Saturday, October 3, 2020

 September 5, 2020 Attention, Its October 3, 2020 back when I was in TX in one of my letters when all these was new to me and I didn't know why or  from who all these strange things were coming from I wrote something like this on one of my letters. I feel I am  in the Twilight Zone or in an episodes of the Twilight Zone. Its  September 2020 and i am on a street named

Friday, September 11, 2020

 September 11, 2020 

 

Second Greetings to all who are still alive!  I am back! I knew something was coming I just didn't know what. I asked for a break from writing now what repeats? The number 44 the number 2929 and much more. I went to a place as i was on a road i saw the number 44 then I saw the number 2929 then I saw in a humble home the number 22.      

Monday, March 16, 2020

3/16/2020

3/16/2020

 This word Compassion= love, pity, concerned for the suffering, Marcy, Charity, and more. I heard white Fargo, ND  leaders  said this word  to a woman who came here as a refugee. "We North Dakota people have compassion. Really?  

Now one day in the late eighties when we stop coming to ND and other States  because working on the hot sunny fields wasn't  worth coming anymore because of tired   bodies and  we didn't have  money and a good car to drive over  here so we  stayed in TX. Other people who had money because of  Crystal City  school jobs  were  now the ones coming over. Now that day big bother asked  something like "have you noticed that we are  the  forgotten ones  as if the government doesn't care how we live our life's?" Back then  I didn't know what to say I was too busy living for the day as a poor single mother of two  small children but now I think when has the USA  government ever cared about his poor people? Never!!
Now time went by and  it was in the nighties big brother  daughter and I were going into town looking at people lining up to get free some expired foods on highway 83 when big bother said it looks as if we are  living  in a Reservation.  Now daughter and I and I think ever big brother had never been in a Reservation but now I know what big brother meant.  Big bother told me he had to quit school and work on the fields because what father got paid as working picking up trash for the City wasn't  enough then we started migrating to  West Texas then we came  north with Mr. Lupe Serna and his family. I remember mother holding me up to look outside the  truck tent as we drove  to the  farm  houses and I saw the farmer closing an old dark  wood fence where I guess he kept animals or something?  Big brother told me we had to move because otherwise we would go hungry  and migrating we would able to buy a stack once and a while staying in TX was very hot and there was no work. A white man told me it was our  family business. this man  was thinking his way of white life.  The only ones in business were the ones we came to  worked for no such thing for us we were the modern slaves. Now just now I heard on radio that North America had flourished because of Christianity that Christians didn't fear. What a way to look at it No! No!! I say to this white priest USA flourished because white people took land white people brought salves white people killed other colored people. This is why white people were and are  rich. now listen just like my mother hold me up I hold my daughter up for her to see the University in San Marcus, TX the last year we came North.                  

Thursday, March 12, 2020

3/12/2020

3/12/2020 Today  on morning  radio I heard a bit  about Cesar Chavez later my daughter asked me about the movie Billy Jack when Barbara and I went to see it in Crystal City because of what  Barbara told me we were going to do after

Sunday, March 8, 2020

3/8/2020

March 8,2020 I tell you  the reason of the Corona virus the sins of the world  the killings of unborn babies and the  children not even Animals do such things!

Now about baby Sabrina Aisenberg  I don't believe her parent.           

Saturday, March 7, 2020

3/7/2020

3/7/2020 Now about a woman or man being president why i don't care if its like having an awful   boss.  Back when Crystal City small stores  were  closing  up we still had the white old people who had worked on this stores and thought only they new how to work as cashiers . I don't know if it was Ben Franklin or Morrison but it was going out of business and there was a young woman I am not going to white down her last name because i might be wrong but I think it was V. The old white cashier was  breathing on her back eye balling her every second has the Chicana was having to deal with a long line of costumers. it was so bad that two younger white women asked the white old woman why she was behind her back I don't remember the exact  words  but they did stood up for the young cashier who was doing a very good job considering the pressure she was in.  Now let go to Greeley, Colorado when taking a mine class room test instructor prejudice Phyllis was dong the same while the whole class were doing a manicure she came to  my station and stayed there looking at me for the whole hour somewhere along or after we were done white student Debra came to my defensed.

