of us we want to get ahead.
Thursday, June 13, 2019
6/ 13 /2019
June 13, 2019 Now my father never never beat my mother. I know many Mexican men beat their wife's i had one of those and should had stayed away not get near him. now between these two song Don't take the girl and Grenade by Bruno Mars in the Muslim world a women programed to protected her husband from harm this is why she will take a bullet for him many Mexican Men are the same
June 14, 2019 now there are reasons why R. Acosta was smarter than I
June 22, 2019 today I was looking for the weather disaster that happened during the time sister Maria her husband and family came to ND to work in the fields and the government gave us a voucher but i am having a hard time finding it because i don't remember the year but i came across this news The Historic Blizzard of March 2-5 1966 see pictures of power lines and the Tornadoes in Fergus Falls in June 22,1919. for a long time i been thinking about the power transformers outside the old Family clinic here in Fargo when back as a migrant I used to stand on the window looking out to them.
Same of the the reasons we thought the USA was a poor country. What we could get with the voucher and what I see now people from other countries get for seeking asylums and
June 22, 2019 now everything is about repeat years ago i bought the 1983 Crystal Barbe doll had it on its box at daughters apt then i got it back about two months ago I took it out from the box put it on top of the TV stand. Now by police Video it looks like the Arizona family was walking away without paying but does the phoenix police had to point guns at this family for wrinkly dinky Barbe doll? I know if it was a white family nobody would have bothered to even call the police. 10 Million? More power to the people !!!
June 14, 2019 now there are reasons why R. Acosta was smarter than I
June 22, 2019 today I was looking for the weather disaster that happened during the time sister Maria her husband and family came to ND to work in the fields and the government gave us a voucher but i am having a hard time finding it because i don't remember the year but i came across this news The Historic Blizzard of March 2-5 1966 see pictures of power lines and the Tornadoes in Fergus Falls in June 22,1919. for a long time i been thinking about the power transformers outside the old Family clinic here in Fargo when back as a migrant I used to stand on the window looking out to them.
Same of the the reasons we thought the USA was a poor country. What we could get with the voucher and what I see now people from other countries get for seeking asylums and
June 22, 2019 now everything is about repeat years ago i bought the 1983 Crystal Barbe doll had it on its box at daughters apt then i got it back about two months ago I took it out from the box put it on top of the TV stand. Now by police Video it looks like the Arizona family was walking away without paying but does the phoenix police had to point guns at this family for wrinkly dinky Barbe doll? I know if it was a white family nobody would have bothered to even call the police. 10 Million? More power to the people !!!
Monday, June 10, 2019
6/10/2019
June 10, 2019 Just right now I saw the video of Justin Bieber Love Yourself but when I hear that song i think to myself if you have it tough you really need to love yourself because its the first thing you see every morning when you look at yourself in the mirror .When this repetition started sometimes i wished it was on my mind because others would understand what was going on but I knew God had given me a good mind and things around me one way or the other were repeating and nothing was wrong with me I had to weathered the storm because there was nowhere to go . This music sometimes was played at home in TX by rapper named Bill Bushwick the Geto Boys news is he died yesterday. June 11, 2019 it always starts something like this before I saw the Acosta sign here in Fargo for months I had been thinking about the time at the Grammar school when Mr Talamantez took math class to the play ground by testing me then testing R. Acosta how well we knew the multiplication table I didn't have the number but Rachael did. This is one of the reasons I didn't like school teachers like Talamantez they had favorites the easy ones to teach. Before checking out World War 11 movies I did't know D -DAY was coming up. Now for days I had in mind the last name Ortiz also from Grammar school
I started listening to evening radio news but had in mind the last name Cantu because at Chambers there was a family named Cantu
I started listening to evening radio news but had in mind the last name Cantu because at Chambers there was a family named Cantu
Friday, May 10, 2019
2/19/2019
February 19, 2019 i am not smart at all but since very young a child i know what is wrong and what is right and i say no to who wants to stay as Virginia governor no you knew what you were doing when you put black shame on your face to make fun and laugh at black people. you Ralph don't know and don't care how hard it is to be black or brown and to be poor so no get out of office let someone take that chair!!!
For the Muslim woman Hoda Muthana who wanted to be and marred and have children of Isis stay where ther you also knew what wrong and what is right. words that came from your mouth to others to kill USA people is wrong and you knew if i were the USA government i would say no to you too. stay there with what you believe in why would the USA would want you back you are not to be trusted
For the Muslim woman Hoda Muthana who wanted to be and marred and have children of Isis stay where ther you also knew what wrong and what is right. words that came from your mouth to others to kill USA people is wrong and you knew if i were the USA government i would say no to you too. stay there with what you believe in why would the USA would want you back you are not to be trusted
2/12/2019
February 12, 2019 I know I am all over the place here everywhere a messy blogger but that's who I am. Now what is wrong with these two Trump and Elizabeth? they both are the same just wan to be presidents get votes from the people.
Saturday, April 27, 2019
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