              
Now why would i vote for someone who  parents came from another country with money and has no idea what it is to be born poor here  and still straggling with this kind of problems generation through generations then says it smoked pot and laugh's about it says she did it when Tupac was alive this means she never came down from her 1980s  trip because Tupac was in the 1990s. Now shes stilling laughing after i hear she sent 1,500 persons  to prison for doing just that only she wants to be happy and laugh at what she's done. What a laughing Hyena.

Now  the other woman in collage 

Friday, March 6, 2020

3/6/2020

3/6/2020

 3/6/2020 Yesterday it was around 10:30 am i was sitting on the car listening to the radio and it started playing this song i had heard before but never knew who played  it and couldn't remembered when it was released i knew it was after 9/11 but that's all I could remembered.  I heard my daughter at one time mentioning this words American Idiot and saying something about president Bush but i didn't and don't remember much about this conversation  this was back in TX so yesterday I looked it up and saw the  video that for a while when the girl is crying and asking  his  boyfriend "how could you do it" I thought he had gotten another girl pregnant but no it was about joining the  Army. Now along the way some of his words I have used. The song Boulevard of Broken Dreams I thought the name to that song was "I walk Alone"        

 Bowling for Columbine  now that day we went  bowling I didn't we were going bowling because just at the moment  we called boys not even knowing they wanted to it had been months or a year we hadn't done it but they agreed so went I saw the movie after we  went bowling    

Today i was looking for the first person  who I knew on TV named  Phyllis the second of prejudice Phyllis from Greeley Colorado. I looked up Phyllis Diller and saw a video about her loving Denver , Colorado.

Now  for president I don't care of its a woman or a man are what race it is. It doesn't  make a difference  if it isn't going to do a thing  for the people here in this country! I want someone who really  cares about what      

Wednesday, March 4, 2020

3/4/2020

  Mo-ther Jones!  What Candace Owens said  on February 28, 2020 

Oh, I love it when I see someone who thinks it knows it all and thinks her words are the last words  but let me tell you Candace Owens within time I'll give you a piece of my mind. Now about the Aztecs being Savages Cannibals who needed to be civilized by the white Spanish  conquistadors who knew better but were worse the real  evildoers  by using  Jesus Christ Cross for  killing  stealing  raping fooling people who didn't know any better but the Christians did so what happened!?  I know that it is worse when you know better and you still commit the crime. Now  who needs more forgiveness just remembering back when Billy G  and  O Roberts were preaching who were the audience who needed more forgiveness?             


Now the Jews were not Hitlers own people. Hitlers might have had Jewish blood who knows but he and the other Germans didn't consider the Jews  German people.  This is one of the reasons  Hitler and other white Germans with blonde hair and blue eyes wanted to get rid of  all of them. Got it ?
 

Monday, March 2, 2020

3/2/2020

3/2/2020

Attention people who  are going  to  rallies cover up with a face masks a lot of  coughing  going on. Stay away from each other as far as you can. We still don't have a cure.  Oh boy, I have a lot to catch upon  if God would only pay me for doing it. Days before checking out the movie  Bowling  for Columbine grandsons daughter and I went bowling I didn't know the  Colorado bad boys had gone  bowling before they went killing. It always starts with the parents.  now I used to go bowling with Hope and we would meet her boyfriend there  

Sunday, March 1, 2020

3/1/2020   My father used to say this word at that time I wasn't sure what it meant  but somehow I  understood and it gave me hope. The word was Ciencia or Ciencias = Science public health. This is what he  used to say. While the Ciencias goes up there will be more and more  diseases to be cured.

Today on  NPR very important  information I heard from a woman named Lori. This information was about the virus  Corona  like any other diseases there is a  cure but we must move fast! This disease doesn't know Politics Race color or if you are  rich  poor pretty  or ugly it  doesn't care it will attack us!  We must  get the right people to study it and find the solution.          

Saturday, February 29, 2020

2/29/2020

2/29/2020

 Now if you  read this and  you  think  sometimes I get   angry at my  USA government yes I do because it has fail me and still wants my vote!  

I heard Trump jr talked to a very happy rich   smiling teeth  TV Indian reporter who might bleach  her skin to look lighter. He said he  really liked the poor people in India because they smile at him, (was he also thinking they  don't asked  for money, how nice.)  Anyway  on promoting his luxury apt in India  they travel with government money for their own benefits. Yes, what i read about poor people in India its the same shit here in  America, USA for people who look like me . Born here you go to school you  finished  hard core collage then you have  banks knocking at your door before you are hired that's  if you have a door . Then you learned how to act what to say you  have all your experience  on paper but guess what? You are NOT the right  COLOR and the right RACE! you look Indigenous! Oh you are wanted but only  for cleaning or  road contraction.  So  if you get the job now for how long before  you will be treated worse then a  rich or poor refugee because remember  they are protected and companies get a cut for hiring them companies  don't get a penny for hiring me and because many come with better education knowing more then one languages they are needed and get paid more.   Now  how can I smile?

 and while white people like Michael Moore says on his documentaries his white family and other white families  were on vacations buying  new cars very three years buying houses enjoying life and still many are enjoying life laughing dancing having a great time saying God loves you.

At  one time we were TX refugees we had to move because of Nationality Political and Hunger poverty reasons but we never got  money  food  stamps a nice place to live no fields  potable toilets  just  new  hoes  and a  few files  (metal tool)  to file the hoe and no gardening  gloves  we  had to buy them.  Our homes in TX were the slums. I remember playing in the muddy  streets with others .  Now they are still here but  covered here and there with food stamps and section 8 and other  governments programs.       isn't   nikki haley embarrassed is she going to help her people? 

Thursday, February 27, 2020

2/27/2020

2/27/2020

This is just an example. I will not vote for a person who is Irish and gets all sentimental and brings  1/2 of Ireland to live here and forgets about who voted for him or her . Sorry Ireland.  now many of us brown and black born here  are educated  is there going to be guarantee we will get hired and not discriminated by white people ? 

Wednesday, February 26, 2020

2/26/2020

2/26/2020      
When we used to migrant to  ND the Family Healthcare Center was at 306 4th street north in Fargo and it had a window or windows facing north if I am not mistaken . On the left corner of the window  facing straight out  was a residential transformer. I use to watched  it and wondered  away but my mind went blank I didn't know what to think of it. Many times son has told me electricity will never run out I guess his right  because don't we call God the light?     

For a long time i been asking God one person God just one person sent me one person who will listen and will help me with all the problems you been  giving me because you know the more I know the deeper I go.  I know the USA is not why there is so much  people at the  Mexico border  but .Today I was listening to the president of Honduras how he is blaming the US for the suffering of his people who he doesn't want to take responsibility of because he knows here we have people going at each other as if this is our problem when its not . This is like a father who goes and drops his children at someone else  doors because his lazy and greedy and still wants money for doing just that dropping his  problem on someone else  

later i will tell you what is our problems     

Monday, February 24, 2020

2/24/2020

2/24/2020   Not in any other poor country but here  in the USA I have slept on the  floor. I seen others sleep on the floor and  i have seen people  live on dirt floor homes .  Others  and I have drank very cold  salty water from a wall here in ND. We have a picture of my mother two sisters on a hot field that remind us of the movie Roots.  My mother told me once she had to drink water from a ditch while she was  helping my father fished a filed both had to work we were too poor in a country so called rich. Now Michael Moore is new to me i just found out his made other films and i will write what he didn't mentioned on his documents and where i find wrongs. 

Saturday, February 22, 2020

2/22/2020 Now when my daughter was in collage she  didn't qualified for migrant funds but a Mexican girl she was consider  a migrant. She was from Mexico  her father was a lawyer in Mexico did  qualified to get USA  federal funds how nice . Now my daughters grandparents on both sides and parents and even  her and her brother came to North Dakota  Minnesota  and other  states to work hard on the hot sometimes rainy days in the fields with no health care no money given to us from a Christian church and government .  We are  part of what  the economy is now  but we remained poor.   Her father and paternal grandfather and uncles cousins  on both sides were in the military just like many Natives from yesterday and today. We were born here but still we only see and hear how  worried  the  USA government  leaders are concerned  about how other countries treat their people and all I hear is The immigrants The immigrants  The refugees The refugees the children being dropped   at the borders.  We must do something to help them meanwhile  I see the American  refugees who  are coming from USA reservation  soil because there is a lot of poverty where the USA government pushed them to live and now they are worried  about the climate chancing which is happening. Oh and I hear people who  now live here  coming and going to  other counties on boats and airplanes  to marry  and party while I can not even afford to get a bus ticket to TX.
Yes big bother always said the USA was not  a rich country but he was wrong the government just kept us poor.  Back in the 60s 70s 80 I used to think where are the natives and sometimes i used to think where are the white people will later I figured it out  the white people were  on vacations and the Natives were on Reservations where nobody could see them  and  living on poverty just like us in TX.  Politicians get out of your comfort zone and start looking beyond you.now there is a problem at the border and it has to be s

Now many words  translated I do not agree with . Yesterday I was talking with Angie and her friend Teresa both from Crystal City. Today I was looking how to spell the word Pito in English and it gave me  Whistle. I was looking for the word instrument because for us Pito = Instrument .Yesterday I couldn't remember the name of the  instrument my three grandsons play which is the same my son played for a while but I couldn't afford one so he had to dropped band  anyway Angie  said Pito. Now  Instrument. When we were in Colorado and I  listened to  Oral Roberts he used to say God uses us as  instruments today I looked it up  on  internet,  fit to be used  2 Tim 2:20-22 but I haven't read it on the Bible. Now  if God is using me there is no thrill excitement about it  its more like fear and confusion  because there is nobody else going through it but me and I have to  tolerated  a lot of discriminating harassment racists everywhere I go.


now Oral Roberts and Billy Graham at first used to                          

Wednesday, February 19, 2020

2/19/2020

2/19/2020 This is my  short cut to my grandsons APT or to 25 street south I drive by 17 ave and 17 street this I must because of  South High School on 17 street . Now  last Friday I went to see my third grandson play basketball at Discovery Middle School at 1717 40 Ave south.    about Kamala Harris I am so glad shes out she cant stop laughing and I can't relate to her she comes fro rich parents who just got here in the 60s from India and Jamaica.

Tuesday, February 18, 2020

2/18/2020

2/18/2020 for president I will vote for the one whose top priority is the USA.  later more on this. Now almost everyday i drive by  17 ave and 17 street and I have to make a  left turn       

Sunday, February 16, 2020

2/16/2020

 2/16/2020This is what repeats and long time ago i didn't see it coming because i been too busy is President Andrew  Jackson $20 dollar bill but then I had  also  forgot  the year 2020 was coming up. when back in November 2017 Trump called Elizabeth Warren Pocahontas later I will write about this suffering woman in her won land but at the time I didn't know who was Elizabeth but if I did I would had told her lucky you, you don't look a bit like ancestors of the Trail Of Tears of the Cherokees so you will  not be  bullied harassed  paid very little facing you to look for another  job because where you are its toxic to work in and more don't have the time now but  why would you put in you were America Native to get some cash from the government? Now for Trump if I would have been there I would had told him right now you removed the picture of Andrew Jackson from this wall or I will leave! who was Andrew Jackson 

One summer  day at a  sugar  field  I looked back behind  saw my father put a brown bag on his mouth very hard for me to renumber what my poor parents went through very sick and still had to finished his row. Now  

Thursday, February 13, 2020

2/12/2020 yesterday was my oldest grandson's birthday now long time ago he asked me whenever you see a book by Stephen king buy it for me will I got him Black House he didn't have this book and i am glad because I was just guessing

Tuesday, February 11, 2020

2/11/2020 I just can't keep up one thing leads to another today I had an appointment at Sanford on Broadway as i was waiting to be called I am watching The View  Amy K   MN senator  questioned   about prisoners in MN.  The word Kitchen somehow been in my  mind and i seen it more then once in referent  places.  The nurse  who calls me in  her name is Amy and  as i am walking  out i see the Sanford flag and the Life flag this also repeats with what I had seen and will see   

Sunday, February 9, 2020

2/9/2020 Tonight The Envelope ,please or May I have the Envelope, please.    

Saturday, February 8, 2020

2/8/2020

2/8/2020 I don't remember which movie I checked out first Nowhere Boy or What Happened, Miss Simone but this song  repeats "I put a spell on you." Now both stories are very sad one is about a  black  poor woman growing poor then falling in love with a lighter black man who stops working  to work her off so she becomes his slave has to work be a mother and get bitten no winder she didn't feel free but what  a great voice and what a great piano    

Thursday, February 6, 2020

2/6/2020

Today 2/6/2020 I don't know what I am doing anymore I don't know if I should just stay on one post like  I  used to. I don't know how its looking and I can't keep up  too much to cover. the other way  I just wrote date and continue but I was told this way is better because  the other way I was  getting the readers confused but I  think this is more confusing .

I think it was back in 2014 I was cleaning  Discovery Benefits building and from windows  facing south I could see the Pepsi building I knew there was something about it but the only thing I could remembered was when my mother used to say she didn't like Pepsi soda.  She would say it tasted like  a Chinche at that time I didn't know what was a Chinche so I never asked her why she said that but  when I moved here to North Dakota I finally found out what a Chinche is they're Bed Bug !!  In TX we never had a problem with those kind insect so I really don't know what mother was talking about but I knew the word Pepsi would come up again and again and  Pepsi  it has come up again and again. The movie  about Stave Jobs  who was john Scully ex CEO and now the NFL Football Game. 

Now in TX because of hot weather we do have big problems with Cockroaches and some fly. Colorado also had cockroaches but  never saw them  fly . The last night  we were there a neighbor  and I were talking about it  she was from TX too she had just moved in we were moving out going back to TX. She and I were talking laughing about those  little creatures when her son came in wanted to give me a white rosary necklace  I told  him I didn't need one but he kept insisting his mother told me he ate  red bloody raw meat.

Now  about Steve Wozniak  was  the  foundation and so were the others Stave was the  advance and presentation.     

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

2/5/2020

2/5/2020
What repeats?
2 Corinthians 4:4  = Satan, who is the god of this world,has blinded the minds of those

Tuesday, February 4, 2020

2/4/2020 I kept away because i been busy but months ago I checked out the movie Fracture which took me to the movie  The Number 23. I never knew  Jim Carry did drama movies.

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

1/8/2020 what i wrote on 1/4/2020 was incorrect we were on our way here to North Dakota not to Ohio. now when I was told a book was done by  daughter of movie "Not Without My Daughter" and we were at the Barnes and Noble book store i would asked for it because i wanted to see the cover but the first time  it wasn't  in the store.  

Saturday, January 4, 2020

1/4/2020

 1/4/2020 Welcome to a whole new year and a new decade. now for myself i am loaded with things to write about but for now i am going back to the summer of 1962  when i was 5 going on 6. Its early in the morning night time  dark i don't know the time.My family and i are in a car driving by Munoz Grocery Store which i see on the right side car window riding from west to east . we are riding up north I think its to Ohio. Like most of the time the radio is  playing music and its an  instrumental  song  and i liked it  but i had to wait until now 2020  to know who played that song. Today i called son i asked to hear me hum a bit of the song he got it right a way and told me to look it up on You Tube  The Tres Delinquents and there it was what i wanted to know  but i had to wait until i would  remembered to asked son about the song he was playing at the Mobile home in 1996. Helb Alpert and Tijuana Brass . Lonely Bull is the song and a Taste of Honey is another great song. Tres Delinquents did a great  job with their songs too. All day yesterday i was thinking about a girl i knew  from Alamo TX  her name was Esperanza V.  =  Hope. Last night i asked daughter i am going to watch 20/20 on TV. there i saw the word Hope.